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ajaxxx-x · 11 months

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The Mountain Goats were so good for writing a song about Hal and Carol failed toxic relationship

#no children is halcarol anthem you can’t convince me otherwise #but it’s like young halcarol like when hal just became green lantern #and like the first part is for carol’s point of view and the second is hal’s #carol’s part’s about wanting to leave everything behind for her freedom #and Hal’s part is about feeling guilty and not deserving of getting better #also the way it could also be referring to Hal’s family AHSHJSJAH #GOD ITS PAINFUL #they are so toxic #bc carol’s is driven by Hal’s freedom #and Hal’s needs carol’s stability #to the point they think they are in love with each other #because even tho they are soulmates they are not meant to be #not in this life at least #halcarol #hal jordan #carol ferris #no children

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noknowshame · 2 years

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why is religious Christmas imagery all so joyful and pleasant? where is the inherent horror of the birth of Christ? A mother is handed her newborn child, wailing and innocent. Her hands come away sticky. Red. Simply by giving her son life she has already killed him. He is doomed from the beginning. Her love will not save him from suffering. Because the thing cradled in her arms is not a baby, it is a sacrifice: born amongst the other bleating animals whose blood will one day be spilled in the name of what demands it. the night is silent with anticipation. Mary, did you know? That your womb was also a grave?

#instant conversation enders for my multiple youth pastor cousins #don’t say it (I’m gonna say it)#The Child is The Price #but i mean come on #as someone who isn't actually even christian the real-life historical version of this is still cursed as fuck #i mean we know that jesus was a person who existed. whatever circumstances he was born in #its terrifyingly ominous to imagine being so unaware of the affect your child will have on the future of humanity #time itself will one day be counted around your birth of him #and all because he will suffer an excruciatingly painful death that you will not be able to prevent #not only that. but regardless of his or your intentions #regardless of whether there is a god #for millenea unfathomable millions will have blood spilled and will spill blood in his name #atrocities will be committed that you cannot even conceive of #and all on his and your behalf #you love your child. its beautiful. but there's horror in what you've done. because everyone else will love him too #and what's more dangerous than that?

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bixels · 5 months

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Scary Sunset.

I'm concepting things way outta order in this story, but I'm sure you can piece things together. Context is for a storybeat where, after defeating and capturing Adagio (thus having all three sirens in her possession), Sunset enacts her revenge plot to release the sirens on Canterlot as Thea discovers she's been manipulated. In a confrontation, the two scuffle and fight over the siren orbs while Sunset struggles with her conflicting wants and emotions.

#mlp #sunset shimmer #twilight sparkle #twiset #the orbs are the glass balls sunset carries on her back btw its in her cast line up art #deep down sunset hates thea. she was named “twilight” by celestia. the time of day succeeding sunset. she was always her replacement #but at this point in the story sunset's also fallen for thea. so it's also a conflict of wills in sunset. love or hatred.#hence the “don't make me do this” language. she's rationalizing her hatred and violence as thea forcing her hand and getting in her way #when in reality she doesn't need to do any of this. it's her last stand and outburst to cling to a life of revenge that she's grown too #fond of. because she knows thea has the power to change that and disrupt her identity as a pathetic victim who fell from glory #and that's scary. thea's a very scary thing to sunset because suddenly sunset wants something and to be someone new.#she suddenly wants to change. to be better for someone else. and she never thought or believed that could be an option for her #anyways toxic yuri yayyy #my art #the grand galloping 20s #character design #i hope i got across the pained conflicted emotions in sunset's face tho i belabored over them these past 3 days #i hope a look of anger and dissonance and guilt and “oh god i don't really wanna hurt you please just obey me” while trying to intimidate #is readable. if so it's all in the eyebrows babey

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hinamie · 2 months

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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk megumi #megumi #looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops #i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear #i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle #fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain #god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow #lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear #had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it #the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes #its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair #nothing else feels Right #but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it #i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment #smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1 #his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see

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petricorah · 6 months

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scenes i loved from Real Enough to Get Me Through by @marriedzukka <333 [ids in alt]

