#I swear if i'm shadowbanned again :(

[half-oz-eddie]

I do not want to do discourse but I am quite tired so feel free to scroll past this or ignore it idc

First and foremost I do not care if other positivity projects exist. They can exist in unique ways for unique reasons. It's a beautiful thing. I'm sure people love what they do and they're doing it for fun. Personally? I love what I do. A normal amount. And I do it my own way. Kinley Café is my heartbeat and it's always been a project that I deeply enjoy and that I am passionate about. I ask for nothing in return except the chance to touch other people's lives and make them smile by sending out your orders.

I am so comforted by the amount of love and support I receive. It's motivating and has helped me through difficult times. I have been so distracted spreading joy that I've basically breezed through what is usually the most difficult month of my life.

And yet. And yet!! I have been reported as spam so the café does not come up in searches (it's limited/partially shadowbanned I guess you can say. I constantly worry that this affects people getting notified when they receive treats because I want them to know someone is thinking of them. But I have been communicating with Tumblr about it, so don't worry too much). I have received phishing links in DMs and on the order form. And more recently, a password protected blog that hasn't had any activity in 40 days receives nearly a dozen notifications out of the blue because of a months old post circulating as some sort of gotcha, and I find out someone is telling people that I copied an idea (from myself btw) and sent out anons trying to encourage people to call me out over...stealing my own idea?

And I don't wanna hear "they didn't know it was me" because nobody asked me shit! I didn't show anybody any disrespect. In fact, I was being supportive! I showed love! I took the time out to make something because I wanted to continue to encourage the spread the positivity.

And yet, people made accusations even though I was being kind? Do you want a trampoline since you like fucking jumping to conclusions?

KC has been open for FIVE weeks. And I've dealt with all this in a short period of time for absolutely no reason. I've been nothing but kind and supportive of others. I genuinely and sincerely try my best.

I don't wanna let this taint something beautiful or let anything discourage me from doing this again. But I swear to god.....this shit is getting really annoying and bringing out the worst in me. lmao why am I fighting for my life during this little hiatus? I'm dedicating my free time to creating things, and collaborating with others just to spread love and kindness. I don't want anything but peace and quiet.

What's next? Do I have to keep dealing with dumbassery? Or can I go back to sending out treats and going on about my fucking business? Because I do not have time for this. I do not want all this static!!!

I've turned off reblogs. If you want to talk to me privately that's fine but this has been a little overwhelming and I just wanted to get this off my chest.

[jittyjames]

jcs kinktober masterlist

(sorry minors, but pls don’t interact with this. nothing personal, of course, but this just isn’t the space for you lovelies)

cw: heavy mentions of kinks under the cut obviously

i'm going to be so fucking fr with y'all rn. most of these are poly even if they're labeled as a single ship. that's just the universe i write for babes. i'm so embarrassed to even post this list. i would ask god to help me for when i post these in october, but anything good and holy has long left the chat. i'm scheduled to be struck down by lightning by november 1st. anyway here's wonderwall.

(also fair warning. i'm the most vanilla person in existence. if you look up the term vanilla is the dictionary, it's a photo of me. i say this to clarify THESE ARE (mostly) NOT MY KINKS. DO NOT JUDGE ME. I AM BUT A WRITER WHO REALLY LIKES DYNAMICS OKAY?? DON'T PERCEIVE ME. nyway, more warnings and stuff to come in the actual fic.) also watch my tumblr get shadowbanned for me posting this. maybe i should censor the words. IDK.

pegging- jesus x mary

roleplay- jesus x mary x judas

hate sex- mary x judas

rimming- jesus x judas

omo- LMAO JUST KIDDING. honestly don't know for this one. open to suggestions!!! EDIT- COLLARING WINS OUT

frottage- jesus x judas (kudos to gav for the inspo on this one)

virginity- jesus x judas

gore- jesus x judas (this sounds worse than it is lol. i swear it's not bad at all. gore is more of just a theme, not a sex thing. but... it is the bible... so...) this is also mixed with the bonus prompt bathing so!! y'all can work that one out

stripping- jesus x mary (modern)

praise kink- jesus x judas

sensory deprivation- jesus x reader's choice (ooo jami is trying new things for once 👀👀)

