#CLOSED STARTER :: ᵏᵉᵉᵖᶦᶰᵍ ˢᵉᶜʳᵉᵗˢ ᵐᵃᵏᵉˢ ᵐᵉ ˢᶦᶜᵏ

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❝ okay— but what if— ❞ anxiety laced the beginning of her rambling words, her eyes not meeting meredith's. ❝ what if i just don't go? i mean, it's just a presentation at conference— ❞ a conference across the country, in boston, an almost 6 hour flight. a conference that before everything she would have never dreamt of turning down, but now? now, lexie's played every worse case scenario over in her head, and despite the statistics, the numbers that she'd memorized, that she'd normally find comfort in. ❝ they can find someone else to fill in, there's a lot of ground breaking medical research going on. besides, it's not like anything i would say would be anything that i didn't already publish. they're all medical professionals, i'm sure they can read. ❞

@story1ines /// starter call!!

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“  if meredith sent you in here,   you---  ”  her head doesn’t lift from her hands as sharp words left her mouth.   sharp words that were softened slightly by the hoarseness of her voice.   “  you can turn around and tell her i don’t need a babysitter.   i’m fine. ”  

@doctcrisms​​ // starter call !!

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@mcmachine // starter call ! “  you’re staring,  ”   observation made with furrowed brows,   tablet set aside.   “  just spill it already,  what’s wrong?  ”

[airplanecrushed]

❝ okay, so⎯⎯ ❞ lexie hesitated, her hands anxiously fidgeting, fingers twisting, pulling at each other. ❝ meredith went to boston and maggie went to chicago, and you⎯⎯ you don't also have some amazing job offer thousands of miles away, do you? ❞ as much as lexie understood why they did it, she can't help the feeling of abandonment that lurks deep down. ❝ because as much as i would love the chance at chief of neurosurgery, i also really don't do well with people leaving. ❞

@selfmadesaviour /// starter call!!

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“  wow,  ”   she’s like a kid in a candy store,   wide eyed and full of wonder as she looked over the other surgeon’s shoulder at the scans on the screen.   “  are we operating on that?  ”

@hxmartias // starter call !!

[airplanecrushed-arch]

two hours and twenty minutes,   it’s how long the flight to san francisco would be,   it’s what was between her and sitting her boards.   “  i---   i don’t know if i can do this,  ”   uncertainty filled the shaky admittance,   eyes focused on the unpacked notes in front of her.   the other option meant at least twelve hours in a car,   and god did her back disagree with the thought of that.   “  i need to be able to do this.  ”

@mcstcamy // starter call !!

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“  just---  ”   confusion finds a place in the surgeons features.   “  what is going on ?  ” 

@nctwearingthct // starter call !! situations --- escape the fate

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“  yeah,  ”    a flash of a smile,   eyes trailing.   optimism in the face of everything?   it was hard to find but it was there.   “  i think that we'll all be okay.  ”      

@inexactexpiration // starter call !! idle town --- conan gray

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a shaking hand ran though her hair,   frustration evident as lexie finally sat down.   “  i've done alright up to now.  ”

@neurogxd​ // starter call !! i wanna dance with somebody --- bootstraps

[airplanecrushed-arch]

“  life has been insane but---  ”   there’s a shrug as she sat down.   “  today has been okay.  ”

@greyslegacy // starter call !! today has been okay --- sleeping at last

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“  and i love you,  ”   maybe it’s obvious,   the way she’s curled up against him,   the soft smile that tugged at her lips.   “  more than i have ever found a way to say.  ”

@tranquilwords​ // starter call !! the luckiest --- nathan west && chyler leigh

[airplanecrushed-arch]

“  is there something going on ?  ”   she’s not stupid,   she can tell when she’s being avoided.   “  is it something that i said ?  ”

@whitestcoats​ // starter call !! are you ready --- prides

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“  nobody said it was easy,  ”   soft defeat laced her words.   “  but no one ever said it would be this hard.  ”

@killedinstead // starter call !! the scientist --- coldplay 

[airplanecrushed-arch]

eighteen months,   it’s how long it’d taken her to get pregnant.   and with everything she’d been through,   the trauma,   the surgeries that followed,  she knew there were risks.   she did,   and yet there was nothing that could have prepared her for giving birth at twenty five weeks.  

“  he’s just so little,  ”   her hand rested against the plastic that stood between her and the infant that seemed to be more tubes and wires than anything.   “  i---   i want to be able to do something.   i feel helpless and i---  ”   she’s not a surgeon in that moment,  she was a mother who’d spent seventy eight long hours in labor,  desperately trying to stop contractions,   to carry the little boy in front of her a little closer to term.   she’s terrified,   exhausted,   and every muscle in her body was telling her to lay down.   “  what can i do?  please just...   tell me i can do something.  ”

@mcdmples // starter call !!

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     exhausted seemed like too small of a word to describe just how tired she was,   a combination of a late night at work and an even later,   louder,   night at home.    it’s something that if it were molly in front of her lexie’d be talking about.   but it’s not.   “  meredith,   i just---   i really don’t have it in me to go the whole five rounds with you today,  ”

@greyslegacy // starter call !!

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“  i get it,   really i do.   you need to talk to my patient for your case,   but what i need is for you to understand that i can’t let you do that right now.  ”   she’s put herself between the detective and the doors to the icu.   “  i can’t have him stressing out about talking to you until his icp is under control.   so,   with the best interest of the patient in mind,   you need to wait.  ”

@fortiitudes // starter call !!