#I want new Insta name tho just can’t think of one

[webslingingslasher]

babe i’m here to vent (it’s gonna be more of an update rant even tho i can’t update u if never gave u any info in the first place)

- so at the beginning of the school year i had a crush on this guy—whom we shall call blueberry—but he’s only in one of my classes and i don’t rlly know much about him other than his major and insta. so one day i see he has a NGL on his story and i show my friends, who then try to get me to say i have a crush on him bc it’s anonymous and he wouldn’t know but as we all may guess, i’m a coward. my friend ended up saying “one of her friends has a crush on you” to which he proceeded to answer with something along the lines of “i don’t really care about relationships and stuff like that at the moment” so i was like okay, that’s fine it’s just a silly schoolgirl crush anyway UNTIL THIS GUY LITERALLY PULLS UP WITH A WHOLE GIRLFRIEND TWO DAYS LATER.

- To nobody’s surprise, i was wrong and it wasn’t a silly crush bc i was quite devastated for a bit after but i’ve now recovered from that boy.

- But,

Now I have a new crush. And he’s a walking green flag. We’ll call him airplane. Airplane, blueberry, and two of my friends are all in the year above me and my other friend keeps saying that airplane is more likely to date the one in the year above me (who also finds him cute) because they’re in the same year (which tbh kinda makes me feel bad abt myself but that’s a different story).

- Some info abt airplane: he’s hella cute, tall, incredibly kind, funny and he’s in film. FILM. LIKE????

- Anyway, a couple days ago i was with my two friends and airplane and we were all joking around but one of them had to leave and a couple minutes later the other one did too which left me alone with him and he just kept joking around around, keeping the same conversation from earlier going. after some time, he had to go to the restroom and i waited for him but i had to leave at one point so i left him a note:

hey,

i’m sorry i had to go but i didn’t want to just leave without saying bye. thank you for the jokes, had a great time.

and i put my name on it but everyone’s telling me i should’ve put my number on it too but as i mentioned earlier—IM A COWARD😭

so that’s my life rn 🤭

-🥝

blueberry: he does anoymous question links. and he's a regular human. not even famous. he's just talking to himself. flexing he doesn't want a relationship bc he thinks it makes girls want him more? we commend the coward in you.

airplane:

girl 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

if you don't TRY he rlly will date the girl in his same year 😭😭😭 can u find him on insta and slide in orrrr... cause, like, bestie, that note sounded like a friendzone 😭😭 didn't even tell the man goodbye - i'm screaming😭😭😭😭

[jeonqkooks]

the reason why Im not a fan of my boys working or seen with women is because of this type of ARMYs who like to make it some romantic interaction like CANT YOU ACT NORMAL?

even before the news comes out, there are some army who make the whole fucking thread that indicate they're match together, the vibes and all. I get it, but then it leads to, offfs i want them to be together, they looks so good together. and then boom, another type of ARMY who seen this and goes to that women instagram and left all the bad comments. GOSH THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING. and they lose focus on our BOYS because they are busy to stalk, made a video, get their name trending, editing some photos to match the vibes and all.

you guys can't be NORMAL for once. can you chill tf out for a bit? go streams and hype our Boys. that's all. Thankyou.

my boys can do whatever they like you know? you army who make it hard. let them be. we here to support them okay? apobangpo 💜

i want to say this a long time a go actually it makes me sick because all twitter and tiktok are full of this. ughhh. but seeing you open to talk about it then yeah here.

I’m sooo exicted for SEVEN tho 💜💃🏻

I’m not hating on anyone okay. to army, you need to be normal for once. don’t over reacting. and lets just wait for them 💜

please no hard feelings okay 🥹💜🫶🏻

no yeah a lot of people’s reactions are so 😂 most of the time. exactly like you said, some people tend to immediately turn toward hate, going on their social media to say WEIRD things. and on the other side of the spectrum, you have people who are already making their wedding invitations. this morning i was watching youtube shorts (yes i am that person who doesn’t have tiktok but would indulge in a couple hrs of insta reels and youtube shorts here and there 💀) and i came across this one of han so hee walking through the airport recently with the caption “jungkook’s baby 🐰” like …… aight? 💀 if you’re (not YOU anon, i’m addressing people in general) the kind of person whose immediate reaction is either “i hate you, [insert member’s name] would never date you 🔪” or “their babies are going to be beautiful 😍” then sorry i think you’re weird ……

this is why i stay away from twt and tiktok bc most people there are not cpaable of being normal 😑 and 99% of the people i follow on tumblr only post official news and never speculate or make comments about these things so my dash is very peaceful 🫶

like, when we feel a certain way about certain news, i think that’s completely ok bc you’re entitled to those feelings, and no one is telling you that you can’t be feeling like that. as long as you recognize that those are your feelings and as long as you don’t go attacking people who have nothing to do with this then that’s fine. we’re all allowed to be upset as much as we’re allowed to be happy and excited but at the end of the day this is literally a parasocial relationship and if you’re going around commenting barfing emojis on a stranger’s ig posts then you’re only embarrassing yourself 🫶 live laugh love and make sure you have a nice and healthy fandom experience y’all

apobango 💜🫶

[afroblogs]

Flirting and meeting new people

Hey y’all I didn’t really want this to be my first post on this blog but I just think it’s a good thing to talk about. When you find the courage to talk to someone you don’t know just because they are cute and not only do you get a reply back but you even start talking is an amazing feat. It takes a lot of work to get there, and I would know. Because when it comes to how I feel about myself it really took some guts. So yesterday I was proud of myself for going up to someone who I thought was cute (Although in hindsight that was a bad idea because he kinda looked like my ex but I mean it’s ok to have a type). 

I put on my best perfume and I had on one of my cutest outfits and I went up and asked him if he had a snap (so juvenile I know) He gave me his insta instead and I followed him. We started a lil convo and he was so slick with that “What’s the name of your perfume I can’t get it out of my head,” stuff. Then we started talking again the next day and stuff. We talked about our hobbies and workouts and stuff. 

Now of course my dumb behind was not paying attention to some red flags like the fact that he likes hunting or the more obvious thing was, HE STARTED TALKING TO ME ABOUT HIS FOOT FETISH. (Which honestly is not shaming anyone just like we met a day ago. Why are you telling me this but I digress). Honestly I felt a little bad after that tho because when I met him the day before I had not only done a foot peel but I put those cute toe tips on and had on a cute pair of wedges so my feet looked really good, and I mean if this was to become a relationship then that wouldn’t be such a bad thing. 

But this ladies and gents is not a love story. So we keep talking, I have no indication that anything is going south until I ask “Can I ask you a question.” Next thing I know is instagram telling me this user page has been deleted, So in my head I’m trying to figure out what I did wrong, even consulting my counsel of friends for advice on that situation. Only for my friend to show me that I’ve been blocked. 

For what reason I don’t know. And honestly before I get ahead of myself I forgot to tell y’all the reason I said that was because he had some girl's profile tagged in his bio, (again another ignored red flag) I was just trying to figure out if I was some other woman before we even got to that stage. So to be for real with y’all even if he seems sweet off the jump a dude can still be weird.

I mean after all the sweet dude you can end up talking to a dude who’s only attracted to your feet and butt. But don’t take this as me saying don’t put yourself, please if you feel like you're ready for love or you just want to meet people then by all means do it. Just remember to stay safe when doing that because you never know who you're gonna find, take it from me.

(Now I'm gonna go write fanfictions about my favorite men to make myself feel better so check that out on afrowrites)

Your Best Black Girlfriend,

Afro~

XOXO

[diaryfullofsparklesandkisses]

Lol it’s funny, I barely ever talk to my family anymore. Mainly because I’m not really sure how they’d react to me transitioning and being more feminine. Also I’m very unsure how conservative most are, some I know how views that make me a tad scared and others I’m like could go either way. But like I rarely make the effort to reach out right, and sometimes I do like on socials.. a handful of them follow me online like they know I “have pronouns” type of thing.. when I do reach out sometimes it doesn’t get volleyed back very clearly like that happened today.. but also I literally never have any of them reaching out to me or trying to talk to me. I have distanced myself physically, so, fair. But a bunch of them have me on insta, like they could message me. If they had questions or just wanted to talk I 100% would. That’s another thing like, bro I am an open book if u ask me questions, I will tell u everything. No one ever asks about what I do or what happened to me. And that’s good kinda because I don’t want some shit to start, I have a trans and queer second cousin and it was rough. Like I’m not gonna full come out to my mega christian family and be like hi I’m new name and they pronouns like god no so cringe I can’t. Maybe that’s why I’m not like haha hey let’s hang out yay! That sounds so uncomfortable. They’re good people and my friends, it just is unforch they’re not like, progressive christians I guess. That disturbs me a little right, that dissonance is hard to get past and it’s done a lot of damage to a lot of families over the years. But anyway like, I think people don’t want to know. I don’t think they hate me, cuz like literally what have I done except come out in my own life now, as if they couldn’t have seen that coming I’ve always been the weird kid. Even tho I feel like I’ve become more “normal” now lmao. But like nooobody checks up on me, I actually truthfully don’t care I know I could, it just makes me question what that’s about. Even my dad lol. I think I give off the vibe that I don’t want to talk maybe? I think ppl think they’re better not knowing, maybe they get the vibe of my politics and that I’m not straight. But idk like besides suffering under “the system” lmao, I’m not a bad person or having a bad time. Like I wonder if they think that because I’d definitely vote democrat that I’m evil or lost or something. Then I’m like oh geez what/who would they want me to be, and what would that even look like. And how off and weird that would be to who I am right.. like I know I don’t fit in. But again like I’m not a bad person or a criminal. I have a lot of empathy I think, I like to talk to ppl about their problems and talk it out or try to give appropriate advice. Like maybe they think I’m bad idk, for some reason that also weird me out. I don’t think they’re bad, I know for a fact some have old fashioned annoying views about gay ppl being allowed to marry but that’s not their whole personality. Yes I don’t like that but I live in the world some people have bad takes. Some people hate “pronoun ppl” right like, but I’ll still have a conversation w them. Maybe about that but I’d rather not. Like I get they might think I’m weird for that but, I can very logically explain it, and I don’t give a shit if someone doesn’t want to use they/them, like I have to not care right. Idk I think I’m reasonable and fine to talk to. Anyway lol, just kinda weird that all I had to do to stop talking to my family I’m slightly scared of was to move away. Again I actually think I don’t care, maybe I do if I’m thinking abt it this much but I think it’s just meh.. but that being said it’s does feel like I was kinda forgotten about lmao. And it’s kinda nice to not have to pretend I’m christian and never swear or whatever. Again idk what they’d prefer me to turn out like.. I just feel like either accidentally or purposefully I’m a dirty little secret lmao. Probably just me making it up. Like I super could be tripping on this one. It’s just been so long, and there has never ever been any fights or even stated disagreements. Weird idk

[doitytoity]

9.11

I think I may have dated last nights post as August but it is for sure sept

Anyway. I’m going to try a lil social experiment. I’m not going to tell my friends about Rudy. I’m going to keep it 100% here. Because there’s some energy in the ether that is very poisonous and I wanna get to the root of it.

So okay. He hit me up in January like RIGHT after izier moved in with me and he was like let’s smoke sometime and I was like damn this timing is horrible cause I just got myself into a sticky ass situation but who knows maybe things will change. He said thanks for being honest and we left it at that. So then yesterday I posted a before photo of me getting ready to go bowling w Adreana and he swiped up on it and was like “damn, smoke one” and like i didn’t know if he was gonna give me shit about a Michael Jackson joke I was making on the post blah blah blah anyway so I engaged in convo and he was like “but smoke one tho, I’ve asked b444” and I was like oop 👀 so I was like fasho when and he said he’s only here on the weekends (which is like great for my schedule) so I gave him my number and told him to hit me up next weekend and he basically immediately texted me. So he’s kinda fitting my criteria rn for the type of pursuit I want. Like I get that it’s been less than 24 hours but still I mean it’s 8 months later and he’s hitting me up AGAIN with like a follow up invite to smoke like that’s cute. That’s the energy I want. So crazy too that my tarot scopes have been like “they’re watching you on social media, they have a crush on you they just don’t know where you stand or like how available you are etc etc” AND LOOK! Here he is. I thought for sure it’d be jojo lol I’m so glad it’s Rudy. Well idk if I’m actually glad yet idk him or his personality but I am attracted to him.

