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They should invent a migraine medication without side effects
#text#screaming into the void#seriously I can’t form a cohesive thought opinion or choice#I need to be able to do things rn I absolutely do and about the only difference between this and the migraine is a lack of pain. I#I still cannot function
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thinking about how Humans Are Space Orcs stories always talk about how indestructible humans are, our endurance, our ability to withstand common poisons, etc. and thats all well and good, its really fun to read, but it gets repetitive after a while because we aren't all like that.
And that got me thinking about why this trope is so common in the first place, and the conclusion I came to is actually kind of obvious if you think about it. Not everyone is allowed to go into space. This is true now, with the number of physical restrictions placed on astronauts (including height limits), but I imagine it's just as strict in some imaginary future where humans are first coming into contact with alien species. Because in that case there will definitely be military personnel alongside any possible diplomatic parties.
And I imagine that all interactions aliens have ever had up until this point have been with trained personnel. Even basic military troops conform to this standard, to some degree. So aliens meet us and they're shocked and horrified to discover that we have no obvious weaknesses, we're all either crazy smart or crazy strong (still always a little crazy, academia and war will do that to you), and not only that but we like, literally all the same height so there's no way to tell any of us apart.
And Humans Are Death Worlders stories spread throughout the galaxy. Years or decades or centuries of interspecies suspicion and hostilities preventing any alien from setting foot/claw/limb/appendage/etc. on Earth until slowly more beings are allowed to come through. And not just diplomats who keep to government buildings, but tourists. Exchange students. Temporary visitors granted permission to go wherever they please, so they go out in search of 'real terran culture' and what do they find?
Humans with innate heart defects that prevent them from drinking caffeine. Humans with chronic pain and chronic fatigue who lack the boundless endurance humans are supposedly famous for. Humans too tall or too short or too fat to be allowed into space. Humans who are so scared of the world they need to take pills just to function. Humans with IBS who can't stand spicy foods, capsaicin really is poison to them. Lactose intolerance and celiac disease, my god all the autoimmune disorders out there, humans who struggle to function because their own bodies fight them. Humans who bruise easily and take too long to heal. Humans who sustained one too many concussions and now struggle to talk and read and write. Humans who've had strokes. Humans who were born unable to talk or hear or speak, and humans who through some accident lost that ability later.
Aliens visit Earth, and do you know what they find? Humanity, in all its wholeness.
#humans are space orcs#humans in space#earth is a deathworld#earth is space australia#tagging this so that ppl can find it even though the space shit i write about always feels like its in direct opposition to all the pop tag#also my biggest pet peeve in all of writing - all writing. everywhere. not just in fanfic but books and tv and movies too - is when people#write off an injury by saying something like 'oh nothing bad just a couple of scratches some bruising and a minor concussion' like girl WHA#MiNOr ConCuSSioN is such an oxymoron and I hate it so fucking much. like i dont care how minor it was thats still brain damage.#especially when the same character does this more than once. like im sorry ms. but uh. you can no longer read. or talk eloquently. sorry#evidence: my brother has had two 'minor' concussions and now cannot read write or speak without tremendous effort. And like its totally#ruined my ability to watch action shows/movies because now i just sit there and count how many concussions there characters are getting#after a certain point it becomes totally impossible to believe that these guys are able to function. (still fun to watch tho im not a hater
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APOLOGIES FOR DISAPPEARING RIGHT AFTER THE SEXYMAN POLLS POSTS I got very sick once again ^^;
BUT I have stuff to post!! I have a project participation announcement, and I have asks/messages to get to, and art and fics to post too. Thank you for your patience as I start things up again ^^
#early stage pneumonia/bronchitis had to be taken care of#lots of sleeping#and then I am trying to take care of a much more serious health issue at the moment#it leaves me very drained at the moment and I am sleeping a lot right now#but I’m hoping to start treating it as soon as possible whatever that will look like#there’s still a lot of unknowns but I just am hoping there is a way to manage it quickly so I can get back to feeling like I’m living!!!!#I now also understand why I feel like I cannot pull my mind together or get anything done#I am not getting what I need for my brain to literally function everything is just so deficient#so that is probably why I am struggling so much to post things that I keep saying are done I can never seem to finish that 5% of uploading#and formatting and posting and AUGH#I will try very hard to get through this until things possibly get easier#and to interact with the community more like I used to#lots of hopes here#hoping I can get back on track
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The number of times I reach for, "I'll make a complicated baking project!!!!" because I know it'll take time and concentration (i.e., I can't focus on anything beyond the mechanical for a bit) and comes with a positive output that people who aren't me appreciate (i.e., desserts) makes me think I need other coping mechanisms.....and also that I might somehow understand those people who work out a lot.
