#I had to make an entire new sideblog for this bc….like where else do I talk abt them lol.

[transdavyjones]

cant stand 60s music fandoms *10 minutes later* me and the bestie!

[yeojaa]

check-in tag!

ty for the tag @augustbutwinter @propinqxity @jinpanman @trustingofwinds @hobi-gif 💖 if you see me online, no you did not (hahahahaha)

1. why did you choose your url?

i've always liked the word yeoja, as it's pretty, but it was taken so i just did the classic thing and added an extra a lmao

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them

this is a sideblog (though i do regret making it this way bc i would prefer to interact directly from here blah blah blah). i have another sideblog that i use for searching for rp partners and then i have one super secret private blog where i write love letters to @snackhobi

3. how long have you’ve been on tumblr?

i genuinely do not know. i've had my personal since 2012 but i'm 99% sure i had one before that. i just cannot remember

4. do you have a queue tag?

... i think so. but i can't remember wtf it is hahaha

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

i watched the bwl mv and then i stumbled across them on ao3 (obviously) and i was hooked from there

6. why did you choose your icon?

because jjk is the cutest person in da whole wide world 💕

7. why did you choose your header?

see above (and also bc it matches my icon)

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

probably devil in a new suit

9. how many mutuals do you have?

....... is there a way to check this? i would assume something like 300 or so since most of the people i follow are mutuals (or they're incredible and i just follow them and cry about it)

10. how many followers do you have?

close to 4k. which is frankly baffling considering i haven't written anything in ... many many months

11. how many people do you follow?

319 lol

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

my entire life is a shitpost, bruv

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

i check it at least three or four times a day. but the last time i actually posted/interacted properly? lmao 😐

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

i don't think so? at least not on this blog. when i used to be in the rpc, i would fight people bullies but that was ages ago

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

stupid. i won't reblog them unless i've taken the time to verify the information and educate myself. also it's just like, dumb. "you must reblog this" shut the fuck up

16. do you like tag games?

i do, actually!

17. do you like ask games?

i double do!

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

.... does @1kook count because miss yami is a goddess

19. do i have a crush on a mutual?

LMAO big time

tagging @coepiteamare @velvetwicebang @xjoonchildx @sahmfanficbts @fortunexkookie @latetaektalk @1kook @ditttiii @gamerkooks @bangtanfancamp @flowerseokjin @lcksndkys @kamaycee @underthejoon and honestly whoever else wants to do it xoxo gossip girl

ps. clean vers stolen from @jinpanman aka the cutest 👉👈

why did you choose your url?

any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them

how long have you’ve been on tumblr?

do you have a queue tag?

why did you start your blog in the first place?

why did you choose your icon?

why did you choose your header?

what’s your post with the most notes?

how many mutuals do you have?

how many followers do you have?

how many people do you follow?

have you ever made a shitpost?

how often do you use tumblr each day?

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

do you like tag games?

do you like ask games?

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

do i have a crush on a mutual?

[introtae]

check in tag 💗

tagged by @butterjiminie and @gimbapchefs​ !! thank you guys ily 🥰

1. Why did you choose your url?

is it bad that i don’t really remember?? i think lainey helped me brainstorm it since she was my only bts friend going into making this blog but it just kind of.... happened into existence

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them name them and why you have them

yes! i have one (1) side blog that i use to test different themes/icons etc bc i’m indecisive and don’t like messing with this blog unless i know beforehand whether i’ll like the change or not. anyways the url is @softlytae​ you can look if u want but you wont find anything of value there LOL

3. How long have you’ve been on tumblr?

i’ve been on tumblr itself since 2018 but i made this blog & started creating gifs in december 2020! 

4. Do you have a queue tag?

#q 😌

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

my old blog used to be a marvel blog (which is where i met lainey lol) but i slowly switched over to kpop and then decided to make a new blog when i realized i wanted to delve into gifmaking! :)

6. Why did you choose your icon?

saw kim seokjin and had a mental breakdown

7. Why did you choose your header?

KIM TAEHYUNG 😭 what other explanation do i NEED

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

i think it’s this one??? it used to be a jungkook set for a few months but buff namjoon really came out of nowhere and swept that title away from him in a few days

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i think like 45 

10. How many followers do you have?

oh ho ho we want the juicy stuff i see 😏i have an amount i am satisfied with :) 

11. How many people do you follow?

89!

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

yes my entire blog is one big shitpost at this point

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

i log on a few times throughout the day to check in! 

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

nah i steer clear of drama. no thank you <3

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

it depends on the post i think? everyone is entitled to making their blog their own safe space so i don’t really know how to feel about them

16. Do you like tag games?

yesssss please tag me in anything and everything fun!! sometimes i forget to actually do them myself but i love being included in them and i try to respond to all the games i’m tagged in 🥰

17. Do you like ask games?

yeah they’re fun! i really like the ones where i get to brag abt how talented my mutuals are 😌

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

well @ppersonna is about 186 years old now so i’d say she probably has accumulated a good amount of followers by this point

19. Do I have a crush on a mutual?

all of them. they’re all amazing and i love them 🥺💗

tagging: @ughseoks @ppersonna @kithtaehyung @jiminswn @k-hongjoong @wonsang @taemaknae @balenciaguks @eternal-bangtan and anyone else who wants to do thissss <3

[s1utspeare]

Get To Know Me!

@foxofninetales tagged me in this ask game and since I LOVE HER i will now be doing it (i mean i’d do it anyway but now it will be filled with love for FOX i am not accepting CRITICISM ON THIS POINT)

Part I

name: Brigid! I’m named after the Irish goddess of like, poetry, healing, smithcraft, and protection, or the Irish saint (they’re both pretty similar it’s just whether or not you’re talking about Celtic religion or Catholicism). She’s very cool, and I think it’s a very fitting name for who I turned out to be!

pronouns: she/her

star sign: i’m an insufferable theatre kid of course I’m a Leo

height: 5'8″ babeeeyyy (172 cm). I’m not short like, at all, but all of my family members are over six foot, so I’m like. tiny in comparison. they all make fun of me all the time for it :(

time: 8:49pm! A delightful time of evening!!! 

birthday: July 31st, same day as Harry Potter lol.

nationality: american :P

fave bands/groups/solo artists: hnnnngggghhhh why would u ask me this I don’t KNOW jk i just have a lot uhhhhh all time faves would be Bastille and Mumford and Sons, but I’m SUPER into kpop right now, so my top groups are BTS, Stray Kids, and One OK Rock (who are technically jpop but I really like their stuff). I also am a Broadway BITCH (hello, theatre kid) so before this year all of my Spotify library was basically just show tunes. 

song stuck in your head: Get Away by VeriVery. I think they’re a pretty new group? idk i saw them on one of those tumblr promotional things and checked out the music video which is like??? really interesting conceptually? so I’ve just been listening to the song for a while lol. 

last movie you watched: Train to Busan! I’m gearing up to write a dmbj zombie apocalypse AU and so I was like “this is a popular zombie film! I’ll watch it for inspiration! :)” holy shit. holy shit i was so wrong. It’s one of the most viscerally affecting films I think I’ve ever seen, I was like. On the verge of an anxiety attack the entire time but in like the best possible way?? it’s a mastery of character introduction and action/horror and I cried for like the last ten minutes straight. SO affecting. I do NOT RECOMMEND IT if u are already made anxious by zombie apocalypse scenarios, blood, violence, and a Lot of Death. 

last show you binged: hmmm uh like I’m currently watching Mystic Nine but at like a normal pace, so the last show I probably binge watched was maybeeee The Uncanny Counter on Netflix? HIGHLY recommend that one, I made @cross-d-a watch it and I’m living for her liveblog reactions lmao. Idk most of my free time has been spent writing the past few months which. After months of only having the energy to watch shows is kind of really invigorating? the things u can do when u fix ur health I’ll tell you what

when you created your blog: in 2012 asldighalsdkfjladskjga i came on here to like burdge’s pjo fanart :)

the last thing you googled: "is it bad not to have an air cap on your tire” ALSDIGHALKDFJLADFJA FUCK ME (i learned that it’s not necessarily bad but it can get dirt and stuff built up in there so I went to the store after work today and replaced it)

other blogs: everything is here bc i am too lazy to create a sideblog! so sorry to everyone who does not follow me for cdrama content bc this is all I am now. 

why i chose my url: cause it’s my ao3 username and i wanted people to be able to find me more easily on tumblr! :) the long answer is because i love shakespeare and also i think that slut is a really funny word and concept for me especially because i am one of the most sexless people u will ever meet in ur life so slutspeare is like. an aggressively ace joke that only I think is funny. 

how many people are you following: 588

how many followers do you have: ah just over 200?!??!!? which is like. a lot for me. I think it was like 75 up until like last year omg 

average hours of sleep: my sleep app says I average around eight! which is very good for me! I do have to get enough sleep consistently or I will Have A Bad Time so my sleep schedule is pretty good and luckily I don’t have the Insomnia depression I have the Sleep Lots one which I am glad for bc idk what I’d do if I couldn’t Be Unconscious regularly. Die probably. 

lucky numbers: I don’t think I have lucky numbers?? my favorite number is 21 for no reason other than the vibes alone. 

instruments: i’ve played the piano for uhhhh.... eighteen years now? and I can play the ukulele and am surprisingly good with the recorder since I’ve had to play it in Multiple Theatre Performances. I was also an honor choir singer back in high school so I’ve done a lot of select ensemble stuff which was super fun! 

what i'm currently wearing: a Life Is Good long-sleeved t-shirt that says “Not All Who Wander Are Lost” that I got in a military surplus store like a million years ago and red Adidas athletic shorts that I found at the thrift store a couple weeks back

dream job: playwright! I just wanna be a playwright! playwriting is like drugs i literally go nuts for it

dream trip: I don’t know??? I don’t really like traveling tbh aslidhalkfdj umm I do want to see the grand canyon sometime before I die tho so maybe a road trip down there? I definitely like traveling solo so I’d probably just hang out with myself and drive and go to whatever places I want and see dumb tourist attractions and sing loudly in the car

fave food: CURRY i know i said eggs the last time it asked me this but I miss my local Indian restaurant I want to eat literal Platefuls of tikka masala at 12pm at the Indian buffet after my physics class again :(

top three fictional universe you'd like to live in: hmmm i don’t know, actually! probably one where I have Powers and could do Cool Hand Motions and make Lights Appear. If I were anywhere with like. An Actual World-Dooming problem tho I would not be helpful at all. I would just die. Besides, I already live in fictional universes half the time, I’m a writer! 

