high key every time kagami and adrien have their “I just want to be a good friend but I don’t know how to and I’m scared that I make everyone upset and uncomfortable” moments I feel an ache I should not be feeling
the reason I haven't posted more art in good detail or quality recently is cause I'm not sure if I want to watermark or Nightshade/Glaze it... I use transparent background png a lot and colour flats regularly so I think my art may be in a lot of danger of being damaged by the process.
Might just be time to get a big obnoxious watermark lmao
(and maybe get that patreon up and running eventually? so people can see the unwatermarked versions)
A single dark shape stood on the eastern wall of Eden, his black wings spread wide into the breeze as it cooled, as night fell, the sun dipping slowly beneath the horizon.
It felt… nice. To spread his wings every once in a while, stretch them to their full length despite the constant ache that suffused them. If he didn’t, that ache sometimes sank deeper into his bones, into his body, and could leave him debilitated. And it already seemed worse on Earth than it had been in Hell, considering the limits of his physical body, though Hell had fewer opportunities for the… stretching out. Less space, less privacy.
He preferred Earth for that reason. The air was crisp and real, the wind was cool and pleasant, and the warmth of the sun beat the dingy lights in Hell any day.
Crawly let his eyes fall closed, the faintest hint of a smile on his lips as the wind filtered over his feathers.
Gotta say huge fan of characters being German in media and people who aren't native German speakers are writing them in fanfiction. German has so much shit you have to adjust depending on the gender of the noun so it's always v funny (affectionate) to read dialogue.
also, before i fall asleep i thought of astarion trying to cheer mal up by making a massive list of all the ways they could kill her mother's murderers. he just.. starts naming them, brainstorming, coming up with more violent and more vicious methods. it kinda works.
also, might be a good time to let him know how she lowkey tapped into the revenge fantasy aspect of it all when he was stabbing cazador 28 times
Merry Christmas and a happy new year to those celebrating. May we always remember that we are generally very fortunate and that elsewhere in the world there is multiple hateful campaigns and wars against oppressed people. May we always remind ourselves as we exchange gifts that those less fortunate just wish for food, water, and a safe place to rest away from bombs or famine or tyrannical governments.
I have a peanut gallery of friends that get excited.
I have at least a couple spoons, sometimes.
I keep having to actively choose not to think about my wips not work on my wips not even look at my wips because I'll want to work on them and I have too much work and homework and my exam is coming up and I'm aaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
i may be perpetually gaslighting myself, and also letting negativity take over, but. uhhhhhh. maybe life is also sometimes genuinely hard and i have actual struggles with that. like yes, improving the physical conditions around me (getting out of bed, eating, leaving my house) would definitely help with the mental health but also I have Reason to hide from reality at this moment.
The Issue is mostly that I'll always have a reason to hide from reality. And it will always be hard. And I'll always have to continue to do things. Certainly having a volunteer job would help a lot of this. Do you know how scary and confronting it is to face the implications of doing volunteer work on the other hand? And yes I've just got to get out of my head and go and do something, but I can't quite turn my head off and just go do the thing. It feels stupid turning in this endless loop of "here's another thing i need to do to improve my conditions" without ever being able to acknowledge or see an improvement in my conditions. not because they don't happen, but because they're hard to see. they're nuanced. I'm having to trade things instead of making net gains.
GUYS GUESS WHAT my face filled out and my forearms are thicker and i can run up 3 flights of stairs without keeling over and i haven't fainted in forever and my skin isn't so sallow and i have more energy and and and
i know in public i look fine, as hot and amazing as ever, but i’m actually resisting the temptation loudly sob and curl into the fetal position because i, carrion (icarian) just started playing. so.