#BUT IIII DONT CARE-

[bluefiz]

It’s TIIIIIIIIIMMEEEEEEEEEE🎄🎊

[mikuhats]

i dont think dick grayson should have a college degree i think its funny that hes a college drop out pre crisis and post crisis . And i think it should've stayed that way .

[nomairuins]

like sry i was literally an autistic child whos Biggest special interest was hp for Years. and then i found out abt her being a terf and i realized how much shitty ideology Literally was in the books (all the shit with that journalist and like. the names of the characters of color being ... that. and the house elves. And the shit eith lupin. And) and it soured the entire thing 4 me. i have genuinely no sympathy 4 ppl who r like wahhh but i have autismmmmm andd umm i liked harry potter when i was a kid so you cant take it from me >< like damn if u cant survive on this planet without your racist transphobic childrens books Maybe you should just die.

[llegato]

hysteric birthday could have been so good it makes me want to kill myself

[homingpigecns]

people who dont have siblings dont understand having siblings. as the youngest in my family my siblings emotionally traumatized me until i finished middle school became weird acquaintance sort of strangers while i was in high school and now that we are all adults were literally besties. like literally not everybody is eldest daughter syndrome codependent whatever stop overgeneralizing. some of us are succession

[lawtistic]

a LOT of my mutuals or people i follow spam a lot (not a diss i do this too) and i have to intricately decide which specific post that i am going to like so that they know im still alive but im also not monster liking all of their posts 

which is a normal thing to do im just autistic and experiencing an anxiety spike

[lemonbreelnd]

BAYYYYBYYYYY why don't you come ooooooover RED WINE SUPERNOOOOVA falling into me e e

[nomaishuttle]

got 2 the end of the glass desert got caseys last starmail screammsss

[finley-theal1en]

Its Christmas

Yay???

I dont exactly celebrate Christmas what do i do now

[2000iqkilljoydetective]

local guy too afraid to reblog posts of a blog that he has on notifs for even though he turned on notifs For A Reason because he likes said content more at ten

[komakomacora]

Walks in and plays Christmas music

[princessbrunette]

Do you remember the hammock outside the chateau where john b was lying down in episode 1? Him and reader lying down beside eachother while he stuffs her with his fingers😵‍💫 it's out in the open and anyone could see but johnbees fingers just feel too good to stop😞

🍡🤍🪽୭

his leg is looped around yours keeping your thighs pinned open and there’s a grin on his face— like he knew what he was doing was bad, but he just couldn’t help himself.

“john—john b—” you’re breathless as his fingers punch pornographic sounds out of you, your bikini bottoms pulled fully to the side.

“who? yeah i… dont know who that is.” he tilts his head with faux confusion, brows frowned but his smug smile still remaining.

“daddy— daddy someone’s gonna see. anyone could see!” you correct yourself and he plants a reassuring kiss to your temple, his thumb smoothing over your clit to soothe you.

“no one is going to see, okay?” his voice rumbles warmly against where you’re laying on his chest and you clench around his knuckles, jaw dropping with a shuddered whimper. “this is my house, right? aaaall this space out here is mine to use. if i wanna fuck you in my hammock, guess what. i can do just that, and there’s not a soul around to stop me.” he sarks, spare hand coming to squeeze at your tit, pulling the triangle of your bikini top aside only exposing you further.

“daddy!” you cry out in fear, knowing how the pogues were no stranger to impromptu drop-ins. if they were to arrive now, john b was fully clothed — it would be you on full display.

“easy, puppy. not listening to me.” he brings a sterner edge to his voice and you instantly force yourself to behave— trying your best to relax against his chest and let him please you. “th’atta girl. just focus on my fingers, yeah? should be easy for you, bubba.”

you melt, and soon you’re trembling hard — feeling yourself coming up on an orgasm. john b smiles down proudly at you, continuing to work you over. “i know, iiii know. feels just right, doesn’t it? you can cum, sweetheart. whenever you like.” his comforting tone drives you over the edge, moaning out into the open land, not knowing who could be near by. in the moment, you didn’t care.

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[serenequeenofeverything]

What your teams of lights wants you to know? A self tarot reading.

Group i, ii, iiii, iv

But before we move on onto the reading, i want you to understand what teams of light is.

Now I won't go into details, but if you want a separate post on this, let me know in the replies. I would be more than happy to teach you more.

