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#VEGA I HAVE NEVER WANTED TO BE ANOTHER HUMAN BEING AS BAD AS I DO RIGHT FUCKING NOW
fangedtracks · 1 year
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i forgot . a critical moment. in this interview. i did in fact forget that brookes forces pizza into vega's mouth while saying "cmon eat it" ok.
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bubblergoespop · 2 months
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My Top Gavin Quotes
this man is just pure love given form istg. @xanyiaz as promised, it’s gav’s turn, ta daaa~
“You can. I know you can.”
“What? I took my shirt off that was his tip.”
“Yes, I just sexualized a building.”
“I’d make an incredible Princess Peach. I’m a vision in pink.”
“My love.”
“Tell your guidance counselor that Gavin says hello. And that I hope the stains came out of his shirt.”
“Deviant, hold me back, the joke’s writing itself.”
“I know perfectly well what a miicrowahvé is. I just don’t know how to operate it.”
“I don’t suppose you feel like sharing his address, in case I wanted to help him… ‘move on’ a little more quickly?”
“Like Empathy Daemon Caelum? Talks too fast, little horns, almost too-sweet Caelum?”
“Oh, nothing special, I just want to see if I can send Vega into orbit around his namesake.”
“But you don’t mind sucking hard?”
“I’ve tasted every kind of ecstasy that the people of this world can experience, but yours is the one that sets my heart on fire.”
“I know feelings. Even the ones I haven’t given myself a chance to feel. I love you. I have loved you. Tried to show it in the ways I knew how, even before I could admit the words to myself. I love you.”
“Oh come on, do-able can be a form of praise.”
“Maybe I don’t care who hears. As long as I get to.”
“When I’m with you, I feel like I’m home. More than that actually. Being with you changes what home means.”
“Oh no! Oh I just realized something, Deviant! I’ve never had to whisk a combination of egg yolks, water, oil, and vanilla before! I guess you’ll have to show me how, by coming up behind me, wrapping your arms around mine, and guiding my hands.”
“Well, as of this morning, the human population has decided to reverse their historical position and now defer to my judgment on what time it is. And I say it’s still bedtime.”
“Is this what they mean when they say relationships are about compromise? Pinning your partner in place until they agree, under duress, to carve out a few minutes of sleepy cuddling?”
“What an odd way to refer to Huxley.”
“You make me so very happy, Deviant. In ways I’d never given myself lease to imagine.”
“You are sin given form, aren’t you? Looking up at me like that. Perfection.”
“Nothing will stop me from keeping you safe.”
“You’re my sky, Deviant. The space between my stars. What I feel for you… in a lifetime of sensing the emotions of others, I never imagined I could feel like this. This much. And I am so grateful for it. And for you.”
“Oh 7/11, I owe you so much.”
“I do have a more… chaste idea. I know, the shock may kill you.”
“It’s sweet, Damien. You’re allowed to be sweet.”
“Yes, I am bad. But I’m very good at it. And I’m yours, my love.”
“What? I’m not grinning, I’m not doing anything. I don’t know what you could mean by that Deviant.”
“Yes, it belongs to you, my love. However you want it. However you’d like it.”
“Who says I can’t study laying down with my eyes closed?”
“I’m allowed to whine. It suits me.”
“Put me where you want me.”
“Well I’m the tooth fairy, can’t you tell?”
“Your scent teasing my senses… If that’s weird, then what the hell do you call what we did last night?”
“You burn rapture through my body, until my vision hazes… and haloes and bends. Like liquid.”
“Your touch ignites my stars.”
“I don’t think you feel gross.”
“Not our fault we’re forever surrounded by a bunch of tyrannical Puritans.”
“I don’t know how well I can pass for a ‘bro’, but I’ll bravely soldier on in Huxley’s honor.”
“Yes, baby.”
“You changed my life. You change it every day. You make me better. And I love you more than human words can convey.”
“There’s no such thing as a perfect match, there is no form of a relationship that doesn’t come with disagreement and effort, but the feelings we hold for one another and the work that we put in for one another are enough to weather any storm. And that’s the difference.”
“And what greater crime is there than to disappoint a rat? Maybe Huxley is wearing off on me after all.”
“‘Adult Pink Fruit Monarch’ costume, here I come.”
“Yours is a soul that makes the stars shine brighter. And you’re beautiful for it. Always.”
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sinnaminttoast · 5 months
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Monarchal Summit…SPOILERS FOR PART THREE
I’m back on my bullshit to give you my reactions/thoughts on this video.
First of all I want to establish…HOW MUCH I LOVE PORTER SOLAIRE! Literally argue with someone else cause I refuse to change my mind on him 😍 he’s such a sassy man and I just…omg 🤭
If there’s one thing Porter Solaire will do…he will give his one liners
I haven’t gotten this giddy over a character since Gavin’s second love confession video. (Tbh also Hush…BUT I DONT NEED YA’LL JUDGING MY TASTES ON THIS POST! 😭 tbh I should talk about like my top five or seven characters…?)
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I also never thought I’d hear him say “clout” but here we are.
Tbh, I’m not completely surprised Porter killed Alexander. He had the time to do it. Now my question is…He never told Asher that he was the one to push Sweetheart out of the room but maybe it was him? He also just never explained where tf he got that demon blood.
SO WHAT IF VEGA— *gunshots*
But omg…ya’ll this game is a MESS! All of the houses just do not give a fuck…AND ME TOO! FUCK BOTH OF THOSE BITCHES!
I don’t know if William fully thought this through though. Maybe he did but this kinda leaves a bad look on Vincent and Lovely. He already had no experience in hosting the summit. He was told to host the summit and THEN was told he had to deal with Porter. He was stressed OUT
And even at the summit, he gets treated like the naive kid who knows nothing.
I Can see why Vincent is upset. I’ll give him a slight pass since the only murder he’s ever committed was Adam and that was purely because he had broken vampiric laws? Customs? I forget the word. Anyways, he’s always been the type to just want normalcy. As much of it as he can have ever since he lost his humanity.
So to find out that the people you are around have blood on their hands and that there’s been a game going on unbeknownst to you…oof. My man has also been stressed the fuck out the days following up to the summit AND on the day of the summit…can’t say I blame him.
BUT WHEN PORTER SAID WILLIAM SEES VINCENT AS HIS CHILD???
Why would you say that? PEOPLE ARE CRAZY PORTER! 😭
William has quite the way of….doing things? But just because he ate this one little thing DOESNT MEAN I forgot what Dean wright said in the first video of the summit.
I’m not trusting we’re safe from Quinn and his friends UNTIL I HEAR HE’S DEAD!
AND ANOTHER THING—
Porter I’m so sorry sweetie for what you’ve been through 🙁
But not him just leaving and saying “I love my voice and all but I am tired after committing a bit of murder. Good night 🫶☺️”
He was also just getting tired of repeating shit 😭 like he was about to whack Vincent if he had to repeat “Closeknit and House of Bennett work together. Both bad. Me kill Alexander. Society = safe.”
