#again she does kinda fit the criteria

[sunny-daysss]

I won’t put this in the fandom tag cuz I’m really not looking to debate people, but I feel like calling Akito (from Fruits Basket) a ‘yandere’ is just kinda... Weird?? Like I guess she fits the general criteria, but I also feel like it kinda removes the nuance from her character

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

The C person is a Beningn Narcissist

Carmy is her chosen victim.

She loved-bombed him.

He fell for her because he was vulnerable.

Disclaimer: This meta might already exist. However I tend to avoid reading about the C person, so most likely I avoided it unless it was from a mutual and crossed my way when I was in an extremely good mood, because otherwise I just can't stomach reading about her. But I doubt I'm the first person on Tumblr who noticed she's a narcissist as it can be seen pretty much from outer space. That being said, I will go for it because I have been sitting on this post since I spotted the triangulation she pulled with Tiff on June 26. But also, writing about her feels like pulling teeth to me. So wish me luck. Here I go:

I have been going over this massive black hole from Carmy's perspective on multiple occasions already:

Stuck in her mud

Backfire

He let her take the wheel

And barely edging it from hers:

Her reverse psychology

Her dark side

Source: Psychology Today

From the outside, it's quite easy to spot her first red flag 🚩when she didn't take the "wrong number hint" and bulldozed into his life. Obviously, Carmy didn't, and let's not say the C person is unattractive or downright unfuckable because that would be not only mean but also inaccurate, she's the kinda woman a guy who barely ever gets laid would be all over if she was easy and willing, which she was, even if that guy wasn't Carmy. No man with a pulse would resist a woman like that who wanted to get into his pants so badly. So Carmy was no exception. Let's not blame it all on his mental health and on Syd never giving him the slightest hint that she was interested in him as anything other than a business partner at that point. Let's be realistic.

Well, turns out that not taking the phone number hint was not her only NARCISISTIC red flag that showed her 0 fucks given for other people's agency. The list went on and on... The other one was the party she "invited him" to, basically manipulating him in the car to accept the invitation, etc. I will not go into all of her red flags because I'm positive that they have already been covered by all Sydcarmy truthers since S2 premiered.

What I will say is that those were not just red flags, they were narcissistic traits and in her case, since she's a caretaker and works in the healthcare industry, specializing in Emergency, plus she triangulated with Tiff to spread HER SIDE OF THE STORY after being broken up with in a really fucked up way to play the victim in a passive-aggressive fashion, typical of her kind, she could very well fit the criteria to be profiled as a Beningn Narcissist and that would make Carmy her victim, not her boyfriend.

It's important to clarify that having Narcissistic personality traits or a Narcissistic personality and having a Narcissistic personality disorder ARE NOT the same. I won't elaborate on that one either but FYI narcissistic TRAITS are present in 70% of the world population yet NPD only affects a much lower number. I don't cite references here because most narcissistic cases are sub-clinical, which means they do not show up in consult. So all the figures that authorities have are estimates.

That being said, the C person is a clear case of a sane person (no disorder can be diagnosed based on what's canon) who does show multiple traits that can effortlessly typecast her character as the Bening Narcissist type, which would definitely be a type that would feel attracted to someone with the dysfunctional psychological makeup that Carmy clearly has.

Again, I would rather stay out of that angle, what I will do now though, is go over all the red flags from a behavioral perspective to get to the point that actually concerns me, which is: Why is Clairmy doomed.

Her cluelessness about Carmy's unwillingness to remain in touch with her by giving her the wrong number is nothing but LACK OF EMPATHY.

BTW: his first response to her asking for his number was to give her the wrong one, but his second one was ALSO NO, repeatedly:

Her convenient "My cousin bailed on me." was nothing but another manipulation and ENTITLEMENT because she put him in a place where he was gonna look like an ass if he said no, so she assumed he was gonna agree to it if she played that card and she wasn't wrong. Of course, she wasn't, she must do this just about dozens of times a day, she's a fucking pro at it.

Not to mention her "little entitlement joke" as subtle as a bull in a china store:

Her childlike attitude is nothing but GRANDIOSITY in disguise:

She tries to mask everything with humor and sympathy, but her dysfunctional behavior is anything but funny and Carmy eventually noticed when he noticed she was absorbing him completely to the point where he had to choose between her and Syd the restaurant.

Had that been a healthy/functional relationship, he wouldn't have had to choose because they would have seen each other maybe once a week and talked every now and then like a normal couple that is in the early stages but she LOVED BOMBED HIM. She spent every spare minute she was not at the hospital either at his place or texting him. We don't know if Carmy stayed at some point at her place too, but that is plausible.

These narcissists only talk about themselves or work to make your story, or what you are saying, about them. There's no way I'm gonna rewatch and record the scene where he tells her that Sunday is his least favorite day of the week, but you sure know what I'm talking about. And it's extremely likely that such a sequence was very common between them. Those "talks to get to know each other better and share, etc..." always ended with HER anecdotes, where she looked like a heroine without a cape. I bet.

These benign narcissists have a superficial immaturity and often resemble teenagers, as they don't have emotional maturity, which is also why Carmy and her felt this mutual attraction since they were young. They were always a match.

He's also an emotionally immature person, but in his case is a trauma response, not a narcissistic trait. I went over his immaturity here.

But Carmy is changing. He's learning the hard way.

Bonus track: She's the predator, he is the prey.

I wanna point out how Claire displayed predatory behaviors, viewing Carmy as her prey because by overruling his consent in giving her his personal contact information and then love bombing him as I explained above she was trying to own him, not just be with him. She was trying to take over every minute of his time, which is what we saw in S2 and gladly ended like this ↓

But it could have very well ended like IRL, where the prey is completely isolated from their circle and loses friends, family, jobs, etc. Before they notice, their entire world revolves around the predator, which makes them stick by their side because is not like they have anyone else. The prey ends up with an empty life where the predator is their only company, their only "friend", their only link to any social life. As you can imagine ending and leaving those relationships is complicated and it's also usually devastating for the "prey". Carmy didn't take it that far, thanks to Cicero's intervention and because he was actually already "taken" by Syd. Otherwise, the story would have been quite different. Carmy's walk-in breakdown also helped. That trauma triggered the crisis that brought to the front of his mind all the reasons why C is not and will never be the person he should be with, not because she represents amusement and enjoyment but because she represents a mirror that will forever reflect and replicate his own dark side, the dark side he wants to break free from, for Syd and for the star he feels he owes her.