Regardless of how this turns out rn I feel like I’m being blessed for my obedience to my higher self like I blocked that extra number that izier was trying to contact me via, I removed Johnny from watching my shit, I muted his stories and posts, all that. I’m not pursuing not chasing not pushing not nothing like I’m just happily existing and trying to figure my own stuff out and I feel like he’s doing the same thing. Plus he like doesn’t seem like a dirtbag like he seems morally sound as far as how to treat someone. I just hope he’s nice.

I really am trying to mind my business. I feel like the next steps in that are implementing literally any kind of physical movement, and working on more art. I want to work on photo portraits with that lil camera app I have and my ring light. I need to bring my mirror in. I want to work on collages. I want to sew. I had the idea the other day to make a shirt out of my Betty boop sheets and my flame pillow case. I just gotta go get my fabric out of storage. I wish I had more space to craft. I can’t wait for my phone appt I want to get back on antidepressants I think. I need some mental space. I need some motivation. I want a schedule. I want to be able to stick to it and get my silly little tasks done. I want to learn a new language. Probably starting with Spanish. Even tho it’s not necessarily new… I want to do something besides lay in bed and avoid life. Be all up on sosh meed y’know. Like I don’t want to exist in that space as I have been anymore. It’s time for like a rebrand.

I think now, in the midst of mercury retrograde, it is the best time to step away from all that and reevaluate. I think maybe for the rest of the year I’d like to go on a hiatus. I’d like to build the other insta (the honest one) I’d like to build the YouTube (which I will be working on and posting to in October after merc goes direct). Since libra is in my 10th and it’s my mid heaven I’m likely to make a name for myself on a grand scale. This involves fame on the internet. Fame from public speaking and sharing my truth story and journey.

I had a revelation the other day that I’d like to be able to help women escape abusers. I’d like to be able to have resources, shelters, etc. A foundation for women who want to learn to love themselves outside of relationships, and esp relationships that are negative harmful or otherwise unfulfilling. I’d like to support women who need it. Women who want to help themselves and know it’s time.

That starts with me, knowing it is time now to invest in myself in all ways. Physically, mentally, creatively. I can’t do that if I’m looking to others for inspiration, validation, etc. That all needs to come from within. And it’s time.

So I’m vowing to myself. It begins today. I am now entering the timeline in which I become the best version of myself. Independent, creative, focused, determined, healthy, fulfilled.

No more without. Only within.

[yo-im-a-bisexual]

This is my first time writing and i'm definitely no writer. English isn't even my first language. It is kinda long but I swear it's going somewhere. I just really love them and this will only work untill we get a new kieutou clip so whatever. Hope you enjoy. And I'm sorry if it sucks. constructive criticism is always okay but I will probably not take it into account because I am already depressed. Enjoy!!

Basically what I wish happened today for kieu my.

'but we'll definitely see each other when you come back?' 14:31

Kieu my stared at fatou's text notification on her phone, not knowing what to answer.

She still didn't know how to feel about their interaction on Tuesday, it all happened so fast and the last thing she wanted was to fight with her girlfriend.

At the time, leaving seemed like the best solution and Kieu my had every right to feel conflicted about what fatou said.

"you're the only thing distracting me from everything else at the moment"

The words resonate in her head. It hurt. Kieu my couldn't hide that those words are the ones that kept her up that night. And obviously, also the crazy situation they were in right now.

"Kieu my?" The words broke her out of her trance and she looked up from her phone to see Zoe looking at her with a worried look on her face.

"Are you okay? You've been checking your phone every five minutes since we got here" Zoe added getting closer to her

"yeah, I'm fine. I'm just... Forget it." She answered her best friend. "We're gonna lose the guys if we don't keep up" she said looking straight ahead.

Zoe didn't push her and just agreed. Kieu my put her phone back in her pocket. They jogged a little to catch up with their friends and they just kept walking.

She looked at the small group and laughed dryly to herself, which earned her a weird look from Constantin. Somehow her tall dumb friend got himself all the way to fricking Brandenburg and couldn't remember how. When Ismail told her about a 'Consti-emergency' she figured they would have to go get him from a ditch somewhere, she just would have never guessed it was from the countryside, one (1) and a half hour away from Berlin.

On the way there Ismail had told them that Constantin had called them completely trashed asking for help.

Kieu my really hasn't been keeping up with what's been happening in her friends lives. She felt bad. But at the same time, how could she? She's had so much to deal with between her parents and the shop and school and... Fatou. There she goes again. Even when she tries to be mad at her she just can't keep the skater out of her head. She reaches for her phone in her pocket when she hears a commotion ahead.

When she looks up she sees Contantin throwing up in a bush. She looks away not wanting to throw up herself.

"You guys go and head back i'll take care of... This" she hears Ismail say and when she turns back around she sees them patting the blonde's back

"are you sure?" Finn asks them and when they only nod their head 'yes' he looks at Zoe.

"yeah... okay let's go then" Zoe finally says after a minute of staring at the ground. "Text us if you need anything and when he... Calms down." She adds with a tight lipped smile. Zoe grabs her boyfriend's hand and her Best friend's arm and they start walking away.

"well that was... Unexpected?" Kieu my says after a few minutes of silence.

"yeah/yeah" both Finn and Zoe answer at the same time. "I'll text my brother and tell him we're coming back" Finn adds.

They got lucky this time around. Last time, they had to drive an hour to go get Constantin and drive back to Berlin in the middle of the night. But luckily Finn's brother somehow lived in Brandenburg so they didn't have to drive all the way back. When they got there and found the passed out boy they decided they all needed a break.

After about a twenty (20) minute walk and a small bus ride they finally got to the small house. It was cozy. Kieu my really couldn't complain. She got to share a room with her best friend while the boys would have to try and fit on the couch in the living room. Although she's pretty sure she's gonna sleep alone because Finn somehow managed to find another bed in what seemed to be the attic and with some good arguments managed to convince Zoe to sleep with him in there. But she's also pretty sure she won't be able to sleep anyway.

Like every winter day, night falls pretty fast. It's past 8 p.m and they already ate. Constantin is passed out on the couch and the others are talking about all sorts of things in the kitchen. Kieu my takes it as her queue to go to her room.

"I'm gonna get some rest. I need my beauty sleep" she tells them. They all say goodnight and she's left walking to her room alone.

It's only ten (10) minutes later when someone knocks at her door. "Can I come in kieu?" It's Zoe.

"yes, please"

"so are you ready to tell me what happened with Fatou or not?" Zoe asks nonchalantly.

"how did you even-" she gets cut off

"Come on Kieu, you're my best friend... and I saw the dozen texts she left on your phone" Zoe drags out

Kieu my falls on her bed and zoe sits next to her playing with her best friend's hair.

"I feel like I messed up... Like somehow I did something wrong and now she's pulling away from me" she starts and even before Zoe can say anything she continues. "But I just wanted to help her and she..."

"she what?"

"she said I was a distraction. And that I should leave her alone and she just got angry at me and I didn't want to fight with her so I... Left. Oh my god, I shouldn't have left right? Now she's gonna think I was there only for school stuff. She probably needed me and I left... Am I a terrible person Zoe?" She let out in barely one breath.

"See now you're spiraling. Take a breath, okay? No you are not a bad person. You were just upset and Fatou probably was too but those kinda things happen in a relationship. Me and Finn argue all the time and most of the time it's because one of us misunderstood something the other did or said" Zoe reassured her

Kieu my took a few deep breaths and sat up in the bed. She started playing With her fingers like she always does when she's feeling things.

"I guess I'm just scared that right now she's into me because I'm a good enough distraction but the moment she doesn't need me anymore... She'll just move on to someone more experienced or more interesting." The words leave her mouth with shaky breaths. Kieu my's eyes start shining but she blinks a couple time to keep the tears away.

"oh Kieu, you are such an idiot sometimes" the blonde laughs while kieu my looks at her dumbfounded. "Fatou is not like that. Nora once told me that one time, when the girls had a sleepover Fatou couldn't stop talking about you for the entire afternoon, so much so that when she fell asleep she was still saying your name" she continues. Kieu my blushes at the statement, thankful that the light is dim enough for her friend not to notice. Before Kieu my can say anything her very talkative friend continues. "She's smitten, Kieu. Maybe she just as some stuff going on. I mean don't we all" she adds wich earns a small laugh from her friend

Before they can continue their conversation someone knocks at the door and comes in without waiting for an answer. It's Finn, with a big smile on his face.

"hey girls!" He says way too excitedly. "I was wondering if Zoe.." he says looking at his girlfriend. "..Would like to come join me in our fine chambers?"

Zoe looks at her friend who is smiling at her. "Duty calls. Sorry. But if you wanna keep talking-" Kieu my cuts her off.

"Go, don't worry I'm fine. Thanks for the talk"

Zoe smiles one last time before running out of the room hand in hand with Finn.

Kieu my lays back down and closes her eyes. She can't help but think about Fatou. How does she manage to always be on her mind, it's unrealistic. She thinks about their date at the museum. Their date. She smiles to herself and covers her face with her arm to hide it. She thinks about how she nerded out to her and she just answered with something as nerdy. About how at that moment she kissed. About how well their lips fit together. About how happy she was that day. Maybe Zoe was right maybe she was spiraling.

Her phone rang and snapped her out of her thoughts. She looked at it for the first time since they got back. She gasps

It's Fatou. Of course it's Fatou, she probably thinks she ghosted her again. The moment she picks it up it stops ringing. Kieu my hesitates but puts it back down. She gets a text and as fast as she put it down she picks it back up. It's a text from Fatou. She also notices she's got some texts from her mom and a missed call from Ismail.

'hey, I just saw on your Insta you're doing a 'social media cleanse', sorry for calling you it's probably against that whole thing' -21:37

Right, Kieu my thinks, the social media cleanse.. that was Zoe's idea honestly. Another text.

'you looked really good in those pictures tho, real 'twilight' vibes🧛 -21:38

Kieu my smiles at her phone and starts to write an answer when she remembers that they haven't actually resolved their issue. And yes Fatou apologized but Kieu my expects something better than a text. On another hand she did tell her girlfriend to call her when she calmed down.

'can I call you again' -21:40 'please?' -21:40

Her phone rang again but this time she picked it up and answered. She waits a few seconds.

"hey.." she hears her girlfriend's tired voice from the other end

"hi." She says back, trying to keep her composure even behind the phone.

"how are you? I saw your posts and got worried"

"I'm.. fine, it was all pretty last minute" she answers

"Oh okay, It's good to hear your voice"

There's a silence, it's not awkward, somehow it's sad.

"Fatou?"

"yes"

"are you..." She begins but can't find the strength to finish.

"i'm not" she hears more than sees the sad smile. "I got fired"

"what- Why? When?" Kieu my asks

"Saturday. I messed up a bunch of times. Was late even. I don't know..." Fatou sounds so defeated

"I'm sorry. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know.. it's not your fault"

"Fatou. I just want you to know that I didn't come to your place just for school stuff. I wanted- I want to help you and I just feel so helpless because you can see right through me and I can't seem to understand any of your problems. I'm sorry." Kieu my starts rambling but gets cut off by Fatou laughing dryly.

"Are you serious? I was the asshole and you feel bad. I'm the one that should be sorry and I am. I am sorry. I don't have an excuse I shouldn't have snapped at you like that" Fatou says and Kieu my thinks that they don't have the same definition of snapped.

"Look, I don't like this, you being mad at me and us not talking so if you just give me a chance to really explain myself I would really like it if you would come and meet me when you get back" the skater girl continues

"yeah, I would also like that" she says with a small smile

"oh okay.. great.. well would you be up for a date at a ping-pong table bar then?"

"definitely"

"great, okay then I guess I'll just leave you to your cleansing"

Kieu my laughs

"goodnight Kieu my"

A pause

"goodnight Fatou"

She hangs up.