Anyways…that’s all I have I think?? Oh and Lovely! I’m sure they’re pissed off about Vincent being hurt and how he was treated over all. Like…they just had their business all aired out and now their partner is just…hurt.
Is William a bad guy? Nah, I don’t totally disagree with him killing those two fucks. However, I wonder if he thinks this won’t bite him in the ass?
Idk..hopefully this does start leading to Closeknit’s downfall CAUSE I NEED THEM GONE
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venus-haze · 2 years
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Just read your latest headcannons, and first of all amazing! Second of all, I see your Vampire!Austin!Elvis x Reader headcannons, and raise you Austin!Elvis x Vampire!Reader Headcannons. I can see this going hand in hand with the whole Elvis faked his death conspiracy.
Thank you so much! It was so fun to write🖤 I absolutely love this idea and I hope I did it justice.
Austin!Elvis x Vampire!Reader
Warnings: Dark themes that include death, blood, and obsessive and manipulative behavior. Reader has some yandere vibes. Do not interact if you are under 18 or post thinspo/ED content.
You’re by no means one of the oldest vampires in the country, but you were quick to embrace the power that being changed gave you, using it to whatever advantage you could. You don’t feel bad about having to kill to survive, there are plenty of humans who did far worse than you, anyway
While some vampires stay in covens for safety, you’re a loner, not wanting to answer to anyone for anything. As a result you’re riskier, choosing Los Angeles as your hunting grounds for a few decades, flirting with and feeding on the rich and famous despite the questions about how your appearance never seemed to change or your odd eye color
You know how many of them would give anything to be turned, evade the inevitability of aging and death, but you don’t think any of them deserve the honor
When a new musician emerges in the ‘50s, electrifying the industry with his wild music and dance moves, you have to see him in person. Elvis’ concert doesn’t disappoint, lighting a fire in you that you hadn’t felt in decades. Not to mention, he’s so pretty you think of turning him based on that alone
You meet him briefly after the show. Naturally, he says that he noticed you in the crowd, something about you drawing him in. You get his autograph, and when he begins to comment on your crimson eye color, you distract him with a kiss and leave
For you, it’s business as usual for the next decade or so, and by the mid-60s, you’ve made Las Vegas your new hunting grounds, it’s too easy not to when there are so many people engaging in the type of reckless debauchery that would make their disappearances just a byproduct of being in the City of Sin
When Elvis’ Vegas residency is announced, you debate going, and after his first two residencies, you decide to get a ticket, feeling risky enough to get a front row seat just to see if he’d recognize you
A thrill rushes through you when he steps on stage and looks at you as if he’s seen a ghost. He’s aged, of course, but he’s just as gorgeous as you remembered. His performance is fantastic, but a bit off as he keeps getting distracted by you, especially when you smile at him, your lips revealing your fangs
When the show ends, you’re not surprised when you’re approached by a member of Elvis’ entourage, telling you that Elvis wants to see you in his suite if you’re available
You find Elvis waiting for you in his suite. “You just get right to the point, don’t you?” you tease
“You look just like this woman I met years ago. We only spent an hour or so together, but I just couldn’t get her out of my mind,” he says. “I think it’s your eyes. I’ve never seen anyone else with eyes like hers”
“I wouldn’t expect you to,” you answer, showing him the autograph he gave you that night almost twenty years earlier. Sure, you were betraying the sentimentality you had toward him, keeping it for so long when you’d pawned off autographs and gifts you’d gotten from other stars through the years
Elvis looks at the autograph in disbelief, and when he looks back up at you, he’s struggling to put two and two together, to face the reality of who—no, what you are
“How long will you be in town?” he asks
“At least another few years,” you answer nonchalantly
You see Elvis almost every night for the next few weeks, and the more time you spend with him, the more you want to turn him. You can tell he’s tired of the life he’s living, tired of being tired. So carefully, calculatedly, with each complaint he has about his management, his health, his love life, you lure him in
“You can do whatever you want. Don’t have to answer to anyone. You’re in control of everything,” you muse, conveniently omitting the almost insatiable bloodlust that comes with being newly turned, watching as he gets closer and closer to asking you to turn him. The only thing that’s keeping him hesitant is his damn bleeding heart, unsure if he can go through with killing innocent people to survive
One night, though, you arrive up to his suite, finding the room in a state of disarray. Elvis looks at you, rage in his eyes as he storms over, “I’m sick of this—this bullshit. I want you to turn me, Y/N. I want to be with you”
You grin wickedly, your eyes focused on the vein bulging from his neck “Oh honey, I thought you’d never ask”
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hammerhead-jpg · 2 months
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Okay I'm making a serious post about the newest carpe deus video behold
All I'm thinking about is how complicated Warden must feel.
Vega was a bad person. He hated humans, harmed anyone who got in his way and traumatized and tortured people for his own plans, he orchestrated a prison break just to free himself, in turn freeing dangerous criminals and almost killing them in the process.
But on the other hand he cared for them. He swore to protect them and understood them and empathized with them in a way nobody else has before. He saved them from certain death and nurtured them and fed them.
They betrayed everyone they've ever known for a plan just for the plan to fall apart right before their eyes before it took off. The man they've betrayed everyone for died a gruesome death right in front of them.
And they'll never know if anything he said was really genuine or just an act.
On another note I don't think this will be the end of their storyline. I'm choosing to believe that Erik has a plan and didn't just now realize that he doesn't know what to do with Warden and Vega and descided to kill Vega off to get them out of the story. First off, if it really was the playlist would say [completed] like the rest of the finished characters. I don't think that Vega hasn't died, when the description says [character death] I don't think it's lying. The way Hush talked about him makes me believe there's something more going on. I mean, Hush recognized Vega from the cacophony, which really makes my last theory look flawed since why would Hush know the details about the cacophony, something he didn't witness? He sounded genuinely guilty after murdering Vega, he said he didn't want to do it, he gave him two warnings and when Vega wasn't listening to those warnings he got frustrated that he couldn't de-escalate the situation to make him step down. But why is that? Yeah he says he doesn't want to kill anyone but there wasn't the same clear feelings of frustration and guilt when he killed Reticuli and the other demon. Why was Vega the demon he didn't want to kill?
And I also want to talk about this timeline-wise.
He introduces himself as Hush which probably means this is after he met Doc since when he tells him their name it seems like he made it up on the spot. But this also happens after the raid on close-knit, meaning after Elliott leaves and reports Sunshine's kidnapping.
There was no mention of Vega having to break any ward when they went into the building so where are Sunshine and Scorpius? When was Hush created?
My theory was that Blake was turned into/ used to create Hush but this video is starting to poke holes in that theory since, if Hush was created after Blake's death how does he know about the cacophony? Also, after rewatching the inversion, I realized that there is a likelihood that the thing that Blake was talking to at the end was Hush.