#working out sounds terrible and I don't want to but counterpoint: I cannot keep making cookies.#I went through 4 lbs of butter today. that's....so much butter.#I don't even want to eat them! I have virtually no sweet tooth!#I just want something repetitive and mechanical that I can do while my higher brain functions take a lunch break.#(admittedly I am making christmas cookies they're going to go in my freezer for a few weeks#it's not SO ridiculous. but still ridiculous.)#no love sincerer than the love of food
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[ Reflection ] About yourself.
Was listening to Shunkan Sentimental by SCANDAL at like 10 p.m. and stayed up until 4 a.m. to work on this. I didn't finish it right away tho, I still had to sleep.
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#Asa draws#my art#fan art#kirby#Meta Knight#Dark Meta Knight#I don't talk often of my thoughts on Meta and Darmeta and how the mirror functions#I like to believe the Amazing Mirror was once a tool for people to achieve dreams. wishes#slightly like Nova but not quite. the mirror could not bring these wishes to reality. you could only walk into the mirror#and face the outcomes of what you wished for#and maybe it was like this for some time until the mirror got corrupted#and maybe Meta looked once into the mirror. but never walked in#thinking of an easier time#In a way#Darmeta is the outcome of what would have happened if Meta had taken another path#if he had never gone to Popstar#They don't really like eachother. Meta because of what Darmeta represents to him and Darmeta because one of the outcomes of being-#-someone's reflection is holding some of their memories and feelings#and Darmeta. well... he doesn't really like that#I like of think of them having gone past the point of being just enemies and hating each other for things they cannot control and instead-#instead they work well together#they still just *tolerate* each other#but the advantage of knowing so much of another person is that you know how they work#so they actually make a pretty good team on a good day
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its one thing to have the flu and ur body feel like completw dogshit but when ur body has recovered from the fever and that cold is still there it is equally as annoying like oh mh god

#shitty doodle i did in bed with mt thumb i dont know how to explain it well#getting sick used to be fun when i was a kid now i just cannot function and its so annoying like damn recover faster i have shit 2 do !!!!!#i caught i fever yesterday (probably bc of the weather) and i feel better now but I STILL HAVE THAT SYUPID COLD MY FICKIBG GODDDDDDDDD#frambling...?
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Grief grief grief I hate it
#most of all i hate how i can't just Sit with things. have to watch tv and shop and work and look at phone#it takes So much work for me to make myself sit with unpleasantness and i have to be in the perfect situation for it#and i have just found out my roommates will not be housesitting this summer so we will be stuck together for another two months#and i will not get my time of peace to enjoy my town for my last while there#which was not mine in the first place because nothing is promised to us! but i'm still so stressed!!#literally my body is starting to be unable to function when they're home. cannot sleep cannot be calm#ugh ugh#all shall be well and all that. but it is looking like it will take some Work
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PRANK GONE WRONG!!! ( real ) ( not clickbait )
weirdly defensive.
#in which scarab Cannot Catch A Break#woot woot!!! comic time!!!#the flow of this might seem really weird which is the result of me drawing all of this during class#LOOK IM TRYING OVER HERE i wanna do everything but also i Am Stupid#my brain is working on otap and homosexuality i cannot function#prohibitedwish#scarab the god auditor#prismo the wishmaster#dies i need to find a way to post this stuff in a way that makes me look as cool as everyone elses stuff NSNSNNDNSNCAK#still no name... SIGH
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just a random sketch from quite some time ago
#yes it's ii#i might have shared it before#i cannot remember i did this... about 3 months ago at this point?#this is part of a series of sketches for the larger project i am planning for a bit now and yet to truly start#i still have other -more pressing- drawings to finish#but after this week i'll be a bit more functional to do everything finally#i hate when work is kicking my ass in a way that i can barely function#levynn tries to draw#sleep token
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i cannot believe i am bucktommy posting tonight yall i was not mentally prepared for them to fuck in eddies house what do you MEAN
#they are not holding back in season 8b jesus#i am still processing eveything that happened this ep but cannot get over the fact they brought tommy back for this plot line#tommy really said the competition is gone and duh eddie is GAY#i honestly have no idea where this season is going now and ive never been more excited#they said no boring episodes this second half of the season#how are yall functioning coz i am delirious#911 abc#911 spoilers#bucktommy#evan buck buckley#tommy kinard#buddie#eddie diaz#911 abc spoilers#911 season 8b#pre buddie canon
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Mini update on the coffee map, kind of
Wanted to post bc it's been a bit. I almost have the first floor done. I just need to finish the basement. Which is both a blessing and a curse with what little information we have.
