#I'm all here for the action but also give me the Force stuff give ne the Force ghosts I NEED IT

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I am not over Obi-Wan trying to reach out for Qui-Gon in these two episodes because he does sound like he has been trying for years with no success but he's still believing it will happen eventually. The knowledge that he will manage that because he does become a Force Ghost in the end just brings up so many feelings.

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

Hi, I was wondering if I could get some help in typing myself. I've been stuck between ENFP and INFP for a while, and I've been trying to figure out by loops and grips to see if I can remember what I'm like in times of stress. But I'm pretty terrible at remembering my own actions during these times and if I ask anyone I'm close to what I seem to do/be like in those situations they just shrug and say I'm just myself but more stressed out, which doesn't help me at all. 1/?

I don't have a particularly good sense of self, and if someone suggests that I am a certain trait, I tend to go with it, unless it's something that I can shut down. My ISTJ sister tells me that I'm a jerk and I ask her to explain on and on until she gets pissed off and tells me that I just am. I'm bad at analyzing myself in the moment because I just do what I need to get done without really thinking about it and then go "shit, I was trying to analyze myself" because I can't remember my exact 2/?motivations outside of the moment. So I'm just bad at self-analysis in general lol. I build up a lot of resentment at things I'm forced to do e.g. phone calls, making appointments. I'm bad at knowing what others expect me to do, and need to have it spelled out. I'm not good at picking up on what people want i.e. for their birthdays so I make sure to ask them what they want because I don't want to give them something that they wouldn't have a use for or even like so it just takes up space. 3/?

At work, I try to get everything scheduled for me done as fast as I can so I can relieve that stress from myself. I don't mind more work popping up afterwards as long as I can get the things scheduled done so I don't accidentally leave something out. I tend to forget a lot of stuff that I need to get done so I make sure to write it down but even then sometimes I don't see my own notes on my desk and almost don't do my work until the last moment. 4/?

I know what I like and tend to stick to that. If I can remember something that I hated when I was younger I tend to stay away from that completely. E.g. I got a bad reaction to lobster when I was 5 years old and have not tried it since then and shut down people that attempt to make me try it since I don't want anything like that first reaction to ever happen again. 5/?

I know that I'm enneagram 6 so I'm wondering if that is most likely making me more cautious to think that I hide any Ne that would potentially open me up too much to get hurt. I can remember that I used to be more open as a child but can't tell whether this is due to just being a kid in general or if this is more indicative of extroverted traits. I hesistate a lot more than I think most ENFPs would, but I don't really know any in person and I think that most online profiles of ENFPs are 6/7

are written with enneagram 7s in mind, so I don't relate to them very much. I've just sent a ton of stuff in but I'm really hoping that your input will help me figure out what the heck I am. Thank you! 7/7

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Hi anon,

I’m going to open with a bit of an apology. As you’ll see below, most of my response is me telling you why you’re wrong about things and I do so fairly bluntly.

I also think you did a very good job of providing relevant and sufficient information for me to actually be able to provide a coherent, evidence-based explanation of my own thought process, which isn’t something everyone does, to the point where I think this serves as an example of what information is useful and what isn’t in typing, and I’m going to make a sidebar post about that.

Anyway my typing is IxTP - I’m not positive on Ne vs. Se but I do feel quite strongly you’re actually a high Ti user.

As always, typing on loops and grips is perhaps the worst MBTI typing advice that exists:

You cannot guarantee what your stress response is (ie, being stressed does not automatically equal loop or grip).

Without knowing your type initially, there’s a good chance you won’t know if you’re in a loop or a grip, particularly since the unhealthy part of a loop is the tertiary function and the unhealthy part of a grip is the inferior, so even if you could reliably know you were in either a loop or grip as a response to stress and that you were definitely an INFP or ENFP, chances are you wouldn’t know if you were looping on Ne-Te or gripping on Te.

Even if you could address the first two major issues, which you can’t, as you said our ability to observe ourselves with any measure of objectivity during stress is very difficult.

Typing on loops and grips: not even once.