B side: How do Narcissists pick their prey? Narcissists feel attracted by people's strengths and talents because they feel their "prey" makes THEM look good. The trophy wife/husband is a typical accessory these types love to wear and collect. If we dig into C's past we will most likely find many "Carmys", possibly doctors, professors, etc. Narcissists feel attracted to those who validate their feelings and are docile so they can get their way with them. This was the test and Carmy failed, which gave her the greenlight she wanted and needed to do her thing:

Had Carmy stood his ground, she wouldn't have considered him "prey material". The second test came seconds later when she asked him to help her move her thriving mother's boxes out of nowhere. Again, she pushed and he didn't stand his ground, she advanced. And that's how she was testing him over and over in every interaction to see how far he let her go, the further, the more his prey status consolidated in her eyes. Otherwise, she would have lost interest in him pretty much immediately, and in her version of the story he would have been a piece of shit who lied to her from the get-go and that would have been the story that she would have made sure got spread around. Narcissists feel attracted to people who overlook their shortcomings and won't leave them high and dry because they want to foster a co-dependent relationship with their prey for the reasons aforementioned, and C did that in the car, at the party, etc. She was open about certain things that she did in her past, strategically breadcrumbed for him to think of her as "real and honest" but also a test to see how he reacted to them, he let them slide. He didn't see a red flag in her circle of 30-year-old kleptomaniac teenager-like friends who threw a party mid-week and played with fireworks in a backyard till someone called the police on them. Again, Carmy FAILED the test, which greenlighted her.

I won't elaborate on the following concepts because they are painfully obvious: Narcissists are attracted to people with low self-esteem and co-dependency issues, which is exactly what due to his history of abuse with Donna, that is the only abuse she knew about but it's only the first one on Carmy's record because Chef Fields came next, she knew Carmy fit these criteria. Jeremy recently said in an interview that there's a co-dependency issue between his character and Jamie Lee Curti's and of course, there's Donna’s alcoholism → Narcissists are attracted to someone who has already UNSUCCESSFULLY DEALT WITH another narcissist because that is precisely what entails the low self-esteem and co-dependency issues they need their prey to have so they can succeed in predating on them.

All of these behaviors or red flags are obviously operated from an unconscious level. C is not deliberately and consciously choosing to do any of this. She's soooo used to operating on this level that this is exactly like breathing for her. The break-up with Carmy may or may not be a wake-up call for her but no one can change personalities. Either way, IDGAF TBH.

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[syxnewt]

Valorant Enemy Ultimate Calllouts, Ranked by usefulness

Imagine you’re a brand new agent to the Valorant protocol. You don’t know your teammates’ ults yet for some reason, which means you don’t know the other universe’s ults. Based on what you hear, how likely are you to know what’s going on?

Astra: 10/10 “You are divided!” Beautiful. You are, in fact, divided.

Breach: 10/10 “Off your feet!” You get bounced off your feet. Very good.

Brim: 7/10 “Prepare for hellfire!” You are told to prepare, then giant circles from the sky to the ground appear. You can pretty much use common sense with that.

Chamber: 1/10 “You want to play, let’s play.” A warning, for sure, but no indication of what’s about to happen.

Cypher: 10/10 “I know EXACTLY where you are!” Yep, that’s the ult.

Fade: 6/10 “Face your fears!” I mean, kinda? It doesn’t prepare you whatsoever for the deafening.

Harbor: 1/10 “I suggest you move!” You get warned, and you can see the water pooling at your feet, but you have no idea it will stun you. So not very good.

Jett: 1/10 “Get out of my way!” A warning, but you have no idea what you’re being warned about.

KAY/O: 10/10 “You! Are! Powerless!” Yeah.

Killjoy: 2/10 “You should run.” An implied warning, plus a clue on how to counteract the ult. Again, though, nothing to say what will happen if you don’t run.

Neon: 1/10 “Hoy! I’m pissed!” Warning, but nothing to go off of.

Omen: 0/10 “Scatter!” Go girl give us nothing! His ult is just a really good teleport. You don’t need to ‘scatter’ at all. It’s barely a warning.

Phoenix: 1/10 “Joke’s over, you’re dead!” A warning, but you still don’t know what it entails.

Raze: 2/10 “Fire in the hole!” It’s a warning, and maybe a clue to what you’re about to see. But it’s small, and probably only clear in hindsight.

Reyna: 1/10 “The hunt begins!” Another warning with no clue what’s about to happen.

Sage: 7/10 “You will not kill my allies!” I think you could reason your way into figuring it out? Like, Sage can heal, and then she yells about you not killing her allies, so she probably healed them from death??? Maybe?

Skye: 6/10 “I’ve got your trail!” She does, but there’s more the the ult than that. Still, it’s better than nothing.

Sova: 1/10 “Nowhere to run!” Another warning with nothing else.

Viper: 1/10 “Welcome to my world!” Genuinely not sure if this fits my ‘warning’ criteria but I feel like seeing the green gas coming right at you would help a lot in figuring out what is up.

Yoru: -0/10 “Who’s next?” Honest to god do not understand why this is his line. It sounds more like a kill line rather than an ult line. It has nothing to do with the ult whatsoever. Not even in the most barebones sense.

[mofffun]

The elephant in the room: Rita's Gender

In manga ch12 and ep38, Rita is referred to with female pronouns. ch12 has a little girl call Rita お姉ちゃん (big sister) and ep38 has Minnogan call them 彼女 (she/her). This is canon text.