somnophilia- jesus x judas

size difference- god x judas x satan

orgasm denial- jesus x judas

temp play- mary x judas

gags- mary x judas

threesome- peter x judas x james

spanking- god x judas (modern)

voyeurism- jesus x mary x judas

mind control- judas x satan x jesus (lmao i’m sorry i had to)

lingerie- jesus x judas

BONUS PROMPTTT: dancing together- jesus x judas

rough oral sex- jesus x mary x judas

sex toys- mary x judas (modern)

edgeplay- jesus x judas

overstim

s&m- jesus x judas (was totally singing the rihanna song the whole time i wrote this one)

body worship- jesus x judas

breathplay- jesus x judas

free use- judas x everyone

this is a free day so... ONCE AGAIN OPEN TO SUGGESTIONS

EDIT: i have been harassed but i’m not using my free day on it… so…

32. BONUS DAY- the piss fic.

[yeyinde]

i wanna add onto that last ask, how i think about soap ♡ - from worstghost because my account is shadowbanned rn

I think he is so flirty, he's the type to approach you at a bar and you're immediately relaxed because not a thing about him is threatening. He's all smiles, he buys you a drink, he has you laughing so hard you snort and almost piss your pants. You drag him up to karaoke and you're falling on each other and it feels like you've known him your entire life. Even if you two never speak again, you think of him all the time, sunshine in the shape of a man. You ask him to come home with you- swear you've never taken someone home so fast- and it's all giggles and smiles and kissing and you're so giddy and blushing and he just loves it. It's so comfortable and natural and you give him your number in the morning while you share coffee, because he would never leave you hanging, and say if he's ever in town again to please call you. And he does, and every time you see him you're more enamored and you stop going to the bar all together because no one could amount to him

And I just think he's so cute okay 🥺 he's such a babe

ahhh, i'm so sorry to hear that!!!! i really hope everything gets fixed for you!

[throwaway-yandere]

🐠 Anon

Good thing, no work today, bad think, they kicked me out to go to the shop for ingredients for cooking

Also it's been snowing again for almost all day today

Now skipping over the fact that I hate winter

Faceless Ayato better un-shadowbans you or it's going to be hunting season for him as a prey lol

If I punch faceless Ayato in the void of his face, does my hand vanishes inside? Or I hit something?? Does he has nerves there???

Also about Diluc/Dainsleif working better for creepypastas

1. I'm pretty sure that in 2020 I saw some creepypasta about dainsleif

2. I have sketch somewhere of Childe as Jeff (friend's dare for me on their birthday lmao)

Also, does anybody remember when Albedo was trending because of that glitch where his whole body, clothes etc were black/void except for his face? Like just face, not including eyes that were also black??

Was scared for a moment thinking you got fired or something– I remember romanticizing snow as a kid and wanting to experience it but now that I'm technically an adult this sounds painful cuz I'm incredibly lazy lol–

... bro you raise some good fricking questions.

Yandere Faceless!Ayato with a void for a face. I want that. I want that so bad.

Imagine trying to squirm from his grip by elbowing his face and you feel N O T H I N G. Just the void. And imagine if he gets pissed and you start seeing his floating eyes visibly twitch and you feel his chest rumble for what you couldn't distinguish between amused laughter... Or pure anger.

Me rambling about dain & diluc don't mind this lol:

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Okay suddenly got the motivation to explain back lol

Why creepypasta!Dainsleif works:

I remember seeing some posts about how Dain always looks at the camera when you're taking photos... Which, I don't think is necessarily true, but his eye design makes it seem like that

Look at him. Look at this jerk and his chilling stare in my low graphics android screenshot lmao

The bastard just have that "I'm always watching" vibes. Why would he be the protag on my SAGAU au? (Because you're a Dainsleif simp in need of content ansy that's why–) It's because out of all the characters, Dainsleif's probably the most likely candidate of being self-aware. (That, and you're a simp ansytea–)

Dainsleif has such an ominous title too, being the Bough Keeper or iirc something along the lines of "the one who picks up branches" in CN makes him sound so ominous. He probably collects the "branches"/memories of the Leylines. Who knows. Maybe he found a way to connect to your world.

And. Just. This line:

"I know all that I need to know."

It's so ominous. It's short but I absolutely fricking love the way Yuri Lowenthal said it.