Part II

last song: Basquiat by Pentagon! The music video is like. Very whumpy. So if you’re into that... the song’s also a bop

last stream: i don't watch streams very often, I just watch clips from them, cause those usually just give the best parts lol 

currently reading: mmmmmbbbaaaaahhhhh literally nothing? I’m trying to get caught up on the backlog of dmbj fic I haven’t gotten around to so Binding by @vishcount is next on that list! oh I guess I’m also reading Johnny Tremain with my kids (one of them SPOILED THE END and I forgot how it ended and now I’m big sad). 

currently watching: Mystic Niiiiinnnneeeeee! love those gay history bitches. everyone in that show is so funny. I just finished the Fuba Side Plot tho and now we’re back to Politics so i’m like >:( someone give zhang baby rishan a hug (and then i write angst about him what is wrong with me)

what is antipoetry to you: antipoetry??? what the heck is antipoetry hold on... uhhhh that’s just poetry. who came up with this term. i guess like lyrical fiction would be the technical correct definition but idk I consider anything to be poetry! like that’s the whole point! poetry is poetry is poetry as long as it’s focused on intensity and emotions it’s poetry! a haiku? poetry. the random one-lined mess of words on my phone? poetry. a literal drawing of a cardinal with the word “bird” written next to it? poetry. idk I’ve been trying to teach my kids that there are no wrong ways to write creatively; if you’re expressing yourself and making emotions, then you’re writing! also like half of my work could be considered antipoetry lmao. I love emotionally supercharging the mundane.

currently craving: i have noooo ideaaaasssss i’m literally just vibing. uh. water? ok i took care of that one my water bottle was right next to me. 

AH IF YOU READ THIS MUCH THANK YOU???? i love u 

uhhhh no pressure tags for @xia-xueyi, @nope4ever, @bookjoyworm, @elletromil, and @gaiahenshin, as well as anyone else who would like to give the full-rundown on themselves! :D

[dear-yandere]

—ask collection!

a collection of mostly very old chats and sweet asks that i never got around to answering! thanks for the patience and love!! 

beware, fairly long post... woops....

chat asks.

darling: Eu-jin is best boy. Change my mind.

vanya: i am physically incapable of fulfilling that request, how dare you do that to me... i’m biased since he’s my own oc, but i would die for my (very best) boy eu-jin... who can resist such a gentle yandere that loves you so whole-heartedly?

that reminds me! he’s actually based off of kuroyuki and gekkamaru from the otome nightshade, so if you want similar characters by any chance, do check them and the game out ♡

darling: I was watching the dub for Part 5 of JoJo's Bizarre adventure yesterday...Mista called himself Daddy and I like- sdfghjfgsdhnhnmj!! My heart can't take this--

vanya: WAIT HE DID???? i’m not even big on daddy kink and reading that made me go 😳 this is vital information to know... what episode was this??? for research purposes, of course. gotta perfect my yan! mista, after all~...

darling: for yandere songs, have you heard of the major to minor covers by chase holfelder :O? the way he delivers the lyrics in some songs (betty, all i want for christmas), added with the key changes to minor, is really fantastic, and gives a stalker-ish vibe imo! and he's a really good singer in general

vanya: i have!! a good chunk of them are actually on my personal yandere playlist, so i end up hearing them frequently when i’m writing!! i haven’t been keeping up with his uploads recently, so ‘betty’ is completely new to me and just, wow???????????? this man is an absolute god send for us “romantic” horror fans... ♡

this ask gave me such a lovely idea, though, darling: assigning yandere types/mbti based off each of chase’s minor key covers. i think i’ll do that just for you. ♡

darling @blossomiich​: I reread some of your old character interaction asks and saw the one with Jotaro hugging his Darling after a panic attack and the elephant seal plush reminded me of the iconic C H O N K Y ringed seal plushie that was kinda trending and I can totally imagine Jotaro having one of those >w< that's so adorable!

vanya: i honestly don’t remember that interaction, but then again i don’t remember most things hmghng so i looked it up and

j...just imagine star plat hogging it and not letting joot cuddle with it 🥺 the duality of man...thank you for this cute image...

darling: Umm, sorry for asking this. I'm just curious because of your bio language in your header. Are you Chinese too, perhaps?

vanya: no worries!! i’m mixed guyanese (indian, chinese, & possibly black and/or portuguese), but my family only celebrates (or rather, acknowledges?) our indian descent, since the majority of our family is predominantly east indian. 

my header is actually a quote from a danmei novel (and one of my all-time favorite fandoms), tiān guān cì fú (heaven’s official blessing)!

darling genki stan anon: Omg you're writing for free now, i didn't expect that one lol. It's a cute show innit? Not a nagi stan but I feel like nagisa has that kinda unsnapped personality that would make him peak delusional yandere material lolol like oikawa but less threatening and without his head being up his own ass 😂. Hope you're doing well!! -gsa

Gdjsjs im such a fool, i think my last ask said something about not thinking you'd write for free when i literally just pointed out kisumi on your sideblog LMAO my bad 😅 😂 also ill hold back on the gen chan requests because ive already asked so many in the past! Thank you though 🥺. Also feel free not to post this, it can just dip into my onesided chats with my lil flower 💐 so long as you receive them im fine 😌 -genki stan anon

vanya: nagisa isn’t my favorite (kisumi is), but gods if he wouldn’t make a great yandere. honestly, out of the iwatobi boys, nagi is probably the most unhinged. i wouldn’t peg him as delusional, at least not at first; i think he’s very lucid and knows exactly what he wants and how to manipulate people in order to get it!!! kisumi is fairly similar now that i think about it... i might... have a type...

please feel free to send in gen-chan requests whenever you want!!!! i’m kinda super asocial, so it’ll take me a while to answer, but i love getting asks from you since you’re so sweet and excitable!!! your little flower reads and cherishes them all!! 🥺

also darling genki stan anon: Sorry for spamming you with asks hdjkdks, u dont even need to reply im just kinda brain empty venting here whether you recieve them or not 😂 i just needed to confess that while yes i am #1 gen simp, and he is undoubtedly my fave oc of yours but that Ilya tentacle smut had me very much so highkey kinda 👀, had to re read the genki oral style drabble to bring my head back. He dont even need to worry about luca bc that man a thot. I think therin is a thot too but like lowkey, a classy thót -gsa

vanya: omg i’ve kept this one for forever mnmghngh i might’ve even answered at some other point, now that i think about it... but i just 🥺 gosh i hope i find my muse soon, because i really wanna write you a genki fic 🥺 hhhh

the ilya tentacle smut was so in character for that boy... i have no clue how to write monsters, much less tentacles, but i’d honestly do anything for him 🙏 kinky russian boy...

therin is definitely a classy thot, the kind that only bangs the finest concubines then turns around and slut shames you for banging the very same prostitutes gbfmngnfg rules don’t apply to him, in his kingdom...wish that were me tbh ✊😔

sweet asks.

darling one: i've read almost all of your dazai and chuuya fics and i love them so much!! your formatting is also super aesthetic just a question, i saw on your kofi that you also draw so i was wondering if you drew all the header arts?? bc they're all super pretty :) have a great day!

darling two: Just wanted to say love the writing and the way your format your posts is so aesthetically pleasing. One day I hope my posts looks half as good as yours because I legit can't get over how pretty and organized it looks.

vanya: omg thank you so much!!!! one of my bffs, yue, is to thank for the formatting and aesthetic choices, really! if you wanna see more of her aesthetic formats and posts, she actually runs a few blogs! you may know her as @milkscafe​, formally @milkaaton! i adore her and her aes choices so much 🥺

as for the headers, i don’t draw 99.98% of them! i have drawn a couple, but they’re so few and far in between since i almost never finish my art wips haha... my older posts are lacking proper credits because i’m an absolute idiot, but i’m slowly working my way backwards to credit them all where possible! they’re all indeed super pretty!!!

have a great day yourself, my love!!

darling: THEY’RE NOT BAD CONTENT, I LOVE THEM ALL

vanya: this was in response to a now-deleted lil blurb but i kept it in my inbox because i wanted to say i love u very much and seeing this ask each time i open my inbox makes my heart skip a beat ♡

darling: Listen I love your writing, you inspired me to start it myself! I've always loved to write, and read of course but your style and concepts just stick with me. If you where to write something besides Yandere content/fandom content and started your own series? I would read the shit, out of it. I'm always nervous to interact with my favorite writers because you know, I'm afraid of the impression I'd leave but I just wanted to say this anyway! 💞💞💞🔫😳

vanya: wowowow fgfnmgnfmngfg that’s such a high compliment my brain just gmfnbgmnf go boom fogjfngnfg and thank you for the interaction, us writers truly appreciate it no matter how awkward or nervous you think you may be / come off!!!

darling one: As a writer, your post struck a nerve with me. I don’t send feedback to writers I like nearly as much as I should (and certainly not as much as I’d like in return as a writer). So, as such, I’m going to start doing that when I can, starting with you.

