#But anyway this all isn't super important anyway since I don't even have a planned book it would be in

[bonefall]

Theres a cat called Silverhawk who trained Thistle, maybe he could give Tigerstar a life? IIRC Silverhawk died attacking a riverclan patrol so maybe his could be something along the lines of never backing down?

Also i think spottedleaf would make her. too involved yknow? Shes already sneaking out to help firestar and is (i think) a major part of the plot, while i DO like the whole curse thing it also makes scourge killing Tigerstar feel cheaper (rule of cool, tigerstar losing all 9 lives was cool as fuck because it meant the stakes were higher and firestar wasnt 9 lives safe anymore. It ruins the moment a bit by saying "yeah scourge just killed him normally it was the space cats who took his 9 lives").

Honestly my two cents i think badgerfang's in canon life was super dope. Tigerstar basically brushing off Badgerfang bc of how young he is and ignoring Badgerfang's blatant warning of "dont underestimate ur enemy", effectively dooming himself. Maybe not Badgerfang who gives the life, but i do think it could fit that someone, a half clan cat maybe? tries to give him a life but its brushed off completely bc Tigerstar refuses to believe that a half clan cat has anything of worth to say.

Silverhawk actually got backstory in TBC-- he tried to kill his leader because his son was deputy, and got them both killed in the process! He doesn't have a confirmed Clan yet, but I keep imagining it was RiverClan tbh.

The one who died on the RiverClan patrol was Thistleclaw himself. In my rewrite, that patrol is now the same one where Sunfish was murdered; Leopardfur killed Thistleclaw in revenge.

Anyway, I was a little worried about using Spotty too much. She's popular and I love writing for her so she does come up a ton. I didn't just pick her for no reason though-- she was actually very close with Tigerclaw when they were kids, and her death in the crossfire of a ShadowClan invasion is one of Tiger's few regrets.

He knows she plays tricks but underestimated her; and she gave him a curse instead of a blessing.

But no no, don't think for a minute I'd legitimately set it up like Scourge only killed Tigerstar regularly lmao. Nooo. It would still be the bloody, painful, suffering-nine-times unzippening that it was in canon, even if Spotty laid a curse on him. It would be more like... giving him an extra second's opening.

But if Spotty's not popular I'll do Leopardfoot's instead, telling him that he can still stop this. But he won't.

I generally don't like the "Reluctance Lives" that happen in canon because they backed themselves into a corner and decided that every ceremony MUST end with 9 lives. Every life being given is probably at least several more months of leadership-- a Spirit that does not want the Leader to live longer simply should not give one.

In spite of everything, his mom would still love him and want him to have another life.

[nukaberries]

Fallout companions react to sole telling that they don't want to even lose them and then breakingdown. I need all the angst!

God, me too. As much as I say I hate angst, I'm definitely a sucker for it! This idea, especially, is super exciting for me since I feel like the Fallout 4 companions have a lot of opportunity for angst (I play through Nick's personal quest just to cry at the ending) Anyways, I hope you enjoy this one and it was worth the wait!

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Companions React to Sole Breaking Down - TW: Mentions of Addiction and Suicide

(Includes: Cait, Codsworth, Curie, Danse, Deacon, Hancock, MacCready, Nick, Piper, Preston and X6-88)

Cait She isn't really sure what brought this on. Cait knows she isn't great at keeping herself safe or even having much concern for her own wellbeing, but she hadn't realised that upset Sole so much. Was it the chems? Maybe how she often charges head first into battle. Whatever it is, she admittedly feels guilty, not realising Sole cared so much about her. She isn't the best at comforting people, but she tries her best to make Sole feel better and reassure them that she isn't going anywhere. It may result in some awkward shoulder pats, but it's the thought that counts, right?

Codsworth It's probably not the first time that Codsworth has seen Sole break down. After all, he was the first living being they ran into after escaping the horrors of Vault 111. Still, this particular breakdown takes him by surprise, he didn't know he mattered that much to Sole. He's probably the best at comforting Sole, considering he knows them so well. Later on, he'll likely bring up how touched he is to know that he's important to Sole and promises he'll stand by them.

Curie She's extremely apologetic when she realises Sole's breaking down, at first thinking she'd done something wrong, before they explain that they can't stand to lose her. She understands where Sole is coming from, they're the most important person in her life and she doesn't want to begin to think what things would be like without them. She apologises if she ever scared them and reassures them that she's much more formidable than she seems

Paladin Danse He immediately panics when Sole starts to break down. Being in the Brotherhood, he's never known how to deal with his own emotions, let alone the emotions of someone else. He'll try his best to comfort Sole, but he definitely won't succeed. If he's still in the Brotherhood and him and Sole aren't extremely close - or romantically involved - he'll only insist that, due to his training, he's confident nothing bad will happen to him. However, if they're closer, Danse will go out of his way to make sure Sole knows they won't ever lose them, he loves Sole and he'd keep surviving so long as it made them happy.

Deacon He has no idea how to react at first. Sure, he'd been travelling with Sole for a while now, but he figured it was just out of convenience, since he was showing them the ropes in the Railroad. He'd figured his lying would've annoyed them by now and yeah, they were close, but he didn't know he mattered this much to them. He wants to crack a joke, but even he knows it's bad timing. Instead - because he understands how devastating loss can be, and he knows what Sole's been through - he actually does his best to comfort them, which he's actually good at, much to both his and Sole's surprise.

Hancock Like Cait, he initially thinks it's down to his reckless behaviour when it comes to chems and almost immediately promises you that he knows not to overdo it and if chems were going to kill them, they would've by now. He assures Sole that so long as he has them by his side, there's no way he plans on dying early, even though life hasn't exactly been kind to him in the past. Sole gives him a reason to keep going and he'd rather not ruin that.

MacCready Similarly to Deacon, he understands - maybe better than anyone - just how hard losing the person you love can be. The death of Lucy still haunts him, in spite of how much he cares for Sole, so he feels terrible that they share concerns he once had to suffer the aftermath of. He promises them over and over that they'll never lose him, no matter what happens. He even goes the extra mile and makes sure to be careful when they're outside the walls of a settlement, just to give Sole some peace of mind.

Nick Valentine He's better at comforting Sole than most, he knows a lot about their past and how they ended up in the Commonwealth, widowed and searching for their child. Besides, he's used to dealing with people breaking down in front of him - albeit, it's a little different since Sole means a lot to him. He knows he and Sole have grown close, so he understands completely why they'd be worried about losing another loved one. Nick will jokingly point out that if he's survived this long with only a few - a lot of - bumps and scratches, they have nothing to worry about. If Sole brings up their concerns again, he'll be more than happy to reassure them further.

Piper Wright She understands that with her line of work, she's a lot more likely to meet an untimely demise, but who doesn't die young these days? She's surprised she's made it this far with the amount of attempts on her life. She can stand seeing Sole cry though and instantly wraps them in a hug, telling them that as long as she's got them by her side, she'll be fine. Piper trusts Sole completely to protect her, just as she'd protect them. It breaks her heart to see them so torn up though and she almost feels guilty, deciding she'll find a way to make it up to them soon, even if she hasn't necessarily done anything wrong.

Preston Garvey As someone who often struggles with seeing the meaning in his own life, Preston is completely taken aback by Sole's worry towards his wellbeing. He instantly feels terrible for having any thoughts about taking his own life and apologises profusely to Sole, insisting that nothing bad will ever happen to them. He hasn't had an easy time recently, but having Sole by his side has helped more than he could've ever imagined and if they care about him enough to want him to keep fighting, then he will, without question.

X6-88 To nobody's surprise, X6 doesn't really know what to say or do. He simply clarifies that coursers were designed to be near enough formidable, so the likelihood of anything happening to him is extremely low. He does show some genuine concern, by asking if Sole would benefit from speaking to someone professionally, it's not enough to comfort Sole, but he's trying his best.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for ditching my parents for my birthday?

Some backstory: I (17F) am turning 18 as of 2024. The 17th birthday is a lot more important in my culture because that's our country's age of majority, and my parents had insisted on celebrating it with a whole party/massive dinner like most other girls do, but I am in fact a loser and absolutely hate these festivities. I am also gender nonconforming/masc and the parties are like, think princessy stuff that I don't super vibe with. My mother is like me. She hates birthday parties and feminine clothing. I have no idea why she was pushing it so hard, but eventually her plans for my birthday fell through. I told her not to bother getting me gifts or anything because I thought I had evaded the celebration ordeal.

However. Much to my misfortune. My whole family decided to barge into my room at 2 in the morning to shower me in confetti!! Confetti!! It was all over the goddamn place, on my bed, in my clothes, etc. I hid under my blanket because there was nowhere else to go and my parents like to do this (barge into the one area of the house I occupy, and start demanding stuff) and my mother was telling me to at least come out for pictures. I was literally in my pajamas like dawg what.

I couldn't take it anymore and started screaming like a banshee because that was the only thing that would get them to leave, but they still stuck around for a couple more minutes being awkwardly like oh... sorry... you really hate this. My room was full of pink balloons (my favorite color is yellow???) and they got me an enormous cake with frosting. I hate cake and especially I hate frosting. It was actually hell.

Anyway more insane stuff happened, not important, but that's essentially the disaster of a seventeenth birthday that I had. I know they want to do something for my eighteenth. I really don't like celebrating things, nor do I particularly want to, but judging by that whole ordeal I think they're going to try something again anyway.

So my plan is to just... not come home after school. Or if I don't have school then I'd just go out in the morning. I don't leave the house, so I don't have curfew, and I don't even want to stay out that long. Just long enough that they're all passed out and I can escape ANY AND ALL ATTEMPTS at giving me gifts, congratulating me, and shooting confetti all over my fucking room.

They're probably not going to call the cops, I'd tell them I'm going out and not kidnapped, just not where and for how long. I also think they kind of can't call the cops on me because I've been a legal adult where I'm from since the disaster birthday. Maybe that will help with the plan. I honestly think I'm just going to go to a café and write or something. I'm so over it, I want to have a birthday that isn't messy, that day means absolutely nothing to me and confetti pisses me off. Since my childhood my birthday has never been about me, like I don't really get what I would like to get, so I'm cool with not celebrating it at all. It doesn't matter.

To me simply avoiding them for the whole day is such a win-win scenario but I don't really know if this is an underdeveloped frontal lobe speaking. I also know they're likely to buy a cake in advance and I may be ruining plans by disappearing. My birthday is late in the year, so I have time to think about it, but I do think my parents are kind of insane. I don't think I can talk them out of doing any more of this stuff. Sorry this got long, but WIBTA?

(And yes I would love to move out but capitalism)

[celestialwu]

Equal redemption?

But first I want to mention that this is not an analysis about season 5, but about Sun Wukong and Macaque, and that maybe I can express my point of view as to why they are practically almost the same, ok?

Okay, look, I didn't really like Macaque's "redemption", it was very quick and I can say that I didn't get very attached to the character, but he was very important in this season, but I still see him just as a character that is there but that I don't care much about, but anyway. Did you notice how Sun Wukong and Macaque literally had almost the same redemption?

I know it sounds really weird but I think I might be right.