This is a direct quote from Laura lynne Jackson, the author of "signs: the secret language of the universe" :

" We all have a Team of Light on the Other Side. These teams send us signs.

These signs come from three distinct forces:

1. We receive signs from God energy, which is what I mean when I say signs from the universe. This is the highest and most powerful source of love, and we are each directly connected to it, and also to one another through it.

2. We receive signs from our spirit guides / the angelic realm.

3. We receive signs from our loved ones who have crossed."

Now here is the thing, you don't need me to deliver these messages to you. You receive them yourself everyday, but you might simply dismiss it. Im here to tell you what you already probably know but also probably choose to ignore or not pay much attention to.

Now shall we begin?

Just breath in and out. Let's begin.

Group i

You are not stuck as u like to think. You know your way out of this thing (a good majority of you already made it out of this situation) tbh i mostly see a relationship but it could also totally be something related to finances and just money in general.

Here is what you need to hear tho, whoever and whatever this situation was, you will do so much better without them. You are more than capable of handling this alone. And ur teams of light are more than willing to help you, to make this easier for you. So ask for help, but within not from the outside. U have so much within urself that the world outside is nothing but a failed attempt to reflect what you already have.

This song came in so strong, listen to it.

Group ii

Very similar message to group i, kinda the same theme but while theirs revolved around trusting the self, and working through their situation alone, yours is more about collaborating with others to solve this. Now i know this may have failed for you before, but this time try differently, maybe with a different person (s).

Ur luck is about to be better but here's what i (and you teams of light) need you to do, 1. Have stronger boundaries 2. Dont get emotionally attached to these people (person) this is business, not friendship. 3. Just this time try, i promise it will go better.

Group iii

Honestly this is the group that i feel most horrible for. This group seems to be going through a lot financially speaking, some of you might even be on the verge of going homeless. Listen up my babe, you know your situation better than i do, u actually know way too well that bad your situation is or can potentially become, and it's stressing you out beyond measures.

Your teams of light is clearly saying "go there" "go back", it's something about relying on another person or maybe even the government, maybe a shelter or a father figure (I definitely see a dad) to help you in this. This is the best thing to do. Trust me, this time reach out for your own sake and safety.

Group iv

Wow and here I thought only group iii situation was bad. um.. so do u struggle with some sort of addiction? Or do you feel like you are in a home or a situation that's crumbling to the group but u r stuck and you cannot get out? If that's not you then this is not your group(altho i still suggest u read the advice section in case it might somehow be exactly what u need to hear).

Okay, if you know this is your group, then let me tell you that there's a way out. Something will come up, idk what it is but it will be big. Most probably a guy will come in, they will offer you something, an idea maybe? (Altho be fucking careful, this whole situation is very effy). I genuinely dont know what's happening... like legit this group confuses the fuck out of me, so idk if u should take this offer... dont get desperate and i know u r desperate but it's almost like the cards are telling me to tell you to not trust this person but to use their idea. Almost like listen to their advice and take their advice but not with them in the plan..

Im gonna give u an example so u understand; you live in an abusive household, and u wanna escape it. But u cannot find the way out, then boom this guy comes in and is like I'll help you but long term if u go with them u will end up in a very bad situation. But here's another way to do it, this person tells u how they will help you, like their plan to get u out, what i need u to do is do as their plan minus them( the guy).

Hopefully this makes sense, english is my third language so i find it hard to tell u exactly how it is.

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Anyways, this is it. I hope this helps you.

Also follow me bc... im too good.

And also u can totally suggest what my next reading should be on by simply replying to this post (altho i dont take personal readings right now)

[melissa-titanium]

for character headcanons tome ^_^

I CANNOT FND THE POST YOU ARE REFERRING TO FOR THE ABSOLUTE LOVE OF ME BUT I SWEAR I KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT. TREMBLES. if i get this wron g i wil ;. cr.y

i like to imagine tome as a relatively tall person. like maybe a few inches shorter than me... 5'7 ? shes very lanky. i think she had a little bit of a growth spurt once she hit like. lets say 12 or 13 and just shot the fuck up. then stopped. shes still tall just not crazy tall.

i LOVE masc presenting nonbinary tome but i feel like. idont know i feel like shes more. androgynous leaning does that make sense. her gender is weird girl but not a "girl" do you get me. she likes 2 wear skirts & jewelry & goes by ms over mx or mr . her pronouns r weird as hell too shes got the motherfucking zleep/zlorp it/its zhe/her all the neos all the xenogenders you get me ?