He'd make a good genshin!Lost Silver I swear it. He'd pass the assignment. Him and his weird zalgo looking "element" lmao.

Why creepypasta Diluc works. And it's definitely not biased:

Based on personal experience lmao–

I'm not joking. 99% of this is based on personal experience. Why do I have C2 Diluc in my main and C0 in my second (which i only use to pull when there's freemogems)

My first Diluc came home on standard at 77th pull. I remember this well, thinking wow that's lucky!!! I got my older sibling's favorite!!! As a AR49 Kaeya main before, I wasn't too thrilled since I believed in Kaeya supremacy. Diluc's alright, no real malice against him!!!

Okay second account time let's test our luc– Oh, it's Diluc. Guess I finally have a proper dps in that account and not Kokomi!!! (that's a lie I still use Kokomi as a DPS.)

Alright, back to main! I'm gonna do a 10 pull in the standard again and I'm chanting "C4 KAEYA C4 KAEYA C4 KAEYA" with my eyes closed and oh I got C1 Qiqi! Love my lil zombie dps but wrong cryo sword character but– C1 DILUC WTF OH NO WRONG BROTHER WRONG BROTHER–

But it's fine! It's great– I've never gotten lucky in the standard! I always reach hard pity so having a double 5 star is so "w o w"!!!

Okay cool it's been weeks since then, let's try our luck in Nahida's banner!!! We've been saving up for her since Cyno!!! It'll be fine!!!

...

... You... You can fill in the blanks–

Okay but in a less personal answer: diluc makes a good fricking creepypasta if you think about his feral phase. Like, the phase where he was absolutely phckass mad and killed fatui members without a vision.

You imagining him in that phase? Good.

Now imagine him phcking g l i t c h i n g. Imagine him in anguish, complaining that the codes are cruel to him. Diluc doesn't seem to care that Venti is his archon– what more for his creators?

[zoeafterdark2]

shadowbanned again I swear to god I'm going to just start killing people

[mulderscully]

hiii i don’t know to use this site so dont mind my stupidness but. why can’t i find your posts in the tenrose tag anymore :((( i swear i saw them there before but the page refreshed then i couldn’t find it again! i was wondering why is that. if it is a bug or smth else skdh if you deleted them pls repost it pls pls :(( i love scrolling through my otps tags and your gifs are so pretty!! thanks for editing tenrose and sharing it 💕 (ok im done now sorry for the rambling)

wait omg are you a twitter refugee? 🤯

i worried that maybe i was shadowbanned but i checked and i still see my stuff in tags on my end so i dunno and i haven't blocked anyone recently and if i had you wouldn't be able to message me i think. i haven't deleted any of the gifsets i made either. i'm stumped! i have a gifset idea i might work on tonight so check back later and see if it's sorted out. thanks for the sweet message 💗

[cosmicraysandstuff]

I posted 975 times in 2022

That's 384 more posts than 2021!

4 posts created (0%)

971 posts reblogged (100%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@outrunningthedark

@iamdeltas

@lilacblossoms

@lovecolibri

@kinnsporsche

I tagged 975 of my posts in 2022

#kinnporsche cast - 92 posts

#kinnporsche - 86 posts

#kinnporsche the series - 69 posts

#jeff satur - 51 posts

#ofmd - 40 posts

#apo nattawin - 38 posts

#🥰😍🥰😍 - 38 posts

#porsche kittisawasd - 33 posts

#stranger things - 32 posts

#🥰😍 - 30 posts

Longest Tag: 118 characters

#the fact that the tax write-off means that those movies and shows are gonna be locked away forever is fucking bullshit

My Top Posts in 2022:

#4

*sigh* So, I started up my Louis Tomlinson blog again, after several years, cuz I finally have the mental/emotional energy to maintain it, and it looks like my blog might've been shadowbanned. The name of the blog was "let go" at one point, because I was inactive, but when I went to rename my blog, the original name was still available. So, I saved it again.

I sent a ticket to Tumblr support, but I'm wondering if I should just change the name all together. But I'm not sure if that would help? It's just frustrating, cuz a lot is happening with Louis's new song/album and I want to be able to interact with fellow fans/reblog/etc. 😢

Any suggestions are welcomed.

0 notes - Posted September 2, 2022

#3

This song is helping to cheer me up, when everything gets to be too much.