My argument proposed Rita does not bother correcting people who misgender them. Because their time is too valuable for that. Not that they don't mind, merely as King, they are above letting mere words hurt them.

In the manga, Rita certainly reacts more strongly to being told 'you look like a bad guy' than interested in picking a fight with a little girl. The girl first called to both of them and only Morfonia answered.

For ep38, there's no denial Idol Rita is dressed feminine so naturally Minnogan is led to think that way. Rita has no cause to oppose them or risk breaking their cover and lose his trust. To equate, another major villain, Kamejim, also identify Rita as male in considering them for Himeno's spouse.

My personal interpretation is, as opposed to a troubled age, Rita simply instinctively sacrificed everything personal in name of neutrality, for duty and country, including their gender. It's not like they identify as one thing or another, it's they don't identify with anything but King of Gokkan. Regardless of gender, it does not affect their competence to perform the duty of a sovereign. On a character level, it's more fitting for this person to identify as gender neutral, but I also don't think gender is a big part of their identity.

It's still a meaningful step we receive in Rita a messy but strong female character, it's just the difference how big the step is to have them also represent non-binary/trans people. It is the doylist symbolism they hold, and the authorial intention that I cannot put down.

I looked up "rita gender" on jp tweet and I get the impression they don't think today's episode is firm enough even for those who wished for it to confrim Rita is a girl. And their viewpoints is varied too, Rita's gender can also be "undisclosed" or "(just) Rita". So I feel better there. I overreacted.

All intents and purposes I might just be wishful thinking and they decided on making Rita a girl the moment Yuzuki was cast. Mah, it's been a good 37 weeks.

In the end, Rita's setting is "undisclosed gender". Truthfully I never expected Toei to keep a 37-episode streak, not only never referred to them with female pronouns, to making them more neutral in Chapter 2's styling, and even gave us episode 36.

Say, what about the occassional offscreen use of "she"? In their position, what would you ask Yuzuki/mass media to refer to Rita without official confirmation? The audition criteria are never made known to even Yuzuki herself now we're nearing the show's end. It's understandable she took to the character as the same gender as herself. The production crew doesn't share everything with the cast. Practically, gender issues is, not a safe topic to say the least, Yuzuki's own awareness, and whether higher-ups allow her to say anything about it, is another story. Again, businesses have no obligation to endanger their profit. Pretend Toei has the guts to come out and say Rita is non-binary from the beginning (which they kinda did sneakily), they will be accused of political correctness and using Rita as a gimmick, let alone the PTA complaints. If they stay silent, the same group is gonna say they are cowards. Why not just focus on making a good show and a popular/profitable character?

Under all that, lies the practical factors of Janpese grammar and where Janpanese society stands among conservative to progressive. It's a very complicated issue with histories to consider and I'm surely not the best person to ask as a non-native. But I guess the gist is, it's still not mainstream, so the media stick to the existent language when the official sources never said otherwise.

Another point is, I don't think too much people have the concept of "tiered canon" or "proximity to sources". I'm talking about throwing out EVERY website/interview, just looking at the show, there has been no concrete evidence what gender Rita is. While episodic costumes are feminine, the script consistently refers to them with neutral/masculine language. So you can make an argument for both sides really.

So I would like to end by parroting this excellent argument: may I remind you that cross-dressing is also a sentai tradition?

[destinyc1020]

I don’t think he is being very superficial in a sense but just that he probably is looking for someone who looks and is very similar to how he looks. I’m being brave here but I doubt he is looking for someone who is probably not a Christian, not black, not meeting a certain height requirement, probably living in the same country not having previous marriages etc etc (all speculation people don’t kill me, this is tumblr hahah). So how many gay black men could fit into that requirement who are his age?? Not many! So that’s what I meant. It’s hard for us all not just him but like you said he makes his desired so known to the public that it’s hard not to have an opinion. Also it is going to be difficult finding someone when he is traveling a lot because of his work ( not many can financially), also not many his age are probably willing to do long distance. The type he is probably looking for are wanting to settle down and his career is not very location stable, and it’s hard if you are not a celebrity. Heck celebrities can’t either, that is why they have the high test breakup rates. So yeah he wants something I feel, does not match his current situation.If I was his dating coach that’s what I would tell him, to look outside some criteria’s that doesn’t add to making a person a good partner. Again just speculation

Oh OK, I see what you're saying. Yea, I get your points.

I mean, men are going to be visual... even gay men. 🤣 That's just how men are. They are VERY visual.

But I get what you're saying. True love might not come in the package that you thought it would come in. I mean, before meeting Tom, I'm sure Zendaya never thought she would fall in love with a white, British, actor dude who's shorter than her lol 😆

So yea, you do have to open up your horizons sometimes. And yea, I do get the vibe that Darnell is into black men only lol. 🤭 Not sure why I get that vibe lol, but I do! He might benefit from expanding his horizons on that front. Just a suggestion. 🤷🏾‍♀️

And yea, his work life is basically the life of a celebrity, since he works for a major one. So he almost needs to date someone who's kinda in the industry, or close to it, who would understand him needing to travel so much, because right now, he kind of lives the life of an actor, cuz he is working for one Iol. 😅

Most normal people wouldn't understand that lifestyle. So, he'll either have to date someone in the industry, or industry-adjacent, OR, quit working for Z and find a regular 9-5.... and I don't see that happening anytime soon lol. 🤭

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Pyrare x anyone (canonically Aromantic)

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Blixer x Wave (don’t know much about the ship, but there’s apparently something wrong with it???? Idfk-)

Circumuscle x Cirtunda (Cirtunda adopts Circumuscle in my au, plus I don’t even think they’re close in age anymore. If you find past posts of me shipping them, it was BEFORE S2 Ep 1 of TPC came out, in which my au changed)

Marcle x Squadril, Marcle x Purpex, Squadril x Purpex (Purpex adopted Marcle and Squadril in my au)

Quintagon x Cubic (Literally just DNI. Why is this a ship.)

