#Rambling over

[kyeterna]

I had rewatched durarara a couple of months ago after like never finishing the second season when it first came out (I have always had a really hard time keeping up with ongoing shows) and assigned memes to some characters, here's the result.

[livthebookgeek]

Just read about what it means for Mingyu to have a Venus in Aries

[saiwola]

Forgive me as I rant incoherently about magic and the Blessings.

Okay, so first thing's first, is the concept of familiars. Summoned companions that are believed to be either constructs or spirits that bound themselves to a person.

And due to correlations observed throughout the ages, it became more believed that your familiar is a manifestation of your soul. That by looking at your familiar, people can tell, not only the sort of magic you use but also what kind of person you are. And while this isn't too much of an issue in regular life, because manifesting your familiar takes a constant drain on your magic, they aren't just kept out. And the everyday person has no need to manifest one at all in their day to day.

No The prejudices revolving familiars and magic are more prevalent in those upper circles where magic is more of a part of their lives. Especially in academic circles. Studies have seen that evil people create evil familiars and evil magic. (Similar thinking is what gets people to generally dislike the shon and yeu-li due to their associations with darkness and manipulation respectively.)

However, there is no concrete evidence of what causes what. All that can be inferred is that who you are, your familiar, and your magic are all connected.

And what's even less explored is the influence of other factors like environment, experience and even mental illness on your familiar and magic. I mean, if these things shape who you are, it makes sense that they'd affect the other two as well, right?

And this is probably most obvious when it comes to the Blessings and how their magic manifests. Each has a "gift" a "core" (life, death, knowledge, etc) to their magic. And their familiars do represents the original Evlogia, even in their dormant states. (Deemo is still a bird. Gwydion is still a serpent. Etc.) But how how their magic manifests is also heavily influenced by who they are and who they became.

For some, it shows in their presentation.

Theo, despite being the Blessing of Knowledge, is still a child, yet to tap into his full potential. His magic is still so simple and reflective of his child mind. Empathy because he prioritizes people's feelings rather than their secrets. His light magic (a nod to him being ghraic, a "child of light"), is used mainly to draw in the air, taking the shape of his baby doodles rather than more serious forms. His blessings are a telepathic link, because everything can be solved if you talk it out, right? Even his visions are so indistinguishable from his normal daydreams that no one can tell which is real and which is just his child babbling.

Fenryr, Avatar of Death, is so in love with life, and art, and the beauty of the world, that his death magic manifests as flowers. Even when causing rot, that rot is displayed as small flowers. Stealing someone's life force shows as a flower that feeds off the victim. His necromantic summons take on the appearance of angelic statues rather than zombies. Even his blood magic, that causes pure Destruction, manifests as the target bursting into petals. His magic is as gentle as he is.

Then there's Alys who for the longest time could not even manifest her magic. Because she was (still is) so depressed and so adamant on tamping down her emotions. How could she tap into the power of Life if she had lost all love and passion for it? How could she Create if all she wants to do is disappear? Even now, he main magic is fire. A nod to her yeu-li blood, yes, but also because magic comes easiest to her when she's mad. Because rage is a form of passion, and for now, it's all she can depend on while she's still learning how to live again. Also, her created beings are often monstrous constructs and weapons because that's what she likes, what she's passionate about.

But for them, the core of their Blessing is still there. Still obvious. For the others. their magic has to do with their interpretation of what those blessings mean to them.

Taylor's is probably the most straightforward. To him, Peace means time. The time to rest to heal. Peace is that moment when all is right. So he controls time. He cleanses poisons, He takes away pain. Even his curses are just him stealing that peace away. And his blood negates magic. Calming the air, the storm, in a way.

As for Jibril, Dominion was originally seen as control over oneself and one's actions. And while he also had the ability to calm minds and enforce that self discipline, his main magic is gravity. Chains. The power to hold people down. To control them through force if necessary. Because his upbringing in the church taught him that's whay dominion was.

