#Kik Online

[adrimiller]

Thanks for all the follows! Add my kik if u wanna see more

[sweetbabythug]

Haven’t been on in a while too busy sorting out 0nlyfans😘

[griefandbruises]

No fucking filters

[nitemvres]

Never on here these days but new face tat a few weeks ago.

[shigussy]

the amount of pedo youtubers i watched growing up was insane but its actually really worrying that i had crushes on most of them and im so so thankful that my interest in most of them disappeared before they got exposed bc i would've lost my mind which did happen once with miniladd

[moderndaysirens13]

Looking for online friends to talk to starting here but possibly extending to other social media platforms.

24/F/Single

Message me if you need friends 😂

[adrimiller]

HMU :) need a sugar daddy lol

[ruminate88]

How Can Someone Pretend So Well?

This conversation I found is from 2015… it’s the last screen shot I found that didn’t get deleted. It’s the last opportunity I have to prove to myself I didn’t make up the relationship we had in my head… cuz here’s proof. Maybe he really did pretend all of his feelings and maybe he really didn’t feel anything for me. It’s just hard for me to understand or accept still all these years later. I don’t know what his view was but from my view, everything was all very real and meant so much to me!! I couldn’t have ever faked the conversations and connection I had with him.

I don’t know to this day when the moment was that he decided to devalue and discard me. I can’t be sure of what I did or if it was all just him and his problems. All I can know for sure is, it just wasn’t meant to be and couldn’t have worked out. We’re different people with different lives. Do I think about him? Every day… do I regret him? Never!! Do I hate him?? That’s hard to say. Do I miss him? I am always going back and forth in my mind to this day all these years later asking myself what the truth ever was. There’s still missing blanks that will never be filled in. I have to live with that!

Words have power. Actions have power. Remember when you’re telling someone how much you love them, often they believe you and trust you for it. You’re responsible for the way you treat them. ❤️‍🩹🥺

[acanthyme]

augh. my quest for AP on this song will be the death of me(&my wrists).... (semi loud vid?... its muse dash gameplay so,,, i pray to god it mutes properly....)

5 greats total < / 3 .... one day....

[whimsydingbat]

the love of my dreams dropped me for another man and I now have a black hole in the pit of my stomach. this shit has been eating me from the inside out

[ayayayayno]

January 17th, 2022 (11:20AM - 1:30PM CET)

[vampmcr]

thinking abt being 11 years old on omegle AT SCHOOL literally in geography class n pretending i was 16 bc in my head 16 was so grown up x

[blissfali]

luke blissfali the type of guy to be

Hi what does this mean. Anyway about my dress up game extravaganzas as a kid Well literally just this shit like

I tjink i was just overwhelmed by the options but i was always so like.Peaceful. Like i was prolly 7-9 and id just sit there like Wow those dress up games sure can. And then id log onto youtube and watch dantdm

[sweetbabythug]

Gym mood today🥲🥲 miss u guys, who is interested in some progress pics?🥰

[ruminate88]

Grew Dubbs

I had believed I was now in a “relationship” with Andrew, we had both finally said the words I wanted to say all summer long, “I love you”. However, after such a romantic and exciting weekend, Andrew stops responding to me. Nothing for almost a week! I was so confused, hurt, it felt like he stuck a knife in me! I’m freaking out, afraid he’s ghosted me just like Cody did. I can’t quite remember the whole timeline but during that week I know I tried to reach out to him. At some point he’s updating his Snapchat story with a selfie of himself wearing some kind of suit with all these awards pinned on him, so that made me believe he was busy doing something important but I still didn’t understand how he didn’t have 2 seconds to text me what was going on.

Eventually come Saturday morning, he FINALLY sends me a Snapchat selfie of himself working some kind of booth with a badge around his neck and he writes to me, “Sorry I’ve been so busy, talk to you soon!” That snap was just enough to give me a little bit of “hope” but was also less than I deserved. I should have saw through him right then but after all, he had been bread crumbing me all summer. He had been giving me just enough to believe he “liked me” but wasn’t actually being with me or changing anything between us.