Plus? I'm always down for a fun song about my city. 🥰😍🗽🌞

0 notes - Posted July 9, 2022

#2

Music Recs

1. Louis Tomlinson has a new single out today - "Bigger than Me" - and it just showcases how much his songwriting and vocals have grown. I'm so happy that he got to tour this year, (after the personal and professional obstacles he had to contend with the past few years), and I'm thrilled that he'll be able to release his 2nd album in November.

His songs have gotten me through some pretty bad times and I'm so proud to be his fan. 🥰😍

2. Blackpink - "Pink Venom" - my girls are back and I couldn't be happier. 😍 They're still really the only Kpop group I follow at the moment, (though I'm starting to look into other groups), and their music just energizes me so much. I know that there are some fans who don't like the new single, but I appreciate how it's different from their previous songs, without going too far in another direction. Their talent still kills me, I swear. 😘

3. Rina Sawayama - she has a new EP out and I adore every song on it. Her vocals in "Phantoms" and "Catch Me in the Air" are breathtaking and I continue to adore her lyrics. I'm so glad that I followed up on that Tumblr post I found a few months ago about Rina, cuz I've become such a huge fan of her music, and I hadn't heard of her before that. I HIGHLY recommend checking her out. 🥰😍

See the full post

1 note - Posted September 1, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Happy 10th anniversary to Gravity Falls today!

Happy 10th anniversary to Night Vale today!

And Happy 12th anniversary to me officially moving to NYC today!

I never remember to acknowledge the day, so I'm glad I remembered this year.

🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

2 notes - Posted June 15, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[glitteringstardust]

as of yesterday it's officially been a whole month since tumblr staff last replied to one of my tickets with the lie that this shadowban glitch has been fixed when it hasn't, and almost two months since i first noticed the issue and sent a ticket in :/ i can tell this blog is still affected because when we reblog a post we don't show in the notes, our blog doesn't appear when you try to search for it, whenever i make a post and search the tags i don't see it even if i check again hours or days later, and--though this is honestly the only positive to come out of the situation--we have not gotten a single pornbot follower even though all my other blogs are getting them constantly now. almost as if for some reason they don't know this particular blog exists lol.

honestly i am really angry at this point. i don't wanna make a new blog because i like to keep all of my stuff archived in one single place, but i'm frustrated because i had stuff i wanted to make for both halloween and christmas that i didn't make because i just don't feel much motivation to post them if they won't show up in the tags. i'm frustrated because i really did want to come back to this blog again and was having a lot of fun making things before i noticed the issue, and i'm frustrated because other people say they got un-shadowbanned in like a week when it happened to them but here i am still dealing with it 2 months later? complete with staff adding insult to injury by telling me they fixed the issue when i can clearly tell they didn't? ugh i am sorry for ranting like this but i don't want to make a new blog, i don't want to just go on making posts that people can't see, i want to have this blog properly functioning lol. i swear i've been obsessively checking my email every day so i know i haven't just gotten a reply and missed it, and idk what to do other than send another ticket again.

[cocoa-rococo]

i swear if i have to send an email to tumblr staff AGAIN to un-shadowban myself for accidentally having my VPN on while i'm online, i WILL be throwing rocks at people.

which people? i don't know and don't care. woe. rocks be upon ye.

[laurenkmyers]

Hi it’s me, anon with shadowbanned blog! I’m finally free from tumblr jail after I’ve sent 2 tickets and tweeting their Twitter account. They told me that my blog got flagged because I keep sending similar messages to different blog but those are just polls vote and art contest just to get free drawings I swear 🥹 Maybe they think I’m a spam bot or something… anyways, thanks again OP! you’re a life saver. ⭐️

AHHH YAY!!! I'm so glad it worked for you too! And so quickly as well. Baffles the mind that the tumblr TWITTER is more efficient than the tumblr TUMBLR are. Wild.

But I'm so happy to hear you're back up and running again too. That does explain a lot. They never gave me a reason why I was shadowbanned. It was probably just a glitch.