You are an incredible writer. You were one of the first yandere writing blogs I found and you’re still one I check in on regularly to see what you have been working on. You can portray a sense of suspense and intrigue in a natural way that many other writers - published ones included - struggle with. You delve into the darkness without it feeling forced, and you have an amazing grasp on the psyches of the characters you write for (which is a quality I adore in writing and strive toward myself).

I’m not great at ending these things so I guess.. you keep doing you? Because the you is great and I appreciate it.

darling two:  hey. i'm here to tell you that from the bottom of my heart i love you and your writings. i really admire your writing skills. you inspire me. one of your posts once saved me from a nervous breakdown. thank you for everything you do. you're a wonderful person. good luck!

darling three: I wanted to tell you that thank you for writing such wonderful beautiful writings and that you take time to edit and write I hope you are taking care of yourself 💖❤

darling four: Thanks. I was having a hard time and deleted all my apps, but as soon as i opened my phone my first instinct was to look at your blog and i got my motivation back. Thanks (:

darling five: Hi ! I just wanted to say I really enjoy the stories you write and how they are detailed so well ! Stay safe and I hope you have a good day/night ! ლ(╹◡╹ლ)

vanya: ahhhh, these are very old asks mostly dating back to my “tumblr writing community is dying” post, and i’ve kept them this entire time because i’m just so starstruck. i have no clue how to reply to compliments, so i’m not sure what else to say besides that these asks made me very happy and got me through a few insecure moments!!! i’ve actually been feeling a little down about my writing recently, mostly because of lack of motivation / inspiration, so revisiting these really warmed my heart, so thank you truly ♡ i’m certainly keeping the originals in my inbox until the end of time!!

darling @monstrously-obsessed: psst, this local cryptic mom thing send all of their love for you 💕

vanya: your local herbo says she loves you very much momster 🥺 mwah

also, to the anon worried about my safety:

thank you so much for pointing that out!!! it hadn’t even crossed my mind when i made those ocs, so i appreciate your concern! i was contemplating revamping those two as is, so this is a great place to start! thank you again!!

[metalbatandzenko]

About me taking breaks from this blog

Hey everyone!

You might have noticed that I’ve been taking intermittent breaks from this blog. I try to announce it when I am, because falling off the face of the earth isn’t exactly courteous of me.

I’ve been getting a lot of asks asking if I’m alright and/or if there’s a reason why I’m kind of shutting myself off.

And here’s the thing. I know I don’t technically owe anyone an explanation for why I’ve been doing that. 

But I do want to give one. 

So think of this as more of an update I guess? Anyways, update under the cut. 

Warning: it’s long.

So, about why I’ve been taking breaks/why I haven’t been as interactive lately.

I’ve been rolling this around for a long time and trying to form the words to express all this.

There’s several major factors going on here, but the TLDR is I have an issue with feeling guilty about everything, even when I have no obligation to a person or situation, and it’s tanking my mental health.

1. The first, and most inconsequential, is I’m back to school. 

I’m a full time college student generally and have been since I started this sideblog. But as of this semester, I’ve officially transferred to a new university, which means school is taking up more of my time. 

I’m also in an honors program now, which means maintaining a 4.0 is—for financial reasons—more important than ever. I’m a bit stressed out, I’m not gonna lie! 

Also, the switch to remote has been a particularly rough one. I’m having a really hard time defining the boundary between “school and homework time” and downtime, which means anytime I spend not doing homework is really just spent with me feeling overwhelmed with guilt that I’m not trying to get ahead in class.

2. The world is kind of going through shit right now.

I’d be a liar if I said the state of the world isn’t killing my motivation. There’s a lot of shit going on, and it’s overwhelming. It feels like the second we slow down to catch a breath, a new tragedy hits. 

3. My depression is kind of killing me.

Like everyone, isolation is fucking with me. It has the fun side effect of piling onto my depression, so I’ve been really having a hard time finding the will to do anything, even things I enjoy. 

This also links to that feeling of guilt over not being productive: I want to do something I enjoy, but I can’t because I’m consumed with guilt over the fact I’m not meeting some perceived “productivity quota”, so instead of doing that work, or doing something I enjoy, I do nothing. I’ve been sleeping more these past few months than I ever have, but I’m still tired all the time.

4. Family matters.

I’m lucky in that I’m quarantined with my parents, so I have some interaction, but that also means that I am quarantined with my abusive father. As a closeted, nb gay mixed-asian, being forced to spend almost all my time with my violently racist, homophobic and transphobic white dad has been uh. not great for my mental health.

He also just finished his second round of treatments and we’re waiting on a prognosis to see if he’s cancer free or not, so I’ve been grappling with my extremely mixed feelings surrounding him (as well as the fact that I’ll likely be outed at some point and have to plan for an emergency exit when I live in a different state than the rest of my family and the majority of my friends in the middle of a pandemic) for the past six months or so.

5. I have been teetering dangerously close to full burnout for about five months now, and I think it’s finally hit.

Like I mentioned, I’m sleeping more than I ever have in my life. I’m tired all the time, and I keep getting hit with waves of just. really aggressive sadness and isolation. I’ve cried more in the past month than I have in uh. years.

Writing fanfic is a hobby. The problem is, my hobby overlaps with my major: I’m a creative writing major, so a lot of my creative energy has been going towards that.

Trying to balance both is a really tricky line to walk, and I just can’t do it right now. I’m struggling enough with class as it is, so content creation has fallen to the wayside, and I feel really shitty about that, especially since it’s something I enjoy.

I also felt like I always had to be “on”/accessible for this blog. (This is a personal problem that stems from growing up in a very service based culture, and one I’m working on, but it required time away and better boundaries on my part.)

6. Increased sense of alienation from the fandom at large.

This is kind of linked to 5.

Being able to keep anon on is really important to me, I know I personally don’t always feel comfortable sending asks to people off anon (I’ve joked before that even with users I’m genuinely friends with, I send asks on anon bc I don’t want them to feel like I’m waiting on an answer). 

I only answer about a quarter of the asks I receive (I won’t say a quarter of the asks people send me given tumblr’s tendency to eat asks). About a third of the asks are: asking me when a fic of mine will be updated/a wip will be posted, accusing me of something, flat out rude/hateful, or asking really invasive personal questions. 

I’ve gotten a few asking me to elaborate on specific traumas that I don’t think I’ve even mentioned on this blog, which is both violating and extremely entitled: as if someone else gets to decide if my trauma is legitimate enough or something.

There are also the asks that I either don’t have the energy to give the love they deserve and avoid because I feel guilty about that, or just flat out I don’t want to answer.

But deciding not to answer the asks sent in good faith makes me feel incredibly guilty and ashamed. This, again, is a personal problem, and one I’m working on.

I also feel my hyperfixation on opm beginning to fade.

But generally, I just feel less connected to the fandom. It’s mostly because my lack of spoons means I’m not reaching out to people as much, but there are other factors too. It sounds dramatic, but I’m still a little shaken by the spat I had with another opm blog a couple of months ago.

And generally? I don’t think the fandom is as active anymore anyways. Some small, self-absorbed part of me still blames myself for some of that, because the timing of the fandom dying down and fracturing came right after the dispute I mentioned.

7. I really want this account to stay associated with happy things, and I’m not feeling too happy right now.

This blog was one I made because I enjoyed opm and wanted to have fun with it. I still love opm, and I love some of the friends I’ve made on here, but I just. I don’t feel the love for the fandom as a whole right now, and given all the negative emotions/things I just laid out, I’m worried about it somehow rubbing off on this blog, both for me, and for the people who follow me.

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So yeah, that’s what’s going on on my end. I’m trying to stay positive and take care of myself, but I’m beyond overwhelmed, both for reasons related to, and entirely unrelated to this blog.

I want this blog to feel positive, and I worry this feels like I’m fishing for pity. That’s not it. I just need to get it off my chest, and kind of lay out where I am for you all, because I care about you.

Anyways, that’s all I got. I don’t know if I’ll delete this for now, but for the time it’s up, I’ll have it pinned to my blog. 

Love you all, and be gentle with yourself.

[hzcleski]

hello friends! you probs know who i am already but if not hello! i’m sam aaand this is my newish muse! i played hal here for a minute one time but i’ve decided to give him a huuuuge revamp so character info is under the cut! lmk if you wanna plot! messaging me @ellvie​ is probably easiest!

