and ive seen just about everything, but none of it i can keep.
alone with my thoughts is very underrated,,, go listen to it (this is a demand) (/lh)
here are the stills :]
fun fact time! (i like to make these aksjdl sorry)
the suit is a reference to the astronaut in the album cover of the original song (Noah Floersch)
so is the audio recorder in cjs hand
...and the yellow-pink border
the thing moving on his chest is the audio waves from cjs music video playing the same lyric from this drawing
the words are supposed to resemble sound waves but i could NOT figure out how to make em move (i tried...so many times...i got irritated and left them alone...never again...)
the background was made in like a minute using a tutorial from pinterest lol
procreate dreams glitched at one point and made his right arm go flying off the screen (i thought it was gone forever...totally didnt panic or anything...)
I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.
basically threw away £20 on my nails today so was already getting weird bc i apparently cannot be normal about money and then my paycheck came through just for my manager to have knocked off 11 hours worth of pay. so naturally i am crying in a dark room about it
My problem is I spend so much time NOT looking at feedist blogs and discovering so many cute feedees and talented feeders that when I log into this account I go feral and I NEED you to know how sorry I am for spamming likes and reblogs on your posts (I'm holding back)
Also if I AM spamming your likes I probably want to be friends or think you are incredibly cute or both (usually both)
Sorry to vaguepost, but I saw a poll about whether sex scenes in movies bother you, and one of the options was "No I think it can add to it (how?)"
And that "how" makes me sad. People are so twisted up and freaked out about sex that they can't see how it is an action that can tell you a lot about a character – just like all other actions:
Do they have sex with a man or a woman (or someone who doesn't fit into either category), are they in a relationship or strangers (or something more complicated), are they rough or gentle, are they experienced or inexperienced, what sort of position are they in, is there foreplay or roleplay, dialogue during, does it lead to further plot points such as pregnancy, etc etc etc.
You can show (not tell) a lot of things about characters by what they do and how, and in this aspect sex is no different from any other action.
If you want an example of a movie with a sex scene that adds to it, The Shape of Water has at least two. The boss guy having sex with his wife, and the protagonist having sex with the other protagonist.
So why is there a "how" and why does it make me sad?
It betrays the fact that people put sex into this weird category separate from all other activities (whether elevated as the be-all end-all human activity, or cast down as the deranged freak activity we should never even think about) and! people think that somehow your identity and sexual preferences should play a part in this all too, somehow!
Like another option in the poll indicated that it is an accepted idea that someone sex repulsed wouldn't want to see non-pornographic movie sex scenes. But no one would suggest that non-murderers wouldn't want to watch a movie where people are killed. I don't kill people and am really repulsed by murder, but I don't mind watching movies where characters kill other characters.
And I know its all because American conservatism and its disgust-based purity politics influences online queer spaces under the disguise of something else, and the people doing this shit don't even realise they're doing it. And thats the thing that makes me sad. You are building the walls of your own prisons without even realising. These sorts of hangups about sex can cause all sorts of problems.
And like, I don't want that for me, but I also don't want that for y'all. Please try to unlearn this stuff. :/ Sex is not dirty. Sex is not the ultimate connection between two people who love each other so much that they fuse their bodies into one. Sex is an action that some people do and some people don't. There's infinite variety to it. There are infinite reasons to do (or not do) it. Depending on the story it can be used in fiction to explore characters and further the plot etc.
Fabric stores are so fucking awesome like I get to buy obscure fabric used to keep mosquitoes from getting through the windows and hear old ladies telling the people cutting fabric all their secrets