#zukka #zukka fanart #sokka #sokka fanart #zuko #zuko fanart #atla #atla fanart #avatar the last airbender #zukka fic rec #myart #yall. yall. dani. this FIC #first off it made me cry twice. not like 'oh im crying' internet speak no. like. eyes are too blurry to read let me stop this for a sec #it is SO GOOD #your prose? amazing #your insights on grief? life changing #THEM??? THEM their relationship and trust #'zuko looked at him and his world shifted on its axis'#ive been thinking about that line for WEEKS STRAIGHT #i can't tell you how many passages i screenshot just because of how beautiful or cute they were #the moment of seeing the painting of sokka's mom? how did you manage to make it so telling character wise--so sweet so PAINful AND so #cute with their relationship?!!?!#'oh so you think i'm beautiful too'#GOD #i had so many scenes i wanted to draw it was crazy #also #'Our loved ones leave impressions on us that can still impact our decisions and feelings even after they're gone'#fuck. had me crying AGAIN #seriously this fic is so wonderful and not just through a zukka lens. truly life changing you're an AMAZING writer #the fandom is so lucky to have you and i can't Believe it took me so long to get around to reading this masterpiece

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faunandfloraas · 3 months

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Seungmin in skz code, episode 58.

#my computer bluescreened during these and was literally taking 500 yrs a minute to do anything. truly and actually painful so. I give up #take the seungs and yuh :)#kim seungmin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #seungminsource #skz #skz gifs #skz edit #skzedit #stray kids gifs #jesskz #god i wish i had a pluto pup rn im so hungry but its midnight so #maybe tomorrow.

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ibunyang · 6 months

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i finaallly got to play one of my dream games WEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEE

#alice madne #alice liddell #art #my art #ive been rotting GODDD steam sale has me playing games during break instead of drawing #mb wrist has been a pain too O(-(#alice madness returns fanart #alice liddel fanart #fanart #horror #american mcgee's alice #i took some liberty with her dress. GUILTTYY #i wanted it to be like the caterpillar but more based on her butterflies EUGH im so EUG HHHHHH #the brain rot for this game has been going on for 10 YEARS #getting a hold of the game has been so hard and i couldnt play it before because i was dumb with computers #thank god its back on steam tho WEEEPEEEEEE

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purrvaire · 5 months

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this show has it all btw

#its so funny to me that it come out on netflix us a couple weeks after i finished watching it the way god intended #pirating it i mean #i made this while in despair because i might die if im not make humor on my pain #that's it that's the plot for season 4 #black sails #long john silver #james flint #silverflint #tumblr text meme #black sails meme #i miss them your honor #i could do the silliest thing ever and start rewatching it in spite of all the other stuff i should watch instead #user purrvaire

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many-sparrows · 1 year

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Me, screaming and crying: "WHY DOES EVERYTHING KEEP CHANGING WHY IS EVERY MOMENT FULL OF LOSS IM SO TIRED"

God, dragging me around by my hair and banging me against walls: "IM SORRY BUT IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THIS WAY. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS CONSTANCY. EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT FROM ONE MILLISECOND TO THE NEXT. BUT ALSO ALL THE ATOMS THAT EXIST HAVE ALWAYS EXISTSTED. EVERYTHING THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN HAS ALREADY HAPPENED. NONE OF IT IS LINEAR. I LOVE YOU AND I CANNOT PROTECT YOU FROM THIS"

#godblr #god posting #change is the only constant #grrrr #its like the existential pain #loss #grief #being a silly guy #musings

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year

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There is a platonic explanation for all this. Right?

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #[accidental kiss] is a purposeful misspelling to reference an old meme. I will blast anyone who tries to correct me with the crunchiest png #The kiss looks like wwx is biting lwj's cheek....It *does* have the consistency of a soft marshmallow so he's not in the wrong.#Once again: wwx was never *ever* oblivious to the implications of the situation. On the contrary: this entire scene + the prior shows-#that he very much understands that this looks gay to the viewers.#He just doesn't think its possible to be loved like that. *Especially not by Lan Zhan.*#Do people forget that LWJ had 13 years to process his feelings VS WWX's (give or take) week?#This is the moment he realizes wwx has feelings and he HATES HIMSELF FOR IT. He feels like he's betraying lwj's trust!#The demi feeling of having spent so long in a comfortable platonic relationship and then getting struck by the 'oh shit' moment.#Its not a soft 'Oh' - Its a 'Oh god they are going to hate me and I can't bear that. I need to be so normal about this or else'.#Pour one out for all of us who've had to go through the trials of trying to conceal the painful realization of deeper affections.#Anyway. *both* lwj and wwx fall in love kicking and screaming and miserable and clawing at the walls about it.#Continuity acknowledgement: wwx's hands are unbound at this point but I had a hellish time with blocking and this was a bit easier.

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ozumii-fucking-wizard · 24 days

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took me 7 yrs to understand the fundamentals kms

#art #ozusart #art is pain #but hey im glad i made it here #trial and error cause i was stubborn and couldnt grasp the concepts so i had to just let it sit in my brain and understand it thru observin #art takes a long fucking time #i hate it #but god its the air i breathe

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valtsv · 1 year

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*types any question containing the word "empathy" into a search engine*

like half the results: are YOU an EMPATH??? EMPATHS are a SPECIAL ULTRA RARE SHINY POKEMON GROUP OF PEOPLE they are like MYSTICAL PERFECT FAIRY ELVES they are the BEST most MORALLY PURE beings on the planet they basically have MIND READING SUPERPOWERS and they are also SUPER OPPRESSED by SELFISH GREEDY ORDINARY PEOPLE who DRAIN THEM like VAMPIRES with their NEGATIVE ENERGY. if you are an empath you are guaranteed to get into HEAVEN 😇 but if you are not you are BASICALLY THE DEVIL!!! 😈🔥😈🔥😈🔥

#🐉#this isnt a dig at people with high empathy its just so bizarre how 'empath' is used as this like. moral judgement.#like if youre an 'empath' youre just an inherently better and kinder person #like bruh you realize that even if youre naturally predisposed to be kind and helpful you have to actually make the choice #to be kind and helpful right? 😭#anyway i was researching empathy this morning and god its painful

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spicyboelives · 4 months

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Cooper Howard-The Ghoul

How much of the Ghouls personality is a front/act he puts on to hide his true feeling about the shit he has to do in the wasteland? Could he answer that guestion?

#cooper howard #the ghoul #fallout tv show #I love his vocal twang #walton goggins #god the scene where he watches his own film #hes got so much pain and after 200 years its still fresh #in love with him i fear

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kandidandi · 1 year

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alRIGHT height chart time @venomous-qwille

#kandidandi drew a thing #holy shit holy shit oh my god my hands are in so much pain #AHGFSFHGDSGJDHGS #also added colour swatches since i shaded it #probably not THE colours but its the ones i used #wwahgaskfgdfs

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hinamie · 3 months

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Your face in profile, with a look I'd never seen

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

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casualavocados · 2 months

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I asked myself why I failed to notice. It was the first time we'd been apart that long. I found the birthday gifts you prepared for me in my room, from my 18th to my 21st. ...Shut up. I started to think about what you were doing back then. Were you celebrating my birthday all by yourself?

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 12

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #chen yi x ai di #ai di x chen yi #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #userrain #uservid #userspicy #userjjessi #pdribs #*cajedit #*gif #do you ever cry about the chen yi that woke up to find ai di gone.#do you ever think about the chen yi that felt ai di's tears on his face and reached up to hold him closer. to comfort him.#who saw & chose in a moment the true ai di that had always been by his side then lost him in the next. & woke up to learn it was his fault #cuz i think about the chen yi during ai di's prison time a lot. i think about him going over so many of his memories #reevaluating ai di's anger and teasing and realizing it was all heartbreak. THAT IT WAS ALL HEARTBREAK.#the guilt...the desperation & need to get through to ai di so he never makes him feel that way again. understanding that he loves ai di too #the way he gently touches ai di's hands and face here... he tied him up to keep him from running but hes being so earnest and SO careful #with ai di's pain & ai di's love. his expressions & the way he takes deep breaths before admitting things out loud like its clear #hes thinking hard abt what he wants to say and how he wants to say it. bc he has to make ai di understand how much he means this #how much he misses him. how much he wants to make this right. how he wants & needs to be by ai di's side forever bc he loves him!#he loves him!!!!!!!!! GOD. i love chen yi.

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