Moving on, if you don’t have a good sense of self and tend to go along with what others suggest of your identity, that is one of the strongest arguments against a high Fi type - I would immediately rule out INFP or ENFP unless there’s some very strong evidence elsewhere, and even then I’d double check.

I really can’t use any information regarding your sister; without knowing your actions objectively I can’t say for sure if you are a jerk, and depending on your age and her age this is of varying reliability (ie, if she’s like, 11, she is just calling you a jerk because that’s what siblings do). I can say that ISTJs generally can come up with an itemized list of why someone is a jerk though so like...consider revisiting her typing too while you’re at it.

Not liking obligations and building up resentment indicates that you don’t have good Fe, but because you mentioned you tend to go along with what others suggest I’d guess high Ti over high Te. High Te tends to be more contrary but also more comfortable with obligations. Low Fe can also mean you feel uncomfortable making judgments regarding what people want.

The fact that you’re concerted with usefulness of objects and getting things done, but also tend to be a strong procrastinator, makes me think you may be a high Se user, but sticking to what you like in certain ways while also being a procrastinator who sometimes struggles to be in the moment means I wouldn’t rule out high Ne.

Enneagram 6 is consistent with any type, so I would be interested in what you mean re: hiding Ne. I do think that enneagram 6 + Ti-dom could definitely make it harder to determine aux Ne vs. aux Se because they’d both mask a lot of the more obvious outgoing/spontaneous traits, but either ISTP or INTP seems very in line with what you’ve said here.

[margridarnauds]

hey what's up i'm here to nudge you about your headcanons regarding Nous Ne Sommes and who Lazare is REALLY addressing it to

Thanks!

Your Fave is Problematic: The Lazare de Peyrol edition

*Mandatory disclaimer that the following is my own personal interpretation of the lyrics because I have never pretended to know what’s going on in Attia and Chouquet’s brains at any given point and I’m not going to start now because I feel like it would terrify me. Also I might be a little tired while typing this out and so the coherency is…questionable.* 

With apologies to anyone who’s heard me discuss this before:

So, my take on it is that there are three people, or groups of people, that Laz is addressing here, the revolutionaries (surface, and tbh probably what they were going for), his men, and himself. (Info on the military history stuff comes from The Response of the Royal Army to the French Revolution: The Role and Development of the Line Army, 1787-93 by Samuel F. Scott which is a very solid read as far as emphasizing the social changes in the army and where everyone stood in regards to one another before and after the Storming of the Bastille.)

The Revolutionaries 

“Insurgés obtempérez.” Need I say more? Lazare has been given the green light to put down the revolt by any means necessary, he’s going to do it. It’s also why he keeps emphasizing that this is their last chance (”Attention c'est l'ultime sommation“). I don’t like the interpretation of Lazare as a sadist, personally; it’s actually one of the things that I’m…not as fond of when it comes to what both Zuka and Toho did to him. (But Zuka gave me the glorious, glorious Peyronan content so I can’t really COMPLAIN.) He doesn’t necessarily want to kill people, but….well, he’s a soldier. He’s not a courtier or a diplomat (which is…unusual for the times, tbh.) He came in there to do a job, he’ll give them one last chance, and if they don’t, he’ll use whatever force is needed to keep the order. With that interpretation in mind, when he says, “Obéir sans défaillir/Nous nous sommes engagés/Toujours servir sans jamais fléchir/Oui nous l'avons juré” he’s reminding them that his men are sworn to do this and that they won’t flinch from doing what’s necessary. 

His Men

This is where things get a little dicey. Historically, we know that there was a HUGE amount of tension between the officers of the regiments and their men, with a lot of the latter deserting. One of my favorite quotes is from a pamphlet being circulated to soldiers at the time, says, “We are Citizens before being Soldiers…we are in short, Frenchmen and not slaves…if they have swords, have you not sabres? If they are a hundred, are you not a thousand?” This was one of the reasons why there was so little military involvement when the Bastille was stormed; NO ONE was sure whether the men would stay loyal. There’s a reason why the ONE regiment that we have an account of, the Royal-Allemand Cavalerie, who charged the Tuileries on July 12 was…a group of German speakers, with significantly less chance of personal ties to the people of Paris. (And who faced insanely low rates of desertion because everyone hated them so much afterwards they kind of had to stick together.) 

