#IN A NICIES WAY LOL

[phoenicafleecity]

I keep seeing that fucking figgy pudding video on my dash you guys are gonna kill me

[arolesbianism]

Eternal gales isat au except Bloom is the one looping and she never fucking escapes due to the curse of being 9 years old. Oh and also the middle aged woman actively sabotaging her at every step of the way ig

[shallowseeker]

Rambling about the Macleods and Castiel friendship today:

I looooove how Rowena and Crowley will go out of their way to annoy everyone:

Rowena (11x03)

Rowena: You wouldn't think a road trip with two such strapping lads could be this tedious. Shall we have a wee sing-song? Sam and Dean (in unison): No!

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Crowley in early 12x03: YAY ROAD TRIP!

Unlike in the past, Crowley is making himself as ADORABLE AS POSSIBLE THIS SEASON, ESPECIALLY TO CAS. Hilarious change of tactics. Truly. Crowley and Rowena both want friends so badly!

Crowley singing!

12x03

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Crowley singing again!

12x15

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Crowley is ALSO blowing a lot of hot air this season. Which continues into the next episodes.

12x03

Cas, as usual, not reacting much to Crowley's attempts to wound. (This is partially why Crowley goads him; the game is in getting Cas to react, which... he almost never does.)

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But it's is soooooo funny, though. Crowley calls himself a "Jay-Z" and a POWERFUL demon and keeps trying to make digs at Cas as only "kinda powerful"...

...and yet insisting Cas go ahead of him, BWAHAHA. I love Crowley so much. I never thought about how Metatron-coded hs is a lot of the time, and it's... hilarious. (I'm a huge Metatron girl, so.)

"You first, Cas, go go!"

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Also, I'm 99% sure this is the era where Rowena notoriously flipped on Cas, deciding he was super desirable, and I'm 99% sure this drove Crowley insane.

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Rowena is in her dating-any-men-possible era, and she instantly starts velcro-ing herself to Cas. Later we'll see her go, "Ooooh, is the handsome angel there. Hi, tweetie pie!"

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But yeah. Metatron, Crowley, and Rowena want to be popular kids and have friends soooooooooooo bad and I love them all.

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Literally, all Crowley wants from life is to steal Sam and Dean's (and Cas's) roles. As we saw in s10, he HATES work. He wants his life to be one long fun road trip, filled with booze and bar-hopping.

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Also LOL at Sam assuming Rowena got some licks in and did some damage. I love that he has this wonderful assumption of Rowena's strength:

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Crowley tries much harder than usual to muster up (transparent) bluster. He's feeling insecure, lost. He wants friends, family, security. I think he's partially throwing his weight around because Lucifer represents his deepest insecurity: his job.

Beating Lucifer is the last peak, and maybe if he climbs it, he thinks, his life will finally even out.

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AHAHA. Crowley loves being annoying, and he loves trying to break Cas's poker face.

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And speaking of uncool, Sam and Dean are pretty "uncool" this episode too, LOL!

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VERSUS

Despite the others nagging him, it's CAS who establishes a rapport and gets the "in" this episode.

Cas does this being being unashamedly uncool, not being a yapping Hell-king, or trying to appear "hip" like Sam and Dean do.

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And Cas's stoic heroism seems to rub off on him. Crowley, not willing to fight Lucifer for Rowena in 12x02:

Crowley, who deep down wants to be more heroic like Cas, Like "Superman"...

...Is now trying his best to be a little more of a hero, following Cas's lead (he says it's because he hates Lucifer, but we'll do Crowley take up for friends and even the rescued-girl-of-the-week in later eps: Stuck in the Middle (with you) AND Somewhere in Between Heaven and Hell.

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A hero's entrance:

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And again, I had a meta about this before, but it's sooooo interesting that Lucifer is using Cas as a Chuck-stand-in: "Took you long enough," like he's been waiting for Cas, specifically. Like he wants a reaction out of Cas specifically.

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And you know what else is fun? Lucifer attacks Crowley brutally with a guitar

And two seconds later Cas doles out the same thing to Lucifer.

ANYWAY.

This is the era when Rowena starting referring to Cas as "the handsome angel," and he actually gets fidgety and shy about it, and Crowley is probably losing his mind over Rowena's developing crush on him, especially since Cas, by all appearances, treats Rowena so nicies in comparision to Crowley.

BUT! In the next episode, Cas is a little nicer to Crowley, playing along by calling him Agent Zappa. Seems like they're KINDA friends now.

[moistvonlipwig]

lena: 1 2 8 17 18 :D

Why I love them, like them or hate them?

I love her because she always wants to do the right thing even though she doesn't always know what that is and even though everyone around her constantly treats her so poorly and thinks the worst of her even after she's proven herself time and time again. And I also love her because, as the Designated Morally Gray Character, she got to have way more interesting scenes & relationships than most of the other characters on the show did, she got to fundamentally disagree with & call out Kara and the other Superfriends, and she (somewhat) got held accountable when she made mistakes. (More than anyone else did at any rate lol.)

And I hate her because she wears shoes on the couch. Girl you are RICH buy some SLIPPERS or something!!!!!

2. How would I have chosen to change their story from canon?

Don't make her a witch!!!!! >_< Also I would've axed Non Nocere. You could replace it with so many things, including my superpower dampener idea or, like, Anything Else. (And if they HAD to include Non Nocere, 5x08 should've been the end of it -- Lena should've either chosen not to launch it at the last minute, or she should've told Hope to launch it only for Hope to be like I cannot obey that directive Ms. Luthor because you programmed me to do no harm and then Lena could've been like Oh.....I see.....and then had her big revelation that it was a bad idea.)

Going back a little further -- I would've actually loved for Lillian to turn her into Metallo in the real timeline? Maybe at the end of S2 or S3? It would've been super fucked up which is why it would be so delicious. Especially with Lena still not knowing Kara was deathly allergic to kryptonite. But you could also use the plotline to show Lena's resilience and scientific prowess, as she works to stabilize the kryptonite in her new heart. (Also, this would be a fabulous excuse to give her a dog who could detect potential kryptonite destabilization. This show needed a dog so bad.)

I also think, if this show had different showrunners who were better about race, it would've been really interesting for the Luthors -- with all their wealth, scientific genius, & opposition to Superman -- to be black. (Consider: Angela Bassett as Lillian. Just saying.)

8. What is a headcanon I have about this character?

Mm, well, to follow up on my answer to #2, one headcanon I have is that what Lillian said about manipulating her into going into STEM was only true for Earth-Prime Lillian and Lena, not Earth-38 Lillian and Lena, and since our Lena is still the Earth-38 version it actually isn't true for her. :) It's a goofy loophole but I'll take it!

Also, it was in a deleted scene so it's not an original duckthought, but I like the idea that she was a fencer and almost made the Olympics, I think that's cool. (I will leave the speculation on the kind of fencing she did to you and your very non-biased friend.)

17. How well would they do if they got dropped in a horror movie?

Well it depends on the themes of the horror movie and what it's trying to say, for instance, if it's a horror movie about cycles of familial abuse I think she might be the final girl but in one about the excesses of capitalism she probably wouldn't make it I think pretty well? She's not very genre-aware to be fair but she makes many Devices and, crucially, she can make her little Devices even when she doesn't have a lot of resources at hand.

18. Would I personally trust them to be my friend?

Yes because she has so much moneys and all you have to do is be so nicies to her and she will be loyal to you for life. (Actually you.....don't even have to do that. 🥴) Would I WANT to be friends with her? Honestly, I probably wouldn't want to be friends with anyone on CWSG. But I'd trust her, yeah.

[the-owl-tree]

I wish starlight had a better redemption arc. lowkey that’s the only reason I hate her outside of her dumbass backstory (I could fix it) and the lack of explanation for her being almost alicorn level gifted. like lemme tweak her backstory a bit:

she was considered exceptionally talented and everyone had high hopes for her to go far in life or could even get into celestia’s school (kinda like twilight) but she was suuuuper attached to sunburst in an unhealthy way (bpd gang rise up) leading to her revolving her entire world and life around him and when he left she completely spiraled and used her powers to keep others around her from leaving. her specialty are memory and mind altering spells since she canonically even after her “redemption” can’t seem to stop revoking other pony’s rights to free will.

she operates on pure natural talent and raw might due to lack of proper training so it was actually really easy to defeat her and send her packing out of her village. her second appearance she came back with the alicorn amulet (the one trixie had in that episode, but it was gone so fast I am ignoring it. that’s such a cool item wasted on one episode?? no) which is how she fucked with alternate the realities.

in a world where friendships and bonds are pretty much building blocks for their society I can see it being probable that pony’s without friends could suffer health wise too. not just mentally but physically. maybe she never got her cutie mark and blames friendship in general for stunting her. she doesn’t hate just twilight, she hates ALL of equestria. every other pony has someone and she has nothing and no one. no friends, no cutie mark, no purpose. just rage.

when she is defeated again, she should have faced actual consequences. send that horse to prison. idk. why did cozy glow get sent to hell. this isn’t about her.

I think a probation period or similar where she has to earn back the right to use her magic while attending the friendship school and amending her crimes would have been good to see. she her earning forgiveness. show her earning her cutie mark! show her apologizing to every pony she hurt and then accepting they won’t like her anyway! I know it’s a kids show and really they can’t do too many heavy topics, but also I hate this horse

Starlight's insane magical power without any amulets or anything bothered me, I like the idea of her getting her hands on it instead of her just being super mega OP. I get it's for the sake of the plot but it's also sort of like...does magic need to be trained? What's the point of magic schools if the average unicorn can learn a teleportation spell rather easily? do you guys ever think about how OP magic gets in the later seasons, regardless-

It felt weird that the way they chose to write her being won over by Twilight is literally forcing her between a rock and a hard place. Either start being nicies or apocalypse time forever, isn't that fun! It makes it even more disingenuous with how little time they spend redeeming her or even having her recognize the impact she's had on those around her (it bothers me the show seems more invested in how Starlight has been hurt by the Our Town debacle than the Our Town ponies). It also doesn't help her backstory is embarrassing...like girl write a letter you can levitate quills some kids have to use their damn mouths!

I disagree with her being locked up, mainly because I think MLP's weird tonal dissonance around incarceration is uh really weird for the neon pony story (seriously. why did they lock the child in tartarus, why did they turn the child to STONE). Rehabilitative justice is a GREAT thing for kids to learn, showing that anyone can change with work, kindness, and friendship (in the show at least lol)! But by not centering who Starlight hurt and just rushing through her actually working to be better, it makes her story lacklustre and half-hearted. At least in my opinion!

[keeps-ache]

The OCs you posted recently look really cool- could you talk a bit about them? Maybe the antagonists as well?

!! oh thank you :D

suuure yea :>> it's a smaller, newer thing of mine so not a lot n some of it may change!! but here's some profiles lol,

✧ Tide (the square head; they/them) is some sort of creature thing who lives in a remnant of an old world that decayed a long time ago after finding themself trapped there (that changes after they meet the goddess). they're head over heels for the goddess that still remains in the corridors there and they're not very normal about it hbfhvs - they can't be killed by any regular shmegular means and i have fun with that loll

✧ Vernor (ponytail gal; she/her) i don't have a lot for her, but she ended up in the same place Tide did and is very upset about it, understandably. she's good a martial arts and cries easily, and is pretty suspicious of most strangers :) she has a small knife-thing that works like a witch's broom (you have to hold the little handle for dear life though lmao) but i haven't gotten around to drawing it so !

✧ Dire (red circle; he/him) was created by the aforementioned goddess to dump emotions/thoughts she didn't want into, and then just sent him on his way lmfvhsh - because of that he is confused most of the time and still pretends to know everything but is figuring things out for real lol :3👍he hates to change his clothing and is snappy, and the snappiness may get worse on personal proximity hbfshv

^ these three have a Thing goin on. mostly qpp cuz i think it's fun :33

✧ Sleepy (the antagonist, he/him) the elusive guy. elusive bc i haven't drawn him lmfsh - another budy trapped in this old chunk of a dead world, he is also upset about it but to a much more desperate extent lol - his name isn't actually Sleepy but Tide nicknamed him that when they first met and now he can't seem to shake it hfsh, he Does hate it :) he is violent but he can play nicies so he does that most time loll

✧ the goddess (only thing holding this world together, She/her/it (capitalization is optional :3)) has been here for ages, ages, ages. her world's been long dead but she just keeps living for the monotony of it hfsh; plus, it's like her job never ended if she just keeps doing the same regular things she always did. bc of that it's actually preserved her chunk of annihilation, and sucks other creatures in w/o her knowing. the chunk is like a maze that keeps changing shape, so unless you can see it from a god's eyes the place is iiiiiinfinite! and terrible; the place changes to her moods and wishes, which can be interpreted p strangely lol :3 she's talked to and kept Tide around bc she needed somebody to deal with all these weird people coming into her dang house, and it's worked out fairly well (dubious)! :D

the world-chunk is inspired by vaporwave, abandoned malls, and the distinct smell of chlorine my mother has sometimes loll :)

[shakyfoot]

today:

second coffee on an empty stomach T_T cuz no groceries eggs expired my house was used as a film set the last week and im still a bit uncomfortable to be here lol

brush teeth get dressed

go get croissant sandwich probably then walk? to school or take train

set up studio again after grad exhibition

pick up nici get an ice cream

paint???? !!!

pick up bike bike home get groceries on the way

watch a movie

[celestie0]

hiiii ellie 👋🏻

just wanna take a moment to let you know how much your writing means to me :') i'm kinda shy about doing this but fuck it, imma do it so here goes nothing lol.

for starters, i'm relatively new to this platform. i was pulled in of course by none other than satoru x reader smut... but what REALLY dialed me in was your stories.

it started with ihm, i love how you write gojo and i live for the bantering 🤭 the characters feel so real and fleshed out, you impressed me right off the bat.