First, Sun Wukong: What we know about Wukong is that he became the Monkey King on pure impulse, but we know that he is a celestial prodigy and that he wanted to live a life of peace and meet the sun with Macaque and his monkeys.

And as Azura said, Wukong could become the next emperor, becoming immortal again.

But with the plan failing, and them losing, Sun Wukong is trapped in a mountain for 500 years by the Bhuda, which resulted in the fight that Macaque and Sun Wukong had, which was out of pure hatred for Wukong, and Macaque's anger for him not listening to him about this war.

And that's when things start to make sense with what I want to say.

As we know, Guanyin, the Goddess of Mercy, was responsible for protecting the Pilgrims traveling to the West, and for that she chose Sun Wukong as one of these Pilgrims, and guess who was also chosen to help in the plan of another "Goddess"?

Then starting with Macaque; we know the same thing happened with Sun Wukong. He wanted to live a quiet life with Wukong on the mountain.

And well, it didn't work out. Wukong was taken and they fight.

But apparently, they fought again at the end of the journey, and this could trigger him and he "dies" at the hands of Wukong.

So we already have two things in common: Both were overthrown by gods and were hired for a "plan" of a super powerful goddess.

And well they would be punished if they did not fulfill their part of the agreement they made to be free.

And meanwhile, when they were released, they met someone who was willing to give them a second chance and live in peace and without regrets in their lives.

I know there are people who say that Tribaka is abusive and stuff. But I can say that he was the key to Wukong having his redemption.

And may I remind you, Wukong was a serious killer. Yes, he had his reasons for attacking those who tried to kill his master, and that most demons were horrible to be around.

But well, with Tribaka helping Wukong improve as a person, using the diagram when necessary, and teaching Wukong the path of peace and love. Macaque had Mk who wouldn't give up on him, and doing his best to invite him to his gang so that they would all be free from LBD.

In this Macaque probably had an off-screen "redemption", which I believe was not a good idea, since it seems that he changed his personality out of nowhere, well for me it was like that. But, continuing, Mk did everything to help Macaque, Mk cared about Macaque, even with all the horrible things Macaque did, Mk knew that he was not exactly the bad guy. And that they had to join forces with the one who was really their enemy at the moment.

And Mk kind of proved himself right.

Macaque isn't a bad guy given how he's evolved over the seasons, but he still causes discomfort, but not much.

Mk was the key to Macaque evolving, and becoming at least someone he can talk to without having to get three rocks in the face.

As Tribaka was also the key to Sun Wukong not being someone feared but rather someone loved by many people who appreciate his work as a hero.

But now I think if the thing is they are also the same, they are also different.

And I tell them that they are probably their moral values.

Sun Wukong is afraid that things will get out of control, he wants everything to work out for everyone, he knows that if he is not the hero they call him he will fail, he wanted the plan against LBD to work out so that he could go back to paying for his mountain and rest assured that everything is over.

And one of the reasons he (probably) improvises.

But that's the thing, when things get out of control, he takes responsibility for everything himself. Sometimes I think he might even become a perfectionist when that happens. This makes him vulnerable, and he doesn't like that.

Macaque on the other hand, knows that things are going to get out of control, but doesn't do much about it.

I'm not saying he couldn't do it, but I believe he already knew beforehand that LBD was going to win, and he'd rather use that to his advantage than make the same mistake he made in the past.

And that's why he manipulates, for him all that matters is getting rid of LBD's guards, even if it's one of his agreements, he wanted to stay as far away from her as possible. And in this case he's willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen.

Whether bringing prizes

or saying that your friends will leave you.

And he wanted freedom, but he did it in the worst possible way, and he was really willing to do it until the end. But the moment he sees that his actions are turning against him. He runs away, because it was better to deal with this headache once the dust settles than to stop him for now.

Well, these two in my opinion have similar pain, and they need help. They suffer from abandonment, punishments, trouble trusting people, one of them who is almost perfect is not the one who destroyed everything again, and the other one has a calm life and freedom.

They have different personalities, but it's that "Different personalities, same pain" thing and I hope there will be more of them in the next seasons.

[north-noire]

what's your process for writing? :3

my writing process: I stare at my document file for hours and weep, repeat until writing gets miraculously done.

In all seriousness I tend to already have outlines ready for future chapters and stuff like that ready (and an idea of what I'd like to happen in the arcs/timeline of events). I've already had like a vague outline of my entire fic as a whole, but that's just kind of my own version of what happens in FNAF LMAO. I also just sometimes brainstorm, imagine new scenes that seems fitting for future chapters and list it down for me to write!

Though sometimes, even my writing execution just sometimes makes me have to divert/change plans up for chapters since sometimes writing's a bit unpredictable and sometimes some ideas I have just come out of nowhere/don't work anymore!

I talk back and forth about ideas with some friends/my alpha reader and bounce back ideas between them! It's really fun brainstorming with people and being able to put my ideas into words before writing it down. I also sometimes draw it out as concept art since it's fun visualizing some of my ideas!

Of course I still base most of the ideas from the actual source material (the games, some parts of the book trilogy) but since this is an AU I'm allowed to explore some "what-if" ideas and be able to have some creative freedom with it without worry since it is an AU after all! I get to do/explore things the way I want without worrying about judgment since this isn't really canon-compliant.

I take very long in actual writing stage (for obvious reasons), and after completing my rough/first draft I let it sit for a few days or a week before reading it again with a fresh pair of eyes and edit/revise/add new scenes accordingly. Sometimes I just make scenes out, no matter how bad it may be at first, and then just let revising/editing do my work for me. Sometimes I also have readied drafts for some scenes of future chapters that I can come back to, put it in the document and just rewrite it/rework it to be better suited for the narrative.

I tend to take my time longer during the editing/revising stage for a lot of things; I'm a perfectionist, I tend to sort of heavily criticize my work, and I worry a lot about its quality at the end of the day, and sometimes I realize that I need to fully revise the scene or fully rewrite a scene since it's lacking something/I'm missing a scene that should essentially be there. It's a hard battle, and an admittedly frustrating process.

That, and irl responsibilities makes it hard to just read through it sometimes.

During those breaks I sometimes read books/literature so that I can come back to editing/revising with fresh new knowledge on how I can improve or be able to know how I'll handle writing again.

After editing/revising is done, I just hand off the beta-reading to my beta readers, which also takes a while; we're all having irl responsibilities after all, and I mostly go to them back and forth about their feedback since it is nice having fresh eyes on your work WHILE also getting feedback from "first-time readers" of my work and what the readers might think of it when I publish it. They also help me with minor editing stuff since I'm not an English speaker (English isn't my first language) and their feedback really helps!

And then I usually draw out the cover chapter, and when my chapter's published, I do a nice little celebration for myself, since I take very long on chapter updates/making the actual chapters! It's important to celebrate the little victories we have, after all :]

Sorry for the SUPER long post, but since it is the writing process, I might as well share the ups and downs of my own writing process anyway XD Hope this helps?

[crimswnred]

I've just gotten back home from work so I'm a little late to the party, however...

LITG SEASON 8: TEMPTING FATE — VOLUME 2: thoughts, concerns and prayers

first of all yesss more hair booooo paywall, fusebox get it together??? (at least they are pretty but again that's the bare minimum)

anyway, here's my girl with her new hair

why do all of the girls' nightwear look like I'm on a strip club and they're asking me if I want something to drink

it's so over for you Theo

honestly she's too good for him anyway

okay kiss challenge!!!! let me snog everyone

I don't want any more of that "peck" crap we want FULL ON SNOGS, TONGUE AND CHAOS

Jin: "Nap, then results?" Hamish would be so proud of him

okay, so you rate me EIGHT just so I feel like I have to pay to have one extra kiss, your game is a dirty as ever Fusebox

date time!!!! going with Jin ❤️

LMAO Jack is kinda funny

so sad to see a baddie doing too much to keep a man in love island 💔 Luna I'm so sorry you didn't deserve it your only crime was being coupled up with the one guy I want

oh. so about the terrace scene...

first of all, super sweet gem scene. it seemed like a super important one for it to be a gem scene though. so idk I'm a bit lost.

Jin is a walking red flag 😭 this boy is soooo gonna flip on me when the next hot girl shows up!! but let's enjoy the ride

and Luna... girl... was it ever that serious?

the award for worst outfit design goes to 👇

and the one for BEST outfit design goes to 👇

like wow wowza mmmhmm yeah! this man is hot hot HOT 🔥🔥🔥

I had to kiss him HE IS SO FINEEEEEEEEEEE

oh, Jack is kinda sweet... if he looked more like Lewie/Alex he would be favourite boy of the season for sureeee

keep the compliments coming, darling

I had to kiss him too. you know, to be polite.

but it was just a peck, tho

okay, NOW JIN!!!

having a spicy conversation with the guy I want to fuck and his currently girl isn't how I planned to spend my afternoon but here we go

"You're adventurous. You're fun to be around. And you'd make every sight even more beautiful", "Okay. Where's the punch line?", "There isn't one :)" OKAY GAG ME WITH THE WRITING

FUNNY BOY WHO'S A HISYORY NERD? OH OKAY!!!! BIG T??? NO IT'S BIG J!!!!!! JIMOTHY!!!

lmao Sophie mixing the boys up she's so me

Claudia is a real one let me tell you that

she's nice, she doesn't force herself upon us, she's polite, she give us all the tea, and she even help us to graft on the boys behind their girls' backs. like, THAT'S MY GIRL

and if Theo doesn't step up she will DEFINITELY be mine

TIME TO PICK MY BOY LET'S GOOOOOOOO

so sad to see Luna go, I really like her :/

lmao???????????

I TAKE BACK EVERY GOOD THING I SAID ABOUT JACK WTFFFF 😭😭😭😭

he was so out of pocket ?? what's your deal man, are you jealous I picked Jin instead of you? we kissed ONCE. be sooooooooo for real rn

okay Sophie you can join your boy in this bullshit he still cheated on you with me when you weren't looking (and he probably would do it again)

no. I won't forgive you?? you were basically calling me a whore back then and now you are SORRY? don't say something you'll regret later that's not cute.

and he's supposed to be serious?

anyway, stressful night over. time to go to bed with my babygirl Jin

BITS BITS BITS BITS

29 gems to go all the way? what is this?

they could've make the scene a little longer but they have gotten way better ever since the writers dropped the word crescendo

MR TYLER WHO ARE YOU?

still not 100% sure if I'm going with Jin or Oakley but I'm leaning towards Jin, I'm not gonna lie 😁 I did some stuff that will fuck me over on movie night if fusebox finally learnt how to code (which they prolly didn't so I guess I'm safe)

I really enjoyed this episode except for the part when Jack and Sophie went full on villain mode but if the narrative made sense all of the time it wouldn't be LITG, right?

anyway, let's see what this Tyler guy is about... see you all next week 🫶

[starry-blue-echoes]

Okay I had a THOUGHT about Early Bird. Or specifically, what happens after it.

Because Diavolo's still out there, still has his stand arrow/s. And Giorno either doesn't exist, or he's much older than in canon. Possibly even in a position where he can be much more effective in either combatting or infiltrating Passione.

