#I'm on meds but still not the point

[djsherriff-responses]

I'm doing this moreso out of curiosity than anything else , so no promises if I'll even do anything

TBH I've struggled with art motivation before I even got into Laserhawk and it's annoying the crap out of me I can't get myself to do long term projects despite wanting to

I'm also gonna attempt to enter a manga contest with an original story , hopefully I can do that at least, in case anyone was curious about that

[blueskyscribe]

MORE DREADWING TALK!

Dreadwing isn't a character I particularly resonate with for his own sake (like his personality doesn't do it for me), but he was so great for what he revealed about other characters.

So, Dreadwing is a foil to Starscream. Starscream is sneaky; Dreadwing is forthright. Starscream will do anything to survive; Dreadwing is all about honor. Starscream will sacrifice any other person / relationship to get ahead; Dreadwing puts his life on the line to try to avenge his brother.

And finally, Starscream is good at his job, Dreadwing isn't.

This is one of the most interesting things about Dreadwing. He's buff, he's serious, he's honorable, but once you start looking at his track record . . . hoo boy.

Mission to get rid of Airachnid: Dreadwing loses control of Breakdown, allowing him to be goaded and lured away by Airachnid, who kills him and traipses away.

Antarctic mission: Dreadwing returns emptyhanded while a rogue Starscream escapes with the Apex Armor.

Omega Key mission: Dreadwing gets knocked out by his own bomb; Starscream clocks Smokescreen from behind and steals the Omega Key.

So let's fast forward to the episode "Regeneration". Dreadwing has just learned that Starscream turned DW's twin into a zombie with dark energon. Megatron tells Dreadwing to get along with Starscream because the 'Cons can only succeed if they're united.

Dreadwing is like "okay" and immediately goes to the med bay to kill Starscream. While Starscream is cowering and pleading, Megatron storms in and orders Dreadwing to stand down. Dreadwing refuses but right before he can kill Starscream, Megatron shoots a hole straight through him.

So, Megatron would have preferred to keep both Starscream and Dreadwing on his team . . . and IMO he did initially prefer Dreadwing's vibe to Starscream's. After all, why wouldn't an ex-gladiator prefer the hulking warrior who has the strength and confidence to directly confront his foes, over the lanky, conniving guy who has to plot in the shadows and backstab to accomplish his goals?

But when he only had a second to decide between the two, Megatron shot the big buff guy who kept failing missions and was actively disobeying him, and saved the skinny sneaky guy who--even hobbled by the loss of his t-cog--had succeeded in obtaining four important relics and who could (somewhat) be controlled.

Dreadwing might have been a better person than Starscream, but Starscream was a better Decepticon. And making Megatron realize that was the most significant thing Dreadwing ever did on the show.

[deoidesign]

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[caitas-cooing]

"there is nothing wrong with taking psychiatric meds", "psychiatric meds are not helpful for everyone and people should not be forced to take meds if they don't want to", and "if you are not taking meds or otherwise getting treatment for your mental illness(es) and it causes you to blow up at people who don't deserve (especially if those people are your kids) that's bad and you should do something about it" are true and important statements and I need people to understand this

[tj-crochets]

Went to the doctor just for a check up and he basically just told me "your body just processes sugar very well! :) :) :) It's a good thing! :) :) :) It can't possibly be the source of your symptoms even though eating fixes it :) :) :)" But there was also a moment when talking about my iron deficiency that is possibly one of the funniest things a doctor has ever said to me, up with the cardiologist who said "you're a medical mystery": He was going over my blood test results, and said "Your iron levels haven't gone up at all, they are still extremely low, but you're not anemic anymore" And I was like how am I not anemic anymore??? And he said "Your hemoglobin levels have gone up...somehow..." while frowning at the blood test results on his computer. It was very "somehow, palpatine has returned" lol