At first I thought it was a sovereign, but the Sovereigns reside under the river and Brachium had to go out of his way to get to them, they aren't just chilling wherever in the river. But Hush says his first memory is his brother trying to kill him not Brachium talking to him? Is it some sort of Hush work in progress? Is the voice that talked to Brachium right as the inversion was starting also him? It doesn't sound like the sovereigns.
Erik just loves poking holes in my theories right after I've made them! I'm never right!
How is it that when I make a completely logical theory with all the steps played out in front of me it ends up being incorrect but some people go "what if Elliott and Aaron are brothers since they both mention having a brother?" And THEY end up being right????
I'm trusting that Erik knows what he's doing and this isn't just a fluke because just killing off a main villain for no reason and never having us see his listener again seems like a very poor writing choice.
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jeffsatyr · 1 month
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for the fic writers asks: <33333333333
🤗 What advice would you give to new fanfic writers that are just getting started?
🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?
🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.
ooooooh 👀
🤗 What advice would you give to new fanfic writers that are just getting started?
be nice!!! to yourself!!! oh my god!!!!
my oldest available fic on ao3 is from 2017 but i've been writing fic for about ten years and 10000% i have improved so so much on my writing since i started, but that's because i have been writing fic for ten years and writing in general for longer!
so of course looking at my older work it's very easy to say it's bad, because i've gotten so much better since, but that's so mean? to me? like. yeah obviously i'm better at a skill after ten years of practicing it, doesn't mean that what i wrote ten years ago wasn't the best i could do at the time.
so be nice to yourself!
🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?
My primary audience when writing anything is, of course, myself, so i regularly reread my own fics and shdfkjshk my absolute favourite line is from 'in all ways except physical, i am listening':
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-by Chay, about Vegas, who spends the whole fic infodumping about bdsm practices and equipment etc. hfdskjfhsdkj
🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.
i think by and large a lot of what i write (especially in recent years) falls very much into fix-it fic, typically post canon stuff (but if anyone here has somehow read that dead poets one i am so sorry i promise no one is dead i will finish it some day) (dream pack crowd hfdskjfhsk yall are on your own that one is never getting finished <333)
more specifically i find myself gravitating towards family and familial relationships. something about kinnporsche in particularly really makes me want to dive into these kinds of themes. the main characters spend the whole show having to deal with the impact their parents actions have had on their lives, and i think it's very interesting to see how they might go about things after canon and how their familial relationships grow, change, suffer etc.
redemption is another personal favourite! it's why i love playing around with kim so much - the idea that he thinks he's some awful, irredeemable monster when he is just some guy? who fucked up? like yeah he's done bad things but so has everyone else? this in particular was the basis for 'last chance to feel human'
vegas and kim i think are both very similar in the sense that both of them are used by their fathers for their capacity for violence, and both of them have reputations as someone you don't want to cross - vegas being very much a bogeyman figure with his proclivity for torture, and kim in his capacity as an enforcer - so what i love doing with both of them is basically just drop a toddler on them and see how they react.
i want to see the ways in which characters can move on from their past and what that looks like! this has gotten a bit rambly bc i keep zoning out and thinking about how bang chan has spent more than half of his life at jype and other assorted stray kids trivia hfsdkjfhskj
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titleknown · 6 months
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KAIJUNE NEO: NEON TYGER
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My name isn't really important. Well, not important to anyone reading this anyway.
Just know I was a homeless girl, and it was still better than the house I ran from. I once lived in a place that literally fell apart the moment I had to run from a police sweep. One time I got bitten by a water moccasin and had to bite the flesh of the wound out to keep it from spreading.
Not fun. But, then it happened. Like a Star of Bethlehem I saw it and like a falling star it hit me, and it... spoke to me. And it changed me, on the inside.
The men in the green suits took me right after. Compound was nicer than the streets. MREs were better than dumpster-burgers. Could have done without the interrogations. Or the tests. Or the fact that I couldn't leave. Or that they didn't treat me like a human being. I think they never asked my name. There's a lot of things I could've done without, really.
But it was there inside me. Speaking without words. It showed me things. Things beyond our mortal ken, from spaces before and beyond, only now beginning to show their face.
I'd seen inklings, bits of those things emerging, but that big picture, that huge, cosmic scope. It talked to me. It didn't want to talk to them. Said their hearts were too tainted or something. It's hard to paraphrase something that doesn't talk in words.
And then, one day, I got out. I think the men in the green coats said something about vivisection before it happened, something about "failure to co-operate." and the It didn't like that.
So for the first time, it changed me. I don't know how to describe it. Like, its that speaking-without-words thing, I think it'd sound like a porno if I tried. It was... visceral, powerful, amazing. I'll say that much.
And wouldn't you know it, something else broke out too when I did. Poor thing. there's a lot of pain in there. I'd feel sorry for it if it didn't want me and everyone else dead. Still kinda do, can't blame 'em.
I suppose I'm now some kind of messiah-thing, it calls itself a Space Queen, though it says it's a rough translation. Oh yeah, it's learning to talk with words. Given some time. It's not good at it, but it's nice to have a friend in my life.
It lets me wander around the globe, doing what I can, which is more than I thought but less than it'd hope, changing back to me-me to keep my head down. You can kinda tell it's changging me on the outside a bit, I think it called it "syncopation," it's mostly in the eyes.
I don't really need to eat anymore at least, so that helps if I'm getting the folks around me a burger I don't need. There's a lot of bad amongst the street-folk I'll admit, but there's a lot of good, and that's what keeps me going, I think that's what keeps it going too.
It's taught me to broadcast too. So, if you got lucky enough to see this before the men in the green suits come, now you know about the giant lady you keep seeing on the news punching bugs n such. Don't worry, they ain't got shit to track me. They ain't got shit to cage me.
If you see me up close, know I see you. I like you, mostly. But then run because you don't want to get in the middle of what I'm trying to pulsar at, or whatever the hell it calls it...
-Unknown radio/television broadcast, recieved by 50 million listeners in the area of Las Vegas, Nevada
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So, we have our Ultraman stand-in, Neon Tyger, named after the song by The Killers, which again, did inspire a lot of the tone of the story as well as the name.
I will add, while calling her a "space messiah" was meant as a bit of glibness on her part, akin to calling Superman Space Moses, friend of the blog @partlysmith did point out that does fit really well with Tsuburaya's whole thing of Christian symbolism with Ultraman, and I kinda realized after that the additional idea of her living amongst the homeless and marginalized while doing good is another parallel to good ol Oily Josh.
So yay, I was accidentally more clever than I thought!
Ability Notes: You know Ultraman? Basically, she does Ultraman stuff, albeit more Jack Kirby/70s psychedelic genre fiction + neon-related of course.
