#And i feel weird abt visiting my cousin and the family members on my moms side and then my cousins in laws all these ppl i dont know

[copperpieceharlot]

Bud I’m sorry to swing into your inbox uninvited like this but my soul is having an OOTS renaissance thanks to your content in the tag and did you say Leverage AU

haha holy SHIT this got Long. but yes. i’ve been. Thinking. (also literally Never feel like you have to apologize for sending me messages. i was Hoping someone would ask me about this. now i have an Excuse to share EVERYTHING ive written abt it :3)

Obviously, Roy is the leader/brains of the outfit. He grew up having some Strong Opinions abt what’s Legal versus what’s Right due to tragic backstory involving the death of his little brother which was definitely SOMEONE’S fault for negligence but since there technically wasn’t any illegal behavior, there were no consequences for it. Also he’s still angry at his dad bc he thinks his dad is also partly culpable (and also also just a dick). He’s the Moral Backbone of the team (alongside Durkon, more on that later) in basically the same way Nate was in og Leverage. He’s actually not the best at figuring out what people want (that’s Haley and, shockingly, occasionally Elan), but once he has that info, he is the absolute best at figuring out the ideal plan of attack to use in any given case.

Haley is still a thief. I mean she maps to Parker almost PERFECTLY. Her dad was a thief & a conman, her mom wasn’t but knew about it and mostly accepted it, but she died tragically in a mugging gone wrong or smth, which made Ian crank the paranoia WAY up and taught Haley to do the same in the name of “safety”. Let’s keep the “Ian is in Trouble and Haley needs money, Fast” which is why she signs on to the first job in the first place. She’s less acrobatic than Parker, tending towards finding (or making) weak spots in security, but she can still make a tumble check when she needs to.

Elan is the grifter who is somehow an Idiot but also not???? It baffles everyone. When he’s playing a part for a con, he’s FLAWLESS, but then the rest of the time he’s just. No Thoughts Head Empty. He probably gets lured in initially because he’s decided to try his hand at being part of a full team, rather than the two-man cons he’s been running that invariably end w his partner conning him as well and stealing half of his take. Also he likes the idea of being Crime Friends. He’s that tweet where it’s like, Roy: “after the heist is over, we split up and never communicate again” / Elan: [about to unveil his Crime Buddies Forever Friendship Quilt Puppets]: “never?”

Vaarsuvius is the hacker/gadget person. They have a Vaguely Snobby Yet Unidentifiable accent, dyed(?) purple hair (nobody has ever seen their roots) and nobody knows who they “really” are or where they came from, but they’re good at what they do so everyone just accepts the mystery. They probably got suckered into the team by their initial employer (who I’ll get to Eventually, lol) framing it as a challenge to their intellect, like, “oh, I see, you’re not smart enough to make this team work for you...” to which they were like Fucking Watch Me and also melted his computer. Anyways. They are joined (digitally) by their Intrepid Friend And Co-Conspirator (his words, not theirs), a fellow hacker known only as Blackwing, or, on certain forums, Blackwing_Bird. (In the first season, V only occasionally references him when saying they’re “calling in extra help” or smth for a particularly complex hack job. He starts showing up a little more in s2 and eventually by the start of s4 is a regular & established presence, but only appears as actions in a computer interface or output.) Elan is convinced he’s an AI, Belkar doesn’t think he actually exists, Haley pretends she doesn’t think he exists, and Durkon and Roy try not to think about it too hard, as long as B and V still get the job done.

Belkar is the hitter. He is on the team bc their initial employer got him out of jail for it. He doesn’t have a tragic backstory, he just likes doing violent crimes. As the series progresses, he grows some empathy & stuff, but really only for people who actually deserve it. Assholes still get decked. It’s all very touching. (Also he has dwarfism caused by achondroplasia. It doesn’t actually bother him and is useful in fights bc his opponents frequently have no fucking clue how to approach him, but he likes Pretending to take offense at stupid things just to see how far he can go with it.)

Aaaand last but not least, Durkon is the least involved member of the team. He’s actually a career criminal and Roy’s mentor, and wasn’t a member of the initial team that [redacted, I’ll tell you later, PROMISE] put together for a couple of reasons, the main one being that he’s Officially retired in order to spend more time with his family, which consists of his mom, his friend (not girlfriend) Hilgya, baby Kudzu, and a truly stunning number of aunts, uncles, and cousins. Roy frequently calls or visits him for advice and he Occasionally shows up to help out on local jobs, but generally he avoids doing crime if he can (as part of a deal with Hilgya, who is also a career criminal; basically, they’ve both cut back on the crime in order to provide a more stable home environment for Kudzu. But sometimes, you gotta do a little crime, and in those cases, Sigdi enjoys spending time w her grandson.)