On the other end of that, we have Zandros. Holding the blessing of Choice and Change, he had a few paths he could go down. It was possible he leaned more into change and used more alchemy or shapeshifting. Maybe choice could mean the ability to travel through time like Taylor and choose other options to change the future. But Zandros grew up as a slave in fighting rings. So to him, this choice meant freedom. Freedom of movement. The ability to choose where he could go. To choose whether to fight or flee. So his magic manifests as wind (flight), teleportation. And of course, the ability to resist any and all attempts to command him to do something.

And finally, we have Adonai, my little baby boy. The gift of Community and yet never having one. Shunned and isolated due to his shon blood and losing his family at a young age at that. Forced to fend for himself, sell himself, with no one to rely on. So his first magic is a buff to himself when he's trying to protect others. Because he may not be able to depend on anyone but they can depend on him. And as he met the other Blessings. Grew closer to them, his magic expanded to include buffs and domain control. The desire to uplift his "community" and protect them. Even his blood, which forms powerful wards, came about due to finally having people he wished to protect, even at his own expense.

[rosecoloredknight]

I saw a post about motherhood earlier today or last night, and since then I've been thinking about parenting:

And this is me just thinking out loud so please don't feel obligated to respond or get insulted because I'm not trying to do that. If anything, perhaps just use it as something to think about?

—

For all you tumblr parents out there, what's your role in your child's life when it comes to motherhood or fatherhood? Do you see your child as a nuisance or burden? Do you feel blessed and stressed out about having a little you to care for and raise? Is your partner or father equally involved and invested with the child? Does it bother you if not? How is the marriage life or the parenting life? Are there things to improve with both yourself and your partner in terms of parenting?

Is there such thing as a single parent playing the role of both the father and mother? Is it okay to be a soft and gentle parent? Obviously having boundaries and being responsible, firm, and accountable parent is a must, but can I also be a "softy" parent?

I know that everything I asked is subjective and is difficult to answer cause everyone's life, and parenting varies. SIGH.

I guess I'm asking because as a future single parent, I need to know or would like to be one of those dad's that is always trying to be involved in my child's life. I want to become their best friend and always put them above everything.

I — I've seen how one of my brother in law just comes home from work and just sits in the sofa and plays video games and ignores his kids as they do their own thing. BUT, is that normal parenting or neglect? Maybe it is a normality?

Either way, I don't want to be like that. I don't care how tired I am coming home from work, I want to be that dad that is excited to talk to my child, ask them about their day, cook for them, play with them recreational activities, board games, etc. HOWEVER, I also understand that they need their own personal space, alone time, etc.

I jus— My dad died when I was 2 years old so I never got to experience "fatherhood", but then again, in a way that's a good thing because I most likely would not have been who I am now as well as not hold the values of fatherhood/parenting.

I get it, every parent is different and I'm not trying to disparage anymore.

Parenting seems like an overwhelming responsibility, but at the same time, I hope it's a rewarding one as well?

If I do go forward with single parent surrogate, i will obviously allow parental visit to the mom if she wishes to stay involved or emotional invested with our child. I would actually welcome it.

Sigh

As someone who hopes to be a father, biologically or the step father route, I just hope I'm a good good dad or friend to the kiddos.

[vykko]

I finished a body study I was doing

did a body study of my lovely character terra

she wouldn’t nessarily wear this but I spent too long on the body to cover it up and also I wanted to draw her scars

also the water melon boardshorts are based off my board shorts

they are just cool and also too big T-T

up close details as that are hard to see without zooming in

Like adding stretch marks and body hair is fun

it adds ✨flavour✨ I spent way too long on the togs pattern

I need to do more body studies maybe finally make a ref for Cyrus

ehh

here’s like screenshots of it still in wip I guess

I decided against the exposed teeth as it look not good that far away

oh yeah procreate tracked over 10hrs

[glimmerofsanity]

