#THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HIM I AM NOT OKAUY

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Journey (Legolas) part three

Warnings:Spoilers?, (if you haven’t watched LOTR), death but I think thats is

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Following Gandalf you arrived at a set of stairs, without hesitation you all quickly descended stopping when the stairs did.  The gap was big but should be okay to jump, Legolas jumped first, making it look easy, Gandalf was next,

“Y/N!” legolas called to you, you weren’t looking forward to the jump you were far too clumsy, but you didn’t think about it, taking the leap with your eyes closed, and you didn’t open them until you felt Legolas catch you,.  In haste you moved away to allow Boromir to jump, holding the brothers.  Aragorn then threw Sam over.  Gimli took the leap himself, only to be caught by Legolas who had to grab his beard.  As Aragorn and Frodo went to take the plung, the stairs beneath  them began to crumble, they barely got out the way.  The orcs fired arrows at you all, only making the situation more difficult.  Eventually, Aragorn grabbed hold of Frodo and started leaning, using their weight to bring forward the crumbling stairs, allowing them to jump.  Now that everyone was safely on the other side, you all continued down the path and across a bridge.  The Balrog, was hot on your heals.  When you reached the otherside you turned around, checking on the others, freezing when you saw Gandalf face to face with the Balrog, was he really going to try and fight?. You watched as he called out to the Balrog but the beast didn’t care walking towards the wizard.  Your heartbeat hard in your chest.  Gandalf lifted his staff up and slammed it down on the bridge causing it to crumble under the creature. The Balrog fell into the pit, he did it.  Gandalf did it.  You felt a wave of relief, but it didn’t last long, the Balrog’s whip had wrapped around Gandalf’s leg, dragging him down too he was able to grab hold of the ledge, keeping himself there.  You tried to run to him, but Legolas stopped you.

“Please” you begged.

“Fly you fools!” Gandalf ordered before letting go and falling.  You looked up to Legolas, meeting his eyes, then back to the place were Gandalf was, there was nothing you could do, you allowed Legola to drag you onwards.  

It wasn’t until you had reached the fresh air did you stop.  Standing frozen tears traveled down your cheeks, the old wizard had practically raised you, he was your family and now he was gone.  It was like you were in a trance, until a hand on your shoulder brought you back.  You turned to see Legolas standing there looking sober.  

“We need to move” he said softly, You nodded not really taking in what he had said.  You looked around the others were back on their feet, ready to move on.  You followed them in a daze.

Finally reaching a forest.

“Stay close, young Hobbits, they say that a great sorceress lives in these woods, an elf-witch of terrible power.  All who look upon her fall under her spell and you are never seen again” Gimli whispered.  You knew of who he spoke.  Lady Galadriel, Gandalf and her were friends, though you had never actually met her, you had heard stories of her and they were pretty much all good.

You wanted to say something but didn’t really have the energy to.

“Well, here is one dwarf she won’t ensare so easily I have the eyes of a hawk and the ears of a fox” Gimli continued.  Suddenly there were arrows pointed at you.

“You were saying” you chuckled putting your hands up

A tall, golden-haired elf appeared from the back,

“The dwarf breathes so loud, we could have shot him in the dark” he spoke.  This elf lead you all to platforms, where you could talk,

He greeted Legolas, knowing who he was, then turned to Aragorn, it seemed they knew each other.  His name was Haldir.

“So much for the legendary courtesy of the elves, speak words we can also understand” Gimli interupted.

“We have not had Dealings with the dwarves since the dark days” Haldir spoke.  

“And you know what this dwarf says to that?, ishkhaqwi ai durugnul” Gimli replied, you didn’t know exactly what was said, but you knew for certain it was an insult.  Haldir ignore it, and turned to Frodo.

“You bring great evil with you,” he said then turned to Aragorn

“You can go no further”

Just like that.  Aragorn pulled Haldir aside, pleading your case and eventually Haldir agrees.  Leading you to Cara’s Galadhon, the city was beautiful, more so than Riverdell.  For a moment your sadness washed away.  Haldir continued to lead you all up to meet Lady Galadriel and Lord Celeborn.  The two descended the stairs looked majestic.  Lord Celeborn started talking, telling you that the enemy knew you were there. ‘Not good’

“Nine there are here, yet ten there were, set out from Rivendell.  Tell, where is Gandalf? For I much desire to speak with him, I can no longer see him from afar” he asked,  you felt sick the sadness that had momentarily disappeared came back hard.