[tasteleeknow]

jade!!!! it’s 🎂 anon i’m alive i swear

i had just realised that my main’s shadowbanned which is why my asks weren’t sending through gn.

i hate tumb|r sometimes, not even going to use their full name cause i swear they’ve cameras on me.. anyway..

i just finished my mocks and i’ve never been more relieved but at the same time annoyed cause now i have school again 😖

wbu how are things going in ur life bae? x

you're alive !! hihi!

oh nooo god i hate. i'm literally always on edge about that happening to me again... it was actually upsetting. mocks?? i've heard the word before and know it means exams but i don't know exactly... what it means... like practice exams? either way proud of you!

i'm... okay. my anxiety isn't great today especially but i'll live. i always survive fdjks

[scribblesforthemad]

There and Back Again - Part 21

Many, many thanks to @skyfall8600 whose excellent Sucked In series not only inspired this one, but brought me out of a years-long writing slump! The first few parts of this series are heavily inspired by her work, while diverging more significantly later on. Regardless, I wholeheartedly recommend her work, and thank her for allowing me to use a few of her excellent ideas!

series warnings: swearing, misogyny, canon-typical violence, fluff, insecurity; sfw but gets a little ~steamy~ in a couple places

part twenty-one warnings: swearing, discussion of canon-typical violence, discussion of period homophobia, kissing, angst, fluff

a/n: I managed to finally get out of a bit of a slump this weekend, and I'm really pleased with Part 21 as a result! Also please let me know if you're seeing my work in the tags--I think I might be shadowbanned, so any reblogging/commenting/promoting of this series would really help me out! (Also I just love hearing from y'all asdfhlaksjdfhas.) This part is partially dedicated to developing the friendship between Robin and reader, bc I love Robin and she deserves the whole world. Love to you all <3

taglist: @superflannel @kaitebugg03

“I don’t like this,” you announced yet again, causing groans from the Winnebago’s various other passengers.

“We know, Y/N,” Dustin said, sprawling over the seat like a bad-tempered octopus. “But we need weapons and the War Zone has them. What else are we supposed to do?” You rolled your eyes in response, but internally, you had to concede the point. You did need weapons, and the huge, remote store was the best place any of you could think of to get them.

“I just don’t want you running into Jason and his psycho killers,” you said, shooting Eddie a dirty look. He grinned, but you could see the worry in his eyes. “Sue me for caring about you.”

Max snorted from her seat in the back.

“I do know a good lawyer. Just ask Steve,” she said, before resuming her gaze out the window. You smiled in spite of yourself, glad to see the girl’s spirits returning—even if it was only temporarily.

“I believe it,” you said, glancing toward Steve and Nancy in the front of the RV. Steve motioned broadly with his right hand as he drove, and Nancy smiled fondly at his words. You couldn’t make out everything over the sputter of the Winnebago’s engine, but you knew he was laying out his grand plans for six little nuggets and yearly summer road trips. You felt a pang in your chest as you worried for the both of you. For Steve, who didn’t know if he would ever get to have the girl of his dreams—and for you, who might have gained the love of your life only to watch him die that very night. You swallowed heavily, and Eddie looked up at the noise.

“You okay, Siren?” he asked softly, his chocolate eyes wide with concern as he bent toward you, placing a gentle hand on your back. You closed your eyes and nodded, savoring the warmth of his touch. Who knew how many more times you would feel it?

By the time Steve pulled into the War Zone’s bustling parking lot, your heart was beating in time with your racing thoughts. What if Jason was in there? What if he went further than he had in the show? What if—

“We’ll be right back,” Nancy said, interrupting your reverie. “You two stay low—we don’t want to give anyone a reason to look too closely.” You gave her a small nod, and she turned on her heel, heading for the store entrance while the others trailed her like a row of ducklings. As the last one out, Dustin gave you and Eddie a somber nod before closing the door behind him, leaving the two of you alone in the RV.

Minutes passed. You chewed your bottom lip nervously, your left leg bouncing involuntarily as you tried and failed to think of anything besides the events of the coming night. Across the aisle, movement caught your attention. Your head shot up suddenly, looking for the source of the motion—and saw Eddie’s hand waving slowly in front of your face. Relaxing your shoulders, you let out a sigh of relief. It was only Eddie.

“Piece of gold for your thoughts?”

You raised your eyebrows, a small smile playing across your lips in spite of everything.

“I believe the phrase is ‘Penny for your thoughts,’ babe,” you said, evading the question. Eddie smirked, but didn’t take his eyes off of yours.

