#about: cassidy

[of-beasts-and-blood]

Character Intro

✉ Basics: Name: Ivelisse Cassidy Pronunciation: Eve-eh-lease Cass-id-ee Meaning: Ivelisse ~ “life” Cassidy ~ “curly-haired” Birthday: June 15th, 1957 (Gemini) Age: 25 Gender: Female Pronouns: she/her and they/them Sexuality: Queer Siblings: N/A Mother: N/A Father: N/A Other Family: George Calloway, Wren Carver, Penny Lane, Marco Ladron, Auden Reyes. Anyone who is friendly with the Crew becomes part of Cassidy’s extended family.  Languages: English, bits and pieces of Dominican Spanish (but not enough to speak it) Current Residence: Camden, London Hometown: Central London. Cassidy was born the second she entered Diagon Alley.

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✉ Wizard Fun: School: Cassidy did not attend school past the age of 11. House: N/A Year of Graduation: N/A Occupation: Bookseller and secret-trader. Pet: Part-time babysitter of Baby, the bestest girl ever. Blood Status: Muggleborn Species: Human Patronus: A hawk. Swift, keen-eyed and free.  Boggart: The Crew, tall and warped and leering at her. They tell her she was never one of them, among other suitably nasty things. Death is not something Cassidy fears. But rejection is.  Amortentia Scent: Fire Wand type: Black walnut, unicorn tail hair core, 9 inches. Affiliation: Neutral. Cassidy’s only loyalty is to the Crew.

✉ Appearance: Face Claim: Indya Moore Height: 5’7 Hair Color: Brown or black, depending on what she’s done with her hair most recently. Eye Color: Brown Typical Hair Style: Cassidy styles her hair often. It’s freeing, having hair to play with and change your whole vibe based on its cut. Her favourite look is to have her hair curled and loose, letting the light catch the outline of her afro like a halo.  Fashion Style: Completely eclectic. Cassidy shops exclusively at thrift stores so her wardrobe spans many styles and decades. She likes clothes that make her look tall and draw attention to her legs - like short shorts and long jackets. She likes gaudy pieces with sequins and faux fur and terrible neon colours. She knows how to pull together a sophisticated look, but mostly she just wears clothes for the fun of them.  Distinguishing Features: Perfectly manicured nails. A knowing smile. That extra bounce in her step that bounces her hair and sways her hips. 

✉ Personality: Positive Traits: Trustworthy, artful, kind, friendly, empathetic Negative Traits: Yearning, insecure, mysterious, secretive, forgiving Quick Facts: Can sew. Can embroider. Can knit. Thinks ‘tutti frutti’ is the funniest flavour name. Not a fan of most wizarding candy. Likes bike-riding. Has a box of meaningful mementos under her bed. Likes spiders.  Hobbies: Reading. Poetry. Riding the London buses to different stops aimlessly, just to take in the sights. Trying new creative pursuits, even if she’s bad at them.  Skills: Great at numbers. Great at words. Good at mystery. Bad at magic. Bad at riding her bike. Okay at cooking. Good at standing her ground. Bad at completely opening up. Bad at most betting games she plays with the Crew.  Theme song: “Masterpiece (80s Remix)” by Summer C

✉ Headcanons:

Voice: Warm. Smooth. Her tone is usually playful, teasing. There’s a sense of familiarity to most of her interactions that feels welcome more than overbearing. She tends to speak a little slower so you hang on every word. Imagine what a cat would sound like if it spoke English. That’s Cassidy.

Handwriting: Elegant cursive. Like the kind of writing you’d see on an old love letter in a movie. She likes to embellish her capital letters in a sort-of calligraphy way, with extra lines and dots and adornments. 

Cassidy’s name is fully self-chosen. Ivelisse is the name of one of her Dominican great-aunts. She never met the woman, but heard enough stories about her to know that she was the type of person whose heritage Cassidy would like to honour. Her last name is a nod to George. Back in the bad old days, on the nights when she was restless or uneasy, Georgie would tell her stories of outlaws and ruffians and outcasts who forged their own path. She took her name from one of the baddest: Butch Cassidy. Cassidy’s name is a reflection of her whole: her first name honours her past, while her last name promises her future. 

Cassidy loved mathematics at school and used to spend her small earnings buying secondhand textbooks. She taught herself basic bookkeeping as well, and now does all of her stock calculations and     bookkeeping ledgers for Vellichor herself. 

Charity work is important to Cassidy. She donates a fair portion of her earnings to the local school lunch programs and knits blankets during the colder months for the homeless. She knows how close to homelessness she came multiple times, and kindness saved her every time. 

Cassidy only knows basic magic. She has a little book of household spells she’s taught herself, as well as defensive magic at Georgie’s behest. Were she ever to be involved in a fight, she’d more likely drop the wand and swing a punch. Her nails are long for a reason. 

Nicknames are her love language. Her insistence on referring to Wren as Wrenjamin is deeply amusing to herself. 

She is the absolute worst at impressions. It’s funny, considering how well she can read people. But she cannot emulate their mannerisms or voice to save her life. 

Cassidy has defaced furniture in Georgie’s office and his, Wren and Penny’s homes. Shh, it’s a secret. 

Cassidy’s home is decorated with just as eclectic a style as she dresses herself. She tries a lot of once-off hobbies and proudly keeps the results. 

Though Cassidy borders on it sometimes, she’s not a Manic Pixie Dream Girl. The fact that she draws people into her sphere is more for her own fun than trying to teach them the meaning of life. She simply enjoys people.

Cassidy once posed as a nude model for an art class. She bought all of the resulting sketches and keeps them in her closet. 

[thexwanderingxsouls]

Inspired by @seudxnimx, the body care products my ladies use. Loved this idea! Lily: Her go to is Herbal Essence’s original rose shampoo and conditioner and Olay’s white strawberry body wash. She definitely smells very softly floral and sweet. She keeps it very simple. 

Azalea: Tea Tree shampoo, Kenra leave-in spray conditioner (she has fine hair and doesn’t want to weigh it down), Kenra volumizing spray (also to help her hair look a bit more full). Suave milk & honey body wash. She finishes off with a dab of jasmine oil on her pulse points. 

Cassidy: For shampoo and conditioner, she really likes Joico products - the kPak line of products on the daily and the Color Protect stuff when she’s messing around with a new color in her hair. Cass gets bored of scents quickly and often changes up her body wash to whatever catches her eye at the drug store or Ulta (if she’s feeling fancy) when she runs out. She typically reaches for more earthy scents like teak, sandalwood, amber, vetiver, etc. in her body products. When she wants something more soft and floral, she’ll reach for honeysuckle, citrus, or warm vanilla scents.

[ehlihr]

getting older and looking at ur own ocs like okay i know i said you were like 16-19 when i made you at 13 but no fucking way. youre 25 now

[chloesimaginationthings]

Cassidy loves to scare the FNAF night guards..

[weepingalaxy]

if jeremy and michael knew each other, don't you think the bites would feel rather similar?

[thegreatgeodo]

Alright let's do this

At 10 notes i'll Say something Nice to a random mutual (Not posting the proof sorry y'all)

At 20 notes i'll say something very nice to all of my mutuals

At 50 notes i'll start studying what is a dual person and how it affects me

At 70 i'll clean up my office (gonna do it tomorrow cuz it's late as i write this)

At 120 notes i'll post a random pic from my phone

(early art for Geodo!)

At 150 notes i'll study some more for school (Fiiine i'll be more responsible, goddamn)

At 200 notes i'll read the picture of Dorian gray as much as possible in 2 hours (i read it 8 times)

At 300 notes i'll take one of those gender tests (it called me gay and i'm unsure what to think of it)

At 350 notes i'll post the very much unfinished alpha of my videogame (still cant find the fucking thing)

At 1k notes i'll tell my psychologist about Cassidy (IT WAS ALL FINE YIPEE!!)

At 5k notes i'll drink battery acid (Sour strips candies + monster)

[ninetimesbluedemo]

men invented poker so they could stare deep into each other's eyes

[rdr2gifs]

''the morning light, when it comes to me, it was there but I could not see''

Arthur’s life was profoundly shaped by his self-hatred, lack of self-worth and disbelief in the existence of kindness in a seemingly dark and cruel world.

