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transthatfag · 27 days

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destiel forehead healing kiss. what more could u want.

#art #digital art #my art 🦷#digital painting #supernatural #destiel #castiel #dean winchester #spn fanart #spn #destiel fanart #i am. so tired.#i tried my hardest to not half ass this and give up #i sorta accomplished that but not really #ill have some grace for myself tho cause i really struggled to make art this month :/#spn fanart is so theraputic tho #i missed making my visions for this show #it also just felt like the most low stakes thing to make #this looks way better *not* on mobile.. too lazy to edit this shit now

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lazylittledragon · 2 months

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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

#ramble #sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well #if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD #he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE #like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one #holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do #and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that #idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything #also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore #so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks #also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently #also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this #again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable #if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time

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clouvu · 10 months

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Offering lil doodles of them bc my eyes have been opened

#genshin impact #furina #clorinde #furinde #furina's character story 5 and her voicelines about clorinde has left me so mentally ill in the head #THE WAY FURINA FELT THAT SHE WAS NO LONGER WANTED AND ALMOST IMMEDIATELY CLORINDE POPPED UP TO INVITE HER TO A LIL GATHERING AMONG FRIENDS #NOT TO MENTION THAT CLORINDE IMMEDIATELY OFFERED TO PAY FOR HER TO HAVE BETTER LIVING CONDITIONS #EVEN WHEN DECLINED SHE STILL HELPED FURINA TIDY UP HER NEW APARTMENT BEFORE THEY WENT OUT FOR DRINKS TOGETHER #the way clorinde was no longer bound to any sort of contract but still went to visit furina and help her out of her own volition is so?????#AND the fact that little miss stonefaced 24/7 clorinde actually SMILED at furina???? chewing on aluminum foil #oughhhh they scratch at my brain so nicely #ALSO!! ALSO!! THE LONGING IN FURINA'S VOICE WHEN SHE SAYS HOW MUCH SHE TRUSTS CLORINDE AND MISSES HER IS SO!!!!!!!!!#crawling on the walls and howling as we speak #4.2 had made me already so deranged about furina to the point where she shot up from being just a funky lil guy to straight hyperfixation #I just thinjk;;;;;;; she deserves to be happy for once in her life (and have her lil emotional support bodyguard gf w/ her to smooch)

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oamlete · 2 months

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Disappointment 🚬

#ace attorney #ema skye #I feel like the way I draw ema makes it obvious how down bad I am for her #I love women…#I don’t condone smoking but if a hot woman is doing it I’ll let it slide #anyways I specifically made the moon in the back a waning gibbous #it felt appropriate to convey a feeling of disappointment #cause it’s like you just missed the full moon

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ohnoitsz1m · 2 months

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Halflife ponies. Btw.

A warning to any MLP enjoyers: if this ends up on derpibooru or any similar site I'll gnaw you into splinters like a cheap plastic dog toy. I'm on the DNP lists under animatorfun and I'll request a new link for this blog specifically if I havw to. Please stop reuploading my shit 💀

Edit: i forgot to reenable the layer with Gordon's glasses it's so over. I was wondering why she looked weird oughhgggh

Edit2: fixed gordon <3

#no reposting #Barneys lack of a cutie mark is NOT because I forgot. it is a joke about his undecided major i promise #barney was gonna be a pegasus but i forgot to draw his wings and he looks better without them anyways so. earthpony barney #they feel more balanced this way anyways #an attempt was made to comply with the mlp gen5 design style...#i dont have much to say about Gordon and Alyxs designs #Gordon... i just drew Gordon But Pony tbh.. tweaked her colors a bit using colors picked from the apple family #i dont really like flesh colored ponies....#alyx.. im not completely satisfied with #shes Missing Something and i cant figure out what #giving her socks felt like too much #she feels half finished #especially with her mane so detailed xc #whoo knows maybe ill update her later (i won't)#aaanyways #half life 2 #half life fanart #gordon freeman #alyx vance #barney calhoun #my little pony

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hinamie · 3 months

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I dive into the water and struggle on the surface where I can't stand

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #fushiguro megumi #megumi #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk atla!au #atla!au: art #lmhs #caption VERY lmhs megu coded song btw :)#u have to read a translation tho GHGSGH #anyway ive been looping th song fr the past 8 hours since discovering it #i love bbhf how had i missed such a gem smh hina fake fan of media yet Again #it was between this lyric and . another song.... which i felt wld invite a *little* too much speculation :3 #MOVING ON looking for ref fr this made me want to go to a river SO bad the water looks so crisp and clear....#moss and smooth river rocks my beloved.....#also theres rly just something abt the way rivers cast light isnt there #heres hoping at some point this summer i will b able to dip My feet in a river #in th meantime. lives vicariously through megu . who doesnt even look like hes having fun GSDFFGFJHSDJDFHK #smh relax megu u deserve it <3333

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travelling-hydaelyn · 4 months

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Lahabrea possessed Thancred before this questline even started which means these are back to back Laha interactions. Here is how he greets the WoL in the Waking Sands immediately after his Disney villain introduction.

