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#ALWAYS thinking about him
brothfan1997 · 2 years
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waiting-so-long · 1 month
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Also still thinking about how
When Simon comes back to you it takes him a while to adjust, walking around the home you share as if he was still a ghost. You’re still asleep, him not making a single noise as he snuck into the house. Still walking toe to heel, avoiding the creaky floorboards out of instinct, not even removing his boots or vest. His mask will be the first to go. But not yet.
Not yet.
Simon doesn’t sit. Doesn’t turn on any lights. Just finding solace in the shadows, familiarizing himself once again to the smell of home. He fills his lungs, greedy and desperate. He can smell the vanilla from the candle you had lit earlier, and the citrus from the dishwasher soap. Comforting and clean. Words and concepts that feel foreign to him now, as he stands with aching bones, greasy hair, and grime caked into his very being.
He finally finds the strength to move. Still being cautious of his steps, his sounds. The mask is laid on the bathroom counter, the rest of his disguise shed to the floor in a jumbled heap. The first glimpse of welcome disorganization. Of humanity.
Once the water has gone from scolding to chilled - once he’s done his best to remove the thick black from his eyes, and washed his hair with your shampoo - your exhausted soldier is drawn to you.
Tomorrow he will stand you in front of him, take in every detail that started to blur while he was away. Tomorrow he will tell you he missed you, he loves you, that he’s thankful to be home. Tomorrow he’ll wake you up with a kiss, and a smile.
Tomorrow he will be your Simon.
But tonight, he is too far gone, too lifeless, too tired to even lift the covers, so Simon crawls to you on top of them, arms hooking under you, his head on your chest. His ribcage was hollow, vacant, until this moment as he listens to the low drumming of your heart. He knows it’s your organ, but he swears it fills his veins just as much as yours, jumpstarts the dormant muscle in his own chest. He counts the beats, feeling himself shift from corpse to man. He counts the amount of times you gently card your fingers through his hair, feeling vaguely guilty for making your shirt damp. He counts your breaths, matching the pattern. He wonders if you know that without you he would just be a machine. He wonders if you know how effortless it is for his body to obey yours, mirroring each breath, each beat.
He wonders if you know that, tomorrow he will be Simon, but tonight, he is just yours.
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planetbkg · 1 year
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thinking about nanami…maybe you’re straddling him while he sits on the couch. kissing turns into something more (it always does) now one hand is between your thighs and the other is on the small of your back, holding you steady on his lap. he does everything so effortlessly.
your brain is fuzzy partly from the way his finger move inside you so perfectly—massaging you in places you can never reach on your own—and partly because of how he keeps his composure in these situations. he’s hard as a rock underneath you, but he doesn’t squirm or try to adjust himself. he’s very much affected by how you’ve been reduced to a whimpering mess, but his face is as serious and concentrated as ever.
“Make me cum,” you whine, petulant and bratty as ever.
“Greedy girl,” he sighs in faux disappointment. “where are your manners?”
you’re a good girl, but what does he expect when he spoils you so?
“Ask again. Nicely this time.”
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theartistonthemoon · 5 days
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ghostradiodylan · 3 months
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Can we just talk about Miles ad-libbing this fucking scene and making it so memorably hilarious vs. what was in the original script?!
Zach Tinker read the intended radio broadcast for Dylan directly from the script on his twitch channel and it went as follows (Miles says they did also feed him the herd/heard of bears line so I’m assuming ‘swarm of bears’ was given to him too):
[into mic awkwardly]
Hi uh…
If anyone can hear us…
We're counselors at Hackett’s Quarry and we're trapped here and some of our friends have gotten hurt in an animal attack and there are hunters and the owner ran off and we're not really sure what's going on, but please send help to Hackett's Quarry! SOS please thank you SOS!
vs. what we got in the final game:
Hello! How’s it going out there? This is—uhh—uh we need help this is—uhh we are counselors at Hackett’s Quarry Summer Camp and there’s been a horrible accident—attack—some stuff’s bad here. We need your help! There is a swarm of bears and they are everywhere! There’s these hunters too, they seem to be shooting at the bears, but also at us? Um, which is not good and a few of our friends are hurt and um we’re in desperate need of help. So, please, I mean there’s vicious bears! And, uh, we don’t know what to do. So please come help us. SOS this is an emergency. Save our ship! Come on down! Please help us!