NOW. THE BIG REVEAL YOU’VE BEEN WAITING FOR. Who got the team together in the first place?!

The answer: Lord Shojo (or whatever Normal Person Name you want to assign him). Now this is where it gets tricky: he had them do a thing that they thought was good, THEN they thought it was BAD, but then when they confronted him he revealed that it Appearing to be bad was actually a test of character and would they consider working as basically internal investigators for him? But then he had a heart attack, so, rip. But THEN it turned out that he’d left them a bunch of money anyway and they were all feeling kind of Inspired so they formed the Order of the Stick, LLC (which, no, i am not coming up with a new name, actually, because I just don’t care. someone else can come up w a justification for that name, tho, i’m sure it’s possible). Also Miko was there and was unhappy abt their actions, and also their general existence.

Moving on. Villains!

Redcloak is the Sterling replacement, because that DEEPLY amuses me.

Xykon is a season-long main villain, probably one that Redcloak finds himself working for but then “teams up with” (read: blackmails) the Order to bring him down bc even Redcloak finds Xykon distasteful. That’s season 3, let’s say.

Tarquin is another season villain, say season 2. Nale probably shows up pretty early in s1, actually, as another recurring antagonist like Sterling but uh. Less good at it. Anyways the s2 final 3 eps deal with them (accidentally) discovering that Tarquin runs some Evil Empire Company, then trying to outplay him and take him down. Idk if Nale still dies in this version tbh.

Tsukiko is a one-off s1 villain who returns briefly in s4 alongside Miko, who has gone well and truly off the rails.

Season 1 finale has to do w Roy finally getting Vengeance for his little brother.

The vampire squad is the s4 finale villain who do smth terrible to Durkon and then get the Mother Of All Revenge served up to them by the Order.

I envision the show as being 5 seasons (like og Leverage) but I’m not going to sketch out s5 because I think it should be based off whatever happens in the current story arc, possibly involving some legacy of the OotSquiggle.

Other stuff!

The Order of the Squiggle is a legendary criminal team from the 60s who stole a BUNCH of famous shit & then proceeded to legendarily implode. This has no bearing on the plot I’ve sketched out, I just think it’s fun.

The Sapphire Guard members should probably be reworked as FBI. I don’t care about most of them but I do think that Lien and O-Chul could be like, FBI agents who Choose to look the other way while the Order does their very-much-not-legal-but-still-fair Justice Crime, and maybe even help them out on occasion.

So, the Final season-by-season outline, based on everything I’ve written so far:

s1 e1: getting the team together, doing a con for Shojo, then at the end he dies and the gang is like “dang what now?" and intend to split up except then they Don’t.

mid-s1: Nale shows up and tries to trick the Order, but then gets beat like a drum.

late s1: Tsukiko is an underling of the Villain Of The Week, winds up in police custody. But She’ll Be Back.

s1 finale: Roy’s Vengeance: The Vengeaning. also we meet Redcloak as an antagonist.

s2 e1: the truth abt Haley’s father comes out

early s2: The Two Live Crews Job but it’s the Order vs the Linear Guild and the Linear Guild ARE all bad guys.

mid-s2: Redcloak returns. ugh.

late s2: the sapphire guard FBI makes its first appearance, hello O-Chul and Lien.

s2 pre-finale: once again they’re in conflict w Nale over smth, he spends the whole episodes making Cryptic Remarks, they basically beat him (like a drum!) but then the stinger at the end is that Tarquin reveals himself and Elan is like “Dad?!”, roll credits.

s2 finale, part 1: Elan is hanging out w Tarquin bc he’s DEEP in Denial, the Rest of the team tries to take Tarquin down, but it doesn’t work.

s2 finale, part 2: Elan finally gets a clue and they manage to beat Tarquin. still haven’t decided if Nale dies or not, but I’m leaning towards yes. also they rescue Haley’s dad.

s3 e1: fuck dude idk.

early s3: Redcloak shows up, AGAIN, everyone groans. he has blackmail on them, he wants them to take Xykon down.

mid s3: The Rashomon Job but it’s about stealing the Talisman of Dorukan and it turns out that Nale was there too (“oh!” Elan says. “I was wondering why I looked so weird in all those mirrors! But it wasn’t my reflection, it was Nale’s!” “Sweetie, that wasn’t Nale’s reflection,” says Haley. “Huh,” says Elan, “so the mirrors were broken?”, cue eye rolling from everyone else.), and the Successful thief was Hilgya, who’d nabbed it from the owner before it even went on display.

