#actually borderline

[la1npilledg1rl]

Me at 3 a.m trying to find out if he was really telling the truth.

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd culture is please please please please please please please please please please please please please please. please. im begging you please. please. please. i need you. come closer. closer. i need to smell you as close as i can. i need to feel your skin. i need you so close to me our skin fuses into one. i need you so violently. i need your hands wrapped around my heart i need you to feel that it beats for you and only you and you are my everything. you are my everything. you are the sun and the moon, the rise and fall of my chest, the build-up and crashing of a wave. i am yours and forever yours. i am always yours even after death, even after they put me in the ground or turn me into ashes or whatever happens to me. i am yours. your eyes are so pretty. you are so pretty. i love you. you don't have to love me. let me admire you. i want to admire you forever. you can hate me, i don't care. you can scorn me and beat me and hurt me, though you'd never do that. you're too nice to ever think of such things. everything about you is perfect. i wish you would run your delicate fingers along my arms and grasp my hands. i wish i could hear you laugh just one more time, and then a thousand times more after that. i close my eyes and i see you. i open my eyes, and i think of you in everything i see. i hope you are well. i hope you know i miss you. i can't wait to see your smile again. i hope you know i love you.

i got carried away. im so normal i swear

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[dog-gutz]

I met with my psychiatrist today, who is absolutely wonderful, and asked for her opinion on what my cardiologist had told me. She basically said, that because my symptoms started before my medications, it is unlikely the medications have caused the symptoms I'm experiencing. She said a lot of doctors see people who struggle with psychiatric problems and blame those problems/medications right away, but she said she would seek a second opinion. She also said that if she ever makes me feel like this doctor has made me feel to tell her, because she never wants to make me feel this way. Seen as my psychiatrist has known me for almost a whole year now, I'm going to trust her judgement and agree with her, and go see this new doctor in May and see what he has to say. I can't even express how much I appreciate my psychiatric care team, they do so much for me and always listen, I can't imagine seeing anyone else.

[interruptedsblog]

I hate when pwbpd demonize pwnpd, YOU ARE ALSO FROM CLUSTER B, YOU EVEN SHARE CERTAIN PERSONALITY TRAITS.

[ryn-stillstanding]

i just want to feel good enough for somebody

i just want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay. i just want someone to send me little messages throughout the day. i just want someone that will bake cookies with me. i just want someone who will make coffee for us in the morning. i just want someone to be in the same room as me. i just want someone to be there when i need them to be. i just want someone to feel heard and understood when they talk to me. i just want someone who will let me softly sing to them. i just want someone to wipe tears from my eyes and hold my face in their hands. i just want someone to exist in the same room as me. i just want someone who will listen to my story. i just want someone who doesn't have reasons that they don't want to be with me. i just want someone to feel immensely loved by me. i just want someone to lay with. i just want someone i can come home to on a long day. i just want someone that will make me food on the days i feel bad. i just want someone to talk to. i just want someone to know that i will not judge them. i just want someone who will spend the day at the beach with me. i just want someone who will let me keep my leg overtop of theirs as we read books. i just want someone who will listen to my music, as awful as it is.

i just want someone to tell me that this isn't asking for too much

[bpd-sonadow]

That terrifying moment when you ask "Do you hate me now?", and they actually take a moment to think

[vilea777]

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

[worthless-mess]

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

[unbearable-swagger]

I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

[bl0w-m3]

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd culture is are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me are you mad at me

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[honeypleasejustkillme]

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

[elainiisms]

[feralkitten420]

"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate