#HEHEHE IM EXCITED TO BE HOME AND DRAW AGAIN

[gornackeaterofworlds]

gasp!!!! i’m so jealous!!! that’s so cool that you got to see it though!!!! thank you for the pictures gornack!!

i’m sorry that you went through an ordeal. ☹️ is there anything i can do to help?

ACK HI!!!

The pictures in question:

Ur so sweet!!!! No the ordeal was irl, I already detailed it in the discord so I'll use screenshots(back means back to the hotel btw, and I'd been on a journey to get pics of bay filming locations!):

I think this is also one, but I'm going off street names. This is the first one I'd seen:

[minheelovelee]

hii 🦋 anon here again!! how are you doing?? are you excited for the epex comeback? i’m really looking forward to the full album and i can’t wait to learn more about the concept~

i was hoping to request some dubcon or cnc epex keum thoughts if you’re comfortable writing for that genre? if not, i respect that of course and won’t ask again, i checked to see if there was anything in your “about me” but i didn’t see it but i’m not sure if you’ve mentioned it otherwise :(

thank you sm either way!!! <333

hi 🦋 anon!! it took me a long time to reply i’m SORRY :((( but!! im here now :)) thanks for requesting, sweetie. i haven’t put anything about ok/not ok topics in my intro post, that’s something i should look into. but yeah im totally fine with dubcon or cnc and just about anything!! usually if i receive an ask i don’t care for, i just delete it hehehe.

nsfw under the cut

when thinking about cnc with donghyun, an idea that really stuck with me was him having his way with you while you’re sleeping.

on particularly long days, donghyun will come home later in the evening with energy and stories. his phone reads 12:48, but he’s still surprised to find you passed out on the couch. your rhythmic breathing making that apparent.

12:51 he makes his way to the shower, trying his best to be quiet. part of him wishes you were awake. he wants nothing more than to wash your hair and hold your body in his arms. and push you to your knees :)

1:04 donghyun sneaks out to the living room once again, leaving a trail of water droplets behind him. he’s not sure what’s turning him on more, your calm breathing or your exposed tummy.

1:05 his hands touch you for the first time that night. he’s hardly making contact with your calf, but he can’t believe how warm your skin feels. your thighs draw his attention. he lays kisses on the skin, starting from the outside, making his way in. no longer is he holding your calf. his hand have made their way to your ankles, pulling them apart to expose your inner thighs.

1:08 you’re still sleeping? damn. the material of your shorts rubs on donghyun’s nose. a slow, calculated movement brings them down to your knees. he follows them to the bottoms of your feet and lets them fall off the couch’s armrest. he’s completely hard now. he imagines how you’ll tease him when you wake up. but maybe you’re just as needy.

1:11 your tummy is his next focus. he wonders if you’re still ticklish while asleep. you’re still unmoving, so he assumes not. wet kisses appear and lead down to where donghyun is most excited to see. thin, black panties cover your pussy. his brain provides him with a memory of what you look like underneath. he hooks one finger beneath the material and pulls. the stress proves to be too much for the cheap fabric, as it rips at the seam. “shit” donghyun whispers, speaking for the first time since arriving home.

1:14 will you be mad if he rips these off your body? probably not. he’ll buy you a new pair. he’ll buy you a dozen if that’s what you want. he uses one hand to hold the fabric in place while the other grabs a hold and pulls up. another swift rip detached the garment from your body. he throws the, now useless, cloth near your shorts. hovering over your mound again, your pussy is met with nothing but his hot breath. his mouth has been watering for the past 10 minutes, waiting for this moment. he swallows the spit in his mouth and takes a moment to appreciate the fact that you’re still asleep. you must have had a long day if you’re still off in dreamland.

1:16 his lips meet your cunt for the first time that night. sweet kisses are left on your outer lips to put pressure on your clit. he wants to lick around your hole, he wonders if you’ve gotten wet at all. having your legs together won’t do.

1:17 “i’m so sorry, princess. keep sleepin’, imma make you feel so good.” he grabs your right leg at the knee and hikes it onto his shoulder. one more shaky breath escapes his lips before they meet your entrance. “fuck, you’re wet. how are you wet right now? what are you thinking about?” that pulls a reaction from your body. your head jerks and leg muscles tighten. but your eyes are still closed.

1:19 he moves up to your clit, wetting it with a few long licks. when he wraps his lips around it, he moans. he’d built up the anticipation and looked forward to this all day. he earned this. does it really matter if you’re asleep?

1:20 shoving his tongue into your hole once more, he lets his nose rest on your clit. the smell draws him in deeper. he lets himself get messy as he eats with fervor. his hands grab a little too tight on your ass, and it becomes apparent that you’re now awake. he hears a broken “donghyun? wh-at? oh.”

1:21 “babygirl, you are fucking soaked right now. did you know that? was i givn’ you a nice dream?” his shiny lips gave you a clue, but he doesn’t give you time to answer. “close your eyes again, princess. let me take care of this pussy.” you didn’t have to be told twice. there’s no stopping him once he gets a taste.

donghyun who’s addicted to giving head is so real. thank you for requesting!!!

[candiedapplez]

I ask you all of the questions from that one reblog. Good luck/nf/j

Omg ok this will be a while then tehehehehehehhe im not complaining though!!!! Heres the questions so u can look at the questions and the answers!

1.this one is OBVIOUS!!! A-90 and Opheebop!!! DUUUUUUUH!

2.lighter. Ive never used a match before

3.ew no!!! I don't want buggies crawling in my room while im sleeping!!!! However i have before!

4. Aaaaaa ive never really gotten into that stuff so i cant really give an answer-

5. A really dark brown!!

6. Oops i did that again???

7. Well idk ive used both and they are both work really well! however i do think scrunchies are safer for your hair, i use normal hair ties more often because scrunchies are more bulky and yeah i dont prefer that, but both are great!

8. Six. I have six.

9.NONE! COFFE IS GROSS BLEEEEEEGH!!

10. Ofc!!

11. Does drawing count?

12. Good day!!!!! I havent cried yet so-

13. Not too long ago, like an hour ago actually. I had pizza! (Incase u were wondering)

14. HELL YEAH!!!

15. Nope and i never want to be 😗

16. NoooooOoOoO-

17. Nope i have perfect vision muah

18. I DONT WANNA SAY TEHE! (Sry)

19. Yea ofc!!! But they probably wont turn out good…

20. Soda…. Ive never seen or heard anyone say pop before….

21. Plushies!!!! I have a unicorn plush my old friend (we dont talk anymore since she moved) gave me for my 7th bday!!!! Yes i remember when, yes i still have it! And its in perferct condition!!! Also there was this one kid who ig had a crush on my and he gave me a basket full of stuff for valentines day and i still have said basket-

22. I have no clue what this means? I guess sensitive?

23. Love it!!!!!

24. Eating :] (and joking abt pushing each other off probably/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE)

25. Aaaa i use all of them but i use lotion most so ig lotion?

26. Idk what to say for this one aaaaaagh

27. Like 5 i think? Ive been getting better with my sleep time!!!!

28. Not anymore, our school last year said we could take them off, however i was SO insecure about my face (still am, but not as much as before) so i would wear it every single day. If i showed up to school without one people got surprised. I stopped wearing them this year, however.

29. Hot????

30. THE FUCKING WATER BOTTLES!!!!

31. Theres a lot, i dont wanna get into it 😵‍💫

32…… is that a thing? People have favorite towels??

33. Hm my school took us on a field trip to a high school so we can see animals if that counts… (i have pictures btw if u wanna see them! We saw pigs, sheep, cows and bunny! I didnt take pic of bunny tho 😢)

34. LITERALLY EVERY SIX THE MUSICAL SONG HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (the only ones i might mess up on are aywd and idnyl bc aywd is long and i dont listen to idnyl often)

35. Pst!!

36. Only once! My username used to have a 0 between the words (Candied0applez) but i changed it bc it made it sound like i candied no apples… but i was originally going to be called caramelapplez but i thought candied sounded better heheh)

37. The friend i mentioned earlier i met first day of kindergarden, her name is Alana, and this other girl Maya i met before kinder! We met eachother at a park and when we walked home we found out we were neighbors so we instantly became besties! (We still are to this day but she lives 30 mins away so i dont see her often-(

38. All…?

39. Sometimes!

40. Ice cream!!!

41. Empty. Coffee is gross

42. Hahahah yt, roblox and occasionally twitter!

43. HAND IT OVER BITCH!

44. Myself/j fucking donald trump 🤮👈🖕

45. NO ☺️

46. Oh god i dont watch any 🫢

47. | v

this actually was to the other girl i mentioned earlier! Maya! I found baby pictures of us when we were in 2nd-3rd grade and i showed her today!!!

48. Never and i dont plan on ever!

49. Never tried

50. GO AHEAD I GET SO EXCITED WHEN IM TAGGED IN SOMETHING AAAAA!

omg that took forever!!! Gosh i dont mind though!!! These were fun questions! Aaaaaaaa i enjoyed that tyty!

[rinhaler]

ANGEL BABY UR GONNA BE OKAY!!!! but I totally understand I get nervous before appts too :/ but everything’s gonna be alright!!!

UGHHHHH LUXE PLEASEEEEEE U GET ME!!! he’s….hes so fine and so tough i just wanna *car crash noises* i just started watching it recently and haven’t read the manga yet but good lord that’s a whole daddy right there if he doesn’t get me pregnant I’m gonna get HIM pregnant s2g!! 🗣️🗣️🗣️

now I got some questions for u young lady I’m curious!! How tall are u?!? And I remember u said ur picky so what’s ur fav food? Least fav? Ive been a vegetarian since I was 13 so I guess I also qualify as picky heh. And when did you get into writing and art?