so after that, i found kickoff and girl, i literally BINGE READ the entire series, staying up until like 3 am LOL. i remember laying on my couch, going through all the emotions. kicking my feet, laughing, feeling pain from the angst 😭 looked at the clock and was like oh shit, tomorrow is gonna suck but WORTH IT 🫠

and the thing is... while yes, the smut was amazing (guuuurl especially when i'm ovulating, you have fed us good 😩🤚🏻), it wasn't the main thing driving me to your stories. what really hooked me in was the way you write and how you are able to bring so much emotion to these characters. also, you are reeeeeally good at building up their relationships 😮‍💨

i've said this before but i just want to reiterate that you are the person that encouraged me to start writing on this platform. you seem like overall just a really freaking chill person too, i've always loved your vibes (also we're west coast twins i'm in socal 🫶🏻)

anyways, after starting to write i see how much hard work and effort goes into having this hobby. it really disheartens me to hear about the crap some people say, those people are really selfish and inconsiderate.

you have NO obligation to do this yet here you are, sharing your passion with us, and we are blessed for it 😇

anyways, this kind of became a side tangent... but i guess i just want you to know that the people that are sending rude shit to you and nici are on my list 😤

you are a queen, i hope you are enjoying your trip, and staying healthy. sending you lots of love 💛

hi my love omg i’m so sorry it took me so long to respond to this ask i wanted to have some proper time to respond but i read it when you sent it n it made my whole day seriously!! 🥺💕 you are so so kind

HAHAH i’m so glad you had fun binging kickoff!! that’s a lot to read in one sitting xD hope it didn’t ruin your sleep schedule TOO much skdhfksdjh

thank u sm for your kind words about my writing :”’’’) i spend a manic amt of time daydreaming about my stories n wondering ab my characters n i think i try to value character development n personalities the most so to hear that you are really feeling the emotion to my stories and characters means the world to me fr, and for you to appreciate it like aaaaaa i swear it’s what keeps me going n writing n i want to thank you for help keeping my passion alive <3 ALSO SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT ABOUT THE BUILDING RELATIONSHIPS THING BCI WORRY AB THAT A LOT SO ITS REALLY REASSURING HAHA

yaaaay fellow writer <3 i think it’s so cool how writers kinda domino off one another n we blossom into writers of our own it’s truly amazing feeling to know i inspired someone to write as well!! AND OMG SAME I AM ALSO IN SOCAL!! AAA

ugh yeah. i feel like you don’t really know how difficult it is to write until you start doing it yourself haha. i have gained SUCH large respect for my fave fanfic writers over the past year that i’ve been writing because i realize the dedication it takes, esp something done for free. i do wish some people were nicer, but alas that’s the reality i suppose. AW THANKS FOR LOOKING OUT FOR US <33

you are just SUCH an angel and i can feel the immaculate vibes from you through the screen. ty again sm for this message my love omg :’’) i really needed it. sending you SO much love as well <333

[unrooms]

By the way, since it's now time to send in suggestions again, I wanna clarify: you can suggest more than one thing to do in the hour- gotta fill the time somehow! You can also suggest less specific things like, 'mess around with the puzzle and gather data', or, 'explore'. Also, please send in suggestions via the askbox and not the replies. I will still put your suggestions from the replies in the poll, but it makes it harder for me to keep track of them. So be nicies to me, lol

[blue-pikmin-gaming]

Log #5

oukay i. takebreak form talk about "rememberies" there not much Intrest anysway. todaywe talk about most AWSOME THING EVAR: foolik is kill!!!!!! we al starte"war" aganst foolick and go tocave and kil and itwas EPIC.

theni went to the TRIALE an foolx gotsent to HELL!!!! difrent hel from Mine ithink mine calld "Skyrime" but foolkhel haded wayymore fire. fromthe 5 seconde i saw.

unfortantly fooblix stil able to postand talkto me becaus they "hav tungler in hel" aprently. laaame. butat least nomore eaties allmy friend!!!! momo avenged \^o^/

pufstol wantto "save" foolc from helll. puftsull is my frind we lookd for foevur weed an went :3 tgefur andthey watch me do kickflip. soim a bit uppset. ithink pufdstol not unnerstan how meanies foolies is. theyr be way too nicies.

but its ok. idon think thuey will suckseed, imean the forivr weedb proofed how hardit is to find thuing ifnot know wher eis. i muean whatwil they do, make a nethr prortal? mined craff isnt real lol.

ok log ovr goo bye

[gayspock]

also to rambleeee abit but ^_^

jokes aside ive been rlly enjoying de, lol... idk, yknow- as someone who rlly isnt into video games.. its managed to strike the EXACT balance of everything tht usually turns me off yah.^_^ bc i usually wanna play a no combat type game, where u still get to make choices, but thsi feels actually replayable, you know. like, it doesnt just feel like your choices are just changing branches on a decision tree, BUT that different choices/different stats are actually transformative to the experience which is sooo nicies, AND the choice of stats arent like something you do have to min-max like... i jokeee but its been just as fun playing it like an idiot for the first time round, and it does actually make me wanna go through back again which neverrrr happens.