s3 finale: they beat Xykon, actually factually, because he deserves to get his ass Thoroughly kicked, even if only in AU form. Lien and O-Chul are there, so are some other less helpful FBI people. There’s a bit where O-Chul Exact Wordses his way out of telling his superiors about the Order’s less legal activities without technically lying. King shit.

s4 e1: doesn’t really matter. maybe smth to do w some legacy of Tarquin’s company to set up the drama w Malack & Durkon later.

early s4: Durkon gets SENT TO PRISON. Malack approaches the Order abt this because sure they have Different Ethics but they’re still Friends. (Roy is surprised and a little hurt that he’s never heard of Malack, but he ignores that in favor of Let’s Get Whatever Fuckers Did This To Our Friend.)

immediately after that: Miko and Tsukiko return as a Team, preventing the Order from working on the Durkon situation

mid s4: Redcloak makes another unexpected & unwelcome appearance but he’s maybe a little less of a dick? the Order collaborates with Malack & his Crime Buddies (hello, Vector Legion) to pull one over on him tho, because “less of a dick” does not mean “a pleasant or decent person”, and also he was mean abt Durkon being in jail, so he totally deserved it. he still gets whatever he wanted tho, just takes a blow to his pride. also prevents the Order from helping Durkon. they’re having a LOT of setbacks wonder why that could be, not to make sure the season fills its whole length or anything, no sirree

s4 finale: something something taking down the organization, headed by Hel (yes that’s her real name), which framed Durkon for their Big Crime. Durkon goes free and Extra Firmly retires, For Good, He Swears, but says he “met someone new” who might be an asset.

s5 e1: minrah joins the team! and the episode is set in like, somewhere really snowy. that’s all i got.

the rest of s5: don’t know, don’t care, it’s open-ended until the comic finishes up.

[sly-merlin]

Hi, my boyfriend's family invited me to dinner. And well, his mom/ everyone kept adding food to my plate and asked me whether my family didn't feed me. (I'm thin) And finally gave me something to drink. His entire family stared at me as I ate, and everyone insisted that i try everything. And made me play a song game, and everyone sang at the top of their lungs. my bf and his uncle got into a screaming match about who won, for an hour and then they hugged it out. And acted like they were best friends. Like. I'm weirded out. My bf made me touch everyone's feet, and they kept touching my head, i was so confused. Like what was that all about? And when I told Rish, my bf, he told me its rude not to touch their feet.( But I got a back ache after that). Also, is it normal for Punjabis to give gifts to their son's gf? Like I got three of them. I'm so confused. Should I have gone with gifts? I went with a bouquet. I kinda feel embarrassed and weirded out. The whole experience made feel uber weird. I like my bf, and his family seems to like me, but they sort of have like no boundaries. Ppl kept hitting my back, and asking me a million questions. I'm feeling overwhelmed. Can you advise me? - Anon with punjabi boyfriend

Hey!!!

Summary: THEY LIKE YOU A LOT!

Don't you eat anything? That's a south asian mom question. Kid is overweight/underweight/perfectly healthy - you'd be asked this question if you aren't living with the family all the time. If they don't ask you, they don't love you. Simple formula. They adore you and since you were visiting after so much time, no matter how you looked, for family members you are always THIN😂since you aren't used to eating Punjabi food, they were just making sure you liked it and tasted everything. So next time don't hesitate to tell them if you don't like a certain food. They'd just take it away.

We Punjabis are naturally loud. Like LOUD. There are exceptions of course but in parties etc it just HAPPENS. and you only witnessed a screaming match. They'd have cursed each other(maybe you didn't understand those bt i can bet there was a shower of affectionate curses) it's normal. Indians value family too much so that's y it's like this. My father wakes me up with curses and thats totally fine bcs it's AFFECTIONATE. Hugs solve everything so why not just fight passionately. You were there too so your boyfriend didn't want to lose and you were there so his uncle didn't want to lose either!! Impressions are important!!

Don't refuse gifts. Take everything they give you. The ones you didn't accept would eventually end up in your house😂😂so why not take them when they are being given! On first visits, we always give guests some money. You are going to be part of their family(let's assume safely. May god bless you both) so it was only right that they gave you something. This is how it works.

It's not abt boundaries actually. There are certain ways of showing affection and wt they did is wt we face here in daily routine. Patting your back is a way of their telling "stay happy forever" "may you never face any problems in your life" "you were great today" "we loved meeting you" and such. It depends on context.

