#I am so happy and so exhausted ahaha

[beauty-and-passion]

Fanders Sides Season 3 is complete

I finished writing it and in the last couple days I read it all: I can confirm that now everything works a lot better than before, I am satisfied wit hteh conclusion and I hope you will be too.

So, what happens now?

First of all, the episode analyses: they are all written, I just have to proofread them. Once they will be ready to go, I will post them - so you can expect frequent updates from now on.

After the episode analyses will be over, I will start posting the episodes of FSS3. They will be available on AO3 too, so you can save them here on Tumblr or on AO3.

And that's all for now. After all of this is over, I will write another post to explain what happens next, but let's not get too ahead of ourselves: this adventure is far from over.

The analysis of Can Lying Be Good will come soon, so keep an eye around for that one ;)

[asktidethegastrodon]

She was mildly shocked at first, as she wasn't expecting him to come over to her, but she didn't appear to mind it. Despite the awkwardness, she gives a soft reassuring smile. Tide: I don't think it's weird to say at all! I do apologize for not saying hello earlier, I didn't see you at first! There are so many pokemon around haha She smiles a bit, hoping that didn't sound too rude, she didn't mean it to be. Tide: I am happy I was able to help.. even a little. I felt like I didn't do too much for you guys... So it's nice to hear that they helped an- Tide waves her hands nervously, realizing she may sound like she was fishing for another thank you or making it about herself. Tide: N-NOT THAT I NEEDED VALIDATION FOR DOING THAT oh bother- She gently places one of her hands on her forehead in a attempt to compose herself a bit Tide: Sorry, I'm still.. not the best at talking to others.. sometimes.. a lot of the time... BUT UM-

Tide: I'm so happy to here that you and the kids got here alright! From all the children giggling I hear not too far off, it seems like this place is a nice safe place for them. Tide: Nothing better than hearing children having a fun time.. makes me wish I could run around and play like them too haha Tide smiles once more

Tide: I'm really happy they are okay and are safe now... Same for you as well.

Tide: It looked like it took a lot out of you to take care of them and keep them safe.. and to even take them here... Tide: So I do hope you yourself, are taking care while you are here. This place seems very kind and nice, so I'm sure they'll treat you well too... I'm almost surprised they let me in here! Seems like a protected area so I'm shocked they even let me in ahaha... But anyways... Tide gives a playful teasing glare Tide: I know how it is to exhaust yourself while taking care of others. Make sure to take care of yourself as well!

Tide gives a nervous laugh, waving a hand to fan herself nervously Tide: Haha, sorry. I didn't mean to pry at you like that. My caretaker instincts kinda kicked in there hahaha..ha..

She looks back at Paleo and smiles again Tide: If you lot are going to stay here for awhile, I might come by again sometime! If that's alright by you lot anyways haha.. I don't wanna come off as weird... I'm just gonna help that pokemon over there with some personal matters!

Tide gestures over to Honey, referencing their previous conversation. Tide: So maybe I'll see you again? Maybe we could have lunch or something and have a chat about things? Maybe I don't know, no pressure obviously haha! Just me blubbering about! You're probably busy with everything so I would understand haha. Just figured I would offer I guess! - - - - -

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[misc-obeyme]

I'll keep spoilering you just cuz... Cuz I wanna talk about those chapters so much. Yes, I thought about the board game too later on, but never played it myself. Could be fun with them, honestly, Lucy will win anyway. Look, I am not happy about the whole "multiple human worlds" either, it makes it soooo much broader, also Diavolo has basically god powers from what I get from the lore? Creating dimensions, stopping time and so on, so it makes sense he can travel between dimensions? So why does he needs Barb's powers? Also, why isn't teleportation is used more often? I think there's a chat somewhere where Mammon had to keep the lights on with magic, and said it's too draining. So I get that they can't use magic that often (mc is excluded cuz, it's mc) but still, the amount of times that the brothers were late for RAD. Just teleport there. But this is a whole different conversation. I am just a stickler for lore and logic within it, if I get going. Yes, yes, I will lighten up... In the rest of hard chapters 50 and on, there's like 4 of them where Levi and Mammon are doing stupid shit. Like a lot of it. It makes me think that if you let the two of them be alone for longer than few minutes, they will destroy the world. Also, Levi is super rich. Sugar daddy to Mammon. It just makes it so much more profound now. How didn't I think of this before. Can't wait to see what the hard lessons in season 4 has to offer. -🐆

Well, I've only played it once and I remember being somewhat bored, but I still can't see Catan and not think of it for some reason lol. No doubt Lucifer would win, too.

OKAY now we're getting into teleportation because that is a question I also have!! In fact, I'm so preoccupied with the fact that MC can teleport as a sorcerer that I've included it in both The Threads That Bind and Unchained. In Threads, MC uses it to teleport themselves from inside the castle to outside the castle. And in Unchained, they give an excuse for why they aren't using it, which is that it's exhausting and depletes their magic and isn't worth using for short distances. But they also use it to teleport between worlds, which is something that seemingly only MC and Solomon and Barbatos can do.

I don't know about Diavolo, honestly... I can't remember what the specifics of his powers are. But he's supposed to be the strongest demon in the entire Devildom, so you would think that would mean he could do things like teleport, too. I'm not sure how that might differ from Barb's abilities. I always thought of Barbatos doing it more like portal-style, so it might be less exhausting. If you can open a portal to anywhere, that's likely less taxing than trying to move your entire body from one place to another? I don't know, there are no rules to this stuff and it makes me crazy.

So I just kinda headcanoned teleportation rules as needed for my stories. It's important in a few plot points, so I had to address it, you know? Otherwise I'd have had to come up with some kinda alternate way for things to go down.

Ahaha please don't lighten up, I am absolutely the same way lol. I could rant about this for several more paragraphs. But in the end, I always just end up filling in these questions myself as needed because there's so much that they don't fully explain. And I'm like, I need my own stories to make sense. So that means making up rules where none exist in canon.

Anyway, I love the Mammon and Levi relationship. They're so funny, I feel like they're constantly just fucking around. And Levi getting so mad at Mammon for owing him money is really hilarious when you consider how often Levi still lends Mammon money. Like is all that just for show? Mammon is spoiled lol.

[miya-akane]

Vivid bad squad with a friend s/o that was in dating show and is dating one of participant of the show but that vivid bad squad member likes them more then as a friend

Vivid bad squad that have a crush on friend s/o that participates in dating show

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a/n:ahhh i love vivid bad squad so much they're my skrunklies<3

context:vivid bad squad(separate) x friend!dating show participant!s/o

tw:none!

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❥ poor kohammy, she's so shocked when she saw you on that show

❥ she's a bit sad but she'll congratulate you nevertheless

"(name)! Congratulations on getting on that dating show!"

"Oh thank you kohane! I really am happy when the director let me in"

"Th-thats good! Do you have anyone in mind you think of pursuing for? "

"Nah. I'm not interested in anybody there. Not when I have you~"

"Huh?! What you mean by that (name)? "

"It means I'm only interested in you kohane~ Too bad you aren't in the show too.. Otherwise I would've make a move on you..."

"E-EH?!"