bc likeeee sheriouslyyyyyy ive tried games before where i rlly DID like them but ugh i'd just burn out on them INSTANTLY if i had to replay them to get diff endings. like i know some ppl are int that and theoretically i am too but logistically i cannot fucking sit there and redo the WHOLE hthing again, the exact same way except for a branching change midway through, just to click different options AND i'm not fucking looking up playthoughs for diff endings when i have the damn thing so i just. coldwar it, dont do NOTHING. ...... but here its like oh smile... i think its actually going to feel like a different experience if i do replay it LOL

[archived-lehkonen]

this is a lot but 6, 18, 24, 51, 72, 74 <3

6. What’s the last line you wrote?

The most remarkable thing about the fact that Mikko is standing at the door is the fact that he’s standing there at all.

it's from my latest captain/rookie brainrot session LOOOOL

18. Do you enjoy research?  Which fic of yours required the most research?

i do like research! i dont really like getting too deep into it because while its nice to know that ive done my due diligence and done the necessary research for whatever topic i wanna write about, soemtimes it feels like i just wanna get on with it already but i keep going down rabbit holes and then that part gets kind of annoying. i'll just learn things and be like "well this isn't ever going to come up in the fic at all" and then..... i just feel like ive wasted writing/planning time lol. but yeah, as long as it's not tooooooo much research , i really like taht part of fic making :] the childhood friends to lovers one took the most research, but only because i wanted to get the scheduling mostly right lol!

24. How do you choose whose POV to write in?

stupidly enough, it starts with One sentence. i'll write out a banger line and ill be like "oh okay so the rest of the story has to be written in their pov now" LLKFJDSLKAJF . if that doesn't happen, then i usually try to figure out who would have more Reactions to the Big Thing happening in the fic and then go from there. ive been known to switch POVs in the middle of writing and rewrite the previous passages though so i'm very back and forth HAHAHAHA

51. Does what you like to write differ from what you like to read?

absolutely not LMFAO,. i write what i do purely because of what i read HAHAHAHAHA. there are tropes and cliches and whatevers that i literally cannot get enough of, and i'll consume them in any way possible, including making content about it. childhood friends to lovers? cHECK. fluff? YEP. some lighthearted bullshit and shenanigans? YEPPPP GIMME. slow burn with Too Much Yearning? CHECK CHECK CHECK. i write what i like to read.

72. What’s your favorite writing compliment you’ve gotten?

I DO!!!!!!!!!! i wont post them here because they were personal messages to me but scoob, nici, and sleeby have mentioned that they love the way i write because of how well i know the people i write about and i think its really high praise especially considering i havent written hrpf in like 8 years i think?

74. Do you have a fic you wish got a bit more love?

nope! actually every fic ive posted for hrpf have gotten way more love than i expected, espeically considering that im writing.... rarepairs . the reception to my fics have been sooooo incredible.

[the-owl-tree]

like as a character creator and writer myself, most of my protagonists are not good people. Several are actively bad people. It doesn’t make reading them any less compelling, bc if you know how to, idk actually Write, than the audience will still follow the character despite knowing they’re wrong bc it’s INTERESTING. One of the worst things media can be is boring, that’s worse than being actively bad to me. Example, the new Madame Web movie by Sony Entertainment was unanimously considered worse than Morbius, which ppl clowned in for weeks of not MONTHS. Why? It’s not necessarily any better or worse than Morbius. The reason is because it’s boring. One guy actually fell asleep during it despite TAKING NOTES to try and keep himself awake. A supplementary book that doesn’t engage with what was established in the source material in any meaningful way, changes things to make the protagonist look better without having any real character reason as to WHY other than a surface level ‘make her seem complex’, and actively makes not only the protagonist, but other established characters seem golden heartedly or evil to basically create a faux narrative because you blatantly can’t think of a conflict other than tired tropes, is not only BORING, it’s bad writing. If they wanted to make her seem complex or write a different perspective, they could have gone the ‘unreliable narrator’ route, where the character thinks they are right and narrarates themselves as such, but the text itself shows the opposite. Having Leopardfur/star be arrogant but also completely confident that her perspective is the right one, refusing to examine her beliefs until it’s too late, would make a very interesting story imo! It’s the story of a villain who thinks they’re a hero. They could have done something from that. Instead they basically took the tropes and basic structure from nearly every other special edition and gave it a shoddy new coat of paint. It’s books like these that make me feel better abt my writing lmao, if they got published amd on the top charts than call me Charles Dickens LOL

I was expecting them to sand down Leopardstar but this is a whole other character! No arrogance, no pride, even her ambitions aren't even touched on. The most we get is her wanting a rematch with ThunderClan and that's not even that interesting.

I think a moment that pissed me off is this scene where she's training Whitepaw and he's not listening so Frogleap tells her to be gentle and kind and motherly and baaaaaahhhhh why?? This is not the character Leopardfur needs to be! The character arc needs to be setting up her eventually descent into TigerClan, not giving me a dumb fuck scene of her learning how to be nicies. It speaks to why this shouldn't exist, or at least be a novella, the fat they add just actively ruins the experience!!