I literally think ur so cool pls indulge me ❤️❤️❤️🧋

omg how far into it are you? I gotta watch the newer stuff still but I used to be OBSESSEDDDDD I probably will be again when I get back into it hehehe

ALSO OKAY

I'm 5'6/5'7ish

FAV FOOD I always love a greasy pizza takeaway with some cheesy chips, elite food <333 i hate stinky food so im not a big fan of things like onions or tuna, if it stinky i probably don't like it sadfghgfds

I think I've always been into art since I was super young!! My nana and parents were always buying me little paint sets and my first ever memory is handing a rly ugly drawing to my mam of me and her 😭 but yeah I've always been into art but only recently started taking it seriously and trying to find my style. I studied it in college and then uni and I have a masters in (i cant remember if it's fine art or art and design but i have an art masters degree)

and writing!! i think ive always loved writing too bc i remember rly enjoying writing little stories for my friends based on them and their crushes in high school and i remember when i was in my last year i wrote an entire novel (it's awful). but it was when dystopian stuff was super popular so i used to be SO excited to get home and write it.

I only started getting into fanfic like four years ago? when i started getting into anime i was like oh my god i need to consume as much content as i can i need somewhere to find fan art and memes and blah blah so i made a brand new tumblr dedicated to it. and to be honest i didnt even know fanfics were still a thing??

i remember it being a really cringe and weird thing for people to be into while i was in school so i was soooo shocked when i came across TONS of them when i made my account and i just got hooked and started binge reading so many and i was like omg i have an idea for a story im gonna write it!!

and i was rly infrequent with posting i just did like two or three and focused on my fan art and meme reblogs but then i joined a discord server and i just fell in love with writing and the community and the vibes, it was amazing.

and four years later here we are hehehe

sorry for talking so much i am a rambler <3333

[autistic-ace-bee]

list format here we go

black /qp

green

blue

teal

scarlet /pos

maroon (the fucking thing to keep my tabs permanent DFJBNDK)

periwinkle

mauve

blush

fuchsia

vermillion (about hugging you)

honeydew, can never have too many

lavender

umber

razzmatazz

saffron

timberwolf

plum obviously

tangerine

viridian

chartreuse

burgundy

black = I would date you.

and you are!

<3 green = I think you’re cute.

I think you're cute too! <333

blue = You are my tumblr crush.

hehehe as validated by tumblr itself <33

teal = We have a lot in common.

we INFP for INFP fr

scarlet = You have influenced my decision/thoughts on something.

I'm assuming you mean with the friend stuff in which class im glad i could help! :] <333

maroon = You taught me something new.

HAHAHAHA YEAH YOURE WELCOME ASDKKADKADK periwinkle = You make me laugh hehehe you make me laugh too im happiest when speaking to you! <33

muave = You are really talented

SO ARE YOU OMG YOUR SHADING,,,, THE WAY YOU COLOUR SKIN THE WAY YOU DRAW HAIR AND EYES I--- NOT TO MENTION YOUR WHOLE ASS WORLD AND HUNDREDS OF CHARACTERS HOLY SHEET

blush = Seeing you on my dash makes my day a little better.

same!!!! love seeing your lil sero icon popping up on my dash and in my notifs :) <3

fuchsia = Your blog content is gold

ty i steal most of it from you and al <3333 its mariatal sharing <333

vermillion = You make me feel passionate

hrhehheheehe

honeydew = I want to call you by a nickname

make up whatever the hell you want aksdksadkd like you said you need a whole arsenal >:3

lavender = You inspire me

aww you inspire me too <333 i see you working on your lil oc's and im like !!!!! i should work on my d&d stuff aksksad

umber = I want to know more about you

yeah!!!! we should play 20 questions again some time soon :D

razzmatazz = I would share my favorite food with you

awww i would too askdakdks (no idea what my fave is but id share literally anything with you)

saffron = I love your ideas

hehehe i love your ideas too <333 you are so big brained <333

timberwolf = I trust you

the highest compliment!!!!

plum = I’d like to chat with you

yeyydssyyesys

tangerine = I love your aesthetic

i love YOUR aesthetic! you have given me a new love for the colour green <3

viridian = I wanna hang out on your blog

please, feel free! send me the most random asks beloved aksdksadkd

chartreuse = You’re my homie

YES!!! you put the home in homie <333

burgundy = I get excited when I see posts from you

YEAH!!

[hobidreams]

RAINNNN PLS MY HEART IT GO BOOM BOOM. I loved getting a lil yoongi pov action!!! “‘Seja-jeonha!’ Your voice may be hushed, but the joy in it is indisputable. (Yoongi quickly suppresses his instinctive smile.)” The way he’s shy and tries to hide his affection for her has me endeared. I get the feeling that since she stopped coming by the library, he has decided to come to her. Ergo this scene we get to witness with him “checking in on the patients AGAIN”. AND WE FINALLY GET THE CONFIRMATION THAT

thank u as always babe!! tw mentions of death (just in case)

+ YOONGLES IS THE ONE BEHIND THE TREATS. I mean… I expected it, but it still thoroughly warms my heart that he’s thinking about her. “You were clearly not expecting Yoongi to come with you, for you give a little start when you turn to close the door and almost slam it in his face.” THE WAY I CACKLED THO and oook he DEF is only coming to visit patients to spend time with her… my heart. And the dialogue towards the end… “do you want to go this year?... T-Together? Isn’t it obvious?” has the same energy as your crush asking you out and you’re like o_o is this really happening?? And my FAVORITE LINE “But do you want to go… with me?” had me all heart eyed emoji over this piece!!! BUT WILL WE EVER SEE THIS LIL DATE OF THEIRS??? If not, I’ll just have to add this to the list for any future AMM (right under Yoongi’s reaction the first time he made mc cum). 

UMMMM IM GLAD TO MAKE YOUR HEART POUND 💗💗💗 yoongi is way too cute to resist!!! hehehe he totally has a one track mind, doesn’t he? not subtle at all. DONT WORRY IT’S COMING RIGHT UP AND IT’S A HUGE CHAPTER (ok huge for this series) BUT STILL!!! i’m so so so excited about it. i hope you love it when it comes out 🥺🥺🥺

+ I love the pacing of MLT and how you’re building the foundation of their relationship. At first, I was low key (high key) mad that Yoongi was just using her for sex and mc was just letting it happen, but these last few drabbles has given us more perspective. I can see why he comes to her for sex- I feel like it’s part control,but also a comfort thing too. And I can understand why she’s willing to be treated so poorly by him. What a treat to come home to. Today was a bad day at work… had a patient repeatedly beg me to let him die :( and getting to read this let me get away for a bit. Thank you, Rain, you never disappoint!! 

eee thank you -- pacing is essential to me so i’m glad you enjoy it. i intended for it to unfold like this, with the shifting of opinions as more of his character comes into view. things are... so complicated with their relationship but i hope i can keep drawing you deeper into it! i’m so sorry you had to endure that at work :( thank you for all your hard work through this pandemic, seriously. this is the least i can do for you 💖 thank you for a lovely comment as always!! gonna answer ur last one separately so i can tag it under history bc everyone needs to see it FDASJLKAFDS

[fatorangepoo]

diary of 11 april 2022

today my dad got vegan sweet and sour pork and other things but i highlighted this because IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD!! sometimes its stale but today's was crunchy and tasty~~

i don't know why i have such an urge to appeal to the male gaze right now. its like im wishing someone would notice me, so i do things i wouldn't do if i was alone.

i really like my art right now (so good!) and i've noticed i draw a lot of baseball nowadays. (i haven't even held a softball). my best deskmate called me pretty hehehe. a few days ago i dropped my pen and my deskmate (stranger) help me pick it up and i forgot to thank her so now i'm feeling super guilty. in break i stared at her and smiled and she said "zmk!??!" with sussy expression it was so cute.

in math teacher asked us a question on expansion of linear equations and the dude she called first got it wrong (but only a bit, he got positive number when it was -7) and afterwards someone whispered the correct answer. teacher looked at the namelist again and called. . ME!!! i spoke the correct answer loud and crisp an clear but i don't think i impressed anybody to be honest it was a lvl2 question, just a level above the basics. and the answer was basically announced before i said it, but my voice made it seem like something new, i guess.

when pe started me and li ting planned to go to the loo together but teacher said only one of us could go at a time. i took the pass first (and a strip of toilet paper from her hahaha..) and walked to the toilet. i ran back after i was done. it was raining lightly but i felt greatly uncomfortable bc when she went to the toilet she gave me a basketball. the ball was wet like a cold orange.

we were moved to the foyer because of the rain. me and liyeen arm wrestled each other and after i won liting challenged me... she is so strpng!!!!! after that i did like 2 sit ups and li ting said i was cute. since the floor we arm wrestled on felt like bricks, my elbow felt really uncomfortable (i already had a blister beforehand). later liting and adrie received volleyballs for many rounds and me and liyeen just stared at them playing while gossiping.

the rest of an hour was boring. i was deciding between joining liting in receiving balls (😧) or continue talking to liyeen. i crave excitement and liyeen is serving but idk why at that time i wanted to join her so much. looking back, i think talking to her was best. "oi u staring at xxx ah" "heheh..." "ï thinking abt my pc1 crush" "actually xxx remind me of my std 6 crush" "wow,"

when the last bell rang we were forced to sit down in the foyer according to classroom and gender. i sat next to xxx... originally i was facing his side profile bc i was sitting sideways and it got awkward bc i was opening my legs so i turned the other way with the help of liting! she is so nice how is this possiblw!!!

i walked back home with my dad i don't know why i was so uncomfortable. i felt so worn out even though i didn't even exercise. for dinner my dad steamed brown rice and frozen siew mai.

