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arlo-venn · 1 year

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Now that marijuana is fully out of my system, the night terrors and getting trapped in nightmare loops for entire irl days at a time and the waking up kicking and screaming has returned! 🤠 And so far they’ve all been about the family that I am entirely estranged from for very good reasons 🤠 And my tics and waking seizures are making a come back! I’m having a lot of fun! 🤠

#I dream extremely vividly #I can read in dreams and use my phone like normal #Scroll through and text and all that #Phone calls are usually garbled but the rest is just like reality #I die in my dreams #I feel the physical pain #I feel them holding me down #I feel the wind on my face as I run run run from them #Woke up screaming for Tyrell this morning #Couldn’t stay awake and was dragged back into the loop #Kicked the fuck out of the shelf next to my bed recently #Woke up in a running crawl (right off my very tall bed)#Neck muscles enraged from the irl head flinging #At least the tics and neuro issues aren’t quite as bad as they usually are without weed #I assume because of the naltrexone?#which I will be out of soon with no $ to refill too :(#but low dose naltrexone does not help with the dreaming #only weed has ever helped with the dreaming #but hey I have been less nauseous these last few days at least #so that’s a win #idk what kind of tw to put on this post I’m sorry #I haven’t seen them in ten years irl #and now they’re torturing me every time I sleep #and it is so so so real #getting some dream things and reality things mixed up again #am confused #everything is a lot! all at once! always!#makes zero sense for stuff from compunding pharmacies to not be covered by insurance #makes zero sense for medical marijuana to be legal but not covered by insurance #compounding*

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desperatelyseekingjulia · 4 months

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fuck zodiac signs do you also kinda feel excruciatingly unlovable in every way possible sometimes

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xyliaxart · 1 year

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I had a lovely dream last night. I was in a school gym doing like an obstacle course and they were throwing things at us that were supposed to be scary including a big bat and a little bat. and I caught the little bat and just kept it cause it was so cute it looked like this:

it was so round and fit in my pocket. I gave it scritches under its little chin

#little bat #halloween #it came to me in a dream #literally #dreams #bat #spooky month #october #i would die for little bat #i want to learn to make plushies so I can have a cuddleable little bat #my art #sketchies #doodle #doodles

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mioakem · 2 months

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one of the worst parts of being a dsmp fan in 2020-2021 was when ppl who weren’t in the fandom didn’t differentiate between the dream team side of the fandom and the sbi side of the fandom and just assumed we were all foaming at the mouth for dnf

#like no mf i fucking hated the dt #confession i hated dtqk cause quackity was one of my favs and i rlly liked karl but i hated the dt #but ya sbi was my ride or die #sbi #dream smp #dsmp #tommyinnit #technoblade #ph1lza #mcyt

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knifearo · 10 months

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being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one

#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts #course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism #being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn #i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus #cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself #into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation #but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy #and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system #you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao #yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic #aromanticism #aro positivity #aroace #arospec #sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon #you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better #life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not #i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao

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luhvrlis · 3 months

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My “this will be the best summer” so far in 6 picture

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kitamars · 1 year

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im not immune to mermay it seems

#listen. i will shove eriks into any situation i can as is my god given right #also i had to doodle that quick comic for them last night or i thought i was gonna die #also…..orca wolfwood…….simply for the black and white thing…….#i have no in depth thoughts on this au just vague fever dream ideas from 5 in the morning #but it was fun #they’re so stupid and annoying #say it with me now:#partners (affectionately derogatory)#vash #vash the stampede #wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash x wolfwood #vashwood #mermay #trigun #trigun maximum #ok bye

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dollyswan · 3 months

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lace4ngel · 5 months

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the og girl blogger

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slaparoonie · 6 months

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pretty boys with pretty bows (and ties)

papercraft designs by @holymaccaronii !!!

