#I couldn't do that audiobook

[quiltwork]

I might come back to this blog, cause although I’ve processed through all the traumas, I’ve still got DID/OSDD and I’m finding out just how much that counteracts me trying to be as honest, real and authentic as possible. My brother’s girlfriend suggested I should go back to therapy and is helping me look for a therapist, and whether she finds the right one or not, it’s inching me in a good direction. 

[twitterdotcom]

Shout-out to everything that went wrong with ofmd s2 from production issues to bad pacing to killing Izzy because that effectively drained almost all of the creative energy out of my side of the fandom because now Im reading books again!

[zensations35]

how do you think specific marvel characters (specifically tony stark) would sneeze? like manner of sneezing and pre and post sneeze, etc etc -

or like how would they handle a cold or allergies?

any snzcanons really :)

GODS I LOVE MARVEL ASKS (*/ω＼*)

Ok, so, I showed this off a big in my fic Viral Paradox but I'll hash it out here too!

Tony:

EH FUCK IT. Unrestrained. "Idgaf who sees me sneeze" mindset (except maybe under certain circumstances?)

He might hold back when he's hiding illness, but honestly he probably doesn't do that much, as we see him going back and forth on screen hiding and being openly fucked up on screen. He's got issues and I think it's very situational how he'd handle sneeze or illness.

Definitely a wet sneezer tho 🤭And he'd 100% indulge our kink.

Bruce:

Kittenish. Ironic. And it makes everyone snort with restrained laughter. He gets embarrassed but has a (witty?) remark for anyone who has a snipe about it (usually Tony).

"You don't want to see me when I hulk sneeze."

Tony: "That's super gross, dude."

Bruce: *glare*

Natasha:

*sneezes*

Everyone stares in shock.

Nat: *glowers*

Suddenly everyone's phones all become so interesting.

Nat absolutely stifles. I'll talk about other stiflers, but there are two Main Stiflers on the list, and it's Natasha and Loki (I'll cover him later). These two are the ones who have that 'get it on lockdown dammit!' mindset where they can't bee seen as weak (very similar trauma and backgrounds of people who make them feel weak unless certain criteria are met). Viewing illness or sneezing in general weakness is TRACK for Nat.

Also she basically RUNS the Avenger household and while Tony thinks he could do it fine, Nat knows (and Bruce knows it to lol) that things would hit shit very quickly if Nat left it in his hands, so she just Needs to take a bunch of Dayquil and muscle through ok? It'll be fiiiiine.

(Bonus, she does have a backup plan just in case and it involves putting Pepper briefly in charge of Big Brain stuff --with everyone except Tony making superhero decisions 🤣)

Side Note: Y'all, I give Tony a lot of shit, but just know he's a top tier character for me. I know he's smart and capable. His character development is fucking PEAK. I absolutely would die for him. I just love picking on early Tony.

Cap:

Used to be very sickly; asthma, allergies, the works. He's constantly expecting things to set him off. Probably still has an inhaler (just in case!) But super serum means not much makes with the sniffles. The Avenger fam, however, doesn't know anything other than "Cap is super resilient haha!"

So, when he actually does sneeze, they all freak out OMG OMG IT'S A SUPERBUG™ !! All except Bucky, who i just...reading the paper all chill.

"Relax, yall. Steve's just..." and then he shares a look with Cap and a silent convo... 'are you alright?'

Bruce does bloodwork anyway.

Cap Part 2:

I also like this hc where Cap has been under the ice for so long Steve is photic?? Even though it's not canon I Desire it. Maybe to keep it 'consistent' (i mean, do I really NEED a reason but hufhufhu~) it could be early days only.

Lots of teary eyed squinting and hitching in bright lights, especially while he's being evaluated during the early days of ice recovery. Doctors were annoyed, having to pause their work for random sneezing.

As for snz sound, I image there's a P in there somewhere. Y'all know I like my Z's, but for Cap I think more of a "psh!" or something in that vein.

Thor:

Uhhh God of Thunder. Need I say more? SURE? A pic is worth a thousand words. And this commission says it all, really.