“Maybe for regular mortals,” he said confidently, folding his legs to sit cross-legged on the narrow bench. “But I figure that’s too cheap for your thoughts, princess. Yours oughta be worth at least a couple pieces of gold.” His lopsided grin made your heart flutter in your chest, and a warm blush spread across your cheeks.

“Oh, hush,” you said, not meaning it in the slightest. “You’re so dramatic, Munson.”

“Yeah, well,” he said breezily, lacing his hands behind his head. “We can’t all be bewitching siren queens or sword-swinging heroes, L/N. Gotta leave something for us court jesters.” He winked at you conspiratorially, but you didn’t smile. Something about his tone bothered you; though it was light on the surface, you could sense an undercurrent of bitterness—like he really believed he was nothing more than a jester, than an outlandish bit of entertainment for others to glance at and then forget. It nearly broke your heart.

“Don’t say that, Eddie,” you said quietly, rubbing your face tiredly with one hand.

“Say what?” he asked with confusion, leaning toward you with concern, his hands moving to rest on your knees. His big, brown eyes were quizzical, truly not understanding why you were upset.

“That you’re not a hero. It’s not true, and I can’t stand to hear you say it, not when—” you stopped yourself before you went further, a strangled sob rising in your throat. God, you were so, so scared.

“Not when what?” Eddie asked softly, tilting his head as he looked down at you, taking your small, soft hands into his large, calloused ones. You sniffled, taking several deep breaths as you tried to calm the storm of emotions roiling inside you. When you felt you could speak again, you looked into the deep brown eyes you’d fallen for since that first scene in the cafeteria. You took another deep breath.

“In the show,” you whispered, your eyes flicking down as your confidence wavered. “That what you said in the show, right before—”

You couldn’t finish the sentence, but it didn’t matter. When you looked at him again, Eddie’s gaze had changed. He looked more somber now, taking in the full impact of your words—but his hold on your hands never wavered. The steady pressure continued, as warm and strong as it always had been.

It amazed you how much he was focused on you in this moment—he’d just been told some of his last words, which would be spoken that very evening, and yet he was focused entirely on you. He was scared, sure, that much was obvious. But he didn’t let the fear consume him, or direct his actions, or do anything other than fuel his empathy for you. He was so much stronger than he believed; not an all-powerful comic-book hero saving the day with a roundhouse kick, but an everyday hero. A you’re-too-tired-from-work-so-I’ll-do-the-dishes, make-stupid-jokes-when-you’re-anxious, take-in-and-look-after-every-high-school-outcast kind of hero.

A real hero.

 “I love you,” you said, the words spilling from your lips before you could really think about it.

Eddie’s head shot up, his eyes widening with shock at your words. You blushed deeply at his reaction, hoping he didn’t think you were crazy, saying “I love you” after only a few days of being together. But the words were true, and you couldn’t—and wouldn’t—take them back.

“Sorry, I know it’s soon, but it’s true, and I’m just so scared for tonight, and Eddie—” Your voice broke on his name, and you looked pleadingly into his eyes. “Please, Eddie, promise me you won’t do anything stupid tonight. I love you so much, and I can’t—I can’t lose you,” you begged, your voice trailing into a ragged whisper. “I just can’t.”

Eddie’s face was still blank with shock that quickly morphed into bewilderment. He cupper your face in his hands, his eyes wide as he looked at you like he couldn’t quite believe what he was seeing. Like a thing so precious couldn’t possibly be his.

“Say something,” you whispered, your stomach twisting in knots at his silence. The afternoon light filtered through the curtains behind him, nearly forming a halo over his dark curls. You held your breath, your subconscious taking a moment to appreciate his beauty while your conscious mind was frozen with anticipation.

“I—I love you too, Y/N,” he finally stammered, an incredulous smile breaking across his face, making him look even more angelic. “More than I can say, hell—more than I thought was possible.” His voice grew huskier as emotion welled up in his throat. “I promise I’m not going anywhere. I’d spend the next fifty years doing only sensible things if it meant I could spend them with you.” Your heart swelled at his words, and you allowed yourself to hope for the first time in days. It felt like the first breath of air after a long and treacherous swim. “My Siren,” he whispered, drawing you toward him and resting his forehead on yours.

