He is not. Definitely not.
He is injecting, for a truly minor procedure, a band aid of a surgery, and underestimated Ratchet's personal disgust and revulsion.
It hits him while he's inside, making the dear of his patient hit him personally rather than being something that he can enjoy. Trepan with his and Ratchet's instincts slowly pulls out, and vomits shaking manually shut down his own emotional receptors and put the patient under. Without the active fear he quickly and efficiently finishes, cleans to hide it, goes through the day numb, and turns them back on at home to get hit by the full range of self-disgust and utter fury that leads him to throwing Ratchet’s brain around like a stress ball.
He fully focuses on attempting repairs and finds a lot of his work has been dangerously undone. He refuses to come out about it, though lest he be marked as potentially dangerous. He has the data ghost of a "dissident" that's enough to get him flagged, and he knows personally what could happen.
This makes compounds into further stress because he's been pointedly ignoring the persistent Orion, struggling with unfamiliar morals, and new guilt over lying to Pharma, who he worries about.
Trepan degrades and falls into Ratchet's mental patterns to the point he wakes up and goes to the hospital before realizing he runs into Rung in the waiting room. Rung had just dropped off a patient for repairs due to an incident, and he pegs what is going on and says, deliberately, "Ratchet" and Trepan answers and starts having a breakdown.
Rung, gently, escorts him somewhere private and talks him through it. Trepan is lashing out, but Rung is being compassionate yet firm. He understands exactly what is happening and is raging and grieving on the inside, realizing what it means for how Ratchet died.
Trepan lets Rung calm him down and admits he doesn't know his own mind anymore. He's gotten good at hiding it, but what triggered this was he was allowed to go back to work and reacted poorly to injecting.
Trepan almost reaches out but pushes Rung away and threatens him to not tell Pharma.
Rung doesn't, yet only because he knows Pharma won't believe him as he has known Trepan longer and leans on him. Rung also isn't fully aware Trepan reported Ratchet intentionally not just was an unlucky minion who works for the Institute. He knows that the Senate has mnemosurgeons onboard, and they were the ones in power who made the choice. Trepan wouldn't have selected Ratchet or approved him for a P.A. Bit he knows exactly who would and decides he needs to make a point to visit Senator Shockwave about his most recent legislation on mnemosurgery regulations.
Rung is more focused on the safety of those involved. He can see the potential danger to himself and others in thecclearly destabilizing Trepan. He also has taken on the responsibility of being there for Pharma. Rung does supply Pharma with the reality of mnemosurgeries use, Senate laws, and Ratchet's activities to let him draw his own conclusions and investigate when he's ready.
Despite his own disgust he even makes the choice to go check up on Trepan which leads to his first meeting with Orion Pax who has been hounding Trepan for a follow up interview that added to Trepan's stress. Rung politely excuses himself and Trepan pointedly avoids him after.
Yesssss
Oh Trepan
I do not feel bad for him right now😁
I hold firm by my opinion that mnemosurgery is terrifying as shit, and by extension Trepan is triple terrifying.
dAMN ON HIM THROWING THE BRAIN. after all. He can't throw around the psychological parts of Ratchet inside him. But he can throw that.
Mmhm and now he's afraid of something happening to him because after all. If he was in the other's shoes, fuck knows he'd punish first ask questions later in order to keep the status quo.
This is so fascinating because for all intents and purposes, he is partially Ratchet. And this is fucking with him so much.
And Rung can see both of these facts, thus Trepan losing it even more
again god that's gotta be a horrible death, dying during mnemosurgery.
So Rung doesn't know everything, but what he does know is rather concerning. I mean the truth is concerning but yeahhh.
Senator Shockwave, the unlucky bastard himself
Rung may hate Trepan, but he sees a duty in this. Trepan matters to Pharma, and Rung cares about Pharma.
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see i don't understand jason todd. fundamentally. as a person/red hood/robin/outlaw/personthing.
But he reminds me of my brother, who enjoys reminding me i am useless to any conversation (he can flip me off with an eyebrow raise), drinks like two kinds of protein for breakfast (??? idk), shows No Emotion possible (the 4th shoulder dislocation did elicit a growl), and...who's favorite movie is Greta Gerwig's "Little Women."
Yeah, I don't understand my brother either.
Comic: Steph's Batgirl series, 2003
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