also. lesbian. duh. but also . i want to talk about it because it very much interests me. i def think shes ace because i hit every character i like with the ace beam but iiii. dont see her as aro? as much as i love aroace hcs i feel like it doesn't fit tome . at most i could see her on the aro spectrum..... i could totally see greyromantic tho maybe. but also specifically i dont think i could see her using orientation-specific labels, only gender labels. like she would call herself gnc/andro & specify her pronouns & list her most prominent xenogenders but when you ask about her orientation shes like. Girls 👍

ok now that gender is out of the way. smiles

i lik 2 explore her dynamic with takenaka & i think alot of people do honestly LOL. initially of course takenaka feels like a little bit of bitterness towards her because he understands she'd probably see him as nothing more than a guinea pig for her obsessions. but post telepathy arc i think they get along more cause he understands her way of thinking and fears & she understands that he (and others) actually DO care. i like to think they hang out & he manages to read her really well after a while without even needing telepathy.

i think she plays mhfu. i think this because i'm autistic leave me alone. tri ultimate makes more sense considering it was the most recent game to come out at that time but also it's got the smallest monster roster of any of the games, so mhfu it is. i think she'd main insect glaive (having essentially a telepathic communication with a little insect friend is such a cool idea to her) and her favorite monster would be yama tsukami. yama is literally perfect. it's outlandish, has a completely unique skeleton from any other monster in the games (save for yama kurai who was technically not a canon monster because it only existed in frontier) and it is quite literally an UNIDENTIFIED FLYING OBJECT. she would think that's rad as hell, and be very sad that it's not a popular monster (only solidifying her concept of isolation/alienation from her peers, liking things that are unusual to enjoy)

a weird hc i always had for her. i think she plucks out her eyebrow hairs so they r a little patchy almost? i knew someone who used 2 do that when i was younger and i think its something she would have done . speaking of hair she definitely cuts her own hair. SOMETHING TELLS ME SHE HAS PROBABLY TRIED TO DYE IT BEFORE. it didnt go well. her hair has never been the same

i think she's a big fan of new sensory experiences. that is a stim toy bitch if i ever saw one. i think she likes the textures most people find uncomfortable, like sandpaper or scratchy textures . not a picky eater but has a general preference for crunchy/hard stuff over things that melt in her mouth does that make sense ... i think her least favorite food is cotton candy. idk what her fave food is because my food knowledge is limited to bangladeshi cuisine and white people food (save me) but if i think of anything ill edit this. i actually implemented this into my design for her but she has alien earrings and they r kinda squishy. i think she messes with them when shes bored

shes dexterous as fuck with her hands. she could totally learn to shuffle a deck of cards fast as hell or play the shell game (cup shuffle) if she had interest in physical games. i think once she started working at s&s and really getting along with the rest of the Gang she would start playing card games & they always ask her to shuffle. not even reigen does it as well. years of gaming has trained tomes hands to levels not even reigen could dream of reaching

i think she'd be some kind of translator/ambassador... a high standing position based on middle-man communication. a linguist maybe? i think her obsession with the supernatural would eventually leave her down the path of like, culture study, to learn more about different regions mythical creatures. i also really like the post-canon ideas where she works with mezato as an investigator, WHICH ACTUALLY ACTS AS A SEGUE INTO MY NEXT HC

i think her and mezato would get along so well. its such a shame we never get a proper interaction between them. obviously their only canon interactions are accompanied by shigeo in which both of them r trying to grab his attention in some way and theres a little bit of conflict in that (tome realizing shige is a little uncomfortable with mezato pestering him about the cult & swooping in to give him an out) but i think if they genuinely decided 2 meet up and hang out they'd be a force to behold . girls who are wildly enthusiastic about their particular craft who seem to be somewhat outcasted even from their peers who hold similar interests. mezato being the most interested member of the journaling club & tome being the only person in the telepathy club who actually gives a fuck about telepathy!!!!! the thing about mezato though is that i dont think she is self conscious in the way that tome is. tome's like. worried about taking up others' time with her own interests that she clearly is the only one interested in. she thinks she should be grateful that they're even listening to her (atleast thats what i gathered from takenaka's reading of her thoughts during telepathy arc) and that no one but her truly gives a shit about the things she's into. and i dont have a firm grasp on mezato's character, but i think shes something of an inverse of tome in that sense. mezato's more confident about her interests, as well as being more confident in parading it around maybe. so i think they'd get along by being inverses of eachother. im not confident in describing mezato so i hope you kind of get what im saying

ok wow i got off track. i think she's one of those kids who had like a crazy amount of allergies when they were younger but eventually they faded as they got older. shes totally allergic to cats.