❥ oh my. She's very embarrassed right now

❥ she's very enthusiastic when she knows you finally got into a show! I mean it's your dream after all

❥ but she's a bit down when she knows that it's a dating show and you kinda got close into someone there

"(name)! There you are! Is the recording good?"

"An! Ah yes it went well. Being in a dating show is easier than I expected."

"Ahaha it sure is! Anyway do you like him?"

"Who?"

"That guy you're making a move.."

"Oh them! Don't worry an. I just like him as friends. "

"What?! But you seems close to them.."

"I'm just acting An~ Don't worry. I always have my eyes on you."

"!! I love you too (name)!! "

❥ somehow mad but couldn't say anything

❥ i mean your dream is to get into a show. He loves how passionate you are in acting

❥ but why a dating show?

"Hey (name) you're back"

"Ah hi Akito! Yeah I'm a little exhausted but I'm fine. How are you?"

"I don't know. Why don't you ask him."

"Them? Akito, who are you talking about?"

"That boy that pinned on you in that stupid show."

"Oh him! Ah.. Don't tell me you're jealous"

"Well I'm not! But he's too close to my liking. Why don't you just go back to him or something. Don't he ask you out on a date last episode."

"Oh Kito, I turned him down of course! I felt a little bad but I got my eyes on someone else anyway~"

"Someone else? I bet they're from that stupid dating show.. "

"Oh silly I like you! Ain't that obvious?"

"H-HUH?! You're joking.. "

"Oh how am I gonna deal with your ass... Of course not~ I like you the first time we met and and I have always been since"

"....i like you too...i guess.. "

❥ he's proud of you final participating in a show like how you've always wanted

❥ but there's a tiny part inside of him that just doesn't felt right like yeah you're achieved one of your dreams but the dating show part doesn't sit right with him

❥ i mean of course he would be happy for you but you know he just trash off his feelings for your happiness

❥ Little did he know...

"Toya! Guess what? I'm trending in Twitter! Look at this!"

"Oh... Congrats (name) ..! What for?"

"Oh its because someone from the dating show confessed to me in the last episode. And he's really popular so his fans really like to see the chemistry between us... I mean yeah I do hang out with him the most in the series, but I never expected it!"

"I see... Did you planned on accepting him?"

"Oh no no... I'll just turn him down kindly. He's a good person but not my type . I only view him as an older brother figure. Besides I like you more~"

❥ congrats you just caught him off guard. (toya.exe has stopped working)

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notes:i actually did toya's part in the middle of my native language class LOL

[mamaspeckles]

FOUND OUT I HAVE COVID BUT DON’T WORRY WE’RE STILL KICKIN LET’S KEEP THE VENMADS TRAIN CHUGGING BUT WHAT A WONDERFUL THING TO COME BACK TO…..I AM SO SO HAPPY I COULD HELP START SOMETHING AS SWEET AS THIS YOU KNOW A 1000% VENEER WOULD JUST ADORE YOU HONEY HE TOLD ME HIMSELF!

Ladies and gentlemen I am so out of it, save me granddaughter and grandson in law I KID I KID BUT OH MAMASPECKLES YOU MAKE MY HEART FEEL SO WARM I’M SO SO OVERJOYED TO BE ABLE TO MAKE YOU FEEL SO APPRECIATED 😭

I’M SO SORRY I HAVEN’T SENT ANY CONCEPTS CURRENTLY MY BRAIN JUST FEELS LIKE IT’S BEING COOKED (THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANT AHAHA)

I'm sorry to hear about your COVID diagnosis, but it's great that you're maintaining a positive outlook. Take care of yourself, and I hope you have a swift recovery! Grammaspeckles, your joy is contagious truly! It's wonderful that I bring warmth to your heart as you do with mine. Keep spreading the love! And also please take a rest and worry about writing after my lovely you must be so exhausted!!-love mama

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

[naraven]

ITS A SIN TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD

ahaha so yeah this is just something small i whipped up for wanderer/scaramouche/whatever because hyv knew what they were doing when they gave us free reign to name him

(it took me days to find a good name for him im such a pathetic simp)

wc / 0.9k

cw / should be nothing? its a pretty normal fic idk what else there would be here

“What about ‘Tsugumi’?”

Reactions were mixed. The now named Tsugumi looked down, tilting his hat to cover his face. The Traveler and Paimon ponder over it, before nodding at each other and deciding it was good (albeit somewhat long). Nahida claps with a close-eyes smile, happy that the wandering puppet had a new name.

“If you’re sure.”

Nahida clapped, a gentle close-eyed smile on her face.

“There, now you have a name of your own.”

While Paimon fails to come up with an ugly nickname, Tsugumi thinks over his new name once more. He couldn’t think of any hidden meaning behind the seemingly normal name. Many of the characters he could think of for the name didn’t seem to match any sort of malicious connotations.

With that all over, you accompany the Traveler and Paimon to their temporary living space. You wave them goodbye, exhausted and ready to hit the hay.

Before you do, you see a familiar gleaming anemo vision in the corner of your eye. You walk as quietly as you could to see if you could spook the puppet (if he even could be scared by something as obvious as you walking in from his side…)

“Boo!”

Tsugumi peers over to his left to see you with your hands up like claws near your head. He sighs at the mischievous shine in your orbs, turning to face you fully.

“What do you want? I thought you stayed back to whisper about me with that pesky Traveler and Lesser Lord Kusanali.”

You lower your arms in front of you, crossing them, seemingly amused by his question. He cringes, suddenly feeling as though he made the wrong decision by even talking about such a thing in the first place.

“Hmm, I don’t want much, just wanted to see how you were doing after everything.”

“Thanks so much for your concern. I’m doing absolutely swell, so you don’t have to worry your pretty little head about how I am.”

He pulled out that nauseously sweet voice that would have sounded genuinely convincing had he been anyone else. However, this was the puppet that was betrayed thrice over and was not at all taking it well.

“If that’s the case, then I hope you at least find somewhere safe to sleep. Cities like these are dangerous at night, y’know?”

You lecture him as though he were a child. He clicks his tongue, finding it irritating that a mere human was telling him what to do.

“I mean really, Tsumugi, what would you do if not for me?” You whip your hand as if you were flipping your hair, smile not at all serious.

He ponders for a second. His new name felt so natural out your mouth, as though it had been his name his centuries long life. He’s had so many titles, so many names, and called so many different things that sometimes he… forgets.

He forgets who called him what, forgets what he called them, forgets his own names. He wonders how long it will take for him to forget the one he has now.

“Why… did you name me so?”

He stares you down. He wonders, as you bring a hand to your chin, how long it would take for him to still remember his title as the Balladeer, 6th of the Fatui Harbingers, or Kunikuzushi, the puppet that experienced his third betrayal, or kabukimono, the “wandering eccentric.”

“Well, I thought of another name before but I thought it would be too long.” You smile, seemingly thinking back on how you came up with his name.

“I was going to call you ‘Maneshitsugumi,’ which means mockingbird, right? It’s just a cute nickname of a longer name.”

You can’t tell him it’s because you heard him singing that one time in his boss fight, that’s just weird, and also his voice sounded heavenly and you would do ANYTHING to hear him sing like that again-

“Why mockingbird, then?”