So it was this guys birthday the other day when I wasn't on here and it got me thinking, my favourite thing about him is his journey. It's not uncommon, nuances aside: being an angry self entitled 20 year old prick, getting messed up on drugs, crashing and burning, heartbreak and suffering, getting clean, becoming stable, telling us all about it and generally being philosophical. But who would've thought that these two guys could ever be the same person. I know heaps of people aren't sold on his more recent output, it's different to his older stuff, but that's the point. He's a different person now, and bless him, he deserves goodness and stability. And I love nothing more that seeing this new person still perform the angsty, chaotic songs from his youth not Birthday Party stuff obviously. That edge is still there, but it's under control, he's knows how to harness it without letting it consume him. He's lived to tell the tale and all that. So proud 💗 but like if he can get through shit and come out the other end still a cool person, then so can I, and I deserve that too 🙏

... anyway, ramblings over, happy birthday Mr Cave. You are truly mesmerising and I am forever grateful for you and all that you create

"Cause people often talk about being scared of change / But for me I'm more afraid of things staying the same / 'Cause the game is never won by standing in any one place for too long" - Jesus Of The Moon

[trinitycove]

Painting my nails always makes me feel put together. Been creating some new habits like maintaining a morning and night routine, drinking only green/herbal tea after 4pm, and doing gua sha every day. Feeling healthy.

[lini-art]

heh its been a while

[jacky-rubou]

i told you guys right when I got home but I went to an eye exam on Wednesday and while my prescription didn't change a whole lot (lot less than the last time lol, was on the edge of being illegal to drive with before I updated last year, oops) I still went for new glasses, to mix things up I guess.

I may or may not have gotten a pair purely because they were rounder and almost like Ford's. I say 'almost' because they don't have the top plastic parts he has over his lenses, but the vibe is there. just the roundness I suppose... oh and maybe the thin metal like my current glasses helps too. if I were to cosplay him, I could probably pull it off better than with my current ones y'know. cosplaying a character with glasses is easier for me than any other character since I already have them haha.

idk, I'm just rambling..

I'm just excited to see how they pan out. I tried them on and they seem comfortable so that's a plus. just need to wait for them to get it all ready for me.

[classical-vanity]

I always tried doing what I was supposed to be doing and I feel like it did not lead me where it should’ve

[chuuguins]

genuinely just sitting here after finishing my book thinking about how, even when things are overwhelming or dark, there are still so many wonderful things. the people you love still exist, small moments make the bigger pain dim for a little. there is never complete black, the happy moments are the stars.

friendship especially. i think of the people who i love and who love me back with their full hearts as stars. i am never certain how i am going to feel any given day, week, month (mood disorders can fuck right off) but they take whatever version of myself i have to give. and they love her. even when she doesn't love herself.

i don't even know what i'm talking about. there's nothing abnormal about a sappy luna moment, i suppose. but thank you, to every single star. those who will read this and those who won't (most won't, not just because i am likely to delete this in the morning). i'm grateful. really, truly and wholeheartedly.

[ambssssssssss]

kinda random but does anyone want to beta read a harry potter fic i’ve been working on? 

[jinkoh]

☕️

[bonesandthebees]

one of the most infuriating things about becoming an adult is when you realize that it actually is 10x easier to solve problems by making a phone call vs literally any other communication method

[chronicowboy]

baby snoopy this, baby clifford that, baby gromit blah blah blah. what about baby kermit???????

[secretmellowblog]

People who try to analyze what happened on Tumblr on November 5th, 2020, often really overstate how much it was actually “about” Supernatural. As someone who has never been in the supernatural fandom ever but dID join in on the hysterical destielposting—it was really more about the stress of the pandemic and the 2020 presidential election.

The two biggest Youtubers I’ve seen try to dissect “what happened that November 5th” in video essays both weren’t American—- and I think that explains why they both tried to explain the hysteria primarily via analyzing the Supernatural fandom/the original show, rather than through the lens of the election. And while those videos are cool, valid, informational, and make lots of really well-considered interesting points— I can tell you that me and almost all my mutuals had literally no knowledge or interest in the fact that “oh supernatural had made nods at the ship in the past but the creators were adamant that I wouldn’t be canon” or etc etc etc etc. the first time I learned about any of that context was way later, watching videos where people claimed that fandom history context (that I did not know anything about) was the actual reason for the hysteria.