[youthblamed-a]

wahrsagung hehe 🌚👀

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MY OPINION ON ;; 

character in general: dinah i just 😭 good content op i Love Her so much….. we stan stable, wholesome characters who embrace their sexualities so hard on this blog. and also kiernan even though she’s a lil mean sometimes… the gay yearning comes across so well in the threads, and it’s a small detail but the fire-dwelling salamander patronus ….. literally the most adorable thing?? also aspen omg, the chaotic dumbass energy… she and levi would get along so well js.  how they play them: i don’t really know a whole lot about your canons but i love seeing them all and i will make entire verses to be able to write with all of them ( even if i ….. don't know what i’m talking abt in any of them ) but you have such clear voices for each of them and i’m so invested in them all even though i don't know the first thing about any of the shows they’re from. im also so excited for your take on blue and helen omg, ella rae smith is the only way i can picture blue now and i know i will love what you do with them both.  the mun:  firstly…. I am sorry abt all the str*ight jokes oop but i really appreciate that you laugh at them with us. you also do an impressive amount of actually writing which sounds dumb but genuinely you’re constantly on a role of writing beautiful replies and i wish i could relate lol. im also just so in awe of the fact that i kinda appeared out of Nowhere a couple weeks ago as far as groupchats and things go, and you have been so welcoming and lovely even still ?? i’ve enjoyed reading to the jared 19s / listening to the book with u and im sorry im so awkward one on one BUT i very much love everything you say in the gcs, i love that you are really talkative but still have very chilled out energy, it is very much needed to balance out the Chaos in there 😌 

DO I ;;

follow them: i do ♡  rp with them: yes !!  want to rp with them: i am SO excited about the few things we have going and i can’t wait to see how things develop because there are some premium soft friendships already uwu ship their character with mine: there are many combinations to explore once my multi is up let’s see what happens !! getting ahead of myself here but. even though adam is currently having his rights revoked lowkey at the part of the book i’m at right now, and i know they aren’t Meant To Be, i have many tears abt blue and adam.

WHAT IS MY OVERALL OPINION ;;

overall opinion: i forgot to mention the fact that you learned to make beautiful icons so fast and now u have unstoppable icon power… i stan you so hard nici, im so glad we have the chance to talk and write together 😌

**Note: Mun’s answer are all to be completely honest. Don’t send url if you don’t want brutal honesty.

[viryvlyn-blog]

journal for serious!

do not deviate this time! mama wanted you to do this!

Don’t get distracted this time-

My name.. is Stein/Leo. My online presence i always feel is hefty more realisitc and important than my real life one i usually feel like, which is why the separate identities formed. I really can’t form true hearted relationships(i can , but since i currently have no sentimentality still, its hard ! and i cant go anywhere, extra boohoo)

i love.. being a boy with a girls body at the same time. since im not really mentally ever here, it never matters for my dysphoria either because if i dont havea self to ground with, what is there to be worried about? im cute both ways and im happy with who i am.

im receiiving medical treatment ..  lets see....  november 6th? happy days! mom i working really hard for me and its really nicie.. only bcof father in the heavens though.. <3 i havethe perfect life because of father J, and there is nothing i would change . my mental status and laziness is the onl thing dragging me down. i am happy to change and am willing to work.

i do not allow myself to feel, it is not a driving force and its not someting i can pinpoint neither, hwoever, it is someting to be concerned about if i want to be a real human being, not just an encased being.

my mind? always somewhere else, inthe clouds, (for some reason clouds trigger the nostalgic sense and bring me back to where i am? taking notes..) the smell of rain , cold air, and winter are my things of sense of past to ground me. hm.. im excited for winter! very chilly air, robust sentimentals, lots of months spent in school running back and forth while listening to my music of ages; quite a peaceful time it is- and oh how pretty it can get.

nothing conflicting, gorgeous colors.. the pale white of the ground and painted trees is what hooks me most; it covers everything and makes the ground feel neverending.

haha! ;lets see what i did today and yesterday! i’m doing very well, i need to stop bending myself to conform to others because father’s energy is the only thing keeping them hooked, with all love, and i do not eed to change with my hefty anxiety. anxiety is the only thing keeping me .. like here!

yesterday = i worked on the saeran animatic, very fun! it is coming very nicely in such a short amount of time

= worked on various sketches, i’m currently very very pleased and confident in my art style!