So…”Nous ne sommes/Les valets de personnes” is a good line for the revolutionaries, YES, but it also works very, very well for the situation about the men. And this time around, Lazare gets ahold of his men and keeps control, but…will it last? Look at his motions during some of the parts. 

Sometimes, he’s keeping things perfectly in control, others, it’s like he’s BARELY holding things in check, his movements getting very erratic at points. It’s such a 180 from the way Seijou Kaito played it in the Takarazuka, where she’s pretty much perfectly composed, or the way that he’d be played in the Toho where he’s much more PHYSICAL, even stepping on Robespierre’s face at one point. He’s trying to control the actions (AKA keeping within his character description of “il représente l'ordre et la rigidité de l'ancien régime.” Peyrol THRIVES on order and control and everything being in its proper place, when that gets bucked, he doesn’t know what to do) but? In reality, it’s a DELICATE hold. 

On one hand, his men are following his actions, mirroring him, but on the other, LOOK at his body language. His fists are clenched here as he’s leaning forward. And, like, obviously, on a purely practical level, Matthieu Carnot’s gotta be pretty damn exhausted because, despite evidence to the contrary, he’s not a superhuman figure of unlimited energy and stamina and our boy has to keep concentrated on the choreography, but on the other…Laz as a character is putting himself through some pretty difficult moves to keep control. At the same time as he’s reminding the people of what he’s doing with the lines about his men having sworn an oath, he’s also reminding THEM about it, “You swore this oath to the King, you WILL come through now” but are they REALLY going to take him up on it? It’s not really a full guarantee until the end. 

So, who’s REALLY saying “We are not the valets of anyone?” The revolutionaries, yes, but what about his men? After all, post-revolution, it wasn’t UNCOMMON for officers to face the wrath of their men, their once guaranteed authority no longer enough to hold them up. Peyrol was able to assert his authority this time, but there’s NO guarantee that that will hold up. 

Himself

His men, however, aren’t the only Frenchmen being ordered to fire on Frenchmen, though. And, even though Peyrol’s presumably been at this long enough that I think he’s somewhat numbed, this is miles away from what he did to Papa Mazurier at the beginning as far as the scope. (Though both of them are also situations where Peyrol thought he could assert control getting away from him.)

I’ve already discussed the way that Lazare tends to excuse away things, it’s seen in Maniaque when he tells Ronan that the King’s rule comes from God, from before the dawn of time, and it’s shown here as well. When he sings, “Avant que le sang coule/Par la folie des foules” on one hand…that’s an obvious reminder to the revolutionaries to back down, but on the other…there’s something OFF about it, at least to me. If he was talking to the crowd of the revolutionaries, why not address them directly instead of refer to them as “des foules.” (Besides the fact that it didn’t fit the rhythm of the song as well.) 

He’s already beginning to justify his actions, lying to himself as his way of coping with what he’s going to do because, to him, there’s never BEEN another option. It’s always been the army, it’s always been unquestioning, unthinking loyalty. (Which is why Ronan’s very existence short circuits his brain on multiple levels.) And, more importantly, he keeps on doing it. “La sanction légitime.” Who cares if it’s legal or illegal? Not the revolutionaries. It doesn’t matter if it’s legitimate or not, they’re going to get shot one way or another. The men…probably not. It could work, as far as reminding them that this is a Very Official Order, but who would REALLY care? It functions as one more way that he tries to remove himself from his own involvement and guilt, trying to justify himself preemptively.  

“I am here on the King’s order, I am speaking with his voice on this issue, and if I don’t do this, more people will die.” He’s addressing the people, yes, but he’s also trying to prepare himself for what’s going to come next. 

It’s very, very interested to me how he emphasizes “NOUS” in his statements on “Obéir sans défaillir/Nous nous sommes engagés/Toujours servir sans jamais fléchir/Oui nous l'avons juré.” He’s talking about his men there, yes, but he’s ALSO talking about himself, emphasizing his own devotion to serving. Which…could go two ways: (1) He’s trying to find common ground with the men, tying into the above, since officers and the men traditionally tended to have icy relations, namely because most officers were too busy partying and taking leave whenever they could and only tended to the regiment when it came to disciplining the men under them or (2) He’s giving himself a sort of twisted pep talk, and even as he’s talking about the men, he’s also talking about HIMSELF. “I’ve never weakened before, I won’t weaken now, I made an oath, this is what I owe the King, these are my orders, this is what I’ll do.” 

And, when he says, “Nous devons au pouvoir/La mort et le devoir”…on one hand, that could be describing the relationship his men SHOULD have to him, “We owe to those in power death and duty, therefore you should obey my orders” but it could also just as easily be speaking about himself and his relationship to the monarchy, indicating that he sees himself more or less as an expendable part of a greater machine. 

Look at the way he’s looking when he’s cut off at his last “Attention c'est l'ultime…” He knows damn well at this point that it’s going to lead to bloodshed and that he’s going to give the order, and he’s DEFINITELY not thrilled about it. Determined, but not thrilled. But he’s already willed himself into doing it and he’s not going to stop now. 

Tl;dr: Laz is working three different groups with this song, which also functions as a masterclass of how he lies to himself as a coping mechanism. He might or might not succeed with 2 of them. He really needs to give less shitty pep talks. Preferably over something besides murder. Also he is totally getting coal in his stocking for the rest of his life. And is going to be sleeping on the couch for a long, long time. 

[shinkookiefanfiction]

SHE'S MY NOONA

Chapter 21

The next day

Shin min ah's p.o.v

It is Valentine's day and every couple are having fun and those who have crushes confess well except for me who has no date. We were on some Valentine's concert in which BTS were performing that day.

I couldn't stop thinking of what happened yesterday. Was he really asking me out? Isn't that question too much for me to answer?Why would he even ask me such question? Can't he make his own decision! Arasso date her but why wasn't I able to answer. I should have just tell him to date.

It's just that look he gave me, how could i have agreed while I like him. I just sat there thinking not realizing Tae was sitting next to me just staring at me..I was so suprised "ooh you scared me!" I got started as he laughed "mianhaeyo."

Looking at him now suddenly reminded me of what he said yesterday that he doesn't regret loving me. It looked very awkward for me because the mood suddenly became uneasy. " so done with the...concert?" I asked lessening the awkwardness.

"Ne, so about yesterday?" He suddenly squeezed getting right beside me making me feel nervous. " ne..ne yesterday?" " Did you meet up wit..aniyo forget it." He said as he removed his phone.

I managed to get a glimpse just then I saw my picture as his wall paper. He took out his ear phones and wore then as he listened to his music then he gave me one of the ear phones to share.

The music were really nice and calm. The others didn't arrive yet so I decided to listen to music with Tae as we waited for the others.

End of p.o.v

Later

Tae's p.o.v

It was nice to listen to music together with her. I felt really calm and longing for it to last just then I realized she was asleep getting a hard time to rest her head till I decided to lean her on my shoulder, my heart was already pounding as I watched her face.

"Kyeopta." I found myself stroking her hair behind her ear. "But the more I keep seeing you makes my heart more greedy of you." I sadly sigh.

End of p.o.v

A/n p.o.v

3 mins later the other boys arrived only to find the two alone in their waiting room. Min ah was still asleep leaning on v' s shoulder as v just sat there sharing ear phones with Min ah.

"Wow you guys totally look like a couple." J hope who blurted without thinking. This action made Jungkook even more jealous his friends realized this with the way he moves his tongue in his mouth out of anger.

Taehyung did not care with the angry look Jungkook gave them "I came here first and she was waiting for you guys s..." before Tae even finished talking Jungkook hurriedly grabbed Min ah by force waking the confused her from sleep taking her outside.