I strongly disagree with the statement that Arthur only became a ‘’better’’ man after being diagnosed with tb. His struggle with his true/inner self is apparent as early as chapter one. ‘’You are not who you think you are, sir… which is lucky’’

He has lived a rough life, raised by criminals and surrounded by violence ever since he was born. It was installed in him early that his value lied within being a violent enforcer and he has lived this life since, knowing nothing else. As a highly aware person, Arthur's actions weight heavy on his soul. He accepts that his actions have consequences. He knows that a person who has caused so much suffering is not meant to have happiness in life. His way of life has caused him to believe that he is not worthy of love or redemption. He doesn’t want to believe that a person like him could be capable of any good. (a thing to note here is that imo, Arthur’s actions near his death weren’t attempts at redemption but rather a strong desire to do right and possibly be his true self.) This is why he keeps living as he does as it’s the only thing he’s ever known, it’s the thing that brings him profit, praise from the person he looks up to and he is already damned so he might as well continue living this life anyway.

The internal problem Arthur faces is that this violent, cruel way of life doesn’t align with what I’d call his true self/ideals. He is torn between the harsh reality he has known and an unconscious yearning for righteousness/love. To be able to carry on with his actions he must enforce certain ideals within himself, such as: I am bad, ugly, nasty, ignorant, mean etc. He also decides to see the dark side of reality, telling himself that the world is a grim dark place and this is just as things were meant to be. This is why he feels so uncomfortable being complimented for his good deeds, because a bad rotten person like him should not be able to do good. It breaks the image he has built for himself and he doesn’t want that happening. This can be seen a lot during the ‘’Money Lending and Other Sins’’ missions where he is unusually mean (even for his standards) to each of the debtors. Imo, he acts this way because he must truly convince himself of being a terrible man to be able to carry out a job which revolts him so badly. In the last debt collecting mission with J. John Weathers, it can be seen in his face/expressions how much he is struggling to put on a tough, uncaring, heartless act. He needs to maintain a ruthless persona to survive in the world he knows. He must convince himself of his own cruelty.

''Forgive me, but that's the problem. You don't know you.''

Contrary to Arthur’s beliefs, he is a naturally kind-hearted person who is unconsciously drawn towards kindness. And yes, even before he was diagnosed with tb. This can be seen in the people he respects the most and, in his willingness to help strangers (notice how he often does unnecessary acts of service for total strangers such as: carrying their things, holding out hands etc. even though they had already troubled him). Despite the life he has lived, Arthur does not enjoy violence, he does not enjoy hurting people. He doesn’t want to dominate over others. He thinks mostly about others and not about himself. This fact alone is very telling of his character.

He writes about Charles, a man who he truly respects: ‘’He’s a better man than me. He does not need to think to be good. It comes naturally to him, like right is deep within as opposed to this conflict between GOOD↔EVIL that rages within me.’’ A man who is not struggling with his inner self would not have written this. To me this clearly implies an inner desire to be a better man. He writes about his mentors: ‘’I love Dutch like a father, but in many ways, I love Hosea even more. He’s kind and fair and like a human being. Dutch is something else.’’ Clearly showing a preference for Hosea who is of a more gentle nature and shows genuine kindness. Unsurprisingly, these are the people who see through his dumb/though act and encourage him to drop it.

When he comes across Brother Dorkins for the first time, he writes: ‘’(he)was one of those innocent people who make you feel better about human beings and about yourself a little. Must be odd to see all that goodness in the world. Place always seemed dark and brutal to me.’’ Expressing how he does not see goodness in the world, implying lack of good examples/kindness/good experiences in his life. Yet, the monk leaves an impression and imo, this encounter (seeing genuine goodness) disrupts Arthur’s perception of what the world truly is. ‘’Just as evil begat evil your whole life long, so good may begat good’’ (what strengthens my belief in this, is the following, symbolic scene of Arthur realising the consequences of his actions right after picking up a crucifix. He was aware of them before sure, but is unable to truly ignore them now having seen it right in front of his eyes). If only Arthur was presented with more examples of goodness in his life.

