#I'm fine I promise

[starfox017]

My essay on Pearlescent Moon (and why I relate to her so much)

I think Pearl is just personally so relatable to me. Not only has she felt alone and betrayed by people she's tried to love, she has used that rejection to do some not so good things, which i must admit, i did. I felt like everyone I ever loved only left me, that no one was a real friend to me and it was all out of pity, so i used all those angry adn sad emotions to only dump all my feelings onto my friends in unhealthy ways, then blame them adn victimize myself, which only pushed them away furthur. I have learned to become a better person and to talk about my feelings in a healthy way, and now I do have people who truly love me, but I still get that anxiety about them leaving me, and I think that is EXACTLY WHAT PEARL DOES! In Double Life they were all assigned a soulmate, before figuring out her soulmate, Pearl goes off with Martyn into the Nether. Coming back she finds Scott and Cleo, who have already figured out that Martyn and Pearl are their soulmates. Scott and Cleo feel slighlty betrayed that Martyn and Pearl went out together before even looking for them, so they basically "break up" with their soulmates, which you can tell hurts Pearl a lot, to be left by someone who is supposed to love her. And to only make the wound worse, after that, Martyn also leaves Pearl, so now she is just alone, and can only blame herself, but is also just sitting in her own sadness and rage. Not to mention she gets a dog, who is her only friend and companion, which then dies. She gets angry and does some bad stuff to people such as making Scott lose hearts by purposefully taking damage, all the while thinking she is still the victim and Scott is the only one who should be blamed. To make her rage even bigger, people in the server called her "crazy" and made her out to be even more of a monster than she already was, which caused her guilt, but that guilt only played out in the form of rage, so it seemed like she didn't feel the guilt she was having over her actions, which only caused her to kill and do more harm to the people who hurt her first.

[thecremaster2520]

well this disease is defined by its treatment you people make me sick wah waaow

[iamthecomet]

Grief is so fucking weird. Life is normal and fine, and then you find a book of poetry. Or see a pair of cardinals. Or wake up to a thunderstorm. And the things they loved, that you love too, dig their claws into you. And it feels good as much as it hurts because it's loss and it's love, and when people imply it has an end they're lying. It's eternal, it's supposed to be.

[s4lesman]

imagining scenarios in my head and giggling for no reason fr ..

[hollustu]

feeling extreme amounts of anxiety due to things not happening here , so i will likely be pretty quiet for the time being , or at the very least selective about replying. love to you all!!!

[k1rbyl0v3r]

praying I get Kirby merch for christmas

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[vieramars]

You'd think that I, as someone who likes to starve my blorbos for angst purposes, would remember that eating solid foods after a period of starvation can make you sick, but you see, I humgry and food taste good

[cheadarchesse]

My mouth has tasted like blood all day and I don't want to tell my friends because they'll tell me to go to the doctor but I don't want to go to the doctor!

It's probably the sore on my lip that opened up

[basiltonpitch]

craving affection & attention vs being disgusted and appalled by the fact that i have a physical form and refusing to allow other people to perceive it lest i fall into what could quite possibly be the worst depression spiral of my adult life. who will win

[not-dannyz]

I'M GONNA IMPLODE AND CRY AND DIE AND JUMP AND SCREAM AND TEAR APART THE WALLS AND SCREAM AND SOB AND THROW UP AND BANG MY HEAD AGAINST CONCRETE AND FUCKING SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST AND EXPLODE

[flowersforfrancis]

[horsechestnut]

”I wanted to help people who needed the help. Starting with me. She hasn’t asked for anything, but she has the look of someone who’s gotten all to used to disappointment. If I can’t help someone like her… if I won’t help someone like her… then what really is the point? I’m not Spy Smasher. I never meant to be anything like her. I’m not Spy Smasher. I’m not Batman. It’s not about fear. It’s not about control. I’m Oracle. I help people who have no one. People in need. And that’s good enough.”

What if I cried actually? What then?

[sillyshellyy]

I hate the fact that the only reason I care about my life and self is cause of about two people..

Just, feels sad

[king-nyx]

You know I really did not want to believe that the ao3 author curse is real, but I think I'm currently in an active war zone.

So, hey, guys, writing fanficition is actually dangerous! Who would've thought that!

[saucy-mesothelioma]

Me: I can totally manage my emotions in a normal way!

Outer Wilds:

Me: *on the floor curled up into a ball sobbing uncontrollably*

[tending-the-hearth]

so uhhhhhhh listening to "dos oruguitas" and boy oh boy if i thought that song made me cry before i was completely and utterly wrong because WOW i don't think i've cried this hard to a song in a while