✨Iconic✨
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edgycarr0t · 1 year
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Who up thinking about Daroach from Kirby: Squeak Squad
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vivisection-gf · 3 months
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every time i eat a food that is known to give people cancer i feel like adam with that stupid cigarette. pouring a bowl of honey bunches of oats like "give me that sweet cancer!!" i cant get that dead twink out of my mind
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azurechicken · 9 months
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Nathaniel not being romanceable in Awakening means nothing to me (or to my Cousland for that matter). It doesn't mean he isn't romanceable at all. Awakening is just the beginning. It's the mutual pinning, the slow burn, the i met my childhood friend and now they are my enemy? They are learning. Learning to live with the tragedy of their families and their intertwined fate. Also learning about each other after such a long time spent apart. And they are casually ending darkspawn after darkspawn while doing so. Shamelessly ogling each other despite the gore. Honorable nobles to unhinged Wardens saving the world from the Blight. Childhood friends to brief enemies to unapologetically flirting colleagues. They will get together, but the narrative will end before they do.
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nandorfucks · 1 year
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thinking about him* yet again
*the djinn from season 4 of what we do in the shadows
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bitchdafuqyousay · 3 months
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lads... I'm thinking about bloodborne. once again im daydreaming n sighing longingly over bloodborne. I am romantically fantasizing abour bloodborne I'm in love with it actually n I am yet again desiring the good hunter in every way possible
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dykedarling · 1 year
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let jon go apeshit 2023
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tigerexe · 4 days
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saavikam were really in it now
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Jake meta? On MY dashboard? More likely than you think. 
Been thinking a lot lately on when and how Jake was most likely formed as an alter. 
Sure, I enjoy the idea of him coming in later. After all, Steven is the first one Marc knows. We get to see when Steven shows up. He was pretty young. He grew up with Steven and doesn’t know Jake. 
I like the idea of Jake coming in during Marc’s early teen years when he starts to have problems with his father. Perhaps when he is sent to a psychiatric hospital or dealing with a bad therapist. Jake is the protector after all. He’d step in to help Marc out with this different type of trauma and pain. 
Or perhaps Jake was formed in the military. Marc had an off day, dissociated during a bad time and needed saving. Or even during the mercenary times during a tight spot. 
But judging from Jake’s gloves showing up in Cairo, the fact that I really think Jake was playing a part in the alps while fighting the village, and Jake’s Jakeness… Jake has been around for a while. He isn’t a ‘new’ alter that was formed during the show’s run. 
I want to propose a different option, just to explore it a little. I don’t know if anyone else has tossed this out there yet, but here it is. 
Jake was formed in the cave. 
DID is caused by intense trauma. Trauma that they could not handle and needed a different way to deal with. A way to protect themselves. 
So let’s look at their unique positions. Marc is a trauma holder. Possibly other positions too, but he holds the most traumatic memories. He remembers going into the cave. He remembers his mother beating him. He remembers bad things in the military/mercenary days. But he also admits that his memory is pretty fractured up. 
We don’t know how much Steven remembers of their childhood or growing up. We don’t know how much of what he remembers is real. We also don’t know if Steven was always active. There’s a good chance Steven went dormant during the military/mercenary years.   
What we do know is that Steven was formed a few years (1 or 2 judging from the birthday scenes) after his brother died. 
Marc was already sensitive. He was already traumatized. He had been belittled and emotionally abused for some time. Steven isn’t formed until Marc breaks down at the dichotomy of a mother he wants and a mother he has that wants to hurt him and needs someone there to take care of him. He needs someone to be hopeful and happy. He is always aware of Steven. He looks to Steven as an emotional protector. Someone to remind him why he lives. 
But what about the trauma that set it all off? The trauma of being in charge of protecting his little brother and failing? The trauma of telling him that it would be alright and then having to watch him die? The trauma of almost dying himself? 
A protector that failed. A protector that lost his only charge. 
Steven is there to guard Marc emotionally. We see this strongest when he breaks down in the street and can’t handle everything that comes with his mother’s death. Steven is there when Marc can’t be. He’s there to guide Marc and comfort him. To protect him when he’s vulnerable. To challenge bad claims and step up when Marc can’t. 