[wizardnuke]

i understand this is like. objectively a wild thing to bitch about when yr average woman wants to lose weight but it is really so fucking bizarre and disheartening to be asked "how are you so skinny how do you do it" by women who are really honestly beautiful and healthy and i am genuinely so jealous of their bodies' ability to maintain some semblance of body fat. i have to say "i wish i weighed more" and they look at me like i'm crazy and then i have to say "every time i manage to gain 5-10lbs i inexplicably get really sick and lose all the weight i gained and it's a vicious cycle of never really feeling healthy" and that's not the answer they want to hear and they still don't understand why i want to gain weight and like. hhhh. makes me sad. i love you you're so pretty and i am chronically ill

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

i would like to stop experiencing the full spectrum of human emotions every day please. putting this out into the universe

[brittlebutch]

a lot of people seem to use Entry #61 as 'proof' for the crux of the "Brian didn't care about Tim, he was Taking Advantage of Tim's conditions and Forcing him to work as part of totheark" thing, but honestly when you think about it there's no possible way Brian could have possibly orchestrated that series of events, like you almost have to interpret that as a baffling group of coincidences

[ellalalala]

I ran out of my allergy meds about 3 days ago and decided not to buy them right away because "maybe my allergies won't be so bad anyway!" well. I'm dealing with withdrawals now

[iero]

Had a panic attack that literally woke me up in the middle of the night last night and lasted until the early morning and let me tell you, that shit is TERRIFYING. Needless to say, I think I'm ready to go back to work.

[heartshattering]

anyone else's brain feel like expired pudding this fine friday afternoon (aka morning for me)?

[eatember]

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[shiningneedlecastle]

So like. Maybe it's an ironic joking thing, but sometimes the tags on your posts/reblogs make me feel concerned, so like. Are you doing ok? Do you wanna talk about it?

yeah it's not really ironic joking, not gonna lie i'm doing quite badly irl what with how badly the american education system is structured (especially medical education and how particularly hellish it can get). i don't wanna burden you with the sheer weight of all this horrible shit and i don't spend much time on here anymore. but thank you for the offer though, sincerely

[cesium-sheep]

anyway she's on her way back now and it's sunny again. I did get to have the easier but more important of the two conversations beforehand tho, so I have a better idea of what the plan is with the money for the time being.

[transingthoseformers]

So now i am thinking of pony shockwave and the direction i would go with him

Shockwave as a pegasus, but you can't tell bc he always wears a lab coat covering his wings and he never flies. However he has also developed himself an artificial mechanical horn to perform questionable science magic, and the horn is part of some visor or helmet to give him the single optic look. And at Some Point he is forced to actually use his wings for something and everyone is like holy Fuck Shockwave is an alicorn ???? but he of course is not a real alicorn this is Science alicorn lookalike

Oooo he'd exactly do this

Giving him access to a universe with magic in it might be such a decision because in mlp? Magic has rules. Rules that aren't discussed very often, but rules nonetheless. He can logic them out enough to try and modify himself into a unicorn, then proceed to scare the shit out of everyone by actually flying.

I feel like a lot of ponies would have so many damn opinions about him being a pseudo-alicorn. So... so many opinions. There is so much symbolism around alicorns in their universe (in FiM, yes, but from what we've got Even More in mltfp.) and this would defy a lot of that symbolism. We don't see science mixing with magic very often in the series, but we see it sometimes. In FiM, the technology at the time just IS less advanced than it is in fifth gen, so that adds an extra layer to Shockwave having this level of proficiency at it (ohhh it would freak so many folks out. Because they've never seen anything like this.) He would look so freaky.

I'm wondering if there's a ☆story☆ around why Shockwave doesn't use his wings often, or if it's as simple as he doesn't want to.

[artemismatchalatte]

I hate being obsessive over someone. I feel like I'm heading there and I don't want to be overly clingy either. Ugh. I don't know if it's a bipolar thing, a possible crush thing, a loneliness thing or a combo of all three. My medicine has been working pretty good so far but I'm a little concerned that someone is taking up a little too much room in my headspace. I like this person BUT I do not want to slide back into my weird obsessive loops like I used to when crushing. That's embarassing and unhealthy. Ugh.