[smellycinnamonthundahfudge]

tumblr fweinds

a year ago, i was tagged by @suplosers on two questionnaires and it is only now, a year later that i was able to answer em. i’m so sorry it took me this long but yah i’m just glad to get thru dis milestone, answering the first tumblr get to know ya post i was @ at... yaayyy ^^

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

I tag: tbd haha i still have to dig thru meh notifs to see which ones apparently took an interest in me so i’d like to take an interest in as well haha but oh @you-guys--are-losers, ur doing this whahaha hope it’s not too much of a bother, no presh watsoever ;3

the last

1. drink: ughh it's dis shitty stuff called hydrite w/c is basically salt water cus im sick rn and it's supposed to rehydrate ur shts or something hahaha

but dat was like a week ago... as of da moment i posted dis, it’s coffee from mini stop dat i drank at like 530 in da morn while i waited until i could enter the school cus i had to commute 3 hours w/ lil to none sleep

2. phone call: my father or one of my best friends

3. text message: the last one i texted was my sister and the last one i got a text from was dis org in school about the location for recruitment/auditions/interview

4. song you listened to: billy jean by michael jackson and i listened to it for meh tomdaya fic hahaha. But i also listened to halo by beyonce, untouchable and dress by taylor swift, and some other songs magmt mentions in her tomdaya fic hehe a week ago

rn, a metal cover of toxic by our last night

5. time you cried: haha i don't actually remember the context of it (i could find out tho haha cus i sent da pic to my best friend) but i took a pic of it while i did it which was on... july 16 hahaha. Oh but w8 oh sht i think i cried after that fudge w8 i don't remember the date (i think i can find this out too hahaha) but i wrote a sortof goodbye confessions letter to one of my dear friends and i wrote there that i externally cried (b4 i just said internally haha) so i'm not entirely sure i cried but i think im pretty sure i teared up hehe

6. dated someone twice: hahaha i haven't even had a legit love interest yet 😆😂 buuutt my best friend and i have "dated" as in spent entire days together w/ just the two of us, we even went to mcdonalds for valentine's day and got each other gifts hihihi aahhh gosh i miss her :'(

7. kissed someone and regretted it: haha im not even sure if dis happened and i have no plans on asking her about it but i remember when i was a kiddo, when my sis came home for some reason i kissed her on the lips hahaha dont remember if accidental or i just brain farted heck i aint even sure if it happened but das all i can answer cus well like i said, see #6 😆😂😆😂

8. been cheated on: hhmmm probs not, i have no idea if ive been cheated on in an unromantic way hahaha but in da romantic way, like i said, no love interest hahaha

Oh w8 does being someone's crush (i aint sure but it seemed like it) and crushing on dat dude but dat dude crushing on someone else too count as cheating? 😆😂😆😂

9. lost someone special: yes, all of my grandparents are dead. I've also lost pets, and i fear i may lose some of my friends due to the distance among us in this time of our lives

10. been depressed: i always wanna be careful over how to define depression. Like wat constitutes it... but yes, i think i have. Not sure, mind you, but yes, at the beginning of gr 7 i was really alone, i think i was bullied and i think i was depressed and going thru a really dark phase of my life back then. But then again, i have to say, i'm not sure.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: hahaha nope. I'm looking forward to getting drunk tho. Im currently underage so im not allowed to drink dat much yet but yeah i wanna know my limits hehehe i hope im da kinda gurl who can handle her liquor but i have drank and i have to say it made me all loopy and weird and just like woke or high or something hahaha so yeah man im excited to get trashed on my 18th bday hahaha (hopefully i get to do this tho huhuhu)

3 favourite colours

12. Pink

13. Blue

14. Gray

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yyeeesssss and i'm so glad i have hihi. I have made friends w/ a select group of my blockmates and they're awesome and weird, i hope to strengthen our bond in da future hehe. Ooohhh and i sure hope that you guys are losers is my friend cus she's been rlly great :')

16. fallen out of love: i guess the closest i've come to falling out of love in a romantic way is moving on from da heavy crushin on meh crush. But i dunno, i still think he's a unicorn n pretty special to me so i dunno hahaha.

But bro, i do think i have fallen out of love. With tv shows, with characters. Like i used to be so passionate about a few shows and characters but now all i have towards them is regret heck i cant even remember wat dey are but i know dat der was love lost. I know it.

17. laughed until you cried: hahaha yaasss i think so. It's either when i was with my best dearest friends or during the class of dis really cool and funny as heck joker teacher who makes us laugh in EVERY SINGLE CLASS hahaha ahhh das guy's so cool

18. found out someone was talking about you: oohh yah yah i think so. Either from my best friends or from a few of my old classmates i care about and had gotten close with. Da best friend ones was about something in my past/history (g7) and the classmates one i think was just dem talking about me and they told me about it ooohhh i think it was my crush hahahaha. They told me dat my crush actually admired me a lot hehe. There was one time my friend (the one who told me about dis) was putting make up on me for a school film, and my crush was da cam guy and he told my friend i looked pretty. Sooo im pretty lucky dat- oh sht w8 i dunno if it's dis year but oh w8 no, it was on my bday last year (dec 20) and da same friend said she was sorry cus apparently da bois make fun of me or something and she was sorry cus she laughed along too hahaha but i didnt mind cus i know im weird and i dont even know what dey say about me in da first place hahahaha. Ok das it im done, i think ive overshared now hahaha 😆😂😆😂

19. met someone who changed you: my best friends. Ive thought about it based on wat sup losers said about change for da better and i dont rlly think of change as something dat happens quick, i think it happens over time and u dont even notice it. So ok oh sht i think im wrong cus i met my best friends 4/6 years ago hahaha but for reals tho, i was in a dark place and if it werent for dem i think id still be lost lonely and sad. Uuhhmmm in regards to answering the question correctly, i guess my blockmates count since they inspire/challenge me to be better. OH SHT W8 i def think you guys are losers and dead end street and tomdaya receipts and tout de suite have changed me hehehe. Da first 2 in dat dey inspired me to write more hehe. Da 1st one inspired me to do this so i think this counts as change hehe. And da last 2 changed me in dat bcus i met dem, i became OBSESSED w/ tomdaya hahaha.

20. found out who your friends are: yes, i have actually. And it's all because i am now currently a college freshman as well as my friends.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: hahaha my fam i guess hahaha. But no one in a romantic context.

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: hhmmm i guess id say about 200 since i know 4 sections of around 40 ppl and da rest is like fam and ppl ive met once/twice or have passed by haha

23. do you have any pets: yaaaassss 3 doggos: albie, juju, and biggie girl. Juju has a pupper named tchalla called dat cus he black hehehe and biggie has 2 biglets named mermer (meredith) and crissy (cristina) cus they're sisters 😍😊😊

My fam have also had a buncha dogs n puppers before but they were either given away or passed away. My bro also has dis cat named bob and i think he counts as a semi pet since my bro's home is a fam home.

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhh i wish i had an alliterative name like superheroes. Buutt im pretty happy w/ my name :')

25. what did you do for your last birthday: oohhhh i think i was at my section's christmas party it was pretty nice n emotional and i spent da rest of da day w/ 2 of meh best friends who bought me cake n food when my own fam didn't 😆😂😆😂

26. what time did you wake up: 4 am to shit cus im sick, but fell asleep again and officially got up around 730 or 8ish

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: haha tryna stay awake cus i had to drink meh meds and failed oh so much and i think i was asleep by midnight hahaha

28. name something you can’t wait for: tomdaya content, chatting/being w/ my best friends, watching da stuff i wanna watch, tumblring, reading sht i wanna read, vacation, writing fanfics, learning how to do a buncha stuff (write screenplays, make films n gifs, draw better), my bday when i hopefully get to do wat i want haha, avengers 4 and smffh, and captain marvel and antman and the wasp too i guess haha oh and the incredibles 2 and httyd 3 😍😍😍 oohhh and crazy rich asians

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: on monday which was when i was at home and not at my dad's n sis' n i's apartment in manila for school/work

31. what are you listening to right now: commercials on da tv as i answer this long ass questionnaire hahaha

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: hahaha i had to think about dis one but yah i have actually haha he was my gr 8 class mate n i like to think semi friend back den at least haha. Oh w8 but he doesn't go by tom tho, it's just thomas haha

33. something that is getting on your nerves: myself hahaha my shitty lazy ass procrastinating self hahaha 😅🙍

34. most visited website: fb specifically messenger, youtube, and tumblr

35. hair colour: hmmm black w/ a bit of brown i guess (ASIAN, YO! 😆😂😆😂)

36. long or short hair: neither, medium i guess haha. I like how long hair looks but it's such a bother n hassle haha. So i def would prefer short hair on a practical standpoint hahaha (im actually thinking of shaving the hair above my nape, yknow on da back of my head hehe)

37. do you have a crush on someone: well i dont have dat much of a crush on da crush i mentioned before, like i said haha. I have a crush on tomdaya, does dat count? 😆😂

38. what do you like about yourself: hahahaha nothing 😆😂😆😂🙍

Naahh uhhh i guess i like how much i love tv shows, i love meh fangirl self, and i like how diff n unique n weird i am, how i stand out, n dat i think my dreams are noble n worth tryin out. N i like how supportive n nice i am n im just chill on da outside haha. N sometimes i like meh face hehe. And i think dat im hilarious n weird n ppl should appreciate me more hahaha das y i crave for more validation dan consulting researchers hahaha (no one laughs at dat jokes and it's like im da only one who finds it funny and come on, man, i managed to make a research joke. Cant ya give a girl a break?)

n i guess sometimes it's good how much i care but sometimes i wish my feels could just chill for just like a minute pls

Thanks, man. I usually just focus on meh bad qualities so thanks for dis question, man :')

oh and i like dat i can swim hehe

39. piercings: i have holes on my ears for earrings but i don't really wear dem

40. blood type: a, i think?