Bonus Trivia: The species of the "it" has different names depending on what gender of lifeform they're bonded with, Cosmic Men for male, Space Queens for female, and a whole host of esoteric ones for the other genders.
Also, the Cosmic Men have in fact shown up briefly once before in my work, and they're meant to be inspired by spacesuits, in the same way Ultraman is inspired by Grey Aliens!
And, in that grand (exceedingly late) Kaijune tradition, this character and all related narrative elements are under a CC-BY 4.0 license, as long as I, Thomas F Johnson, am credited as their creator.  
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lutawolf · 2 years
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Twin Flames that Burn Each Other
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People are drawn towards others who complement them in good and bad ways, for their strengths and their weaknesses. We often look for those that match our achievements and failures. This includes seeking those with complementary emotional and mental wounds. Basically, complex trauma survivors will partner with someone else that matches their trauma. We then describe this magnetic pull towards one another as chemistry. If this relationship occurs between two partners with unresolved traumatic wounds, this type of chemistry can be volatile and explosive.
Whether the trauma was physical, sexual, or emotional, the impact can show up in a host of relationship issues. Survivors often believe deep down that no one can really be trusted. That intimacy is dangerous, and that a loving attachment is an impossible dream. Many tell themselves they are broken and not good enough. 
Yet many survivors are desperate for love and protection that they have never received before. While still being fueled by fears of abandonment and mistrust. They will often completely ignore appropriate boundaries in their desires to find happiness. As a result, patterns of intense, unstable relationships occur. This could be the continuation of abuse or where the survivor is at further risk of repeated victimization and disillusionment in adult life.
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Both Vegas and Pete are ill equipped to deal with the storm that is their relationship. Pete is spiraling due to their intimacy. Meanwhile Vegas is locked in a cycle of abuse and has no idea how to negotiate any kind of relationship. He as clumsy as a newborn child, one with sociopathic tendencies. Still, they are magnets pulled to each other. Because of this, Pete is constantly trying to reach out to Vegas.
Then Vegas pushed Pete too far. Pete was already losing his shit over Vegas chaining him again, but he still asked Vegas to leave and come with him to the Main family. Vegas lashes out but it's his emotional trauma that broke Pete and caused him to move past his love.
"Don't you ever think that just because we had sex that you could say anything" This, is the moment that Pete cries. It wasn't the physical, remember he comes from a world where physical punishment is a thing. No, it's because he gave himself to Vegas. He handed himself over and Vegas just said it meant nothing.
"Anyhow, your just my pet" and Pete cries harder. Then Pete says "A guy like you will never regret" aka a guy like you will never change. He realizes he was a fool to have stayed. Vegas isn't going to change, and he can't live like this, in this cycle of abuse. "Kill me jerk" "You want to die so much, huh? I'll kill you as you wish." Pete has never not once been scared of death. He has welcomed it with open arms. What is hurting him now is that he gave himself to a man that he loves, and that man is threatening him. Continues to threaten him over and over.
Pete says that he has nothing left "Not even my humanity" that's when it clicks for Vegas, that he has become his father. His mouth parts on an I'm sorry because he knows he is in the wrong. Pete interrupts him before he can talk though. Pete says "Right now, I feel useless, no, I've always been useless. I never exist." He is saying that he saw Vegas, but he never existed to him and now he knows it. He is saying that he thought he was someone, but Vegas has proven that was a lie. "I don't have anything left within me" I loved you, but it's gone. Vegas whispers' Pete's name in devastation now.
"I can't take myself anymore, vegas" I can't take the pain of the past and the pain of the present. "If you don't kill me today, I'll do it myself" Because I would rather die than keep up the cycle.
Vegas fights Pete for the knife but Pete wins. Vegas throws his hands up "Pete, Pete, okay you win" "Pete, I'm sorry" He has heard everything Pete said between his words. That he has destroyed what Pete gave him. He is desperate. "Don't leave me, I'm begging you" Vegas can tell that Pete is done and broken.
"I'm human, Vegas." Pete saying that he wanted Vegas to see him as human, as someone. "I have feelings" Peta wanted Vegas to see and care about his feelings. Vegas now realizing what he has done, scared he is going to watch Pete kill himself. He begs "Can we start over, just you and me" now he is ready to leave because he wants to keep Pete. He had gotten used to Pete wanting to be there. Cause the bolt cutters always been there. "I need you, Pete. Just you and me" I'll leave like you wanted to do before. Pete no longer trusts Vegas' words though.
"Need me? For emotional projection, like a pet with no feelings?" Vegas finally realizing how bad he fucked up, that he has broken his already broken love. He whispers no while taking the knife from Pete. He can't live with him not in this world.
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"Then what is this" showing the cuffs. Because the cuffs were security for Vegas but for Pete, they are a reminder of the past. That's when Vegas finally realizes that his boy is just as, if not more damaged than him. Because the bolt cutters have been right there. "Okay Pete" but he is still more worried about himself than Pete because all he can think about is he is about to be abandoned. He had found security in Pete wanting to stay despite his unworthiness. He pushed Pete too far though and he knows it. He begs Pete to promise not to leave him, but Pete can't promise because he is done. One last kiss, one last touch. Vegas "stay with me" Pete sucking in a breath, the pain because as much as he loves Vegas he can't. He touches his face and caresses his lips.
Pete apologizes as he knocks Vegas out. He stares at his hand that hit him. The pain immeasurable. He takes the keys and frees himself. Pete crying the entire time he escapes.
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vegasandhishedgehog · 2 years
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Pete is quickly becoming one of my favorite characters of all time and I want to delve into him so badly, he is SO.... Everything.
First of all, his line about no villains and no heroes? There's such a great deal behind that line it deserves a whole dissertation.
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He is so aware of everyone's humanity. Everyone is flawed and we get raised with all these beliefs and influences around us and then we learn and get older and change and fuck up. Our sense of right and wrong can be warped any which way depending on what we uphold as the ultimate good, or if we believe in some purpose or reward after death, but we also develop inner values that are far more difficult to sway. People will cling to their reasoning or let go completely given such opportunities. We gloss over and justify and rationalize, but also we break bad habits and grow and apologize and make restitution. Who can say they are absolutely the hero in their own story? Who can say they're the sole villain? Fucking NOBODY. Pete gets it.
He hides behind the goofiness and let's people think what they want of him because ultimately to him it doesn't matter. He knows who he is and has no qualms about it. Hiding can be both a defense mechanism and a weapon, and he knows when to apply both. Knowing who he is and when to switch on being active and passive is what makes Pete so strong. It keeps him from being too far in his own head and let's him use minimal effort to reach into others. It's not a perfect practice (see his reaction to Vegas in the temple and afterward, see also his not so accurate advice to Kinn about Porsche, also also see his failure to notice the relationship between Kinn and Porsche) but out of the rest of the peanut gallery, he's doing the most.