she . in the best way that i could possibly muster. feels like a middle child. she feels like someone who has a shit ton of siblings/lives with a big family does this make sense. i think she'd have like two older brothers and a little brother. am i insane can anyone else sense this.

okay i ran out of shit to say theres probably more but . coughs and dies. tome i love you

[gshnstrs]

reasons behind visions

eichi - cryo: not sure yet but cryo just fits

wataru - anemo: following the trend of anemo characters having dead friends, he doesn’t technically have dead friends but there will be eccentric-specific lore. going off enstars canon, he feels that his friendships with the eccentrics are dying

tori - electro: idk i just thought it’d be funny to make him an electro claymore since he looks like dori

yuzuru - hydro: he’s very dedicated to his position as tori’s butler, and most hydro characters have a strong dedication to something

hokuto - cryo: im honestly debating on changing him to hydro but i remember he was like an “ice prince” or smthn in past enstars stuff

subaru - pyro: passionate about. uh i haven’t gotten that far. use your imagination

makoto - geo: iiii dont have a reason for this one

mao - dendro: he seeks knowledge to become a stronger fighter as well as a healer, as he wants to be able to be both instead of having to choose just one

chiaki - pyro: passionate about being a hero

kanata - hydro: fishie.. dedicated to his position as a member of ryuseitai? ill post better lore eventually

tetora - pyro: passionate about being the manliest man

shinobu - shinobus vision hasnt been decided yet. stay tuned for more bangers

midori - dendro: idk it felt right

hiiro - pyro: passionate about seeking out his missing brother

aira - electro: i had a good reason for this but i forgot what it was

mayoi - electro: electro characters tend to have some reason that makes them see the world differently. mayoi’s intrusive thoughts and stuff tie into that. i was really torn between making him electro or cryo ☹️

tatsumi - dendro: in gshnstrs lore he’s very wise i will elaborate eventually

nagisa - geo: hard-working .. uhhh i’ll elaborate one day

hiyori - electro: i will elaborate eventually

ibara - electro: sees the world differently since in gshnstrs lore he was raised to be a killing machine (i swear ill explain later) and when he finally escaped he didn’t understand how to be normal

jun - hydro i think: i havent decided yet but i think hydro could fit because i want to like. he’s dedicated to sticking by hiyori’s side and i think i might give hiyori a permanent injury or something. it’s just an idea right now

shu - electro: i think this might be obvious

mika - dendro: i can’t elaborate because it contains major spoilers for later lore

hinata - pyro: passionate about taking care of yuuta and shielding him from harm?

yuuta - anemo: he wants to be free from the expectations placed on him and hinata just because they’re identical

rinne - pyro: passionate about living his own life (you’ll understand later)

himeru - geo: uhhh idk i just needed more geo characters

kohaku - electro: it fits his colour scheme and uhh i’ll elaborate one day

niki - pyro: hes basically xiangling. very passionate about cooking

rei - electro: yyyyeah

kaoru - anemo: im so sorry its because of his dead mom

koga - electro: electro male characters always are linked to dogs so it fits LMAO

adonis - electro: sees the world different because he was raised in sumeru, not inazuma like the rest of undead

nazuna - undecided: stay tuned for more bangers

mitsuru - pyro: passionate about uhh idk just everything

tomoya - dendro: i dont have a reason for this

hajime - hydro: i dont have a reason for this either

keito - dendro: knowledgeable. also he shares a japanese voice actor with alhaitham (this isn’t why but it’d be really funny if it was)

kuro - geo: it just seemed like it fit

souma - electro: sees the world differently because hes fucking autistic about his sword idk. hes purple leave me alone

tsukasa - hydro: dedicated to becoming a knight and also a Specific journey that you’ll learn about later..