╰☆╮ DYLAN O'BRIEN ─ HAL ZALESKI identifies as CIS MALE and uses HE/HIM pronouns. they’re a FORMER OLYMPIAN/NHL PLAYER, and they’re only TWENTY THREE ! they’re said to be CAPABLE, but also TURBULENT. i guess that’s why they’re known as THE LEGACY in the tabloids.

quick disclaimer that this is a sideblog so i might post to the wrong account sometimes

other disclaimer a lot of my hockey information is from google ok

nathan harold zaleski jr was practically born with a pair of skates on, which makes sense considering his family is hockey royalty. his father is nathan harold zaleski sr, aka a legend and one of the biggest names in sports to this very day. olympic gold medalist several times over, beloved longtime defenseman for the toronto maple leafs, at the very peak of his career and married to a beautiful wealthy socialite when his only child was born.

listen...this is an au where the maple leafs are good or like, had one genuinely good star player in nathan sr. okay thanks for coming to my ted talk!

he’s got dual citizenship because he was born in canada even though he hasn’t lived there since he was ten, but his parents were us citizens, which doesn’t seem important but WAIT FOR IT

nathan jr, who would begin going by the nickname of hal early on in life, probably learned how to skate before he even learned how to walk because of course he did. his father’s intention was always to have another him. i mean for fuck’s sake they have the exact same name. hal’s purpose in life has never been in question, not by him or anyone who’s ever seen him play.

his natural talent for hockey became apparent from a very young age, which didn’t surprise anyone ofc. his father saw it as a sign and began pushing him even harder, hiring the very best trainers and coaches to help perfect his game while nathan sr focused on his own career.

except that he was running out of steam and fast. nothing happened like there was no huge scandal or career ending injury. nathan sr was just...getting old. fans were simply losing interest in him as newer and younger players joined the league and there was nothing he could really do about it except make sure his legacy lived on.

hal was ten years old when everything seemed to finally fall apart. his dad was hanging on to the very last threads of his career, let go from the maple leafs and almost certainly picked up by the new york rangers purely out of pity. meanwhile, hal’s parents finally divorced which he took almost alarmingly well for a ten year old, but it’s not like his parents were ever a shining example of a deep, loving marriage. they spent years settling the divorce, fighting back and forth while suing the shit out of each other across whole fuckin countries. lowkey they almost wound up being more famous for the legal drama than they were for hockey.

hal’s dad finally retired when he was twelve, won sole custody of him when he was fourteen, and pulled enough strings to get him a spot on the canadian hockey team dual citizenship! going to the 2010 vancouver winter olympics when he was just a teenager, making him one of the youngest players to ever compete in the games.

and canada won gold that year so hal was making history again in no time, being one of the youngest players to ever become a gold medalist in the winter olympics. now he didn’t actually see a lot of playing time that year. his skill was undeniable, but no one seemed to think that he was ready for the big time rush. tbh they probably weren’t wrong, but nevertheless his name and his win made an impression on everyone.

up until that point hal was homeschooled bc ofc education came second to hockey, but he always wanted to attend an actual school and he did! after his first olympics his dad finally sent him to the same private school in the city as all the other rich kids and it was...weird! he started in the middle of the year and was instantly an outsider among his classmates. everyone else had known each other all their lives so hal immediately at a disadvantage. it didn’t help that he’d never really...had a single friend before. tbh his peers were probably intimidated by him. he was just a high schooler and already an olympic gold medalist like...ofc no one wanted to be the person to go approach him and say hi.

played for canada again dual citizenship! at the 2014 winter olympics in sochi when he was eighteen and this time HE WAS THE STAR. absolutely at the top of his game. anyone who still thought that he was a joke before the games started shut up real quick when he won his second gold medal.

he got home and was eventually drafted into the nhl, so he sorta ditched school oops. technically he finished but like...barely since he went back to being tutored for the last few months.

several teams wanted him and tried to throw a shit ton of money at him, but hal settled on the new york rangers with a huge multi million dollar deal

he quickly stole hearts on and off the ice. whether fans admired his skill or followed him during the olympics or remembered his father, for one reason or another he was winning people over left and right. unsurprisingly he’d go on to win the 2014-2015 rookie of the year award, presented to him by the president of the nhl and everything.

he did not attend the 2018 winter olympics in pyeongchang as the nhl famously refused to release their players. hal himself was a major part of the uproar. the whole country of canada dual citizenship! practically threw a fucking fit bc the nhl was disqualifying their star player from winning them their third gold medal in a row and hey big surprise...canada didn’t win gold in 2018 :)

hal’s in the middle of his fifth i think? year of pro hockey rn and so far his career has been solid. his dad is really pushing him to sign with a “better team” and he has gotten offers, but he isn’t really interested. he likes playing for new york & he likes living in new york. maybe someday....maybeeee....but for right now he’s happy with where he is.

okay now for some fast facts!

literally always looks like he just got into a fight, probably bc he just did during his last game. is usually sporting some injury like a black eye or split lip or cut cheek. fortunately hasn’t completely given in to the hockey player stereotype by getting all of his fuckin teeth knocked out...yet

notice that i hardly mentioned his mom? that about sums up their relationship tbh. hal was practically raised by nannies and trainers. his mom always had some brunch or gala or public appearance she was far more invested in. literally she didn’t even really...want custody of him when she divorced his dad, but she claimed to just to be petty and give nathan sr an even more difficult time. yeah they kinda hate each other now and since hal has always been closer to his dad, his mom isn’t even really that interested in seeing him lmao. she’ll call like once a month and invites him to brunch if she happens to be in the city, but ngl hal probably hasn’t seen her in like...a couple years at the least. he’s not really broken up about it either.

right so...walking talking endless pit of daddy issues? you bet! just because hal prefers his dad doesn’t mean that they get along or that his dad is a good person. he still has his perfect public image and he isn’t complete garbage but...yeah their relationship is extremely toxic. he’s always been very harsh with hal, pushing him and pushing him to be the best bc nothing he accomplishes is ever good enough.

so what if he's won two olympic gold medals? so what if he was rookie of the year? so what if he’s considered one of the best and most beloved players in the nhl? he can do more, he can be even better. his dad is a constant voice in his head even though he’s always around anyway. he never misses a game or an opportunity to point out hal’s every flaw.

ofc as a result hal’s always been very hard on himself. every single day of his entire life has been spent basing his self worth off what his father thinks of him. it was awful for his self esteem bc no fucking duh.

HOWEVER. it isn’t public knowledge at this time, but as of right now? hal’s relationship with his father is falling apart faster and faster by the moment. they’re a ticking time bomb & it’s literally only a matter of time before they explode yikes!

fortunately hal could sorta sense the direction things were heading and did something about it. he finally moved out when the hockey season started back in october and he’s been feeling better ever since. like he has more control over his life even though his dad is still WAY too involved.

personality: a douchebag who means no harm, mostly because he's never really trying to be a jerk. tends to come across as a typical meathead jock for good reason bc that’s exactly who he is. in conversation he's usually very blunt and a little awkward bc he’s still learning how to socialize with others. hockey is basically his whole life so it’s all he knows how to talk about, which can either be endearing or annoying. a genius hockey player, but a ditz in every other area. very short - tempered and impulsive. always means well and wants the best for those he cares about, but might go about expressing those feelings in a weird way bc he was never taught how to properly deal with his emotions.

CONNECTIONS

family

step sibling he grew up with - sabrina miller

paternal cousins - warren daily and wren daily

cousin by marriage - rosalind cox

maternal cousin - open. his mom is polish for reference!

romantic

girlfriend - genesis iver

ex fiancée - ginny baker

ex on good terms - margo massey

ex who cheated on him - isla thompson

former fwb - amethyst armenta, open to more.

former toxic on / off relationship - reese monroe

exes, open to more.

hal has a ton of other exes and i don’t feel like listing them tbh all so i’m just gonna assume that y’all know who you are ok

platonic

best friend 5ever - marialena goldstein

confidant - open.

family friends - sullivan ramsey, open to more.

childhood friends - open to more.

close friends - open to more.

friends - mia kauri, chance kauri, theo cannon, angel almeida, open to more.

bickering friends - open to more.

workout buddy - open.

negative

on bad terms - kennedy drakos, jay weston, open to more.

these are just a few plot ideas! i’m most definitely open to other stuff so if you have any ideas please free to share! i think that’s enough from me soooo yeah! mssg me if you wanna plot & as always i’m super excited to write with everyone!

[skyahqunfollow]

WELL. it’s me again. i’m sam ( she / her, 21, est timezone ) and i also play parker! i’ve finally decided to bring in another muse and bob morley also avan jogia is the loml, so he we go! character info under the cut! please message me if you’d like to plot because i would absolutely love that!