The kiss you shared next drove all thoughts of bats and spells and monsters from your mind, leaving only Eddie.

Only Eddie.

*             *             *                                              

The drive to the empty field was a short one, through a landscape just starting to acknowledge the coming of spring. Tiny patches of spring beauties and carpets of deadnettles dotted the emerging green with strokes of white and violet, shifting gently in the still-wintry wind. With the RV’s engine off, the afternoon was quieter than you’d expect, the insects not yet hatched and the birds still roosting in their warmer winter climes.

In fact, as you sat near the Winnebago with Robin, the only noise you heard was the playful fighting of Eddie and Dustin fifty yards away, charging and tackling each other before wielding sticks as imaginary longswords. You smiled gently as you watched them, loving the way Eddie instinctually put everyone at ease with his antics. The fondness you felt was so overwhelming, you didn’t even notice Robin staring until she spoke in your ear.

“You’ve really got it bad, huh?” she asked, nodding toward Eddie and Dustin, who were now mounting a valiant assault on the Sinclairs’ spear-making camp. You bit your lip, both embarrassed and happy to have been caught.

“Yeah,” you said simply, a bashful grin forming on your reddened face. “I really, really do. Lucky for me, he does too. Though I have no idea what I did to deserve it.” You gave Eddie one more fond look before turning to face Robin, who you were surprised to see was nearly on the verge of tears. “Hey, hey, hey,” you said soothingly, concern filling your voice as you reached for her, stroking her arms gently as she looked at you through glassy eyes. Your heart ached as you realized what was wrong. After all, you’d watched happy couples for years, forcing yourself to smile through the pain that came with observing the happiness you couldn’t have for yourself.

“I feel like such an idiot,” Robin said, pulling her arms from your grasp and crossing them protectively over her chest. “Like, in the face of the world ending, the stakes of my love life feel spectacularly low.” She let out a pained laugh. “And yet, I still can’t get her stupid laugh out of my head. Only it’s not stupid, its wonderful, and I could spend the rest of my natural life listening to it.” She swallowed hard. “Not that that’s likely to be very long, anyway.” Your gaze softened as you looked at your friend, the one who’d welcomed you from the start and treated you like a real, human person instead of an interdimensional freak. You took a deep breath. Fuck time paradoxes. Robin needed you.

“I can’t pretend like I know exactly what you’re going through, or that it will all magically get better and people will stop being assholes.” You took your hand in hers, causing her to look you in the eye as a single tear rolled down her cheek. “But I promise you, it does get easier.” You took a deep breath, trying to find the right words, the ones that would give even a glimmer of hope. “Like, 2022 is really, really far from perfect, and there’s still definitely homophobia, but it’s a lot less…blatant than it is now. Most of my friends came out in high school,” you said, smiling as you thought of them, “and no one gave a shit at all. A couple of them even went to prom together—slow-danced in the gym and everything.”

Robin’s eyes were wide with awe and longing, a flicker of hope stirring behind her tear-filled eyes. You glanced down at your feet, shifting your weight uncomfortably on the overturned plastic bucket.

Suddenly, there were wiry arms being thrown around your neck, holding you tighter than was strictly comfortable, but you didn’t mind. You wrapped your arms around Robin, returning the hug with a fierceness that surprised even you. Over the past month, Robin had grown into one of the best and closest friends you’d ever had. You’d shared laughter, and fear, and boredom; played pranks on Steve and plotted world-saving schemes on the weekends. Now, you were preparing for the final battle—the one that would decide if you’d done any good in Hawkins, Indiana.

And there was no one you’d rather have fighting by your side.

[throwaway-yandere]

oooh languages!! i feel so behind, everyone seems to know all these cool languages (french, german, etc) and i'm just here like. uhhhh. i know english? hsldjflksjdf

personally english is my second language in both the sense that it's not my mother tongue and the second language i'm most fluent/comfortable using. my japanese is... i would say n3 level? since i cleared n5 and n4 workbooks without issue. i need to get back to learning that ;w;

there's also javanese and chinese i guess. but i'm not that confident in those...

yall are awesome!! sending looks of admiration to you and the anons *w*

ps. i saw that you're working on my matchup and i'm screaming sldjfklsjdfl pls take your time tho, no rush!

pps. food and water reminder!!!