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My aus + their abbreviations

Magenta Decedance - My TPC au - MD

Wilted Roses - TPC au, name subject to change to an actual one because it just has the name for the Cintasphere fic currently. Once name changes I will update the description - WR

Mistakes Were Made - An au focused on Circumcannon, where he snapped and killed his family - MWM

School Love Chaos - A college au focused on Cintagon and Circumsphere, Cintagon being the yandere - SLC

Iris Insanity - An au where Iris cracked under the pressure and corrupted - II

Adler’s Experiments - An experiment au focused on my Flowers Of Antimony, Addicus or Adler, who is experimenting on shapes with the corruption - AE

The Contract - An au where Zinnia, Dub’s successor, made a deal with Rot (the tree), and everything went to shit - TC

Lovebug - Penl, a pink hero like Cyanide, got a virus! And now the corruption makes you a yandere???? - LB

Triple Star Shoppe - Cintagon, Purpex, and Pirene (oc) started a business together! Cinta is a dollmaker, Purp is a chef, and Pi is a blacksmith. Something feels… off, though. - TSS

Sins and Sinners - An au focusing on the 7 Deadly Sins’ kids, who took over after they died. (Co owned by Milo and Ebony) - SnS

House of Horror - Come on in! We don’t bite :) - HoH

Not Of The Machine - One of my ocs, Penl, is the only human in a world full of robots. Thus he’s forced to stop the corruption since he’s immune (it’s a virus!) - NOTM

Crystalline Hivemind - An infection au with Amethyst :] - CH

Robotic Necromancy - The Chipzels died, but had their souls trapped in animatronics! What do you mean this is a FNAF au? - RN

False God - The Tree killed Circumsphere out of hatred for Cintagon, so he decided to rebel - FG

Hope - My version of the scrapped Hope series by Brittney Robinson - Hope

Corrupted Chaos - My main jsab au - CC

Purity. - A tree cult was started after the corruption event in CC, and its just as bad. - Purity

Neutralized Nemesis - Another jsab au, where all of the bosses are dating a hero (includes the beta heroes) - NN

Failed Opposition - A bad end jsab au - FO

My ships (and the au’s they’re in)

Pentellow x Iris (both poly) - All except Hope

Cube x Lythorus - All

Cintagon x Circumsphere - All, one sided in SLC

Rincle x Circumuscle - All

Polyhedron x Cirtunda - All

Pentellow x Ajaceare (also poly) - All

Quintagon x Ajaceare - Not in any due to age differences

Dub x Barracuda - All

Iris x Circubit (Poly once more) - All

Hexagram x Circumsphere (exes) - All except Hope, dominant ship in SLC

Cube x Iris - Hope

Cubical x Iris (exes) - All, not together

Cubical x Circubit (also exes) - All, not together

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[dateamonster]

Two Strange Magic thoughts that I had:

1) it is interesting to me how, for all that it is movie about fairies and elves and goblins, based on Midsummer Night's Dream, magic seems curiously absent; only one who shows magical abilities is Sugarplum, who is visibly entirely different sort of fairy from everybody else, and even then she more, makes potions than any inherent power?

2) I know I am overthinking it because it is just gag and bit given conventions in this sort of cartoon but; we see Bog courted by insects and animals and later Roland gets together with one of foiled suitors (the fly); so I wonder how sentient are animals in here, whats their relationship to more humanoid creatures, and how do relationships work?

yea yea yea now ur gettin into it.

personally i rly like how sparingly magic is used! it prevents the story from turning into the kind of thing where either everyone is always using magic to kinda arbitrarily solve all problems or else magic is obviously present but left largely unused in a way that makes you wonder why more people dont use it to solve the plots problems.

im also in favor of creatures that are kind of fantastical in nature but not inherently capable of wielding magic, and i like that plum is very noticeably set apart from other fairies by her use of it, to the point where (by my interpretation at least) she appears to have been physically transformed by it. and she does use some magic outside the potion making! mostly to change size and shape and make little mini-me fairies for dramatic effect lol so fair point. i guess its implied some kind of magic must have been used to trap her but i dont think we ever learn exactly who did it or how. makes ya think!

to the second point, first of all, i love how many bugs are in this movie!!!! ive said before i think probably a lot of the more animal/insectoid creatures in the dark forest are in fact goblins whove just evolved to look like that, but it def does raise questions about like. the lizard who gets love potion'd for example. like i think were supposed to take her as literally an animal because she doesnt talk and tries to eat sunny and dawn at the beginning, but then again she certainly wouldnt be the only sapient creature in the movie who also fits that criteria! and roland rides a squirrel as a mount so clearly thats got some weird implications if animals are fully intelligent here!

like yea its fantasy cartoon logic but its interesting! for all intents and purposes the dynamics here seem to suggest, at least to me, that animals and insects and such are thinking creatures but that they are still largely driven by the same instincts we know them for in the real world, and that the fairies and goblins and so on just kinda live with the fact that their world is populated by beings that both can and may communicate with them as equals, but will still try and eat them just because a lizard is big and an elf is small and full of meats and that generally overrides any common ground they might have as intelligent lifeforms. its dark, i kinda love it!!

[enfaeutchie]

I've been trying to translate meme phrases into jérriais because they, A, sound funnier, and B, are a strange exercise in translating without any help (how do you say "a crumb of pussy would fix me" when your peers who you could ask for help are older than your father, making that incredibly embarrassing and impossible to mention?). anyway to finish my ask, does dgèrnésiais have any interesting ditons that would make funny memey phrases in English, and what's something funny in English that might be a little funnier in a Guernsey context?

