Eveything You Lose is a Step You Take // Ratt throwback
Matt's knuckles are white with his commitment to clutching this box to his chest. Standing in the middle of the dim lit office and staring at the empty desk where he'd sit under a new boss, editing someone else's videos again. Trying and failing for independence, falling back on the kidness of another man that held him and Ryan in the palm of his outstretched hand. What if it happend all over again and within a few months this box would be packed up all over again. His body tenses around the box, protecting it from its doomed fates. Spills out its contents here only to risk trying to put it all back inside later, or take it back home actoss the country. Admit it was never cut out for this, resign to something that would feed his stomach and starve him in evey other way. He couldn't let this box go, clutching it tighter, protecting it, saving it from more change that leads to nothing. His arms were shaking now but he could only look at the one desk meant to be shared. Even if wanted to set this box down, where would it go? Where was it okay to take up space? Fuck this was all so confusing, this box was so heavy.
@iron-magee-giant
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Just in case you need to hear this:
It's okay to have to start over and try again.
At eighteen I learned java, html, css-- I was in an advanced online highschool program (that I paid for) with a 4.0 GPA. I worked 30-40 hours a week, was in the gym daily, had smoothies every morning and actively studied Korean. I was determined to rebuild my life and get on track.
And now, at twenty three, I am back to square one. My Korean skills are lackluster, I forgot everything I once knew about Java, and I couldn't afford to pay for highschool.
Instead of trying to rebuild everything in my life that crumbled in the years between, I am starting fresh. I am building something new and trying again.
It's okay to try again.
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Bingo @ Lock: Wow, you look so cool, like some kind of magical island guardian! Is that your job? Do you even HAVE a job?
This is where the lapras would omit details of her work. Some details would be better kept vague to a child like this one. A level of mystique is required for such a self ordained role.
“There are many who wish to disrupt the peace on this island. Human and Pokemon alike have both tried to exploit what it can offer. Many have come close.”
Lock could regale the story of the many humans who tried to poach on the islands for its rare Pokémon. Or she could recall the opportunistic pokemon trying to either capture their own, or trying to plunder the islands of valuables.
She will not this time. There will be no mention of the storms she would create in order to disway any from arriving on the island. The attempt to drive seafarers made with her telepathy. Especially not involving the false information she would provide any would-be invaders to lead them “astray”. Where they wound up was never at her discretion, but as the saying goes ‘Sea’s are dangerous, but the islands are where the real peril is.’
“I’m grateful I am not the only guardian. There is one for each island. So I am not alone.”
( @askvekpa )
[this ask got answered by the clever Sol @askbohemiancompany !! Thank you so much for this fun trade :D]
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hello hello here is my legally obligated Art Vs. Artist for 2023!!
I struggled a bit more with inspiration and motivation this year, but I still managed to make some art that I’m proud of and enjoyed creating! I did a fair bit of OC art, contributed to Art Fight, had an unexpected amount of fun painting eggs, and of course still had time to squeeze in some slutty Izzy art <3 (albeit not nearly as much as last year).
all in all, a bit of a random mix this year, but I’m hoping to make more progress and regain some proper inspiration in 2024 :))
as always, thank you a million times to everyone who supports my art (especially to those who supported me opening my brand new inprnt shop!!) I truly mean it when I say every comment, every reblog, and every sweet message means the world to me <333 I’m eternally grateful :)
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Idk if you’ve ever fully answered this on your blog but: DO YOU THINK Bishop fully redeemed himself in the future? By becoming president and uniting all races? Or is he still 🗑️
Oh man no, I don't think Bishop's Good Guy act is all that genuine. I think there's some change, but at his base, beneath all the subterfuge, he's still the same guy. I may have gone over this on the blog before, but like ey what am I gonna just get handed this opportunity to ramble ad nauseum and not take it? NEVER
There are a few pieces of evidence we can read into regarding the faux-ness of Bishop's new persona. First and foremost, for me, is the two instances where he presents the turtles with his "origin story," so to speak. In each instance, he keeps the details vague, and is very hesitant to admit to any direct wrong-doing on his part. The first story is so vague on the details that it feels like he's trying to brush past the turtles' concerns as quickly as possible. The SECOND, though. Bishop consistently dances around going into any detail about what he did or why it was wrong. And he goes on to push all of the blame onto Stockman! I mean honestly, he says Stockman "took things too far." Like dude!! We already know nothing is "too far" for you! It's very suspect to me that the subsequent lab collapse could have been ALL Stockman's fault. Bishop also elevates his own accomplishments and takes full credit for the success of the PGA. Idk but there's something really insidious to me about how he presents the information to make himself look as good as possible-- and the way he's able to convince at least a few of his former enemies that he's trustworthy.