"Yah! What's wrong with you, how can you just grab me like that from my sleep." Min ah complained not realizing the hurt look Jungkook had " does it matter? Yah did you even see yourself? Are you doing revenge to make me look bad?" He cried

" Yah what did i do?! You confuse me even more." Min ah complained " you slept on Tae's shoulder!" "Mwo!, ooh my did I drool?" She panicked "I must have over slept while listening to music with him" Min ah explained making Jungkook even more jealous.

" what!? Why are you complaining or are you jealous?" Min ah chuckled as Jungkook just denied " yah how can i be jealous? I just don't like you messing with my friends." He said seriously scaring me hurriedly left.

"I wish you were." Min ah muttered watching him disappear the corner. Just then her phone rang it was one of her friends Go ara "annyeong what's up Go." She cried "party? Where?" "At my house? Yah wae didn't you inform me!" "Mianhaeyo we wanted to do a Valentine's party with our husbands and..." Go ara muttered "and what?" "We were thinking if you are able to bring BTS here mmh?" "Yah are you crazy why would I bring them? They have alot of schedule." "Ne can't you just try? They might agree." " yah Go ara th..hello?." "She even hung up on me? Stupid!" She cried getting everyone's attention.

Shin min ah's p.o.v

Have they gone out of their minds? How can i invite them at my party. If uncle realizes he'd kill me and the director would fire me right?

I walked back and forth thinking not thinking I would bump into Blackpink. They all stared me with anger shooting glares towards me as i apologized mostly Jennie. "Yah you did it on purpose, you know how much i got hurt." Jennie cried " mianhaeyo." I bowed but that woman never listened " I really hate seeing you here, why don't you just quit it's not that hard unless you wanna be famous through connections." Jennie spoke " what are you saying? I'm not even interested." She then got close and spoke to me " then stay away from my Jung if you don't want problems." She spoke bumping me purposely as they left.

I sigh giving up on inviting the boys to my party " well I guess they won't accept." I said to myself " won't accept what?" I heard a voice behind me realizing it was Tae.

"Ooh Tae it was nothing actually." I lied but he didn't believe me "yah u know it's a lie just tell me what is It?" He sincerely asked ad I decided to ask him "that's it" he laughed " why are you laughing?" I felt offended "mianhaeyo actually, i just laughed how a small thing like that can confuse you " don't worry about it we'll come I'll tell the boys." He said " jinja! Kumaoh." I cried happily.

Later

At my apartment

My friends had arrived and they brought some of their friends too. The room was really well organized with balloon and disco ball and alot of drinks with music.

" guys are you sure about this?" " yah Min ah don't get so scared this is the night where you really show us who you love out of the seven. We later stayed with the guy's awaiting for the guy's to come but not yet till some of my friends friend left. "Yah Min ah are you sure they'll come?" " ne i'm sure but I really did invite them." Just then I got a text from Tae and it said they won't make it since they had somewhere to go.

" Mianhaeyo they won't make it." I said as my friends became sad " it's okay as long as i friend is here with us... Lars party!!" The party girl Go ara cried as we began having fun.

Later

There was a door bell. Someone had arrived as Shin hye decided to go open. To her suprise it was The boys what were?, why? I had many questions but I let them go. My friends were all excited they couldn't stop staring at them. "Suprise! Mianhaeyo we lied we wanted to do it as a suprise." Jin said hugging everyone as my fellow girls couldn't stop.

The guys were laughing at how my friends were crazy fans. " we also brought groceries and beer just in case." Namjoon handed them in the kitchen Shin hye still did not believe if it was real. "Yah shin hye snap." I tried to awake her.

I went at the front kitchen as I watched all the guy's have fun and laughing. It made me really happy but Jungkook seemed to have not want to talk to me, just then there was another knock and guess what I never expected it to be black pink they all came which made it me even mad. "Its Blackpink! Yobo this is the best valentines ever!" Go ara cried.

"Jennie you are here?" I asked as she just stared at me then they all smiled " Min ah! You don't mind us joining at your party, dont you?" She grinned which I hated it, it was my house and I could just throw anyone out but I didn't want to look bad perhaps we may be good friends.