Oops.

“I mean, you just look like you have a nice voice? Y’know…”

Wow, he looks so suspicious of you. Heat creeps up your neck as he brings his hand to his chin.

“Ahaha yeah, y’know, when you head someone’s voice and you think how they would sound like when they sing? You have a nice voice and all…”

He sighs at your unexpected flustered state, crossing his arms in front of his chest.

“If you wanted to hear me sing, you could’ve just asked. Honestly, humans are so complicated with what they want sometimes.”

That wasn’t… quite what you were expecting, but it’s not like you’d give up an opportunity like this. His usual annoying face doesn’t look smug beyond belief or like he’s ready to pop a blood vessel. And it looked like he was genuine in his proposition, for some reason.

“I mean, if you want? Why all of a sudden though?”

“It’s the least I could do, for giving me my name.”

Alright then. You weren’t complaining. Now you could brag to the Traveler that you got to hear Tsumugi sing willingly, hehe.

“Alright then, Mockingbird, I await the day when you sing for me. In the meantime, I’ll be resting up after the adventure we went through recently. Seeya~!”

As you waddle away, Tusmugi turns and tilts his hat down. At this point such movement was habitual, but this time it was so he could hide his conflicted face. What… was that? It’s not like him to offer services like that, let alone a mere human.

Trying to become either human or god was something he’s given up now. For now, traveling Teyvat with his newly acquired vision (God’s Eye) is plenty enough.

For now, he’ll have to think of something to perform for you soon.

[chasani]

Go on then, what are your koopaling/koopakid headcanons?

Aha

Ahaha

AHAHAHHAHAHAAGAHHAHAHAHAHA-

GASP

KOOPALINGS

Morton ->

stupid little dork

Asks what song it is when they're singing 'Happy Birthday to You' at a party

Memory loss, they gave him a note pad so he could write things down but he forgot where he put it

Enjoys wearing bows and is very open about it

Takes Wendy's bows

Big Hammer Tiny Brain

Smashes things he doesn't like/understand/want/know

Doesn't know how doors work

Somehow immune to poison if he doesn't know it's poison??

Iggy ->

Completely blind without his glasses

It's legally allowed to drive but drives anyway

Owns a bunch of blond wigs

Weird obsession with sticks and bones

Hangs out in Ludwig's room to listen to him play piano (whether he was invited or not)

Has at least 20 differently themed body pillows

Hatsune Miku binder

Ludwig ->

Does not sleep

Composer at day evil maniac scientist by night

Has a better eating habit than Kooky

I will fight you if you argue with me (you don't have to like it but just don't yell at me for it) but otherwise he's trans ftm and DEFINITELY bi

Steals mirrors from Wendy so he can admire himself

Makes Ramen in the toaster at 3 am while getting a sweet glass of Orange Milk (pineapple juice + milk + coffee + shots)

Dips bread in Egg Whites + Oreo crumbs and fries it (old habit never grew out of)

Wendy ->

Her room is FULL of coins and other gold things

Has two closets, one for clothes and the other for jewelry

Will scream if you take her bows

Somehow always has a mirror on hand

Drags the boys into her room so she can practice her makeup on them

Lemmy is willing to be makeup tester

Believes in bad luck but still dresses up for Friday the 13

PINK PINK PINK

you wouldn't guess it but her favorite songs are rock and country

Larry ->

Has 51 diseases and is banned from most public spaces

Would be a carnivore if the didn't force him to eat vegetables

Throws the baby penguin from the Mario game over the side of the ice cliff

Big fan of trains

His room is full of toy trains

Somehow knows how to drive a train

Owns + Pilots a helicopter, where did he get it from?

Lemmy ->

CLOWN BABY

wanted in 50 states (and counting)

states like solid, liquid, and gas

collect weird miscellaneous objects in hopes he could use it for a performance

Probably pan

Constantly makes jokes about liking pans because he's pan

Once he was caught kissing a pan

Once found biting a pan by the handle and running around on all fours at 3 am

Roy ->

Big man

Acts all tough but also loves bows

Finger paints

Eats raw eggs

KOOPAKIDS

Big Mouth ->

dumb baby

Tries to be tough but just ends up being cute

Memory loss

Eats raw eggs as a snack

Doesn't know you have to cook certain foods

Bully ->

never takes off his shades

Wears pink, blue, and white bows (in no particular order ;])

Own at LEAST 20 different pairs of glasses and counting

Eats like 30 pounds of food a day

Cheatsy ->

trains

trans

trains

Kooky Von Koopa ->

Complete Smart-Ack Maniac

Does not sleep (except for when he completely PASSES OUT from exhaustion in which it's usually day)

Only eats junk food like candy and fried stuff

does not shower or brush his hair you have to throw him into a lake with piranhas to get him clean

Stupidly smart, mad scientist that lives in a basement making monsters

Does a little composing here and there

Knows all of Beethoven's Symphonys + Rush E from heart

Knows at least 25 different languages and counting, already multi bilingual at 1 month old (smart baby)

Probably trans and Agender or smth idk I'm not a mad scientist

Kootie Pie ->

GIRLY GIRL

GASLIGHT GATEKEEP GIRLBOSS

won't admit it but she's a fan of clowns

Literally hates all boys (wouldn't blame her, growing up in an all boy house)

Would be friends with the princess if they didn't try to kidnap her all the time

Ringsssss

Hip ->

Clown baby

can cry at a frequency only dogs can hear

will throw his ball at you if you even dare disagree with him

Bites

Probably has autism idk I'm not a koopa

Hop ->

blind without the glasses

Will eat raw meat if you give it to him un cooked

Do not give him raw meat

He will scream if you give him food before dessert

Never give him food before dessert

[strongheartneteyam]

soooo.... I kinda hate to say it but I'm not sure if I'm gonna post Realize where you belong Part 2, guys... I have the first 4 or 5 (I don't recall) chapters of the second part of the story saved and I just need to edit them and add some parts but honestly? Writing fanfiction is like... at the bottom of my list of priorities right now. I've been really busy and exhausted with little to almost no free time because of my studies, my small business, because I also got into a serious relationship with the most amazing and adorable man and I'd just rather spend my time with him and my pets and my family and living life itself, instead of writing a life for my characters while I lay on my bed lol don't get me wrong, I love writing, but right now I'm totally focused on other things. I've been reading some fics every now and then but mostly, I've been studying and that has been helping me feel much better than if I started to write/post fics again. The future is unpredictable and I am an unpredictable person, at least when it comes to when I write/post n when I don't. I'm an infp, I just go with the flow of my own being <3 That being said, don't be sad, my loves, if you read and love Realize where you belong. I know a lot of you do. I see you guys interacting with this story and many others that I've written. There's a high chance that I'll finish the chapters I have and post them one day. But I can't say for sure. A plot twist happened in my life, per se. A great one ahaha And I find myself obligated to focus primarily on me, my pets, my studies + work, my family and my boyfriend right now. I'd love to be able to keep writing for you guys but right now is just not the time. I'm happy where I am. I feel peaceful and strong despite a thousand challenges I face every day. I just love this new era of me and even if I am scared of the unknown, I am so excited to just explore the world around me as well. Thank you all for everything you guys have given me until now. I may start writing for you guys again at any time. Who knows? lol but right now, I'll be doing other stuff :)

[slytherinshua]

You are going to see them live?! I hope you have a great time!!! The live clips that I've seen of them are amazing, so I'm sure that they'll be unbelievable (heh heh) to see in person. Can I ask, how did you come to discover them? What was it that attracted you to them?