FIRST. let’s just. let’s get it out of the way right here and now that this is a sideblog so i will be messing up and posting shit to the wrong accounts sometimes bc i’m dumb. let’s all just. take a moment to laugh abt it now so we don’t have to do it later. k cool we can carry on now

「 AVAN JOGIA, CISMALE, 26, PARAMORE. 」┈ did you read that latest viral gossip issue on SKY ARAO? he is the DRUMMER in BETTER NOW, one of my favorite ALT ROCK groups. they’ve been releasing music for FOUR YEARS now, but viral gossip has only been talking about them for the last TWO YEARS. get this, i think i heard HE’S THE ILLEGITIMATE CHILD OF A WEALTHY PUBLIC FIGURE. they’re known as the CALIGINOUS of the music industry, since they have a rep for being TRENCHANT but SELF - SERVING, but who knows. maybe that will change once they become #1.

born and raised deep in the swamplands of louisiana, sky’s only parent was a single mom who was nowhere near old enough or prepared enough to have a kid, tbh. she did sincerely try to take care of him at first but she had a drug problem that got very out of hand very quickly. sky was barely even five years old when the state stepped in and had him placed into the foster system.

has the slightest of southern accents but if you point it out he will deny it

will occasionally speak a little cajun french though & some tagalog bc we stan a multilingual grump

spent the rest of his childhood without a family or stable home. he was shuffled all over the state — placed in group homes, orphanages, and many different foster homes which were unfortunately very neglectful and unsafe sometimes. by his preteen years he was practically living on the streets of new orleans, survival instincts sharply honed.

he learns fast and had very quickly become an expert thief, pickpocket, and con artist, but that doesn’t mean he never got caught. he did. a lot. like his juvie record is longer than your arm

somehow still found time to experience your typical teenage first love resulting in unbearable heartbreak with a girl who lived on the streets and ran scams just like him. it was a bonnie & clyde together forever type of romance until it wasn’t cause the girl shockingly ditched him while he was in serious trouble in order to save her own skin and he never saw her again

not long after that he turned seventeen AND THEN SOMETHING SUPER IMPORTANT HAPPENED. by that i mean he was sought out by his social worker for once who then proceeded to 1) tell him his mother had died and 2) take him away to california because apparently there was a family out there who wanted to adopt him! and they did!

his new family wasn’t actually new though because the man who adopted him was his biological father. he and sky’s mother were lovers for the brief time wherein sky’s father was visiting louisiana in his late teen years but he left before ever finding out that he was going to have a child. he’d never stopped thinking about sky’s mom, however, so he’d do some digging every few years. of course by the time he finally did find her it was because of an obituary and then he’d heard about sky and just knew that this was his kid.

sky learned about all of this right away upon meeting his father and to say he didn’t take it very well is a MASSIVE UNDERSTATEMENT TBH. he was furious. after all, his father had a whole new family! a wife and kids and a very prestigious job AND OH YEAH MILLIONS OF DOLLARS TO HIS NAME BUT HE’D NEVER HELPED SKY EVEN ONCE. it didn’t really help that he was clearly trying to make up for his absence in sky’s life by being present now that he had the opportunity and anyway, it turned out he had ulterior motives for that.

basically, a large part of his dad’s wealth was in fact inherited through the family. they’re all old money posh so finding out that the next family patriarch had an unknown son who was technically his firstborn was terrifying. blood or not, they couldn’t just hand centuries of traditions and carefully cultivated wealth over to a high school dropout who didn’t know how to behave and simply couldn’t be trusted with their unblemished legacy. so, sky’s dad was just keeping him close while he talked to lawyers about whether or not sky had any legitimate claim to anything owned by his family and of course, the sneaky street smart kid he is, sky figured out what was going on pretty quickly and bolted back to where he was most comfortable — the streets.

he was still seventeen at the time and he’s lived in los angeles ever since but hasn’t had any contact with his father or seen a single penny of that family money

so yeah he’s illegitimate, no actual rights to their fortune

lived on the streets in los angeles for a while, but with a little hard work ( and a lot of thievery and conning ) he was eventually able to get himself a little apartment while working various jobs

nothing really stuck until better now, but when he first joined the band he’d literally never played the drums before. ever. not once before in his entire life. did he lie anyway and say that he was a Drumming Expert™ because he’d get paid to play gigs with them and happened to be broke af at the time? why yes he absolutely did

since then they switched lead singers with sweets having joined the band four years ago and they’ve released one album that was lit af! they’re currently in the middle of putting together their second album and since sky’s found out that he actually really likes drumming things have been pretty good for him. he lives in a nice apartment and finally has enough money to get by without conning or stealing. he still doesn’t really know how to deal with being a celebrity but tbh he actually adores the attention? he loves having fans? people in his life who seem to genuinely love and care about him? what is this new and exciting concept he’s confused but happy nonetheless

never ever talks about his dad / family though

as usual i was Extra™ and went off with the backstory stuff, but we can move onto personality now!

by default assumes that literally everyone he meets is going to betray him. is truly on some x files trust no one shit

except he does actually genuinely trust a few people for now i’m going to say just his bandmates since i imagine they’ve been through a lot together at this point but that’s open to expansion

street smart, charming, sometimes flirtatious, witty, perspicacious, determined, tough, mistrustful, surly, reckless, uncouth, self-serving af sometimes

all of sky’s save his own skin above all else stuff? kind of a lie. he’s got a soft spot for people in need of help and though he might do it begrudgingly, sky often will put others before him.

the other personality traits i listed are pretty spot on though

street smart af but book smart? not so much. he picks up on things quickly but he’s still pretty dumb lmao and will in fact say some stupid shit at least 2932589843794836708 times a day

however he’s not always much of a talker. he’s gotta be in the mood bc if he isn’t and you try to have a convo with him he’s gonna be even more standoffish than usual

when he does talk though, sky is often sarcastic, pessimistic, and surly

he’s permanently grumpy

except he also has many soft spots that are very easy to find

stale cinnamon roll, been in this world too long, too cynical w/ a dash of sinnamon roll

legend has it he’s never smiled ever not even once

he’s usually a cute little ray of sunshine around fans though bc they just?? make him so happy?? it makes him so happy to know that people love better now and that they LOVE HIM OK

though if ever called out for smiling he would immediately deny

will absolutely throw hands if he has to

lowkey a total mom friend who thrives on being a total mom friend but acts like he hates it? like he’ll grumble at you to bring your jacket bc it might be cold out and he’ll seem like he’s doing it very begrudgingly but on the inside? HE IS THRIVING IN THAT MOMENT

TL;DR - louisiana born street smart drummer for better now with an accent he denies having and an extremely rich family who wants nothing to do with him but it wasn’t like he ever cared anyway. charming and flirtatious but also can be grumpy and pessimistic. expert pickpocket and con artist. has no idea how to handle being a celebrity but he secretly enjoys the love he gets from fans. never smiles, loves whiskey, probably takes way too many naps on his couch. secret mom friend. has trouble trusting and allowing himself to get close to anyone & everyone.

finally…it’s over. if you actually read this far then i applaud you. i don’t have any specific plots in mind EXCEPT FOR POTENTIALLY HALF SIBLINGS RELATED THROUGH HIS FATHER SO PLEASE MESSAGE ME IF YOU’RE INTERESTED BC Y E S but if you know me then you know i want all the plots so feel free to message me and we can definitely work something out! as usual i’m super excited to write with you folks!

[meepface]

boyyyyy am i sad please ignore this while i try n distract myself 

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

definitely

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?

taken

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?

i’d say thank u i appreciate being complimented

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?

no but i told my first boyfriend that guess who’s cringin

5: Are you interested in anyone right now? 

yeah my gf

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?

idk i kind of want to take an entire week off but i have classes n stuff. i hope i get to see my friends some time next weekend i really miss hanging out with my friend Kate

7: Do you want to be single?

nah i love my gf a lot

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?

i stayed in and watched that stanford prison experiment movie w my family which was really cool

9: How late did you stay up last night?

1 am 

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? 

i realized i like my gf a lot like senior year of hs and look at us now

11: Last three things you had to drink?

water x 3 im boring

12: Have you pretended to like someone?

did you mean: my straight phase

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?

absolutely not

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?

yes

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?

uhh i think i move on kinda quick but also no relationship or crush i had before my current gf were very serious so idk

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?

no

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? 

i was in the backseat of my car w my gf parked at this park and my mom drove by us and she didn’t see us or realize it was my car but man was that awkward

18: Hold hands with anyone this week? 

yeah

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? 

yeah

20: What would you name your future daughter?

uhhh idk i like the name grace a lot

21: Do you miss anyone?

yeah

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?

no

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed

not my last one but i did kiss my gf on her bed today

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

yeah

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?

yes that’s why i get scared to tell people when i’m mad at them bc i always cry about it

26: Who did you last see in person?

my brother, we were watching videos from the weird side of youtube just a min ago

27: Are you listening to music right now?

no i’m in a weird mood where even listening to music seems overwhelming rn. it’s been a day

28: What is something you currently want right now?

to go to sleep. i finally get a day to sleep in tomorrow and i’m takin the whole damn day off i’m tired

29: What is the last thing you said out loud?