Kieu my knows that their conversation isn't over but for now she'll take it. For now it's good.

"was that Fatou?" A voice startles her from the doorway. It's Ismail.

"Shit- you scared me." She paused "Yes it was Fatou"

"Great cause I couldn't handle your sad moping face anymore. What'd you guys talk about?" They ask

She ignores his question. "I do not have a moping face." She says with a hurt look across her face. They look at her.

"Was it that obvious?" She asks with a frown

"Yes! Babe come on even Consti could have noticed if he wasn't puking his soul in the bushes" Ismail says dramatically. "Now come on give me the details. I need to know everything that is happening between my bestie and the mother of my tortoise" they sit next to Kieu my.

"you're so dramatic" she laughs. "Relax, we had a... Quarrel on Tuesday and she apologized and asked if we could meet up to talk about it" she tell them

"a quarrel? Okay m'lady... About?"

"some stupid school stuff" she lied.

"well you're a terrible liar because I overheard that entire phone call so what's up inside that little head of yours"

"Ismail, boundaries, please"

"oh please I've seen you at your lowest miss vu. There's literally nothing you can hide from me now."

She hesitates but starts talking anyway. "You know how I told you about me officially 'meeting' her friends last week" they nodded. "Well when she got there she was visibly upset and I didn't know why and then she got a text and got even more upset and now she just told me she got fired." She takes a breath. "And I just feel bad because those are all things I'm supposed to know about my girlfriend you know? Except she doesn't talk to me about that stuff and I don't know how to get her to open up.." she finishes breathless.

"you poor disaster" Ismail smiles and shakes their head. "You ask her" she's about to cut him off but they put their finger in front of her. "You find the right way to ask her. Love language Kieu my... Love language." They stand up and put their hand up like a shakespearean poet and goes on. "Give her time to open up, this is Fatou Jallow we're talking about. And remember communication is key." They finish, winking and walking backwards to the door and closing it behind them.

Kieu my was about to laugh at her friend's theatrics when the door opens up again and Ismail walks back in.

"no, but I just wanted to ask if I could sleep here cause Constantin has taken the whole couch and he smells like a dead body so...?"

The both of them laugh and Ismail slides next to Kieu my in the bed. "I'm gonna take that as a yes" they say.

"sleep well, ice queen" they mumble already falling asleep

"shut up" she smiles.

That night she dreamt about her girlfriend. She remembers all those weeks ago when her friend sleeping next to her asked her how the dreamy skater girl made her feel. At the time she hadn't known how to put her feelings into words. At that time her girlfriend was just a silly crush. Except Kieu my vu never got silly crushes. But she had instantly known Fatou was different. She was different then and she's different now. And with that thought she drifted into a peaceful sleep. Her insecurities forgotten for the night. She should have never worried about any of this in the first place. Soon she's gonna see the girl she loves again and everything will be alr-

*record scratch*

She woke up with a gasp.

"I love her"

She panted

"congrats, you're the last one to know" she heard Ismail mumble in their pillow.

She smiled to herself, feeling dumb for realising this just now. Looking at her phone she saw 5 a.m. deciding she deserved a little bit more sleep she closed her eyes and with a content sigh drifted back to sleep.

"when I get back we'll definitely see each other" she thought

Okay so I'm too lazy to read this and check for any mistakes so if there are any point them out and i'll fix it. Hope you enjoyed and if you took the time to actually read all this thank you I appreciate. Should I make a part 2? Or Fatou's pov maybe?

Update: the response as been amazing. Like I'm actually shocked by how nice some people can be. Thank you so much.

Re-update: I had my exams this week and am really fucking exhausted and i'm just gonna wait and see what happens tonight. If it's a sad clip i'm probably gonna write the version I would've wanted to happen but i guess we'll see. Sorryyy

[drkineildwicks]

Temtem – 12/10/2021 – Still Hunting Nessla...

Oh help me I’m back on my Temtem—

Anywho I really need to log on this more frequently

Now’s a good time because FF14 is stuffed to the gills thanks to the new update

Plus THIS time I get to be paid for it because I’m writing about it for work XD

So…oh gosh my poor dudes what state did I leave you in

Let’s get healed up first

Okay so the thing I wanted to fool around today with was this:

It’s the Temtem version of the EXP Share, I had to refresh my memory on how and where I picked it up, totally forgot I had it, but let’s see how it does

Let’s see, we’ll give it to Scrapit….

And now we’ll test and see how this goes

So glad I can right-click to move I’m stuck with our pet bird on my lap

She likes attention

Oh come on why y’all picking on Minion

So

This is how that works, apparently

So it’s something useful if I need to level up a guy quickly without the AI constantly targeting them

And it’s one Tem at a time and an equippable item you can totally forget about, not, oh, I don’t know, Game Freak hijacking your game and telling you how to play it

Sure Legends looks cool but I had better see some glowing reviews from people I trust before I give GF any of my money

Do I?  I just clicked on her because there was a question mark on my map—

OH WAIT SALT GUY!

I do actually

So I got some scent for my trouble—

WAIT WHAT

That—

That is a Platypet—

THAT IS A PLATYPET I AM CATCHING THAT SUCKER AAAAAAAA

Yeah I’d better catch it THIS WAS THE FIRST TURN

That thing almost one-shot KO’ed Olaf and it’s four levels under him

Can’t get this experience with Pokémon

Oh my gosh if you idle too long he sits down XD

Okay so this thing killed Olaf and now it’s working on Turtlinni

Finley got knocked out by Kaku’s poison

Okay don’t know if I can risk another hit on it I’m gonna catch it

YAAAAAAS!

Okay I know everyone and their mother has named one of these Perry but IT WORKS SO WELL

I promise if I ever catch a second one I’ll give it a more original name

Okay I want to play with my new Platypet but I’m pretty sure my original plan with this group was to get them all to a comparable level so here we go to Skail Jail

Ooh but later Finley and Perry are teaming up

Still want a Nessla tho but that one’s got a catch rate that’s a pain in the Arrisola

So Scrapit leveled up like this that’s nice

Uhhhhh

This is new

Are they…planning on adding new content?...

I think this was just like…blocks and coral before this is interesting

Okay swapping things around, Minion replaces Finley who just leveled up and Olaf now gets the Coward’s Cloak

I like this, this is cool

And Minion leveled up and learned a new move!

What…does that mean, -1 Hold?

Let’s test

That does…not outspeed Lowkey’s DC Beam

So in order to test this I gotta either swap Lowkey out or find something he doesn’t insta-kill

Olaf’s leveling up nicely though

It helps that he’s way low in level compared to the others Lowkey’s pulling like a handful of XP per battle because his level’s so high XD

But that’s because he’s still my only Electric type and therefore effective against water Nessla where are you

Oh what’s this?

That’s cool

Oh a team!

FINALLY I can test Cheer Up!

I don’t see how this did anything soo…swapping that out

Lt Shock and Mister Chai, love the names :D

I love that you can check out someone else’s Tem and get the information that way another little thing that makes it better than Pokémon

Oh Minion leveled up again!

And so did Olaf but then again Minion got 108 XP, Olaf got 120, and Lowkey got 29

This was on a low-level Tateru but this is basically the EXP difference

This amuses me and I’m not sure why

Okay back to trying the Nessla fishing hole again

At least two people here have Nessla that seems promising

THREE okay come on Nessla come to me…

Yeah this REALLY shows the EXP difference X’D

Okay we’ll just do this until everyone who isn’t Level 20 reaches there

We’re getting there

Okay Lowkey’s getting dangerously low on health we’ll swap out and go find someplace to heal

And then try the other place I saw a Nessla

I don’t know what this is, but it’s cool

Those dudes are still floating next to that wreck

Oh my gosh I don’t think I’ve seen a Pewki knocked out from the front before but the eyes turn into spirals XD

Still love the music and designs

Okay and that’s everyone to Level 20!

My opinion on the Coward’s Cloak…I’m not actually sure if it leveled the team faster

Not something I think I’d use often

I…don’t know why this got reversed

Gonna swap Perry and a couple others in and then quit for the day

Did get some nice leveling in AND CAUGHT A PLATYPET :D

Still no Nessla tho….

The state of the squad

But now we’re off—until next time!

Nessla won’t escape me forever

[emeraldbabygirl]

Finally finished the last Boys Republic vlive. They literally said at the end that they weren’t going to be five again and that they were all going their own ways so that confirms my entire “boys republic disbanded” theory. Unless by some miracle they pull a boyfriend and make an mv together I have no doubt in my mind they won’t come back.

Grandpa Sungjin cried a lot :( and the poor bubs Suwoong cried as well. Sunwoo cried more at the end I miss that tall man and old man Onejunn having those tissues on speed dial. When they sang at the end..I can’t explain in detail how it makes you feel. Imagine seeing your fav group on stage for the last time and no one knows what will happen to them after. It’s sad, their entire 6 year career and everything..hits me in my meow meow. I miss them and after watching this the memories of when I was like super into them come back and I remember laughing at this one meme with Grandpa Sungjun and those videos where they just scream for two minutes. And I remember when Get Down came out and they made an announcement about how it was a rated mv and I was like 👀 and then I saw the head in the mv and I was like ‘why would Sunwoo want you to watch this with your family?’ And I remember that video of them all screaming over the snakes but husband Onejunn was living his best life talking to and kissing the snakes. One of my favorite Boys Republic videos after the iconic dance practice where Grandpa Sungjin holds his chicken leg the entire time not dropping it once. Lovely. Miss them. I remember my reaction when I saw Sunwoo’s abs for the first time. That was fun. And I met a few Royal Family on another app that I used to be on all the time before dumblr, love how pretty the fandom name was. REMEMBER WHEN THEY WERE PRACTICING FOR GET DOWN AND THE CEILING WAS TOO LOW AND THEY THREW MINSU UP TO HOGH AND HE CRACKED HIS NOGGIN ON THE CEILING AND WAS GONE FOR IDEK HOW LONG I REMEMBER THAT MY SISTER REMEMBERS THAT ROYAL FAMILY REMEMBERS THAT IT WAS WHACK. I honestly thought he was gonna bleed out and die.

I saw an update from Minsu earlier on insta actually for the new year and I messaged Onejunn and Suwoong like maybe a mouth ago I can’t remember but I’ve heard nothing from Sungjun or Sunwoo. Idek where they are, I’m pretty sure they all finished their military service. I JUST WANNA SEE SUNWOOS EARS AGAIN. And his face. Fun fact I never ever thought of him as tall or big but you could land a plane on the man’s shoulders I mean is he not the tallest in Boys Republic?

He makes Suwoong look 12. I mean help me please why? Didn’t think he was built like that especially not before seeing his abs lmao. Him and Sungjun are probably married with kids by now tho. Wish old man Onejunn would hurry up and get married like it doesn’t take this long to pop the question darling hurry up my mum wants grandkids anywee, it was a sad lil live.