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When it comes to his relationship with Vegas, for the most part we can understand why Vegas ends up choosing him. Pete presents a delightful challenge the likes of which have the potential to absolutely wreck Vegas. But why fall for Vegas, Pete?
Pete is aware of how deranged and awful Vegas is and regardless of any sense of masochism he may have that isn't the only puzzle piece falling into place here. Vegas appreciates Pete, recognizes Pete and his strengths, in a manner no one else seems to. While Pete isn't one to ask for recognition - it's not something he needs from everyone - receiving it from someone who understands fully what he is appreciating counts for a lot. It's like an artist being praised by another artist through a technical lense, both familiar with the language and school of thought. It's so complimentary and after everything Pete has been through he deserves the compliment. And he knows Vegas doesn't do it to be nice - Vegas simply can't help but express the admiration.
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After spending years being largely bored but complacent in his life, Pete spends all that time with Vegas just balls-to-the-wall eccentric and of course he's fascinated. Not to go after some of the fandom, but it's similar to how many of us came from mostly consuming softer, sweeter stories in media and coming to KinnPorsche is drawing us in and changing us in a way we never expected but are thoroughly enjoying. We know shit is fucked! We love it! Pete knows Vegas is fucked! I think he loves it in a similar sense. But it becomes more personal because unlike us fans interacting with the show, Vegas can love him right back. And that is just chef's kiss to me.
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Fem!Reader X Street Fighter Headcanons- When you're sick together (Jamie, Luke, Vega) (I had to put spice in it and keep the minors out)
JAMIE
He hates being sick
His sinuses are screaming in pain and he’s miserable in bed
His drink is a huge no-no right now
But hot tea? Yes Yes!
His hair is a frizzy mess but he doesn’t give a shit
Taking a shower and then getting into a clean pair of boxers is as far as he’s gotten as far as activity goes
Noses need Puffs indeed for this one
His only consolation is that you’re also sick and in bed with him
You make sure both of you take the medicine consistently, even if it tastes like ass, candle wax and despair
Luckily, you have a tv in your room
You ended up binging a tv show you never paid attention to and got hooked
Living on DoorDash is a thing right now, who wants to cook?!
You two still make an effort to clean up after yourselves, it just sucks to do it right now
Sick makes the sleepy feeling linger and you both sleep a whole lot
The sneezing is 100% brutal and the congestion is a nightmare
Jamie definitely does the putting the tissue in the congested nostril thing to keep it from torturing him
He sleeps like that too, only to wake up, blow out the build up, and put another one in
Soup and chicken broth are a constant thing as you are awake binging The First 48
You two still love on each other despite being ill
You still cuddle and kiss each other
Hell, you two need to comfort one another to get through it
Moments like this are why Jamie will never let you go, not that you ever planned on leaving him anyway
Once you both are healthy again, he tells you how much he loves you
He thinks spending the week housebound with you was such a bonding experience
Before he goes back out onto the streets of Chinatown, he gives you that good dick
Not having the energy for sex for a while made it all the more sweet
Well, maybe just one more day not out on the streets won’t hurt, he’s missed getting freaky with you
“As much as I love being in bed with you and binging true crime shows with you, I missed your screams even more.”
He loves the hell out of you so much it’s written on his face
Even the gang members tell him to marry you already…he just might
LUKE
Luke is the biggest damn baby when he’s sick
Even when you’re sick, at least you can function like a human
He whines, he complains that he’s sick constantly
You end up having to care for him and halfway neglecting yourself
Making soup in bulk
You have to feed it to him because he claims to be too sick to do it himself
You can still function normally being sick, but he’s damn helpless
You have to make him take the medicine
He’s dramatic as shit when he takes it because it’s gross
You have to remind him that he’s an adult and that the kids’ bubblegum flavor won’t work on him
He’s in the bed covered up to his neck
You have to make him do everything
Take medicine, eat, get in the damn shower…anything
You basically have to be like a mother to him and scold him
He eventually listens to you because he doesn’t want to argue with you
He wonders how you can even function when you’re ill
You’re like superwoman to him now
He loves that you’re taking care of him
He is picturing of how you’ll be caring for him as you grow old and grey together
He smiles, and when you ask him about it, he keeps it to himself for now
He just says he’s just happy
Once you both feel good enough to get back to your normal routines, he wants to repay you
He gives you a good licking down south, some good ass dick, and he then spoils you by buying you everything that you don’t even ask for
He’s just grateful for you and your love
He’s also still imagining you and him growing old together
VEGA
He hates being sick
It makes him look less than desirable
He hates his good looks being ruined at all
But illness doesn’t care about your looks at all
You’re ill too, so it shouldn’t be that bad
But it is for him
He doesn’t even want you to see him like this
Vulnerable and not looking his best
But you love him, so you don’t really care
You’re less sick than he is so you make sure you’re both medicated and fed
When you tell him that he’s still beautiful to you, even right now, his heart is beating so fast
He’s even more in love with you now
He knows he’s found someone who loves him beyond his looks, but down to his soul
Even though he’s crazy and sadistic as hell, so many people wouldn’t mind fucking him because he’s damn gorgeous
But you, you have a kind of love for him he has never had, and that he’ll never let go of that
You are looking more beautiful to him right now than you have before
There is natural beauty in you
Your heart, your spirit, everything about you makes his heart melt
He wants you, right now
Even if you’re both sick, it doesn’t stop him from making love to you
He’s giving it all and forgetting all about this illness because he loves you, and he can now fully admit it
His skin is clammier and sweat forms on his forehead more, but he’s pounding the hell out of you because he needs to make you feel his love
He’s finally found his soulmate and if he did lose his looks one day, he knows you’ll stay with him for life
By the time you’re all better and he’s looking his best again he kisses you and says…
“Let’s get married, mi amor…”
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Tbh no matter small Jikook moments happened in Las Vegas none of it points to a potential relationship between JM and JK. I can see JK as someone having some big butt girlfriends lol, Dating casually. He just doesn't looks like a man in committed relationship especially with another man. Even though judging him by these tattoos, piercings, his dressing style are stereotyping, those stereotypes exist for a reason, it's because there are lot of similar occurrences. And he have all those appearances qualities of a typical fuckboy. Just look any of his pictures - offstage or onstage, it's evident.
Of course you're right anon.
JK is a huge fuckboy, because he's so so good looking and has tattoos and piercings.
How didn't I see that before?
You opened my eyes to the truth.
You are what you look - that's how life goes.
And if it wasn't understood by now, because I have found that there are those that need the added explanation, and apparently you would be one of those anon, going through life believing you judge a book by it's cover - this whole opening, it's me being sarcastic.
Because, god help you anon, if that's how you are living your life, judging people by how they look, not who they actually are.
You would also be the type to think that a tattooed pierced manly man would just HAVE to be straight, because, as you said, stereotypes, they are true (you did actually say that in your ask).