Basically what I'm trying to say is 20-something Giorno Giovanna kinda taking Bucciarati's role as inspirational surrogate parent.

ailing you managed to rummage around my brain and pull out an idea I thought I'd forgotten about

so doing the math, Jotaro would be around 31 in Canon Part 5, and he was 6 in Early Bird Part 3. Giorno was born about 3 years before Canon Part 3, which if we have that be the same here leads to a....... shockingly only 3 year age gap

now, of course there's also room to mess around with when Part 5 happens since if you wanna get really technical, Dio wouldn't have been able to be given the arrows by Enyaba since she wouldn't have been able to buy them off Doppio at this time, but that's a little too gritty for me so let's just shuffle things around instead and just say it all works out by shoving Doppio's trip back a few years

anyways back with Giorno, an old idea I had more or less has Giorno...... with the kiddos as well. I KNOW, THIS IS TECHNICALLY A PRETTY LATE ADDITION TO THE AU BUT HEAR ME OUT:

Dio of course has Jotaro already planned out to be his successor. There's a whole multilayered scheme going on here with loads of irony and revenge and what not, and he doesn't want to give that up. It's just too perfect.

However, Dio has also learned from his mistakes and knows he shouldn't put all his eggs in one basket. After all, given the fact he doesn't have Pucci this time, he is currently without a back up plan

enter: one Haruno Shiobana

this is also where Dio's interactions with the kids get more....... complicated. Because Haruno is the spare so to speak........ but at the same time he's pretty well cared for. Arguably better than the other kids, simply because of the fact he's new. Unlike the other kids, he doesn't need to be convinced of anything. This life and Dio is all he's known, he doesn't need to worry about Haruno trying to escape since....... well, why would he try

not to mention, Haruno's too young to participate in any kind of training, and again he's the spare. He shouldn't have to be trained since if everything goes to plan, he won't be needed as a successor. Maybe he could be a powerful underling one day if his Stand is strong enough, but Jotaro is supposed to be the future leader.

so honestly....... Jotaro's the only one who ever actually interacted with Giorno. He's kept separate from most of the other kids, but of course Dio wanted his heir to meet his possible second. And their interactions were about as interesting as a 3 year old and an ill 6 year old could be.

(who knows, maybe Haruno's mother is here as well? Of course, this does raise the question of whether or not she'd take Haruno with her when she inevitably flees the mansion, but for the sake of the AU let's say she does)

but when they're free.......... this is when things get a bit fun :)

because well....... given their ages, the two honestly don't remember each other super well. Haruno hardly remembers any of his time in the mansion at all, and Jotaro's memories are foggy from time and sickness. Kakyoin might know of Haruno's existence from their talks, but admittedly the toddler's importance wasn't NEARLY as much in his mind as compared to being rescued and getting Jotaro to a hospital

by the time Kakyoin's able to tell Holly and Joseph, Haruno's long gone

Italy I'd imagine isn't too different. Sure there's of course the differing dynamics between Giorno and the team given the fact he's 28 (and now the oldest member of the team by a landslide, Abbacchio being the closest at 21) but plot wise? There's definitely the question of do we play it straight or get creative with it which........ okay let's be real we're most likely gonna go the creative route jrdbvjdrbvs

I'm definitely very interested in how Koichi little quest goes down and how Giorno will deal with his chasing, and ofc how Jotaro will fall into things here

Polnareff definitely will make things interesting, since he's of course very related to Events All Those Years Ago and would likely be aware of the fact that Dio son who went missing that fateful night

there's a lot of room to Get Funky With It :)

also I'm just. Rotating Jotaro and Giorno's childhoods. How the mansion was the best and safest Giorno had ever been, and had he grown up there he honestly probably wouldn't have had that bad of a life, at least in comparison to his mother's neglect and step-father's abuse.

but that being in stark contrast to Jotaro's own experience. How the mansion was literal hell. How he was stolen away from his life and family and very nearly died, scared and alone.

how Dio managed to be Giorno's savior and Jotaro's nightmare

how Holly's rescue was Jotaro's saving grace and the thing that shattered any hope of Giorno's good future

how these two are family, both by blood and by the man who attempted to raise and shape them

[wolfgirlandfarmboy]

OK SO a very brief introduction to the 1920s themed AU for Jack and Nana.

A quick explanation though for why I keep saying 1920s themes instead of flat out saying "1920s au". BASICALLY It's the same way Beanstalked has a medieval-ish setting as a theme but it's not literally during medieval times (it's just easier for me to use it for building a fantasy setting). For this AU, it's the same but instead of everything being medieval themed. everything is 1920s in decor with the additional magic intertwined with technology.

Think of deco but magical.

That being said, this AU isn't a straight one-to-one of Beanstalked but with 1920s dressing on it. It's a completely different plot with the same characters.

The main setting Jack and Nana's story takes place in is a place called the "Big Poison Apple", an obvious spin on New York City. It's one of the best places to be if you want to make a name or living for yourself. HOWEVER, the "Poison" part of the name comes from how this city has one hell of a shady underbelly.

This underbelly is so bad because of the fact magic and all things magical are VERY regulated. There are a ton of speakeasy places where people can go and get magic potions or just be in an environment where magic can be used and discussed freely.

The entire regulation (and borderline ban in some places) of magic is a whole thing in itself as there's been a rocky history with spells and curses and fairy tales walking amongst mundane people.

ANYWAYS, Nana happens to be a club singer in these speakeasy locations. She mainly prefers one very specific club, meant to parallel the main hub in Beanstalked, but she has bills to help pay back home so she jumps around when she has to.

That's not to say she takes every club offer she gets. She prefers people hiring her because of her voice and not because of her body. And she also doesn't like the more seedier places the Big Poison Apple has to offer.

Jack moved to the Big Poison Apple from a small farm town with big dreams of experiencing the magic of the city. It's a very big city though that has a reputation for chewing people up and spitting them out so Jack can only really land a small little job at a bookstore/tea shop run by Mr. Blacksheep aka Baba.

This shop doesn't see a whole lot of action, even though it's near one of the busier parts of the city.

However, Baba happens to be an old family friend of Nana which means she occasionally pops in to get some tea for her Granny since the tea in the shop comes from places far and wide thanks to Baba's connections from years spent traveling the world.

Jack doesn't know this yet, as his first actual interaction with Nana isn't entirely direct and is just him going to see her performing at a club. And even then, he wasn't entirely planning on actually seeing her, as it was a completely accident stumbling where he winded up in a speakeasy without fully knowing what he was getting into (probably delivering some specially enchanted tea to a smaller one and not realizing "Oh wait there is actual magic going on here")

ANYWAYS, Jack is smitten by Nana's voice because he's never heard singing quite as soulful as hers before. BUT she is a very popular underground singer and Jack is very aware of this so he doesn't expect to really see her outside of her performing.

So imagine his surprise when he sees that enchanting voice walk into Baba's shop the next day.

I don't have a lot of the conflicts and new character roles super ironed out. I do know Pin works at the shop, or begins to work at the shop, and has past history with one of the gangs in the city that he would REALLY love to put behind him.

It'd be a good way to have someone who knows some of the seedy underbelly of the Big Poison Apple since I know Baba ain't got that dog in him (he is an old sheep man who prefers his exploring AWAY from danger).

And it's so important to have some way for Jack to be more aware of the dark side of the Big Poison Apple because I want Nevermore involved in this new setting somehow. Her goals won't nearly be as destructive as her canon self but I do want her to still hold a big bad status. I like to idea of her being the head of one of the biggest criminal groups in the city that works in the shadows.

[mintytealfox]

So we have Survivor Nort Decucts... And now we have Hunter Nort deducts... Put them together and what do we get?

You get a hella tragic story oh my GOSHHHH 😭😭😭😭

The set up will be: 1-Surv!Norton 1-Hunt!Norton -Then my thoughts 😏

1-Kindness: Is that an Olive Branch you just threw or... (A Good Deed: Norton, a Miner, Always visited the hospice and cared for all of the homeless old miners) 1-Shrewd 'Each step requires long-term planning' (Shrewd: An old, folded letter: Yellow and brittle. It was once abandoned in a dust corner. Signed, Benny.) -This is interesting 👀 These are both the first which automatically makes me think they are connected. I wonder if the Olive Branch thrown is from Benny? Or if its from Norton with the helping out with the people around Benny? Either way Benny ends up sending a letter to Norton. Maybe it saying something like 'want to meet up? I have stuff that might interest you' or something. Which adds to my -squinting- at Benny. Sounds like Norton was alone even though Benny was around all that time? hmmm

2-Diligence: The more effort, the more rewards? (Work Record: Norton Campbell is always the first to go down into the mines and the last to leave it.) 2-Lonely: 'The loneliness of separation must be endured on the climb up' (A coin: Stained by ash, footprints, tears, and dirt from the slums.) -Brings up the whole 'he had nobody' not even Benny vibe again -squints- Where was Benny during all of this? Seems like Norton would work and work and work so he couldn't feel or notice how alone he is. Like work was his only constant and 'friend' to keep himself from going nutty, but in the hours where work couldn't be used as a distraction he was miserable 😿Crying as he clings to what little he has...my gosh. That coin was so important to him man, I wonder if it was the last thing he got from his dad or something, cause he takes it everywhere and it pops up all the time in the trailer orz which means he never spent it just held onto it enough where you see TEAR STAINS ON IT! I CANNOT-- 😭😭😭😭

3-Efficiency: We need more trials. (A stack of Recommendation Letters: It can be seen that every one of Norton's previous employers appreciated his hard work and expressed their regret at being unable to keep him for long.) 3-Sophisticated 'wear a mask for the sake of survival' (A note on the back: What a detestable Person! Wagging his tail like a dog in front of the overseer!) -This one I can’t quite grasp yet -squints- is this referring to the back of the letter from Benny? Why write that there? Is Benny talking smack about Norton being so good at wearing a mask and pleasing the employers? Or is Norton talking smack about himself? Or is Norton pissed about others doing what he is doing? Wearing a mask to just survive or what the heck? 🤣 This one is still baffling me fr fr Oh wait a min....Seems like he had to jump job from job cause employers kept needing to fire workers, unable to keep him on as an employee. Likely becoming more jaded that him working hard and being good isn't working much for him since he keeps getting let go. Then seeing some fresh faced bushy tailed worker beside him would likely piss him off lol 'Why are you acting like that we are all getting fired anyways' Yea I super don't know with this one, I am juggling so many possibilities for this one.

4-Persistence: People won't be unlucky forever, right? (1-Page Note: There are 13 items listed. The first 12 appear to be names of places, and the last one is crossed out.) 4-Willful 'Those who persist will encounter more opportunities' (A page from a diary: I found that old man's notes. Now, it belongs to the one who lives long.) -He doesn’t sound all that fond of Benny pff like there is a hint of a dig there and/or him trying to convince himself that he is going to break out of here and live. Did he decide to set a plan in motion after getting the letter from Benny? Or was it after meeting with Benny?