= talked to lem! although i started out very lazed and dark, we then grew our special bond again

= i played vrchat once more with my friends, currently at peace.. idk how to play any oter games with them though? we had a kareoke night (groundbreaking!), wish hed send me the footage

today = my momma is really doing her best to try and mush her way into my brain and helpme anyway she can. she’s scared of what i’ll do and what i always think adn she pities me.. im so sorry to worry her, i feel  so bad. today she boughted me a omelette and a really yumby breakfast :) i watched dr stone with her too! although she was on her phone i was just watchng it in the room lol

= i studied chemistry and am ready for my math test! for real the first time ive ever studied outside of school in ..... years probably haha

= currently flashed back to freshmen year to how pretty thoe nights were writing poetry onmy computer for class ? i was really happy. nostalgic. it all deeply started in freshmen year........ when the disorders flared up after all the events and then realizing the underlying truama that effected me fora long tme . self pity and.. self harggrfkfkkgjgfg im not even going to go there! focus on whats now

i really wish id appreciate things smoe.. id be sucha sap and mypast self would stranggl e me if he found out i have such a good life and that its not changing; and how muc i try to be grateful but physically cannot because of the disorders inthe way. but thats okay!

i need to work on.. a lot of thngs. but i did verywell:)

good job!!! have funand enjoy your endeavors :)

[asleepinthisbrokenparadise]

De la 1 pana la 93 :)))) *is curios*

1. Ţi-ai făcut vreodată o poză când erai gol/goală?

Nu

2. Când este ziua ta?

  24 mai

3. Cu cine ai vrea să fii în acest moment?

  Cu crush

4. Ce sporturi practici?

  Sunt o persoana prea lenesa ca sa practic un sport

5. Cine este prima persoană în lista de contacte?

 Andreea,o prietena

6. Care este melodia ta preferată?

 Nu pot sa aleg,am mai multe

7. Ce anume simţi acum?

 Nimic

8. Care este ciocolata ta preferată?

 Milka cu oreo

9. Câte/câţi iubiţi/iubite ai avut până acum?

   2 iubiti

10. Cu ce scop ţi-ai făcut blogul?

  Niste prietene aveau si am zis sa-mi fac si eu

11. Unde ai vrea să fii în acest moment?

 Am mai raspuns

12. Ce ai vrea să devii în viitor?

 Psiholog

13. Ultima dată când ai plâns. De ce?

 Acum cateva zile. Din cauza unei melodii

14. Eşti fericit/ă?

  Neh

15. Îţi este dor de cineva?

  Da

16. Care este cel mai mare regret al tău?

 Ca nu am ascultat de persoanele care mi-au vrut binele

17. Ţi-a înşelat vreodată partenerul/partenera? 

Oarecum

18. Cine a fost ultima persoană pe care ai îmbrăţişat-o?

Oana

19. Ce gen de muzică asculţi?

 Rock,rap,metal,kpop,trap

20. Ai trecut peste momentele grele din viaţa ta?

 Da

21. Cu ce fel de persoană te-ai întâlni?

Idkk,asta e d-aia complicata

22. Care este ultimul mesaj pe care l-ai primit de la mama ta?

 ‘’triplu,nu prelungitor’’ =))

23. Îţi place de cineva în momentul de faţă?

Da

24. Cum este inima ta?

Ii o inima,nu face prea multe

25. Ce ai vrea să-i spui fostului/fostei tale?

Ca imi pare enorm de rau.

26. Ai vreo fobie?

 Gandaci

27. Ai încercat vreodată să te schimbi pentru cineva?

Da,si inca o fac

28. Care este cel mai frumos lucru pe care l-ai oferit cuiva? Dar pe care l-ai primit?

 Habar n-am

29. Te-ai reîntoarce le fostul/fosta ta?

 Nu

30. Numeşte ceva/pe cineva fără de care nu poţi trăi.

 Oana,Ingrid,Tara,tumblr

31. Ai fost vreodată sărutat/ă?

 Da

32. Cât a durat cea mai lungă relaţie de-a ta?

 aproape 6 luni

33. Regreţi vreo faptă pe care ai făcut-o? Care anume?

 Muulte

34. Ai face ceva stupid doar din iubirea pe care o porţi unei persoane?

 Da

35. Ai plâns vreodată pentru cineva?

 Da

36. Oamenii te laudă pentru felul în care arăţi?

No way  =)))

37. Te urăşte cineva? De ce?

 Idk,probabil

38. Dacă ai putea să schimbi ceva legat de fizicul tău, ce anume ar fi?

 TOT

39. Iubeşti pe cineva?

 Da

40. Ai încercat vreodată să te sinucizi?

Da

41. Poţi trăi fără internet?

Idk,nu cred

42. Care este melodia ce îţi aminteşte de cineva drag?

 Avenged Sevenfold-buried alive 

43. Eşti bun/ă în a-ţi ascunde temerile şi suferinţele?

 nu prea

44. Studiezi din greu deobicei?

nup

45. Ai sacrificat vreodată ceva important pentru o persoană pe care o iubeai?

 Da,prietenia cu o alta persoana care a durat 8 ani…

46.Ai fost vreodată sărutat/ă sub clar de lună?