There are other little inconsistencies in his behavior, like him writing off the turtles' warnings about Sh'Okanabo. The Bishop I know is a paranoid freak, he would never in a million years brush off a lead on a possible threat without checking it at all. And if we assume that, then that suggests Bishop said as much to give the turtles the impression it wasn't something worth looking into, meaning he was probably trying to direct their attention away for some reason. All of this tells me (if we just. ignore the possibility of it being a writing flaw agdhgshd) that Bishop is still a very cold and calculating personality, fully willing to throw others to the wolves for his own purposes, but he is WAY better at manipulting, now.
I've said before that I find it likely Bishop's weakest point is his social skills; we see that his superior officers (i.e. the president) dislike him-- which, frankly, is a detriment to his cause as it put his funding in jeopardy at least once that we know of-- and everyone he meets tends to come away some level of discomfitted. So what FF presents us with is a Bishop who needed to improve these skills for the sake of his ultimate goal. If the safety of earth requires friendly relations with aliens, then he needed to become an ambassador, and if he needed to become an ambassador, then he needed to be less overtly unpleasant. Thus, he changed tack. As a result, we have someone who appears trustworthy and is very good at lying and directing your attention, but is just as utilitarian as ever under the mask. That's just his job, after all.
Other details include:
- His intro. We see Bishop personally taking time out to go through monitors all over the city. He apparently has a very thorough surveillance system that he reviews himself. Again, paranoid freak.
- When addressing the turtles, we sometimes see him slip back into snarkier comments. This usually happens when he's frustrated (snapping at them for not attacking the Mouser fast enough for his tastes,) or when he's not being obeyed (making a snide comment about Cody having nightmares when they refuse to exclude him from a mission briefing.)
- As my friend Trauma pointed out to me recently, when storming the moonbase Bishop's men had their guns defaulted to lethal force, he had to give the order to switch to non-lethal. He was fully ready to wipe that place out.
- His willingness to include the turtles and later Cody on missions strikes me as, yknow, very utilitarian in its own right. Cuz those are teenagers, yeah. It could be argued that Bishop can't tell how old the turtles are but he definitely knows Cody is young, and knows well enough that he shouldn't be in a combat situation. But in the finale he praises Cody's decision to defy him and fight anyway. So what changed? In essence, Cody was effective. Bishop is fine with child soldiers as long as they do a good job (and can't be publicly traced back to him.)
Also like did you see that car chase? He ran civilians off the road and did not give a FUCK. That's the same guy.
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Okay so Twinkle Kuuchuusen is AMAZING (as expected and I will try to gather my thoughts about it later), but THE SOLOS OH MY GOD THE SOLOS AND THE LYRICS I'M!!!
They both reference 2x2 a lot, and you can see their development so much from their previous solos! There's a big theme of acceptance and both and they're driving me crazy with it!
Hinata's '"street" being bathed in blue and how he accepts it as a part of himself before declaring he's going to light it up with colors because he'll love himself even more!!! The way he doesn't try to gloss over the negative but decides he'll stick to his positive worldview while taking everything in stride! How he knows now that no matter how far they drift their hearts will always reconnect!
And Yuta walking the line between two worlds confidently, not looking back into the shadow of days past and pushing ahead into the unknown! Going all out and no longer suppressing his feelings, engraving them into his heart and making bold decisions as himself! The way he connects their worldviews with their differing light, knowing someone will always be at his back no matter what!
If there was ever any doubt within me about the future of 2wink, I feel like these solos resolved it. They really have come to a temporary truce and peace with each other, they'll stay together while continuing to push and compete in their separate ways. These songs feel like letters to each other almost, about how they're able to move forward with their own worldviews without shame, but will always hold the other close. And even if they do come to that breaking point in the future, after the dust has settled, they'll still be there watching the night sky - in a much better place than where they started.
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I want a life of purpose. I don't know if achieving my dream will make me incomparably happy in the end, but I do know that I'm not happy with where I am. So, I suppose I should try my best, shouldn't I?
All the way. All the risks. So long as I'm doing something I believe in, where's the harm, right?
Please keep me in your prayers. 🤍🕯️
I asked my Mom to pray for you.
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This is purely curiosity, but are you going to draw scaramouche's new design? He seems right up your alley 👀
ahhhh i DO love his redesign! and after finishing the 3.2 AQ, i rewatched his animated backstory cutscene and sat there sort of just marveling at what a wonderfully written villain he is (': i'm very excited to see where his story goes next!
as to whether or not i'd draw him, maybe not in full, but i had a charm idea i was thinking of lately...!! he's become an anemo guy i'm almost contractually obligated to do so
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