41. nickname: sam, sab, and i rlly want to be called smells cus it's like a more me version of mels from melody hahaha

42. relationship status: single, yo. Oh w8 but i am married to my bed and fandoms so dey always come first. Plus i love my friends 😍😊

43. zodiac: sagittarius i think but i dont rlly know/care about zodiac sht. Tho it's nice if it does match up hehe

44. pronouns: uhhh i dont know wat to put here but i assume dis refers to wat i wish to be referred by ssoooo she, her, and a genderless pronoun in my language siya

45. favourite tv show: ughh i cant choose. Friends, grey's anatomy, phineas and ferb, avatar: the last airbender, black mirror, doctor who, and all of michael schur's stuff, and modern family, grimm, person of interest, pushing daisies, scrubs, happy endings, forever, how i met your mother, gravity falls, sherlock, and yknow wat? Yah, supernatural too and the httyd shows and suits :') oooohhh w8 and how to get away w/ murder and i guess big bang theory as well 😃 the end of the fucking world, legends of tomorrow, crazy ex-girlfriend, the good place, timeless but it’s kinda depressing so speaking of w/c game of thrones and west world and a series of unfortunate events and stranger things and scorpion and lost in space and for anime, let’s go with yakitate japan and boku no hero academia

46. tattoos: none, but i rlly want one and even have a list of tattoos i want (pretty minimalist), i just have to think of da perf place tho (both where to put it and where to get it) and find out if i can still donate meh bod if i have tattoos, but one of da ones i rlly want is smileys on meh fingers hehe

47. right or left handed: right, but my ma says im kinda ambidextrous n i kinda wish i could develop it hehe

48. surgery: haha nope, never. But in terms of an interest, i love grey's anatomy 😆😂

50. sport: ooohh my main sport is swimming cus my siblings are all swimmers so i am too. But i have played other sports for school like badminton, table tennis, volleyball, some water game i dont remember haha, and a combat sport in my country called arnis

51. vacation: christmas vacay and i cant wait huhu

52. pair of trainers: uhhh are trainers rubber shoes? I have a couple, i guess.

GENERAL

53. eating: my dad (who cooked our meal), sis, and i ate afritada (chicken dat's tomatoey basically) for dinner

54. drinking: just water, but ugh i have to drink da hydrite sht again 😑😒

55. I’m about to: finish dis questionnaire n fall asleep haha

56. waiting for: sleep n happiness

57. want: to sleep n write n tumblr n watch n read n for all my problems to disappear

58. get married: yeahhh... but i think it's highly unlikely, man. So i aint counting on it but i do want it to happen, it seems nice having someone to spend da rest of your life with :')

59. career: hahaha i'm still just a college student, just a newly minted freshman actually. But i like to consider myself a fulltime fangirl hahaha

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: well, i havent rlly made out with anyone yet so im gonna have to say hugs i guess w/c ofc i love haha but i wish someone bigger than me could cuddle me for once in my life 😢

61. lips or eyes: lips cus they just seem so soft and sensual hehe. Plus i dunno man, eyes are kinda gross with muta (da sht in da corner of ur eyes when you wake up, it's a filipino word) and sht. And ya have to wear glasses/contacts if dey weak so it's just such a hassle. Tho i do recognize their importance n stuff 😊

62. shorter or taller: ugh TALLER. im a pretty tall gal so for once id like to be da lil spoon for once, for someone to be able to carry me and ya know all dat jazz. But i wouldnt give up my height for anything, makes me feel confident and better than everyone else mwuehehehehehehe

63. older or younger: uuuhhh for now i think it's a bit weird to date someone younger dan me, but for me personally, wat age i'd like to be, YOUNGER ALL DA WAY. it was just way less stressful and innocent back den, id give anything to go back 🙍

64. nice arms or nice stomach: haha nice arms if it means i can swing around them and they can carry me whahaha. But i do like em abs, i wanna feel wat abs feel like just once in my life hahaha

65. hookup or relationship: ooohhh i guess i fancy myself having a relationship for now hehe. Havent even had one yet haha.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: i am a hesitant troublemaker whahahahaha. Like i have all these ideas of thangs to do n sometimes i do dem but sometimes da situation n context scares me into not doing it like a wuss hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: haha nope.

68. drank hard liquor: haha nope but am looking forward to it hehe

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: thankfully i havent needed any yet whew

70. turned someone down: uhhh i guess the closest i came to "turning someone down" was being awkward around my crush haha but to be fair i think he was awkward too hahaha. And in an unromantic sense, i turned down a blockmate who offered to be my partner in an assignment becus i already had a partner hahahaha 😅

71. sex on the first date: haha havent experienced it if das wat ur askin. Maybe imma be dat kinda person after ive had a couple of relationships but for now i'll settle for someone actually being interested in me hahaha

73. had your heart broken: yes, by tv shows, and by da crappiness of life in general 🙇

74. been arrested: hahahaha nope but dat would be CRAZY hahaha

75. cried when someone died: yes, whether in real life or in tv shows, i have cried bcus of death 😢

76. fallen for a friend: look, man, my best friend's probably the most important person in my life who i couldnt bear to lose. I love her more dan anything in da world so i dunno if our friendship is something more dan da "typical" best friends i just know dat i love her n dat i dont wanna lose her n dat our bond's nothing like any other relationship ive ever had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: hahahaha not rlly 😅 im pretty unreliable tbh and i make tons of mistakes and ill never be enough ever and just in general hate myself and have 0 self esteem hahaha 😅😅😅😓

But there's a chance i could improve tho, a very very VERY small tiny chance... but i guess i'll take wat i can get :/

78. miracles: hhmmm not in da way most ppl think about miracles in dat, it's da impossible event. I like to think it's a miracle that i have the family dat i have, da friends dat i have, and da life dat i have cus honestly i think i'd be dead w/o em. It's a fucking miracle i have things im passionate about and things that i love and im surrounded by ppl who i love and who love me as well. So yeah, i guess i believe in those kinds of miracles :')

79. love at first sight: hahaha not rlly. Look, man, im a fat girl who doesnt rlly care dat much about looks so unless a person manages to fall for someone while dat someone was doing something dat was a huge indicator of their personality and thus it's not only da appearance dat da person "fell in love w/", den i rlly dont believe in love at first sight. It's just infatuation, bruh. Love at first sight is cheap and u dont rlly know any thing about dat person other than the fact that they're pretty (why they caught ur eye in da 1st place imo) and nothin, zilch. Unless, like i said, they were doing something important to dem n indicative of deir personality. But even then, it wouldnt be love. Like i said, it'd be infatuation cus imo love is deep and takes time and cant just HAPPEN just cus u looked at someone and thought he/she was pretty 😒. True love would mean knowing dat person to deir bone but wanting to know more about dem. So to conclude a ted talk from a bitter person w/ a non existent love life 😆😂😂😂, love at first sight doesnt exist, is cheap, and is discriminatory to "ugly" ppl.

80. santa claus: hahaha i know he probs doesnt exist and is u know basically just capitalism n marketing hahaha. But i dunno, man, i kinda wanna believe he exists just cus it's more fun n childlike n innocent 😍

81. kiss on the first date: hahaha yeah i guess so but i think i probs would have had to known dat person for a while before we decided to date. I havent had a first kiss yet sooo i aint just willin to give dat out to someone i just met/knew for like a day or something hahaha (i have no idea how dating works) 😆😂😆😂😆😂

82. angels: huh... i like to think guardian angels exist cus dat means there are like angels of pure light sent down from heaven to protect us from any harm w/c is just nice to think about, yknow? Hehe. But angels in da catholic sense... i dont think i do, bruh. Sorry :/ *shrugs*

OTHER:

84. eye colour: uuhhhh brown, i guess? Like i said, i dont rlly care much for eyes hahaha 😅 ooohh but da purple eyes thang ive seen on da internet sounds cool hahaha

85. favourite movie: aaaahhhhh there's just so many good movies thoo

But agghh fine. Ive come to notice dat my genre's pretty lighthearted w/c is nice actually hehe

Spider-Man: Homecoming, Rogue One, 10 Things I Hate About You, Moana, Coco, Mulan, Avengers: Infinity War, White Chicks cus it's just so goddamn funny and iconic 😆😂😆😂😍, i'm not- ok you know wat, da Pixar movies in general ok? I mean, how can ya not? Oh which reminds me, Tangled, and The Princess and The Frog, oohh The Avengers is also a pretty solid movie, ooohhh Love, Simon, godhs dat was just such a wholesome sweet n nice movie :'), oh and den i freaking love the Scream franchise, man. It's so good :'), oooohhh w8 maybe The Dark Knight cus heath ledger was just da fuking bomb in dat movie, oohh and About Time's da sweetest time travel movie :') w/c reminds me dat the Back to the Future franchise was just such a classic, man :') oh and yknow wat? Unbreakable's actually pretty fucking cool, man. I get shyamalan know haha. Oh and yknow wat? 100 Tula Para Kay Stella is da 1st filipino film i actually liked so it has a special place in meh heart :')

ooohhh and Black Panther, man, gods how can one not bring up Da King™? WAKANDA FOREVER :') 😄