Loud. Booming really. A THUNDER GOD SNZ ECHOS and he's...proud of it. Ahahaha...oh he'll apologize. But yeah. He's fucking proud.

-> This guy can not do the sneeze while hiding scenario. Not...um...unless it ends with getting caught. And...zapped. Which, well, I am prone to writing. Sooooo~

Here's where I'm open to interpretation with Thor. I lean more torward him being a WHINLY LIL SHIT when he's sick, because (I read a few of the Loki/Thor Marvel canon novels because I'm a huge gd nerd) and as younguns it just REFLECTS the whole 'golden child' treatment and 'Thor ate that spaghetti so welll! Good job Thor!!' So I want to say...(and we do see this in the movies, especially early on) he expects special treatment. So, getting sick? *nods sagely*

Thor laying bonelessly across the bed: "You have to take care of me. Bring me <insert special food and drink specifically from Asgard>."

Random Avenger: "....you know I can't actually go there, right?"

Loki:

Magic ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ Magic ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･fuckinggg Magic chaos sneezes bitches!! Break shit! Stop time! Shit flying around space! Opportunities are endless, really.

And Mr. 'Pardon Me' and 'My Deepest Apologies' definitely has a handkerchief thanks and it's not gross because he can clean it with said ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･MAGIC⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ so.

Our Dapper Asshole stifles because sneezing is weak and how !dare! a sneeze think about making him look weak--and if he has to he will discard it as quickly as possible.

So, as with Nat above, there's the trauma of being seen as weak from younger years in Asgard. I really wish we'd had a Loki prequel or something in the Marvel movies (there's still time Marvel!! *cough!!*) But in the official Loki novels, you can see it.

I would go into detail about this but when I tried to explain it I LITERALLY TYPED FIVE PARAGRAPHS MORE OF SHIT yall 🫣If you ever think I'm making up backstory for Thor or Loki, nahhh I farm my info organically, grass fed. Just trust me. He has major Misfit Syndrome (and as a fellow Misfit Child with a Golden sibling, I think I get their dialogue down better than most of my other writing tbh)

Ok, ahem, back to snz (sorry...) And of course when Loki gets sick his sneezes become less restrained and UnForTunaTelY he just can't stifle woe is him poor baby 👿

Maria:

Soft but firm snz.

I had a paintball partner once whose nose got itchy when he got stressed. I hc that for Maria. She's in a situation where she needs her gun out, and it never fails--her nose flares up.

Scrunching it, she dips into a grated, sometimes growled, half-stifle. Something quick. Eyes closed for the least amount of time possible. Efficiency is important.

Clint:

I know him the least unfortunately. He's not a fave (don't judge me 😭) I'm still wrecked that he was chosen over Nat, my darling momma who WAS RUNNING EVERYTHING AND NO WONDER EVERYTHING IS ABSOLUTE CHAOS RIGHT NOW WHAT DID I JUST SAY EARLIER (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

*straightens bowtie* Aaaanyway. I think Clint would get sick and hole up. Avoid people like a recluse. He'd have a messy sneeze and a tissue pile and just STOP cleaning up after himself.

"I'll get to that later. Fuck it." And when he feels better, finally, there are just takeout boxes, microwave dinners, and tissues piled up in a raccoon trash nest around the couch and he's like "...I deserve this."

[fayevalcntine]

Seeing any kind of Brad Pitt defense over his portrayal of Louis in the 1994 movie is actually insane to me because that man did not emote a single time in any proper way throughout the film. Making a sad face while barely trying to bring any shred of emotion in your line delivery when your character is literally narrating the story to someone (and in doing so needs to be able to pull that person in with their storytelling) while at the same time blatantly showing his own hypocrisy in what he believes in vs what he does is not actually "being the perfect Louis".