5-Patience: Next time... (Diary: Tomorrow, I will go to the last place recorded by the old man. If there's still nothing, then I hope he...) 5-Gloomy 'The other side of Kindness and affability' (Abandoned junk: A tattered quilt, a chisel, an unsent letter, and a small piece of wrapped and hardened white bread) -This one I don't see much of a connection other than reference to old man and then there is that QUILT that could have possibly been the one Benny had made for Norton when the Dad was still alive. 'Then I hope he...' sounds hella ominous now lol -squints- Then Is this stuff found with Benny or was it found where Norton abandoned everything? Did Norton not send a letter? Maybe he meant to go back to get his things but never got to cause of the damage the explosion deed had on his mind ah. This one also gives me more questions than answers lol

6-Courage: The more dangers, the more opportunities. (A Geological Report: Part of the tunnel had been blocked by an unidentified object. One small mistake could cause the inner structure of the mine to collapse.) 6-Greedy 'Merely retaking what the heavens owe' (A map: Several crossed-out mines and a red circle.) -I am thinking Greedy and Gloomy should switch here cause Greedy goes well with the Patience with reference to 'go to the last place recorded' BUT what the frig is that 'unidentified object' -squints- Did Norton set that up?? Was that in the red circled mine? Was the place just found like that and Norton was like -cough cough- "whatever nothing is stopping me". Is this all just setting up how Norton was willing to go anywhere to find what he is looking for? hmmmm Willing to go where no man has gone before. Smash Greed and Courage together and ya thats what you get lol A desperate dude that has nothing to loose and only to gain if this all goes right. aahh

7-Alert: You need to be more cautious. (News: Due to the use of gunpowder and detonators, the era of simple rock drilling is coming to an end. 7-Arrogant 'Only by being bolder can you challenge destiny' (Torn paper: Record the blasting's depth, distance between holes… and the amount of explosives used.) -He uhhhhh, yea he definitely ends up using explosives lol. And its interesting that he made sure that everything was measured and counted in every way. Bro knew what he was doing 1000%. He had it all down to the second, the inch! He was careful alright, careful to make sure this goes perfect AH

8-Share: You need more helpers. (Mining Precautions: Theft of explosives is illegal and will be reported to the police once discovered.) 8-Hypocrite 'Important moments must be witnessed by companions' (A memo: Two bottles of the cheapest whine for those drunkards to wet their throats. And toss some fatty meat to the guard dog.) -BRO STOLE THE HELL OUTTA THEM EXPLOSIVES LOOOOOOOL AND HE DID IT IN THE MOST CLICHE WAY EVER AND IT WORKED IIMMMMM--LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL Like How many laws did he end up breaking by the end of all this?? LIKE GEEZZ And people are so used to him being kind and caring, none were the wiser! This Duddddeeeee!! He played the LONG GAME GOLLY

9-Wisdom: Smart people know when to hold on and when to let go. (An Accident Report: An explosion collapsed a mine on the outskirts of the city. It's suspected that the miners had mishandled the explosives, and the police expressed that there's little chance for anyone to survive) 9-Ruthless 'Exploding from deep within like an ignited explosive' (A page from a diary: Those journalists and policemen are gone. So it's just that simple?) -Bro played everything! The people, the system, the science, the math?? LIKE DUDE! If it was an accident, he wouldn't have survived. Norton had this planned to the T! Every 'i' was dotted and ever 't' was crossed, he knew he was surviving that explosion if everything went perfect like he was planning for OH MY GOSH. Bro playing chess while everyone else was LEARNING CHECKERS

10-Luck: That's only because the rest are just unlucky. (1-Page Case: Moderate burns to the face. Suspected to have been caused by direct exposure to excessive temperatures) 10-Numb 'Forget them and stay away from the dark underground' (A magnet: "Maybe it can keep me away from misfortune and darkness.") -He really didn't get much out of this did he. Like, all he got was trauma, burnt up, and a magnet. And boi is he clinging to that magnet with is all. His new coin; his new thing to cling to orz He really lies to himself a lot 😿He keeps finding out far too late that what he thought would change everything just made everything worse 🙃like yes everything changed, but changed for the worst. That tunnel vision hitting him so hard he never stops to go 'huh, this is a horrible idea, how would this possibly change my fate??' Its like he is trying so hard to convince himself that it was all worth it cause he got this crazy magnet orz gooooossshhhhhhhhhhhh Instead of using this as a wake up call it seems he is pressing on that sigma grind. Nothing like a plague doctor bird man monster to set things right LOOOOL

[exoticalmonde]

Arknights - Zwillingstürme im Herbst Event (Day 1)

HEY, Zwillingstürme im Herbst is here and I CANNOT pronounce a single of the German words they are using, I think I might just end myself here. For some reason, the update was loading extremely slowly, but it was long enough to get us through those pesky 10 minutes we had to wait until the server was open.

On the flip side, we have a bunch of cool new things to look at and a reason to rewatch the trailers and cinematics + review the music that comes with the event.

Warning: The following content goes over obvious stuff about the event and the characters that I plan on working on + my personal ideas for who is useful in what way.

At the END of the post is a guide for the music tunes you need for the interrogation event. As far as I have gotten at least.

Since it's Arknights' sixth celebration event we expect a LOT of content, a long story, probably a daily check-in for missions inside the event itself and much more. The banner for Viviana and Virtuosa Arturia (being the Limited operator) lasts a whole three weeks, with every day carrying a single free pull.

Oh the joys of saving for Zuo Le and Logos knowing that I really do want Viviana is a bittersweet sensation. I'm going to get Lessing today at least, so we can be content the husband team stays strong.

Not to forget the free 10-pull we get along, which got me a single Baseline.

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When it comes to the videos and PVs we got, they're actually an insane amount in comparison to other events. Of course, the anniversary has something to do with that, but it's also because the characters we are getting and the story that is meant to unfold is very important to the Arknights world.

This is the official trailer that introduces us to:

all the new characters,

flashing us with the gorgeous medal set,

the skins that are coming out WITH the anniversary event,

the new characters in the red ticket shop

operator archives for: Czerny, Rosa, Diamante, Santalla, Shalem

modules for Mudrock, Penance and Vulcan

+ Lessing, Baseline, Nearl Alter, Bagpipe,

new furniture sets

Naturally, there is no event without the PV. This is from the POV of Viviana.

The event teaser is subsequently the introduction video as you enter the event.

I watched this just now for the first time and it's equally horrifying to see the Aegir, charming to see her get along with kids, saddening since I know this is her at her mother's funeral and also it makes me absolutely insane to think that I feel anything but resentment for her and everything she's done to Ebenholz and Kreide.

I know she is going to make a huge mess in Leithanien again, I know it.

I feel a little smitten for the reason we are getting an ENTIRE introduction to the University. I can't even imagine how it's going to come to play inside the story itself. But I am glad that there's more embracing of the regional tongues now.

Fondly, I was reminded the other day how I started playing when there was only the Chinese and the Japanese (and Korean?) voiceover. Now there is German, Italian, Russian along with the English.

How... Unfortunate, we might never be able to hear French.

As far as I'm familiar, I think Ripples is meant to be the music for both the Candleknight and Arturia.

UPDATE: OF COURSE ARTURIA WOULD HAVE HER MUSIC VIDEO COME OUT TODAY WHEN I MADE THE POST ABOUT IT YESTERDAY BUT WHAT ELSE DO I EXPECT, HERE YOU GO

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There is this video that isn't on YT but it's on the Arknights Twitter page, so I'm going to link it anyways for anybody who wants to see enamel pin-like designs of Bassline, Arturia and the others. It's basically character showcase but in some different form.

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I love the character intros but more than anything I enjoy reading Travel Guides because this means these places are going to be super important to the lore itself and I am EXCITED!!!

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Most of the enemies are very easy to deal with as long as you know the base mechanic and don't get too taken away by the music. The ones with a purple sphere on their heads need EXCITED music to neutralize their special skill and those with a yellow star need MELANCHOLIC music to calm down.

Long story short, the Tuning Nodes need to be all active at the same time and the place where you see that jellyfish shield is the place you need to avoid placing operators because they just won't do anything for the Node itself.

Attack Speed gained from the Exciting music is stackable for your operators. I don't know to what point, but Dr. Pinkie was having a blast learning this last night.

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Speaking of the characters and Baseline specifically, he's a Lupo from Leithanien, appointed in the year 1100 (the year the story is set in as well) as a sort of mediator between RI and the Leithanien Imperial court. He's uninfected and his role is Defender, specifically Guardian aka Medic Defender. Real name Michael Wolfgang, tiniest Schatz because he's only 160cm tall and pretty much the same size as Greyy-alter me thinks. Birthday is on the 16th of July.

From what I imagine, I can use him instead of Nearl/Gummy or Spot since his Skill 1 heals operators only if they are under 50% and his Skill 2 stops attacking and concentrates on healing + gives the ally a shield.

I haven't done the speed/strength comparisons to Nearl but VS Gummy, his skill 1 charge is 6 seconds and the difference is only 20% additional healing at M3 for a cost of an additional 1DP at all E stages.

To me, that's good enough to exchange honestly if you're looking for more tankiness due to his Talent.

If we overlook the cost of maxing out a 5-star in comparison to a 4-star.

AND NOT TO MENTION HIS TOKEN IS--- I mean, if you insist I have it, sure, but I feel like the mouthpiece of any instrument is important to the player in their own way... right?

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Lessing is the free 6-star operator you get in the event by competing the missions in Herzenfolgen. It's unlockable after you finish stage ZT-2 and it comes with 3 (technically 4) characters you can get event materials from including Lessing's Potential.

He's a Guard, specifically a Dreadnought (or as it's also popular - a Duelist Guard) whom I immediately am looking at as FINALLY there is something I can use instead of Melantha when I get asked for someone of that type. You'd think that out of all the guards I do have already there's going to be someone who does as much damage as Melantha and equal in health, but no.

Since Mel is a 3-star character and only reaches level 55 E1, I'm going to compare them like this: Lessing does more damage, has more health and defence than Melantha. His Redeployment time is 10 seconds more than her though.

Skill-wise Lessing's Skill 1 is an Offensive Recovery (charges itself when hitting enemies) like Hoederer's that does additional damage on the charged strike sans health regen.

Skill 2 is like a buff on his first talent: Pain Focus (this is at E1) - When blocking, take 20% less Physical and Arts damage from enemies not blocked by this unit. So that means that at lvl 7 of his skill you apply the maths that I am NOT going to math myself. At least not while Dr. Pinkie is sleeping to check them for me. When deployed, 1st Talent effect increased to 2x, ATK +35%, and attacks become 2-hit combos. His Skill 3 is what people get him for: Become immune to Negative Statuses, HP +80%, and attacks deal 180% ATK as Physical damage when attacking a blocked target Skill can be used when Operator is affected by a Negative Status, removing the status, but dealing 600 Arts damage to self.

So far as I can read while my Lessing is cooking in the training room - yes, you might be able to kill him if you use his skill and he's under 600HP.

My little Hoederer, big sword - big damage wielder. The only saving grace for Melnatha is that she's 13 DP at max potential while Lessing is 21. That's a lot to consider.