Oh and hey yknow wat? I have a sweet spot for the Sorcerer's Apprentice. It's kinda a guilty pleasure of mine hehe 😅

Whiicchh reminds me... the HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON FRANCHISE HAS GOT MY HART WHIPPED 😭😭😭

Oh and i also rlly like when harry met sally hihi :') and i guess the OG Star Wars trilogy's got a special place in my heart even if it is da way dat it is now 😢 :')

oh and i can't forget meh guardians :') Guardians of The Galaxy is such a solid film, bro. I loved it :') ooohhh and yknow wat? I actually rlly like Ready Player One, Baby Driver, and The Mummy (the brendan frasier one, who ya kiddin 😑)

oh and yknow wat? The Wedding Singer, 50 First Dates, and Music & Lyrics has got a special place in my heart, man. Gotta admit it :')

aawww and amelie, and begin again, and flipped and hercules, and room, and spotlight, and shape of water, and ladybird, and the princess bride, and the iron giant, and the lobster, and we're the millers, and what if and man up and shrek and kimi no na wa and a quiet place and inception and the lion king and to all the boys I’ve loved before and oooh tim burton movies are pretty cool, the animated ones, and I did spend a good amount of time obsessed w/ dis one so I guess cap civil war, and then big hero 6 and wreck it ralph, and the martian and inside out, and gone girl, and the lion king and forrest gump and spider-man 1 and 2, and les miserables and the devil wears prada and the book of life and the intern and the princess diaries and miss congeniality and aladdin and confessions of a shopaholic

And ok, ok, i think im done. Hahaha das it das my list of meh all time fav movies and i feel like rewatching all of em now hahaha 😍

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1-92 enjoyyy

😑…. why you do this to me 😂

1) I’d rather not, that’s my mother

2) yup, he’s my friend and he sits next to me in music

3) no I haven’t

4) yea I do have a small issue with trust but I have many people I trust :)

5) I didn’t, I don’t like anyone that way at the moment

6) I’m excited for the school holiday. Just think of all the naps!

7) I went to my dance class

8) I haven’t seen girls get wasted yet, I’m a 15 year old loser XD

9) I guess a certain amount of confidence is cute? Over awkward like me isn’t great XD

10) water

11) I fully trust @kieran-sw and he is the opposite gender

12) all my jeans are skinny even though they’re not full on skinny on me, it’s hard to find the right size for my short ass XD

13) I’m gonna sleep until I’m too hungry to sleep, eat, try to draw, play the ukulele, play the piano, cuddle a cat, scroll through tumblr, watch youtube videos, listen to music and go back to sleep. It’s a busy day XD

14) I have no idea what I’m gonna buy next. Probably food knowing me

15) Im not going out with anyone and I haven’t kissed anyone sooooooo no

16) everyone changes so maybe. But I personally don’t change a lot for some reason? Even my face hasn’t changed much in about 8/9 years or so because looking back at pictures I look pretty much the same and my personality is also pretty much the same and I’m rambling and you get the picture so imma shut up and move on

17) I feel most comfortable talking about everything to @kieran-sw and my friend since we were even smaller @drawsmaddy

18) I’ve never felt so bad that I’ve felt broken but the closest I’ve been to feeling that way was a few days ago?

19) I haven’t no and I’m not planning to

20) I’m starting to realise that mY HAND REALLY HURTS! I damaged it back in March (on my birthday too) by playing against my own team in hockey (I hated them all) and I tackled someone and the impact of my stick clashing into theirs “bruised” my hand. It’s not broken but I think it’s something to do with my tendons. It was worth it though, my team lost each time XD i’m getting my hand checked out in the holidays though so I’ll find out what it is soon XD

21) I am in a good mood >:3c

22) I would love to swim with sharks! I was going to when I was about 4 but I couldn’t swim well back then so I freaked at how deep the tank was. But I can swim now and I would love to try it as I, missed a great opportunity!

23) My dad’s are green, but a different shade. His are more normal, mine are strange XD

24) I want a snack

25) I’d be a bit sad but I’d be happy for them both, and I wouldn’t really say anything. Their life, they do what they want :D

26) ,y current hair colour is a dirty blonde and that’s also my natural colour. I don’t see myself in any other colour, I’d look wierd XD

27) If they didn’t make me laugh then probably not. I’m a jokey person I want someone that I can joke with

28) The last thing that made laugh was my own joke :| I’m one of those people yes, I’m sorry

29) I quite miss @drawsmaddy, I don’t see her very often but when we do meet up its great XD

30) depends what they do.

31) no! @kieran-sw is a great hooman!

32) I don’t have feelings for anyone yet so I guess not because I don’t know him either

33) I’m not, it drink too much. But my dad keeps buying it so now I think I’m addicted to caffeine….

34) at the moment, my cat purring very loudly ^w^

35) I write my working out in pencil and when I’m at home and there’s no pens then I use a pencil because I have more pencils than pens

36) ask future me, she probably still won’t have kissed anyone XD

37) I do. It happens all the time to me. I’m just going about my day and then a dog comes by or a cat sits around somewhere and I’m overwhelmed with love at first sight ♡ (for humans though, no I don’t)

38) My mum

39) a bunch of people in my dance class just now

40) because they didn’t exist :)

41) around June 7th to June 10th?

42) I hug my mum all the time :D

43) honey I am an embarrassment ;)

44) I don’t tan, I’m like paper on a bonfire when I’m in the sun. So I stay so pale that I blinded myself when my arms are uncovered in the sun all year

45) I haven’t had my first kiss

46) no I didn’t actually. I usually do but last night I didn’t for some reason, I just slept

47) My mum, again hehehe

48) I do sometimes. When I’m home alone I do. When someone’s in I don’t. I don’t want to make their ears bleed XD

49) I do dance in the car when I’m travelling and I’m bored and get a burst of energy and have nothing better to do than embarrass my sister in busy traffic XD

50) I have used a bow and arrow and very badly. I’m better at rifles XD

51) I think I was 10 when that was last done

52) not all musicals, I’m obsessed with quite a few ;D

53) Christmas is stressful when I’m getting gifts for friends and getting asked what I want

54) eat a what now?

55) I’m not a pie kinda person. Soggy fruit/meat? No thanks

56) I wanted to be an animator, and I still do!

57) no but kinda? I dunno. Sometimes I guess

58) I do quite a lot yes

59) no I don’t, the only thing I swallow daily is a hayfever tablet XD

60) I don’t like wearing slippers so I don’t wear them. So I wear socks instead

61) I don’t wear a bath robe they get in my way. I wear a jumper like thing instead, it’s so cozy :)

62) I wear pj’s. But if I’m too hot I wear my old PE shorts and a vest

63) a concert that I’ve been a part of? I’ve never been a part of a concert. But I have been in shows in school productions and the local theatres since I was very little XD

64) I’ve never been to any of those, I’m brittish

65) I don’t care, as long as the stuff does its job

66) never had any of them. I’ve actually never heared of fritos either, what are they?

67) I used to eat sunflower seeds a lot. Not anymore though

68) I don’t really have one XD

69) I take Highland. But I used to do ballet, tap and modern dance classes too until I quit because even though I passed all my exams, so they’d never move me up so I’d be stuck with younger kids. Plus a boy kept pinning me into a corner calling me “hot” and i didnt like it and he clearly needed to get his eyes tested because I am definitely not hot, I’m a small potato XD

70) I’m 15, I’m not looking that far forward yet

71) I can. I can also made a triple curl in my tongue to make a clover shape, it’s wierd XD

72) I’ve never had a spelling bee

73) I have, I do that quite a lot actually

74) the maze runner series is quite good. Those are the last books I read and I enjoyed them so I guess those are my favourites XD

75) It depends what it is I’m studying really

76) I don’t burn it at all but a couple of friends do and I like it

77) once? I think?

78) I don’t know, I’ve seen quite a lot of people. I’d probably really wanna go if dodie did one? But I probably wouldn’t be able to go

79) it was one I went to with guiding. Saw a bunch of cool people

80) I don’t drink tea or hot drinks

81) the answer is basically the same as 80’s

82) ooooh… That’s a hard decision… white chocolate chip maybe? There’s so many!