[theyaskedmeto]

what i think each og new direction member's social media presence would be like

basically i’ve been doing nothing all day and i’m way too addicted to social media and i started thinking about this so here we are. also i’m just gonna pretend social media was a big thing when they were at school (it obviously wasn’t but lets pretend this is set in like 2016 or smth)

rachel berry

lets be honest rachel would be so damn annoying on social media (not like that’s a surprise tho she’s annoying anyway)

she’d definitely use instagram the most

she’d post photos of her and finn holding hands and caption it like ‘My world, I love this boy 🔐❤️🌏✨’ and then deletes them all when they break up

EXCESSIVE use of emojis 

posts selfies and quote song lyrics in the caption

posts what she’s listening to on her stories (usually boradway) and feels very entitled because of it

posts singing videos 

santana and brit probably bully her in the comments of her posts lbr

honestly i can’t see her having any other forms of social media tbh, she just always uses instagram

auto caps stay ON at all times bc it’s ‘against the rules of basic grammar’

tries to talk in the nd groupchat but no one likes her or listens. like ‘What song should I do for a solo this week’ and then it starts a massive argument

finn hudson

one of those boys who just takes photos of The Scenery™ and no photos of him

maybe posts some photos of him and rachel when they’re together though

actually he probably does the same thing as rachel like ‘Can’t believe this girl is mine 😍💗’ and commenting ‘Love You ❤️’ on her posts but it just seems v high school

probably not very active but uses instagram the most

does a lot of those ask thingys on instagram like ‘send me an emoji and i’ll say what i think about you’ LMAO

i feel like he’s not very involved with it because he prefers video games more lol

uses ‘😂’ unironically

auto caps on and doesn’t even know having them off is a thing

noah puckerman

USES SNAPCHAT. nothing else. but he does have insta

has sent streaks to everyone he’s friends with on sc and will continue to until he’s like 25 

posts way too many mirror selfies with the flash on without his shirt off (ew) 

literally never talks in the nd groupchat

auto caps on - actually he probably Types Like This All The Time

has A Rule that if he’s talking to a girl he has to not reply for at least 2 hours but if it’s a guy then he has to reply asap (bros before hoes type vibe)

blaine anderson

i really don’t think he’d use it that much??? i feel like he’d get too overwhelmed ahdkjhdjs

WAIT APART FROM TUMBLR

he’s probably very involved with tumblr and is part of the star wars fandom/marvel fandom

his ao3 history is between him and his computer only

ppl wanna be his friend on tumblr because he’s just nice and kind 🥺

he’s probably quite popular on there - has a lot of followers

but he doesn’t really use any others - has an instagram but there’s no posts on there

maybe he tries to spread awareness on his insta stories???

hates snapchat with a passion 

uses :) :( <3 ;_; way too much (he’s on tumblr)

has auto caps off. like he’s a fanboy okay he’s on TUMBLR fgs. 

occasionally talks in the nd groupchat but is normally a bit intimidated by all the arguments it causes 

v open about his sexuality on his insta (has a 🌈in his bio🥺)

brittany pierce

she uses all of the main ones (insta and snapchat)

posts loads of photos of lord tubbington on there and adds loads of gifs on her stories

such!! a wholesome!!! insta page!!!!!

lots of mirror selfies with the flash on

bad spelling 😔

tries to do those story bingo things but gives up when she gets confused

also has another insta account to build her fondue for 2 channel 

auto caps OFF

uses all the pretty emojis way too much like ‘went to the park 🏞 it was so ✨💗 fun!!! 🌸🌈☀️ we had a good time 😍’

is the QUEEN of the nd groupchat along with santana. tbh her and santana would just use it as their place to talk about everything rather than private messages

santanna lopez

her whole instagram is just selfies

uses snapchat quite a lot but when she gets older she stops completely and deletes it ‘snapchat is for straight ppl’

cyberbullies rachel ajhfdsjhd

does ops on her story and is just brutally honest to everyone who asks 

auto caps stay on but sometimes she forces her keyboard to type all lowercase

NEVER uses emojis. not even :( or :) she just never uses them ever

has a tiktok addiction for when she gets sad about britt (especially s2 when britt isn’t with her)

kurt hummel

uses instagram to show off his outfits 

especially when he gets older and lives in ny!! 

there’d be such cute lil videos of him and blaine on his story like taking videos of his ootd and then blaine photobombing and then he zooms in on him and laughs ok i’ve thought about this too much

compliments all his besties on their photos like ‘So gorgeous 😍’

auto caps stay religiously ON but uses a lot of abbreviations like ‘btw and ily’ etc

in the early days of him and blaine being together, he’d be quite private about it but around the time just before he leaves for ny they get more public

only uses emojis for reactionary purposes eg. to compliment friends

posts photos of anything. honestly i want to see his insta it’d be so cute

has a private instagram for his close friends where he shitposts his whole life like ‘Dad’s taking us to get mcdonalds!!!!’ with blaine

sam evans

posts shirtless pics and all the girls thirst over him ajdhksjdk

uses insta more than snapchat but always sends streaks (maybe when he’s younger tho like around season 4 i don’t think he would be anymore)

also v wholesome though??? like i think he’d post pics of what flowers he got his mum for mothers day 

posts pics of mercedes on his story when they’re together 🥺

posts his favourite songs on his story

auto caps ON bc he doesn’t know having them off is a thing lol

uses 😂 unironically

mercedes jones

doesn’t post much on any social media platforms but is always liking everyone elses posts and complimenting her friends

posts more on her story than anything else

when she gets more confident in herself tho, she posts more (especially when she moves to new york)

occasional photos of sam when they’re dating with a lil love heart emoji on her story

lots of emojis but she uses them when necessary

auto caps on!!!

tina cohen-chang

THE SAME AS RACHEL WITH MIKE but like 10 times less annoying and people actually care

literally the cutest couple on instagram with the new directions group

uses the nd groupchat quite regularly bc people actually LISTEN to her there

has a cute lil gc with sam and blaine with some weird ass name

switches to auto caps off after she goes through her goth phase 

uses :) and :( and also a few pretty emojis eg. 💗☀️✨🌟💐🍬 to make her captions looks pretty

v quick replier

quinn fabray

this bitch has too many emotions for social media ok?

just watches tiktok to cheer herself up but it makes her more sad

has an instagram but never posts on there

if you wanna message her just text because she’ll never reply otherwise

disappears off the face of the earth during her skank phase. deletes her instagram and everything

auto caps on but it doesn’t even matter because she never even needs to use her keyboard 

(we’re talking s3 tho. in like s1 she’d have been into it to keep up her persona lol. her insta would’ve defo had over 1k followers)

mike chang

uses insta more than sc and posts photos of him and tina on his story 

fast replier - loyal king

fully ignores the nd groupchat because he avoids drama 😌✨

non caps because it ‘looks friendlier and not like you’re shouting’

will help you with your homework if you have any questions 

like ‘hey have you done this english homework?? i can’t find any good quotes that’ll help with the question’ and he’ll reply fast with a whole list bc he’s an academic KING

would love to post some dancing videos but gets too scared :(

artie abrams

has no social media and is rlly annoying bc its so hard to contact him

auto caps on. i mean like how would u know having them off was a thing if you don’t have any socials

fully punctuates every text

[aliasimagines]

Hewwo, friend! In my country comes hot, stuffy weather🌞. So, I start imagine... Headcanons, what professions will have the main 6 on summer vacation?)

a/n: i hope you ment profession as in what summer jobs would they have. I also included some general summer headcanons. And this is a modern au + high school / college au where they are working over the summer, if it makes sense. 💕

Julian

he is a broke as medical student he sure as hell will use his time making some money cause he needs it

i want to say he works in a bar close to the beach

because that way he is close to the water and is working in a cool, rowdy environment

he finds that relaxing don't judge

he loves summer, he can swim, drink, have fun, relax a bit

he hates the sun tho, his skin is super sensitive also he doesn't really want to get tan because it ruins his goth vibe

wierd grungy, indie, emo, punk, pop rock concerts look out goth boi is comin'

will wear his boots in the biggest heat. It's not great but he is stubborn.

Muriel

it depends on where he is cause i can totally see him wanting to work around animals

so it really depends on what environment he is in during summer

he is on a farm? he will work his ass off, feed all the animals, clean there living spaces everything

he is in a city? he is working in a zoo or an animal shelter. he is doing everything he can for those animals you can bet on it.

i would also love if he met Inanna because he works at the shelter? it just strike me 🤷🏻‍♀️

he genuinely doesn't really like summer because he sweats a lot and that's not fun but he enjoys the cold drinks

in the new update we learned he is willing to go to a festival so drag his ass to one and make him enjoy the summer!

Asra

he loves summer! the heat, the crop tops, the fancy colorful drinks, all the people he can meet and just being free and carefree

i don't know man, i can't see him doing any other thing then reading tarot

maybe in this au he is the apprentice at a shop, how bout that

or i might could see him working in one those really awesome stores that a) always smell like incense b) sell all kinds of really amazing stuff like colorful clothes, and bags and lil statues of Buddha (no xd) and dream catchers (gosh i love dream catchers) and c) looks freaking aesthetic

I don't know what these shops called in general but i always pass one in the mall when I'm there with my dad and i always wanna go in and he always complains about the smell

sooo i got a little distracted there oops

asra much like jules would love to spend his time at concerts, festivals etc but he enjoys sitting outside at night maybe at the beach sipping on some wine with nadia or just enjoying the summer night and sky alone.

Nadia

she likes summer

She can wear all her beautiful dresses (i mean she always wears beautiful clothes)

although she might not be in actual need of money cause her family is super supportive and everything she still wants to work

maybe something with fashion? or as an intern at a big company? Idk i think she might even try something like a waitress

she loves chilling with asra during summer like i mentioned above and i can totally see them at festivals n shit

i just really love her and Asra's friendship

drinkin a cool rosé on a hot summer night is her thing™

Portia

she always has a fan with her during the summer months because a) they're fancy b) it's so goddamn warm she needs it or she'll faint.

imagine her working in a botanical garden? i think this idea is so cute

or even at the same bar as Julian, that would also be fun. and chaotic.

she. loves. swimming.

or just floating in /on the water. It is so freaking relaxing and refreshing to her you can't even imagine.

she especially loves the summer nights because there is just something about chilling with friends on the beach, looking at starts with Peppi in her lap

Lucio

working for the summer? Pff no. Except that yas. because mama Morga is bout kick his ass if he keeps living up his family's money.

so ends up working in a beauty salon cause he figured he is good at make up, skin care and hair care so why not?

he ends uo loving it

if you wanna gossip you go to Lucio, he has all the gossip. he knows every little shit about everyone

*while doing someone's hair and makeup*"Uh gurl no, you can do better than him i heard he haf like 5 partners in the last two weeks and always dumped them after the first date. But you babe? You slaying queen!"

he doesn't like getting sweaty so he hates that about summer (but who doesn't)

but he loves partying. (as we know) so whenever he is off work he is in house party, a concert, a festival, you name it. as long as tge place has colorful cocktails that look good on his insta he is fine.

hope you like it ❤️

[defiantsuggestions]

ok ok ok so. i'm in a very complicated situation rn. i'm not sure if you can help me on this or not but it's worth a shot? lemme start from the beginning: -so i'm best friends with this girl for years -our friend group talks abt sexualities, me + other girl come to conclusion that we're bisexual, the best friend thinks she *might* be too -realize i'm in love with her -confess to her later -she doesn't like me that way

-i don't think she's straight????? -time passes -we're both in a religion btw -she asks me one day abt our religion's views on homosexuality -i tell her one of the views, that it's alright -she says ok -she's still questioning btw -i think she might be bi/pan leaning towards guys

-i move to a different country -i leave the religion, not out yet to anyone tho -but we still text -she sends me a post one day abt homosexuality -it's that other view, that homosexuality is wrong -she believes in that view and is trying to persuade me to undo my bisexuality in some way or ignore it -getting strong indoctrination and internalized homophobia vibes here -she thinks i'm still in the religion and is trying to convince me on her views on homosexuality -i try to argue back carefully since i can't let her know i've left -anyway we fight -and apologize a few days later -and she suggests we don't talk abt religious stuff because we always fight abt it

-i say ok -i do flood my insta story (that she sees) with lgbt posts out of passive aggressiveness -i know i know, but i couldnt help it because i have very liberal views and i feel very strongly abt religious homophobia and sexuality -i sort of wanted to punish and test her -'this is me, this sexuality is a part of me, not a test by god, and i'm gonna show it and make it obvious, and you have to choose between remaining with me despite it or not.'

-we don't speak for three months.

-our only interaction is viewing each others' stories -she texts me with something random a few days later -we're talking again -i've forgiven her at this point -after all, before i left, i was just like her, i believed the same things she did -i want to believe that just like me, she'll come around and see things for what they truly are. -idk what to do till then

-i'm still in love with her -i still feel elated whenever she texts -i still feel that spark when i hear her name

-i want to get over her, over it -but still remain her best friend -it's hard because a huge part of getting over someone is to cut them off completely -and for those three months i did not think of her, so it worked a little -but when she texted it all came flooding back.

-i'm so, so, so fucked. what do i do?