Always been a fan of the way of calling somebody well-spoken "aver la langue bian pendue", to have the tongue well-hung. And I'm always saying that stuff "n'vaout pas grànd burre" isn't worth big butter. You could probably make something out of any of the Dadais sayings, "aussi gnais comme Dadais qui s'fouittait des crêpes et tout l'temps mourait d'foim" - as daft as Dadais who whipped himself with pancakes and meanwhile died of hunger. I dunno if any of those match the memey cadence but I think they're funny enough lol

Gonna have to ponder the reverse for a while but I wanted to respond before letting you sit there for weeks unanswered

Also it's genuinely kinda fucked up how a lot of the rude/sexual stuff just hasn't made it to the dictionaries. You look up anything between the legs in the Dictiounnaire Angllais-Guernésiais and you're lucky if you get an answer beyond "The Parts". "The Thingy". At least "boudaïr" made it in there under the wonderfully specific definition of "to have a penis erection". She doesn't mention people used to use "es-tu boudaï?" as a greeting tho (does that fit the memey phrase criteria?? I can deffo see it coming into fashion again in the right circles)

[scover-va]

The fandom-determined The Hex Sexyman (among other things)

The google form has been open for, what, a month ish now? So I'm documenting the results now. Hoorah. Edit bc I forgot to add a read more and this is fairly long

Sexyman Results

Am I surprised by this one? No, absolutely not.

First place goes to Irving! I am in no way whatsoever surprised, I'm very aware of the grip that guy has on this fandom, so hey, kudos to him. Proud of him, or whatever. His prize here gets to be art. Kinda. If any of you have been following a recent trend here on good ol' Tumblr then I'm sure you know what to expect here.

Second place goes to both Lazarus and Vallamir, which I'm once again not surprised about in the least. I wouldn't exactly give mr wet paper towel of a man the title of sexyman, but hey, the guy probably has the highest or the second highest kill count of the main characters. So, he gets that. Vallamir doesn't surprise me, though. I mean all this in the nicest way possible btw

And then finally, third place goes to both Bryce and Lionel! Which! Both of those surprised me! Especially Lionel. But hey, glad to know y'all like him or whatever.

If enough people ask I'll add the written explanations for everyone's picks. I'm gonna wait til people say it's okay, just in case

Sexywoman Results

This one obviously had much slimmer pickings compared to the guys, and I would be lying if I said I was surprised by the results.

Sado gets first place, which was expected, she IS on the Sexypedia Wiki AND fits the criteria much better than a lot of other options. I mean. Colour palette, being evil, being chaotic, clown, suit, blah blah blah. She fits the bill perfectly, and I'm sure she'd be flattered. Or she'd kinkshame you guys. I don't know.

Rebecha got second place! Also not surprised! I'm, like, 99% convinced at least half of the fandom played the game post-Inscryption just for Rebecha content, so her coming up right behind Sado is NOT a surprise to me. She's fucking earned it though. Her reward is some goddamn sleep, because holy FUCK.

And then third place goes to Chandrelle, which to be fair, she's the only remaining reoccurring female character with a design. So, her getting third doesn't surprise me, especially since she's up against Sado and Rebecha.

And also shout out to my girlfriend, who voted every single female character. Without her, Catarina, Town Girl, Trish, and The Kraken would be forgotten about. Which, fair. Catarina appears the most out of the four by a whopping, what, 5 or so times? Maybe 6 or 7. Actually now that I'm thinking about it she does kinda pop up a considerable amount. Huh. Anyways,

Dilf Responses

And surprising no one at all with who got the most votes for this,

Rust! Who's winning by a whopping 60%! Good on him, he's earned it, despite technically not having a kid anymo-

And while Reggie getting a couple votes doesn't surprise me, VERY surprised to see the gay dads both get a vote each. By different people, too! But they've been through a lot, they've earned it.

Genderless Swag Results

A simpler one than above, but the canon nonbinary/agender character vs the one who's commonly hc'ed to be nonbinary.

I'm not really surprised. I mean, Steambot Willy's never acknowledged by the fans meanwhile FPP obviously is, so hey! I'm just happy to see Steambot Willy managed to score two votes. Good on them <3

Babygirl Results

Now. Usually, this is where I'd insert an image, and continue on talking about it. But. For some reason, the short answer question results are formatted like. This.

So. I'll just list them

Lazarus: 6 votes

Lionel: 1 vote

Rust: 1 vote

I'm not surprised Lazarus is #1 babygirl, I mean LOOK AT HIM. Like one person said, he's a pathetic wet cat of a man. Absolute sopping wet piece of paper towel. He is THE malewife AND babygirl. No one's doing it like him. AND he scored second on the Sexyman section. Shout out to him fr, I'm so proud of him

Twink Results

Wizarro: 3 votes (Deserved. I mean, look at him)

Moji: 2 votes (Personality wise? Yeah I can see it)

Junior: 1 vote (Like father like son, ig?)

Rust: 1 (Fair. His dietary options in the Wastes couldn't have been the best)

Irving on account of people don't know what a twink is: 1 vote (God, yeah,,,Granted skinny dudes always get beef'd so ig it's a 2 way street. If the fandom was popular, Irving would DEFINITELY be woobified, though)

Reggie: 1 vote (Yeah fair he can't exercise and his diet probably consists mostly of fucking root beer. What the fuck, Reggie)

Closing Statement Or Whatever Idfk

And THAT, everyone, is the results. Obviously Lazarus got 10 votes on malewife, he was the only option because really, who's a better option than him? So he doesn't get his own section on that, but yeah! Again, I'll post the typed up explanations if people want me to, up to you guys! But that's about it for now. Expect some celebratory art for Irving soon

[uselessidiotsquad]

Regarding Fhiaskko

One of my tiny, lovely shark rats! She has a lot more lore than I'd shared originally so I'm glad to be able to talk about her now without spoiling AoTH!

Under the cut to save your dash!

She is one of Mhonde's siblings, the second to youngest (so kid number 5). Fhia wasn't actively born cursed, it came much later. Being Priory, you can imagine the type of interesting artifacts and scrolls that one can find.

