#Korean BL

[heretherebedork]

These two are the most aching, damaged and hurting young men who are trying so desperately to be themselves and one is trying to be a good son by a man ruining his life and the other is trying desperately to escape an abusive father and they found each other years ago and hurt each other and now they're mostly just hurting themselves trying to live.

They care about each other so much but they're both hurt and damaged and broken and it makes it so impossible for them to care about themselves or see the other person caring. And that aches. They're both so hurt and so broken by their fathers that they have come to believe in a world that will not take care of them, a world that will not care about them at all, and it does not matter if they love or care because nothing is ever given back to them.

I cannot describe how fucked up this relationship is. Like, Dad is constantly living past his means to impress the rest of the world and making his son clean up and pay for him and he calls that one mistake and then he gets upset that his son, in a society of filial piety, in a society where he felt so desperate that he had to impress everyone around, did not simply tell him he was tired? Expecting that makes no sense. I am proud of the boy for calling the police, though. That took so much work to do it.

This poor boy. He's doing so much and working so hard and he gets nothing in return, nothing but blame and anger and an abusive father using him and blaming him for literally being used by him. He deserves to be rescued.

They rescue each other, no matter how much they're hurting and that's beautiful even if they're exhausted and aching and always lashing out.

This poor man. He's trying so hard and he's been trying so hard for so long and it's never helped, it's never done anything for him, it's left him alone and cold and exhausted and with nothing but emptiness inside.

The choice. This is the choice. Be tried. Or fake it. You can't try to do both, you can't accept your exhaustion but also expect people to act like you're okay when you say things or show your exhaustion to them. But they also can't help you if you only act like you're okay.

What a note to end the episode on. Nothing is fixed, nothing is done but at least something has been said.

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

Because I don't wanna say goodbye.

Gray Shelter (2024) Episode 4

[hantaebaram]

GRAY SHELTER 회색기류 (2024)

[zhaozi]

you've always be a weirdo. always smiling.

[respectthepetty]

Grey Shelter is chaotic

Half the time I'm lost

But I ain't mad at it

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Holding hands

[25shadesoffebruary]

[happypotato48]

This Is A Gay Asian Rant About BL Comments Made By Some Queer Westerners I See Sometimes.

So you know of those gays (usually white) that made dumb tiktok dancing to list of countries that legalized same sex marriage and list of countries that discriminate against LGBTQIA+ poeple as a way to say something racist. yeah i kinda got the same vibes from some comments regard how asian BL is homophobic just cause they don't live up to queer western standard. look, i'm not saying that some BLs and their creators don't deserve criticism regard how they capitalized/exploited queerness for an easy cash grab.

But people need to understand that Asian countries despite recent progress are still very much culturally conservatives. so when people says that thai bl is homophobic and all the characters looks like bunch of straight guys, which is true for some olders thai BLs i'm not gonna denied that. but after all this time and newer BLs generally being very queer and most of creators being out queer themself and poeple still making these comments, i'm annoyed.

And don't get me start on the actors. you don't know them! why are you making assumption and calling them queerbaiter just cause they acts in bl. like maybe they're straight, maybe they're not but what they're definitely doing is making queer content for you know, queer people here. so when you made halfass comments about their sexuality what do you think that made other queer people who still in the closet feels. and when you add the nationality to that, "these thai bl pair are this and that, this korean actor is so ungrateful for his bl past", etc. when our societies are still very much still in progress regard LGBTQIA+ acceptance. it make us living here feels fucking awful like somehow we're lesser queer than people in the west just cause we don't have citibank at pride or some shit.

And the shittiest in my humbled opinion are comments regard censored chinese bls. people do know like, that the creators making these bls are risking their livelihoods for this. that these shows getting make at all are miracles. yes it sucked that they're censored but they're still very much queer shows making by queer people who want to express thier queerness despite the chinese government being the chinese government. when people dimissing these shows as not belonging in queer media, you're also dimissing their creators and audiences as not belonging in the community.

Look what i want to say is that we're trying our best over here, and maybe our best are not up to your liking. the ways we talk and express our queerness maybe still can be perceived as problematic by western queer standard. but these media are our house and you're the guests. for people aren't shitty we appreciated that you're here engaging and loving our media, this is your home too and you're welcome in it. i can speak for myself that i very much love being here on tumblr and interacting with people from all over the world who love BL. but for people who are being shitty sometimes about asian bl.

YOU'RE THE GUESTS, BEHAVE!

[guzhufuren]

Love for Love's Sake + text posts (pt. 1/5)

bonus:

[rayandgay]

semantic error x pit babe -> hyung and lung negotiations

[heretherebedork]

This was such a needed hug and so soft and so aching and still just... so painful. So painful because they both want and need so much more than this but they're also both achingly lonely and hurt and broken because of the life they've lead and this is what they can do, just for a moment.

[my-rose-tinted-glasses]

Actually, I'm not doing well. I'm very tired.

Gray Shelter (2024) Episode 3

[thasorns]

JAZZ FOR TWO 재즈처럼 (2024) dir. Song Soo Lim & Kang Hye Rim

[leejoonho]

1.07 SEMANTIC ERROR (2022) dir. kim soo jung

[dramascene]

Why must you always manage everything alone? Why won't you tell me things? Why am I the only one doing this? Whenever I see you, I feel both good and want to cry. I feel so much about every little thing. But I'm not happy at all right now.

LOVE FOR LOVE’S SAKE 연애 지상주의 구역 (2024) - EPISODE 7

[universe-club]

LOVE FOR LOVE’S SAKE || Episode 4