#a terrible cycle really

[crybaby-bkg]

Bakugou asks you to join him during one of his photoshoots for a pro hero campaign. he doesn’t understand the point of it, nor why he has to only be in his underwear, but he doesn’t mind it much when he gets to look over to your shy little face.

you’re propped up in a corner on an old couch, laptop perched in your lap, its glare bright despite the way you never really look at it. you’re supposed to be catching up on some work, but you’ve been distracted by the glorious sight that is the love of your life.

when he looks at you, do you duck down, eyes suddenly focused on your screen again. it only makes him smile a little, step away from the assistant of the photographer who comes up to him, calls out your name.

“Huh?” your head whips up with a quickness neither of you expect, goes to show just how invested you really were with your work. but Bakugou only grins at you now, jerking his chin over to you as he grabs the bottle of oil the assistant was trying to pour over him.

“C’mere and gimme a hand, won’t ya?” he asks you, boyish smile gracing his face as he tilts his head at you. immediately, your face warms as you put together the request that’s suddenly dropped in your lap. everyone in the studio looks at you, with both envious and excited gazes, and it only makes you shrink in on yourself.

“I hate you.” you mutter under your breath when you finally rise up from your place on the couch, which he somehow hears. but Bakugou only laughs at you, grabs you by the waist when you’re close enough to kiss you breathless in front of everybody, before he’s handing off the oil to you.

“Such an attention whore,” you whisper when you’re close, the air between the two of you thick. everyone tries to look away, give you guys a bit of privacy, but it’s hard when such a soft and amused look passes over the usually rough and hardened hero’s face.

“Only for your attention.” he grunts back to you, holding his arms out for you to start dripping the oil down his skin. it’s a sensual gesture, the softness between you two sliding into something more, something that you only ever reserve for the bedroom.

you tip the bottle over his shoulders until it drips down his chest, massaging it all in with your hands in crude, circular motions. you can see the way he bites his lip, ignore the way he looks at you down the bridge of his nose lest you two create a scene not meant for the public eye. you gather more oil, warm it between your palms, kneeling in front of him to help massage it into the defined muscles of his stomach.

you ignore the twitch in front of you, swallowing thickly, glancing up to Bakugou who hasn’t taken his eyes off of you yet. you mouth at him to behave, but he only grins, something feral.

“We only need it above the waistband.” the photographer suddenly calls out, snapping you back to attention. you stand on shaky knees, nodding with your eyes casted low, ashamed, that your freak of a man had you doing something so…so—

“Go wait in my dressing room, yeah?” Bakugou asks you, pulling you in close to peck at the corner of your mouth. “Gonna wrap this shit up.” he promises you, and you can only nod silently, mind going a mile a minute. but before you go, you remember to grab the oil. just in case.

[currentlyonstandbi]

[front-facing-pokemon]

[commsroom]

the scene at the end of who's there?: eiffel is cut off mid-sentence (addressing minkowski), minkowski calls his name twice, and hera says, "commander... he's not showing up on any of my scans. he's gone." vs. brave new world: eiffel is cut off mid-sentence (addressing hera), minkowski calls his name twice, and hera says, "he's... commander, he's gone." in idle hands, eiffel regaining his autonomy ("hera, it's me. i'm me again.") is described: "there's a SOFT WOOSH, and eiffel's eyes go from spaced out to sharp focus." in brave new world, eiffel losing his memory is described: "there's a SOFT WOOSH, and his eyes go glassy." in mayday, hera's voice is the last one eiffel hears, the last voice in his head trying to keep him from giving up when he's sure he's about to die. in brave new world, eiffel loses his memory mid-thought while addressing hera, and so she was his last memory, the last thing on his mind. whatever. whatever.

[chaosgenasi]

thinking about this

[shwoo]

Shelda's cards in the Bugsnax card game, as requested by @bugsnaaax!

I wondered about how Shelda would work before the digital rewards came out, and it turns out she just has the ability to not think about Bugsnax. Sometimes. And forgo the new ability she'd normally get out of eating them. (Eating a Bugsnak allows you to draw a new Grumpus card)

Also enjoying the Mother having more wisdom for Shelda if she has a Bugsnak in her hand already.

[dxxtruction]

Louis being compared to as a saint. Saints, who find their salvation and then give intercession from beyond that veil to move others towards it. A guide for life, where they no longer fall into their sins and trajectories towards a certain hell. "Listen to me as if I am the voice of god, or an angel." Louis being that saintly catalyst for the vampires to confront themselves in that such a way. A saintly Louis is very dear to me.