I went back to continue dealing with the food. Why did they come and how did they even know? I got mad at her seeing her go sit with kook. I felt angry and pissed off. They were smiling at eachother making funny jokes as if they were a couple.

"Are you going to kill someone with that?" I heard Lee jong suk. I felt really embarrassed as I laughed nervously realizing I was holding a knife still cutting the cabbages into pieces. "Ooh mianhaeyo..." I laughed at myself "you should be careful." He cried but then he grew close and "yah it's not to late to confess instead of standing there being jealous." He cried, it was true i was jealous but not sure of myself if it was The right thing to do.

"Kumaoh but I'm not jealous." I cried as he laughed and making me want to run and avoid his questions.

End of p.o.v

Everyone was having fun Min ah's friends were couldn't get enough of BTS and Black pink while some of them would play games. Min ah was all alone now in the kitchen she needed help but her friends were too busy to help her. She wished any of the girls could help her

Just then Tae appeared "can i be of help?" He smiled as Min ah hurriedly pulled him so that they can make kimchi and other stuffs. Tae could only feel a bit nervous since they were working together.

"Tae? Uhm you think I'll make the right choice if i confess to kookie?" Min ah gathered her courage and ask nervously Had who felt a bit disappointed "or just forget it" she chuckled embarrassed. "What do you think?" Tae asked back realizing their hands touched as they squeezed kimchi together but she hurriedly removed leaving the two in an awkwardness.

"Mia..." "..do you want to taste?" Tae interrupted holding kimchi to feed Min ah who just laughed in a fun way. Jungkook who saw the two feeding eachother became mad. He did not like it since she was smiling at Tae in lovely way "Wow the two really make a great couple...right Rosé?" Jennie who saw it two played these trick trying to win over kookie.

But Jungkook just got mad and left outside banging the door with anger drawing everyone's attention. Min ah could see this reaction but did not understand why.

Later

The food was ready and everyone was in a circle sitted ready to eat except the Blackpink did not eat since they were on diet. Jungkook came back himself right after the dinner was served. He went to sit beside Min ah who felt a bit nervous.

"Hey I have an idea, why don't we play son byung ho where the loser drinks this mixed beer" J hope cried mixing drinks as Go ara agreed and so as the others.

So the game started "for those who haven't married fold your finger." "For those who have married fold." They played till they all remained some with two, three "ooh gosh why only few." Min ah was worried and Jungkook who sat by her noticed "I can't really drink all that." She muttered.

"If you are still a virgin fold." J hope cried as others laughed and complained. Jungkook felt embarrassed he knew he would be laughed since all his hyungs weren't new to this things.

He was suprised when Min ah and some others fold their fingers "yah isn't this fair?" Tae, Jungkook and Jennie had three fingers left except Min ah who had two left it was now Jennie's turn "if you are inlove with someone from this circle fold." She cried.

Min ah's p.o.v

Ooh no every one had three and above fingers to fold except one of the Black pink Lisa and I now Jennie had ask another question. I prayed not to be among me but I guess not. Everyone was in an awkward situation looking if or anyone who was inlove with someone from the group.

I decided to fold cause it was true and to my suprise kookie also fold followed by Tae, Rose Jin and Jennie herself fold. It took everyone by suprise wondering who it would be "yah Jennie how can the owner of the question fold isn't..." Lisa cried but got interrupted "can't I stay true to my question?" She cried.

My heart was beating like crazy and just thinking how I stayed close to him. It felt really comfortable but I wasn't able to touch him? I felt too sad for myself stealing glances was all I could do but why did he fold his finger saying that he likes someone already is it Jennie? So far she's the only girl I know close to Jungkook.

I then realized I had one finger left and it was the end of me. " Ooh it's Jungkook's time." Suga cried "arasso....if you...you ever had a drunken kiss before fold." Just then no one looked like was able to fold which left me and Jungkook himself. I looked up at him then remembered about It, I wondered why did he bring it up and it was my last finger which left me no choice.

I was really screaming from inside why mixed? " Min ah lost, now she has to drink all the alcohol." I had Rose cry as Jennie supported "yah we already know she's going to drink." I wanted to move an excuse when they all started cheering "drink it up!×5...."