Meanwhile in Minfilia's solar:

presumably he took a brief break from running Alphinaud's errands to go dramatically laugh at the WoL

#enjoying all this with Pandaemonium context #there is a lot to unpack here #OK LETS GO PANEL 1 #based on the follow up he's really just testing out the person who killed ifrit - not too different from elidibus' test later.#he comes across as goofy but i gotta ask if he taunted panda critters the same way before experiments #moreever hydaelyn is busy going “Eeeeeevvvilllll!!!” in your ear while laha chatters #I assumed this was direct line to the WoL consciousness the first time #but based on 5.2 she might just be bullhorning to anyone with ancient powers which means lahabrea is listening to her shout “eeeevviilllll”#hilarious I hope that is what was happening #PANEL 2 #not shown is laha opening with “oh hi <player name>”#like he sounds more like panda laha here than almost anywhere else nearly #in which of these two panels is he acting more I ask???#I'm thinking its an even split per emet-selchs reckoning of his lost personality #if he could hold out as long as he does hanging out there in the Waking Sands hall then #it becomes very easy to see emet-selch felt like he was getting enough sanity out of him at the time. hes surprisingly functional #in spite of that intro #PANEL 3 #we were SO ROBBED to miss alphinaud investigating ascians with lahabrea. so robbed #alphinaud is still unsocialized at this point so extra annoying to laha for sure #thinking about how lahabrea acted around themis in the far past fills in a few blanks. can draw a couple of parallels perhaps #rotating that thought #ffxiv #ffxiv spoilers #Final Fantasy XIV: A Realm Reborn #lahabrea #alphinaud #minfilia #ffxivedit #gamingedit

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critter-wizard · 3 months

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ep 43 had me tearing up in a fucking shopping centre ‼️‼️

b+w alt version that I truly couldn't decide if I liked it more . Also I included a lot of thoughts in the tags but they're somewhat incoherent<3

#i dont know what i expected but i was waiting for a friend and too excited to wait until later #malevolent podcast #john doe #john doe malevolent #john malevolent #malevolent fanart #grimm art #ep 43 #ep 43 left me with a lot of thoughts ... i didnt quite like how much of a recap it felt like at times but that might #be because ive been relistening and like yeah everyone knows that john 🙄 but that's not the case for everyone and with monthly uploads #things get forgotten easily #i find the discussion of “humanity” so interesting because John has shown that without someone that he has forcibly grown to value as an #equal... something he cannot do as the king of yellow as he is superior to all of his realm and presumably stays out of other elder god's #anyway. without that equality and enviroment to grow he fails to reach his goal of compassion and falls onto old ways.#John. The King in Yellow. shown by both times each has found themselves in human form do not just crave power and influence!!!#THEY CRAVE COMMUNITY!!! an endrich being not born or raised with nothing but power and ego #CRAVES COMMUNITY.#His goal of “humanity” is not a selfless goal like John projects - it is ultimately somewhat selfish as he does not want to be alone!!#which makes this desire so much more human #i don't know maybe this is just me spelling out whats already there but the way john and the witch argued about humanity frustrated me #it felt like they were missing the point or that perhaps the “good/evil” “black/white” retoric was already realised by me and john needed #realise it himself . which is fair !!!#i dont know!!!!#the witch was talking about how bad everyone was and how humanity is cruel and john was talking about Lily (#who also frustrates me how shes used in the plot somewhat she was literally just a nurse doing her job bro #) but to John - yes internally he is struggling with his moral greyness and im so proud of him for growing being himself SO PROUD #JUST.!!! he wants community. he needs community. he loves his friend. 'humanity' at its core does not matter as long as you try to be bette #and i think thats awesome and i really enjoyed the episode #guhh im rambling enjoy my tag rambling i dont know i want john to have more friends :(#yorrick can be another friend godd i love you yorrick so silly

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jennalouisecolemans · 4 months

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just some doctor/clara: [15/∞]

#dwedit #whouffleedit #whouffle #moffatedit #doctor who #timelordgifs #claraoswaldedit #elevenedit #doctor x clara #otp: perfect in every way for me #i'm doing my anual doctor who rewatch and just felt like making random gifs of these two #i miss them so much #what i wouldn't give to see these two acting this close together again #there were some scenes i really wanted to include here but were so hard to color i just gave up #**#gifs #jdc