Her team were devoted to the research and study of newly made 'island' that Kralks body formed and the pieces of the Mists that it drug with it. Where else are you going to find chunks of the Godrealms that you can study? But we all know that Asuran curiosity often gets the better of them.

Already being doused in death magic, she'd had a knack for it since she was tottling around (a horrifying discovery for her parents, finding their then youngest with a crudely put together flesh wurm). So naturally she decided to explore the area devoted to Grenth.

The good news! Being Asura made her very much unafraid to delve into the deeper parts of the gods mechanisms and systems.

The bad news! Being Asura made her have absolutely no sense of reverence and a willingness to do extreme things for the sake of discovery.

Fhiaskko actually played a part in Riag/Ruby/Sigilis/Galla's story! I didn't get around to sharing it while the story was public but she was the one half way responsible for what set off the story's main driving point of Why is Trahearne Back and then What Do We Do Now.

The reason for why he is actually back is from an artifact discovered actually in Melandru's area that Fhia had the wise idea 'hey what if we take something that deals with life and nature magic and use it in the death and decay area - for science'. To which everyone in her team (also Krewe several joined the Priory with her) said:

"FHIA NO."

To which she said "FHIA YES."

She had studied some of Trahearne's magical workings in healing Orr and working with Undeath dragon magic and thought they could be extrapolated on to fit Death magic from God sources. While it had similar elements the Dragon magic has been studied more since people were trying to defeat Zhaitan and the magic of Grenth was seen as more of a 'this is holy/not something you go fiddling with/important to humans'.

Taking a step back for a moment, in my mythos - after the healing of Orr in Melandru's temple, whatever lingering influence of Melandru saw what the Commander the Marshal did and went 'oh cool thanks, i'll remember that'. The Gods aren't just like a singular entity but sort of a force. Kinda like a central figure but their energy is a slime mold that operates under a set of criteria (which is why humans can still invoke/call on the Gods even though they've dipped out because the god residue is left).

So when the same form of magic gets used in a place of death and influences of nature - that sort of ambient presence which only knows to create/influence life does the best it can.

However, since Melandru is more tied with humans than anything really Sylvari - it affects how he is brought back. This is why his pod is alarmingly 'not plant' when he emerges again. Also since it was used in a place of Death magic and he was so strongly associated with it - it like applies a filter for which energy to try and plop into a form.

Nutshell is something like this:

Fhia modifies some of the magic that Trahearne had employed in Orr, in a place of Death magic to activate a Life Magic based artifact ->

Lingering god residue recognizes the magic used but not the person so seeks out the original user ->

Original user wasn't Human so Life magic tries to create it as best as it can ->

The Dream is a collective library of experiences and personalities that sometimes get ladled out and mixed into new people ->

Given the filter being BIG DEATH MAGIC IMPORTANT HELPED IN ORR applied it really sorts out the pot and lets the right energy be picked, which happens to actually be Trahearne.

Meanwhile! Back to Fhia!

She done did a huge NO-NO! As a result of the life magic she activated, she is shielded from immediately being killed but the death magic has to go somewhere. So it's just around her in like an invisible shroud.

Her team went 'what in the actual fuck did you do' because they didn't see any like catastrophic results, it seemed to just fizzle out. The real workings of it were taking place back in the Grove, using the building blocks from the gods creation process of humans. So she just assumed it didn't work. Until hm wait why aren't the team following me back to the base camp they were right behind me - aaaaand they're all dead. That's unfortunate.

She was saddened but wrote it off as a 'well we are in the death gods slice of things it happens I guess!'

Naturally the rest of the Priory gave her the boot after finding out she did what she did and that her team had all suddenly died. So she goes back to Rata Sum to find a new Krewe to work on necro-technolgical studies and woops they all die in strange ways. Accidentally fell off of things, crushed by machinery, heart attack, attacked by animals, killed by bandits, you name it.

She just went 'wow weird coincidences'

But it kept happening and she just is in adamant denial that it has anything to do with her because 'superstitions' like being cursed are illogical. It's all a statistical improbability that is fascinating.

So as a person she is sharp witted, talkative, and exceedingly stubborn. She's not afraid to do things that others won't. She does care for her family but they've basically made it clear that since something about her Kills People they will only have dealings with her from afar. Fhia is a little hurt by this but hey if her family doesn't appreciate innovation then she can just be superficial and polite with them via letter.

Fhia is the positive side (well less negative) of her families drive for innovation. It's seen negatively in the eldest child who joined the Inquest. It's what burnt out Bhruizz to not give a shit about things or try very hard. It's what made Mhunizz seek shady means of fame/esteem rather than relying on achievement. And it's what makes Mhonde try to perfect his designs of golems and why he's not all that upset about making weapons that are um slightly unethical if used wrongly.

Thanks for reading this far about my Cursed Rat!

[calronhunt]

Well I wanna know stuff about all of them SO for the COB Mains, with that ask thing: Numbers 4, 13 and 22!

4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

Funnily enough it's Mattias and Ava who fit this criteria and not the people who were raised to kill literal demons lol.

Mattias: So, I haven't gone super indepth into Mattias' father because Mattias overall had a very good childhood but he wasn't the best dude. not physically or even emotionally abusive to mattias when he was a kid, but he didn't really care about him. his mom and dad would get into arguments a lot of the time and he would often just pretend to not listen and play in his room. The day his dad walked out the argument was really really bad and Mattias snuck out of his room and saw the end of the fight. Mattias doesn't like to talk about it because he feels like he isn't allowed to be upset about it since a lot of people have a lot worse relationships with their dad then "he walked out one day" and it happened when he was a little little kid. Probably the only person he's opened up about that is Ava.

Ava: so this one is kinda the same as how ava was introduced to the shadow world, and i know i've said it a couple times, but her and a couple of her friends got attacked by vampires one day, and no one died, but a couple of them were very badly hurt before shadowhunters showed up and chased them off. And Ava being the only one who saw the vampires for what they really were and not being able to talk to anyone about it like. it's really fucked her up? she felt like she was going insane for a little bit? until she found the shadowhunters again and was taught about how the supernatural is real. Anyway seeing a lot of your friends bloodied from vampires and no one else saw them as vampires kinda fundamentally changed her.