It was sooner all later I grabbed the whole some jug containing the beer as my friends cheered " arasso...here goes nothing." I lifted it to drink but just then someone hurriedly took the jug " I'll drink it." He raised his hand " i'm going to drink on her behalf." Kookie said making my heart ponder , I was really happy i didn't believe what he said so as the others " Wow you are going to be her dark knight, that's cool." J hope and others commented.

"You don't have...." " yah I'll take care of it." He firmly looked at me as he then started chugging the beer without stopping till he finished "wow you really drank it all though I was hoping for Min ah." Namjoon cried as the boys teased eachother.

"Kumaoh." I smiled at him but he looked back and drank a sip of water. " wae?" Jennie's drunken voice suddenly filled up the room when everyone was drinking " wae did you become her dark night? Can't you become mine ....I thought you cared about me.?" Everyone just kept staring at the two also trying to calm Jennie.

"Jennie calm down you are drunk mmh?" Her friends tried to stop her cause she started cursing which made some laugh at her but Jungkook's reaction was not okay. "Yah you said you didn't like neither of us but aren't your actions abit confusing?" She cried it was true he once said he doesn't love me but his actions always confuses me.

So that night later Blackpink all left home because of their drunken selve their van came to pick them up.

End of p.o.v

Jungkook's p.o.v

We were cleaning up with my fellow boys after Black pink left. My hyungs couldn't stop singing to karaoke songs and dancing druknly with Min ah's friends but I realized Min ah was not there.

"Shin hye!, where is Min ah? Have you seen her?" Well no but I think I know where she always goes." She said....I decided to go to the upper floor of the roof, it was really beautiful. A garden with sparkly light around them on top of the city and there she was on the bench sitting alone.

She looked really beautiful and pretty it made my heart sudden flutter with excitement. I got close and decided to sit next to her which I scared her " ooh gosh you scared me." She laughs at herself " can i sit here for a moment.?" I asked as she just looked at me with her pretty eyes.

"Ne." She nods i then looked at her she was holding a white cat on her lap. The cat was really cute " kyeopta." I smiled at her meaning her " right she's cute!" She said holding the cat on the air. " do you want to hold him?" She asked providing me the cat.

I was really not into cats it was Jimin's thing but since Min ah gave me I wanted to do it " where did you get It?" I asked " ooh i picked it, it looked really lonely soaked in the rain i couldn't leave the poor thing." She said as she still smiled.

I couldn't help but laugh " it kind off reminds me of you, really pretty and innocent." I said to her as she then stared at me. " yah...what are you saying?" She laughed it off trying to ignore everything I talk about i really hated that.

End of p.o.v

Min ah felt very awkward, embarrassed and nervous at the same time but she couldn't help but blush. She knew maybe it wasn't right so she tried pushing him away. Min ah was about to leave when Jungkook held her hand.

" You...why do you keep pushing me away?" He asked " did I do anything wrong to you?" He asked

Min ah's p.o.v

His eyes were tearly and red as he spoke. " I don't get why you keep making a distance with me? Is it worth It?" He cried making my heart more sad wondering if he was drunk or not." It is but it's nothing."

" why do you pretend knowing the fact that...I...i love you." He cried making my heart explode. I looked back at him and he realized what he had just said " sarangae Min ah...I've been waiting for a long time to shout this words to you but I didn't have the cour..."

He was about to finish the sentence but I interrupted him by shyly giving him a light peck on his lips. He was really suprised not expecting that from me " nado sarangaeo." I simply said with my smile on my face which he smiled back pulling me for another kiss. I could feel the hot burning sensation of our lips meet as he extended the kiss deep as our tongue touched and interlocked feeling each others hot sweet breath.

It was really nice as his hands where touching my hair from behind. I felt really embarrassed after we ended our kiss there smiling sweetly to me.

" yah you are making me more embarrassed." I cried childishly as he also couldn't help but smile. " kyeopta." He said holding my hands and before I knew it i had started a relationship with my star.