And of course, he is a cutie patootie in his letter, I'm crying.

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Here is the guide offered by the Twitter page for the Herzenfolgen because otherwise, I could not grasp a single word of the explanations inside the event itself.

To explain it in simple terms:

Every day you get 3 people who will tell you a story and according to the information they give you, usually the important part is in red, you have to figure out what sort of emotion they have felt and then you have to align them to the 'desire' they have.

Making a mistake 2-3 times gives you the emotion and the 'desire' so it's not impossible to figure out, but it's a lot of experimenting as well until you get both right. And the notes you get are exhaustable, so you need to farm for them to know.

Dr. Pinkie also told me yesterday that the cards you DO manage to use also disappear.

Whenever you complete the day you get an Authorization Warrant to unlock the case-related characters and then you get a pot for Lessing every time you finish those.

You get 2 a day actually I think. Since I already managed to squeeze 4.

Here's all the emotions since some of the guides I found kind of misnamed the emotions and I had to spend a long while staring to get it to actually work.

TO GET THE FINAL ONE: DIE REISE (Tomorrow's Opus) you just have to complete all of the main interrogation nodes.

With that, I wish you good luck, enjoy the music of Zwillingstürme and I hope that you enjoy the music as much as I do. My favourite theme so far is 'Under the Spires' and 'Anger's Opus'.

WHICH, I almost forgot, YOU CAN FIND ON SPOTIFY AS WELL, IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL!

[dynamic-k]

I am so sorry for not updating much aside from the Guessing Game (which is super easy even on zero coffee).

I have been tired and busy and trying to finish assignments, and as a result, writing got pushed to the back burner for a bit.

Stay tuned and thank you for your patience!

I sure hope you all don't end up like:

XD [meme by Xyna]

Anyways, as far as a specific date is concerned for when chapter 4 of Arc Two will be out... uhmmm, I have no idea.

I'm almost done with it, yes, but there's a conversation scene I'm trying to nail just right and it isn't cooperating. XD

I'll get it soon, fret not.

Small Hollowhead chapter 5 is the closest to being finished out of every other fic I have been focusing on. If I'm lucky with my time today, I may even be able to wrap that up and post within the next few hours, but no promises.

I have also re-picked up my beloved Red Menace series. Whoops. I left that one on the floor for a bit. 😅

And Second's Tale may be a little while too. I am trying to take my time with that one since I still have no solid plan for the final chapter. And with how close I am to the end, l really wanna get it right! Maybe even better than how I ended Super Sticks - Arc One, if that's even possible.

All in all, I thought I may as well update so everyone isn't wondering if I'm dead or abandoning ship.

I WOULD NEVER ABANDON SHIP. WRITING IS MAH LIFE, GUYS.

Also, I got like this finance book I was supposed to read back in November of 2023, and I still haven't and the book report rough draft for that book I haven't read... is due tomorrow. And the final draft is due the 28th...

DBSJBWJDJW

I'm procrastinating on a writing assignment. Who knew...

Why can't my writing assignment be little baby Second instead of three things I learned about this financing budget book?

I know this is important, but it's boring important!!

halp

[aerodaltonimperial]

So obviously Vamp and I have been tearing our hair out since last night trying to make sense of this new direction of the Darby/Nick/Fox/Christian/Lucha storyline, mostly because it just doesn't line up with everything else anymore, and finally we were like the most obvious reasoning tends to be the correct one, which means it isn't supposed to make sense because it no longer does. I really think that we were correct in that Darby was originally planned to win the TNT belt last weekend, and they changed the plans; this is why it feels like the story took a hard right turn. Because it did LOL.

One of those things that always ends up tripping me up is remembering that these stories are living, breathing ecosystems that can and do change at a moment's notice for a wide variety of reasons. So when you try to use the old pieces to justify the newest parts, they don't match. This is why Christian's focus swung around to Darby instead of Nick, where it had been, and why the comms didn't match the acting (Vamp pointed out that comms kept saying Nick was so mad at Darby for Fox, but!! Where?? Their Wed match undid all of that in one fell swoop!). But it's worth noting that most of the time when a storyline changes, they pivot away and leave things sort of just open. They haven't done that here. For whatever reason, despite Darby not being anywhere near the TNT belt anymore, all our players (minus Swerve) are in a holding pattern. They aren't shifting the story to something else, they are filling time and keeping everyone exactly where they were.

This means that most likely last weekend's outcome was changed, and as far as we can tell, there would only be two reasons for them to scrap that and push it later, which we assume they are since Christian cannot seem to stop getting all up in Darby’s business. (We thought originally that Darby was actually injured, and so they changed a potential title run, but I think he's proven that isn't the case.)

The first reason would be them pushing Darby’s win to WrestleDream, since it's in Seattle. I wouldn't necessarily put it past TK to do this, but it felt VERY short notice since Darby was literally doing a press tour two days before the PPV. We can't rule it out. They could easily be keeping them in this holding pattern because it got shifted a month later, even though I really don't see why anything would matter that much since Darby’s shot at the TNT title came a ridiculous 6 weeks after he "won" it anyway. (We have thoughts on why that happened, too.) BUT. You know. TK doesn't sleep for like 5 days and fucking invents new PPVs, so, anything is possible. 🤣 Maybe someone decided this was SUPER IMPORTANT, idk.

The second reason to push a storyline out and keep everyone in a holding pattern is because a player you need is unavailable at present. And as far as we can tell, there is only one person out who would be important to this storyline. (Swerve has, at this point, exited the narrative, as he has moved on to Adam Page.) Initially, we toyed with Fox not going to London having changed things, but he is right back in the story where they probably wanted him, and his lack of involvement doesn't explain why Christian and Lucha are inexplicably still tied to this. To be completely honest, we can't make this fucking story work without Jack. We have no other options!!! Everything else has been struck!! WHY.

I suspect we are going to see more of this holding pattern? And obviously we have gone through a lot of what this means for Nick, what this means for Darby, etc etc. But, man, what a wrench this threw in our theory crafting. It really took us awhile to just be like NOTHING HOLDS ANYMORE BECAUSE SOMETHING CHANGED.

I assume Vamp will be along shortly to add to this. There's some weeeeird pieces that don't line up with actual histories (like Christian taunting Darby that he will never have a belt when... Darby is the longest running TNT champion?) but DO line up with the parallels they seem to be running, so it's kind of a mess. I'm thinking that we are putting 10x more hours into this than they are. 🤣

[sea-dwelling-wizard]

who are you?

call me wizard!

i go by she/her pronouns.

i live in the mariana trench. if you wanna visit pls make sure you have the correct equipment i am not responsible for any harm or injury

this blog is for me to infodump about my interests and talk about my passions and thoughts! dw it doesnt bite :D

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what things do you like?

dancing with the fae, singing with the sirens, swimming with the ones down below, stargazing with myself, writing about realms beyond, sketching all that i see, summoning those above, coding the divine (HTML, PHP, now learning CSS!)

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fun facts

im not aesthetic at all im trying so hard to make this look good rn send help

im super girly :D

im not a picky eater, but put figs in front of me and i will explode

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i love stuffed toys, figurines, and those of the like!! i still sleep with a plushie akajjshsh (its a whale plushie i love it sm)

i collect stationary. i dont use any of it

im thinking of opening a neocities but i dont know enough CSS to do that hhhh

im in a MASSIVE book slump rn 🙏im trying to get back into it thoo

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important!

i don't live in the USA nor Europe. my timezone is in IST, so please be patient when you interact with my posts! i may stay up late on weekends tho ;D

i do not tolerate racism, transphobia, homophobia, sexism, TERFs, etc. on my blog. if you are an NSFW blog, you will be blocked.

i am a minor. please refrain from sending suggestive/graphic/violent asks.

on the other hand, please feel free to tag me in tag games!!

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some other stuff!

my favorite songs: reincarnation apple by pinnochio-p, non-breath oblige by pinnochio-p, god-ish by pinnochio-p, odo by ado, dramaturgy by eve, konoyo loading... by REOL, no title by REOL, wozwald by nilfruits, CH4NGE by giga-p, soleil soleil by pomme, hole-dwelling by kikuo, matryoshka by hachi

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my favorite books: the midnight library by matt haig, klara and the sun by kazuo ishiguro, and tons more!

what i'm reading: once upon a broken heart by stephanie garber!

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my favorite shows: puella magi madoka magica, sailor moon, arcane, dungeon meshi

indie shows i like: the amazing digital circus, hazbin hotel, port by the sea (pilot stage), lackadaisy (pilot stage), ramshackle (pilot stage)

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ABOUT MY WIPs!

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beneath the waves, within this soul: book 1 of the Heavenly Tetralogy

The Abyss consumes. It gives no mercy for those damned.

The dark is home for Ourra, a trench-dweller with plans of chaos. Haunted by his mistakes, he yearns to make all well again.

Atticus, a lost soul with nothing to lose, enters the Abyss to save those he loves; for a price, of course.

So, what will it be? Love, or the pain of a man turned evil?

Progress: outlining the third draft since the second was too wobbly

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝

on this sunset shall i sing: book 2 of the Heavenly Tetralogy

Having magic beyond the set boundaries of the realm you live in means high expectations. And when you break those expectations, it isn't pretty.

Now, the Impyreum is stuck in a state of chaos and darkness: who's to blame?! No, no, no, Apollo did not drown the Sun. That's what he said, anyway!

The First Protector sets sail for the seas to search for the missing fragments along with the smartest, dedicated, and the top investigators and strategists. Apollo is invited, and nobody really likes him for a while.

Where's the Sun? Will the light ever come back?

Progress: Nope. Nothing. I haven't even decided the team-

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝

Dive in!!! It'll be fun!!

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝

[daceydeath]

Hierarchy (Part 11)

Heirachy: a system, especially in a society or organization, in which people are organized into different levels of importance from highest to lowest.

Pairing: Mafia Changbin x Reader Word Count: 5.5K Genre: Mafia Au, friends to lovers, slow burn 🔞 Warnings: 18+, minors DNI, swearing, violence, torture, discussions of murder, vaginal fingering, Han being a little psycho,

You have always been utterly uninteresting, safely boring as close. You had a normal job, normal friends and the sweetest bestie on the planet but now everything is upside down and that best friend of yours is far more dangerous than you could have ever imagined.

The vault was deathly quiet just the way Chan liked it he thought as he made his was down to see Hyunjin and Han who wanted to start on their plans with him in attendance, they had claimed it was only fair that he got to taunt them, hurt them and finish them off when they were done playing. He was happy to help out this time these cunts deserved the worst kind of death for what they had tried to do to you, his precious girl, the only woman he would happily burn the world to the ground for. Walking into the observation room he was not remotely surprised to see Han in full hazmat suit dicking around with something to freak Felix out who was waiting for Dr Park to finish checking them over to make sure they were well enough to endure what was planed for them, without unexpectedly dying, which would be a dampen on the whole day for Han.

"Do you think the spatter would be the same alive as dead?" he asked joyfully waving his arms around gesturing about something.

"Don't know, don't care, don't want to think about it" Felix grumbled trying hard to concentrate on the screen in front of him still working on tracking the other Ateez members that had gone radio silent since they had nabbed Mingi.