leo - anemo: he was once a pawn for eichi and seeks complete freedom from him. i know electro seems like it would make more sense for leo or even pyro but listen. i have convinced myself that he’s anemo

izumi - cryo: it just fits

ritsu - cryo: uhhhhhhhhh yeah

arashi - electro: she sees the world differently because she’s trans (i’ll come up with something better im sorry)

natsume - electro: it just makes sense

tsumugi - dendro: he has a lot of knowledge from the time he spent with eichi, but now he seeks more knowledge that he will use to guide and help natsume and sora

sora - electro: he sees the world differently because of his synesthesia (how do you spell it help)

madara - undecided, probably dendro or geo: uhhb yup

[intertexts]

since I can't talk about my favorite bits that made me go AUGH bc of things you dont know about yet. give me ur favorite bit. what was ur favorite bit in that fic. gimme the authors notes behind the scenes ramble

AUAUAUAUA.... u r so nice 2 meee godddd what the hell. exploding u💥💥💥!!!!!!!!!!! ANYWAY. OK. OK. AUTHORS NOTES.

things i included that i am VERY IFFY ON but nevertheless went for:

>i think there's like 70/30 odds that they (dakota) try to do the putting ashe's headphones with thank you scientist or smth blaring on him to try & bring him back thing. can't tell you if it'll work or not but it has to come up. nevertheless i think if u were stuck in yr head for a year with the fucking trickster u would appreciate some quiet!!!!!! & its just. idk man. that's what i'd spiral over. what if one day u wake up n u don't even like all the stuff u love anymore. etc.

>I'M ALSO TAKING. A REALLY FUCKING LONG SHOT by explicitly referring to wiwi as alive? honestly? like it's a 50/50, i think that all the stuff w/ the heart etc should continue to have thematic resonance, but also i don't know how that will work with the wisps when they..... return? (<- using this word in the loosest possible way i just don't know how else to say it. when theyre onscreen again??) i'm sure the wisp thing gets some resolution i have no doubt. and i don't know if "whisperer william" and "alive body traits" are mutually exclusive. idk. idk. we'll see!!

>i'm assuming tide will make another appearance b4 the season ends. idgaf if he shows in deadwood or not i fucking HOPE NOT but i just thought man. he Would come to bring them all back n take care of them. i think he and mark should get to have a really long slightly more. real? conversation on how much parenting fucking sucks and is stressful and terrifying and they feel bad at it.

MY FAVORITE BIT. goddd. iiii. ok. i have a lot of Thoughts on wingfics & idk. i guess i always think they're a bit too easy. u have wings that u Never Ever Let Anyone Touch Except Family And Lovers and u Let Someone Preen Them and what-- there isn't even any terrifying indecipherable swirl of emotions about it?? it isn't even scary?? (& also the whole Why Is It Good When People Touch Ur Wings. "because it is" okay??? and why then?? i also am guilty of this but at least theres like. two sentences about it.) & when there's hybrid shit & its like ok suddenly u woke up with Searing Pain in ur back and things writhing around in there breaking through yr skin and bone to get out and-- thats IT??? there isn't even gonna be any lasting trauma about it? you're not even gonna feel weird about being permanently Different now? it isn't even inconvenient and painful?? so ig that's like-- the core of this one, lmao. obviously i have. Thoughts and Feelings on the whole prime nonconsensually and irrevocably changing ur body defenders thing. like. of course. thesis statement of my blog. & i have thoughts about. being a vessel & not getting any say in it, ig. idk. i hate when people take my stuff without asking!! the idea of someone taking my ME without asking is like, viscerally terrifying 2 me. not unpacking that moving on etc.... my favorite bit is ig ashe having conflicting and messy emotions on liking the way it feels. freaking out and trying 2 stonewall it out & eventually just. letting himself have the good thing. oversharing 9pm time but idk... ashe is a little Like Me in that he was a fucking shut in & never had friends until he was a teenager and doesn't really. know much about it? didn't have much experience in it? so he's really satisfying to write not in a projection-y way but an ah! i KNOW what this is like i can write this correctly!! very scary!!!! very 24/7 butterflies in ur stomach!! OH. I LIED. ACTUALLY. my favorite bit is ashe unconsciously using words & such abt capacitors and voltage and electricity etc. bc of growing up with an electrician dad :] very very small and minor but i have a lot of fucking emotions abt it actually!!! anyway. yeag <333

other behind the scenes thing: in my head wiwi is freaking the FUCK out the entire time he is going shit SHIT SHIT i'm so fucking bad at this shittttttttttttt is this what it's like for dakota to deal with me. is this what i'm like. shit. what do vynce and dakota do. hes like. cartoon running putting down the tracks just in front of the train this entire time <33 this is important to me.