Same would be said for racist stereotypes, right? Because, as you yourself put it anon, "stereotypes exist for a reason, it's because there are lot of similar occurrences."
I think you need a huge wake up call anon.
Take a second, a minute, an hour to sit and think about just how wrong and bad what you are saying is anon.
A person isn't what he looks like.
You don't judge a person by who he was born to, his skin colour, the shape of his eyes, or any of his physical features, his religion or any other parameter that is not who he is as a human being (his nature, his behaviour, his personality).
You NEVER judge a book by it's cover. That's, btw, exactly how people are duped and conned in life. Living life with misconceptions.
You can be good looking outside and ugly inside.
You can be good looking and tattooed and pierced and uninterested in sleeping around or having meaningless sexual conquests.
It's about who you are inside, your personality, and your facial features, your body, they have absolutely nothing to do with who you are as a person.
Do some good looking people use said looks to behave in certain ways? Of course they do. But that's because of who they are as a person inside, and generalising and saying that because you look good, take care of yourself physically, get tattoos and piercings, that's who you are as a human being, well that's just wrong and twisted, and I feel sad for you if that's how you judge people, or want to be judged yourself by others.
Oh, and btw, addressing your underlined homophobic stereotyping anon -
"I can see JK as someone having some big butt girlfriends lol, Dating casually. He just doesn't looks like a man in committed relationship especially with another man".
Wow. Totally wow anon. I'm gonna let you in on a secret not many know (me being sarcastic again, I feel I need to keep letting you know anon) there are many queer tattooed pierced manly men. Shock, awe, unbelievable right?
I think you have a lot of growing up to do. Maybe reading actual books that aren't y/n ff would help.
To end this convo anon I want to tell you one last thing about JK. JK is in a long term committed relationship with JM, another man. He's told us and shown us exactly that over the past 5 years, well they both have. And his actions, his words in LV, well they were cute and telling and him being pretty loud and uncaring as to what people like you think or feel about it.
So you keep on living your immature blind y/n dream anon, while JK will be living the good life with the man he loves.
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procrazedfan · 5 months
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On a random Tuesday while fiddling with the radio, your OC accidentally makes contact with aliens. The signal is crystal clear. They can understand the aliens and vice versa. -What do they say? What would be something they want to communicate with another life form.
So, this prompt accidentally gave me future chapter fodder and I am playing loose with the definition of aliens since they are technically aliens/gods/eldritch beings. But they communicate through multiple channels. Dreams, omens, and especially music.
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Lucius sat on the tour bus, fiddling with a radio app on his new phone. Even if Jules, Chas and the rest of the band had showed him a few times, it didn't come innately to him like it did for them. But he couldn't ask them. Let alone look them in the eye after what he did.
"With Toki Wartooth still missing fans are wondering -" He swiped right. Of course the band was fucking up their part. They were most likely partying to forget about their responsibilities. Again.
"-Mourning Star delivered a massively brutal performance last night in Vegas that no doubt-" he swiped right again.
"Gangs of children are roaming the streets, attacking-" He swiped right again, increasingly frustrated. Why in the hell was he stuck on news channels? He just wanted to fucking relax without the pressure of everything for a goddamned minute!
He knew he fucked up. Fucked himself, and everyone over. He should have never went to the Depths of Humanity. Never wrote 'Hellions'. Never should have taken responsibility for his half siblings or opened that fucking briefcase he found under the floorboards. Now everyone was in a mess and it was his fault.
He tossed the phone in frustration to the opposite side of the bus cracking the screen, and knocking it to another channel.
The sound was faint, but he hears something from the other side of it. Music. But it was music that he had never heard before. He couldn't place the genre or the sound. But he could recognize the voices. Whispers of something that was not from this world.
He heard it in his dreams often. Especially after she died. But it was the first time he heard it here...in reality.
You were a wanderer Back when you were young I remember your eyes were clear Brighter than the sun With hands so soft Delicate and sweet You learned to fall And balance on your own two feet
I could only lead you so far I believe in who you are
It was all he could do to not break down in tears right there. Just like he did in front of his father a few years back. What Mrs Charlene told Chastity and Jules was right. He always did have a bad habit of bottling everything up until he couldn't take it anymore. Never asked for any help or told people what was wrong. And it wasn't helping anyone right now. Especially himself.
The song kept playing, but he sees an image on the screen. That fucking Doomstar that had been on the news cycle. At least, that was what the media called it.
Take the world by storm Muster all your strength Embrace the forces that surround you Bend gravity and space
But he had long past grown from any sense of alarm that came from the sight of it. Because he had seen it before.
You are a child of the stars Shout what has been unsung Open all the doors around you Use the power in your lungs
And he knew what he had to do. Forgive himself. Apologize to the band, and move forward.
I could only lead you so far I believe in who you are
Because he took responsibility. Made the choices that lead him this far. He had to see it through. For them and for himself. He walked away from the bus leaving behind the phone with the cracked screen and the image of the Doomstar changing color.
(Song Lyrics: Fish in a Birdcage Rule #9 - Child of the Stars)
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lady-raziel · 1 year
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tell me about the brotherhood of steel in your head please i want to know so badly
ok so there's a chapter of the brotherhood of steel that exists in the rocky mountain region that split off from the western chapters many years ago and was successful for a while but has been in a slow decline and the nail in the coffin was when caesar's legion rolled into the area and essentially killed the chapter off. most of the remaining members have either been killed or wandered off to other parts of the wasteland. those that stayed with the chapter officially, only a handful, got caught in a radiation storm that lasted for weeks, and it irradiated them so bad they, guess what, got ghoulified. but the brotherhood hates non-humans so they had to do some serious soul-searching and realized that in the beginning when the brotherhood was founded it was more about preserving technology to keep humanity from falling into the dark ages again and preventing another nuclear war. the surviving members of the rocky mountain chapter realized they could continue this mission and further the goals of helping people rebuild even as ghouls.
well then fallout new vegas happens and caesar's legion gets the axe. suddenly the rocky mountain region is up for grabs again. the rocky mountain chapter realizes that in order to have stability in the region, they need to gain control of the area so another caesar doesn't show up and the land doesn't fall to raiders again. they've also heard rumors of a place called vault 0, which was the command center for all the vaults and used to be NORAD, america's missile command bunker. all they know is vault 0 is they key to securing the remaining missiles in america's arsenal and that the place is rumored to be held by the enclave. caesar's legion tried to breach the vault but never succeeded. but the rocky mountain brotherhood realize that if they open their chapter to anyone who wants to join and make a difference, they might have a shot. so they start recruiting ghouls and wastelanders, and even a few supermutants (they build custom power armor for the super mutants, because i think that would be sick as fuck). They even get a few synths who have escaped the institute.