That's a very difficult situation. You have my sympathy, it can't be easy to deal with and I'm sorry you're in this position.

This isn't going to be easy to hear, but in my opinion, I think holding out for her to change might be harmful to you in the long run. At this point in time, she is homophobic and is actively against your bisexuality. It's nice to believe she'll come to the same revelations you have, but you also need to keep in mind that you need to take care of yourself and your mental health first.

It's also important to keep in mind that you're out of that religion, but she's still there, and she's likely being fed homophobic beliefs by the people around her more often than the two of you talk.

I'm not trying to tell you one way or the other what to do; ultimately it is your choice whether you talk to her or not. This isn't a decision I'm qualified to make.

But this doesn't sound healthy. Yeah, maybe she'll come around, there is always room for improvement and maybe she'll learn better, but that's up to her. The fact that she fought you on it and then didn't talk to you for three months afterward tells me that she isn't in a place where she's open to learning right now, and it isn't your job to convince her otherwise.

If it were me, I would not keep a friend who would try to convert me out of my sexuality. I wouldn't be able to trust them after that. Like you said, your sexuality is a part of you, it's a part of who you are, and I personally would not want to be friends with someone who would tell me that this part of me was wrong.

I do understand that the prospect hurts. It's not easy. It's always, always painful to deal with finding out someone who you think of as a friend stands by something harmful, especially when you've been friends for a long time.

As for being in love with her, I am not the best person to talk to about romantic feelings. If cutting off contact with her is the only way for you to get over your feelings of being in love, and you want to get over those feelings, then I don't know what else to tell you but maybe you should consider cutting contact.

Otherwise, you have to decide if you want to deal with ignoring those feelings while talking to her.

Nothing romantic is going to come from this situation. It sounds like you already know that, but it bears saying anyway. You don't know her sexuality for sure, but even if she is bi/pan/ect., she's too far in the closet and too wrapped up in homophobia, she's already said she doesn't like you like that, and even if something did manage to come of this it wouldn't be healthy for either of you.

Ultimately, I think you should consider your mental health primarily when making your choice. Personally I would cut her off and find new friends. I deserve better than to have someone in my circle who thinks my sexuality is a sin. I think you deserve better, too.

Either way, I wish you luck, and hope things work out for you.

[atsuwiee]

— the interview question tag game!

tagged by @skyaura-koo 🙇🏻‍♀️🦋

1. why did you choose your url?

i was still very much into the anime haikyuu!! and shipped sakuatsu so much– so atsuwiee is basically atsumu + the word 'wiee' idk it seemed cute so i put it in,, so this blog was supposed to be a sakuatsu oneshots lol not until i got into enhypen

2. any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them?

nope i don't have one, i used to want to make one but idk how to so😐

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

i think i had the account on the begining of november (?) not quite sure lol, but yeah it was somewhere near christmas. so in total i have been here for abt 5-6-ish months hehe.

4. do you have a queue tag?

idk what this is lol 😭

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

as i mentioned before in the first question, this blog was supposed to be for sakuatsu. i actually had drafts of my oneshots already but since i have a new phone (my current one) i can't really transfer those notes ://

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

i'm a park jongseong simp🙇🏻‍♀️

7. why did you choose your header?

i needed it to match the color scheme of my pfp so it would look nice lmaoo

8. what's your post with the most notes?

ouh i kinda don't remember– but i think it's the slow dancing with enhypen! one. i honestly like that one the most lol bcs it was some brainrot content i finally got to write.

9. how many mutuals do you have?

i'm not really close with them😭 i suck at communication so i probably have 2-3+ i think

10. how many followers do you have?

OOF I ONLY HAVE 70 SMTH AHAHAHA i'm just a newbie so👁👁

11. how many people do you follow?

i follow like 30 blogs- most of them are haikyuu related tho more than enhypen bcs then again originally this was for sakuatsu lmao

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

eh not really- i don't do it a lot

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

it depends, honestly. i use tumblr alot more when i'm pretty damn bored but when i have things to do or some wips i stay on my notes app or sometimes on wattpad bcs i still have works there that are unfinished lol

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

nope not really– if someone were to fight me on here tho, i wouldn't respond and i'd just delete it lmao 😭

15. how do you feel about 'you need to share this posts'?

i think if it's needed and it's info is very ig crucial ?? then i would share it– like if it's really really important, but if the post is like crappy af and it's info isn't really relevant then i wouldn't share it (or if it contains content that isnt good).

16. do you like tag games?

yuUuuUh, but i don't know how to respond(?) to them at times lol

17. do you like ask games?

yesss,, i find them very interesting (i do it alot on insta)

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@arteqmiss 🙇🏻‍♀️

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

@miedei bcs she's very swaggy (platonically tho) ❤️

tagging: @miedei @googoojeu @moonshappiness + anyone who wants to do it!

[neverheardnothing]

thanks for the tag @willroland :)

why did you choose your url?

well i grew up on the internet in the early 2010s so i was obsessed with starkid which lead to musical theater in general which lead to dear evan hansen which lead to will roland which lead to be more chill which lead to joe iconis and that hasn’t lead anywhere else because i’m so far up this man’s ass he could tell me to jump and i’d give him 5 million dollars for a bloodsong of love revival. anyway. funny enough it was because i was so up will roland’s ass that i gave joe iconis’ music outside of bmc a chance (back when he tweeted out a thread of joe iconis songs the night before the tonys). and he was right. he has taste even if all i see from him nowadays is globe twitter. anyway. never heard nothing (along with the bar song, try again, and last on land) is the quintessential joe iconis song in my humble opinion. but also my opinion is backed up by joe so. i’ll just let him say it.

here’s a link to the song. listen to it if you have any interest in joe iconis and his work.

any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

yeah this is actually a sideblog. my main is @cockbiteproductions which is personal + rooster teeth. every day i want to throw rocks at mcyt fans but i myself am a rooster teeth fan and so my house is very glass and breakable. and then there’s marvel @sebastianskywalker (can you guess who was excited by the idea of sebastain stan playing young luke? lol). star trek @jimtiberivskirk. star wars @fulcrumahsoka. anime @kvchiki. and that’s the important ones. i use this one and my main the most though. which is already almost not at all these days.

how long have you been on tumblr?

hahahahahaha. 2012. fuck.

do you have a queue tag?

yeah it’s “swiss fucking queue” which is from when michael jones says “swiss fucking cheese goddammit” in his impossible game rage quit. everyone on my main gets it but i hope anyone who sees it on my sideblogs gets confused because it’s the same queue tag across all my blogs.

why did you start your blog in the first place?

i was about to say “well my first blog was fandom” and then i realized that applies to literally all of them. so yeah. fandom. i generally make a sideblog when i want to make new fandom friends because none of my current friends are into the thing i am into. it works well.

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

will roland. because will roland. when my bio said “joe iconis and will roland” it wasn’t lying. but anyway i like projecting on characters wrol plays.

why did you choose your header?

it’s off this set lol. same photoshoot as the one from my icon.

what’s your post with the most notes?

lol it’s this shit gifset i made of nik dodani as jared in the deh movie trailer. he actually reposted a video of him scrolling through it on his insta story. which is unfortunate because it looks like shit. i usually have flux on while using any device and i turned it off while making this but i guess my brain is just fucked about it now because it’s 1. way not bright enough 2. way too yellow. ugly as shit.

how many followers do you have?

on this blog? uh i think getting close to 400 idk tho. idc. i just come here to scream about musical theater i rarely care about clout.

how many people do you follow?

idk around 750. a girls gotta sustain like 5 different blogs. that + never using tumblr anymore means i never see what anyone posts ever unless i go to their blog directly lol.

have you made a shitpost?

this blog is 1/3 shitpost 1/3 rando reblogs 1/3 ranting about joe iconis shit no one else cares about

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ post?

im spiteful so it’s an immediate no reblog from me. but i also dont really blog about social justice or anything much anymore. so unless a post has drastically altered how i think about a topic for the better i dont reblog it.

do you like tag games?

yeah! they’re fun. i’ll take any opportunity to talk about myself. + i generally learn something about the person who tagged me.

do you like ask games?

yeah! i get too anxious about reblogging them though lol i dont want people to think i want attention even though im an evil little attention whore.

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

famous? on this sideblog? no one lol. not necessarily famous but @nothingunrealistic is probably one of the people that has the most longevity in the deh fandom on here so they have a decent amount of followers from that i assume. @unproduciblesmackdown and @kkamikazed also draw good fucking art so they get clout like that lol. i think @annabelle--cane is also like. decently large? idk. no one in this tiny niche subsection of musical theater tumblr is really tumblr famous though. that’d be a nightmare lol. wait there might be one person i think that’s a sideblog but i can’t remember who lol.

do you have a crush on a mutual?

thank fucking god no. could you imagine?

well i already mentioned @nothingunrealistic​ @unproduciblesmackdown @kkamikazed and @annabelle--cane earlier so i guess them. only if yall wanna tho. also @talkfine​ @rovermcfly​ if yall wanna do this. and anyone who wants to talk about themself go for it.

[binniesthighs]

miss ro!!! ur jeongin fic was so cute that letter with all the misspellings made me cackle low-key - really can imagine 바보 빵 (fool bread(?) not sure how they render that nickname in english for him) writing it 😭 him and mc were so cute no lie

so like i swear dpr ian used to have a soundcloud that i would listen to but for some reason i can’t track down the stuff anymore ?? but equally maybe i’m getting confused bc i listen to a lot of k-artists on soundcloud (i remember the day i discovered got7 jb’s music on there and completely lost my shit lmao but that’s a diff story) i’m honestly such a sucker for soundcloud artists why am i like this 💀💀 but he literally dropped off the grid apart from his insta after his idol group disbanded and his spotify is basically empty apart from zombie pop (which is p cute it’s in the dpr archives album) and his new album. i honestly love all the tracks on it bc have been listening to the singles since they dropped but nerves and scaredy cat are my faves i think of the new ones?? i low-key suck at song recs lmao bc usually I just queue the entire album start to finish / listen to ppl’s curated spotify playlists for like kr&b/indie&chill etc while i’m doing work so i usually hear stuff i like but don’t know the titles ?? last year i was heavy obsessed with dpr live’s album tho “is anybody out there” and also ph-1’s 2019 album “halo” is still one of my faves. i can try and dig through and find specific songs i saved tho if u want!

also i’m watching the making of the album documentary now and it’s honestly spectacular (and only 13mins it needs to be longer 😭😭😭) - he goes into the back story of each song and talks about his life too and there’s clips of him filming the MVs and laying down the tracks. it’s low-key getting me v emotional especially when he was talking about dope lovers and how he had some p bad relationships bc he tends to push ppl away when he’s going thru stuff and he was recording the lyric “it was all for a kiss” and then he said “was it for a kiss or was it from a kiss because honestly, i think a lot of shit happens after the kiss” and ooft that hurttttt

british insults are honestly the best - i love them bc they’re like super snarky/get to the point but they’re not actually like properly derogatory names? like i rly get uncomfy when ppl properly swear at someone even if I like hate them with a burning passion lmaoooo

omg snow day??? we haven’t had snow for a while now :(( my friend lives in mass tho and she said it was snowing yesterday too i’m jel :(( i thrive in the night too lmao but man my insomnia’s been kicking my ass lately 🥲🥲 i deadass live my life like chan and i rly thought this would stop after uni but i guess it’s just my state of being 😭😭

i love reading ur replies they rly brighten my day 🥺🥺 i get a bit in my head sometimes lmao gotta love that anxiety/depression mix 🤪🤪 and rly worry i’m being annoying/ saying too much / blocking up ur feed for other readers also 🥲🥲 i hope other ppl aren’t getting annoyed by how long my asks are 🥺🥺 mayb one day i’ll reveal myself n we can just msg instead or sth idk 😭😭

n e ways i’m gonna dip now but i hope you have a good day/night/week too, miss ro!! my life is spiralling low-key so might be gone for a bit but in the meantime i hope things go well for u!! and do lemme know what u think of MITO !! (and honestly check out the making doc if u have time!!) -😖