Abt touching feet. It's a tradition in hindu families, as far as I know. I'm a sikh Punjabi and my mother has taught me to never touch anyone's feet bcs "daughters shouldn't be touching other's feet" but my male cousins do touch feet. Maybe in rish's family it's a tradition but you shud let him know if you feel uncomfortable bt it's a sensitive matter of tradition so talk this out carefully. It depends upon how he Takes it. I really don't know abt this bcs my father never lets me touch his feet or anyone's for that matter.

Whatever you r feeling is fine. Calm down. You will get used to all this. with time, you'll be able to differentiate between their love and hate langauge. Someday just think abt their actions and how they made you feel and the specific parts that you think you can't bear. I'm sure they'll understand. It's a two way thing so maybe show them your way of doing things as well.🙂

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a list of my entirely way too niche headcanons ive actually implemented for everyones imagination:

name options ive used and refuse to retire: david elizabeth strider (sometimes i dont feel like being a douche to others and saying thats not his name), harley davidson strider, and david james strider for the sake of simplicity

im not gonna tell yall the like. oc exes ive given him bc thatll take eighteen years. 

i dont rlly have an explanation on the ghost thing besides the fact he just can? ive occasionally pulled from family ghost stories and experiences bc i somehow got landed with family members who lived in a haunted house for a decade and enjoy scaring me with all the stories (including the time my cousin literally died on the kitchen floor from a bronchial spasm and one of the friends that was over asked my aunt later what was up with the old man she saw in the corner of the room that night - my cousin is fine btw shes just a huge bitch and a third grade teacher and i dont like her)

whether or not hes done drugs is based on absolutely nothing besides how im feeling in that moment. either hes the designated driver and sober friend forever or he got fired from his job after doing a line at work during graveyard with some random customers theres no inbetween (this absolutely happened @ waho. if dave works at waho hes a mess of a person and thats on the diner itself.)

ok look i hc dave w/schizophrenia besides when i was 14 i had a hyperfixation with learning about it and then at 16 was prescribed a medication and had side effects so wack my therapist genuinely thought 14 yr old me was onto something and its a weird way to cope with the idea that lady put in my head that i might “develop it in my twenties” which i turn 20 this year and i havent been able to stop obsessing and panicking over the prospect so PLEASE dont come in my inbox calling me ableist im not out here all harley quinn in suicide squad with the voices ok hes medicated, he goes to therapy, the hard fast delusion that lil cal was nearly sentient and informed bro of every single thing dave did no matter how asinine it was is no longer a debilitatingly affecting him ANYWAYS

i actually use the chicken/egg farming family pretty often just because its hilarious to me to give dave like. an actual mom and dad. hes literally an uncle to like three different kids he just never visits because they make fun of his skinny jeans and he hates one of his (incredibly bare-bones ocs all of them) brothers who threatened to bash his head in with a little league bat after dave broke his star wars lego set apart on accident (but not rlly) so their parents were like “why dont you stay with your brother in the big city for a lil while champ” and then they just never picked him back up? and thats on favoritism 

the other one is that his name is actually david reed and hes the middle child of a family of three who literally live the standard golden retriever white middle class life only they went to disney land or something equally as dumb one year when dave was like 6 and he wandered off so bro literally just went “huh free game” because frankly he was an idiot who thought maybe i should take this kid home because its real dangerous in parking lots and then it was too late to NOT have it seem like a kidnapping and thats why daves never had a summer job, seen his birth certificate, or gone to school. but vaguely remembers what kindergarten was like and having a pet dog and calling someone mom as a kid. 

im not making a bullet point about his sex life headcanons just use your imagination and acknowledge the fact bro essentially worked within the sex industry and i enjoy putting dave through trauma as a catharsis 

i stopped doing this one usually but if he did go to school hes been in percussion since fifth grade and played the drums in his high schools jazz band as well as various edgy teenager garage bands he likes to pretend dont have a youtube presence and that hes absolutely never been shirtless in front of plenty of his classmates because he wore a hoodie to a show like an idiot. idk occasionally ill put him in an actual band he doesnt hate but keeps separate from his lil turntechGodhead internet persona (which i will ALSO touch upon in a sec) until they wind up getting looped into a tour with some bigger named band that has a show in *insert beta kid here*’s city and hes gotta come clean solely so he can visit his online friend. sorry derseasterous thats the one time weve ever run into each other and i made him have a crush on one of his bandmates i was in my anti-daverose phase where i made dave a hoe and also didnt want to admit i still loved the ship all these years later 

i hate it so much but you know the whole vr loli trap voice shit that was popular a while ago? hes fucking baller at it for some reason. he did it as a joke while talking to bro and they both about shat their pants. if im feeling real ambitious, hes got a separate soundcloud solely dedicated to doing dumbass rap covers or making his own but in the voice under the pseudonym elizabeth “beth” davids that he will never admit is his. well, he will, but hes gonna be really fucking embarrassed about it. irony or not.