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stuckinapril · 7 months

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Reframing whenever someone decides to leave you out of something or walks out of your life or just all around neglects your presence not as your loss but as theirs…. like that could have been so much more fun w me in it but I wasn’t and that will forever be your loss

#It might sound arrogant conceited etc but I used to deal w a lot of attachment anxiety bc id be like #That person is so cool. They’re so exciting. They know how to liven something up. I’m missing out on their energy #But now I think ab how they’re missing out on mine too and how they’re at the risk of losing me w every half assed action they take #Loss is never just one way if you know you bring value to something. I legit felt that yesterday for the first time in my life #Ruminating and clinging to ppl less has truly come at the behest of knowing I’m someone worth keeping around #And if you decide not to that’s a failing on your end and I don’t have to overcompensate by proving my worth to you

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luxrayz64 · 7 months

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like we were so fucking robbed of seeing perez in the wake of saw vs events I want to see her getting out of the hospital and flipping tables and pointing a gun in ericksons face after being told that strahm is the lead suspect. I want to see her having a breakdown after strahms fingerprints come back dead. I want to see her hand twitching over her gun everytime she sees hoffman. I want to see her fucking losing it and desperate to avenge her friend and partner and to clear his name. I want to see the thought process that lead to her inviting known serial killer mark hoffman to the basement lab just so she could torture him psychologically before she had a legitimate excuse to shoot him. I want to see more of her and I want to see how strahms death impacted her the way the reverse impacted him.

#lindsey perez lindsey perezzzzz #we did not see nearly enough of her #she was so overshadowed by strahm in iv and then didnt even get to be a main character in vi #she showed up. psychologically tortured hoffman. and then she died (again).#realistically she's way better at hiding her insanity so I think she wouldn't lose it nearly as bad as strahm did #but I want just one little moment where she's on her own and she fucking loses it #forced to let your boss tell your best friend you're dead. he goes missing. is declared a suspect. turns up dead. no body to bury #more of her pov on these events please. please. please.#it would be so sanity inducing cause she KNEW it was hoffman. her last words to strahm was hoffmans name #and she knew him so well.... she must've known strahm went after him in the wake of her 'death'. the fucking guilt she must have felt #espeon cries #saw #i am so so sick in the head about her today

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kataracy · 2 months

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Kataang Week 2024 DAY 1 // Cultural Sharing

“I’m nervous. Am I doing okay?”

“You’re doing amazing Sweetie.”

#kataangtag #kataang week #kw24 #katara #aang #kataracies #avatart #As someone whose hair is a major part of their culture I wanted to lend that to this piece #I think braiding would be wonderful in the hands of Air Nomads women even though the men are all top bald baddies ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿#in my culture Black Americans used hair braiding as a way to navigate. Braiding styles were used as maps to avoid traps and find freedom #and since Air is the element of freedom it felt right 💛🧡#on a lighter note do NOT notice how rusty I am ok HEY WHAT I SAY AHT AHT #I’m so happy I finally got to draw these bubbles braids on someone they are the CUTEST #I will say dating someone from another culture isn’t as hard as people fantasize 😂 I’m just respectful of my partner and eager to learn #I think a lot of that gets lost when people focus to heavily on if one or the other partner doesn’t look like they are 24/7 #dripped in another partner’s culture. like a lot of love for the significant other gets missed #but you’ll never lose that love or reverence for you culture and I hope that message comes across in this lil drawing ok byeee (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ #ON TO DAY 2 #English majors do not come for me I see it’s the wrong *too ITS THE TAGS GIRL WHATCHU WANT ME TO DO

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scarlct-vvitch · 2 months

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do you think jenna marbles knows how appreciated and irreplaceable her presence on youtube was? does she know that she mastered the craft of making a video feel like hanging out with a treasured friend? do you think she knows that she was one of the last youtubers to feel genuine in her craft, making videos for the fun of it rather than making everything polished, elaborate, and distanced? does she know that even four years later we still miss her? does she know that an era of the internet ended when she left? i hope she knows we saw her. i hope she's having a great time.

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amphibianaday · 8 months

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how long have you been aware of Atul from spirit farer?

day 1532 this is obviously just an excuse to draw him again (referenced straight from an ingame screenshot) i've been passivley aware of him for a while. i'm pretty sure someone requested him and i intended to draw him and just forgot actively aware - about a week, since i started playing the game myself :)

#amphibian #frog #spiritfarer #atul spiritfarer #this is less fanart and more just copying a reference i just want to practice drawing him until i can steal the parts i want for my style #edit on the day this is posting. he just left me :(#honestly im nto as sad as i expected. i felt ready for it #it may have helped that i uh. was stuck in the first 2 areas for way longer than intended so i got to spend more time with him #(was missing one spirit/ability and i kept going past it thinking 'no i already checked that place i cant do anything yet')

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thisfuckingdeadlife · 7 months

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