But the reality is that people latched on to the Destiel stuff because it was a piece of big useless inane zero-stakes fandom news in a time when we were desperately waiting for serious high stakes election news. We were latching onto a “positive “ piece of inane stupid fandom news in a time of great stress, with all the desperation of a drowning man who latches onto whatever piece of wood will keep him afloat.

The core of the hysteria was that Americans (who make up a huge chunk of tumblr’s userbase) were currently glued to their laptops watching the live presidential election vote counts come in. These vote counts were taking an extended amount of time due to the pandemic causing high numbers of mail-in ballots, resulting in a constant state of Election Day Stress for multiple days straight.

This was also during the height of the Pandemic. People had predicted Trump’s presidency would be bad; no one had predicted it would be this apocalyptically bad. No one had predicted pandemics and lockdowns and hospitals overflowing with bodybags. remember Trump spreading Covid lies and conspiracies?? There were so many Qanon conspiracies about democrats being Satanic child traffickers who had to be put to death, and coup threats were mounting from the right wing side. It seemed like this election was a choice between ‘centrist democrat’ and “apocalyptic right wing conspiracy theory authoritarianism,” in the midst of pandemic conditions that people feared would never ever improve— and it seemed like a close election.

Another major point was that Trump voters were more likely to be antimaskers/Covid deniers, while Biden voters were more likely to take the pandemic seriously— so Biden voters were more likely to send in mail-in ballots instead of risking the in-person voting crowds, which meant their ballots would take much longer to count. And so, in many state electoral vote counts, it would initially seem like Trump was very far in the lead— only for Biden to slooooowly build up an agonizingly small lead as the mail in ballots came in, and then defeat Trump at the very end.

So you’re just watching these news sites giving live election updates, refreshing the page every 2 minutes to see if you’re going to live under a spineless centrist democrat or a literal Qanon Dictatorship. And then you go on tumblr to distract yourself, and there’s more election posting, and more agonizing over the votes, and more stress and despair—-

And then it’s been days and we’re right at the crucial tipping point where it’s anyone’s game and the next few hours will determine whether Trump will win, so you need to keep your eye on the vote count, because the next hours will determine the future of the pandemic and your country and your plans for your entire life—

And then stupid Destiel becomes canon! And it becomes canon in the silliest way possible!

If Destiel had become canon at any other time, it would have been a big goofy tumblr celebration? But we wouldn’t have gotten the insane explosion of hysterical interaction.

The entire core of it was the contrast between the inane meaningless stupidity of fandom news vs the actual stressful election news you wanted to hear! It really is best conveyed in that meme where Castiel says “I love you” and Dean indifferently responds with a piece of important election news.

It’s about the contrast between the low-stakes inanity of fandom and the massive life-destroying stakes of a terrifying election. There really was no reason it had be Supernatural specifically, except that Supernatural was a thing everyone knew basic things about from dashboard osmosis— it could’ve been any other equally huge silly fandom ship news about a ship everyone *knew of* but might not necessarily be invested in (ex. Stucky becoming canon, Johnlock becoming canon, Kirk/Spock becoming more canon somehow, etc etc etc.)

I think it’s true that people who weren’t paying agonizingly close attention to the American election news got swept up in it, and that non American Supernatural fans also were extremely excited for purely fandom reasons — but the entire reason it blew up to an unprecedented degree was because of that core of stressed out terrified Americans glued to their computers watching election results and suddenly receiving stupid fandom news instead, and deciding to just hysterically parodically hyper-celebrate this absurd useless zero-stakes news.

I think it was also all elevated by the fact that, as I said before, this happened at the crucial “tipping point” of the election where the next few hours would determine the winner. The fact that Biden began to slowly develop a lead in the hours after made it feel, hysterically, as if the hours after Destiel became canon was somehow the turning point where he began to win; so celebrating Destiel felt like celebrating that slow turn towards victory.

The tl,dr is that it’s so important to Remember the Fifth of November …..in preparation the inevitable hysteria that will happen in the presidential election on November 5th of next year. XD. Personally I’m rooting for Johnlock or Frodo/Sam to somehow become canon in the eleventh hour right before the democrats win