It shocked me to find out that Yechan was the oldest and I love it. I really like his energy! He was actually what initially drew me to the band! I was aware that there was a band that had a violin and as someone who has played it from a very young age I was interested but I never actually did anything with that info lol. Then when boogie man came out, it came up on my yt and I decided to watch it. Fell in love with it, but when Yechan's solo came up I was so impressed (I made my mum watch it too, she taught me violin lol). I then decided to listen to more of their music and fell in love with them and here we are lol.

It pains me to think that I will never meet a man like Sangyeop in real life 😭 He really does seem like the best. How is he even real??

Wonsang really is the cutest oh my goodness. I love him so much! I showed my dad one of his bass solos (my dad plays bass, drums, guitar) and he was disgusted but impressed that he could play a 6! String! Bass! with such ease and sound so good. They really are a stupidly talented group, what I give to have even a smidge of their talent 😭

Now that you've said it I do kind of get boomer vibes off Gwangil ahaha. I love how goofy he is, but I also completely relate to him cringing at the others (I had the same reaction to aegihae(?) ahaha)

I'm happy to say that I have listened to most of the songs that you suggested! The solo in you're right is absolute perfection! I love how they have such a wide range of songs and sounds and somehow they suit them all! I've heard some of the solo songs (I am emotionally attached to the intro of domino), but I will definitely listen to the rest of them!

Thankyou so much for all of your recs and dive into their personalities! I don't know if I'm weird for doing this, but when I watch vids of them I can't help but wonder what they'd be like as my brothers lol. Not that there's anything wrong with mine, but after seeing gentlemen like them, mine could maybe be a little nicer sometimes? I feel like they'd all be very teasing, but caring. Gwangil and Yechan 100% seem to be the teasing type. Wonsang would be the nicest, I've seen him talk about his cousin and it's so cute. Sangyeop strikes me as the sort of person who would do hobbies and stuff with you even if he didn't like them, just to spend time together? I also feel like they would all be quite stern or serious if they had to, but would be the best overall!

Once again, thanks so much!! (Sorry for annoying you with yet another long message, I'll stop now ahaha)

yes i'm so excited to see them live but also a bit sad as the show i'm going to is the last on their tour and i've heard from other walwals who went to recent tours that they seemed pretty tired :( like wonsang would look exhausted but still put on a bright smile when a new song started.... i rly hope they're able to rest a bit before the show but if not i'm sure they'll be able to rest back home <3

actually an ex-friend of mine got me into them. originally i think she showed me flowering but that wasn't enough for me to stan them. what got me was snooze/play because i stanned right when play came out. i still cry when i hear play lol. idk why i didn't stan just cause of flowering?? to this day i feel like i have to be in the right mood to listen to it, its never been a favourite of mine in lucy's discography but i do appreciate it. i've also watched Superband for lucy and god wonsang is such a genius, watching it probably tripled my respect for him :( the way he arranged everything and made lucy unique from the other bands there by adding ambient noise to their covers and then eventually their original songs just gets me every time 😭 i love him (i'm so subtle abt the bias aren't i?)

yechan is so impressive!! he's also part of the reason that i was especially interested after my friend showed me some stuff because yechan is classically trained and before kpop i was always into classical music because of my dad. i played piano (mostly bach & scarlatti) so i loved seeing a band that incorporated a more classical instrument into a band setting.

THIS tbh like how is sangyeop real hes literally such a sweetheart and HIS VOICE. his personality offstage and his charisma on stage genuinely makes my mind spin. idk if you've seen the live performance of never in vain in particular but istg he was on something that day 🧍‍♀️ and i did not survive it lol

wonsang is literally insane... i love everything about him, his talent, his personality, his adorable little laugh. he's not real like i'm convinced i made him up cause NO WAY. even his singing voice is so nice and cute :( if you go to his instagram he has a lot of short little covers on there too and i just.... yeah he's really insane god. (also would recommend you watch the live clip of enough because wonsang plays a double bass in that and i may be very in love with him....)

lmao i had no other way to even describe it other than boomer 😭😭 he's just got an old soul and i feel him so much. but i swear he is so underrated in the group :( seeing him on Superband, he originally auditioned as a vocalist and could play guitar as well. and throughout the show he played bass, keys, and eventually landed on drums because the team needed a drummer and he had a tiny bit of past experience. the fact that hes the drummer for the team now is ???? and he sings and plays the drums at the same time LIKE THATS SO FUCKING HARD TO DO MY RESPECT FOR HIM IS INSANE.

you're right is one of my favourite lucy songs of all time.... i'm really hoping they'll perform it live but not sure if ill get lucky enough lol 😭 i've seen some of the setlists for the other shows but they switch up some songs so i really have no idea what they're going to perform... i'd honestly just say sit down and put their entire discography on in order or repeat and just... enjoy. cause they just have SUCH good music its insane. they're honestly my comfort group in kpop whether its content or music, i just feel so close to them :( so whenever i feel like i need to cry/feel sad/cheer up i'm always watching live stages. i love the ones on their channel from concerts because they put the lyrics too so i can feel extra emo and also appreciate the songs so much more lmao

i entirely get that omg.... i always wanted like a brother who was rly musically oriented like me (i do technically have one but he's 10 yrs older than me and hasn't lived in the same house as me since i was 5 so that's a no-go, my other brothers closer to my age never picked up an instrument lol) and i feel that with lucy. like they'd be so much fun, when i watch them playing games they just look like they have such a good time.

also don't feel bad about the long messages i love them lol!! it's so nice to talk to another walwal :) at this point you seem to know them pretty well and i can only recommend that you listen to the rest of their discography, watch live stages, and continue to watch other fun content :D

and if you ever are interested in watching superband (would recommend it if you like band music, it's great and not as toxic and competitive as other survival shows. the panel of judges was great too, including suhyun from akmu who i adore) i have the google drive with all episodes subbed <3 there are some legendary lucy performances on there and some of my other favourite band men (mainly ha hyunsang who has the best voice ever. he performed viva la vida in a team with yechan during the first round and they're still friends to this day i believe. sometimes they perform the song again lol their arrangement was so good and hyunsang's voice was just perfect for it)

[misscrawfords]

🐰🦄🦋

🐰do you believe in soulmates?

Already answered!

🦄how do you perceive yourself?

Um, tricky. I'm in a phase of change atm and I'm really not sure who I am. How do I perceive myself? I'm also really good at listening to a horrible inner voice that tells me I'm a failure, an awful human being, ugly, unattractive, undeserving, unlovable, not good enough... And although I know all this is extreme and I'm trying to work out where this horrible cow of an inner voice comes from, she's really hard to shut out, epecially when I am tired and overwhelmed by things. I don't know. I hate this question. It should be easier but I'm really struggling to have any concept of who I am at the moment. I don't know who I am, what I'm doing, what I want to do, whether I'm right or wrong... and I just have to keep trying very hard to not show any of this when I'm in public!