😖 awe heck, my responses make your day? 🥺 that makes me so so happy!! i know how ya feel, I tend to have hot and cold weeks, and my writing is what tends to keep it at bay :) as well as talking to all you cuties! You don’t annoy me at all sweets!! however ya feel like talking is fine with me!! ;) also don’t ya worry about dipping either! life gets crazy and I totally get ya! <3 

more under the cut! 

also thank you so much about my new jeongin fic!! writing his lil letter was my favorite part actually hahahah i was trying to channel my inner awkward teen boy for that one LOLLL to suit his character being super sweet and loveable and a lil shy on the side I knew that he would make some cute lil mistakes hehe 

I’ll def listen to your recs!! I really need to listen to more kr&b tho! I have like two or three playlists that i listen to allll the time and am in dire need of new music haha the other week I discovered Kali Uchis’ new album and that’s been on repeat for me like crazyyyy recently FRICK its so good haha so that is my recommendation hehe 

That sounds like a really interesting documentary tho!! I actually really like music documentaries! hahah I watch them with my dad sometimes about classic rock artists etc. it super cool to me to hear about everything that goes into an album as well as the creative process behind it too! like when skz do their little interviews and stuff before an album releases I lovvve that haha for the same reason I love hearing about why authors write what they did too! gahhh i’m ramblin but the creative process is so cool to me! I’d love to check it out! 

whats funny abt swearing is that (oddly) even at nearly 21 years of age I am still not allowed to swear around my parents hahaha but when I’m not around them??? i will say anything and everything lolll but never at people like ya said haha i remeber a while ago I heard “bucket of fucks” and I thought that was pretty funny haha, also yay for snow days!! its funny bc I’m currently not in the state where I go to school so the weather was just fine here but there was like two feet of snow on the actual campus haha i heard that the students got together to have a snowball fight on our soccer fields (i just hope they were safe ooP) 

[himbowelsh]

Also i’d love some good old Luz/Toye modern day au headcanons! ❤️❤️❤️

oh my god, what if they met on a dating app tho

because luz is an absolute dating app ho.  he doesn’t use it to fall in love, let’s be honest  ---  i mean, if he hits it off with someone, sure, they’ll go on a date.  mostly he thinks they’re absolutely hilarious, and “you just meet the most interesting people on there, really”.   he’s got a grindr, a tinder, a bumblr, a tingle, and any other dating app you can name.  like, no less than five on his phone at any given time, and he’s got a collection of interesting profile pics screencapped.

(which means perconte gets texts at 3am of wild tinder profiles; for example, a guy dressed like a chicken in his profile pic, captioned by luz:  i think this one’s worth chickin out)

in short, luz uses them for the hell of it, and has met some interesting people, but never takes dating on them seriously.

then he matches with The Guy

The Guy is absolutely the most gorgeous man george has ever seen.  talk about jacked; this guy’s profile pics are of him lifting weights, running, boxing. all sports, all tasteful  (he’s never shirtless, no mirror selfies here) but he’s showing off his arms in every single one.

luz almost has a heart attack.

(perconte’s phone buzzes at 3am; it’s The Guy, captioned by luz, 😳🤯🥵)

on the other end of the line, joe toye is a grandpa.

no, literally. social media is not his thing.  he doesn’t have twitter, he doesn’t have insta, he has a facebook account he hasn’t logged into in years  ---  just because he does have a lot of aunties and they all want to know what he’s up to.

joe’s a boxing instructor, and a pretty successful one.  his gym asks him to record video tutorials for youtube, which he does...  but only because they keep sending a kid to film him, and he’d feel like an asshole telling him to beat it.  really, joe just does his thing in the videos, while wearing very tight shirts.  they get tons of views on youtube.  he doesn’t realize he’s become a mild internet heartthrob, because he literally just...  isn’t interested.

he also doesn’t seem to be interested in dating.   this, in the opinion of one bill guarnere, is a travesty.

bill pretty much badgers joe into making a tinder profile.  just one, just to take a chance on it and see what happens.  if he doesn’t like it, he can just delete it!  what’s the harm, right?

joe lets bill download the app, grunts at bill’s choice of profile pictures, and promptly forgets the app is even on his phone.

until George Luz happens.

what did you expect? george luz ALWAYS happens.

now, george has done some light internet stalking at this point.  he’s found the youtube videos, and has developed a full-on crush.  it’s bad, guys.  he’s considering signing up for boxing lessons, despite the near-certainty that joe could snap his spaghetti arms like twigs.

he takes the safe route, and just slides into joe’s DMs instead.

‘looks like your allergies are acting up in those pics’

‘you could really use some vitamin Me’

joe stares at his phone for a solid two minutes in dead silence before replying with a succinct ‘fuck no.’

BUT GEORGE LUZ DOES NOT GIVE UP. 

listen.  listen.  this man has an endless supply of pickup lines, and he’s not afraid to use them.  joe knows where the block feature is.  he can absolutely swipe left if he so chooses, but he hasn’t, and george takes that as solid encouragement.  somewhere out there, there’s a perfect line for the perfect guy, and he’s gonna find it.  so he sends a new line every day, just...  shooting his shot.

‘i’m feeling pretty sunburned, because your bio is too hot to handle’

‘no wonder you’re a boxer, you’re a knockout’

‘you could choke me out with those thighs and i’d come back as a ghost to thank you’

‘know what i could do if i rearranged the alphabet?  put the d in u’

‘would you rather fight 1 horse sized duck or 100 duck sized horses’

joe hates it.  he absolutely freaking hates it.  but here’s the thing  ---  george knows, and he knows, that he could just unmatch and be done with it.

he does not do this.

the worst part is, joe finds himself actually looking forward to the new line every day.  god help him, he likes it.  it’s something to snort at after a long day at work, something which gets him to roll his eyes every time...  but he won’t deny, it’s...  kind of flattering.   the guy is a dumbass, but he’s persistent, joe will at least give him that.

finally  ---  after the twelfth day, when george’s pickup lines have aged like fine cheese  (’my body has 457 bones, but u could still break me in half’)  ---   joe finally caves

‘that’s too many. too many fucking bones.’

on the other end of the line, george is having a mild heart attack. he replied!!  he actually replied!!

‘you’re right’   he shoots back.   ‘i know my anatomy.  i’ve actually got 205 bones’

‘no you fucking don’t.  an adult male has 206 bones in his body.’

nitpicky and ripped??  george is into it.

‘really?’   he can’t get the shiteating smirk off his face.    ‘looks like i’m missing one.’  (and at this moment, joe knows what the hell he’s just walked into.)    ‘ur gonna have to give it to me.’

a long silence.  george holds his breath, not daring to hope, not daring to dread.

finally, joe replies.    ‘if i give you my number, will you stop.’

‘oh baby,’  replies george,   ‘i can keep going all night long’

joe sends him his number.

he shows up to the date with an anatomy textbook, just to be a dick about it.  george laughs so hard he falls off his barstool, and that’s the moment joe realizes he’s fallen in love with this idiot.

then again, maybe that realization came 100 duck sized horses ago.

[wildflowerwattpad0217]

Avenging Riverdale: Riverdale x Avengers/ Sweet Pea x OC!Tony Stark’s Daughter. My Reaction After Completing it and A Year Of Working On It.

This will include spoilers to my fanfic her is the link if you want to read it:

Avenging Riverdale

Masterlist

One paragraph is one chapter.

(not a chapter) Im going to be honest, in my mind their are two sections of Avenging Riverdale. Before my Brain Surgery and after because if you have read my fanfic all the way though, Author Notes and all, you know that I had to stop writing Avenging Riverdale for awhile so that I could focus on healing from that.

A trigger warning, good. Two part cast. Prologue. Tally is in deep shit. Steve picked her up and took her hungover ass to the living room. To Riverdale she goes. The horrible fake screenshots. I stopped doing that though because I couldn't find one for a group chat. Her and Tony's fights are rough. She snuck out to a soup kitchen. I feel bad for abandoning that. Cap found out. Tony put a tracker on her. Wtf but they are getting along. Now the Avengers are worried tho. They are shook they are getting along. After her dad became Iron Man things went downhill in her life.

Welcome to Riverdale. 'Murcia is Cap's group chat name. Short Stark is Tally's and Deadpool just got in it. His is World's Biggest Cry Baby. Peter's explanation of how he knows Deadpool is the most Gen Z thing ever. MJ is Tally's Slut. Tally is MJ's Bitch. Hello Cheryl Blossom.

Bucky has been eating Tally's cereal. She's acting betrayed. Veronica is surprised she didn't kill him. She heard someone mispronounce her name. She corrected them. Betty Copper. Kevin Keller. Kevin is fan-girling. She has blueberries. Jade Keller. Jade is trying to hate on her and her family. Cat Andrews. Jade is dragging her by the wrist while Cat is acting like this is a completely normal thing. Andre Clayton. Jade and Tally would've made a great couple. God damn my crush on Malachi and Sweet Pea. Andre is questioning why Jade just kidnapped Thalia Stark amd why she's at Riverdale High. Tally is questioning why there are so many redheads.

Betty warning Tally about Jade. Song writing with her new friends, Jade, Cat and Andre. She's allergic to roses. She doesn't want to talk about her family problems. The Welcome Back Dance. Archie Andrews. Jade and Tally are dancing together. I swear to god my gay-dar is broken. She rejected Reggie Mantle.

MJ being possessive on insta. Thalia punched Reggie Mantle. It's so weird looking back and seeing Tally not know what's going on her mom. Bucky trying to be a supportive boo. The first mention of Nick St. Clair. Her telling Jade what happened. Jason Blossom's body being found.

Omg, I published chapter 5 for 100 reads. That seems so long ago now that the book is almost at 45k reads. Tony and Pepper are getting married.... I didn't get them married until Endgame. Tony and Tally are going to Pop's. She is not at liberty to answer the question of whether or not she jacker War Machine's suit just so he would do the macarena without a lawyer. Bucky, it's her job to make you feel old.

Hydra nightmare. She's talking to her dad about the nightmare. Then she was like now that we had a hard time going down to the basement to tinker. Whether she wants to admit her or not I wrote her a lot like her dad. Malachi. Malachi obviously cares about Tally. Malachi knows that Nick St Clair hurt Tally. They had sex. I'll be honest with you, I wasn't sure if in the end she was going to end up with Malachi or sweet pea at this point I was still debating it. Malachi kept her hair brush.

Tony just apologized to her for pushing. Jade just stole her for a minute. Malachi left hickeys. I love Tally and Bucky's relationship. Tally is Pepper's maid of Honor. Tony's cooking?

Jade now knows about Malachi. Veronica brought roses in his school and Tally starred sneezing. Tally telling Reggie I don't need the Avengers to kick your ass.

Kevin knows about Malachi now. Nat as chasing Bucky. I love how tally is a moderator for these little fights. Tony is going to spar with Tally, he's going to get his ass kicked so hard. Bucky that $50 on tally. Cap betted $50 on Tony saying that her emotions would get the best of her. Tally won. But Tony is blowing it off like oh I let you win. Thalia Stark got a pep rally who would ever see the day. Tally thinks her dad's hiding something from her. Jughead expected her to have a stick at her ass. I love tally I really miss writing her. It's because of lines like Tony Stark is my dad, iron Man's just suit that just really make me miss her.

That was really sweet and it almost made me cry I forgot I wrote that part. Cheryl just got arrested for lying. Tally proving her genius. Reggie asked her on a date.

The Avengers just found out she's going on a date, they're not exactly happy well, the male Avengers aren't especially since she punched the guy in the face. Pepper is getting emotional. Cap answered the door. Mantle is shook. After the date, he dropped her at home and closed the door before he had a chance to kiss her.

Reggie mantle trying to slut shame tally. She is pissed, she ran into that boy's locker room. She's threatening to expose his dick pics. Which he thinks that it matters that she's not in New York anymore when she's the one with all the security clearance and she's Thalia fucking Stark. The extra points she got just because Reggie met The Avengers. Everyone keeps reminding her murder is illegal. Tally wants to destroy his car, Nat is like go for it and everyone's like Nat, no do not influence her to do this. Rhodey it doesn't think Tony should be supporting her in this. She got her revenge. Mantle is pissed, just actually wanted it. Her dad had a screaming match with the principal.