so with their brand new recruits they uncover the enclave and take vault 0 and basically gain control of all the remaining operational nukes and then nobody wants to fuck with them, which is actually fine because they're super chill and interested in actually helping people in the rocky mountain region. but fast forward to them wanting to reconnect with the other chapters of the brotherhood of steel which are either 1) at war with the ncr or 2) asshats. They're basically like "roger maxon didn't die for you to perpetuate the same bullshit that got us in this nuclear mess in the first place" and "not being assholes and racist actually works well in your favor, actually" and decide that with their nuclear arsenal and planes salvaged from the enclave, they're gonna take control of the rest of the brotherhood and put a stop to this nonsense.
so then they show up in Boston and basically tell Arthur Maxon that he's a little racist baby bitch and to sit the fuck down because elder Lyons actually was dope af. and he'd be super disappointed in you if he were alive and hadn't disappeared under mysterious circumstances, arthur. There's also a whole subplot in my head about how arthur got to the east coast from the west coast brotherhood that involves a lot of attempted murder and a hot air balloon but we don't have time to get into that right now.
anyways the rocky mountain brotherhood mary-sues their way into the fallout 4 plotline, defeats the institute with the help of the sole survivor, frees the synths, and makes the eastern brotherhood look like racist fools. which makes them then question everything and makes arthur maxon realize that everything he thought he stood for was a total lie.
idk there are more pieces and it's all very long and complicated and somewhat based on tidbits of lore from things i've read on the fallout wiki and very much existing in my head
but, you asked.
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KinnPorsche - Finale
Wow, that final episode was amazing! I love how they tied most loose ends up if S2 doesn't end up happening - it ended in a satisfying way but left just a few breadcrumbs setting up a second season if it’s greenlit.
Here are my final thoughts:
Kinn and Porsche 💜 got a happy ending, which I hoped they would. After all, they are the main couple. MileApo are godtier! I will never be able to put into words just how grateful I am to them for putting their heart and soul into these characters and in this couple. I love that Kinn and Porsche are now Mafia King husbands where the rift between the Main and Minor families is starting to close. This is also how it ended in the novel. I think Porsche will be a good influence on the Minor family and will bring some humanity in. It also sets up potential angst between KP in S2. But if they could overcome everything thrown at them this season, they can overcome anything.
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This couple is everything and has cemented themselves as my #2 OTP ship after WangXian.
VegasPete 🩸💜🥀 Wow, is all I can say. Despite VP not starting until later in the show, this couple was everything I hoped it would be (aka still dark but Pete being in on the darkness). Bible is phenomenal - in the hands of any other actor, Vegas wouldn't be as loved as he is, even after everything he’s done. Also knew he wasn't dead (though I got scared for a second there). Vegas didn't die in the novel and BOC changed the car crash to a gunshot (probably ran out of budget by then) and it made it more emotional with Pete crying over his body. I’m happy Vegas-Pete-Macau have each other.
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KimChay 🌸 Bittersweet ending which I’m happy with. Chay is still so young and they both need to find themselves separately before coming together as one. This ship ended on a hopeful note.
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Other thoughts:
All the emotional feels when Vegas called Porsche and warned him what his father was going to do. Essentially telling him, ‘Kinn is in danger, now is the time to act but also, sadly our short-term alliance must come to an end. I do like you, but I have to stand by my father’s side’.
Porsche/Porchay’s mother still being alive. Huge shock for everyone including novel readers. There is something mysterious about her - we don’t know the whole story. What was Gun about to reveal? Is she the true heir and Korn is keeping her locked up? Is she the one who killed her husband? Is she just as cunning and as willing to use her children for her own game as her brothers are? Is she faking her amnesia to keep her sons safe from something? Her expression in the last shot is up for interpretation: 1 - amnesiac woman cut off from the world who is damaged beyond repair - scared of her sons but with a hint of recognition; 2 - cunning and manipulative with a plan of her own; 3 - not their mother at all, or 4 - a woman being controlled by her brother and now has two children she needs to protect? They could take this is in either direction, I wonder which one they will choose.
Tankhun: 👑👑👑👑👑👑
I don’t trust Korn at all. The man clearly loves his children but he’s been poisoned by greed and power. He now controls all the pieces on the chessboard and looks invincible rn but for how long? Personally, really want Porsche’s mom to bring her brother down with the help of her eldest son and his husband - we need some badass Mafia Queens!
Vegas finally getting Kinn where he wants him, and knowing killing Porsche while he watches would break him the most. Like I said, Vegas clearly likes Porsche but he’s willing to do what he needs to, to win in his father’s eyes. All is fair in love and war.
Kinn/Porsche/Co. caring that Vegas is recovering. There doesn't seem to be bad blood between them a month later. They’ve all used one another in some form and they know they’re all fu*ked up in one way or another. But in the world of Mafia, they’re all each other has. I kinda like big fu*ked up families who want to kill each other one minute but deep down loves each other in that morally grey kind of way. 
Erika and Chan: Loyal to the end.
Those action sequences and KP GunTango? *Double chef’s kiss*
We all agree that Kinn and Porsche are married right?
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In Conclusion:
What the hell do I do with my life now? But seriously, thank you to the actors, and to the crew and to BOC. They promised an adult, LGBTQ+ Mafia love story filled with morally grey characters, action, passion, lies and deceit, found family, comedy and above all a story of falling in love and what it means to be human. And boy did they deliver!
9 / 10 for me. 
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Hello it's me with Thing Two again (there will probably be Thing Three later on, I'm still processing the finale, sorrrryyyyy).
Thing Two: do you think they will break up (like with the intention of it being permanent) at some point and what would happen if they did?
So with the question still being up in the air about them being codependent or not, how would this play out? Like I said in Thing One, I think Vegas' "I'll be alright with it if you leave" (or however he put it, I'm hungry and too lazy to look it up) had two meanings where the second was if you leave now I'll survive (but if you stay and leave later I won't). Vegas, the murderous man he is, has not had it easy (*slaps Vegas* this bad boy can fit so much trauma in it). He's finally found someone who can understand him and love him back and he's like 6-year-old me and extravagent polly pocket ball gowns: he wants it so so bad. But he's also so scared of being hurt because to love is to be hurt (at some point down the line, either by the ending of a relationship or separation [like by death]) and he can't take one more person or thing he loves leaving him (hedgehog flashback). He's basically giving himself and Pete an out: if Pete leaves, he will survive and (eventually) move forward, if Pete stays he will let himself love Pete and be loved by Pete so completely and he will be extremely vulnerable that if Pete does one day leave it might just end him. So... is this codependency or trauma or a bit of both?