#my 3 fav lil computers #i can die happy #inscryption p03 #inscryption #ihnmaims #i have no mouth and i must scream #allied mastercomputer #edgar electric dreams #electric dreams 1984 #ignore how p03 looks so botched btw #it was a nightmare making him(personally)#(the glue i use is very tacky)#i drew the bows btw. arent i great

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the-good-batch · 6 months

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THE WAY IT KEEPS BEING MILKED BY TBB CREATORS/VIEWERS HOW DARK THE SECOND HALF OF SEASON THREE WILL BE IT CONCERNS ME

#our dreams of a happy family on Pabu just feel more and more unlikely #please this hyperfixation has been my life #I just want it to end with everyone alive #and happy #I mean they have a dog and dogs can’t die so maybe they all will live happily in the end #the bad batch #tbb #star wars tbb #tbb hunter #tbb crosshair #tbb omega #tbb echo #tbb wrecker #tbb season 3 #tbb spoilers #tbb season 3 spoilers #the bad batch spoilers

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katrasining · 10 months

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Bois I have either adopted and/or triggered my cute aggression ❤️

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trashpuppyy · 3 months

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i got @wolfbeestudio's plushies and they're super cute!! i love them so much ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ i also drew a little fanart of crossy and killy, they sit together on my desk (cross looks constantly pissed at killer, canon accurate)

they have awesome designs and r so fun to play with and make little stories... you should totally buy one for yourself if you can ( •̀ ω •́ )✧

also killer cat in bow (as is custom to initiate a new killer plush) + bow version of drawing!! and also the inspiration pic for art!!!

thank you for the plushies wolfbee, i really love your work :3

#wolfbeestudio #undermeow #trashpuppyytart #utmv #undertale au #sans au #undertale aus #utmv fanart #au sans #utmv art #sans art #sans aus #killer sans #killer sans art #killer sans fanart #cross sans #cross sans fanart #cross sans art #xtale #killertale #one day i was browsing etsy as i often do #i found mr blue plush and i was like dang! ive gotta buy this!#he was so cute.... but then i saw that he was $200 #which is totally reasonable considering he was custom made at the time #but boy did my wallet not have what it takes to purchase him #having him and MY FAVES NO LESS for so much cheaper is a dream come true #i know how expensive custom plushes are and im surprised the price was so low #thank you to wolfbee studio for making these wonderful plushies accessible to so many people #what would i do without my undermeow brand plushies... wither away and die i suspect

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clownsuu · 1 year

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Yknow- iv been asked a lot for a while if it’s possible to leave Wally’s mob family-

there’s only one way to truly leave smhh

cw death

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#FINALLY IV BEEN WANTING TO SHOW THIS FOR A WHILE BUT ART BLOCK GA. H #Biggest issue I had was who to pick smhhhhhhh #But yeah anyway you die permanently when your taken eye is destroyed #The eye is a contract bound to Wally- as long as that eye is fine your body can be resurrected at any time #However once that contract is broken there is no point in your existence anymore smhh #Nobody will remember you- besides the ones who truly connected to ya #Then you will just be a figment of a dream to them #Welcome home #welcome home mob au #welcome home wally #Wally darling #Robbie robs #This made my left hand cramp up #But I’m right handed-???

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ziggystqrdust · 2 months

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i had a dream about you // alucinatio by alexmeg

“He stares at the ceiling, blinking blankly every now and then, until his eyes close and he falls asleep.”

hey so what the fuck

bonus

caption translation: “you’re an angst enjoyer”

video translation: “that feeling like where it hurts so much but it feels good, you know that feeling when “aww im so sad cuz they didnt end up together😞” but its also satisfying in a way that they didnt end up together😁”

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pipperoo · 20 days

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kinda obsessed with the fact that grace isn’t in “go go nighthawks.” the person that came up with the whole plan to get back at max and to chop up and hide his body, is the one student that doesn’t reap the benefits from it.

her saying “mama i’m cured” only after she saw ghost max in her dream and thought he wasn’t sexy at all just shows how nothing changed for her after max died. it took that dream for her to move on. and it shows that those feelings were all grace and not actually max’s fault. (he certainly didn’t help, but he never made her have that fantasy)

i’m so curious about how those two weeks were for her

#hatchetfield #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #grace chasity #also what is up with those prophetic like dreams #why are these barely mentioned???#what do you mean grace saw ghost max??#my headcanon is that she has a touch of the gift and assumes that anything strange about her dreams is pure coincidence #are they ever going to be mentioned again??#i don’t know man i think abt it way to much

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