A little blurb from a very angsty Byler fic I started yesterday.
It started as a vent fic, because I wanted to explore how bad my first heartbreak was. And because I exist solely to make my works even more depressing and painful… we have Mike with internalized homophobia, with an old money family, and an arranged marriage trope. It’s set in 2022, because modern AUs made conversation easier for the Max/Will/El w friendship.
(Yes Max wants to murder 1 Michael Wheeler. No Will is not going to let her.)
I swear, I will eventually write happy Byler. But listening to Taylor Swift songs like these:
High infidelity, Haunted, Innocent, Back to December, Sad Beautiful Tragic, Bigger Than The Whole Sky, and The Great War
And writing sort of about how my ex broke my heart… yeah. Um I’ll just say I’m impressed with how much I have been upset writing this vent fic.
It’s been 5 years, and I still remember the feeling of my heart shattering in my chest. But it makes for great fic material! 😭😅
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Tfw you try to explain how, "Hate the sin, not the sinner," is really homophobic and all your conservative parents are concerned about is how rude it is to call someone homophobic.
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Anyways saw my younger cousin today and she asked if I'm homophobic and after I said that I'm not (and reminded her I'm both gay & trans) and I just :(((
She explained it was because she's bi and her parents are homophobic and she was worried I might have changed and she couldn't be open around me
She's 10
No ten year old should have to worry about being open about basic parts of themselves with their family because their own parents aren't accepting
And while I feel so touched that I'm the first person she felt safe to tell it just makes me want to hold her close and keep her safe because I know what it's like to go through that, to know people who were supposed to love me unconditionally won't because of something I can't control
And it's so upsetting to know she's going through that too now
I'm just glad she knows she has at least one family member that accepts her and will back her up, I'm glad I can give that to her
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pov: you left your phone downstairs and your alarm went off and your mom FOR SOME REASON looked at your notifications and saw your friend text you saying "i'm so bi" and asked you about it but then when she questioned you you went to go feed the outside cat (what the alarm was for) and texted the friend in a panic and fixed it (although you nearly had a heart attack). when you went inside your mom wasnt there so u assumed u were safe but then she came up and u managed to smooth over the text but then she says "I just need to understand Blank" and started SCROLLING UP where there is VERY GAY FANART so u somehow stopped her scrolling but she read a text saying "how's golfing?" -Blank "good! Redacted grabbed my wrist" -me and thought Redacted was flirting with u when she was just trying to see your phone and Redacted is very homophobic then ur mom gave you a talk like "if ur friends tell you that they're gay, tell me. they're not aloud to tell u that u can't tell anyone" or in other words "I am homophobic and probably will advise you not to hang out with gay friends and also you aren't aloud to have secrets" and then she left and u cried bc u almost got outed and Blank almost got outed and ur mom won't accept u when u come out even if she pretends to be supportive and all this reminded u that Blank thinks there are 2 genders and nonbinary and agender are the same (sad genderqueer noises)
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my mom got all teary eyed after I hugged everyone in the kitchen except her. What does she want from me? I was polite all evening. I treated her like I'd treat anyone who didn't want to get to know me. She's the one who said I was dead to her as long as I did this whole 'demonic non-binary nonsense' and she 'wants her daughter back.' I tried everything I could do to get her to see the rest of me but she never even asked a single question. She didn't want to know. She didn't want to know me. She was so amped up to be a martyr to the satanic leftist trans agenda. Are we having fun yet? How's the payoff?
honestly it hurt me to see her cry just like it always has but I just had to remind myself that she's choosing to be a victim of her own ignorance and gods know I already spent the worse part of the last decade trying and failing to fix that. I'm outta there.
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Me coming out of the cinema, trembling while holding the phone "... so do we all think Mirage and Noah have something going on?" I say shakily to the speaker.
"Nah yeah they def fuckin" society says.
I let out the most relieved sigh ever sighed on my life and I point my index finger at the sky thanking a higher being for being in this timeline
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My family was talking about how a potentially friend of theirs might be gay. I live in a very strict country and my parents are too conservative so I can't show my support publicly, but if I have to stay in the closet for the rest of my life, I hope I can be like him. He's single, living in a big city, making a ton of money from a stable job, has many friends he can invite to eat dinner with every day, and still looks 30 despite pushing 50s.
If I have to stay in the closet, please at least let me stay in a walk-in closet with a bunch of birkin bags and 20 pairs of $5k shoes.
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Hero are your parents homophobic? (Directing the question to you cuz it seems Kel doesn't like talking about them..)
📖: No, they aren’t homophobic. Just…… well, more focused on me. Used to gloat about the favoritism so much to Kel.
I regret it. I regret it heavily. I can’t blame Kel for struggling to talk to me even now.
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