🦋how do you think others perceive you?

ahaha like this question is any less unsettling! I think most people see me as bubbly and positive and happy and helpful, at least at work. I definitely have a work persona where I am Super On It at all times and constantly performing myself. No wonder I'm always so exhausted. But then I also think I have Resting Anxiety Face so IDK. My conductor at the end of tonight's rehearsal asked me if I was okay because I looked really worried and I was just like "... yes, I'm just tired and my face looks like this." But also I was trying to sing a top A flat pianissimo at 9.45pm so I defy anyone to look cheerful doing that.

I really do think I am incredibly unattractive due to the fact that I am 36 and not a single man has ever shown any attraction to me or complimented me. I feel invisible, physically, tbh. I want to be sexy and confident but how can I be? I just want a bit of validation from the male sex, a bit of admiration, literally anything to make me feel like I have a chance because I really do feel the absolute worst.

I don't know. I find this question uncomfortable too. I'm really not comfortable with myself at the moment. I'm dealing with too much stuff.

[ran-orimoto]

Hello greetings! Thanks for follow me! May i ask why do you like junpei-nisan and ship him with izumi-ne? Sorry f9r my rude and bad english..

Hello! Don’t worry about your english because first of all it is not bad; second, I’m not english myself so, honestly, who cares🤫. What matters the most is to understand each other, right?

I’ve recently written a little post about why I love Junpei so much:

But I guess I could tell so much more about the reason why I love Junpei. That post isn’t exhaustive at all ahaha.

For example, I could tell you about how much I love his personality being so flawed and going through a development that does happen in the background, but it’s still so beautiful. From seeing him starting off as a selfish, rude kid wanting the world to rotate around him, to observing him finding his role in the group, taking step backwards because of their sake (very ehw, but I admit it was written well from his perspective, at least).

As far as concerns Junzumi, the reasons are so many even when it comes to them. I used to ship Takumi (Takuya x Izumi) in the past, but I had never watched Frontier tbh. When I started my watching, my immediate liking on Junpei soon laced itself with a growing interest in the pair. Going beyond the fact I have got a soft spot for pairings in which a boy is so devoted to his crush, loves her so endlessly and would do anything to make her happy, I could make a little list about the main points making me like Junzumi so much.

• The main reason why I love it is that they are both lonely kids and they get constantly paired up at the beginning of Frontier because of this characteristic of theirs. They just deal with it in different ways, indeed, opposite ways: Junpei searches for friends so desperately he even sells himself, becomes a people pleaser, exchanges friendship for material stuff; Izumi has got no friends because she doesn’t want them, she doesn’t want to be treated as a special kid, being put at the center of attention (whereas Junpei DOES want to be the star of situations XD). Both also cope with this situation of theirs in different ways, almost specular, with Junpei feeling a void inside himself but trying repressing it, lying to himself, and Izumi being perfectly aware of her condition but not wanting to go deeper and looking for its root. What really makes this point (and couple) so special to me is that in some profiles about Junpei it’s stated he felt drawn by Izumi at first sight because he could perceive she was as lonely as him.

And I…I am a lonely person too, I must admit. I’m an only child like them and somehow I do relate to their need to have someone around themselves.

• They are the most well-developed duo in the whole Frontier and have got ton of potential because of their personalities clashing, but always finding a way to get along. They are…The Mum and Dad of the group, this is a certainty, but they are also great partners when they collaborate. They started off with Izumi not standing him, Junpei not knowing how to even conversate with her in a normal way. Yet, they soon learn to appreciate each other, unconsciously learn they can grow up thanks to each other. Who’s the first (indeed, only) member of the group Izumi opens up to, has got the best heart-to-heart with? Junpei. Who is the one for whom Junpei goes beyond his limits, understanding how important for him is to protect those he cares for? Izumi. Let’s also add Junpei gets interested in italian thanks to her, but this is something I have to add because of my endless love for this aspect of Junpei’s.

• They can be both a platonic and romantic relationship and, in my personal opinion, in a couple it’s so important to balance the two sides.

• Their personalities help me come up with thousand of ideas for them and it does matter for a creative person like me, I assure you. Imagining them older and applying those explosive personalities of theirs in a boyfriend/girlfriend or ,even funnier, husband/wife context is just everything to me. Junpei is the loyal, extremely devoted, affectionate, sometimes also wise husband pleasing his wife in the most disparate ways he could. There’s nothing he cares more about than seeing her happy and making her believe she’s the most beautiful, -inside and outside-, woman on Earth. Izumi is the wife liking teasing her husband, being so strict at certain moments, taking the reins of any situation and holding the scepter of the household. Yet, at the same time, she’s the most lovely companion of life, making husband feel the most desiderable man on Earth.

AND FEEDING HIM WITH BEST FOOD.

EHM, yes, moments in which you are flooded by emotions. Waves of emotions.

• They are Wind x Thunder, parts of tempests. Their elements also have got a special bond in one of the V-Pets.

• Their Digimon are both bugs in their adult forms and, Jesus Christ, consider me stupid, but I ship Fairymon and Blitzmon so hard too (especially after Blitzmon is revealed to be a simp for her in the 2019 drama).

These are some reasons. SOME, though, because there are ton of others. I…I would be banned from Tumblr because of the excessive length. Anyway! I hope I was clear and answered your question in the way you wanted. If you wanted to know something else about these topics or share your opinions, you’re welcome to do it💕 (just like you’re welcome in my blog from now on).

Thank you for the ask and have a good day🎶!

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #8

Today I am at my favorite bubble tea shop, working on the various derpy little things that I like to do.

I haven't been back here consistently in a few weeks, actually; between the hubbub of the holidays and getting briefly sick, I've mostly been home, trying to recoup. But under ordinary circumstances, I'm at a place called Eggcellent, writing, working on a music box, planning an acapella, weaving wire trees with gemstone leaves, or some combination thereof.

I don't work on my things at home mostly because I have five cats who seem to need to be on me or near me all the time, haha! To be sure, ordinarily this isn't a problem, but it's hard to get anything done when Hunter is trying to nap on my keyboard, Hoshi is trying to chew on my wires, Mogwai is trying to nestle himself into my lap (sometimes I think the poor thing is trying to attempt fusion, like the Crystal Gems, haha…), Arremo is playing with my feet, and Momma is demanding snacks! Ahahaha~!!

Make no mistake, there isn't a darned thing about this that I would change. But I do occasionally need to set boundaries, and since cats don't typically respect boundaries (hahaha!), I have to adjust myself to suit their somewhat limited neurobiology. :) Rest assured that I do everything I can to make up for lost time with them when I return home. ;P

One of the nice things about being at Eggcellent is that the people who own and run the shop are genuinely some of the kindest people I've ever met. It's one of the few public spaces where I don't have to mask ("masking" is what it's called when autistic people pretend to be normal in public so that others aren't uncomfortable about the fact that we exist - it's exhausting, and I have a funny feeling that you might know at least a little bit about what this is like to have to do…). I can just be myself, drink yummy bubble tea, put on a playlist, and work on my things in peace. In between my random things, I like to watch various other people come into the shop tired and stressed, and walk out with a smile because the kindly shopkeeps made them something delicious and beautiful. I am blessed to be able to witness the way that the ripples of the kindly shopkeeps' existence make the world around them just a little bit brighter in the subtle way that it does.

