#a peek inside my brain

[camthecatchameleon]

some highlights from my once upon a witchlight liveblogging doc in chronological order. please do not ask me which episode i'm referencing i do not remember. (LONG POST)

cut for your mercy

[puppyeared]

people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime

[haveihitanerve]

I’ll honest with y’all, I may be just one person- but on the inside I am three separate entities. 

Me

Myself

And I

and by that I mean these three voices are constantly arguing in my head and I can never accurately come up with a consensus but my internal monologue is always hella funny

[brotherconstant]

But I wouldn't know to question. I wouldn't feel anything is missing. (insp)

[juniperhillpatient]

no one ever talks about how the signature adhd thought process that gets you from one place to another illogically from the outside but the sequence makes total sense To You can be so Toxic actually omg like. it can go from silly to dark & back in moments & sometimes it’s like. Bestie. Chilllle 🙌

[sysig]

Royal Scientist and his Majesty (Patreon)

[directionerplusgleek]

They had been running. The morning had been totally normal.

Perfectly normal, just like every other morning for the past five months. Adjusting to life on Safe Haven had been a challenge, but now they had a routine and everything was fine.

Until now.

OR

Minho discovers Gally, Thomas, and Newt suddenly aren't Gally, Thomas, and Newt. And who the hell are Adam, Stiles, and Jack?

[willowser]

i was up very early and had a lot of coffee and did not take my adhd meds that's why i've said so much today LOL

[fencecollapsed]

being in the 3D Design workshop is really fun for me because I'll have to use the table saw, and the whole time I'll be thinking about the table saw kill in Freaky. then I'll finish and bring my stuff back to my table and the girl across from me will be using the nail gun, and I'll start thinking about the nail gun death in Final Destination 3. and then I have to use the band saw and I think about Hannah cutting her finger off in Yellow Jacket. it never ends

[transmascwillbyers]

Let me make one things clear- Will Byers is my comfort character. Mike Wheeler is the exact opposite of a comfort character to me. Mike Wheeler is my sobbing-into-my-pillow-at-2-AM-because-I'm-tired-but-I-can't-fall-asleep-because-mental-health-reasons-dear-god-make-it-stop character. Will Byers is the light of my life, Mike Wheeler is the queercoded grim reaper. Does that make sense? Probably not, but at this point, nothing does.

[lovely-english-rose]

happy birthday to the man of all time 😘💗

[getosugurusbangs]

22 & 25 for ness :3

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

i’m not really a fic reader so…. no real answer for this i don’t think.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

i always get asked this whenever i do this ask game and i never have that good of an answer.. i learned about a couple characters like ness, kaiser, chigiri, shidou, etc. through osmosis from najma, and so already kind of knowing his character going into reading bllk helped nullify the first impression experience. but also there’s my memory failing me lol. but i think from what i can recall, my earlier thoughts of him were something like “oh he’s cute. the whole completely sucking up to kaiser thing is a bit obnoxious but i bet it’ll go away eventually”. my current thoughts about him are not the most coherent (that’s just the way my thoughts are though), but it’s something along the lines of: “ouuhghhfhghthhghht……. ness…….. nesssssss….. ness get out of there ness. you can do it alexis. please.” i need to hold him gently and make him some nice soup. i need him to (literally and figuratively) move away from his family and kaiser to reform his life. i just need to see him happy, or at least more content with his life. i just think he’s nice :)

[zonnedu15]

I love my own blog because it rapidly switches between profound and intelligent posts I’ve reblogged to fandom brainrot and back.

[fisheito]

Have you ever done a brain scan?

If yOu dId can i take a look (⁠ʘ⁠ᴗ⁠ʘ )

sadly i must disappoint u and say that the only time i've been to a brain scan has been on the technologist side.. nothin worth running a machine over in THIS cranium(for now)...... ☜(⌒▽⌒)☞

[hollywoodsargeant]

i have finally read chapter 10 (another amazing chapter btw!) and i have some a lot of thoughts about things (sorry if this is really long, i just have a lot of thoughts after the entire break up with both of them)

i still love the fact that the both of them are so, nonchalant i guess?, by the fact that they’ve fucked before when talking to their partners, oscar being my favourite in this (i’ve said this before but he has brushed off logan seeing his dick and him come as ‘a requirement’ and left it at that)

logan breaking up with mia isn’t unexpected tbh, i feel like he would know that he wasn’t exactly a fan of mia making a ‘giant’ deal over the jersey thing (i still don’t understand the deal about that as an aussie) and then bringing up the entire fucking oscar thing and her reaction to it (which i get it, i would be surprised if my boyfriend had sex with his supposed best friend). anyways i’m excited to see what happens next with logan (he gets his first boyfriend perhaps??? maybe he figures out aviation??? let’s see)

oscar also breaking up with ben wasn’t exactly something i was thinking of until i got to the entire talking about sex part, i felt like he was like ‘wtf man though we’re on the same field yet you’ve made out, and now you’re only telling me you had sex with your best friend??’ so i can feel for him and what he was feeling there. also i feel like oscar was going to say something to ben abt the entire logan calling him baby thing, especially when he called oscar baby in front of ben, which imo pushed ben over the edge there (perhaps that’s why ben wasn’t wanting to wait or whatever for the break up and just said it straight up)

i’m interested to see how both oscar and logan will react/what they’ll do about the entire college thing, from previous chapters we already know logan doesn’t want oscar to leave him, but could it end up being the other way? if he goes with aviation and goes out of state and oscar is the one that stays in?

anyways i’ve extended my thoughts a bit too much and def repeated a bunch but i’m just excited for the story and what will happen next, thank you so much for this chapter and great work as always!