“why did peppa pig’s parents murder their kids”, in reference to a very weird youtube video my brother and i watched

30: How is your heart lately?

not to be edgy but it’s been so sad sometimes i get chest pain just from bein sad

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? 

sometimes ya

32: Are you wearing socks?

no

33: What do people call you?

elyse, mom, dad, elly, that one ginger, my gay friend

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? 

she just texted me

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?

a whooooole lot of em

36: Who did you last share a bed with?

my gf and i laid in her bed for a while today

37: Did you do something good today?

tried to

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?

i hugged my dad this morning

39: Do you get stressed out easily?

yeah

40: Did you sing today?

no

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

yeah all the time

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?

my gf or my friend stein or my friend joe or my friend elissa sometimes my brother or my mom or i just vent here or on my sideblog

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?

no

44: What are you listening to right now?

my brother playing his new batman game in the other room

45: What is wrong with you right now?

got my hopes up again

46: What is on your wrists right now?

my tattoos

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing

forever 21 probably

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

hot chocolate

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?

no

50: Are you a good artist?

nah i’m alright

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?

can be

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?

idk things were just as bad then i’m pretty sure. make it 7 and then yeah

53: Ever been on a golf cart?

yes

54: Do you have trust issues?

i’ve sorta started to develop them. used to trust too easily and now all that does to me is make me wanna die

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?

i stayed up until like 3:30 AM skyping some girl i liked a long time ago, i don’t talk on the phone tbh

56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?

i have some angsty band shirts and some chokers my emo friend bought me

57: Do you use chapstick?

every day. gotta love that burt’s bees

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?

yes

59: Do you have a little sister?

no a lil brother

60: Have you ever been to New York?

yes i was just there for my second time before Christmas last year !! it was nice but v cold. also i was a lot more hyped about it the first time i went, bc the second time i was a lil :/ the whole time. maybe i was just bein moody

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

yes

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?

yes

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?

crying

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? 

no

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

yes

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?

yes

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?

yes

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

tonight i’m in a Mood and i wanna be alone but sleepin by my gf is nice

69: Will next Friday be a good one?

i have the day off so i am hoping so

70: Are you happy?

honestly not to sound emo again but i’ve been the least happy i have ever been the last six or so months

[frenchibi]

Tagged~

I got tagged 3 times in the last couple days – in an attempt to not spam you with separate posts, I’m just gonna put everything here under the cut :D Hope you don’t mind ^^

Thanks to @lalikaa, @anyadisee and @ghost--fox, you guys know I love these games :D

1) (thank you Lisa for this one!!)

Last Movie I Watched: Moana, for the third time (not sorry) – god, I LOVE this movie

Last song I listened to: Well… technically? “House of the Rising Sun”, played by my little brother on his new guitar (and sung by me xD)

Last book I read: I actually… haven’t finished a book in a while D: I did recently re-read one of my favorites though: The Hours by Michael Cunningham. It’s… incredible, in my opinion, for stylistic reasons :o

Last thing I ate: Popcorn at the movies :D I basically got called a heathen for liking salty popcorn… it’s not that I dislike sweet popcorn ok I just prefer it salty? (probably bc I can relate more ayyyy)

If I could be anywhere in the world I would be in: …here, actually. I like where I live, I like being close to my family and most of my friends? Although I’d love to travel back to London and to Dublin again :D And I’ve never been to any eastern countries, there’s a lot I’d love to see!!

Where would I want to time travel to: THE FUTURE :o

Fictional characters I would hang out with for a day: Uhmmmm do you want that list alphabetically, chronologically or in order of importance…? xD

Edward Elric (and WINRY?? RIZA?? OLIVIER???) from FMA The Seijoh third-years from Haikyuu Yato (and Hiyori :D) from Noragami The entire cast of Barakamon tbqh The entire cast of Avatar (both AtlA and Korra ahhh) THE CAST OF HOWL’S MOVING CASTLE please oh my god I love all of them so much, Howl is wonderful and CALCIFER IS SO PRECIOUS …the Ouran High School Host Club. Celty from Durarara (but only if she lets me sit behind her on her motorcycle) Soul from Soul Eater Hitsugaya and Matsumoto from Bleach (whooo, an old fandom making an appearance again!) Honestly I’d love to have Akane from Ranma ½ teach me to fight :D

2) Aya tagged me to post my 9 favorite albums of all time – which is really difficult?? Have a couple that I enjoy a lot these days:

1. Beneath the Skin by Of Monsters and Men

2. The 2nd Law by Muse

3. Oh Wonder by Oh Wonder

4. Smoke and Mirrors by Imagine Dragons

5. Symphony Soldier by The Cab

6. Storms by Hedley

7. Tyr by Black Sabbath (there’s my childhood coming through xDD I’m a mess of influences)

8. The Undertale Soundtrack

9. Hamilton: An American Musical by Lin-Manuel Miranda

(10. American Beauty/American Psycho by Fall Out Boy)

(11. Future Hearts by All Time Low)

(12. Death of a Bachelor by Panic! At the Disco)

(I’ll stop now sorry)

 3) Aaaand the last tag is from Mari, thank youuu!

11 facts about me:

1. I recently started keeping a bullet journal and it’s been a wonderful creative outlet?? I don’t know why I didn’t think of doing it earlier.

2. I’m obsessed with scarves and sweaters and TEA. I love winter and fall for these reasons, mainly :’D

3. I have entirely too many pieces of jewelry. I had a phase where I bought a LOT, and even though it’s gotten less, I’m still pretty awful at restraining myself. I own an estimated amount of 200 pairs of earrings and 50 necklaces? Whoops. There’s only very few pieces that are actually valuable though.

4. I’m the oldest of four, but my mom got remarried two years ago so now I have an older stepsister and a nephew who is the same age as my younger sister xD (...I am also the shortest. Out of all of us. Even my tiny grandma is taller than me ^^)

5. I have so many allergies. ALL the allergies. Don’t buy me flowers. Don’t introduce me to your pets. Don’t take me out to dinner unless you want to kill me.

6. I’ve had this blog for over 3 years (maybe even 4 now?) and I started out as a Supernatural blog… if you scroll back far enough in my posts… eh.

7. I love to collab on projects. Hmu. I know I’m terrible but please scream with me. I’ll draw, I’ll write – heck, I’ll even sing if you want me to :D

8. I’ve been wanting to make sideblogs for literal AGES but I’m not sure if I could maintain them and idk if people would be interested (in my original writing, in my art, in my singing) – also I really want to clean up the multifandom mess that is my blog atm :’)

9. The only sport I’m really good at is skiing, and I’ve been doing it since I could walk. I was a skiing instructor for three years before the school I worked for had to close. I have very few friends who know how to ski, so I don’t get to go often bc it’s kind of dangerous to go alone – which is why I always completely freak out when I DO get to go :DD

10. I was having a bad day today because I lost my ID and my car wouldn’t start – the cold drained the battery. These kinds of things tend to really get to me, which is super annoying :< And now of course I have to deal with fixing these problems :’)

11. I already answered one of these before, you can find it here. I seem to be mentioning the allergy thing a lot. Huh.

Aand that’s it! I guess I should tag a couple of people - please choose one or two or all of the above, if you want, or none at all :D Whichever you prefer xD (also obviously @lalikaa, @anyadisee and @ghost--fox you’re welcome to do the ones you haven’t done yet :D)

@missellaineous, @cheatos, @cheetahleopard, @who-broke-my-dog, @chxngsey, @heirxx, @astersandstuffs, @snowflakers, @warmybones :D

(also anyone else that feels like it?? Please feel free to say I tagged you~)

[imtheperfectvoid]

oh worm??? somebody else has danganronpa salt to share???? gimme ALL OF THEM! unleashthat shit!!

Holy Shit Anon - Okay fuck it Let’s get Salty about Danganronpa

Posting the Answers under a Read More! (Spoilers are Ahead for Those who Haven’t finished V3)

Salty Ask List

1. What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?

I mean, I can Get Most of The Popular Ones, even if I Don’t personally Ship Them, but like. There’s a Few Smaller Ships that Some People Love that I can’t Quite Understand - like, Apparently Souda/Mahiru is Kinda Popular in the Japanese Fandom?? I don’t Understand that One At All.

2, Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?

S*UDAM. Fucking S*UDAM. I just. I Cannot see them Romantically at All - and I Adore the Thought of Them as Brothers (either Friends or Literal Adoptive Brothers - shoutout to @ultimatesoulfriend​ and Our Soul Brothers AU). Some other OTPs that I Prefer as BrOTPs: Akane/Nekomaru, Sonia/Gundham, Sonia/Souda, Shuichi/Kaede, Naegi/Kirigiri, Komaeda/Hajime, Fuyuhiko/Peko, Kiyo/Angie, and Probably some Others that I’m just Not Thinking of At the Moment

3. Have you ever unfollowed someone over a fandom opinion?

Not yet, Thankfully! I Manage to Follow only Good People who don’t Condone Pedophilia or Incest or Abusive Ships!

4. Do you have a NoTP in your fandom? Are they a popular OTP?

Once again, S*udam. BrOTP Only for This Guy. I Also Absolutely Hate T*gafuka, Any Junko Ship (esp Her with Komaeda or Mukuro), Any Haiji Ship (like Seriously Guys - Dude’s a Literal Pedophile), Mikan/Hiyoko, Kiyo and His Sister, Kiyo/Angie, All Those are Bad to Me.

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?

K*mahina and Sai*uma are the Only Two coming to Mind - they were Fine at First, but The Fandom is just So Overly Saturated in Content for Those Ships and It’s. Exhausting. I was Never a Big Shipper of Either of Them to Begin With, but The Oversaturation just Kinda Killed any Potential for Me.

6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?

I’ve never Gone from Hating a Ship to loving It - usually it’s more of Ships that I Never really Considered or Thought Much of until I Saw Content for Them and Fell in Love With Afterwards. Irumatsu’s a Good Example of That, as is Goshi, Amaguuji, Nekodam, and Several Others.

7. Is there anything you used to like but can’t stand now?

See Answer to #5

8. Have you received anon hate? What about?

Thankfully, again, No - but I Also don’t really Get Involved with Discourse Much so I Tend to Dodge getting Anon Hate bc of That

9. Most disliked character(s)? Why?

Hiyoko’s Mean without being Funny Most of the Time, Haiji is a Literal Pedophile and a Major Dick, Tsumugi is Too Dull (even if That is Her whole Schtick), and I Cannot Bring Myself to Care for Most of the DR3 Characters aside from Juzo and Seiko - Chisa’s Okay too, but Kinda Meh for the most Part for Me.