83) I can swim well yes, I even had lifeguard training at one point :D

84) it’s pretty easy to hold your breath without holding your nose, is that a thing? Do people have to do that? Huh, I learned a thing today hehehe

85) I’m quite patient when I want to be. I’m patient enough to get through all these questions so I must be hehehe

86) I don’t know, I’ve only been to 2 wedding receptions and both had a DJ playing some pretty cool songs

87) I win the adults photography competition quite a lot. Never the kids one, I think they tend to go for the school’s photos instead of one’s taken with a big camera and not a tiny one hehehe. The prize is the same anyway

88) despite my ugly face, I wouldn’t have plastic surgery unless I got acid or serious burns on my face and it was necessary

89) ew olives

90) people can do what they want, as long as they’re sure that they’re ready then that’s fine by me. Athough underage sex isn’t really the best idea in my opinion but still, you do what you want, your life, live it how you want as long as it doesn’t effect other people

91) at some point yes I do :)

Finally! That took some time XD

[jess-oh]

Reflection

ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i forgot to bring my Bible down so now I can’t do my QT here :( i do hope i find the willpower to prepare a smoothie for tomorrow morning, do the dishes, take a shower, and do my QT before i decide to sleep. this probably isn’t a good idea working so much when i have work tomorrow but im in that productive kind of mood! and yes, it’s my fault that i started so late but it’s okay! bc im here now and i at least want to work on it a lil more. i already got some ideas i actually like rolling into my portfolio, i started drawing more thumbnails, i got my 3 typography examples done, i started drawing my didot thumbnails but ended up getting sidetracked. but i did draw a bunch of boxes for it which is good! i do want to do a few more quick sketches for typography and then focus on my research papers tomorrow along with the design for graphic design. actually, i probably wont have time tomorrow since im hanging out with my roommates and going out to dinner with james, moon-hee, and others from downtown. and i know i could just skip out on that but i do want to do it. and then on saturday we’re checking out a couple different apartments and i so badly wish i could just stay home and rest and work all day on graphic design and typography but unfortunately, i cant. im definitely going to be staying up late the next few days as a result to make for the lack of time. 

but here’s what i really want to talk about. i had a really good conversation with shar today and i was open about my depression and how i’ve actually been feeling so bad about myself recently but then im so conflicted bc i want to share what ive been struggling through w/ others but i just dont think they’d understand. and it’s been such an unbelievable blessing to be able to talk to shar about everything thats been going on and my worries and concerns and dreams and hopes for the future and even though she cant fully understand, she does listen and does genuinely care and want to be here. i can see it in her heart. and i also know that just bc of who shes surrounded by, sometimes she can become corrupted but at the end of the day, she really is a good person and is really trying and i can see that whenever she does have some unhealthy habits like gossiping, it’s coming from a place of love and care. and i do really appreciate that and i do want to make more of an effort in sharing and being open and knowing that i am allowed to rely on God and other people and I don’t want to fight this losing battle alone. Because I won’t lose without the help of others. I don’t want to keep killing myself over this any longer. It is honestly so hard. It is. And it’s so terrible to feel so alone and so bad about myself. But if we’re being attacked this hard, it means we’re doing something wrong. And we are. Sharlene and I have been keeping each other accountable and being more open about our faith and we started a conversation with Mulan, Claire, and Dana. And I’ve been making conscious efforts in really investing into the freshmen at Lakeview and I don’t always feel like I can be open about myself to them bc I want to be their spiritually leaders but Sharlene did remind me that I really admired P. Billy and P. Daisy for being so honest about what was really going on in their lives. And that just made them better leaders in my eyes. And I do want to adopt that mindset too. i know that it is still so incredibly intimidating and scary to be so open about my faith at a school as liberal as Columbia but yknow what? It’s college. No one really knows what theyre doing. They just know that theyre searching and Sharlene was right, we’re planting so many seeds even in just discussing our relationship with God out in public, even if we don’t see it. There was someone that was having a bad day and felt encouraged by our passion for the Lord. There was someone that was wrestling with the Devil and won bc of something we said. And I know that I’m still having a really hard time letting myself cry and really let go and let myself be affected in front of Shar right now but it is something I’m working on. And I do notice how often I’m laughing during dark or heavy situations in an effort to lighten the mood and avoid feeling so bad but I do want to be able to just let myself go and not be able to distract myself with my laptop or phone or thoughts or anything. I just want to come before the Lord and give it up. I just want to pray. 

I just imagined praying really hard for Dana and I do want to do that for her soon. Whether it’s at the retreat or when she leaves or before or whenever. But i just want to let her know that God loves her so much. And every time he sees her making an effort to come out to church or reach out to Him or share about her experience w/ the church, He sees that and the biggest grin grows on His face in excitement for his daughter that is on her way to coming home. He sees her. And he wants nothing more than to just embrace her in His open arms. My main goal for this coming semester and just for this whole year has been making sure Dana has a solid foundation and faith with Christ before heading out to Korea. So even when she is alone and struggling, she will know who God is in her life and just really be able to let go and give it all up to Him. I’m human and imperfect but He is a God that does not judge but rather, loves unconditionally. And despite all her sins and drinking and dating and everything in between, He still loves her and is just waiting so patiently for her to come home with open arms. I do truly believe that. And I really hope she can make it to the lock-in. I don’t know what it will be like but I do want to pray for her. 

But yeah, it was just so nice talking to Shar today. But onto my day:

This morning I woke up at 7:45am by my weirdly very quiet alarm and reset the power in my room. Then I headed off to typography and had a pretty good time with Sara and this new girl I just met today and my stomach was having some issues for the most part, it was just a nice and pleasant experience. I had a good first day and good end to the week. Then I finally got my pizza bagel and the cashier was kind enough to save one for me yesterday, just in case :’) Oh yeah, I also asked a bunch of people last night for my defining characteristics and I got some pretty interesting responses. For one, I found out that Andrew wasn’t mad at me and instead, just lazy. And maybe also depressed but that’s just speculation. Now we’re talking again and I’m happy. But he actually wrote me a very kind letter which I was not expecting. I thought everyone would just give me a list, haha. So I was pretty surprised when people like Andrew and Jeanne actually gave me words of affirmation instead. Jeanne is always so supportive of me T v T

I am so cold down here, omona. But I’m listening to my Christian music still and even started to sing along and it just felt very normal and natural. This is who I am. A person that really loves and believes in God and wants to serve Him with their entirety. I do. 

But after eating my pizza bagel, I headed up to work and stayed there for a while and it was a pretty good shift! I enjoyed talking with Ari and Tess and briefly Michaela. Michaela even brought me fries :’) Cleaning and everything was pretty nice and fun though! It was a long shift but I got to finish my annotations  and everything else went pretty smoothly. I might actually draw my thumbnails at work tomorrow so I’ll have something to do. And then...I will work on graphic design, hehehe. 

I’m really bad at reaching out for help and even just praying about it lately and confessing it to God. I think I just need to be ready and willing to let go and take that jump and risk everything for Him. I know that I felt like that before and even though my heart is filled with so much fear right now, I know that it will be so much better once I give everything up to Him. I felt that joy before and there’s nothing like it. 

[elliotthezubat]