talking abt seperate soundclouds and stuff ive always had it where turntechGodhead was his like. essentially internet fucking persona facade shit he used because we all had that phase where we wanted memorable urls and stuff but also didnt want to totally ignore the nagging fear of people finding you in real life, until it turned into real life ppl finding you on the internet. so he also has basically an adjacent set of social media under the same name but its just a boring username i havent decided on so everyone he knows irl doesnt mix up with what hes made for himself as TG and the people he knows as TG dont know what highschool he goes to. (this occasionally comes with the territory of ppl on parp being pissed that daves “lying” or “hiding things” from his friends as if he was doing it out of spite instead of just keeping embarrassing tagged photos and videos from football games or when he ate shit at the skatepark from fucking with his “rap career”)

every once in a while i get on a kick where hes just german. like, i just replace houston texas with hamburg germany and have him apply to a university in whatever state is applicable for whoever im chatting with and it goes from there? sometimes he moved when he was little and went through the whole visa thing, sometimes he didnt go through the visa thing, sometimes hes a dual citizen because of family and shit, its all dependent on what suits the situation best. 

one that ive been fucking with for a while but hardly break out (until recently with like 5 roses in the span of one day hell yeah) is that he has a neighbor at the end of the hall who is like a thousand year old witch lady that hes basically adopted as his mother figure in lieu of not having one and shes totally cool with it, especially bc when she kicks the bucket she fully plans on giving dave all her occult stuff so her figure-skating coach and realtor daughter doesnt sell it at a garage sale and lets it all go to waste. she also once brought rose up by name in a conversation without any prompting of her existence which dave didnt realize for days, and then one time cryptically stopped and stared at an empty space in the wall, went “she has potential, you know.” then looked at him sitting on her kitchen counter with a smile “lots of it” and hes thought about that weekly ever since. (it is important to note one of the occult items he leaves her is literally her own personal book of shadows shes been filling out for decades its like a 600 page leatherbound book dave has no idea what its used for but the sheer amount of homemade spells and etc in it is like. gonna murder rose the second this chick gets her hands on it i promise you.)

theres the standard strife shit? im not rlly gonna get into those theyre all basically cookie cutter bullshit. its just standard bro and dave abuse talk. i like to inclulde the whole 24hr live cam up in the apartment that definitely watches dave in every room besides his own and the bathroom, but that quickly delves into the prospect of middle-aged men stalking him online and basically sexually harassing him in his own god damn home by talking about how they can see him just trying to take his shoes off in the living room after getting home and frankly? its not one of my best takes! but once you throw it into the headcanon bin, its there forever. 

he actually really does do something with his photography but not enough to warrant anything exciting, but he has his own branding for it and regularly takes pictures of his friends or anything else he thinks is moderately interesting enough to take pictures of, but those are just thrown into shoeboxes under his bed in favor of posting genuine shots because he wants to keep his image intact and blurry photos of jade smiling in the tree they climbed up together while bec paws at the base of it while whining isnt exactly something he wants the whole world to see.

i also pretty often but him into either paleontology OR i put him down as trying to become a mortician because he thinks handing roadkill once he graduated from museum giftshop specimens to doing his own taxidermy on the side has prepared him enough to perform an occasional autopsy and start embalming real human corpses. (sometimes i put my own desires in and make them his bc i have to project at some point and put him through the same EMT course i dropped out of bc it was one semester and he already has pretty decent first aid skills, but he definitely didnt expect it to be as fucking wild at times as it is, but whats he gonna do? get a job back at waffle house? the company hes working for just offered to pay like half his associates in paramedicine tuition and hes already got all his pre-recs done when he started for paleo. at least its a stable job and hes got the ability to be compassionate in the moment) 

im running out of things that ive done to the poor kid. OH 

hes not a virgin he had a girlfriend all four years of high school (shes also one of his optional and designated exes plz keep up) and their relationship ends in one of two ways: she dies in a car accident a week before their high school graduation, or she stops talking to him entirely a week after their high school graduation until a couple years later she gets into (guess what) a car accident with her current wife/girlfriend and dies which leaves behind their daughter. who just so happens to also be daves daughter. her name is hannah and i love her like my own but no one ever likes her and thats on the conditioning of dirk. does dave end up taking her in? yes. shes awesome and the first time he takes her to the park to like run off some fucking steam she disappears for two minutes and dave is moderately terrified until she comes back holding a dead baby squirrel and thats the moment he realizes huh maybe things really do be genetic.