Ya know… there's a lot of beauty to be found in the world, tucked away and hidden within various simple things like these, I think. You just gotta know to look for it. You gotta keep your eyes open. You gotta keep awake to it all.

For now, my favorite thing to get from this shop is their iced matcha with rose syrup, tea jelly, and cream cheese foam. I wish I could share it with you; it's very delicious. I'm aware that the scent of roses is one of your favorites; I'd love to see your response to the realization that roses also work well as a flavoring for sweets and teas. I can't help but wonder what it would be like to bear witness as an expression of curiosity and uncertainty on your face blossoms into surprise and joy. What a marvelous and delightful privilege it would be to see such a thing…

Alas, I can't share it with you. But I can enclose a picture of what my time in this space normally looks like. Here:

My space in this place doesn't look like that exactly right now, ahaha… I mean… I do have my laptop out and my roll of music box paper is in my lap. But at the moment, I am writing this letter to you. I had intended to work on a music box for a person in my social circle; I'll maybe explain why later. I am not working on it now because today I received a most unexpectedly wonderful interruption to the general flow of my existence.

Do you remember the letter I wrote in which I wished I could share a cup of my homemade broth with you? Well, some wonderful person on the internet named @bootshivers saw it, and then drew a picture of you drinking a cup full of the broth I made! They drew such a happy, peaceful expression on your face. Even beyond that, the intentions behind the rendered image were some of the most beautiful I have ever seen. And just like that, any water I managed to get from the bubble tea I drank ended up instead pouring out of my eyes as gratitude and joy, ahahaha~! It was a beautiful, wonderful feeling - one that will help sustain the courage that I need to continue to create things for you; I am not going to forget this anytime soon, believe me.

If you needed proof that there are lots of people in my world who care about you, please look no further. I am not the only one here who wishes for peace, safety, and healing upon you. I'll continue to wish for the same things upon you, always, come what may.

I will get working on the music box now. Please remember that you are very loved and that you're not as alone as you think you are. Please also remember to open your eyes and witness the beauty that surrounds you, even if things seem bleak right now. I'll be right here, cheering you on in whatever ways I can.

Please stay safe. Please be mindful of the condition of your mind and body as you do your various things, taking breaks and asking for help as necessary. Don't be afraid. Or, rather… be afraid, and then take the hands that are outstretched to you for courage and support, and do the thing you're scared of anyways.

Til soon.

Your friend, Lumine

[littlelasagne]

May I ask how old are you? Bmo is so great and sometimes I think the words that you use are mature. The idea of the fic also seems like the writer has experienced and learnt a lot in her life. Does that make sense? I don't know how to describe it but yeah something like that 🤣

Hey 🌸

Hahah I get what you're saying. I'm 28 years young. 😎

I'll take this all as a compliment lol! I honestly don't think my word choices are all that mature!! There are times that I've tried to express complex ideas, but I am aware of using clear language in those cases. I also don't think I've experienced anything particularly extraordinary, or more than the average person.

Rambly spew of thoughts below...

I don't think being older automatically means you're a better writer. You could be 85 and have lived the most interesting and unique life, but lack the skills to translate those experiences into a convincing, entertaining story.

Similarly, a 12 year old could have amazing technical writing skills better than an adult writer, but lack the experience that naturally comes through growing older and experiencing life's ups and downs.

That's not meant to be discouraging. Writing is a skill that takes a lot of practice, there are trials and errors, frustrations and successes. All of which comes in time and anyone willing to put the effort in will get better, whether for fanfic or original writing.

'Read, write, live' is the live laugh love of writing advice, but it's pretty solid. It covers all the basics: reading helps you learn to how to write, writing makes you stretch those skills, and living and ~experiencing things~, being curious and open-minded helps you create more realistic and interesting characters and stories.

My writing is far from perfect, I know I have a loooooooot to improve on and I know my writing is probs not to everyone's tastes and I accept that. For the time being, I'm having fun with fanfic. 😊 I think I have grown a lot as a writer and editor over the course of writing BMO.

One of the things I set out to do when writing BMO was to make Levihan feel like real people. So I put a lot of effort into making them feel natural and believable. If you've read my fics, please know that I've spent hundreds (the last time I checked before my laptop died in summer, it was just over 1,000 so idk how many it is now) of hours researching, writing, editing and proofreading to get that result!!

There is no magic trick, no shortcut. It's hard work, my brain is exhausted after work, I get totally stuck and lost on how to progress and edit a paragraph. It is a struggle (hence how long it takes to update these days😅) to juggle everything, but I do still love writing fanfic. Nothing beats the feeling of satisfaction when you nail a sentence or finally put what you're thinking into words. And I love levihan and snk just as much as when I started.

Ok, that was a bit of a ramble, but mostly relevant to the ask, I think 🤣. I don't have the energy to be coherent right now ahaha. To answer your question, I'm 28 lol.

I appreciate you sharing your thoughts, whoever you are anon! 🥰💕 Thank you for reading my writing! Are you a writer too? Happy to chat writing if you ever wanted to. 😊

[aeoki]

Dance Floor - Slow Step: Chapter 5

Location: Park (Lawn Area) Characters: Touri, Yuzuru, Eichi & Wataru

Eichi: …*Phew*. I’m getting quite tired now.

The sunlight is still strong at this time of the year, after all. I might sound like some vampire by saying this, but I’m exhausted.

It’s a good thing that I can empathise with them a bit.

I’ll be resting in the shade but keep on practising without me.

Yuzuru: Understood. You’ll need to hydrate yourself – I’ll prepare some tea.

The drinks in the thermos have all finished, so I shall find something else to fill them up.

Eichi: You don’t need to do that, Yuzuru. I’ll just buy something from that vending machine over there.

Wataru: Amazing! As expected of Your Majesty, the “Emperor”! I see you know how to use a vending machine…☆

Touri: That’s amazing, President! It’s like a magical box to me~

Eichi: Hehe. I’m generally quick to learn things.

Anyway, it won’t be effective to do things at my pace as I’m lacking in stamina, so go back and practise, okay?

Wataru: Alright! Look here at how I elegantly play with the playground equipment…☆

See, Himegimi? Do you understand? You play by creating an optical illusion like you’re spinning the equipment that’s stuck to the ground!

It’s a technique often used in magic tricks or trick art – an optical illusion-based performance!

The five senses are more susceptible to being tricked than we think!

If you’re an excellent possessor of talent, then you’d even be able to make rain fall upwards, creating something out of thin air or breathing fire…

Put simply, you’ll be able to do magic ♪

Touri: Does “fine” need those skills? “Switch” is the unit that’s all about magic, right?

Wataru: Oh? Himegimi, I see you’re knowledgeable about the other units as well.

Before, you’d make a face like you’ve no interest in the units of the masses!