THANK YOU!!! <3 and do not apologize for the long message i appreciate it somuch i love hearing your thoughts and responding to them it makes me veryhappy :)

see they are both well. not convinced that it's normal to have sex with your friend, they're aware that their friendship is pretty not-normal even if they are convinced it's just friendship, but they are both very content in the fact that they did that and as with most things - it just fell into place with them. i know i've referenced a timeline in the fic before as if everything they've ever done is stretched out on this massive straight line, and neither of them are all that fazed by any of it, because it's just them. so oscar is pretty much like Yeah. logan seeing me come is a requirement in logan having sex with me. casual as ever. and ben is like ??? babe wtf. not sure if this makes sense i am just spitting here

rest in pieces logan and mia </3 he did seriously think mia was being dramatic about the jersey thing and he always thought that he's just not stupid enough to tell his girlfriend she's being dramatic... i'll be real i don't totally understand the drama in it either and it's something i witnessed firsthand but. i thought it would be fun petty drama for the fic. and i am very excited for what does happen next with logan there's a thing i know i've referenced before in short snippets but either no one saw them or everyone forgot but i stopped directly referencing it on here so if anyone can find that. gold star

(sorry for vagueing)

obv i knew i wanted to break up oscar and ben soon but i wasn't really planning on doing it this chapter until i was like. Oh well i could make logan talk about his breakup and then oscar thinks about his own relationship et cetera. which is then what happened. rest in peace to those three drowned fruit flies when i start talking about bugs that's how you know it's time to pack it up... and rest in peace ben. he kind of exploded a bit. clearly there was a time when he was very casual about it but -- and i'm p sure i had oscar Wonder about this -- in my head ben did assume all the kissing logan stuff was more in the past than it actually was, like a figuring-themselves-out in middle school type thing. so he was cool kinda teasing about it and calling logan cute or whatever but when it became apparent it was something that was happening recently he didn't really like it. cue jealousy

college will be fun! they have to send out their applications soon! i feel like a lot of ch10 involved vague college talk but that is truly the experience of being a junior/senior in high school. it was like all i would talk about with my friends at the end there

sorry this answer is 10 billion years long actually in case you couldn't tell i thoroughly enjoy discussing this fic. my beloved fic <3

[hekateinhell]

"Like "Awww, that's how he sees me?" while Daniel's somewhere dying of liver failure" LMFAO. "Daniel, listen... yeah we'll stop by the drugstore later LISTEN, this is how he's seen me ALL ALONG 🥰🥰🥰" followed by the implications of it SINKING IN which ofc results in a whole existencial crisis. That's why Daniel didn't see him in 6 months lbr. "but I feel like so much of how he expresses himself is through clothing" exactly, he tries on different pieces of clothing like he's trying different personalities/versions of himself. "so not blue, Marius's color for him, but his own color" pls I'm crying. He really said "not blue, not red, but a secret sluttier thing". Also SMUTTY POLL IDEAS I've been waiting for this my whole life! 1. Armand's preferred nicknames in bed (your field of expertise I meaaaan... I feel like "kitten" should be there tho), 2. favorite kink, 3. favorite way to degrade Lestat, we have so much work to do here 🧠 xoxo DA

NOT THE DRUGSTORE 💀💀💀

Tbh the TVL book release in-universe happened just a few weeks before the concert, it was very fast!

I absolutely believe Armand was visiting Lestat regularly during his entire time with Daniel, there's just no way he wouldn't -- the obsession runs too deep. 😔 There's a darker, more desperate element there for sure, but still something very innocent and almost childlike as well.

I love this exchange between Lestat and Armand in MtD, like Lestat's subconsciously aware of how Armand sees himself in relation to him, and then Armand confirms it.

"You're looking for trouble again," he [Armand] went on, in the same slow manner, without anger or meanness. "The whole wide world isn't enough for you and never will be. This time I thought I'd try to speak to you before the wheel turns."

"Aren't you the most thoughtful of guardian angels?" I said sarcastically.

"Yes, I am," he said without so much as blinking.

I think Armand spent those six months in knots over Daniel, struggling to come to terms over the inevitable decision, and at some point he goes to Lestat's resting place again to check in on him and perhaps soothe himself. Only there's no trace of him and Armand has no idea where he is.

But I don't think he was in a full-blown panic over finding Daniel until TVL came out, and it likely occurred to Armand that Daniel might try to find Lestat all over again in an attempt to persuade him to turn him. 🥲

OKAY POLLS YES I LOVE ALL OF THOSE SO MUCH 💖 LMAO WAYS TO DEGRADE LESTAT god there's so many ways 🥹🥵