#I'm having FEELINGS fuckin help

[wildflowercryptid]

thinking about kieran again... particularly about how i feel like he struggles with a weak sense of self and how him identifying so heavily with ogrepon, (or at least the version of ogrepon he originally knew,) probably helped him stabilize how he saw himself, only to have something he considered so core to his identity essentially ripped away from him. not only that, it was by someone he seemingly wanted to trust and open up to, (which i doubt he does very often.)

i definitely think that the way he's handling things is far from healthy, but i can get why he'd have such an intense reaction to losing something that was so important to him and basically being betrayed by someone he wanted to consider a friend.

[vilelittlecritter]

Ha ha I don't know what I want to do with my life and I feel unsatisfied with my current condition!

[finniestoncrane]

i like it when people send me asks about characters because then i get to share all my ridiculous headcanons

but sometimes i have headcanons that don't fit into anything and for some reason i treat it like a lottery like i'll be sitting around here waiting on someone asking something very specific so i can be like

"yes, here are my exact headcanons on how captain boomerang fucks" or "you're right oswald cobblepot does have a food fetish but here's how it plays out for him usually"

as if i'm only allowed to write them if i'm given permission lmao

[finncakes]

if i project on her hard enough i'll get a cane :]

[suitetarts]

no one ever told me about the tear streaks

[kindahoping4forever]

I simply may never recover 😌😭🥰

[peribirb]

you ever catch feelings for somebody but you've spent your entire life convinced/convincing yourself that you're fundamentally unattractive and broken in a way that makes you unlovable and unsuited to any sort of relationship, and so instead of just enjoying that extra dopamine burst of seeing them around you just make yourself feel miserable for even daring to feel that way in the first place? or is that just me?

[jasonsthunderthighs]

I got a new mask. Anyone want to see it?

[theygender]

This has been on my mind for weeks and I talked to my therapist about it today and told my girlfriend about it too so now it's time for me to update the gay people in my phone: I may have schizotypal personality disorder

[samuraiondo-mace-1177]

I am so fuckin tired.

[stabbyfoxandrew]

i should be working on wipw rn but i just don't wanna lol

anyone know of any good method for outlining a novel?

[chloefraazers]

i know you'll give me courage

to face what i must face

[inkteresting-art]

Please ignore this it's almost 1am and I can't sleep and am full of vinegar ...laying in bed stuck with my thoughts and man do they suck, for months all I've been doing it feeling guilty and horrible about myself and hoping to talk to people in hopes of apologizing and making burned ends less burnt.. I'm coming to the realization that it's never going to happen and need to just give up, I wont be getting my chance to speak.. I want to be forgiven, but at the same time, thinking about the pass two years and how angry I actually am about how things were stated and also parts left out, the forgiveness I deeply want really means nothing to me. if anything it's acted as a fuckin poison to my brain to constantly hope and think about it on a daily bases. Stuck thinking about how everyone hates me and not having a way out like a mouse stuck in a burning cage.

I miss drawing the things I liked, all my Fav OC's I now kinda hate due to having to throw them in the corner, forcing myself to redo them all when in the end not really having a good purpose to do so.

I don't know how to bounce back anymore but I have no choice but to try and walk away anyways. I'll find something that will click again and meet new people.

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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[neganium]

The temptation to break into my birthday ice cream versus knowing I should wait until the 7th, aka my actual birthday...

And yet, the caramel... it beckons.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I think I've been touchy lately about my feelings of access to/participation in generativity. I've been feeling really overwhelmed lately by how much needs doing and how much disparate but necessary information I'm keeping in my head. I should probably get back into my thought maps for the work on the yard and house, because I think that will make it easier for me to empty my head when I'm not actively trying to work on something.