"Have you found anything Lix?" he asked ignoring Han completely.

"Well I've located Woojong so that might get me somewhere and obviously Hongjoong and San aren't really hiding from us since they know what we are doing" he sighed scratching his chin lightly "How's bubs?".

"She's alright, she's not over it obviously but she's calmer" he smiled slightly "She's spent far too much time with our resident maniac though she came up with some super nasty ideas during the night".

"That's my princess" Han cheered before Hyunjin elbowed him "our princess!" Hyunjin shook his head silently chuckling "his princess?" He amended looking slightly put out.

"She's Felix's bub she can be your princess" he rolled his eyes "I don't give a shit and it makes her happy"

"Yeah that's MY princess" he whooped flicking Hyunjin's forehead.

"Idiots" Chan shook his head as he entered to see when everything was going to start making Felix laugh. "So not only are you playing but I also want intel on anything and everything Ateez has been doing, setting up and bankrolling".

"We can get that out of at least one of the fuckers we deal with even if it isn't Mingi" Hyunjin nodded easily.

"So what were her nasty ideas big guy? Anything fun I can do?" Han bounced on his toes expectantly.

"None of them you could do, and I'm not fucking telling you unless she says I can" he chuckled watching the little lunatic deflate slightly.

"Well that's not fun" he pouted "ask her".

"No, there is no way any of them are happening anyway, it was her letting off steam that's all" he shrugged turning back to Chan "did you want me helping with Jeongin's search for the others?"

"I thought you would want to be down here today?" Chan quirked an eyebrow.

"Yeah but I don't need to see all of the torture our two resident pain freaks are up for" he rolled his eyes as Hyunjin and Han grinned in unison.

"Were were going to start on Mingi and the switch to Kim, Bin can start us off then go were going to need a few days to get through all we have planned" Hyunjin explained.

"Lets get this circus going" Han laughed as he dashed out the door.

"Fuck it I'm going upstairs" Felix groaned leaving them to it.

Hyunjin and three of his and Han's men escorted Mingi into the interrogation room, cuffing him to the chair to ensure no one other than the man himself go injured in the festivities he and Han had planned but those would wait first they had agreed he would speak to Mingi and then he could do as he wished and leave the rest to them after he had finished with him. Mingi looked smug when they left him alone for him to do his thing, getting information wasn't his forte he didn't have the patience, and to be honest he also didn't care this was about letting Mingi know how badly he had fucked up before the others had at him. But he still needed to be careful as long as he didn't totally lose his cool Mingi would survive to deal with Han, Hyunjin and whatever the ordeal they had decided he would be living though before the end.

"Fancy seeing you here" he drawled stepping into the room the bruises and marks on Mingi's face already a reminder of what was at stake for him.

"Seo" Mingi apathetically sighed looking towards his own hands to feign disinterest.

"Time for a little chat I thought before anything else happens to your pretty face" he smirked looking at the blooming purple on his cheekbone.

"I doubt anything will happen to my face Seo, but your concern is touching" Mingi chuckled still thinking he had the upper hand.

"Well considering Hongjoong sold you and the others out to save his own skin I don't think anyone actually gives a shit what happens to your fucking mug" he shrugged pulling a chair closer to Mingi to watch him closer. Mingi didn't look up he continued to study his hand but it was obvious that the doubt was sinking in.

"Now how about we have a little chat about why you thought it would be a good idea to go after MY girl you piece of shit" he asked coldly.

"You have a hundred girls Seo what's one less little gash?" Mingi shrugged honestly still not connecting the dots that had been laid out before him.

"My wife is not one less gash you stupid cunt" he growled watching the penny drop as Mingi's head shot up to look at him in a mixture of shock and fear.

"Wife?" Mini gulped "no one knew you had a wife Seo how the fuck would anyone know that" his voice going up an octave as he tried to justify himself.

"The point remains the same Mingi you came after what is mine, you threatened what is mine and you injured what it mine so you will die for it the only question that remains is how slowly and painfully you die" he uttered calmly standing up and moving the chair away again.

"I swear this was never meant as an insult we thought you wouldn't give a shit" Mingi was panicking now he could smell the fear oozing from him as the weight of his mistake crushed him. "You have different girls every week how would we know you had a wife?".

"I've seen the surveillance work you arseholes did, you knew damn well she was with me long term" he sneered enjoying the panic and desperation rolling off Mingi in waves maybe that's what Han found so addictive about the process, the power he had over the pathetic motherfuckers that ended up in this room.

"I thought she was just another chick I swear Seo, we can come to an arrangement I'll give you whatever you need and I'll disappear you will never hear from me again" Mingi's voice cracked on the last words his offer falling on deaf ears.

"You enjoy your time with my brothers, they have some surprises in store for you" he smiled cruelly opening the door revealing Han and Hyunjin matching maniacal smiles on their faces "Have at it boys, show our guest a good time".

Binnie had asked you to stay up in your room while he was down in the vault but Felix had asked you to join them in the meeting room after Han had started getting over excited about the torment he was going to unleash. So you had come down to sit with him and help out bringing them coffee or snacks while he, Jeongin and Seungmin worked around the clock to find the other men involved in the plot against you. Plopping down on the couch you started toying with the ties of your sweatpants to alleviate your nerves, logically you knew there was no way that anyone could get to you there were the eight members all in the house, plus the staff and then finally thirty odd security and team members within the grounds you were safe but the feeling of vulnerability would remain until it had been all dealt with, until they were all dead. Changbin wandered in instantly lifting his eyebrow at you when he saw you bundled behind Felix who lifted one of your feet to hook into his chair so he could make sure you were there and keep you feeling safe.

"I thought you were staying upstairs doll?" he smiled cheekily.

"I was going to but Felix invited me down here, is that ok?" you asked looking slightly worried.

"Of course it is bubs, Bin wants you safe and where else is safer in here with the three of us" Felix smiled giving a slight glare to Chanbgin.

"It's fine baby, I thought you might just like a break from everything" he chuckled sitting beside you and pulling you onto his lap so you were straddling him, his hands wandering under the hoodie you wore to your bare skin.

"I don't really want to be alone" you whispered letting him pull you against his chest and letting him hold you there, you felt dwarfed by his huge hoodie and his large arms holding you in his warmth. Humming softly you snuggled your face into his neck and closed your eyes still tired from not sleeping properly the previous night, your dreams haunted by the what if's and what could have been's.

"So how are we doing insofar as locations for the others?" Chan asked loudly as he entered the meeting room, looking around "Oh little one, are you feeling alright this morning?" he asked in a quieter tone. You nodded from where you were cuddled into Binnie's frame making Chan chuckle as they all continued to either talk about finding people or what Han and Hyunjin had decided was long enough for each of them to suffer before they switched victims. You didn't pay much attention, too interested in the scent of Changbin surrounding you, making you feel far more interested in him than your surroundings.

"Baby? Did you hear Chan?" Bin chuckled knowing from how you were pressing yourself against him what you were thinking about and what you were not paying attention too.

"No sorry I tuned out in case you said anything about what Han was up to" you quickly apologized turning to look at Chan.

"That's ok little one you have been through a lot you are allowed to be dazed" he chuckled as you looked guilty "how are the arms this morning?"

"The are worse actually they hurt more today" you explained lifting yourself of Binnie as you turned to completely face Chan and push up the sleeves of the hoodie, the marks had gone from deep red with a bit of purple to dark blue with black splotches, making all of them collectively clench of grind their teeth in anger as they looked at them.

"Can we ask Han to break their wrists?" Minho asked making you aware of his presence behind Chan.

"Or worse?" Seungmin added darkly making you frown slightly as you pulled the sleeves of your hoodie back down to cover them quickly.

"Alright back upstairs" Binnie said softly being careful to keep his voice even "I need to put more ointment and bandages on them to help the bruising go down". He slid his fingers between yours interlocking your hands before leading you back up to his room to take care of you.

"You don't really need to do this for me Binnie" you smiled as you sat on his bed watching him lay out the ointment bandages and wipes to make sure the area was nice and clean before he started.

"Of course I do you're my baby doll" he chuckled reaching to pull his hoodie off over your head which you allowed forgetting that it would leave you in just your bra too lazy to actually get properly dressed when you changed out of the shirt you had been sleeping in.

"Bin, I'm not wearing anything under this" you squeaked suddenly remembering you lack of clothing.

"I know but this can be my reward for looking after you" he smirked waggling his eyebrows at you enjoying how flustered you looked, he chuckled again as he continued to treat your wrists so gently that you couldn't help feel total love and adoration of him. This frightening hard man treating you like you were the most precious and fragile jewel in the world made your heart swell.

"Bin?" you mumbled as he began packing away the medical supplies.

"What do you need baby?" he cooed softly his eyes still raking over the exposed areas of your body.

"You" you pouted bashfully feeling the heat rising to your cheeks. He cupped your cheek in one of his large hands tilting your head so you would look him in the eye.

"Doll, as much as I would love to just make love to you all afternoon, are you sure you want that? You have been through a shit load of things in the last few weeks" he spoke so tenderly to you it almost brought tears to your eyes, gently stroking your cheek with the pad of his thumb. "I don't want you to feel pressured to do anything with me until you are sure".

"Are you still going to want me? after all of this...." you trailed off lifting one of your bandaged arms biting your lower lip nervously "I'll understand if you don't". The fear that he would now see you as tainted or damage was beginning to bother you, making you feel like given the chance he might have changed his mind and no longer want you how he did before. He didn't respond he just pulled you against him kissing you so softly and lovingly you actually did feel tears prick at the corners of your eyes.

"I need this Binnie, I want this, I want to prove to myself that this doesn't change me loving you, that I don't have to be scared" you whispered pulling him back to your lips kissing him again.

"Baby, you are allowed to be frightened, you are allowed to feel scared, it doesn't change a thing between us" He smiled carefully pulling away from you again his thumbs collecting the moisture from your lashes as he cupped your face.

"You don't need to prove you're mine baby I know you are" his voice was laced with concern "You don't need to prove it to anyone".

"Please Binnie, I just need to feel you and only you" you mumbled.

"I love you" he whispered kissing is way along your jaw slowly as you hummed.

"I am so in love with you that there is nothing without you" he kissed his way down your throat his teeth nibbling at your skin.

"I am always going to love you" pulling away to connect his lips back to yours before laying you back on the bed as he hovered over you, your legs reflexively spreading to accommodate him, his tongue slipping between your lips and rolling against your own languidly as you whimpered into his mouth clinging to him tightly.

"I will always want you beside me baby" he murmured against your lips one hand grasping your waist and the other cupping your face as he again began his softly kissing your lips. You tangled your hands in his hair hoping to anchor yourself to him, his weight on you helping to bring you comfort and his words making your heart soar. You could feel tears collecting in your lashes and making their way across the skin of your temple as you basked in his love for you.

"Please Binnie" you whimpered as he began kissing his way down your neck his hand now trailing its way down your body, brushing against your rib cage. His lips leaving a trail of heat behind them making your skin feel like it was tingling with electricity, being in just your bra gave him access to far more of your skin so you whimpered loudly as he began sucking his mark onto your shoulder marking you as his and his only.