[i3utterflyeffect]

The other workers would probably be very nervous around Nightshade because they're afraid of victim

oh absolutely! which is very disheartening for Nightshade since he's much more social compared to Victim, who doesn't exactly mind being feared

[morningmask27]

i am not sorry for the Carmine reblogs, she has fully taken over my brain at this point.

A mixture of her being so unhinged and neurodivergent that it feels like she was made for me to like her and her very unfortunate dynamic with her little brother make her a character that I was just made to get attached to.

I want to study her under a microscope and get her help with the Kieran stuff, I want to make things worse between the two siblings, I want them to blow up at each other in a way that will make them unable to reconcile, because she failed to do everything right for her brother, because he took everything so personally and lashed out, because the two just can't fit together nicely, they're just not made for that. no matter how hard she tries to be a perfect sister, no matter how much she cares about him, I want things to go so wrong between the two. I want the pain to be so gut-wrenching it tears them appart.

but I also want them to reconcile; in another world things could be saved. carmine could recognize the way she acts hurts her little brother that she loves so dearly, she could try to reach out to him and be better, and he could accept it and they'd be able to rebuild things together.

it's a tale of two siblings that struggle to coexist. Carmine's technically the one in the wrong because she hurts Kieran, but she doesn't intend to. she struggles to realise how he feels an just tries to do it her way because she's the older sibling and knows best. she loves him and wants only the best for him, that's why she made the player lie to him, but it backfired alomst immediately.

she failed and that's the real problem. now let's hope that the Indigo Disk lets them reconcile (in a satisfying way)

[arsenicflame]

the cycle

-i feel stable enough to start to reach out and reply to my friends

-social interaction makes me feel good

-i feel like i can do things, i start having ideas and want to create

-i start to upswing hard

-everything starts to feel like its got to be the best thing the world

-theres a tipping point

-everything starts to feel like its the worst thing in the world

-i run out of energy to message people

-i start to feel bad about not replying or being able to keep up with the things i started planning

-i realise i have to remove myself from all situations that are feeding into the downswing

-i consciously do not interact with friends, still feeling bad about it, but knowing its like knocking a pendulum

-i stop existing as a person on 99% of levels

-i start to balance out, feeling hollowed out and barely human, but not hitting any low lows & generally sitting stable

-i think i feel calm enough to start replying to friends

[gho2ty]

I LIVED (didnt even lose power fully besides a couple flickers. did however have to shelter in the basement for a while because there WAS a tornado forming.)

[getting-messi]

Pretty much sums it up for me.

[sporkberries]

whats yr opinion of vkaz im inch rested now :3

i hope i can explain this well i just... i think alot of people want vkaz to be a healing thing for the both of them? or at the very least a good relationship that ends tragically but i dont think its that at all(i also dont think kaz could ever **really** love venom hot take i guess)

i see it as something that probably happened, but theres an underlying horror to it isnt there? if it happens before kaz knows v isnt bb thats pretty horrific and there's even the underlying question of if these are even v's feelings in the first place- or at the very least if v hadnt been brainwashed would he still feel the same? maybe they would find some comfort in eachother- as they've both been hurt so badly but i feel kaz would grow to resent venom. partially because of the fact venom goes along with bb's plans and outerheaven but also just because he looks like big boss. vkaz is in the end not its own relationship because venom has been robbed of his own personhood(and kaz has been tricked), there is always a third party in their relationship even when hes not REALLY there. i think this is why people like vkaz as being a more fluffy and happy relationship, you just feel badly for both of them, and hurt/comfort has an audience for a reason. i just dont think it could ever be a good/healthy relationship

[silenthillmutual]

how is "do you regret your fandom tattoos" any less judgemental a question than when your overbearing parent asks if you regret your tattoos bc they think they're trashy? like i get that on tumblr it's in vogue to make a big deal about how your old interests are cringe as hell and were actually always bad unlike your new interest which is perfect and must be held on a pedestal for as long as possible but are you not all tired of the constant irony poisoning and self-criticism for being young and in love?

[townofcadence]

Artie baby you are not like that. I have personal experience with someone who treated me like I was broken and told me all the time how they were going to fix me, they would tell me things that were wrong with me and how they would make me better. You are not deciding for anyone or forcing them to do things your way, and don't punish them if they don't. I see you offering but I never seen you force. I am away from that and you remind me of my bestie now. There is a huge difference between what you do and that, trust me 💖

"...I can understand. I'm sorry you were in that position, but I'm glad you're not, anymore. But... thank you."

[sharknosed]

i might be fucking illiterate or this might just be legitimately incomprehensible. but fuckdamn if i don’t see him everywhere