10. Most disliked arc game? Why?

Ultra Despair Girls. All the New Characters were Either the Actual Worst or Simply Meh aside from Komaru and Hiroko, we got Zero Fucking Show of Any of the Remnants of Despair aside from Komaeda and Some Izuru at the End, and it Just felt Lacking Overall. The Best Things that came Out of DR:AE were Komaru and a Much Better Toko.

11. Is there an unpopular character you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why?

I feel like Ryoma is Vastly Underappreciated in the Fandom - Love that Dude to Hell and Back. Idk how Popular/Unpopular Hagakure is In the Fandom, really, but I really Enjoy him A Lot and Not many People Seem to Talk about Him (aside from Really Tired and Overdone Weed Jokes).

12. Is there an unpopular arc that you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why?

I’ll take Arc to mean Trial this Time, so I’ll Say that I Honestly Enjoyed playing through Chapter 6 of V3 - regardless of My Opinions on The Trial and the Twist of V3 Itself, the Actual Playing of Chapter 6 was Pretty Fun and I Enjoyed Piecing everything Together during That Chapter and Exploring the School Fully and Whatnot.

13. Unpopular opinion about XXX character?

Idk if it’s Necessarily Unpopular, but I Don’t really See the Appeal in Rantaro? Like, He’s Cool and A Good Dude, but People Seem to Love Him and I don’t? Really get Why? He’s just kind of. A Dude. he’s Nice and Chill and Definitely Pretty but like. That’s about It.

14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom?

Again, not Necessarily Unpopular, but I Think there’s More Good to the Fandom than People Realize - Granted, the Shit that’s Bad is Baaaaad, but There’s a Lot of Good in this Fandom Beneath all the Bullshit and the Drama and the Weird, Weird Shit.

15. Unpopular opinion about the manga/show?

I still Stand By my Opinion that the V3 Ending wasn’t As Bad as People are Making it Out to Be. Yeah, it Wasn’t Stellar by Any Means and it Could’ve been a Lot Cooler and there were Some Notable Plot Holes and Whatnot but! Despite All That! I still Feel like, now that I’ve Sat on It and Really Let myself Absorb the Ending and Process it, I Still Enjoyed it, for What it was Worth.

16. If you could change anything in the show games, what would you change?

DR1: Only Big Thing I’d wanna Change is Hagakure should’ve Died in Taka’s Place - i Love Hiro, but I love Taka, Too, and He was Really Deserving of DevelopmentDR2: Sonia Should’ve been the One to Murder Mechamaru. like, Again, I Love Sonia, but Having Her as the Murderer would’ve left So Much Room for Her, Souda, and Even Gundham to Have some Amazing Development form the Experience, Especially Souda - He could’ve Gotten the Fuck Over himself and Not been So One-Note in his Characterization and He could’ve Learned to be Fucking Respectful of Women and Possibly even Befriended Gundham in the Process!! Plus Having Sonia as a Murderer to Save Everyone?? Amazing.DR:AE: just. Delete this Game. That’s the ChangeDRV3: Give Korekiyo Shinguuji the Goddamn Writing he Should’ve been Given. God that Dude had So Much Potential for an Interesting Motive or a Cool Twist or Even a Sad Breakdown where His Amoral Views are Suddenly Turned on their Head and he Shows that He’s Incredibly Afraid of Death - but What did We Get? Weird Creepy Incest Time. Actually, better Yet, just. Get Rid of All the Weird Incest Stuff in V3 in General. it’s All Bad and Weird.

17. Instead of XYZ happening, I would have made ABC happen…

Okay so Now that I’m Thinking about Kiyo’s Godawful Writing, I wanna Talk about How I would’ve Loved to See his Twist involve Him Dealing with his Amorality and his Indifference to Life and Death. like, Imagine if He Broke Down during the Trial and said He’d Killed Angie because it Turned Out he was Actually Afraid of Dealing with the Spirit World, because He’s Very Spiritual and Doesn’t Want to Anger them or Upset them  - especially since His Sister (whom He Wasn’t Incestuous With - Not on My Watch) is Now a Spirit and he Feels that Trying to Resurrect the Dead is Desecrating the Balance of Life and Death. Hell, maybe He even Felt Envious that They could Supposedly Bring back a Dead Classmate here but he Could Never bring his Sister Back, so he Lashed Out at Angie in a Rage. and Maybe Tenko Witnessed him do it and He had to Kill Her to Keep her Quiet or Something (get Rid of the Weird Seesaw Nonsense).

idk I just. Really Really Liked Kiyo’s Character a Lot up until That Point and it was a Major Letdown that I’m Still not Over.

18. Does not shipping something ‘popular’ mean you’re in denial and/or biased?

I mean, When it Comes to Shipping, if you Don’t Ship Something, it’s Not because you’re “in Denial” of Anything or Necessarily Biased (and Shit, even if You are, then What’s the Problem? I’m Biased against S*udam because I Have an AU where they’re Brothers and I Like that Way More than Putting them Together Romantically). Not Shipping something that’s Popular is Whatever - Ship what you Want, so Long as it Isn’t Abusive or Incestuous or Pedophilic or Anything like that.

19. What is the one thing you hate most about your fandom?

the Fucking. People who are Just Mass-Producing Discourse All the Time. like, Everybody who Attacks People and Sets up Literal Entire Sideblogs Dedicated to Hating Certain Characters. How do you Have the Energy and the Care to Be at People’s Throats all the Time, Y’all? That’s Insane to Me. and Especially Shoutout to that One DR Confessions Blog that’s Always in the Tags and is Practically Nothing but Discourse - That’s the Worst Offender that I can Think Of at the Moment.

20. What is the purest ship in the fandom?

Ohhh man, That’s Gotta be Goshi. I Cannot think of A Purer Ship than Those Two and it Warms my Gay Lil Heart to Pieces.

21. What are your thoughts on crack ships?

I Think they’re Fun! Like, Daiyakure? Good Shit! Fuyusouda? Excellent!! Soniakane? Stellar!!! A Lot of my Ships Personally are Kinda Crack-y, so I Thrive on That Shit

22. Popular character you hate?

I don’t Hate Him, but I’m Pretty darn Tired of Seeing Ouma Everywhere.

23. Unpopular character you love?

Again, Ryoma Hoshi is A Good Boy and Deserves So much more Love

24. Would you recommend XXX to a friend? Why or why not?

I Would - and Have - Absolutely Rec DR to a Friend! It’s a Fun Series with Engaging Story, Fun Characters, Good Mysteries, and A Lot to Love!

25. How would you end XXX/Would you change the ending of XXX?

I’d Definitely Change the End of V3, but I Really haven’t Thought Extensively on How I’d wanna Change it. All I know is, If they Really Wanna Keep the Ending they Have, then Kiibo Really should’ve been The Protag and Not Kaede or Shuichi.

26. Most shippable character?

my OC Jato lmao I ship Hajime with. So Many People. like, He’s so Easy to Pair with People and they’re All so Good!! Another Close Contender would be Gundham or Souda bc I Like Them with Several People, Too (but Never Each Other)

27. Least shippable character?

Hifumi, Teruteru, or Ouma - I don’t Ship Any of Them with Anyone for Various Reasons

[survivorsolomonislands]

Rites Of Passage Jury

Allie: Out of all of the people that have been voted out this season, you leaving was one of the saddest for me. At the beginning of this season, I had no experience with ORGs whatsoever and I was so nervous, and you really took me under your wing and made me feel welcomed! Thank you for bonding with me over kpop and being so bright and wonderful. I hope that your musical went well and that your crush ended up liking you back!

Aromal: You were my winner pick after the first 3 days of the game. You were social af and everyone at Makira 1.0 seemed to rally around you. Hope your thing with your crush is going okay :O !

Mitchell: We're all in this together and all but i'm sorry when i found out that you played my fake idol I laughed so hard i cried. It was fun getting to know you but that moment was pure joy to me. Miss u

Willow: JACOB! Holy shit, let me first start out by saying that I literally love you so much! You were one of my first ally’s over on OG Makira. I remember on night 1 I was really confused how orgs worked and you explained a lot of stuff to me, like I didn’t even know how to screenshot stuff. I remember during the paint ball challenge all of the newbies did a tribe call so that we could focus, but we ended up flopping lmao. I remember you ended up getting stressed and accidentally resting your head on the keyboard and pressing send too early! I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you during the 2nd swap, but I still love you and hope that we can be friends once this is done. 

Allie: Your submission for the music video challenge was honestly the funniest and cutest thing in the whole entire world. Thank you for always being so pleasant to talk to and I hope you thesis is/ended up going well! You going home on accident was honestly tragic, but you seem super duper crazy smart and I know that you will succeed no matter where life takes you.

Aromal: That was the craziest unluckiest most unfortunate vote out I've ever seen tbh. Mitchell loves you so you're probably a great person but yeah you definitely deserved to get further.

Mitchell: DANA MY ROCK! I miss you so much and I'm sorry I had to do you like that. WE ALMOST HAD EM!!! And I so fucking wish you were still here instead of all these FAKES!! For real, you were my closest ally and my best friend from this experience, and I really wish we could've gotten to spend more time together as the true icons of this game. But I don't miss you enough to get voted out next so ! Distance makes the heart grow fonder !

Willow: Dana, you were a really fun person to talk to, and the name Dana is cool! I remember your video for the music video challenge was so good, and the “bye bitch” sign was hilarious. You were a really awesome person overall, and it sucks that you were voted out with only 1 vote since Luca had fallen asleep and didn’t get a chance to change it. 