Book Louis is a hypocrite and an insane man who thinks himself exempt from the judgement he places onto Lestat for doing outlandish killings or throwing out his anger onto the mortal world. He tentatively agrees to referring to himself as his slave while also having been a literal slave owner. The fact that he controls the money, the investments and even owns the house where the entire unholy family live is what further drives that point home. But book Louis is also supposed to be charming in his own way. He pulls in Lestat, Armand, even Daniel with his own contradictory behavior. He's not just a pretty face who got targeted by a vampire, he's a man who was never morally pure to begin with, and that allows him to even survive as a vampire, despite his moral dilemmas over feeding off of humans and the purpose of his own existence when he questions it against the backdrop of his Catholic faith. Brad Pitt didn't even try to understand this basic reading of his character, let alone emote it.

[sisterdragonwithfeathers]

so I just finished The Empty Grave and

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

(overwhelmingly positive, I have so many thoughts, I may have to learn how to draw clothing just for this series, I am going to own it one day)

anyway what should I read next?

no rhyme or reason I don't need something similar if nobody says anything I might start on Dune for the heck of it

[byronicbi]

why yes i am that guy and did in fact spend 30 minutes hunting down all the fics i read on my phone these past five days and left comments on them. were they coherent? not at all, but i felt it was imperative to let these writers know that they kept me sane for a little while.

[spiltcandycoatedpunkblood]

"Haven't you always been despised by the world of 'normals'? Haven't they always jeered at you, pointed you out as a freak, a weirdo, some kind of cock-eyed ape? Didn't your own father betray you, use you, exploit you? Do you really think I'm mad to hate them all?" Cam stared at his brother. He could see the pain in Revok's black pupils. It moved him to pity and made him want to cry. "I think," he began slowly, hunting for the right words, "you should stop killing yourself." Revok blinked. "Huh?" "Don't you see," Cam urged, "you're letting your hatred burn you up inside!" "Darryl," he leaned forward, urgently, "can't we just be ordinary people? At last, now that we've found one another?" "Ordinary people?!?" Revok screeched, "are you mad? You mean, after all they've put us through, you want to be just like them?"

Scanners, the film novelisation, Leon Whiteson

[running-in-the-dark]

Earlier I just wanted to quickly put away some nail polish that was standing around in the bathroom. Well anyway that was five hours ago and I just went through all my nail polishes and decluttered the ones that were so thick that even nail polish thinner wouldn't help, and the ones that I haven't used in years and don't actually like anymore 🙃

Everything hurts, there's empty (open) nail polish bottles on the floor because they need to dry out before I can throw them away, it absolutely stinks of nail polish and obviously I didn't even wear a mask because I hadn't planned on opening that many (or any) nail polish bottles.

All that just to get rid of like 20-25 bottles of nail polish 🙃 Yeah sure that was totally worth it and a great use of my time, right, yeah.

[smol-and-passionate]

*wolves howl in the distance*

Dracula: Listen to then. The children of the night. What music they make!

Me: Omg yes, nature is amazing! I wonder what they’re saying to each other. :)

[six-of-ravens]

have decided the plan for tonight is to finish Pearl and Sir Orfeo (and therefore this book) and NOTHING can stop me

[cervidsunrise]

Whenever I start a new book I can never tell if I don't like it because I actually don't like it or because it's not a continuation of the last book I was listening to

[aroaessidhe]

2022 reads // twitter thread  

Godslayers

Sequel to Gearbreakers

dystopian sci-fi future with god-mechs and the people who destroy them

Eris is captured, Sona is brainwashed, the rebels need to find a way to save them and save each other, and take down Godolia

[mostlyanything19]

Me, listening to Harry Potter audiobook in Spanish and getting STUPID EMOTIONAL about it hh god

I understand about every 20th word if that, but the thing is. I learned English this way - by knowing especially the first book by HEART and then switching language, and I'll be damned, this method is still working nearly 20 years later bc wow my brain is doing a live auto-translation just going along with the tidbits I'm picking up here and there.

[realbacchus]

Oh I just realized I must have been listening to WoK the last time I did ceramics (the project that took me like 20 hours to complete) and... I miss ceramics I miss the vibe I wanna listen to an audiobook while I'm working with clay. There is nothing like it

[blue-kyber]

Recording for this audiobook for the first time in months. It's SO HARD to just get started, but when I'm able to, I keep going.