For me, it comes across as codependency stemming from trauma because it reminds me a lot of codependent relationships I had (had? have? idk at this point, not romantic but still codependent). When you finally find someone to give your whole heart to, you are vulnerable, but when they don't hurt you, you experience the "good(?)" side of codependency (if there is one, I feel like the "good" side only makes the bad side much much worse). That other person (or people) makes you happy and sometimes you live only for them and if (apart from the codependency part) you have a good relationship, you only ever experience problems when you get to the "bad" side of codependency. Like separation, for example. Sometimes you can even feel like you don't know who you are when you are without the other person (or people) for longer than short periods of time. You don't just want them with you, you need them with you. The scene in ep 13 of VP reminded me of myself. In the bar, Pete is trying to act like he's all fine but he's an empty shell at this point and he only starts to feel some semblance of being a person when he sees Vegas.
Sorry for another essay 😬 but I'm curious to see what you agree with and don't agree with.
Also, I'm not a psych major at all so feel free to call bs at any time, this is all just based off of my personal experiences and conversations with others about similar experiences.
Sorry again for the long af ask!
~MA
Trigger warning for discussions of trauma, abuse, and self-harm.
Part 1
Alright this is a tough one. Pete at the bar was having a rough time - to me it could go either way. Was he devastatingly sad? Yes. Would he have gotten over Vegas with time? We'll never know.
Before I get into anything else - I just want to say that personal experiences are extremely valid and valuable when we enter these kinds of discussions. I put them on par with the so called, academically-informed "expert" opinions, especially considering how flawed modern science is when it comes to humans and mental health. In my practice the phrase "the client knows themself best" is one that I hold very dear, and that applies to this, too - although none of us are Vegas/Pete, the way we read these characters is personal and IMO there's no strict right or wrong.
I again want to look more at their issues as individuals than strictly through the lens of their relationship. Pete is a character I struggle to understand fully, but I could see his response being a typical breakup response. I just don't know. Time is a big indicator when it comes to mental health for this reason. And I don't have a baseline for him - I'm not convinced that he was okay before Vegas entered his life, and I doubt whatever struggles he was facing before have been magically resolved with a little bit of torture and love confessions.
As far as I can tell, Pete isn't going to Vegas because he feels like he needs him - but that's just my intuition, and maybe it's me being overly hopeful again. The fact that Pete doesn't seem to want Vegas to "need" him is reassuring to me to a degree - but again, Pete is just hard for me to read.
"he's also so scared of being hurt because to love is to be hurt... and he can't take one more person or thing he loves leaving him (hedgehog flashback)"
I love the way you worded this. It's so accurate. It also strikes me as a very valid and plausible fear for someone who grew up and lives among the mafia. What will differentiate things for them moving forward is how much Vegas imposes this fear on Pete. He could end up locking him up again to keep him safe, or he and Pete could find healthy ways to cope with their traumas and related triggers together - like talking things through - or he could land somewhere in the middle.
One of the things that I hope most for Vegas in season 2 (should we get one) is friendships. I want him to develop the friendship with Porsche and to talk with his cousins. I hope Pete maintains his friendships with his ex-coworkers, too. They need to have support systems outside of each other, that's going to be part of maintenance for them.
They've also both been shown to have self-destructive tendencies. This certainly has the potential to make the relationship unhealthy - but it depends very much on how it is managed. Please just let them both get some therapy 🙏
Do I think they'll break up? As a viewer, I hope not - breakups just aren't my cup of tea - but I could see it happening and I could see it being a good call for them and their development. Off the top of my head, what I'd love from them is a steady relationship with ups and downs. Like maybe when they have rough days they'll take some time away from each other, but they'll be comfortable knowing that they're still a family no matter what. I imagine it still being hard on both of them, but to me that would go a long way to demonstrate that they're still maintaining their individuality and prioritizing their own mental wellbeing.
It's a fine line. If someone asked me if I could live without my family, it would be a hard call, and I don't think that makes the relationship an unhealthy one. Humans need people. We need love, on a physical level. It's always a certain degree of balancing who we are with/for our loved ones and who we are as individuals. But that's why we need relationships of all kinds - friendships, families, significant others. Pete and Vegas are currently extremely isolated, and that's what I think I need to see change next for them. That's the current issue I think they're facing. I think - I hope - their past the manipulation, but until they're less alone they will need each other, and that's too heavy a burden to maintain. They cannot just have each other.
Again, hope this answers your questions! Do let me know if I missed anything because I am honestly still stunned from the last episode and feel a bit out of it. Thank you again for sending these asks, they are an absolute joy to answer and really got my brain going!
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lemme-just-oops · 1 year
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hey hey hey! i hope you're having a nice day! can i request the boys w/mc who has a really bad past back in mid-eartheim (e.g. they were a gangster, or a criminal etc.)
idrk why i requested this omg this is my first time requesting something omg
thank you so much!
Aloheratz: He can tell that you were not raised in a safe environment by the way you act out. And that your misfortune follows you to this realm bothers him, but at the same time, he cannot change it. When you have trouble adjusting and think everyone is going to sell you out at one point, he will not try to convince you otherwise verbally, because that could push you over the edge. So, he just watches as you develope into a hopefully better mindset, as you realize that you can trust him and the other guides.
Arcturus: He has helped a lot of people. Being a guide means that people come to him for all sorts of problems. He has seen people flinch at loud noises, or cry when someone raises their hand. What you went through must have been tragic, but he assures you that you are safe on school grounds and if you ever need to talk, give him a call. He always has an ear for you.
Pollux: He tries not to show it, but he is upset over the fact that you could not have a "normal" childhood. When he looks at you, he will see the face of a kid, fragile and weak, but forced to lead such a life, where you could be hurt any time. It scares him, he does not want to imagine it. Though he is glad that you managed to survive, but he wants you to promise to find another lifestyle. A safer one, so he does not need to worry about you.
Sirius: He would like to know how humans organize crime. In this world, you have the power of magic to support you, but humans do not have that option. So he is curious about how often you got caught and what evidence was held against you. If you ask nicely, he will teach you spells to help you continue this lifestyle when you return. But he also mentions that he prefers if you find legal ways to mess systems up. He is banned from quite a few casinos for his superior cheating skills. His advice is to mess with a system, not an individual.
Spica: When he first hears about your background from your lips, he will ask you to excuse him. And from then on, you will rarely meet him for a long time. What is he doing, you wonder? He gathered every information he could about Mid-Eartheim and its laws and gathered countless lawyers. Currently he is seven attempts into making a portal to Mid-Eartheim and sue every possible nation for neglecting children and their safety. You were not supposed to do crime, even after you became an adult. And if you had to do it to survive, the system failed you and he is ready to avenge you. He will leave Mid-Eartheim and never talk about this again.
Vega: This man's first reaction when meeting someone is to draw his weapon. He did not have it easy either. In fact, he probably went through a lot of things as well, so you may relate to each other. But might also push one another away, in fear that you pull yourselves into a worse criminal spiral. He assures you, you will be fine and that you can always come to him for help. Even if you had a nightmare about your past catching up to you, he will make you a tea in the middle of the night to show that he cares.
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