#enjoy this screenshot with Tari holding a camera#no but seriously this place scares me#I still cannot get over how the shower being behind a fully functional fireplace#and the only reasonable entrance points to said bathroom are SOLID WALLS#so it's completely unknown how you're even supposed get there!!!#this place is a architect's nightmare#how does this work#how does any of this work#get me out of here#rae rambles#3's coffee n bombs#smg4#smg3
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tonight's psychotic meltdown:

#wallace and gromit#english.exe ran out a bit idk how to translate the concept of x下げy上げ#i cant believe wallace下げ gromit上げ discourse is happening im going to#be very upset#like look im a grommie too but i understand that wallace is vital to my boy's happiness and wallace is a goat too#ik i said theyre equals but their dynamic is more like#v hierarchically and functionally master and pet (wallace still takes him for walkies and orders him; gromit enjoys/accepts his lot)#however their love for one another is equal!!!!!#i will die on this fucking hill u cannot have one without the other!!!!#wallace is stupid and pushes gromit away a lot of the time but !!! the series is built on their friendship w one another!!!!
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and now for something a little different in regards to this thing
#mine#i honestly cannot imagine her existing in a canon-compliant world#so she thrives in modern(-adjacent) aus#shes surprisingly quiet and non confrontational considering who her parents are#they didnt raise her alone though. i think she would die if they were allowed to freestyle raise her#they had lots and lots of help with that#her existing in Hell Itself she would just die though. immediately#her wings are non functional they dont actually store anything#theyre just there bc i think v wings are fucking awesome#i still feel like im going to have a kill squad sent after me for showing off too much of her and in a non-jokey way
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Might have to take a break from being super active on here until the new year...
#i'll still do the occasional reblog and stuff#but i cannot function right now#the impending doom of losing my job is taking over#and right before Christmas!#at least my last day is tomorrow#miscellaneous#zac speaks
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What are your ryomina headcanons? I've loved these two since I played P3 FES, and I'm so excited to get back into the fandom^^
hi!! thank you so much for the ask, welcome back to the p3 fandom, it's always a delight to see new and old ryomina fans alike! 🥺💛💙
as for headcanons, here's a "few" i that i tend to come back to a lot! my interpretations of them are influenced from both the source material and other's fanworks, so i've linked to them as i saw fit! hcs in no particular order under the cut because oops this got long (900 word bullet point list, mentions of reload content up to 1/1)
minato's hair is dyed blue (hair originally brown, you can see it in his roots!) and he has a beauty mark on under his left eye. i like mirror imagery and there's definitely a few arts i've rb'd that portray them this way :) (e.g. this one by feliichu and this one by marasschino)
as far as i'm concerned the bathhouse scene from the manga where ryoji's hair down = similar shape to minato? that is canon to me. this art from xierru is a fun depiction of hair down ryoji :D
ryoji is homeless. everyone say thank you foxmulder_whereartthou for this awesome fic it's why i have the headcanon! but like seriously. we have no idea where ryoji lives and i could believe this.
minato dying at the end of the game is sad to an outsider's POV BUT!!! ryomina gets to be together in death for the rest of their lives (this illustration from mafuwara is a gorgeous representation of them as nyx avatar + the seal)!
speaking of the seal, they are like telepathically communicating to me in the great seal together. (mymp3 had a comic wip with this. give it a looksie :D)
ryoji likes cuddling with minato because he's warm :) (something something orpheus has fire affinity, minato is warm by extension and ryoji is cold because he's death)
ryoji's camera roll is filled with pictures of minato! ryoji... loves life, to me. and i feel that photography and journaling are perfect ways of expressing gratitude and capturing the moments in life that are most important to you :3
my other favorite activity for these two is stargazing- i feel like it's something they could appreciate either in life or death (looking at the stars from the great seal...)! they do a bit of this in the fic eurydice's vow by crescentmoontea (P5R spoilers, takes place in third sem it's a very fun fic concept).
between ryoji and minato i feel like ryoji was the one who fell in love first- and it doesn't really click in place for minato that he loves ryoji until december hits (appriser reveal + ryoji transforming into thanatos). its about the realization that ryoji was with him for his whole life and that he gets him like no one else does.
ryoji is like a sad and wet puppy who is so scared minato won't like him back. he is so scared of being rejected by minato to me like. this boy straight up deflates after he does his "i know i said i wanted us to be friends, but... i actually want to be something more." / "what about you?" on 12/1 ???
