did you make yet another muse nd? yanqing reacts very nd.
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Maybe? Probably. Yes.
So what? I can make anyone I want neurodivergent and you can pry neurodivergent Yanqing from my cold, dead hands.
Just look at his single-minded passion for swords and swordsmanship, something that he seems to never have stepped away from, like ever.
There's not that much canon info about him, but my own AuDHD heart claimed him mine and I can do as I want. I don't plan to ever state in his bio or anything that he is nd, but in my heart and mind he is and if you have a problem with that, feel free to unfollow me.
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Victoria/Lisa
So, the running joke here is that these two act like a divorced couple forced to hang out because of shared custody, and that's a good joke, but let's dig a little further!
Lisa is not interested in relationships for herself, in either the romantic or the sexual side. She is in no way attracted to people, but there are hints that she's still a little romantic at heart.
She sets Taylor up with Brian, for example. Now, how much of that is because of her desire to give Taylor a happy and fulfilling life to counteract her suicidal urges, and how much of it is Lisa living vicariously through other people is up for debate (and I'd probably lean on the former, personally), but let's look at it from both sides.
For the latter, despite Lisa's cynicism, she eventually admits to herself that she actually gives a shit about humanity, about people, and wants to see them survive and live. This is a conclusion she comes to at the worst possible time in Worm, and that drives much of her motivation in Ward. A part of her really does want to see people happy, including in ways she herself isn't actually interested in.
And for the former, well, Lisa put a lot of effort into saving Taylor (and is saved by Taylor in return), but, in the end, she could not stop Taylor from sacrificing herself when that seemed to be the one thing to do. This left Lisa adrift. She attaches herself to people like Taylor in order to save them, in order to make up for what she feels is her failure to save her brother (see my post about her name), but, after Worm, the loss of Taylor weighs heavy on her, and none of the people around her are doing badly enough to need her.
So instead she's trying to keep the world on the rails in her supervillain mastermind way, which is something she wants, but doesn't satisfy her, and she gets cranky because of it, and drives her friends away, and gets harsher in the choices she makes for the world, spiraling without anything to grab onto, to help her focus.
And then Victoria comes back.
Victoria's spent two years in the hospital, and another two years barely living, going through life as if by rote. She's deeply uncomfortable in her own skin for Amy related reasons, and not particularly happy with her power, also for Amy related reasons, and also not exactly willing to think about herself being in a relationship, also for Amy related reasons. Sexually, she is interested in guys, but a lot of this is because she has some seriously conflicted feelings about any potential interest she might have in girls, for, well, three guesses.
Throughout the early arcs of Ward, Victoria finds some zest in her life, and comes back to life, finding her passion in heroism, and that's because one of the villains of her old hometown, one of the catalysts for the Amy situation, one of her own failures, comes right back to poke at her, and is she going to let her? Absolutely not!
The relationship that forms following that is mutual antagonism, with Victoria not wanting to just let this villain ruin more lives, and Lisa incredibly annoyed this ill-informed hero starts getting in her way of saving people. Both of them are wrong about each other, of course (Lisa's motives are more altruistic than Victoria is assuming, but Victoria is absolutely right to stop Lisa's more callous tendencies).
More importantly, however, the mutual antagonism is healthy for them both. It gives Victoria a goal, someone to spite, and the antagonism and the barbs are honestly a kind of security blanket an almost safe way of dealing with her personal vulnerabilities, and Victoria hones Lisa's focus, with someone who can actually hold her to account when she starts messing up, and someone she starts giving a shit about, despite her own reluctance to get there.
They don't come up with the idea of working together themselves, because the hatred is genuine, but both their teammates are more willing to cross the hero/villain gap, and, eventually, they become each other's first thought when they need someone on the other side of that divide.
As things go on, they settle into some kind of weird absolutely not friendship, where the barbs never stop, and they don't even stop being genuinely mean, but they're also safe, because they know each other well, and their hatred of each other as 'evil villain' and 'ignorant hero' both softens and hardens into 'this bitch is so close to doing it right, but she just has to be an asshole/idealist'.
And the fun part is that they never stop doing this! They just start hanging out together more, without this making them like each other more. Them hanging out together changes how they view the world, and it makes them both better at their side of the 'keep the world together' job, but they never fully resolve this conflict, even when they both start mentoring the same teen superhero/villain team.
Which is why they have bitter exes vibes throughout, and it makes for a great relationship dynamic.
A: I love it
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'Just five more minutes.' ( lol do with this what you will xD )
sleepy prompts: Accepting
"Five more minutes.."
IT hadn't intended this to happen. IT had only wanted to observe, to keep an eye on more of the more troublesome members of the loser's club. But the evening had grown long and Richie just wouldn't shut up. IT hadn't been sure what was more pathetic, the drunken attempts at flirting or how IT had stayed to listen anyway. IT had regretted the decision enough to lean forward and silence him with a kiss, trapping him with an iron grip when he tried to pull away. He tasted of whiskey and flavoured smoke, probably from that thing IT had been tempted to crush throughout their conversation. The human blowing the sugary clouds off to one side, his grin lopsided as if it was the funniest shit in the world.
It wasn't, it was a small miracle that IT hadn't reached over and yanked out his tongue. It was just to shut him up. That didn't justify the night spent in the Derry townhouse coaxing moans from that irritating mouth. Perhaps it was simply indulgence. IT always felt this way fresh from waking, a kind of restlessness that only a fuck could satisfy. IT wasn't usually careful about such encounters, there was no need. Who would question or challenge IT? No one even knew IT existed.
This encounter felt like a mistake. IT didn't play with IT's food like this. If IT was going to eat them, IT ate them during or soon after intercourse. IT didn't allow them to stay close. IT certainly didn't doze with them until morning, tangled in sheets as if IT had been conquered. But IT had stayed and IT watched him, the orange of IT's eyes bright in the darkened room.
Such an indulgence..
IT marked the rise and fall of Richie's chest, tracked the beat of his heart and decided to lie still.
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SPOILER for engraved upon my heart (in letters deeply worn)
fun fact, for months my plan for pandora was not for her to die.
actually i was going to expand on her aromanticism, which has been briefly mentioned in one of the earlier chapters; marylily were going to ask her out and be rather disappointed when she denies, and eventually she was going to marry xenophilius for the sake of companionship. she was then to live happily ever after with a comfortably affluent marriage and though xenophilius did have a crush on her, he never pushed beyond friendship. she did, however, desire to become a mother, and a few years down the line adopts luna. of course, regulus was to be her godfather.
but somewhere between chapters 8 and 9 i realised that i had never really considered if my version of the little women story was to have a beth equivalent character, and pandora sprang to mind as beth and her seemed to share much of the same personality traits.
and now we're all sad
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