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Theron: No, not at all.

Dominic: Not particularly, but he doesn't like especially gruesome scenes or even deep wounds

Mattias: YEAH. IT BOTHERS HIM. He was raised in normal society so having to learn to become okay with blood (both demon ichor and normal blood on people) has been a struggle.

Nerissa: also not at all. Same shit different day.

Ava: Kinda the same as Mattias, but like I answered in the question above, she was fundamentally changed because of how she was introduced to the shadow world. She's still a little icked out by blood, but having that kind of experience with vampires kinda. beats that out of you.

22. What does your character like in other people?

Theron: kindness, someone who will listen to his problems, affection

Dominic: Attention, give him what he wants, non-confrontational (Bonus points if you are a big hairy man)

Mattias: Gentle demeanor, someone who he can joke around with, someone who he can teach new things to.

Nerissa: she is literally the hardest one to figure out. She's so emotionally repressed. uhhhh fucking. she likes. people who will make the first move. i guess?

Ava: someone to joke around with, someone she can teasingly make fun of, literally just a normal fucking person which no one in COB can be.

[occult-roommates]

Lügner, Lügnerin

Back at Audrey’s place, Dawud brushed his teeth, as he was getting ready to go to bed. However, upon hearing his best friend cry in her bedroom, he had to make sure everything’s ok in there.

Audrey: I’m so scared, what if aliens literally don’t like me...Oh my god, what if aliens are racist? Dawud: Hey, don’t worry. One of my roommates is an alien and they’re very much in love with black Earthling women. Audrey: ...Dav...What are you even talking about?  Dawud: Look, Audrey, in theory I’m supposed to keep it a secret, but that’s the truth, and I’ve been wanting to tell you for months. One of my roommates is an alien, I am not joking. Their name is Kino Gurafee and- Audrey: Kino? Dawud, you’re making this up. It’s literally the German word for movie theater. Like, I remember back in high school we did a project for German class where had to talk about, and I still remember this sentence verbatim years later from how hard we memorized this project; der letzte Film den wir im Kino gesehen haben. In fact, Kino Gurafee sounds like a play on cinematography. Dawud: Why would I make a play on cinematography out of all the words on the planet? Audrey, if I was messing with you, I would have name the alien something like Diese Nawtz or Uar Mome. Audrey: I also remember while we were doing that project back that you got fixated on the word Kinematographie and would repeat it on loop for months on end.

Dawud had no memory of this category 5 echolalia event, but now that she mentions it, yeah, it did happen. Damn, that girl memory might actually be way too efficient for her own good. Anyway, he started arguing with her that no, he’s not lying, he does indeed live with an alien and then...she slapped him, out of nowhere.

Dawud: What the fuck Audrey! Audrey: Look, I might be an autistic girly girly girl, I might love pink and have an actual unicorn decal on my wall and be obsessed with aliens, but I’m still a grown ass woman. Don’t start telling me very obvious lie in order to make me feel better like you’d do to a child! Dawud: Alright! Yes, I’m lying! You’re happy now!

Well, he did not sound convincing at all. But instead of pissing off Audrey even more, it just made her regret slapping him, it was obvious enough he was hurt, not just physically but emotionally. 

Audrey: D-Dav I’m so sorry. Dawud: I’m so tired of lies. Like, earlier this month, I freaked out at Daniele and my pilot friend from work cause Dan told me he made out with him. And in hindsight I feel so stupid for not realizing it right away. It was so obviously fake. I hate lying actually, make me feel bad. Audrey: Wow, go tell that to your mother, who you pretended you were still in school for more than a year when in actuality for most of that time you were a depressed NEET sleeping on my couch. Dawud: Ok, yes that was messed up, but you thought I was happy and comfortable living a lie? In fact, while she knows the truth now, I’m pretty sure it strained our relationship by a lot, which really fucking hurt. She might never trust me ever again after that. Ever since, I try to be as honest as possible. Audrey: Thank god cause that whole alien roommate thing shows you’re a pretty bad liar actually when you’re in front of the person. At least you got away with lying to your mom by avoiding her for a whole 18 months. Dawud: I’m not even good in telling when people are lying. Like that whole body language thing sounds like bullshit honestly...That or I might be autistic too, I don’t know. I feel like I don’t have enough traits to qualify, but I wonder pretty often. Audrey: I mean, I’ve been suspecting it too...And so does my mom...Your mom knows but she doesn’t believe it. Dawud: What?? Audrey: Yeah, back in 5th grade when I got diagnosed, my mom noticed you also fit a lot of the criteria, so she told your mom and she kinda denied it cause admitting it would “put your future in jeopardy”. Also it was around the time your father’s died so you were under a lot of stress already, and you were being bullied a lot to begin with. That would just have put even more weight on your shoulders. Dawud: I don’t even understand why I was being bullied so much back in elementary school! I mean, I don’t think it was that obvious I would grow up to be queer and I only got fat during puberty. Audrey: Well, you are from an Iraqi family and it was the 2000s...

Oh, ok that was a lot to take in on a Saturday morning at 4 am. Well, assuming he indeed is, that would...explain a lot. Yeah, getting diagnosed in 5th grade would have put a lot of weight on his shoulders, but so is being an undiagnosed adult who is trying to make it into this world as if nothing is wrong. Also, funny his mom didn’t want to get him diagnosed cause it would put his future in jeopardy, but in the end Audrey ended up a fine mostly functional adult and he’s just been all over the place in recent years...Sometime he wasn’t even all over the place, he was just straight up in a dark place.

Audrey: Though, let’s say, considering we’ve been the best of friends since kindergarten, I know it’s because we were next door neighbours and our parents were friends, but like...Ok, it’s ironic cause I’m about to use an idiom, but you know, birds of a feather fuck together. Dawud: ...Don’t you mean flock together??? Audrey: I mean...they can fuck too...If you know what I mean. Dawud: No, in fact I don’t.