I responded to his Snapchat hopeful but still upset and very confused. Not realizing all that he was doing to me was part of his manipulation towards me. THEN come another day or so later, he starts talking to me again and apologized!! Said that “he had a very bad week at school” but when I asked him what happened to him, he said, “I don’t want you to worry”… I was worried and confused!!! I poured out my heart to him how I was hurt that I JUST told him I loved him and then he disappears for a whole week. Asked him was it all just “pretend” to see my nudes… (I was right but I was scared to admit the truth even then)

Andrew swore to me everything was fine that I wasn’t crazy, he did have a bad week at school but was sorry he didn’t text me and said, “I mean it with all my heart and soul that I love you and want you to text me” …. At THAT TIME, I was so desperate for his love and attention, I gobbled up the crazy delusional lie he was feeding me and tried to give him my trust. I had never had anyone say such “romantic and crazy” words like that to me before.

During this sensitive and venerable time with Andrew, I’m obsessively googling him trying to understand who he is and what his intentions were. His social media made him out to be some popular and well-to do man of college and I wanted to believe what I was seeing… Plus he was becoming very attractive to me and I was caught up in his blue eyes.

Andrew continued to talk to me some each day for a couple of months but it was all still “flirting” and cyber sex. He stopped sending me nudes or selfies just texted me. I was disappointed because I am under the impression we are “in a relationship” but it doesn’t feel like we are. Andrew continued to seem like he was doing his own thing at school and while he was texting me, wasn’t posting anything about me on any of his social media!!! That really bothered me because I had nothing to hide and yet I felt he did.

I didn’t realize Andrew was emotionally unavailable and that he doesn’t truly attach to people the way I do. I also didn’t understand he can not deal with anyone who gets upset towards him. I wasn’t there in his childhood, I have no idea how he came to be but as I learn about narcissism, I can piece together what happened between us. One night, he had stopped replying to me which was his normal but not mine. I was getting frustrated at how “busy” he was acting in school and how little he was making me feel like his girlfriend yet we were constantly sexting and sending hearts to each other.. I had a party to go to at a friend’s house,. While I’m there, I notice Andrew has updated his Snapchat with a selfie of himself and it reads, “pizza and watching a movie” Instantly I was emotional and upset because he has stopped responding to me, leaving me to believe he’s “busy” only to find out he’s on his Snapchat and only watching tv.

I quickly started sending him very long typed out text with ALL my feelings how I’m so confused that I’m his “girlfriend” yet he leaves me on read, no responses and all I want is a relationship with him. I can’t remember everything I typed out but I poured out my heart and soul to this boy, trying to make sense of who he is and what his intentions are! Andrew began to respond but said, “You scared me with all these text. Don’t scare me like that!!” MY FEELINGS SCARED HIM?? (I should have saw ALL the red flags then) I just didn’t understand because I’m coming from a different viewpoint of “love” and “relationship” whereas, he’s coming from a viewpoint of “selfishness” and “manipulation”. I just had no idea. Andrew of course apologized, once again he “reassured me” about our relationship, treated me as if I was crazy to believe what I was actually seeing and understanding that he DID care about me and want to be with me…. So I FELT STUPID for my feelings that I threw up all over his phone and I was just relieved to hear from him. Was relieved he was saying he wanted to be with me, not even paying attention to the fact his actions was not matching his words! That’s manipulation!!! I was coming from a a desperate place for his love and attention and his desperate pace was one of needing me to believe his B.S and stay obsessed with him. He wanted me going crazy and second guessing myself and my reality but could not ever deal with confrontation with me. Avoided it like a plague!! (Which is what a lot of narcissists do. They avoid taking responsibility for their actions!)

