Do yall think that John was hurt and jealous when he found out that Dutch and Hosea went fishing with Arthur at the start of chapter 3 but didn't bring him? Idk, the mission just felt...wrong without him, y'know? Maybe I'm projecting, but I'd feel so left out and alone if I was John lmao. Everyone always thinks and says that John is Dutch's favorite, that he's the 'golden boy', but he is left out of things and pushed aside an awful lot for being so golden. Even with the random stories we get about the 'old days' from the gang sometimes, it hardly ever feels like John has any of them. John has always given me lonely vibes, and i know a lot of people argue that its just his lone wolf personality, but I can't help but wonder if it's by choice or not. If that's how John wanted it to be, or if it was just what he had always known. I just wish we could have gotten more moments of Dutch, Hosea, Arthur, and John all together. It all started, and ended, with them after all.
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denethor is said to have been greatly affected by finduilas’ death, right. and i know their marriage was a political one but i like to believe that they still loved each other. not in the ‘traditional sense’ i guess but they loved each other’s spirits, their souls. the duty (as they viewed it) to protect their people & the willpower to do it, they both shared. and so i think that more precious than love, they understood each other perfectly. as no one else could, or did. i can’t stop thinking about denethor’s grief at losing her. to love someone, and to have them understand you, but to lose them so abruptly… no wonder denethor became embittered by her death. i think he became sad too. closed-off. built even more walls around him, not wanting to be seen as vulnerable by anyone. but his anger, at what (or whom), exactly? he already broke up with god when he was young. at the universe? at his fate? to have lost her so unfairly.
i came here to talk about their love & somewhere in the middle lost myself in his grief lol. never mind, bc what is grief if not love persevering????? they loved each other. i can’t. i CAN’T get over this simple truth. the love was there. it wouldn’t have been this tragic if there’s wasn’t. the love was there. and isn’t that enough (it isn’t. but it is. IT IS). the love was there. THE LOVE WAS. THERE. sobbing. truly sobbing DON’T TOUCH ME
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this shot of sawashiro is simply breathtaking to me!!!
like. seeing him crash and burn after hearing that his son has never trusted him, realizing that the chance he took by sending a tip geomijul didn't pay off, that the "miracle" he asked for is too late (just like he is). It truly is something to watch!!
to me, this really is the scene to show how incredibly miserable this asshole is and the cherry on top is how the way he sits is the exact same pose the corpse next to him has got.
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How would Dally react if he got a hug? Or just people showing him affection in general (like the gang, more specifically Darry bc I hc him as Dally’s emotional support human)
If we're talking in a fully canon compliant sense, I think Dally would straight up refuse any physical affection that anyone in the gang might try to give that isn't in the form of like play fighting or throwing arms around each other type deal. Like he's the world's most emotionally unavailable teenage boy. The only situations I could see him (at least canonically) accepting a hug or most outward forms of affection would be if it was in a romantic context with some girl that somehow enjoyed his advances. He shows affection to his friends through insults, jabs, walking the streets together, sneaking into movies, smoking around places together, things that don't require him to get really deep and emotionally open but allow him to hang out with them and have conversations. He cares about his friends, but his platonic love language is vague, confusing, and clearly coming from his inability to open up at all...much less to other boys.
I thought about perhaps he might accept a hug from Johnny...Dally knows Johnny's home life sucks so he might accept like a three second hug to help his friend feel better, but he would absolutely not want it to last long and definitely wouldn't choose to admit that it made him feel a little good to wrap someone up in his arms. He strikes me as someone who is super touch starved and in need of a good long hug, but he very much hates the idea of admitting how he feels or what he needs. He wants to be hugged and held deep down but like hell he's gonna admit it, ESPECIALLY to his greaser friends.
I think Darry would try to get him to open up, try to get him to at least cope healthily, but he likely wouldn't get far. I imagine he'd try every time they got a moment alone, but that wouldn't be often, and Dally would always walk away from it without having made much progress at all. The most Darry can do is try to keep him from getting hurt or in too much trouble with the law. It's not much but if it weren't for Darry and the gang, Dally would've died a lot sooner than he did, and if they'd gotten there before the cops did he might have had a chance to make it.
Even if he's a major asshole half the time who doesn't like to open up and generally doesn't seem like a good dude in most situations, his friends enjoy his company and care about him, they want him around despite everything about him. Ponyboy looks up to him. They mourned his death because he meant a great deal to them, he sucked but he cared just as much as they did, he just did it in his own way that painted him in a bad light to everyone but the gang.