Nu =))

47. Ce fel de persoană eşti?

 La inceput timida,dar odata ce ma cunosti,retardata

48. Te-ai gândit vreodată să omori pe cineva?

Nu

49. Ai fost vreodată gelos/geloasă?

 Da

50. Cum poţi dovedi dragostea ce o porţi cuiva?

 Prin mici gesturi ,dar importante pentru acea persoana,idk

51. Ai anumite amintiri ce ai vrea să le uiţi?

DA

52. Ai fost vreodată rănit/ă în aşa fel încât nu puteai să exprimi în cuvinte ceea ce simţeai?

Am mai raspuns 

53. Inima îţi este frântă?

 Nu

54. Cine este prima persoană la care te gândeşti când auzi cuvântul “dragoste”?

La nimeni

55. Crezi că toata durerea merită?

 Nup

56. Crezi în vorba: “ Dacă este menit să fie, va fi.”?

Nup

57. Cu cine ai vrea să te căsătoreşti?

Cu nimeni

58. Crezi în destin?

Oarecum

59. Te-ai gândit vreodată că ţi-ai găsit deja sufletul pereche?

Da..

60. Crezi că prima dragoste nu moare niciodată?

Da

61. Te-ai simţit vreodată că nu eşti folositor nimănui?

Mereu si chiar nu sunt

62. Ai dormi singur sau mai degrabă cu cineva anume?

Singur

63. Ai sărutat pe cineva în ultimele 5 zile?

Nu

64. Consideri că vârsta contează într-o relaţie?

Nu chiar

65. Devii geloasă/gelos destul de uşor?

Oh da

66. Îţi place să fii sărutat/ă / să săruţi în public?

Am mai raspuns

67. Ce înălţime ai?

   Am 1.60 =))))

68. Te consideri gras/grasă?

 Lol nu

69. Ce limbă ai vrea să înveţi?

 Coreeana

70. Ce moment din 2012 îţi va rămâne veşnic întipărit în minte? De ce? Dar din 2011?

 Eu nu mai stiu nici ce am facut saptamana trecuta =)))..

71. Te consideri o persoană cu o putere emoţională mare?

 Nu chiar

72. Care este semnul tău zodiacal? Crezi că te reprezintă?

Gemeni,idk

73. Cum ai vrea să mori?

Calcata de tren sau la batranete =)))

74. Ce te irită cel mai mult?

  Cand cineva ma minte

75. Ce vârstă are ultima persoană ce te-a sărutat?

  18

76. Ai vrea să-ţi faci vreun tatuaj? Ce ar însemna el?

Nup

77. Consideri că poţi avea o relaţie de prietenie cu vreun fost/fosta?

 Nu

78. Eşti într-o cameră încuiată cu fostul pe care l-ai iubit cel mai mult şi niciunul dintre voi nu are cheia. Ce ai face?

 L-as imbratisa pentru ultima data

79. Ai parul lung sau scurt? Ai vrea să ai contrariul?

 E mediu si imi place asa cum e

80. În ce circumstanţe s-a desfăşurat primul tău sărut şi la ce vârstă?

 Am mai raspuns

81. Ultimul tău sărut a însemnat ceva?

 Nu chiar

82. Ai furat vreodată bani de la un prieten?

 Nu

83. Descrie-ne ultima ta experienţă sexuală, dacă nu ai avut niciuna, ai fost vreodată tentat/ă să renunţi la virginitate?

 Nu am avut  si nu am fost tentata

84. Cum crezi că ai reacţiona la înmormântarea părinţilor tăi?

  Nici nu vreau sa-mi imaginez.

85. Ce culoare are lenjeria intimă pe care o porţi în acest moment?

   O sa spun pas la intrebarea asta  =))

86. Dacă ai afla că persoana pe care o iubeşti, dar nu te iubeşte înapoi, suferă de o boală incurbilă şi mai are câteva zile de trăit, ce ai face? I-ai mărturisi ceea ce simţi?

 Da

87. Care este numărul tău preferat?

   22

88. Dacă ai câştiga 80.000 $ ce ai face cu ei?

  Nu sunt eu asa norocoasa 

89. Dacă ai afla că mai ai câteva luni de trăit, ce ai face? Ce vise ai realiza?

 As calatori cu bff urile pe unde mi-am propus mereu si as face multe lucruri retardate

90. Care este cea mai frumoasă amintire de-a ta?

 Am mai raspuns

91. Ai vreun talent? Care este acesta?

 Nu am

92. (Pentru cei singuri): De ce eşti singur/ă, aştepţi persoana potrivită sau eşti rănit/ă?

 Sunt singura pentru ca sunt naspa.

93. Care sunt blogurile tale preferate de pe Tumblr?

 Certainmisery , paranoyaniz, thegreensky567 , dezgheata-mi-inima, etccc,am prea multe