DEATH CITY DAYS GAIDEN 7; The Rat And The Jewel King

an abridged/RP verse version of chapter 42 of BSD

girl with red hair: hmmm.... Topaz: *pant pant* girl with red hair: !! there you are! *hug* jeez, I was really worried you know =3= Topaz: *still trying to breathe* "O-Oh?" .\\\. girl with red hair: ^^ so, how did it go? Topaz: "...How did what go?" girl with red hair: the retrieval job ace made you do. >3< Topaz: "Yeah...we got him." girl with red hair: you didn't get hurt, did you? Topaz: "..." *touches a cut* "Not horribly..." girl with red hair: .... *cheek pull* >n< jeez, be more careful you goof! Topaz: "!!!" *pokes her cheek* "Garnette, what the f?!" garnette: >3< I just... 7///7 I worry about you, you know? Topaz: "...Then why pull my cheek..." =3= ace: if you two little shits are done canoodling, get your sorry asses upstairs! garnette: O.O;; Topaz: >\\\< "We weren't!" *tries to follow Ace* -upstairs- ace: I do apologize for how rude my servants were, mr....Dostoevsky, was it? FD: "...Yes." ace: it's not often I get visitors. the mafia doesn't exactly trust me, nor do I trust them. at the very least, I have my card games, my jewels, and my servants. FD: *looks around...bites his lip* ace: what I have is a proposition. perhaps you'd be willing to join us? should we work together, we'll be able to take down mori. I must say, your level of wit is outstanding, even being able to take out the guild. FD: "And if I refuse...I will never see the blue sky again?" ace: precisely. all things considered, seems you have not much of a choice. FD: "And my anemia does not help..." ace: your point? FD: "I'll kill you." ace: *glares and smacks a wine bottle over his head* how...disappointing. very well....Frederickson! front and center this instant! Frederickson: *steps forward...he's shaking* ace: *smirks as he clenches his fist tightly* Frederickson: "Urk!" *clutches his chest, falls to his knees... -several jewels appear in ace's hand- FD: "..." ace:... tch-, hardly worth anything. Frederickson: X___X garnette: mr dosto, are you alright? FD: "...Who, me?" ace: *glares and backhands garnette. hard* I WASNT TALKING TO YOU, YOU INSUFFERABLE LITTLE BITCH! consider yourself lucky I didn't make an example out of you. garnette: *wince* FD: "..." ace: just because you're a little brat pulled from the slums doesn't mean you can step out of line all willy-nilly. *smiles at Fyodor* excuse her, she's just a little brat. FD: *drenched, staring* ace: my ability wont kill you unless you wear the collar. but you'll have to put it on yourself. I'm certain it will suit you. *exits the room* garnette: ow... Topaz: "..." *offers a hand to Garnette* “And here you are telling _me_ to be careful…” garnette: t-thanks.. ^^ Topaz: "...That man..." garnette:...mr dosto? are you ok? you aren't hurt too much, are you? FD: “….” garnette: .-.; *looks at topaz* Topaz: ._.;; "D-Don't give up, s-sir..." *points to his collar* "I can never leave here..." garnette: neither can I... *points to her own collar* but seeing you stand up to mr ace like that was pretty exciting... Topaz: *nods* "These collars would kill us--" FD: *starts to laugh* " 'Don't give up'?" garnette: eh? FD: "Hah...hah..." --then sneezes-- garnette: O.O !! Topaz: "..." *takes a towel, starts drying FD's head* FD: D:< garnette: *getting a medkit out to bandage his wounds* FD: =\\\= "What's your story?" garnette: me? well, I lived in the slums for most of my life...my mom didn't exactly want to have me around anymore...eventually, the mafia found me and I was left in ace's care. although calling it 'care' would be stretching it... Topaz: "Well, when I'm in charge..." garnette: *looks at topaz* Topaz: "...Who am I kidding: I was sold into slavery. How would I ever get in charge..." garnette: ...! hey, maybe mr dosto can beat ace and save us! Topaz: OWO "Hey, yeah! Hey, Mister, why don't you--" FD: *studying his finger* "I cut my finger on that glass..." garnette: *sweatdrop* *bandages his finger* Topaz: "??? Aren't you afraid?" FD: "..." *smiles* "Of course not. This reminds me of my room." garnette: ?? FD: "I manipulate consciousness and space." garnette: wow. Topaz: "..." FD: "So...What's next?" -and so- ace: a game, you say? FD: "Yes. You want to entice me. But when enticement fails, you must get information from me about the next move from my comrades and finances. Therefore, you cannot kill me." ace: hmmm... FD: *sets out the deck of cards, pulls the ace of diamonds* "If you win, I'll wear your collar. If I win, you grant my freedom." ace: hmph. very well. however, I shall determine the game. I deal the card, and you just guess if the next card will be of higher or lower value. if you are correct, you keep going until you are wrong. then we switch hands. whomever has the most cards at the end wins. *draws the 9 of spades* your move. FD: "Hmmm...Lower." -4 of hearts- ace: hmph, beginners luck. FD: "Hmmm...Next one is low." -3 of clubs- ace: hmm... FD: "High." -6 of spades- -this continues for a while- FD: "...How many cards are left?" -none left- FD: "Well, that was fun. Who won?" ace: *speechless* I...I....y-you... -he rushes to the intercom- ace: GET IN HERE AT ONCE! CUT HIS LIMBS OFF! *Silence* ace: ?! *tries to open the door* ?!?!?! FD: "It's useless. I already suppressed your subordinates." ace: ??!! why you...rotten piece of shit! FD: "I prefer 'rat.'" ace:...hehe...hehehe...AHAHAHAHA...do you have any idea where you are? FD: "Underground?" ace: incorrect. right now, you're in a secret base, one not even mori knows about. and we aren't underground. right now, we're in the middle of the pacific ocean. *smirks* you did say your ability was to 'manipulate the conscious mind and space. as for how I know, well, the conversation had been wiretapped~ FD: "??? But how did you know I started manipulating this space?" ace: a broken communicator, a door that wont open. a clock that hasn't been ticking since I came in here. I know what you can do now. you've locked my conscious into your own head! that has to be why you won the game so flawlessly! I saw right through your tricks, you filthy rodent. FD: "Darn...I knew to expect this from a Mafia executive..." ace: but I have something to ask. why didn't you use this ability when you were captured? FD: "...So you couldn't determine how to get out." ace: oh I know how to escape alright. if I were to die in this mental space, i'll be back in the real world as you rot in your own mind. *taking a desk lamp* *smirks* as they say in your home country....do svidanya. -outside- garnette: ... Topaz: "...You think the anemia man is dead?" garnette: I don't know... ???: excuse me... garnette: hmm? Zoey: I'm looking...for someone...*holds up a picture* is he...here? Topaz: "?! How did you get here?" Zoey:...is he...here? Topaz: *sweating, looks at Garnette* garnette: he should be- -the door opens- garnette: !! FD: *exits* Zoey: !! master Fyodor! *hugs him* FD: "Omph! Oh, Zoey! Right on time." Topaz: "?!!" garnette: ?? but..h-how did you- FD: "Now, where is the room where Ace keeps his jewels?" garnette: h-his office is that way...b-but how did you get out of the room?! FD: "Simple: I lied." garnette: ?!?! FD: "My ability is not manipulation of space and consciousness. I just said so expecting a wiretap." Zoey: ... *watching garnette exit* ... Topaz: "Where is Ace?!" FD: "Just...hanging around." Topaz: "N-No..." *follows Garnette* garnette: *SCREAMS* Topaz: *enters the room* "Wh-What is it? What--" *freezes at the sight...* -ace's form hangs lifelessly from the ceiling- garnette: *wide eyed shock, covering her mouth* I....I wanted ace dead but...n-not like this...h-how is this... FD: *enters, pats Garnette's shoulder* "I broke the clock. So he thought time did not pass." *holds empty wine bottle* garnette: *staring, still in shock* FD: "And cork blocked the keyhole...The wine poured on the intercom broke that...And I did not predict the cards. I just memorized little flaws on the surface of each card." garnette:...what....even are you...? FD: "...I am salvation." garnette: .....why?...why do all this for his wealth? Topaz: "Th-That's what you wanted, right? The jewels?" FD: "...Hmph. Those trinkets. I wanted something more valuable..." *pulls out a set of papers* garnette: w-what is... FD: "The list of all Mafia members' abilities. Ace's contingency plan." garnette: !!!! FD: "With this list, I will give this world what it needs: the salvation of Death." garnette: !?!?! *backing away* FD: "And only we in this room know that Ace kept such a list...and the more people who know...the surprising it will be for the Mafia." garnette: ..... FD: "I will bless you...with the Great Silence..." *his hand approaches Topaz's head* garnette: ??? FD: *taps Topaz's head* Topaz: "..." *Blood explodes from the top of Topaz's head* garnette: *staring...eyes wide from shock...she wanted to scream....but no sound would come out* FD: "...I have released him of his sins." garnette: ah.... [topaz: hey...if we ever find a way out of this place...lets get married.] garnette:...t..to... *tears falling* FD: "??? ...Zoey..." Zoey:....those bandages....was that you, miss? FD: "It was, Zoey." Zoey:...I see...you know...im not too fond...of other girls...touching the man I love... *holds a scalpel to garnette's throat* that boy....did you...love him? garnette:....*nod* Zoey:...then....you'll see him soon... -slice- -blood sprays all over as garnette collapses, choking on her own blood* garnette: a...ah.... *weakly reaches for topaz' hand* Topaz: *struggling...coughs* "D...Des...troy..." garnette: *holding his hand* Topaz: "...If this ends the Mafia...We're free..." garnette:....*weak smile*...you'll...come find me...right? Topaz: *nods* "Yes..." *closes his eyes* garnette: remember...you...promised.... Topaz: *dead, with a smile* Zoey:....was it...petty of me...to kill her? FD: *holds up his fingers* "Tiny bit. But we had to get rid of them." Zoey:...were you...hurt too much? FD: "No. The wine bottle hurt. Got me wet. Cut my finger." Zoey: I see that girl bandaged you... *small pout* FD: "I assure you, it was simply for me to lower their guard...And besides, she meant nothing to me..." Zoey: ... FD: *strokes her cheek* "I only wish I saved one jewel for you...But none can compare to your radiance." zoey: ah~ FD: *smiles* "Shall we depart?" zoey: of course~ FD: "Good..."

[zypher0108-blog]

March 14, 2017 5:24PM

March 14, 2017 5:24PM Jisoo’s Post Trans

I’m reading a letter kkkk 💛💛💛 Blinks are so funny! Kkk kkk

• Nyongan !! haha • When I read the letter, I was more impressed by the blinks who came to support me while I was working even the school days is coming. • But I’m still reading it. Hahaha • Ah, the numbers that cause all the people to get up are 5 ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ • And someday when Jen is freezingㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ sincerely • There are many blinks who put picture hehehe (you said to put photo on letter) • Wait a minute i will read more • Wow! There are lots of blink coming back to school soon! Hahaha I’m gonna cheer you up, too.💛 Don’t worry about it. • Kkkkkk they are thinking about an idea to make me laugh • Somehow they put a water bottle on their head ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ 👍👍👍the best • We are trying to make laugh at each other kkkk • ㅋㅋ Why is the picture/drawing so good again? ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋShumon, Bear Squirrelㅋㅋ its like nuekkiringㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ🤗 • Im reading it hahaha I read the book quickly but the letter always reads slowly… • Haha I got a picture framed on my birthday. I really can’t draw.How can you draw this picture? • I saw everything !!!!! ㅋㅋㅋ Fun !!! ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ • Even if you look with a picture, it is difficult to memorize it by connecting the face and the name. haha I have to go to and see it properly! • Kkk I see a nickname when I look at the letter!!! • And when I look at the pictures, it becomes a match with the name kkk • Also, blink who take a picture of me? Please write your name. If i look at the photo logo, I can tell who it is kkkk • Rolisa nyong an☺ (a blink photographer) • Haha Actually .. I do not know how to tweet.. ☺️ I can almost see photos from INSTA Kk • Heol i write it down in my diary neatly ☺ • It’s hard to match the name. • We should get close to each other, talk to each other, talk to us faster! 😭😊 • Thank you very much☺ • I always eat bacon and eggs. • Hull It has already been 2 months..!!! I can talk like this, so…!! • I changed my photo kk to color Yellow • Hull !!! I wish I could have a genie! • (Fan’s name is Jerry) Jerry! Jennie's Middle School nickname ㅋㅋ 😂 • I changed my DP! • I look at Jerry’s letter. Okay. Jennie's phone case was Jerry. • Wow Wow Wow? 🙃 • Oh, thank god. Thank you.💜💜 • You and I are alike! Hehe what is it? • kkkk No, I did not see it because I saw the picture right away.? ☺💛 I like it • This time, please put the bucket on your shoulder kk 🤗 • Hull…. The world of comedy is deep and wide… • Kk I was laughing because my plan card was so nice to me☺👍 the best • I read it all! haha • Kkk I checked the text! • Actually I can not, but I lay down and read a lot kkk • I’ll keep it all at home haha inside the box • I felt really excited about seeing the blink letter haha Something is fascinating haha Oh, thank you so much 💛💙 • I have eaten at 4 o'clock and still have to eat chicken. • Oh, White Day today? You said 🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭🍭here it is! candy!Hahaha • Candy… I could make candy…?? Candy is something… I did not think about candy…!! • Oh yeah, next time you turn on the V app, I’ll shake you upside down. • This was my personal period, and I had forgotten it. • I’ve been working on this since I was a kid. • I have to leave today. • Everyone ate dinner and.. sleep early!! Haha nyong an……!!! 💛

Jisoo stayed an hour and 20min in the celeb page and 25min more at chatroom..