ok at the bottom of the list im gonna add the couple of times hes been a camboy which usually coincides with the live apartment cam thing and the amount of people in his dms calling him hot or whatever, but typically its more of a started the day he turned 18 and basically dipped around 20 in favor of showing up randomly with no warning to complain about a video game dick in hand because it gives him an outlet that wont annoy his friends bc this is the fifteenth time hes had a lot to say this week about a certain boss battle and also the comments fuel his ego and daddy issues.

the last one wasnt the bottom but literally unless its explicitly proven otherwise every time anyone rps with me there is the underlying fact dave strider was a goalie on his high school lacrosse teams all four years and (shocker another one) definitely had the hots for one of his teammates like major hots like first gay experience hots. like it was painfully obvious that teammate also liked him back hots. like one night at a team sleepover one of the other guys was like can yall just makeout and get it over with were fucking tired and dave really had the balls to be offended and ask what the fuck they were talking about while literally sitting halfway in the mans lap bc for some reason they had to share the same chair. 

he is also guilty until proven innocent of being the worlds biggest loner outside of that sports team and even though hes literally a jock he still opts to eat his lunch alone in the hallway or something like that and has a tendency to leave girls on read, but bc hes got an in with the rest of the jocks hes basically drug around to plenty of parties and since hes conventionally attractive enough and popular in the aloof way that he is, hes got plenty of tagged insta posts and twitter directs and snapchat streaks going. 

THESE WERE ALL NO GAME AND DONT INVOLVE SHIPS BC I LIKE TO KEEP MY OPTIONS OPEN AND THEYRE LITERALLY ALL BASED OFF RPS IVE DONE I HOPE YALL JUDGE ME ACCORDINGLY

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paranoia/mental illness/disturbing tw.. related to the post i made on my main blog

So im about to drive up to see my mama for hanukkah, alone as i do each yr. redacted THING happened a few summers ago but essentially bc of it she believes ppl from [Japanese automobile corporation] tried to m*rder her on the job nd now cant keep a job or a place to live so she lives w my baba . i havent talked to her in a year for reasons i will explain ...so we r texting abt my travel plan, cooking plan, talking for the first time all yr besides birthday wishes n stuff, shes talking normally, we say our goodbyes/cantwaittoseeyous. bht 12ish hours later she sends me, un-explained with no preface, a cryptic list of what i slowly figure out are license plate numbers out of nowhere n says ppl are trying to run her over n cackling (this is not new.. just i havent had to deal w it all year and i was hoping she could let it go for just a few days....), i ask if she has gotten to a safe place and ofc she says shit like 'well unfortunately natasha i will never be safe. they follow me at all moments and one day you will read abt ur mother having been killed, etc etc.' like omg i just cant talk to u. At all. Anymore. can i not have one day.. without this... please g*d... she cant be around ANYONE bc she thinks they are all working w [car company] conspiring to m*rder, slander, whatever her.. shes lost 12 jobs in the past 4 years. everytime we go out in public she screams at people for even glancing at her/smiling at her and claims they were [doing some weird threatening thing they certainly werent ? .. like sometimes ppl with certain names or wearing A CERTAIN COLOR is enough to be a SIGN and she loses it and starts telling them loudly to fuck off and stop looking at her.... my non-hallucinating brain as a witness] and im mildly concerned someone WILL kill her in retaliation for her being insane in their face.. (she had some guy start yelling back at her and she recorded it as 'proof'. He was clearly very annoyed at her saying terrible accusations at him when he was trying to mind his fucking business.....it was indescribably scary but like can i blame him? she was being highly inappropriate publically.. SHE was prob scaring HIM. she scares me lmao) like she has been so mild mannered and rational her whole life.. she has a degree in chemistry and a literal genius IQ. its like watching a loving animal slowly go violently rabid. It Sucks