“Gandalf the grey did not pass the borders of his land.  He has fallen into shadow” Lady Galadriel said.  You couldn’t bring yourself to look up anymore,

“He was taken by both shadow and flame, A Balrog of Morgoth, for we went needlessly into the net of Moria” Legolas replied, he took a quick glance at you beside him.

“Needless were none of the deeds of Gandalf in life, we do not yet know his whole purpose” Lady Galadriel continued.

“What now, becomes of this fellowship?, without Gandalf, hope is lost” Lord Celeborn

“The quest stands upon the edge of a knife, stray but a little and it will fail to ruin of all” Lady Galadriel clarified.  Your head shot up, ‘hope was not lost’  Lady Galadriel met your eyes

“Yet hope remains, while the company is true” she continued, smiling.  

“Do not let your hearts be troubled, go now and rest for you are weary with sorry and much toil.  Tonight you will sleep in peace”

With that, elves lead you all away, back down to a place that you could camp safely for the night.  You had just set up your sleeping bag when a song filled the air.  They were singing for Gandalf.  The song was too much, you decided to go for a walk, away from everyone. Further away from the singing. Once you felt it was safe enough away from everyone, you let yourself cry.  Things were playing in your mind, of course, you knew this quest would be dangerous, but it still came as a shock and now all you could think about was what if you were to lose someone else, you already thought you had lost Frodo more than once, what if you were to lose Merry, Pippin.  Legolas, when his name crossed your mind you felt a fear that you had never thought you could feel.  You couldn’t bear the thought of losing him.   More tears fell, you were sobbing into your hands.

“Y/N?” A voice called out to you.  It was Legolas, you dared not look at him, keeping your face in your hands.  Legolas placed his hand on your shoulder, squeezing slightly.  He wasn’t used to seeing someone cry not like this.  He didn’t know what to do to help, all he knew was he hated seeing you like this.

“Hush now my friend, don’t cry” he spoke softly in his native tongue.  When you didn’t reply, Legolas walked in front of you and gently pulled your hands away, you didn’t have the energy to fight he kept hold of your hands.  Keeping your eyes on the ground, you stood there sobbing.  Legolas thought a moment.  He tried to think back to watching humans in sad times, but he had no experience in it.  He did know what humans liked hugs, so he decided to try it.  He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you tightly to his chest, this was a pretty new experience for him, he started doubting the idea, until you returned the hug.  Thanks to Legolas comforting you, the tears stopped.

“I am sorry you had to see me in this state” you chuckled half-heartedly.

“Ha's okaui mui mel” Legolas replied.  When he felt you freeze against him, he finally realised what he had said.  ‘Mui Mel’ if you weren’t mistaken it meant ‘My Love’ if that was so, he probably meant it as a friend.  Maybe it was elven custom to say it to a friend?.  You decided to question it though.

“Mui Mel?” you whispered.  Pulling away looking at him with confidence you had never felt before.  Legolas pulled away completely, taking a few steps back.  You didn’t think it was possible for an elf to blush and look so awkward.  You waited for him to speak, feeling less and less confidence.  Even if by chance he did actually love you in any way it wouldn’t happen, it couldn’t.  After a moment Legolas resolved himself.

“Yes, I said my love” he repeated, in English for you, “Because it is true” he stumbled over his words a little.

“You love me?” you asked, skeptically making sure.

“Yes,” Legolas replied, you stared at him for a moment,

“Im Mel cin” you whispered praying you had said it right.  Legolas expression brightened, then looked somber again.

“I did say that right, right?” you asked suddenly, this earned you a chuckle,

“Yes” he replied. He then looked like he was thinking.  He was, he was thinking about the fact that you are human and he is an elf, his father's thoughts, but then he looked up to you, your bright eyes.  Legolas cautiously walked towards you.  His hand grazed over your cheek, barely touching you, but when you didn’t move his confidence grew, he gently pressed his lips to yours, it was like a butterfly touching you, before pulling away.  He was still gaging your reactions, it wasn’t enough for you though, so you kissed him back.  The kiss quickly turned passionate, you had never experienced anything like it before.  When he pulled away all you felt was bliss for a moment.   

“My heart” Legolas whispered in his native tongue, it sounded so much better to you in elven, you could listen to it all day.

(there will be more to this)