Jake is there to protect Marc. To save him. To save them. To do what Marc could not do in the cave. 
So, what if Jake was the first? What if Marc went into the cave with Roro and Jake came out? Does Marc remember what happened? In the flashback he sees them go in. Then suddenly they are standing in the living room. Marc comes down the stairs dressed up and ready to join the Shiva. He seems unsure of himself but he’s there. And then he’s surprised when it goes bad. When his mother screams at him. Maybe at that point he didn’t really know what happened. He only understood that his brother was gone. His mother is the one that puts a false memory into him that it is all his fault. He can’t remember what happened, after all, so he fills in the gaps and thinks she’s right. 
And Jake is there with the memory of what happened after. Of how Marc almost died too. Of how he got out. Of them pulling his dead brother out. Of Jake swearing he would never fail again. 
So why doesn’t Jake step in when their mother starts to beat them? Why Steven? 
Because what is a little boy going to do against his mother? There is nothing Jake could do. This was Marc’s pain. This was emotional trauma that Steven could help distract Marc from. If it had gone too far, if the body had been too badly broken, there is a chance Jake would have taken over and tried to get them out. 
It’s also possible that since Jake was the first, this is why he can hide so well from Marc. He holds the biggest trauma and he does not talk to Marc. He stays in the back. He doesn’t want to front at this point. He’s the type of alter that just likes to stay in the back unless really needed. And maybe in their teenage years Jake starts to peek out more and more. He becomes highly active in the military/mercenary years because he’s needed. He watches Marc become more and more destructive and he has to start protecting Marc from himself. 
When he failed in the desert and Marc almost died and then almost killed himself, Jake must have taken that very hard. He starts to slip in more often. He can’t just hide anymore. He starts to take missions. He starts to leave out hints of his presence. (See the gloves in episode two). He starts stepping in when Marc goes on a bender of self destruction. Jake will not lose another one, even if he has to protect him from himself. 
He watches Marc and Steven bond and he swears now he will protect them both. 
So when Harrow threatens them, Jake has had enough. He comes back from the Duaat pissed off to high hell and all he can think about is the damn cave. Being locked in the Sarcophagus and HEARING them in the cave. Marc could hear what Steven heard. He remembered as Steven went in and witnessed the flood. You know Jake could too. Trapped in that tight and dark coffin as he heard the screams and water rushing in. 
When Jake comes back, he is emotional. He is pent up. He is rage and refuses to fail. He can’t fail. 
And that’s why the final fight scene looked like a bomb went off. 
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darlingshane · 1 year
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manyfandomsonelog · 1 year
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Ghrgrhgr also. Juno talking about how this is the healthiest he’s ever been and he’s used to himself being the most unhealthy thing for him, and so having something else take that place was a relief for him, and then what also what Juno talked about in What Lies Beyond with being scared of what he’ll do without the Aurinko’s and how he’s worried he’ll lose his progress go back to the old Juno Steel… Juno having no idea what he actually wants in life now that he doesn’t have someone else makign plans for him and he isn’t fueled by self-destruction anymore… grgrgrghrrhgrhrgrgrgrhrghrgrhrgr
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lookingforrainbows · 7 months
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i am never NOT distracted by this face
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and his voice, the way his heart and soul find their way into his songs and bury themselves into our hearts. his lilting laugh, his sparkling blue eyes and those full, plush lips.
the way his lashes fan across his cheeks, his long gorgeous legs, his head of magnificent hair the way he does a million little things ~
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how he scrunches his brow or tilts his head when he sings
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when he bites his bottom lip 🫠
the way he looks so young when he’s lost in a laugh or a moment of pure joy
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i know that we’re all made of a million little things and i love that about everyone
but the way HIS million little things brighten our days or remind us that life is so much more than a shitty day or week!!
the way HIS million little things bring us all together over him in love (and let’s be honest lust 🥵), in community and support of each other.
i feel like i have so much to be grateful to him for and i think he’d love to know that
* love you ‘frens’ *
(which is how i think it sounds when he’s addressing his audience as friends in all of the live recordings from his early years - and it’s adorable) 💕
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