last year she finally accused ME of also being paid off/threatened by [company] to conspire against her JUST bc i went to visit her older brothers family (my aunt n cousins who are the family members ive been closest to our whole lives aside from my mother nd baba) w my bf at the time bc i wanted him to meet my non-insane family members..... JUST FOR VISITING MY OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS BC THEY ARE EXPECTING ME TO VISIT N THEY LOVE ME ? Like they love my mom too but multiple years of being accused of being bought off, or [company] threatening to m*rder my cousins (she always says the most brutal and disturbingly specific details too) if they didnt do whatever thing would intimidate my mom, [in this case purchasing the most affordable reliable new family car they could from [company] ..it WAS right after she told them about her initial event but likethey needed a new car and her claims are literally delusional. i rly dont want to disown my other family for that but its a hard decision.. terrible situation], but being accused to conspire to m*rder her gets tiring so they gave up a while ago. when she accused ME even tho i have been the literal last person to stand by her for the past 4.5 years.. i never made her feel like her claims were impossible even when literally everyone else did bc i figured she needed a buoy.. i said fuck it i can't talk to you anymore. i will start going insane too . we have all tried to comfortingly reason w her (well i didnt for a while, i just wholly accepted her story without trying to reason with her INSANE JUMPS IN CORRELATION.. fully bizarre and delusional.. bc i wanted to support her), i spent so much more money getting a less reliable car just to avoid buying from [company], supported her contacting the authorities (obviously they can't help bc she is making insane claims), make her feel as safe n protected.. did as much as we possibly could but like... theres a limit. this is year 4.5 of this, every day, every hour. EVERY year she says well the dirt on [company] will get out this year.. youll see.. ill be validated (essentially). she went to inpatient treatment and she said they accused her of having barbituates in her system when she arrived (what) nd the only diagnosis they gave her was 'rule out paranoid delusion' (bro come on... she thinks EVERYONE is trying to k*ll her.. help) so she wont get any more help. i want to at least try and save my baba bc she is old and puts up w this every single day. but on top of having my own problems, by saving my baba id be damning my mother, or myself. i never know what to do....

but well anyways i love driving hours into a fucking hornets nest each year. at least there are latkes ig

[flywithweightlesssouls]

End of Year Meme

First things first, did you have a good year? No, I would say it’s been a sad year, I lost two dear family members in a short time and life has been weird and a bit all over the place

How old did you turn this year? 27

Do you feel your age? Yes

Did your appearance change in anyway? Yes, I finally started dieting seriously and I’ve been going to the gym three times a week. I have now lost 12kg and gained a little muscle too. So this is definitely a positive change

Post your favorite selfie. Hell to the NO. I don’t do selfies, I don’t post myself on social media like ever and also I don’t like my face 

If you traveled, where did you go? I traveled quite a lot, took loads of planes both for work and privately, I would say the highlights were Matera and Vienna this year.

Which fashion trends did you love? I don’t do fashion lol

Which fashion trends did you hate? See answer above

What was your favorite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible? idk I bought a turtleneck that I like lmao I sound so stupid I really don’t fucking care abt fashion and clothing in general

What song sums up this year for you? I would say Take Me Away by Avril Lavigne

What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then? This year has not been exciting musically for me, so I’m very much fixated on older music rather than exploring new stuff...

What was your favorite movie of the year? I saw Knives Out last weekend and really enjoyed it

Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year? *mind empty*

Favorite new TV show? Haven’t really watched any TV shows properly this year, only GoT which was also kinda disappointing 

Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears? None lol ain’t nobody got time for that shit. Current fandoms are enough

What food did you try for the first time? I’ve been to two michelin star restaurants which were a-ma-zing.

Did you make any big permanent changes this year? I have changed role at my job this month, switched from marketing to sales. It’s been interesting so far.

What was one nice thing you did for someone else? I was there for my aunt uncle and cousin when they lost both their mom and dad in a short time 

What was one nice thing you did for yourself? Dieting and gym. I feel much better

Did you develop a new obsession? I wouldn’t call it an obsession but I really enjoy going to the gym which I would have NEVER guessed 4 months ago when my main physical activity was walking from the parking lot to the building where I work.

Did you vote? Nope

Did you move? Nope

Did you get a job? I changed role, same company

Did you get a pet? Nope

Do you regret not doing anything? Yes, I wish I visited more my relatives that passed away. I miss them 

Do you regret doing something? I can’t think of anything so I guess it’s a good sign

Have you done anything that scared you? No

Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days? No

Did you lose anyone close to you? Yes :( 

Did you fall in love? Still have to figure this one out

Did you fall out of love? No

Did you start a new relationship? Kinda

Did you go through a break up? No

Did you have to cut ties to someone? No

Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year? There haven’t been big changes in personal relationships  

Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year? Same as 35.

If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it? Yes

What was the best moment of the year for you? I can’t really think of a highlight tbh God this is so pathetic lmao why did I start this????

What was the worst? Losing my aunt and uncle

Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t? No

Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did? No

What are you most proud of accomplishing? The 12kg weight loss 

What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior? That I can be focused and I enjoy staying in shape

Did your opinion of anyone change for the better? Nah I don’t think so.