Malachi is starting to miss her. Toni Topaz. Sweet Pea. Fangs Forgarty. FP Jones. Beck Oliver. And Sweet Pea's nickname is born, Sunflower. Toni loves her. Mantle tried to apologize, but it was a shit apology so she blew him off.

The drive-in is being bought. Malachi wants me to come over after school. Malachi asked her out. He's giving her time to think about it. Family dinner.

Really bad nightmare. Then she had a panic attack because of the nightmare. Tony got pops burgers for breakfast.

Malachi and tally are officially in a relationship. The meeting of the New York friends and the Riverdale friends. Her dad's wearing an iron Man onesie. Steve is wearing Captain America pajamas. Clint is wearing a big bird onesie. Her dad is leaving from New York tomorrow to present an invention and wants her to go.

She is staying in Riverdale. Her dad asked her to stay away from The lodges. Tally you telling off Cheryl. Steve you fucking snitch. Talking about Tally's pranks. Peter is worried about her.

The accords. Tony wants her opinion on it. She thinks it's the most stupid idea ever. The governor wants her to sign it but she's refusing to. He doesn't want her to sign it either. She knows more about her mother than he's talking about. Honestly it is so weird looking back at this and having her mom not being revealed like this.

The accords meeting. Tally just walked out of school to be there. Tony knows he fucked up.

Rest in peace Peggy Carter my queen. Yes Nick, help her stop the fight in a Target parking lot. Tally is such a mom. When tally even bosses the King around, threatening to reveal his internet browser history. She just compared them all the toddlers. She just met Ant-man. Ruby Lodge is her mother.

Ruby Lodge also happens to be Hiram Lodge's little sister. Tally was born in Riverdale. I really abandoned the UN plot line.

Her and Jade are going to sing at the variety show. Take A Hint for the audition tho with Mantle in the crowd. Josie wants to talk to her alone. Veronica is pissed she didn't her they were cousins. Dinner party at the Pembroke.

Deadpool. After the variety show her and Deadpool are on the roof eating chimichangas. She's helping Betty look for her sister. She's going to go clubbing with Veronica, Kevin, Jade, and mantle. Cap is really easy lie to. Malachi is there and he's cheating on her.

She called Malachi a dirty mouthed whore. She just got a package from the Ten Rings. PROJECT INTERMISSION. right now she's thinking Hydra in the 10 rings are working together. She can't go to Polly's baby shower because she's doing some investigating of her own.

Soup kitchen talking to the serpents. Tony just asked what's the tea. Tony has so much faith in his daughter taking over Stark industries it's so sweet. Her and Cheryl are starting over because tally gave her some really good advice about being a female daughter getting ready to become a CEO.

Another letter from the 10 rings. Chuck is back. Jugheads surprise party. I forgot I put Cat's bibble addiction in here. The ones that watched Victorious will know what I'm talking about. I think Tally's birthday present is the best one he is received for a while. Cheryl wanted to know about the scars on her back during the game of secrets and she even it was like exposed herself basically she really didn't care though. To the Southside with Sweet Pea.

They really want to challenge Tally at call of duty. They're playing never have I ever. Toni knows about what happened.

Her mom was a serpent, and she went to the serpent's for help. Everyone is surprised that tally is a serpent by blood.

Her father told the truth. Jade scares Joaquin. That's cute, Sweet Pea thinks he can be tally in a game of pool.

She won. And sweet pea is confused why she is open about almost everything but her ex. They had sex. Tally is saying that they can't date because of everything that's going on and she doesn't want to put him in danger. Tally is in deep shit.

Tony and Tally had a big fight. Tony's kind of suspicious of tally right now because she's been acting off. Steve heard something about project intermission. Tally is terrified that Hydra is going to kidnap her.

They're still asking about project intermission. FP was just arrested for the murder of Jason blossom. They're holding an intervention for tally because they're worried about her. Malachi what are you doing there I don't remember this.

He regrets cheating on her. Malachi can read her like an open book. The blackmailed him into cheating. Tally just save Fred's life I forgot that's how she gets kidnapped. Alice Cooper is Thalia's godmother. She's dead. I wrote this and I'm about to cry. Someone stole the body. Project intermission.

Tony freaked out at the mention of the 10 rings. She's alive. The Avengers are finding out what happened with Nick St Clair.

Jade really just spilled everything to them I mean I would too if meant getting my best friend back but still. Tony went to go see Malachi. Malachi said he was more afraid of tally than he is of Tony. But he's still told him a lot.

Tally has powers. Thalia is so sarcastic I love her. Tally was able to send a message to them. By the time they got there the Hydra base was in flames and she was walking out of it. They forced her to go to the hospital where everyone was waiting. Tony tried to keep her in her in the hospital room but she was like no❤️.

The sexual tension between her and Sweet Pea tho. Interview by Sheriff Keller. Welcome home party. The Whyte Wyrm. Sweet Pea wants a slurpee. Toni accidentally ate a weed brownie.

Fangs has skittles in his jacket? FRIDAY you sassy AI. Movie night code red. Tangled vs The Conjuring. Nat has Thor in a choke hold. I always forget that Rapunzel's name translates to Lettuce. They all suggest movies and fight it out. First one is Sweet Pea vs Tally. I FORGOT I BROKE THE FOURTH WALL. Tally won. Tony is having a talk with Sweet Pea. Tally doesn't think Hydra is done. Imma be honest I don't remember most of this because the close it get to when I had my surgery the more fucked my memory became.

Reggie is calling her the walking dead. Swalia date. This is going to be adorable.

The memes tho. They ended up watching Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Things got heated then Tony texted tally. Her and her dad ended up working on the Impala when she got home. Tally told Reggie to fuck off. Her adoption papers came in so that she will legally be Pepper's kid. Archie's an idiot.

I love Pepper. Sweet Pea and Tally are officially dating. Jade and Kevin are freaking out. Her dad is freaking out not like Jade and Kevin. Cat is pissed at her brother. Bulldogs and Serpents showed up. Jade, Cat, Veronica and Tally stopped the fight. She headed to Sweet Pea's.

My fake insta posts were the best. Beck, Fangs and Sweet Pea just got arrested. Nick St Clair is coming to town. Mantle vandalized her locker. Apparently the same thing happened to her mom. She's not going to talk about Nick St Clair.

Tally telling Archie to keep an eye out for Nick St. Clair. Date night with Sweet Pea. He took he took her their hideout. She's contemplating filing a police report on Nick St Clair. They had sex in a treehouse.

Nick St. Clair is back. Veronica doesn't know shit. She finally told her dad. She going to report him. She told Veronica. Veronica confronted him at the party and now everyone at the party knows. She went to SVU. Then she went to MJ's.

They are going to arrest him at the open house. He has been arrested.

No more secrets? Holy shit. She now knows Alice Cooper is her God Mother. Really Tony? Why did you call her out in front of everyone? You could've just talked to her. He wants her to see a therapist. St Clair had a bail hearing. No bail. Southside High was raided. When he only like Sweet Pea because he's taller than Cap. Tally didn't realize it. Drag Race. Malachi vs Tally. Bucky is so chill about it.

(So Chapter 47. Is the where you guys find out that I am having surgery) Sweet Pea finds out about Malachi. Sweet Pea feels betrayed, angered. They're having a fight. Sweet Pea is afraid that because she kept this one secret EX from him the next thing you know she'll be cheating on him. Tally just told him I don't want anyone else. They said I love you. The drag race. Tally won fair and square but Malachi still thinks she cheated. Tony scheduled the appointment.

Apparently you can't teach Thor how to cook. Tally isn't allowed in Asgard. Tally just called Vision a toaster. And in response Tony said don't call your little brother a toaster.

Family dinner. Everyone is there. Sweet Pea just got there. Thalia is the moderator. Nick Fury scares him. They are grilling him. Mario Kart tournament. Cap won.

Sweet Pea sending her bad pick up lines. MJ approves. Jughead asked for a favor. FP is getting out of prison.  Sweet Pea and Tally are talking about their future. (This is the last chapter I published before my surgery)

FP's retirement party. Tally inviting Sweet Pea to the Avenger's Christmas party and New Years Eve party and everyone else.

Her first appointment. Afterwards she went to the Wyrm. FP wants to talk to her. Tally has a spare key.

Social media special.

Trial of Nick St Clair. He lost.  Southside High has been shut down. Jade's period is late. Jade is pregnant. Welcome to Riverdale High Southside Serpents. Mantle being a dick.

The uniforms. Message from Hydra, her mom is alive.

She's known. (Srry, this is when my short term memory was hell so I don't remember it.) Her mother is a hydra agent and was using Tony. She even talked to her when she was kidnapped. FP isn't happy that Ruby lied to them all.

Sweet pea trying to stand up for tally when Jughead was trying to use her Fame for peaceful protest now that's awesome but Tally's okay with this because it's a peaceful protest and something she agrees with and told him it's okay. They bugged his trailer. They have the tesseract from Odin's Vault testing against Tally's blood panel. It keeps calling her name.

Even though they told her not to tell sweet pea she did. Peaceful protest. The statue had no head the next day and tally woke up with a fever, despite the super soldier serum. And she has a fever. Bruce thinks it's because of the tesseract because they have similar energy they're fighting dominance. Next day she's feeling better, and is being questioned by the sheriff.

Foreshadowing much. She's realizing that she was born to her mother just become hydras soldier. Tally's idea is that well her mom's playing chess they have to play poker. Sunnyside is getting evicted.

Her mother is at the Wyrm. Hello Ruby Lodge. That was intense. Tally just thanked Pepper for being her mom. FP trust her.

Veronica's confirmation. Jughead and Betty found the head. Back at the Wyrm. Tall boy was the one who did it. Going to Lodge Lodge.

I think that's an accurate description of Cheryl. Jughead had to reassure them that everything was fine. The Jughead Veronica kiss. They get to stay in Sunnyside trailer park.

Hiram Lodge bought the Riverdale register. The break-in. They decide to go after tally instead of Veronica because you know she's a Stark. That was a mistake because they isolated her and her room and she was able to overpower one of them and take their shotgun away. She also paged her dad. Hiram Lodge owns pops. Ethel dumped a whole strawberry milkshake on Veronica. Reggie being a dick. Ruby Lodge broke into sweet peas trailer talk to him.

Ruby wants to make a deal. Basically what happened with Malachi where he cheated to protect his sister. Ruby said she wants to make sure her daughter is dead inside. Cheryl's missing. Sweet pea has been distant. Sweet Pea is drinking away sorrows. And he cheated to protect his little sister and his mom.

Jade slapped him. Tony is there. Fangs sent her a photo of Sweet Pea cheating. She's questioning everything. The Avengers want to kick his ass. She went to his trailer. Swalia is over until they get their shit together. Carrie The Musical.

She went to Malachi. She went there for help but they ended up sleeping together. They agreed to be one time thing. The plan started, Malachi would pick her up from the musical the opening night. Ruby stopped them, saying she would kill Malachi if she didn't go with her. into which Malachi admits that he still loves her. But she loves sweet pea. The tranqed her and she woke up in a chair. 5 months later she was in Sweden by herself safe and sound. What you saw an article about Archie Andrews being questioned for a murder. And she thought she might have evidence for it or could get it so she's going back to Riverdale. Then flashback 5 months ago Tony's point of view, Malachi showed up to the school after Midge was murdered. Tally is prime suspect right now. She killed a hydra agent. Then 5 months later. Tony is a pops when he sees his daughter walk in with blonde hair.

She got lectured from Steve about running off for 5 months. She wants to tent city. Her and Sweet Pea had a good to talk. Ruby Lodge.

She just wants to talk. Ancient Norse prophecy. Tony asked Thor and he gulped. There is a prophecy and Thor and Loki believe it to be about Tally. Odin agrees. In the final battle she dies. Thornhill.

Ghoulies. Malachi questioning Penny Peabody's motives and then putting the fear of Tally. Jughead wondering what that was about. The iCarly reference though. "If you ever do that again you're grounded for... Till college." "For till college?" "For till college!"

