#ANKSO

[anarchist-autistic-dyke]

was in a teams meeting with a bunch of people who had only ever read my name without hearing it. getting called annox, anzo, unsure, ankso, etc. in the span of an hour made me realise you guys probably have no idea how to pronounce it either

it's ann-show. the x makes a "sh" sound in galician

[pseudoanxious-blog]

Čisto normalni

V boju z ankso spoznavam, da z nami ni nič "narobe" oz. v bolezenskem smislu, kot to dojemamo. Strah. Predvsem tisti nekoristni, iracionalni strah, ko bi se zaščitil pred ostalimi svojimi čustvi, seveda tistimi, ki bolijo.

Nekoga ganjenost recimo ne zmede, jaz si jo težko dopustim; ganjenost so solze, stisk v prsih, moški pa ne jokamo in smo strong. We suck it in. Dobesedno. No, ne vsi, čestitke pogumnim, ki si dopustijo čutiti. Ker niso oni jokice ampak zmagovalci, ker si dovolijo občutke.

Strah. Bolj kot razmišljam, bolj vidim, da je to pri meni glavna težava. Do prihoda prvega otroka in svetovne krize 2008 mi je šlo kar po maslu. In takrat se seveda nisem ukvarjal s strahovi, ozirima redko.

Potem pa naenkrat en otrok, kriza, očetov rak, drugi otrok. I didn't sign up for this, bi rekel. V smislu strahov, ki so se pojavili. Najprej o boleznih, smrti, potem pa napačno povezovanje dogajanja, simptomov stiske. In gre vse v maloro.

Fast forward na danes: nimam slabih otroških izkušenj, tistih res dramatičnih, tukaj sem srečnimi, ki se borijo z ankso. Imam pa težave z izražanjem čustev, predvsem žalosti, ganjenosti pa tudi strahu.

Zdravilo: na papirju enostavno, v realnosti malo manj. Najprej "pobrisat" zmotno prepričanje, da je nekaj "narobe" in predvsem "neozdravljivo". Drugo, zmotno razmišljanje od prvega paničnega napaka do prve ure psihoterapije odmislit. Ker je bilo sklepanje v tem času napačno in predvsem posledica ukvarjanja s simptomi.

Tretje, bistveno. Premagovanje strahu. Ne neposredna borba s simptomom, ko te stisne. Razumeti, kaj je bilo pred tem in to premagati. Ponoviti izkušnjo. Prvič je vedno težko, potem vedno lažje in potem strah izgine. Najprej pa razumeti, da prvi strah ob neki izkušnji ni "bolezen", ni "napaka". Je neko prepričanje iz preteklosti. In se lahko spremeni, z vajo, s ponavljanjem. Pri meni se.

In kar je zelo pomembno: ne rabim dvomit v moje telo, da tega ne bi zmoglo. To je proces učenja, za to smo narejeni. V izkušnjo, predelat, počivat, ponovit. To so borbe, vredne truda.

In ja, prav iz strahu pridejo različne "obrambe": jeza, cinizem, zabijanje, negativizem.

Nadaljujem s četrtinko Cipralexa zaenkrat. Potem pa počasi dol, da odmislimo dvome kaj so in kaj niso učinki tablet.

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