6:45pm chatroom

She said goodbye but enters the chatroom • I’m sorry! • ㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ ㅋㅋㅋ Fuh hee hee hee hee hee hee heen • Oh, how do you know how to make a real rabbit call? That that glider is jendeuk. • It’s creepy. • Oh, wow. How did you know that? • Who is it • Our Members • Later … I had to practice another one, but I got stuck. • I got caught while I was chatting. • This week is just around the corner.. no chyu day • Seriously? We can call a million hares upside down? • I’d like to get together and try to get along. • Do not do anything. • I’ll do it myself • Pretend you can’t do it. I’m only gonna be special. • Do not call me back in front of me before I do it. • Yemin Chu • I hate rabbits. • i hate hares even more. • I like mountain squirrels. Squirrel eat acorns • so good • Acorns (dotoli) are cute names. • But it’s cute to eat it. • Our family precept is • Love, Forgiveness, and Understanding • That’s it. • Does not it? it is a secret • I was just thinking suddenly. • In the moon • theres a rabbit. • The rabbit would do • geu ttukttak ttukttak • Yes, they have mortar bat • It’s printed on the moon. • Yesterday i saw it • The moon was nice yesterday. • I have to see the full moon. • Pigeon (bidulgi) • I don’t like them • they don’t get off the road • I have to wait but pigeon is doing a parade • he blocked my way • and his expression • goosebumps • 🐦 • If pigeons caught neck discomfort • They do not have a hospital. • How do animals live without a hospital? Wild animals • If they get hurt, just put it on? Dove • I often think primitive times. • But the ant • Why can they climb the wall • its called the ant song. • what is it? • Do not let the kids build it. • I found it and turned it in the car. • So, for a few days, the kids sang ants songs. • If I call you, I will do it. • There is a round and a round of songs. • Go to Las Vegas. Don’t tell me you can’t tell me where you’re coming from. • And again, • Call again • And shark family song and called shark songs • Lisa is calling • Baby Shark ttuttu leu ttuleu • Baby Shark with Baby Shark Voice • Mother Shark Called Mom Shark Voice • I saw 23 identities yesterday. • So Lisa said, “there’s a lot of people in one person? That’s why” • I said, “Yeah, like you!” Then she suddenly turns into a monster. • I am frightened • Lisa often imitates a monkey, so she have a monkey inside her. • But yesterday only monsters came out and no monkeys came out. • I saw Chaeng with her. • She was scared. • If Chaeng was scared when she see a scary movie she take her earphone • She put in earphones and listen to a songs • Oh right. Our festival furniture is • It’s fun, Yohoo • Maybe you can go around and eat and eat. No one can eat on stage. • College festivals will be fun • There’s no rice cake stick. • The rice cake is sweet and sour • taste • I do not know where to go • I’m gonna work hard and listen to the loud scream. • I am the one who left now haha Everyone’s really having dinner. • Good night! Good night 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛

[brightlightscastashadow]

I NEED TO DO HOMEWORK but my brain is A MESS RIGHT NOW so here’s a list of everything that has happened this weekend/might happen in the future so i can just not think about it again until all my work is done (PS if you’re on mobile and there isnt a read more i am so so so sorry

THURS

my japanese class went on a field trip to zojoji temple near tokyo tower with japanese university students

went in tokyo tower and saw an amazing sunset over mt. fujiiiiii (and sprouted ideas for future romantic date set up hehehe)

met a bunch of cool japanese students (Hiro and Lola!!)

went to dinner with the students and our professor

ela and i were talking about how cool the guy hiro was on our walk back

and then he ran to catch up with us to walk back to the train lmao. our pal!!! what a guy!!!

wandered around back roads of azabu juban and found a cemetary

went back to tuj until 10pm in the studio

SLEEP

FRI

went to see the stand-up act of the guy I went to the drag show & other comedy show with (his name is nao for the record)

we were supposed to meet up with Ela but she got sick last minute :(

but things weren't awkward they were fun :)))) and i remembered that i actually think he’s really cute and funny (apparently i forgot in the week we didn't see each other lmao)

nao was so nervous and I was trying to comfort him while simultaneously trying not to make him more nervous by being too close lmao

after the show we stayed and talked to his professor that came and the also mc of the show (both asked how we met and we had to say tinder lmao)

his professor told me not to help him write his paper (hes an english major lol) and that it would be “good to make him suffer a little”

talked to the mc about being awkward when they make you participate at comedy shows but this part wasn’t actually awkward. also its so cool meeting all these people that are in japan for all different reasons??? also im becoming a real adult that can have actual good conversations with strangers

nao and i took the train back to shinjuku together and  he said he was amazed that i dont fall over on the train since i dont hold on to anything lmao

(saw udon noodle vomit... yikes)

SAT

THE CRAZIEST DAY EVER I WALKED 27K steps/12 MILES

left dorm at 9am for tuj. met up with painting professor. took train to ueno park

museum we were gonna go to was closed for renovation so we went to some Titian show at another one and it was boring so ela and i just discussed how terrible they were at painting babies

went to another exhibition space called chiyoda 3331. saw a few really cool things

walked around akihabara/ in an arcade

ate tempura and discussed japan and learning japanese. and art. 

the guy we were with (kevin) showed us this cool bridge where you can see a ton of different train lines crossing over a river and we stood there for like a good 30 min lmao

took the train across tokyo to shimokitazawa (THRIFTING)

looked around a bit before ela and i met up with our friends Kristi and Steph. 

I fell in love with a pair of suede turquoise doc martens. and they had my size. in japan. a miracle. (also theyre new not thrifted) 

bought the docs

sadly didnt fit into many japanese clothes. uncertain if this is a body type issue or a too much food lately issue or maybe a bit of both...

got crepes and a good ass teriyaki burger

THOUGHT i was gonna go home but kristi and i stopped in shin-okubo (koreatown) for desert

looked at kpop goods and yelped for a while (both our favorite groups are very popular here)

bought some korean food from the grocery store and then... alcohol from the conveince store :-) public drinking is legal here lmao japan is too lit

Got drunk off this super strong vodka tonic that im convinced is simultaneously the cheapest and most tasty way to get drunk ever. i will miss this drink

drank some nasty ass green tea alchol

wandered around drunk for like an hour

NEEDED TO PEE SO WALKED IN CIRLCes for another 30 min before we remembered mcdonalds will be our best bet for a bathroom

finally got home around midnight

ate a ton of food

couldn’t sleep til 2

SUN

woke up somehow naturally at 8am. an hour before i even set an alarm. not hung over. feeling great. 

went for a run which didnt go well bc of asthma and general lack of physical fitness but at least i got to see a lot of the nearby neighborhood

met up with ela’s class at the science and nature museum. an illustrator that works here was giving us sketching advice/tips and at first i thought he was super agressive but i warmed up to him

he liked my drawing a lot and told me i should come to his event where a bunch of artists and illustrators in tokyo come to draw on sunday nights!!

ela and i went to ikebukuro and ate mcdonalds

walked to the bar where her roommate (atsuko) was performing. 

ATSUKO IS AMAZING she is so talented holy shit i love her

her performance was incredible

amazing

ok

then there were other bands and they were like more punk/rock (?) kind of bands but yo i was into it, it was so fun

went out to dinner with atsuko, my friends, her friends

her friend’s friends got too drunk... at first it was funny but then iwas like ok we gotta go bc of homeweork

which was the RIGHT MOVE BECAUse omg after we left some guy puked and another one disappeared and there was still the equivalent of $100 left to be covered on the check bc they drank so fucking much

anyway

at least i wasnt there

now homework??? idk i have so much to do and idk how to get it done rip

Future????

LOTS OF DEADLINES THIS WEEK HELP WHEN WILL I FIND THE TIME

fri: movie and sunset in tokyo tower date (i think its fair to flat out call this a date) with nao

sat: photography exhibition with ela and atsuko

also sat: yokohama again- ramen museum and lantern festival

sun: artists sketching event thing!! i wanna meet artists and have them teach me how they got here and also for them to think im good and make connections :-))))

atsuko is performing again in 2 weeks and im so excited?? im gonna invite nao too so he can meet my friends

more deadlines approaching...

my dad is visiting in the beginning of march

killian called me and said she might visit??? waaaahhh so nice

ela and kristi will still be here after the program is over and will be here to celebrate my birthday with me!!!

kristi wants to come with me to korea??? ffffff im so excited

i need  a new job for summer? i keep forgetting to look at internships... i need to work hard on this stuff this week

i have never wanted something more before than to live here

i need to learn japanese

i love it here

also i feel like i have finally opened up as a person

damn

wtf is my life anymore