Yuzuru: As long as you’re conducting your idol activities at Yumenosaki Academy, you cannot ignore the other units.

We can gain much-needed knowledge by influencing one another and working diligently together.

Touri: Yeah but… Yuzuru, you sometimes end up saying the things I wanted to say.

Yuzuru: I am simply speaking on your behalf to make up for your poorly expressed words. On the off chance, if it’s a rude remark, then I can blame it on my ineptitude.

Touri: What~? I don’t like shifting my responsibilities onto other people, though?

Eichi: …Hehe. This peaceful scene is something I could have never imagined with the old “fine”. It’s just like innocent children playing at the park.

Anzu-chan, everyone is playing according to your instructions.

But I don’t understand your intentions. How will this help in creating a dance?

…Oh. You’ll wipe my sweat? Thank you.

Sweating is like being rejuvenated – it’s a sign that I’m healthy.

On the other hand, if I’m unhealthy, then I’ll have difficulty producing sweat and it’ll just dry off.

Ahaha. That tickles, Anzu-chan. I can wipe myself off if you just give me the towel. I feel like I’ve become a baby.

It’s alright, though. I’m glad to see you no longer feel hesitant touching men.

You were very reserved in the beginning – blushing every single time.

But then, you wouldn’t be able to do your work. You’ve gotten quite used to Yumenosaki Academy…

No, I’m happy to see you’ve adapted to being a “producer”.

I hope you can continue growing at this pace, evolve according to your surroundings and support us.

Right, I’ll buy you a drink from the vending machine as thanks.

You prefer the sweeter ones, don’t you? Ritsu-kun was overjoyed when he found out you two share the same preferences, so I remember.

Too sweet and it can feel like poison, so I don’t really like it, though.

…Hm? Anzu-chan, what are you looking at?

Oh… we were making a fuss and the children playing at the park gathered around us out of curiosity, huh.

Hm, “RYUUSEITAI” often performs hero shows here at this park so…

The children who were hoping to see that decided to come over here.

If that’s the case, then they’re our precious guests – It’s our job to entertain them. Leave it to us, “Producer”-chan ♪

Hehe. The children are copying Wataru with sparkles in their eyes.

The adults are enjoying it too… He’s producing flower after flower out of nothing and entertaining them.

We’re just in our training clothes so where does he place all those things he needs for his tricks?

On the other hand, Touri and Yuzuru find it difficult to approach him. It seems they’re surrounding the children at a distance.

I see – I know what your intentions are, Anzu-chan.

Touri! Yuzuru! Follow Wataru’s footsteps and make the children happy!

Don’t converse with them or give them any sweets – you must get the children’s attention by your movements only. I’ll do the same once I’ve rested.

Yuzuru: Right… If that is your order, then I shall obey. However, are we not getting in the way of the children playing here?

Eichi: It’s up to your skills to see if you’re getting in their way or not. If the children cry or call their parents over, then it’s game over.

It will hurt “fine’s” reputation and it’ll end in a huge failure.

This is not Yumenosaki Academy but a public place, after all. A certain degree of consideration is necessary.

But even so, we’re still children ourselves, so we don’t need to feel hesitant about it.

Let’s all play together. Until we’re satisfied. That must be the experience we’re all lacking.

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[kaylinalexanderbooks]

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Hello! Thanks for the ask! (From this game)

It actually took me a bit to think of what I was proud of lol. It's mainly full scenes, so I decided to post three excerpts rather than three individual lines. Hope that's okay!

But I still wanted to keep it relatively shortish. However, I was like, "how am I supposed to impress everyone with my writing but only short excerpts?"

Then I realized the ask game said to share what I was proud of, not impress anyone. I realized the scenes I'm proud of are ones I feel like show my growth and how I've improved as a writer. So I'll explain. Each of these are from The Secret Portal Part One.

Akash POV - an earlier revision, relatively speaking, but I remember writing this and being so happy to write an extra scene with Robbie and Akash... I love them

We reached the first corner. I peeked out around it, seeing Dr. Moon get into an elevator down the hall with Gwen and Maddie. “They’re going up,” I said.

“Obviously,” said Robbie. “That’s where the APTA machine is.”

“Don’t be a smart-ass.”

“You’re about fourteen-and-a-half years late for that.”

“Fourteen-and-one-third.”

“Now who’s being a smart-ass? Besides, we’re late enough into September to say it’s actually fourteen-and-five-twelfths.”

“Smart-ass.”

Maddie POV - despite Maddie and Kelsey being best friends I didn't have a lot of showcasing for it for a while. This was added and now Maddie has Wilfredo on her at all times.

“Oh, by the way—” she reached into her backpack and pulled out a crochet tiger.

“Ahaha!” I laughed excitedly as I snatched the tiger from her.

“—as requested, I made you that.”

“Thanks! Amigurumi, right?”

Kelsey beamed when I remembered the term for the stuffed animal. “So you like it?”

“He’s adorable. His name is Wilfredo.”

Lexi POV - I struggle to write descriptions of the environment. I just do. But someone told me to use my strength in characterization to describe settings. Lexi is very observant, more than me, so I harnessed that and was able to write this.

“It seems weird,” I said looking at her as I turned around the corner of the school. “Like—ah!” My boot got caught on the grass, causing my feet to slip. I tumbled onto the ground and dropped my violin, the “oof!” that followed indicating Ash tripped over the sturdy case.

It was eerily quiet and the smell of the exhaust was gone. I became hyper-aware of the grass I lay in and shot up to a seated position, jumping when I realized nothing was in sight but a dizzyingly-clear horizon.

Ash groaned beside me. “Since when does Falcon have grass—” She cut herself off as she pushed herself upright, taking in the sudden new scenery.

We sat in the middle of a seemingly endless field. The grass that stretched in each direction appeared freshly mowed, though it lacked the smell that usually came with it. Instead, a chillingly sterile air hit my nose.

Well this was fun. Thanks for the ask!

[lovebeinaprincessworld]

Will you try? - Two

(Felix Volturi x reader)

After well over a year I finally wrote something to post again. I swear, I have so many ideas I’m just too lazy ahaha, anyway I hope you like it! This sorry will probably take a while to finish, but alle the parts have a kind off closed ending so it’s still satisfying to read if you know what I mean <3

Parts: 1 2 3 4 5

Masterlist

Description: After dealing with the Newborn Army in Washington, Felix comes home to you.

Warnings: Slight mentions of smut

1666 words

You’ve been living in the castle in Volterra for about four months now and Felix was away on a mission. At first he didn’t want to tell you what it was about, but after you got on his nerves enough he finally told you it was regarding the red headed vampire Victoria, who was after your cousin. Apparently she wanted to revenge her mate James that the Cullens killed after he bit and tried to kill Bella. And now Victoria was assembling a newborn army to kill the Cullens and your cousin. You were trying to wrap your head around how Bella managed to get herself into these situations for a long time now, since you were kids. But then again you were one to talk, living in a castle in Italy with your vampire mate. Maybe it was because you two were related.