Things with Andrew never got better. He spent October and November hardly texting me, not sending me any snaps and I was afraid to send him snaps but whenever I would talk to him, it was always flirting!! Thanksgiving, I don’t hear from him all day and I’m once again typing out big long text but afraid to send them. I keep re-wording how I want to say what it is that’s bothering me. Finally I can’t remember if I went through with sending him something or he sent me something but it was a very bad thanksgiving!! I was supposed to be enjoying my family but I was tied to my phone, only obsessed with him and upset he’s ignored me all day (his girlfriend) later that night though, we finally started texting and both said we were out Black Friday shopping. I was yet again hopeful but it’s almost like I knew something was wrong.

Christmas break is about to start now and it starts out super super romantic…. He’s not left his apartment and went home yet but his classes our out and suddenly he’s texting me like crazy!! He was suddenly being very romantic and flirting with me so much. Calling me babe and finally making me feel like possibly I really am his girlfriend. It made me think he truly had just been so busy with school but I wasn’t sure. I was just happy we were spending time texting although most of it was cyber sex as usual!! Nothing ever got on a deeper level. I tried and wanted to get there but I was already walking on egg shells with him. I didn’t wanna push and rock the boat.

Christmas Day, I woke up so hopeful. It’s my favorite holiday, I knew I was going to be with my family and get gifts but I was most excited to have a boyfriend. I wake up and rush to check my phone for my “good morning babe” text and…. Nothing…. He never sent me anything so I told myself “it’s Christmas morning, he’s probably with his family.” I waited and waited and waited some more!! It wasn’t till the very end of the night when I FINALLY got a “merry Christmas babe”… ugh. I was deflated and frustrated. He asked me was it a good day for me and when I told him it wasn’t because he didn’t text me all day till the night, suddenly Andrew started to act funny.

Christmas night, started a whole bizarre conversation that should have told me everything I needed to know about Andrew but I was too ignorant and uneducated about narcissism to understand what was happening. Andrew began to express to me from his most honest self(which isn’t very honest) Andrew started sending me long text for a change but was saying, “I don’t know why you love me. I’m not a good guy and you deserve so much better than me. I’m not good enough for you and I’ll never be worthy of your love!!” I asked him where was it all coming from and thought for sure he was breaking up with me. I’m reading his long and confusing text messages he’s sending, one right after the other, with my eyes filling up and a tear running down my cheek. I was truly disappointed and heartbroken that he would dump me on my favorite holiday, dumping me over text out of the blue BUT when I asked him was he breaking up, he said, “no….” Andrew sounded like he wanted to break up, he was saying he didn’t deserve me, wouldn’t tell me why he felt that way other than the fact he was telling me the truth who he really was but I wasn’t seeing it. I was anxious and afraid to lose him!!! By him bringing me to the edge on Christmas, I was just getting more and more desperate for him.

He has to realign me, after Christmas he saw how shaky I was and confused. New Year’s Eve came and up until that point, nothing had changed between us. I was not expecting him to treat me any better however, at midnight I send him a loving but hopeful new years text expressing my desperation to kiss him. He responded which I wasn’t sure he would AND he also expressed his desire to kiss me too!!! I had been so nervous towards him and walking on eggshells that I was trying to be careful what I sent him. Andrew told me he was with his family but was getting to go out with some guy friends and actually said to me, “Do you mind that I go with my guy friends for the rest of the night?” What was I to say? No???? We hadn’t even met in person, up until that point, he had not asked my permission for anything. It was like a light switch came on and he was a different person!! I told him yes to enjoy his guy friends but be safe. He told me he would and then text me “I’ll miss you babe😘” I was SHOCKED and without words. Who was this guy and why the sudden interest in me?? We had been so hot and cold, only having cyber sex, I was losing faith in our relationship but that one text gave me hope yet again to keep making myself stay in this abusive relationship. I went to bed that night in a delusional state of mind that we loved each other and would be happy together….