''You have it in you... I can tell!''

His desire to do as much good as possible after realising he won’t live long is instant. This would not be the mindset of someone who did not already possess kindness in his heart. ‘’Know glory and forget about shame.’’ Arthur’s shame and self-loathing caused by his previous actions were what was holding him back from allowing kindness into his life. Knowing that he has limited time left has not made him into someone he wasn’t before. The diagnosis was a catalyst, allowing him to embrace that love/goodness truly does exist and accelerate the process of chipping away from the persona he has made for himself. This was a newfound understanding for him as in the past he was rejecting any notion of kindess. In himself and perhaps the whole existence of it. ‘’You keep hidden all that matters, even from yourself.’’

After being diagnosed, he writes: ‘’What kind of a man have I been? What kind of a man am I? What world is this we live in? A land of fury or a place of love? Am I being prepared for eternal damnation? Am I past any kind of saving? Is that all fairytales? Man ain’t got much good in him. I ain’t got no good in me… I don’t think and yet I see goodness. I see it. If not in me, in good folk. In Abigail and her love for Jack. In that silly monk. In Downes, I guess. Begging not for himself but for the poor, even though he was near starving himself. Maybe I don’t want salvation. Part of me has always longed for death.’’ This entry perfectly shows how deep Arthur’s self-loathing goes and just how much it has damaged him. As his journal allows a look into his true feelings, he truly does not see a single good thing about himself. He knew for a long time that the way he lives is detestable but he could not let go of it. Not because he didn’t want to, but because it’s all that he has ever known. He didn’t believe in anything else. This sudden acceptance of goodness has allowed him to see clearly, which was obscured from him before, and for the first time, enabled him to act free of past regrets for what is right.

⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪

Arthur’s redemption is not about becoming a good man. It is about finding the strength to change and recognise your true self despite a lifetime of self-loathing and breaking free from destructive beliefs of the past.

In Arthurian legends a stag is a symbol of the unending quest of spiritual knowledge/enligtenment

[stoat-party]

The Courier could not have picked eight worse people to room together in a cramped apartment.

You’ve got a dog that hates hats and 3-4 people who refuse to remove their hats

You’ve got an adorable robot, a guy who wants to murder the robot, a dog who wants to murder the robot, and a woman who hates robots in general

You’ve got a Brotherhood scribe and a guy whose father was probably killed by the Brotherhood

You’ve got an NCR soldier and a woman whose parents were definitely killed by the NCR

You’ve got 2-4 people whose parents were involved in the conflict of Fallout 2, and none of them were on the same team.

You’ve got an anarchist conspiracy theorist and the guy who did Waco

You’ve got two lovesick romantics and a bisexual(?) flirt and not enough beds

You’ve got the guy who hates crime enough to support Team Slavery, and four people who loathe Team Slavery like you wouldn’t believe

You've got the entire array of mental illnesses and a doctor nobody’s going to listen to

You’ve got I-will-be-your-grandma-whether-you-like-it-or-not, mask-the-tears-with-my-moxie, stay-away-from-me-i’m-a-monster, too-old-for-this, self-medicating-in-every-horrible-way, and i-have-to-hide-every-detail-about-my-life-or-i’ll-die

And that’s not including any drama the Courier brings to the table.

[homoeroticgrappling]

Orange asking Renee if she wants to wrestle for him, then doing the world's cutest smile and saying he's just kidding he wouldn't ask her to do that

[kiruvry]

sincerely sorry guys i got jnto something new Again ☹

[ends-of-the-wayward-storm]

Lilia's got his priorities straight.😂

Bonus:

And now he's having a mild existential crisis.

[thexwanderingxsouls]

Butt plugs or vibrators (Any)

Lily - Vibrators

Cassidy - Either/or, pending mood

Azalea - Vibrators

Delaney - Butt plugs

[spaghettiandart]

Cassidy and her good pal CC

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF Cassidy knows how to “help” Michael Afton

[yhwcomeback]

The one you shouldn't have killed.