Allie: As soon as we got on the same tribe together, you were completely down to work with me, so thank you for being so welcoming and fun to talk to! I met you really close to finals week and it was kind of de-stressing to be able to talk to someone about mac and cheese. That being said, you were also kind of the victim of a game move of mine, so I do feel like I need to say that it was purely a game move, and not because of your personality! I’m sorry that I wasn’t always completely honest with you and I only have the best wishes for you.

Aromal: Loved allying with you for 4 rounds! I really enjoyed your dry wit and I hope you get another chance because you were a solid player.

Mitchell: Matt, at times I feel like being close with you hurt my game more than it helped, but I got nothing but love for you, kid. I hate that you got done dirty the way you did and I hope Ponderosa is treating you well. I can't wait to catch up with you when this is all done!

Willow: Matt, the first memory I have is that during the 2nd swap you felt a little on the outs but then Mitchell recommended you to me. I thought overall you were a pretty chill person, and you had good survivor opinions. I remember you were asking for advice on what tumblr url to use, and you said ciriesuschrist was one of your options, which was crazy, bc that used to be my old url for my survivor sideblog. Sometimes you could be kinda shady, but I’m sorry for lying to you about you being voted off, bc I really didn’t wanna flip. 

Y’know, being in my first main org, the competition was stiff, and I thought I was smarter than everyone else, and it was my own doing. I guess being voted biggest hero, everyone’s best friend and hands down playing the best game didn’t do me any good. At the end of the day, I can only blame myself :/

Allie: I completely mean this when I say it: I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone quite like you. You are so funny and besides my dad, you’re also the only frat boy I’ve ever talked to lol. I really admired how hard you played, and how enthusiastic you were about the rookies vs. vets theme. I hope that you are that passionate and determined in all areas of your life! Also, thank you for being one of the first people to see me as a threat in this game – whether it was accurate or not, it was certainly flattering for me, so I really appreciate it!

Aromal: King Johnny <3 You were easily one of the best players of the season and I'm sorry we had to blindside you the way we did but if we hadn't taken you out then, you would've won :(

Mitchell: Bro, we coulda been a LEGENDARY pair in this game but I just couldn't trust you. Hope you're not too mad about all this and let's light up some time and get past all this. I really did love being on a tribe with you because we clicked so well, but I just could never tell if that clicking was gonna save me in this game or screw me, so I went to screwing you first! People can attest to how excited I was to meet you, and deadass bro, you lived up to it. Catch you soon. You really are unlike every other frat boy out there.

Willow: JOHNNY! Honestly at the start of this game based off your intro I thought you were gonna be a stereotypical annoying frat boy, but holy shit, I was so very wrong! You were honestly one of the most interesting people out here, like whenever we would talk it never got boring! I remember you were one of my first friends in this game, and I hope we can remain friends once this is all over. You were a really big threat though because everyone liked you and you were in control of the nuTemoana alliance and the “all newbie alliance”. Even though I love you it was pretty satisfying blindsiding you 4-3-2-1. 

Allie: First off, I would like to apologise for lying to you for like thirty minutes straight that one time. That wasn’t cool, but I was in panic mode and for some reason I thought that was the best solution. That being said, I think you were probably one of the biggest personalities cast in this game and I really enjoyed all the funny little things you would put in the main chats! I hope everything between you and Snapchat boy works out all romantic and such.

Aromal: WINNER OF SURVIVOR SUMBAWA WINNER OF SURVIVOR MOROCCO WINNER OF SURVIVOR RESURRECTION WINNER OF SURVIVOR IDALIA

Mitchell: The fact that you gave the flare to this straight white boy was the most touching moment of this game and I thank u for adding some... flair to my game

Willow: I know I’ve said this so many times but Zakriah is one of the coolest names! I remember after the first tribe swap, I was kinda scared of you for some reason, but then you ended up being a super awesome person. You were always really funny, and a good person to talk to. It sucks that you aren’t here right now since you were a part of the nuMakira alliance, and you were the one who originally had the flare. I’m really hoping we can be friends once this game is done. 

Allie: You get the longest message by far because you’re my favorite person in this game, and also one of my favorite people in my life. Thank you for suggesting to me that I sign up for this, because it’s honestly been so fun! We go way back to when I was a nervous wreck who couldn’t play clarinet and didn’t have any friends, and I really appreciate that you took me under your wing and talked to me about music and gossip. You turned what could have been a pretty awful experience in band into such a positive and amazing one for me, so thank you for sticking with me through thick and thin between all of the stupid, petty drama of highschool. That being said, you have been one of the best parts of college for me as well, and I’m so blessed that I’ve gotten to share so much of my life with you thus far. Even though we won’t be living together next year (a tragedy, tbh), I know I’ll see you lots and that we’ll have so many new and crazy adventures. That being said, you getting voted out was the saddest moment of this game for me, and I am really sorry things worked out the way they did. If I could go back in time and change it, I would. Sorry you got stuck with a friend who had no idea what she was doing in this game. Next time, let’s try not to have our premade exposed! You’re one of my best friends and I love you lots, see you soon! <3

Aromal: We didn't talk, like at all but you were a huge player in the season and your vote out changed the entire course of the game. 

Mitchell: Miss Lexi, I would've loved to work with you in this game bc you got a real cool job but you didn't talk to me that much and our interests never really lined up so that sucked! At least you got to go out voting for the truest icon of this game !

Willow: To be completely honest you didn’t put in a whole lot of effort to talk to me. Every once and a while I’d text you and after a while you’d just sorta stop replying, so I never got to know you very well. But I do remember competing against you in the gross food challenge, and you did so well, like I admire anyone who even attempts it bc it was so gross! 

Allie: Even though we were in this game together for quite awhile, you were one of the people I talked to the least, and I regret not getting to know you better! I admire you for being so good at the numbers challenge, and at all of the other challenges to be honest. In my opinion, you were one of the biggest comp beasts of the season. Thank you for being completely honest with me whenever we talked game, and I hope that you continue to kill it in your future endeavors like you killed it in those comps!

Aromal: Unfortunately we kinda lost contact after Ulawa, but honestly though working with you to blindside Monty was easily one of my favorite moments of the season. 

Mitchell: L.A., I was really excited to meet the icon that was you ever since the paintball challenge, and I loved connecting with you over things like Kingdom Hearts... but I also just couldn't trust you and it's unfortunate because I think we're really similar people with really similar interests. I hope everything is going well and I know you're gonna end up doing something great!

Willow: Aww LA, ily! You were also one of my first friends in this game, it was cool bc at the start neither of us really knew what was going on since neither of us had played in an org before. I enjoyed talking about video games with you, and you were a really fun person to talk to. You were always pretty good at challenges, like wow go LA! Even though we never really worked together at all after the merge I’m hoping we can be friends once this is all done. 

Allie: I know that by voting you out, you thought we were handing the season to Mitchell. But honestly, by not voting you out, I feel like we all would have handing this season to you. You were one of the last people in this season that I had the opportunity to talk to (I’m p sure we couldn’t talk until One World), and that’s a shame because you are so very nice, from how you talk to others to even your job, and that’s something I really look up to. Congrats on making it to single digits!

Aromal: The Jay Starret of the season. I definitely understand why you felt the way you did when you got voted out, but you were a huuuuuge threat too and you could've easily gone on an immunity run. Still played an awesome game though.Aromal:

Mitchell: We battled it out but at the end of the day did I want to be friends with RTP or be the last vet standing... Seriously though, you blew my game up so hard that my ass woulda been grass if not for my sea otter idol, and you're truly one of the most phenomenal people I've met in an ORG. It was an honor getting to take out the legend. We spent so much time talking about how cool it would be to vote together again but one of us was always lying. It's no lie when I say that ur a beast in this game and I'm happy i got you before it was too late. See u real soon.

Willow: RTP, you were such a nice person (even though you dragged me at your last tribal lol). But you were such a big threat, you had lots of friends on the jury, you were good in challenges, you successfully played an idol. I understand why you were frustrated at me for not taking out Mitchell, but you were just as big of a threat as he was. Anyway I really enjoyed playing this season with you, and once it’s the fall I’ll try applying to your side season series. 

Allie: If last round had gone as planned, you wouldn’t be on the jury, so firstly I just wanted to say that it sucks that you went home! I know that that couldn’t have been a very pleasant result to wake up to. Thank you for being so nice to me at the start of this game and for inviting me to play that mini game thing with you (even tho I flopped so hard adios). Also, you have a super soothing voice that sounds like it should be on candle commercials.

Aromal: I'm so sorry that the tribal went the way it did :( It was honestly our worst case scenario and I understand if you're super pissed about it. Hope you slay an all stars season here and kick ass in Idalia!

Mitchell: LOL WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED

Willow: I know I’ve probably said this too many times but you were also one of my first friends in this game lol. You were one of my favorite people to talk to in this game about none game related stuff lol. You were always a really interesting person to talk to and ily a lot! I remember you were also on the newbie tribe call during the paintball challenge, and you were really unintentionally funny. I asked how Zakriah was supposed to be pronounced and you starting spelling out his name bc you didn’t realize that I was asking how to pronounce it lmao. Half the time you were really confused about what was going on in this game, but ily anyway and I hope we can be friends once this whole game is done, bc you’re a really awesome person to talk to.