#Presque vu

[evadwrites]

i have some thoughts on zar’s exit from the fandom & their decision to delete their fics and how the fandom is reacting to that. and the fandom is reacting horribly.

and the irony of it all! because, arguably, crimson rivers is what zar is most known for. crimson rivers, set in the hunger games universe, created by suzanne collins to criticize capitalism, the entertainment industry, and consumerism patterns of offered media and how it varies based on a social class. and zar’s work added so much nuance to what suzanne collins had written. zar had done an excellent job writing james, sirius, and regulus as victors and exploring their respective traumas when it comes to being in the public eye.

regulus (and james, too) constantly felt like he had no autonomy and no choice because he was thrust into the public light and pressured into doing exactly what was expected of him. and sirius? oh, sirius. sirius won his games and was made into this galaxy-sized celebrity by the hallows, expected to conform to every assumption made about him, to follow all the rules his new role as a mentor & a victor burdened him with. but most importantly—the hallows viewed sirius as nothing more than what he could offer to them. they looked at him and did not see the person.

zar wrote that, and tens-hundreds of thousands people read it and completely misunderstood. because zar wrote 865k words exploring how traumatizing it is to be made into an Image, to be stripped away of your autonomy for the sake of entertaining others. zar wrote that, only for the marauders fandom to do the exact same thing to them that the hallows did to sirius, to regulus, to james; to victors.

and that. that is fucking infuriating.

because, yes, zar is a brilliant writer, but first and foremost, zar is a person. and the way a large part of the fandom has been treating them is completely dehumanizing.

STOP saying “i respect/support zar’s decision but [insert a paragraph about how devastated you are and how you cannot stop crying]”.

STOP sharing the pdfs/epubs of his fics on literally all social media platforms when it’s the one thing zar explicitly asked people to not do.

STOP feeling entitled to the creative work that does not the fuck belong to you. STOP thinking that you have any right to demand anything from zar. STOP hiding emotional manipulation in-between words of illusory support and respect.

and to quote zar: for fuck’s sake, STOP calling them zeppazariel.

zeppazariel is a brilliant writer who was elevated within the fandom to a height so big that it hurts when you fall and crash, and the fandom pushed zar down. the marauders fandom made zar into a full-blown celebrity, but

zar is a person.

REMEMBER THAT.

[crispysheepofman]

"He's no brother of mine," Sirius repeats, saying it, speaking it. He speaks. He speaks, and does not know that Regulus has never spoken those words himself, and never will. That doesn't mean very much, in the grand scheme of things.

Regulus never was one to speak, was he?

[chilloutdog]

anyways. presque vu by bizzarrestars is a literal work of art. i think we must acknowledge it. we must embrace this. if i could read one (1) marauders fic for the rest of my life that would probably be the one. it’s not even finished but i know it’s one of the best i’ve ever read. yeah. that was all thank u.

[absolutelyflabbergasted]

so I didn’t like wolfstar for like. A while. And I reasoned with this like “oh it’s because he’s an ass to reg” reg is an ass back, what’s ur point

and then I was like, oh I relate to Sirius a lot, actually. I still don’t like wolfstar tho??

And I was so confused, cause I don’t get the aro ick usually, not with Rosekiller or Darlene or Jegulus.

Then I got it with Marylily too, and I was like ohhhhh.

I relate to Sirius and Lily too much, and tend to accidentally insert myself into their situations because I reenact fanfics in my dreams sometimes.

and the ick I get with them is the same ick I got when I tried dating someone for like a month in the 8th grade.

Like I tried reading atyd and presque vu and I was like hmmmmm why do I dislike this, because you are being silly and delusional in a bad way for your own happiness

[labyrinthhofmymind]

i am bizzarestars biggest fan literally worship the ground they walk on they are a genius and i love them ok that is all hello tumblr!

[brandileigh2003]

what are you reading right now?

I just finished: If You're Gonna by @brigidfaye

Also befriending a ravenclaw by @kreestars

A couple of the wip I'm reading (excitedly waiting for)

Date me, Remus Lupin by @her-smile-forges-galaxies

Accio by imparfait

Kill your darlings by @sophsicle

As the Worm Moon Dies by @rollercoasterwords

And presque vu and Underground Gladiators by bizarrestars

disintegration (no spoilers, only on 21) by @mayescapade

[mac-alves]

𝑃𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑞𝑢𝑒 𝑣𝑢

etimologia

emprestado do francês presque (“quase”) + vu (“visto”).

A confusão sutil e recorrente entre ilusão e realidade que é característica da paramnésia (...)

- Joseph Heller

Paramnésia:

delírio ou confabulação baseada na memória, ou uma incapacidade de distinguir entre memórias reais e fantasiosas.

"(. . .) Um psicólogo poderia ter chamado isso de

p r e s q u e v u

– a sensação que as pessoas às vezes têm de que algo incrível está para acontecer – mas meu nome para isso era muito mais humilde: uma

h a r m o n i a "

- Stephen King

[420mermaid]

[evstellae]

presque vu by bizarrestars is absolutely destroying me as a sirius kinnie but i love it

[pqdfootsmoon]

so im reading presque vu by bizzarestars for the first time and naturally, since its a canon complaint fic, james and lily die, and i literally cannot breathe.... like my chest hurts, i can not see through tears, there are so many used tissues close to me... i cannot breate

zar literally said in the notes in the begining of the chapter that this was the most harrowing thing he's written, and seeing that after i fully sobbed my eyes out to crimson rivers like a fucking baby, i was like, there's no way it can be worse....

it was worse, like so much worse omg

[sylviaplathenthusiast]

what if i just casually wrote a sirius character study highly focused on prongsfoot and wolfstar representing exactly how i feel about the important people in my life so that i can say “im a *fic name* sirius kinnie” instead of explaining it

[crispysheepofman]

Two stars, two hearts, and yet still too different.

[littledreamofmoony]

Hello I’m about to start a canon wolfstar fic I hate myself eheheh Why do you want to cry at Christmas, you ask. Well self preservation was never my strong suit

[reggie-gremlin]

i'm unwell

[labyrinthhofmymind]

CHAPTER 28 OF PRESQUE VU!!!!!! WOLFSTAR ARE WOLFSTARRINGGGG!!!!! I WILL CONTINUE TO TALK ABOUT THIS FIC BECAUSE IT IS SO PERFECT AND BEAUTIFUL AND UTTERLY HEARTBREAKING AND I LOVE IT SM!!!!!!

[brandileigh2003]

Anyone reading presque vu??? That chapter was sooooo intriguing. I need to talk. (All good things, just speculation. And the sink.)