Did your opinion of anyone change for worse? Yes

If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year? If I did any I don’t remember it lmao so idk if I completed anything

If you make resolutions, what will your resolutions be for the coming year? I guess gaining muscles, getting a fucking raise which is MUCH needed and reaching a turning point in my “love life”

If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do?  Who would you go this? I would go on the alps in a luxurious hotel and ski and eat well and stay at the spa for hours and i’d do it with my family and friends

What do you wish for others for the coming year? Health

What do you wish for yourself? Self-fulfillment 

[bienmoreau]

I was tagged by @andrewminyarrr IDk if you meant for me to do both the games but that’s what I did…

RULES: tag 9 people you want to get to know better

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single FAVOURITE COLOUR: blue or bright yellow LIPSTICK OR CHAPSTICK: lip balm LAST SONG I LISTENED TO: Can You Hold Me - NF LAST MOVIE I WATCHED: Guardians of the Galaxy 2 TOP 3 TV SHOWS: Letterkenny, Black Books and Baccano TOP 3 CHARACTERS: Jean Moraeu, Jeremy Knox and Wylan Van Eck TOP 3 SHIPS: Jerejean, Wylan/Jesper/Kuwei and lailalvarez BOOKS I’M CURRENTLY READING: just(ish) finished Timekeeper (READ IT) and now gonna read Our Dark Duet

rules - you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 (ish) people.
 THE LAST 1. drink: Tea 2. phone call: The vet 3. text message: to Libby about parrots 4. song you listened to: Can you hold me. 5. time you cried: ummm last week sometime cause of stress abt my dog.
6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: lol yeah (Where’s question 8?) 9. lost someone special: yes. 10. been depressed: well damn ain’t that the question 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: yeh but not for a long time.

3 favourite colours 12. All the blues 13. Yellows 14. Dark dark red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: irl. No. only lost them. On here yes absolutely. 16. fallen out of love: haven’t been in love in years fam. 17. laughed until you cried: oh heck yeh 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeaup. 19. met someone who changed you: I don’t think so. But again I’ve been changed more by people I lost this year 20. found out who your friends are: my who now? (Like people on here tho then hell yeh) 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: not in the last year no

GENERAL 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all but 1 23. do you have any pets: a dog and 2 cats 24. do you want to change your name: nope. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: had a big meal with a bunch of my family members (siblings and my nephews and my cousins and their partners and my parents) 26. what time did you wake up: 7:20 and then 9:15. 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: drinking tea and catching up with so v old friend who just got back from traveling 28. name something you can’t wait for: MEETING LIBBY! OMG! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: bang on a week ago (Where’s question 30?) 31. what are you listening to right now: my brother practice a song for the band he plays piano in. 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: unfortunately 33. something that is getting on your nerves: fandom and people being rude/nasty generally 34. most visited website: This feckin hell site 35. hair colour: mouse brown 36. long or short hair: middleish but I’m contemplating cutting it up to me ears/chin 37. do you have a crush on someone: nope. 38. what do you like about yourself: my practicality 39. piercings: used to have my ears done but they healed up 40. blood type: not a clue my dude 41. nickname: idk. Haze or H sometimes? 42. relationship status: hasn’t changed from the last time this asked. 43. zodiac: Gemini 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: Letterkenny atm. 46. tattoos: no but I think I want two. 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: nope. 49. piercing: see as above. 50. sport: horse riding, swimming, skiing and kayaking 51. vacation: was at Glastonbury Festival a couple weeks ago 52. pair of trainers: ?? My diy galaxy converse?

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: just had spinach soup 54. drinking: tea. 55. i’m about to: go rewatch Bacano with my bro 56. waiting for: not much 57. want: to feel passionate abt something again 58. get married: sure, someday, hopefully 59. career: don’t know yet but hopefully something in New Zealand

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: HUGS 61. lips or eyes: Eyes 62. shorter or taller: don’t think I really mind but it’s not hard to be taller than me 63. older or younger: same or maybe a little older? Not sure I mind as long at its close tho
64. nice arms or nice stomach: Stomach I think. 65. hook up or relationship: relationship. 66. troublemaker or hesitant: middle ground

HAVE YOU EVER: 67. kissed a stranger: yes 68. drank hard liquor: yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: dont wear them 70. turned someone down: yup 71. sex on the first date: need to have had a date for that. 72. broken someone’s heart: doubt it. 73. had your heart broken: not in a romantic sense 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: uhh- yeh. 76. fallen for a friend: not properly but I’ve entertained the idea before

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 77. yourself: most of the time 78. miracles: no 79. love at first sight: not really no. 80. santa claus: no 81. kiss on the first date: weird question. And like? Who am I say what’s cool in this hypothetical situation? 82. angels: no

OTHER: 83. current best friend’s name: would need a best friend for that 84. eye colour: Hazel 85. favorite movie: not sure.

And I'ma tag @kaisrchiefs @wesawbears @faintlyglow @cecilyacat @sourpastels and @punkbrenderesa (I miss you bro)