You insisted on going with Felix, Demetri, Alec and Jane, but after a heated argument, Felix put his foot down and while you pouted, you backed down and stayed behind. So you lounged around in your shared room and binge watched a few shows, Heidi sometimes joining you when she wasn’t on duty. She was your closest friend in the castle, even though you had the feeling that Jane was slowly beginning to crack and warm up to you too, which got Felix speechless, as he’d known her for centuries and she still didn’t like him.

While you where watching (Y/F/S) for the nth time, your phone chimed. Hello my love, we just landed so I’ll be there in about an hour, can’t wait to see you, it read and immediately a smile lit up your face. You really missed him while he was gone, it’s crazy how it’s only been four months and you were head over heels in love with the giant vampire. Neither of you said the three words yet, but you knew it was because Felix wanted to give you time and not send you running for the hills. That’s great baby, I can’t wait! I missed you, you answered and threw the blanket off you.

It was already 8pm, but you still wanted to brush your teeth and look somewhat presentable when he arrived. That’s one thing you were always insecure about, vampires could see everything so very clear and detailed, every pore, pimple, hair. You were glad all the rooms in the castle were soundproofed, otherwise you’d probably had to go to the next restaurant to use the bathroom with the knowledge everyone in the castle could hear you otherwise. You were sure the vampires were happy about the soundproofed walls too, glad they didn’t have to hear each other all the time. Leaving the bathroom you sat back down on the couch and resumed your show, waiting for your mate to come back.

Half an hour later the door finally opened and an exhausted looking Felix stepped in, as far as vampires can look exhausted. You immediately jumped up from the couch, the blanket falling on the floor, and made your way over to him. “Hey”, you smiled and as soon as your eyes locked, a smile made its way on his face. “Il mio amore”, he replied and opened his arms for you to step into. Your face pressed to his sculpted chest, he embraced you and bent down slightly to put his cheek on your head.

“Are you alright?”, you asked, muffled by his chest. “Now that I’m back here with you, I am”, he answered making you giggle. “You can be so sappy”, you smiled and you could practically hear him grin. “You know, back in my times people called that romantic”, he lectured you with a laugh and pulled you to the couch with him. Before your butt could hit the cushion, he sped to the coatrack by the door and took off his coat, before sitting right next to you. Even though you’ve seen him do this a thousand times already, your heart still skipped a beat. “I`ll never get used to that”, you breathed holding your hand to your heart. “Don’t worry my love, I mean at the bottom line your body is made to react to a predator like that”, he grinned and - just to prove his point you felt - was leaning over you a second later with his hands on either side of your head, your back pushed into the pillows behind you. And to his satisfaction your heart sped up again.

“You’re an idiot”, you laughed, lacing you’re fingers behind his neck, his smile shifting from playful to genuine. “Is this idiot finally getting a kiss though?”, he asked and with a smile you leaned up towards him, but he was already leaning down to meet your lips. Even though his body temperature was considerably lower than yours, you never felt more comfortable and at home than in his arms, with his lips on yours. You’ve kissed people before, but no one could ever come even close to the way you felt when Felix held your cheek with one hand, while slowly deepening the kiss. He was always like this, the perfect gentleman, especially compared to the teenage boys you’ve had experience with before him. But with his tall, muscular frame propped up above you and his tongue starting to trace your lips, you’d be lying if you’d say you weren’t thinking about more inappropriate things he could be doing with his tongue.

But if you tried to bring up the idea of having sex again, you knew exactly what he would say. That he’s afraid he’d hurt you - or even worse, not being able to control his own strength, especially with him being even stronger than a normal vampire (as if that didn’t turn you on even more). This seemed to be a vampire thing in general though, considering Bella told you Edward was the exact same when you last talked to her over the phone. It was good to have someone kinda being able to relate, especially to everything you had to give up. But all of that didn’t mean you wanted it any less. And it also didn’t mean you could control getting turned on by the attractive vampire on top of you, making Felix groan deeply and pull away.

“Damn you smell so good, you’re making this really hard tesoro”, he breathed, his hands clutching the fabric of the couch tightly while you laid under him flushed and panting. Taking another breath in, he clenched his eyes shut and buried his face in your neck with a moan. “Maybe that’s the plan”, you laughed breathlessly, stroking the hair at the nape of his neck making him sigh. “You know we can’t”, he whispered against the sensitive skin of your neck, your body almost reacting instinctively, clutching your legs together a little more. You could feel his body stiffen immediately. “I know, I know, but…we haven’t even tried, have we? And you seem to be in control just fine when we make out, so-“, you tried once again to convince him, your hands gripping the front of his shirt. “Love, there’s a considerable difference between making out and having sex”, he said smirking while pulling away from your neck and looking at you with those red eyes that made your knees weak.

“Yeah, yeah I know that, but-“, you tried again, but he immediately interrupted you with a slightly tense look: “What do you mean you know?” “Just because I’m a virgin, doesn’t mean I haven’t done anything before, we’re living in the twenty first century after all”, you said rolling your eyes at his possessive nature (trying to hide it also made you feel a certain way). This conversation wasn’t really going in the direction you wanted it to, because now he looked positively pissed off. You really did forget sometimes that his views and morals were from a different millennia, getting yourself in trouble once again. “Other men have…touched you before?”, he asked with a dangerously calm voice, his eyes narrowed on you. “Uhm…I wouldn’t say men, more like boys or someth…”, your voice chocking up under his fiery gaze, your hands slowly releasing his shirt while the hand on your hip tightened her grip. After staring at you for a few seconds with furrowed brows, seemingly thinking about something he finally opened his mouth: “Alright, we will try.”

You must’ve looked like a deer caught in the headlights, because he adds with a smirk: “Not today though, don’t worry amore.” Before you could muster up an answer he already claimed your lips again with a short, but passionate kiss before pulling back and leaving you breathless again. “If I’d known making you jealous would make it happen, I would have tried that months ago”, you giggled, beaming up at him with joy. “Don’t get your hopes up love, I can’t promise you anything”, he said with a serious look, shifting you both so that he was laying on his back with you on top, your head comfortably against his shoulder.

“I know, thank you for trying though baby”, you smiled, pressing a small kiss to his neck. He hummed, his eyebrows furrowing again slightly. “I really don’t like the idea of other men touching you”, he shared his feelings making you giggle slightly. “Don’t worry my love, since the day I met you I knew you’d be the only touching me from now on”, you promised smiling, feeling him relax underneath you. He pulled the blanket over both of you, knowing he’s cooling you down.

“(Y/N)”, he quietly said while pressing a kiss to your head. “Mhm?”, you hummed, your eyes closed, satisfied with having him back in your arms. “I love you”, he whispered, making your heart skip a beat. You immediately pushed yourself back up, looking into his eyes completely stunned. Considering he was such a strong and tall man, he looked kind off unsure right now waiting for your reaction. But you didn’t even have to think about it, a smile forming on your face. “I love you”, you whispered back. His face relaxed right away and he was pulling you down to meet your lips in another kiss, this one more soft and gentle than the others.

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A small explanation as to why (Y/N) didn’t say “I love you too”: I read somewhere, a long time, that when someone says “I love you too” it feels like they’re just like accepting or confirming what the first person said instead of really meaning that they love the other person and it kind off stuck with me.