"Please what baby doll?" he smiled against your skin laving his tongue over the fresh mark on your skin.

"Please love me" you gasped as me moved to the other side of your chest to mark you there too. "I need you so bad".

"Are you sure you want me to touch you?" he murmured kissing you again "You don't have to push yourself not with me, not ever".

"I need you, I need you to show me you love me" you mumbled against his lips grinding your hips against him.

"Fuck you kill me doll" he hissed pulling himself off you enough to allow you to wiggle out of your sweatpants "Shit were you not wearing underwear all this time?".

"I didn't need it" you purred as he pulled you hard against him again kissing his way down to the tops of your breasts.

"Fuck baby you absolutely sure I can stop now?" you nodded pouting when he didn't instantly touch you "You are so incredible and all mine" he growled attaching his lips back to yours his kisses increasing in their want as the seconds passed. His hands caressed you so softly despite the urgency of his lips on yours, fingers slowly trailing down to your waiting heat and you whined as he continued to tease you eventually allowing them to slide between your folds.

"Oh god Changbin" you mewled as the pads of him index and middle finger began circling your clit, your fingers gripping his arms your nails making little crescent shaped dents in his skin the harder you grasped him.

"What do you need baby? Do you want me to make you cum on my fingers? Do you want me to make you come on my tongue?" his low growl turning you one either further.

"Just you" you moaned wantonly your hips already grinding against his hand you could hear him chuckle as he lowered his mouth to swirl his tongue around your nipple through the lace fabric that still covered it, biting it lightly while you arched against him lost too the already intense pleasure building in your core.

"Such a good girl letting me know what you want" he grinned into your skin moving again to press his lips to your neck "I'm going to make my good girl cum so hard she wont remember her own name".

"Please Binnie, I'll be so good" you gasped feeling almost overwhelmed with how good he was making you feel with just his fingers, and how much he made you feel like he wanted to worship you.

"Yeah, you gonna be good?" he cooed nibbling your earlobe.

"Yes" you begged "yes I'll be good".

"Alright my good girl cum for me" he groaned. The orgasm that tore through you made you scream his name as your legs shook and pleasure sent you into euphoria, feeling as though you were floating rather than pinned underneath him.

"Such a good girl for me baby" he grinned kissing your lips sweetly "Now you stay here and rest I'll be back in a little bit to take care of you" you nodded feeling too blissed out to even speak, you watched him get off the bed and pull his comforter over your almost naked form before he left you to sleep off the pleasure he had given you.

Stepping back into the vault Changbin felt a unique sense of satisfaction that he had never felt when it came to someone who needed to pay for what they had done. You moans still ringing in his ears gave him an idea, that if he was honest you had planted the seed of the night before. You had suggested making your former boss know he was never going to have you by recording an audio file of him fucking you into the mattress, but he honestly knew he would never be able to do that there was a risk the boys would hear and those sounds were for his ears only. But this idea he could keep quiet this he could spring on that pathetic piece of shit without any of the boys being any the wiser. Han was positively beaming as he walked into the observation room looking like a little blood splattered pixie as he bounced on the balls of his feel and threw his hands around animatedly as he spoke to Minho.

"So I think Mingi was pretty fucking shaken after the big guy said she was his wife. Fucking almost shit himself" Han chirped like a kid at Christmas.

"Dude, do you know how much blood you covered in?" Minho chuckled looking at the flood to see if any had dripped onto the floor.

"Yeah, cool huh?" Han grinned.

"You had fun then?" he asked Han as he spun to face him.

"Oh yeah but not as much fun as I'm going to have! Hyunjin is just changing and collecting the other cunt now" Han replied excitedly "He said we should wear clean suits, I say we scare the absolute shit out of him like he did with our princess. I figured you wouldn't care as long as he dies"

"Painfully, I don't give a shit what you do but it needs to be painful" he nodded watching all sorts of ideas pop into Han's head as he dashed from the room to put them into place.

"Fucking hell its going to take the cleaning guys a week to get all the blood out of the floor" Minho groaned pulling out his phone making Chan laugh from where he was standing beside the door.

"Did we learn anything from Mingi?" he asked turning to Chan leaving Minho to deal with his problems.

"Ateez haven't been doing too well on the gambling or club fronts since we took a slice of their territory so they main income is whores and the occasional dabbling in the drugs trade, nothing major and nothing that is likely to become a problem for us" Chan explained "I think the best bet would to be informing EXO that they are infringing on their brothels and see if they deal with whoever is left after all this".

"We then don't break anything you promised to Hoongjong and we still eliminate the whole crew" Minho nodded looking impressed.

"Well we can't look like we reneged on a deal of this magnitude but it doesn't sit right that they didn't do enough to see what Mingi was up to" Chan finished looking at him with piqued interest. "What are you thinking Bin?"

"My doll gave me an idea while I was treating her wrists, the bruising is seriously deep by the way its going to take a fortnight to lift I reckon" He glared at the observation widow harshly "But like I said she has given me an idea which I think I might try, depends though".

"Oh what?" Minho asked looking just as interested.

"Whether his fucking face makes me beat him to death on sight" he shrugged watching as the door opened to the observation room and Hyunjin unceremoniously dumped your former boss in the waiting chair.

"Fair I say" Chan laughed darkly turning to leave with Minho on his tail.

Taking one last breath to steady himself from just walking into the room and killing the mother fucker he slowly opened the door to face Kim for the first time since it had all begun.

"You must be the Director I have heard about?" he started as though he was just another thug here to watch over him.

"That's right you scum I am Kim Min Joon Director of Kim & San Publishing and Design, I am the uncle of a very important man in the criminal world, I am to be respected" Min Joon was trying to to sound forceful but the nerves in his voice gave him away. He nodded as if contemplating what Kim was saying before smirking and letting out a dark chuckled.

"Do you know who I am then?" he asked raising his eyebrow as he slipped the bomber jacket he had been wear off to reveal his gun sitting in its holster.

"Scum? No one? another criminal?" Min Joon continued trying but each word became weaker.

"I guess you could think of me that way, or I could introduce myself" His smirk grew as he stepped closer to the already frightened cunt "I am Seo Changbin, second in charge and Enforcer of the SKZ Syndicate and you fucked with my wife".

"My pet doesn't have a husband, she would have told me, your just her stupid boyfriend" Min Joon shrieked as he struggle against the restraints.

"My wife is not your pet she is mine" he growled looking more frightening now then had had in ages, lip pulled back over his teeth, the veins on his neck and arms popping out and his eyes glinting dangerously in the low light.

"Look she is just one woman I'm sure we can work this out" Min Joon simpered pathetically as he tried to make himself smaller in the chair. He didn't care he just took another step forward grabbing Min Joon's face by his mouth and jaw before leaning in so close that he could whisper directly in his ear.

"Not sure if the scent is still on this hand but this is as close as you will ever get to my girls pretty pussy, made her cum all over these fingers before I came down here to make sure you knew, that you will never get to touch her, but that I will, I get to fuck her full every. single. night. while she screams my name". He smirked as Min Joon tried his hardest to inhale your scent still lingering on his fingers before pulling them away and punching him hard straight to his jaw sending blood and teeth flying making Min Joon slump forward in his chair whimpering pathetically.

"Now you have a good time with my associates, they have been looking forward to meeting you" he faux smiled opening the door to leave as Han passed him to step into the room covered head to toe in Mingi's blood.

"We are going to have so much fun Director Kim" Han sang grinning like a lunatic while Hyunjin followed him looking every bit an elegant psychopath.

Returning upstairs to you he felt like he needed to do nothing else beside caring for you. You had obviously needed him to reassure you that he wasn't ever going to stop loving you, wanting you, needing you just because someone had tried to hurt you. You needed him more than his brothers did so he texted Chan that he was going to stay with you for the rest of the day at least until you were feeling like you were safe again. Opening his door quietly he saw you bundled you in his sheets and quilt from your, still, bare shoulders you obviously hadn't gotten up after he left. Smiling widely at your soft face as you slept he stripped down to his boxers and got into bed beside you. holding you close and running his fingers through your hair.

You woke up to the feeling of deep warmth against your face and the feeling of fingers skimming through your hair, smiling you knew you you were cuddled into Changbin's side, you could smell his cologne and body wash.

"Hello my love" you yawned rolling back from his side and stretching not noticing to surprised look on his face only the enormous grin that followed it.

"You feel any better baby" he was still smiling like you had hung the stars and the moon which you didn't totally understand in your slightly foggy brain. "I was thinking I could run you a bath, check on your wrists, feed you some delicious things and just spend the rest of the day with you".

"Are you allowed to just blow off Chan and the others for me?" you narrowed your eyes cheekily "Because I won't say no any of those things".

"Chan has everything under control and you need me so I can do whatever I want" he chuckled scooping you into his arms again and placing soft kisses all over your face.

"Bin!" you yelped as he kept to pressed against him unable to wiggle free from his muscled arms until he decided to let you go, which he did thirty odd kisses later.

"Come on baby doll lets get you in the bath, then I'll get you something to eat while you soak" he hummed getting out of bed and pulling on the nearest pair of sweatpants so he could start running your bath and venture downstairs. You nodded not actually getting up until you heard the water running you slipped off your bra and made your way into the bathroom already smelling the sweet scent of orange blossoms and lilacs filling the air. Changbin helped you step into the tub before removing the bandages around your wrists his thumb cautiously grazing over the damaged flesh, the color had improved slightly but it was still an ugly reminder that you longed to forget about, kissing your knuckles he left to get the food he had promised you as you laid back and enjoyed the hot water swirling around you.

Walking back downstairs he stopped when Han wolf whistled at him to raise an eyebrow while the little loon cracked up laughing.

"Thought it was a little soon for her to jump back on the horse but good for you" his cackle drawing Minho and Felix from the kitchen.

"Fuck off you little gremlin, it's not like that" he rolled his eyes making his way across the room towards the kitchen.

"Is bubs ok?" Lix asked his voice slightly deeper than normal giving away that he was obviously a little tense.

"She is, she wanted to nap and now she's in the bath, I figured getting her to eat something while she is feeling pretty good will help her heal a bit faster" he explained pulling open the fridge to see what was in there.

"Good" Felix sighed in relief "that's good she didn't want to say earlier but I could see she was still scared".

"But food is an excellent idea man" Minho added watching him grab as many things as he could carry "She needs it to help her recovery".

"Speaking of things to help her" Hyunjin interjected easily "Kim has suffered a lot thanks to her smitten little psychopath"

"Thanks Hannie" he looked over to Han who was looking particularly pleased with himself "when she's up for it I'll tell her you made him suffer for her".

"It wasn't all me whatever you said to him really fucked with his head so you will have to teach me" Han sat down picking up Minho's coffee and taking a sip.

"Get you own" Minho sighed.

"I don't think I will" Han sang poking his tongue out.

"What did you say to him?" Minho asked.

"That is not something you need to know" he smirked picking up everything and moving to leave the kitchen "Oh and I don't care if the building is on fire we are not to be disturbed".