(So the reason I kind of stopped doing the Instagram post was because after my surgery I kind of just lost all creative initiative to do it.) The video tally turned in was ruled of questionable origin. Thalia Stark is under arrest. I don't remember this plot line. They don't have a very solid case. Matt Murdock, Tally's lawyer, wants to push the case to New York. Charges were dropped thanks to Nicholas fury. Archie pleaded guilty, Malachi is leaving. He wants to see her before he leaves. Tally told him he would hold a special place in her heart. Riverdale high, next day.  They want to get Hiram Lodge arrested.

Sweet Pea and Tally are talking about what happened and Tally finally said what's been running through her head. Thalia is Jade's child's godmother. She told Jade about the prophecy.

Tony is acting weird at The mention of a game that hit Riverdale. Ghoulie hideout with Penny and Ruby. She scared the shit out of Penny Peabody. Veronica's grand opening. Tally is willing to let Sweet Pea try to earn her trust back. They kissed... No, they had sex. The manual.

Flashback episode. Secrets and sins. tally roasting her father. Ruby and Hiram arguing. The Ascension party. Tony basically explained everything to his daughter.

Sweet peas playing the game that Tony told her not to and she asked him not to. She said if you can please playing the game the deal is off so he said well done the deal is off and walked out. She's heartbroken. Archie prison fight club. Since tally is the closest thing they have to a trained doctor she is the one that's going to be at the bunker ready to patch Archie up. sweet peas apologizing. Starting Hiram lodges case.

Swedish Mafia. Sheriff Minetta grilling Tally. Casino night. Sweet pea and her hooked up again. Sweet Pea asked her on a date. After good advice my father she accepted it. When he came to pick her up Tony threatened him saying you already cheat on my daughter again I'm going to kill you which I think is Fair. After a good date he asked tally to be his girlfriend again. She said yes.

Cap wanting her to join RROTC. Not tally paying for Fangs mom's hospital bills. According to Pepper Starks are caffeine dependent insomniacs. Tally had cancer. Thor smashing a toaster. Cheryl the bitch.

Tally helping Sweet Pea study for SATs. Hiram got shot. Fangs is back in the Serpents. FP is Sheriff. Ruby Lodge. Half-sister Alicia von Strucker.

Sweet Pea is worried. Alicia meeting Sweet Pea. Jade's water broke. Thalia regrets not being there for Jade. She gabe her sister a nickname. Captain America Fitness Challenge. To the hospital to see her god child. Violet Thalia Oliver.

Alicia is 100 percent Ruby's daughter. Josie tried to ask sweet pea to go to her mom's wedding with her, Sweet Pea denied. Thalia defending her sister to the Avengers. The Pretty Poisons beat up Sweet Pea and Fangs. Tally rushed over to the Jones trailer where she had a run kn with Jughead's mom. She doesn't like Starks. Jughead now knows about her prophecy. Tally meet Jellybean and calls her an adorable human being. Jellybean fangirling. Jughead trusting Thalia with his life.

Jughead's mom being skeptical af. Tally didn't trust her. Chemistry Lab break in. Jughead asked her to help deal with it, as a favor. Kurtz just called her Malachi's ex-bitch. Sweet Pea is pissed but Tally's got it. After a little violence. She's going to go call Malachi. He gave some food advice. She made Jughead promise something. She caught Kurtz trying to kill Fangs. Jughead made her let him go. Sister bonding time.

Alicia's life story. The Gargoyle King sent her a message. Tally is keeping it a secret from Sweet Pea. FPs 50th.

HEATHERS PART 1. Call from Detective Benson, telling her Nick St. Clair is getting released because of 'overcrowding'. The Avengers are pissed, so is Sweet Pea. Tally is playing Veronica Sawyer. Alicia came to see her sister at rehearsal and brought her a red bull. Party. Okay, I'll admit that was a bad pun. Big Fun. She was tipsy for a second because of Asgardian beer. She steps outside, Ruby is there. She threw up on her biological mother's shoes. Tbh I tried to put more references to the musical in here. Dead girl walking. Practice next day. Everyone finding Nick St. Clair got released and them being pissed. Cheryl wants to castrate him, Reggie agrees. Que Nick St. Douchebag's entrance.

HEATHERS PART 2. When I published part 2, Chadwick Boseman passed away. Rest in Power. Sweet Pea and Archie holding her back but everyone who know exactly what happened was ready to beat his face in. Nick called Tally a ticking time bomb. He mentioned the prophecy. Tally threatening him. Tally has some explaining to do. Her going to Sheriff Jones to get a restraining order. Tally shading Steve. Seventeen. Dr Stephen Strange saved her life. Alicia texted her to meet her. She gonna blow up the school. Alicia cuffed her in vibranium cuffs, she called Shuri. Dead Girl Walking Reprise (What a bop tho) Kevin met her at the door she told him to evacuate the building as silently as possible. Boiler room. The fight for the gun. Alicia was dead. She was able to deactivate the bomb. She went outside where everyone was waiting and trying to calm Sweet Pea and Tony down. Then she saw Ruby and saw red. FRIDAY record the convo. Tally just said it's over amd told her mom to fuck off. Ruby is pissed because it's not her ending. Tally just walked away and kept walking. I'mma be honest these are my favorite chapters.

Since the funeral, tally isolated herself in a depression. Now she has a text from an unknown person to meet her at Sweetwater River. Chic. Malachi came to see her. They had a good talk, he made her realize some things.

Cheryl preaching the farm agenda to tally who's just trying to grieve her sister. So she gives Cheryl a verbal SmackDown. Toni being pissed about it. Tally doesn't want to go to prom, so instead she wants to take sweet pea on a date in New York. Betty's dad's prison bus exploding. Veronica being confused on why they would miss prom. I'm telling explains it she's like well I know when that used to be your preferred choice of setting. He's asking him to move on after the prophecy is complete and she's dead.

Veronica's Pop deed is fake. Veronica wants Tally to fight her father. Tally is unsure about it, she could kill her dad with a single punch. Toby agrees the best bet us Tally. Archie taking the ring with Hiram, could possibly get Archie killed. Fight night. He broke her nose. Tally did more damage to him of course. Hiram Lodge has been arrested. When her family and sweet pea find out that she was the reason Hiram Lodge got arrested in the first place. They were starting to get ready to go into business together and tell you didn't want Lodge industries to fuck over Stark industries. When she figured out moves from Avatar to last Airbender and legend of Korra. Her mom escaped from prison.

Avengers discussing protection for tally. Package for tally. Thalia Stank. It was from the gargoyle King but she played it off in front of the Avengers and just left. To go to the hunting cabin of the blossoms. Her mom is there. Time for the final quest. The first one is for Archie the grizzled beast. I love tally. Because when Archie says oh crap, she says I think you're allowed to say fuck in this situation. Archie wins though. Tally had to play Russian roulette to get her in with the swedish Mafia. The next task is for Veronica. All the chalices were poisoned so Betty and Veronica are both poisoned.

Tally's turn. The assassin card. Battle of Blood. Biological mother vs daughter. Thalia killed her biological mother. Jughead's turn. He had won. And finally Betty's turn. She shut off her dad's fingers. After Penelope give the order to kill them all Thalia made a giant barrier with her powers. The farm ascended, leaving Kevin behind. The Avengers were shocked about what happened.

Filler chapter. Therapist appointment. Pop's with her dad. Tally remembering. Sweet Pea checking on her. Sweet Pea wants to run away with her, maybe run away from all of it but tally knows she can't. Then the next week tally knew the prophecy would be complete.

The beginning of infinity war. Dr strange. Wong knows about the prophecy while doctor strange doesn't. Tony just trying to protect his daughter. Tally got knocked unconscious. Bruce woke her up, Tony and Peter Parker are in space trying to save Doctor strange and keep the time Stone out of thanos's hands. At the compound talking about what to do. Tally knows someone.

Tally dreaming of the infinity Stones and seeing Thanos. Shuri. Things have entered the atmosphere. Tally's iron daughter suit. The fight has begun. Cap saying fuck. Thanos is coming for vision. Telling us what's happening to the stones right now. She bloodbended Thanos but the Avengers couldn't get to Thanos quick enough to get the glove off so he snapped. They lost. Tally is gone and so is half of the universe.

Nat is regretting not getting to Thanos quick enough to get to the glove off of him while tally bloodbended him. Tony found out that she's able to bloodbend. Tony passing out. Going to go kill Thanos. Nat and Thor explaining Thalia to Rocket. Thor went for the head.

5 YEARS LATER. Natasha's point of view. Meeting, Barton murdering people, Steve stopping by. She's remembering tally, reminiscing with Steve. Scott Lang. Quantum realm. Tony's point of view. Morgan Stark. Them telling the plan to Tony. Him thinking it's risky. Tony is salty about the fact that if they were close enough when tally bloodbended than Thanos they could have been done they could have won but they lost. Scott's trying to play with his heartstrings, mentioning tally, his first born daughter.

Bruce banner/hulk talking about the time travel thing . Tony's POV. While washing dishes he looks at a photo thinking of his daughter, tally. He decided he has to do it to see her again. He figured out time travel. Pepper finding out you figured out time travel. He's going to do it. Natasha's POV next morning. Scott time traveling going wrong. Steve POV. Walking outside seeing car pull up. Cap getting his shield back. But there's something Tony has to do before he gets to work.

He went to go see Malachi. He want to let Malachi know that there was hope. Malachi gave him a flash drive of Tally's research guy she entrusted him with five years ago. Clint testing the time travel machine worked. When Tony opened the flash drive he realized that a lot of it was mapped out for him already. Tally made a video titled if we lost. Time travel time. New York 2012. Time Stone.

Tony's POV, then Steve's POV. Not Steve saying hail Hydra. Tony's POV. Scott giving 2012 Tony a heart attack. Tesseract sliding to Loki. Steve POV. "That is America's ass" I think that's all I have to say for that part. Bruce's POV. Him telling her that Strange gave it away. She gave him the time stone. Tony POV. Deciding to go to New Jersey.

1970. Tony's point of view. Tony seeing his dad and getting the tesseract. Steve's point of view. Getting Hank Pym to run down the hallway. Tony's POV. Talking to his dad. Avengers compound. Natasha was gone. Grieving Natasha. Making the gauntlet, Thor going to stop his fingers then stop him Bruce snapping his fingers. It worked. Then disaster struck a missiles blew away the Avengers compound. Thanos sat waiting for the Avengers. Thanos vs Steve, Thor and Tony. Tony getting knocked out. Steve POV. Picks up Thor's hammer. Everyone is back. Tally is back.

Tally POV. Tally and Tony reuniting. Female team up without Nat. Tally took the stones before he could snap."You are so fucked." She turned to dust. Tony's POV. She started glowing. He grieved. Sweet Pea is at Stark Tower. He found out she sacrificed herself. The funeral. Tally is alive.

The scene with death. When Tally woke up she didn't remember anything. Everyone is shocked. Wanda jogged her memory. She explained everything. She met Morgan.

Graduation. Tally's POV. She was the valedictorian. She's going to MIT. Sweet Pea proposed. When she graduated, taking on Stark industries, she made sure it was clear the weapons will never be apart of Stark Industries again. When Sweet Pea and Tally got married she found out she was pregnant. Sweet Pea's name is this is Nathan Mantle. In the end they had 3 kids. Nick St. Clair got killed by the Swedish Mafia. She is the Iron Daughter.

Overall, I'm going to admit I don't remember writing half of this story because of my brain surgery and I was working on it during this. I love this story, it is my first time reading it all at once but I am partial to it because I worked on it for almost a full year and is the first Riverdale x Avengers crossover fic on wattpad. There is somethings I was contemplating, like who she was going to end up with, if she was going to die in the first snap or not. I was also going to do a part where she goes into hiding with Harley from Iron Man 3 and works as a waitress in a little diner as a cover, saying she's Harley's cousin, wearing a wig and contacts but I felt that'd make the story too long. But there are a few things I'm iffy about so 9/10.