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hmmm I want to challenge myself to write wwdits fic that defies canon more
I think at some point I am going to write fic where instead of Guillermo getting some weird crisis of conscience at the end of s5, he and Nandor fuck nasty covered in the blood of their victims, but like
other than that
if I were to write a canon divergent AU that diverges at any point in the series, where would you want it to be?
challenge me. (ง •̀_•́)ง
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The rescent riots in the UK are despicable (but sadly not surprising).
Yes, what happened to those little girls is a tradgey, but the person who was responsible wasn't an asylum seeker, and even if he was, that would NOT excuse the racism displayed these past few weeks.
The people taking part clearly don't care about the safety of children as they're, scaring other people's & indoctrinationating their own into perpetuating racist acts.
Seven years is a lot, though! Then don't fucking join a hate group.
But the non white people are being violent too! Yeah, well, that tends to happen when you attack people. I'm not going to hate on people for standing up for themselves.
They're taking our jobs! Why do you believe that those jobs are YOURS? Are you actually qualified & able to make a good impression on bosses, or do you think just being white should be enough.
They don't work! Well Asylum seekers litrually aren't allowed to until their case gose through but plenty of other POC have jobs (I know you've seen them though it must be hard to make them out through that fog of hatred) & I've met plenty of white people who don't want to (no hate to those who can't because of disability or mental health issues) or loose jobs because they're just overall terrible employees (some of the shit I've seen middle aged white people do at their jobs is crazy).
They're all criminals! Well, that's just not true now is it plus it's been proven multiple times that the biggest factor in crime is poverty, NOT race & again I've encountered plenty of white people who've broken the law yet most didn't seem to get more than a slap on the wrist (if that). Strange, that isn't it?
Well, "those kinds" of men hate women! Ahh, yes, because there's never been white rapists, woman killers, stalkers or harrasers. Its been proven that hating women is a problem in all races & and sadly, the biggest threat to us is usually our own partners or family, not some random aylsum seeker (who if they do hurt women tend to go after the ones from their own community).
They're not from here! Ok, so I don't know if anyone told you, but you can actually be born here without being white and you can't ban people from a country just because of the colour of their skin. Also, neither was half my family, yet we never get told to go back to our own country. Hmm, I wonder if our white skin could possibly have anything to do with that.
They can't speak English! A lot of them are multilingual, actually (& you make fun of their accents) & for the ones who can't well you seem to hate them getting anything (such as English lessons) for free. Also, how many Brits go abroad despite refusing to learn absolutely anything about other countries (there's a reason we're known as disrespectful, violent, sex obsessed, drunks by most of the world).
Also sooner or later we are going to have to accept that a lot of the issues that make immigrants flee their home countries are caused (or at least made worse) by ours & other Western governments.
This country definitely has problems, but we should be taking them up with politicians & their rich mates. Who are the ones actually hording wealth made from the exploitation of the poor, not random people of colour who are just trying to live their lives.
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Looking forward to the day where I won't have to be alone at home.
We can have a beautiful old house with a garden, a dog and maybe a cat. I can sing lullabies on the glider on the porch while we watch the older kids run amuck in the yard.
When it gets late, we can all retire into the living room and watch some show and play family games. Before it gets too late, we can say a family rosary before tucking the kids in bed and sharing bedtime stories. The rest of the evening can be ours and enjoy the quiet and peace of the night.
I just can't wait until our dreams are reality.
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I’ve forgotten how to interact with fandom spaces or any kind of online community for that matter like I’ve just been doing my own thing for years now. Talking how I want to talk enjoying what I want having my own thoughts and judgements and curating my own online space. Happiest I’ve ever been. Who the fuck cares what anybody on here thinks of you. It doesn’t matter it never mattered I hate writing about pages and DNIs and BYFs and going along with what the rest of Tumblr believed or deemed right or not. Nothing makes me feel crazier than pretending to be someone I’m not and I’ve long accepted that I’m not what I’m expected to be on here. I’ve accepted my beliefs have completely changed over the last year, that they are capable of changing and they’re not exactly what people want to hear. Maybe they’ll change their mind like I did or stay the same, that’s not my life to live. Genuinely just do whatever the fuck you want man. Fuck that character. Watch those shows. Do whatever brings you peace because life is too short and too precious to sweat about it. Surround yourself with honest people and be open-minded most importantly. Change is good and I always am.
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