AND SPEAKING of wet puppy ryoji. ryoji is like. every animal in the world to me. he's a bird. he's a cat. etc. and also ryoji knows every language in the world ever and uses it to express his love for minato. see this fic from superheroics to see what i mean.
both of them are lactose intolerant. "this isn't lactose, it's milk!" i definitely think ryoji would make himself sick eating ice cream and milk he doesn't know what lactose is. (i made a silly poll about this once and the tags were very entertaining.)
i see minato as transmasc or nonbinary depending on the day (schrodinger's headcanons babey they're simultaneously true and not true at the same time!!). either way he's not cis to me and ryoji is like. His Gender. anyway go read this fic by nail_gun for t4t ryomina :D !
ryomina are WEIRD GUYS TO ME!!! they are so strange and they understand each other better than anyone else because of the circumstances of their relationship!!! if you asked them to do the "i wonder what i taste like" meme i think they'd start biting each other (affectionate) tbh but that's just me.
after ryoji gives minato the music box in 12/31 on reload, minato listens to the music box every night in january. this boy has insomnia and also chronic illness to me (things that housing death does to you). but i think he finds comfort in the melody and memories he made with ryoji.
in general, i think it's fun to imagine minato taking ryoji to places and show him things he's interested in! i feel that ryoji takes a lot of interest in minato's life, this isn't really a hc because in reload, minato DOES give ryoji a tour of the school (11/9) and possibly port island (11/12). but ITS CUTE OK! (tangentially related fanwork: this series of doodles from vinnigami: 1, 2, and 3)
not a hc but minato's kindness is like the backbone of their relationship and i think we would not have the ryomina we know and love today if minato wasn't such a kind soul. oh minato.... we can learn so much from you... like ryoji did!
anyway! that's all the hcs that i could think of, thank you for the ask! i had a lot of fun answering this, these two mean a lot to me 💛💙
i hope you don't mind the links to the fanart and fanfic as well, the fanwork people have made for ryomina have really made an imprint on me! if you want to see more of them, i definitely recommend looking through my tag for them because oh. i got a lot of them reblogged alright 😂 (<- SOOO NORMAL)
#UMMM hiiii#this was VERY fun to do thank you so much for the ask!! im very. well-adjusted about these two#this ended up turning into some art + fic suggests (they are like citations to my hcs)#but it was really fun! i love ryomina to bits and pieces i cannot provide a concise answer#this post nearly gave me a scare bc somehow the bullet point list doubled itself and wouldn't let me post#tumblr is a very functional website! but the posts intact so im happy!!! yippee!#i still need to finish reload but some of the hcs i wrote were partially backed by what i saw there#people are welcome to send asks btw! cant guarantee i'll answer them in a timely manner but i enjoy doing them#doing this reminded me of my early tumblr days when i'd get so many asks where ppl dropped their ryomina hcs it was cute...#im sure i will continue to recommend fanworks in the future i definitely want to start reading fic again after i finish reload! yahoo!#also this post is like the iceberg of my brain btw you have definitely not seen all of my thoughts im soo. (twirls hair) normal.#lizzy askbox#ryomina#<- why not i put effort into the post#anyway bye im going to go to the library to learn about my favorite new interest called html and css aren't websites cool :)
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The Clockworker's Doll/Master Of The Court as drawn by Suzunosuke is so pretty.....
#evillious chronicles#it catches perfectly the air of melancholy and longing and wanting to belong and feel human#that irina/maria/alice was denied from birth#(but also to be honest. i do not think gallerian was even a spectacular father to her#nor he gave her the humanization and safety she always longed for. he gave her affection#that is for sure. but also he kept her locked in his room and naive to the world#to the point where she also cannot function as a person just as marialice couldn't#gilded nonetheless it is still a cage and it still was harmful to her)
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