Opening your eyes you saw Binnie placing a tray full of foods on a stool beside the bath before making himself comfortable beside it so he could feed you. Strawberries and cream, cookies, some rice balls and from the rustling is his pocket you knew he had brought up so chocolate too although he was yet to pull it out for you.

"Your spoiling me again Binnie" you smiled dreamily as he swept your hair behind your ear.

"I know that's what I'm meant to do, treat my baby like a queen" he chuckled picking up a rice ball for you to eat. "open up you need to eat a little to help your wrists recover". You opened your mouth allowing him to feed you until you were full and the water had cooled significantly.

"Did you want to get out now and rest a little more? maybe watch a movie? eat the chocolate I gor for you" he asked sweetly looking you over and getting you a towel"

"Thank you my love" you whispered watching he face light up.

"I fucking love when you call me that" he murmured into your hair as he wrapped you in a fluffy towel.

"Really? I will have to come up with others then" you teased pulling on the clean set of sweats and hoodie he had brought you to wear.

a/n: Thank you for reading my lovely loves, I'm sorry this isn't my best work but the next part will be better, promise. Once again any likes, reblogs, comments or generally hilarious # are adored

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[reveregret]

Heya! I'm back again. I had a question pop into my head earlier, what does an ideal relationship/marriage/future look like to you? Im always super curious how people perceptions are shaped differently. Thank you like always :]

this is a question i've always struggled with. for a long time, i wasn't sure if a relationship was the right thing for me. not all of my obsessions are people i'd be happy to be with, actually. it's quite difficult to find someone that i would be. i've dealt with a fair amount of questioning if i'm arospec since i didn't especially want to date anyone; i just wanted to be good friends if anything. imagining my future was usually just a loose concept of "i'd want to be roommates with a close friend", but not having a particular friend in mind. i knew it'd be more financially manageable and that was really the only reason i had. i'm not particularly fond of sharing my space, honestly.

i wasn't sure i could be genuinely happy with another person. when i tried to define what a relationship even means, i always thought of it as individuals that support one another and that you could grow as a person with. it wasn't really different from my meaning of friendship, so why bother with that distinction? pretty much everyone that wanted to be anything other than platonic was never healthy to be around anyway. however, it turns out that a relationship doesn't have to be something that makes me feel lost or miserable. who would've guessed? it is possible for me care for someone romantically, albeit rarely.

marriage feels more like an expectation than something i actively want, and the idea of it is definitely something i'd have to warm up to. i'd need to know someone very well and for years before considering going through with marrying them. legally binding myself to someone isn't something i can be flippant about. there's a lot of other steps that come before it and i'd rather figure things out as they go. planning ahead is good to do, of course, but it's also important to respect the flow of things instead of trying to force it onto a certain path. a little flexibility is worth having.

on a simpler note: i've always had an appreciation for the idea of moving to the woods and living there. i prefer colder and more forested areas. it'd be nice to be further from too many people but still have someone's company i do enjoy around. i'm very fond of cats, so i'd like to have one or a few. no dogs or kids, though. i strongly don't care for either. if i were to share a future with someone, especially romantically, this is generally how i would want it to be.

even if i don't entirely know what the future holds, i'm content with where i'm at now. i'd be plenty happy to continue the path that i'm on.

[beauzos]

Potentially odd question but seeing as you're back in your SOBR era and I've enjoyed what I've read of your works in the past, figured I'd ask;

How do you plan out a longer story? When I do get past executive disfunction and find the energy to write, I often find myself intimidated by the sheer scale that something like a novel would require, so I mostly stick to short stories and the like. What did your first steps look like when you started working on SOBR (or any other projects of similar length)?

Not an odd question at all! I appreciate being asked and I'm going to try really hard to be helpful.

I was, for a very long time, deeply intimidated by writing long-form fiction as well. I just genuinely believed I was not capable of committing to writing anything longer than a 10-15,000 word one-shot or short story. Up until 2022, the longest complete piece of fiction I ever wrote was about 20,000 words. I also hated it, but that's beside the point. The longest unfinished work I left behind was 42,000 words, and I'd never come close to repeating that length again since I wrote it back when I was 14.

I think part of working on longer form fiction is accepting it might not get finished, and then doing it anyway. Basically, hope for the best, expect the worst, because if you never try, it'll never get done in the first place. I didn't really set out to write a novel when I came up with Beau's story. Like, I wasn't thinking about length or what it'd be, I just tried to conceive of what story I could do with him and how it might take shape. I don't know if I even planned on writing it, I just wanted to know his story.

With SOBR, I consider myself incredibly lucky, because I simply had a start-to-finish storyline within a couple days of working on it. Sure, a lot of details weren't set and many things could change, but I had an idea for the beginning, middle, and end to some extent. But you don't need to immediately have all your ideas for it to work, to be clear. I do think that having some idea of the full story is pretty essential to success. A lot of details can change, but if you have the overarching ideas, I think that helps a lot. I know there's a lot of jokes and memes about writers having no idea what to do in the middle or being stuck on the ending, but those really can be story-killers to be honest.

I'm speaking very broadly, I'll try to get into what I think my process was in a second, but a couple last minute things: you don't need to have a start to finish idea immediately, like I said. Something I think is important about the process of developing story ideas aside from like. Just thinking about it a lot is talking about it with other people. I don't know if you're the same way, but I feel like talking to friends / others about ideas makes it easier for me to clarify these ideas and develop them. Whether that's because people can give you ideas, or ask questions, or think about things in a different way than you or just being able to sharpen your idea by having to explain it to somebody, I find this super helpful.

It's also helpful because, like, okay. I've said many times you really do have to write for yourself first because that's true. All of my writing is written with myself as the audience, weird or specific or whatever it may end up being. But that doesn't mean that positive feedback isn't valuable or important to me. It's a motivator to know there could be a few people out there who enjoy what I've done. It makes it easier for me to think about my work and to work on it. So part of it is having to get over the fear of sharing, or feeling awkward talking about new characters with people, because my experience overwhelmingly is that people want to hear about this stuff.

When it comes to working on developing the ideas and outlining, I will say the very obvious advice: WRITE EVERY SINGLE IDEA DOWN. Even if it's obvious, or you're 100% certain you'll remember. Still write it down. I have a private server on Discord where I save links and pictures and snippets of writing, and I throw every idea that comes my way in the SOBR channel for me to either implement into the chapter I'm writing or into the outline. I think making these ideas concrete by writing them down-- not necessarily as a commitment but as keeping it filed away to return to.

The ideas become much fuller when you take every idea you have seriously to some extent. I struggled to make an outline for SOBR 2 but because I was taking note of every idea, I was able to piece together at least a semi-presentable idea for the story flow? It makes things easier and gives you a jumping off point. The outline is the other important part, of course. I used to never outline things, but for long-form works, you have to. You just do. Because you'll forget, or you won't see the full picture, or whatever. Figure out how all these pieces will fit together, how that scene you pictured way down the line can be reached in a natural manner. I had to connect a bunch of scenes from late game SOBR to the beginning, and although the details of how, exactly, I got there changed, I knew generally what path to take.

Insofar as beginning a project of any kind, I think just doing it without feeling compelled to finish but wanting to helps. I wrote the first chapter of SOBR to test out the characters and get a feel for the world and how I wanted to approach the story and its conflict. But although I wanted to see the story through to its natural end, I just wanted to get something done first. A little step leads to a big step. It doesn't have to perfect, it just has to be done. And once you get started, I find it easy to keep going.

But you also have to accept the possibility you may fall out of interest or the rhythm for a while. I wrote the first 4 chapters, or 30,000 words, of SOBR over the course of February to May last year. And then I didn't touch the fucking thing for four months. I felt awful. I was so discouraged that I would leave my first solid original idea behind and not work on it, even though the next chapter I had to write was supposed to be "easy" to write. I just never did it because I didn't feel the vibe anymore. But I still liked Beau and the characters.

Circling back to what I said before, what motivated me to try again was talking to others about the idea. Namely, when I started talking to some of my new friends, like Clark / @/twothpaste for example, who became interested after I started discussing some of the late game details of the story, I felt motivated because I knew there were people who wanted to read the story or wanted to see how things could get so far. It's motivating when you hear other people care. It's why I've been so motivated to work on reader feedback and publishing this year; because my coworkers cared about reading it!

Similarly, I had friends reading along as I worked on it. Clark, my friend Maggie are the main two, but I had other friends test out the early chapters. It was nice seeing how people responded and if my writing was working as intended.

In conjunction with this, although I very rarely ever write out of order, I decided to approach SOBR from a new perspective; I still skipped writing the "easy" chapter when I got back to it in September. Instead, I started from act 3 with some chapters I knew I could write and explore. Although eventually I had to change many small details, I knew what I expected from this part of the story, and got back into the world from an interesting part. I kept going for a few chapters, and once I knew it was going to get too complicated, I moved back to finishing the story in chronological order.

You have to approach your work from outside the box sometimes to maintain momentum. It's easy to get discouraged when you get stuck, but you have to find another way to make it work. Take months long breaks. Try from another scene, another act. I hate to do it, but it got me to actually start writing the fucking thing again, so I know it works.

I know I'm going beyond the scope of your question, but I do feel like the process of the middle parts is also kind of important.

To get back towards what I was actually fucking asked, I guess I can boil down the process as thus:

Discuss the ideas with others / brainstorm / write everything down

Try to arrange ideas into outline / overarching plot

Test out writing initial chapters; potentially spirals into fully writing the piece

Accept you may fall in and out of motivation; accept you may not finish it at all, but do it anyways

Keep sharing with people!!!! Don't be embarrassed or afraid, people want to hear about it!!!

I don't know if this helps much. I fear a lot of what I said is obvious advice, but unfortunately, it's tried and true. It's just putting yourself out there, being willing to try even if you might fail to finish it. And just keep thinking. Not every idea will make it in, but every idea can make the story stronger.

Also, like, I'm not going to lie. Having autism actually really helped because I became so obsessed with SOBR in September I could do nothing but finish it, but I tried to give advice that people can actually follow, y'know KRKFN I'm motivated by whatever my special interest is, but it's possible to write without that! SOBR started well before it became my special interest. It just takes more energy and devotion. Anyone can do it, with or without obsession.

After all, it's such a fleeting thing too. My interests can change rapidly, which is also why I was scared of starting projects. What if I got bored halfway through and dropped the project? In fact, here's an example: when I got really into Ace Attorney this year, I plotted out a long-form fic that I began work on. I did my outline, wrote a few chapters, got around 12,000 words in, and then I got out of Ace Attorney and back into SOBR and that was that. I dropped the project, and yes, I think that's a shame, but I also accept that that's a possibility for any project.

But it won't stop me from working on the stories I want to write. I can't worry about if it'll get done. It doesn't get done if I don't try at all. I try to remind myself of that quite often. I won't always succeed, but I never will if I don't give it a shot. And hey, maybe some day I'll come back to it. But for now, no, I won't, and that's that. I have other things to work on anyway.

So... I hope this helps! Thank you for asking me, I appreciate you want my perspective on it!