- ✾

Huhu I wanna learn Japanese so bad for those unlocalized otome games (great motivation, ansy) but I can't even pronounce my favorite japanese phrase/word: "aishiteru" properly. Purple friend fricking laughs at me because of it and she pokes fun at how I can't say "ara ara" without it sounding like "awa awa" like Itto does when he raps–

... maybe i really should pick up learning a new language at this point instead of just searching "swear words in swedish" whenever I don't want my dad to know I'm cursing lol

Yeah you anons are all really awesome that I'm starting to actually consider properly learning a third language lol (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)!!! Oh and thanks for the reminder I almost skipped snacks again today haha. (I'm shadowbanned rn so idk when exactly I can post it properly once I'm finished writing huhu, that's why I still have Itto's matchup in my docs lol)

[pirate-queen-pasha]

Welp, it looks like my original entry has been shadowbanned, so I'm gonna throw up another post so I appear in the contest tag again. I swear on my honor that I was on time, devs.

Here's my (re)entry with my Portia masquerade gown, which was an 8 month project and a massive learning curve. I started out as a beginner seamstress! Also, it has pockets.

You can read more about the creation of the gown on the original entry, found in my top posts because I can't link anything or risk getting shadowbanned again. Yikes.

[necros-writing-stuff]

Bruh, idk how you could stand being shadowbaned for so long it feels weird. I didn't realize it restricted so much.

Also, I can't reply to the ask u sent cause I'm a dummy and also hit post limit 😔

- quiet

It sucks so fucking much I swear.

You want my advice? Repeal the ban on desktop, not mobile. Whenever I tried on mobile jack shit got done about it, but lo and behold when I did it on desktop the issue was solved in a few hours.

To stop the ban happening again? Tumblr saves the damn photo that got you shadow banned and even cropping the thing and reposting will get you yeeted again. Happened to me when I wanted to make an art gift my pfp, and cropped out my PC's nipple from it. Didn't matter. Also I'm pretty sure when I had an Eden background that they shadowbanned me for his damn boobies. ITS MALE EDEN! HIS BOOBIES ARE ALLOWED TUMBLR!

[enhihi]

HIIIIII my account is no longer shadow banned 🎉

i hope you are well! i'd like to apologise in advance for taking your time, but i'd really appreciate it if you could spare a few minutes to read thr following through.

big little updates:

ー apology

i'm terribly sorry for not interacting with your content these last few days ever since my shadow banning. i looked at them, i swear! (or some of them, let me explain) at first it felt like taking day off from writing so its all good. i scrolled through my dash like usual and saw your posts (though like i said, i refrained from interacting). but as time went by, it felt disheartening because i didnt know how long i'm going to be shadowbanned, so i started coming to tumblr a lot lesser. now that i'm back, i'll slowly and properly react to them (especially those that are directed to me).

ー milestone event

aaaaa thank you for your continuous support despite my absence! once again and forevermore, you have my deepest gratitude. i'm working my way to complete the current requests i received and will start posting tonight. i think i'll continue accepting requests (if you feel like dropping yours) for the time being, but i wouldnt reblog the event post anymore. so if you see it, you see it (you're probably tired of me reblogging it anyway sjsjsjs).

ー moots

lovelies, i missed you. but i'm gonna drop a massive bomb so get ready; i'll be unfollowing some of you. please hear me out before you get a heart attack or scroll pass because this is important (at least to me). throughout my shadow banning period, i've been silently observing the type of content your blog entertains. so i started to be more aware of which acc contains things i'm uncomfortable with. i'm not a minor, but there are things i do not wish to see in my dash, even more so if they pop around too often. so i'm going to unfollow some of you with the basis of i have the right to choose what i want to see in my tumblr (because this is my happy place) as much as you have the right to interact with whatever you want (because tumblr might be your happy place too). i know you have byf and dni. i'm sorry to tell you that i was ignorant of them before and i've learned my lesson. just because i'll be unfollowing you, though, doesnt mean i wouldnt be supporting your work (if you're a content creator). this whole action of mine is simply to control what kind of thing to consume and nothing against our friendship.

it has been a long ride, but thank you for reading my post here until the end. i'll be popping in your noti once again from now on, so please take care of me. 💜 *bows