Whelp, Audrey don’t know what she expected.

It all started because Audrey wanted to see a flying saucer, and now he’s finding out something new about himself. I mean, it’s not 100% confirmed, but it seems pretty likely. Much to process and think about as he’s trying to fall asleep at 4:30 in the morning.

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[chaosnojutsu]

I don't mean to pry, but are you doing okay? Not the same anon as before, and it's by no means my business, but worst year of your life sounds like you're dealing with a lot, and I've noticed that there was a change in your recent posts lately- did something happen?- and I hope you're able to get the help that you need

not prying at all, thank you for your concern! my reply turned out a bit lengthier than intended, but the short version is a lot of really bad things happened and i kinda hit rock bottom and now i’m pulling myself back to my feet. the long version is the novel below.

a year ago i was going through some big changes and hitting milestones that i was very excited about, and i felt overly optimistic about what the next year (now this past year) would look like, and i learned the hard way that it was actually just a bunch of naivety and trust issues and mental health problems that i thought i was handling better than i was. flew high, fell hard.

i’m doing better now; am in the healing stage from the whiplash of 2023 and all that came with it, am still seeing my amazing therapist and am on new meds. she is a therapist though not a psychologist or psychiatrist and as such cannot diagnose, but she and i believe i fit the criteria for a specific condition, and we’ve been approaching my sessions as if she were treating someone who does have a diagnosis, and we’re seeing great results. i’m still grieving so much of my old life, which likely accounts for my depressy posts, but there are areas where i’ve finally started healing.

the sucky part about healing is how messy it is. over the past year my entire worldview shattered and my core beliefs crumbled and i had no idea who i was or who i wanted to be. i was physically displaced and am still in more debt than i ever have been before. bouncing back from all that is collectively the hardest thing i’ve ever done, and with that has come change; changes in my lifestyle, my mindset, how i will and won’t let people speak to me any longer, for example. not everyone has liked these changes. i’ve lost so many friends — sometimes my call, sometimes theirs; for the better, though it hurts, because i’ve known some of these people since we were like thirteen — and for some of the ones who are still in my life, after how they have responded to the events of my life, i will never be able to look at them the same way or have the same kind of close relationship with them as i used to. the hardest part of this being, of course, that i have fewer and fewer people i can confide in about these things as they happen.

my glass isn’t half empty or half full; there just isn’t that much water in me right now. but i’m working on getting more, and i don’t plan on wasting it again.

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

20 Questions for Writers

Tagged by @cxttlefishcxller, thank you my friend!

I really wanted to tag Pix, but I can’t seem to remember your blog’s URL. ;;;

Note: I am unsure if "fic" here indicates fanfic or also includes original fic, but I assumed fanfic for some reason? Meh, most of what I write is fanfiction anyways.

Also, this got really long....

How many works do you have on AO3?

So, I don't really have many fics posted on Ao3. I have like. Three, I think? I'm working on moving them over! I just only want the Rewritten Better Versions on Ao3.

Update: It's 4! I forgot I put the Ruby Gloom fic up there hoping someone would adopt it.

(Fanfiction.net has 33, for comparsion.)

What is your total AO3 word count?

...How does one find that out without manually adding the numbers up....????

Edit: I found the Statistics page. It's 35,853

Fanfic.net would be over 300,000 though.

What fandoms do you write for?

Actively: Teen Titans and Pokemon! I also started a Ruby Gloom fic and almost-entirely-outlined but never-fully-wrote a Steven Universe fanfic. (Well, I did finish the Ocean Gem scene from Lapis's POV. Does that count?)

As far as RPing (you did only say "write for", after all!): - Teen Titans (Dove's main verse, which is part 00's show and part 80's comics) - Steven Universe (my Lapis blog was kinda active for awhile and though my Blue Diamond blog never saw any actual roleplaying, I did write a lot of headcanons!) - Yu-Gi-Oh! (Ryou Bakura, like Blue, was never roleplayed except once on rabb.it but I wrote scattered heacanons) - DCAMU (Raven, of course! Would love to get some actual rps going with her again. But alas. The Horrors.)

What are your top five fics by kudos?

So, kudos is specific to Ao3, and I don't have a lot there. Apparently, uhh.... the only fic that has any kudos at all is the 14 on Unforeseen and Unforesaken.

....I was going to say "But on fanfic.net..." Except fanfic.net doesn't have a comparable feature. {lD;;

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I really should! I just. Keep forgetting to check my email. I would, given the time and attention spoons and a computer that actually stays connected to the internet for longer than 15 minutes at a time...

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

It's not done yet. But it's going to be the final chapter of DDD. Dove literally asks, "I killed five people. Do I deserve to die?" It's... going to be Intense and come with a few content warnings because it's HEAVY.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

So far? Uhhhh........ I mean, A work of Magic (Pokemon fic) is pretty upbeat so far. The story basically BEGINS with Jess wanting to raise a Misdreavus and Mismagius (and finding them); Murky hating his flock (and he's with a trainer now so he's away from them); Missie being abandoned (but then found by a trainer who loves her!); and Mistress's arc is in the works (ha) but it's already begun (she's mad about her species being hated for their reputation but Jess doesn't care about that). It's going to be ALL happy endings.

I think, in the published stories, it might be between Mystery Sickness (Raven heals from the titular sickness and everyone's happy!) or Missing: Raven (wherein the titular missing Raven returns and everyone's happy!). In my unpublished fics though... Fire and Flight is going to end with Dove and Srentha getting married, and that's a really blissful scene for them, of course. This is hard actually because I don't like NOT-happy endings! They mostly all do except the ones that have direct sequels (DDD and Something Special).

Do you get hate on your fic?

Oh my stars, I USED to! Dove's core concept - "Raven's sister" - made SO many people mad! Keep in mind, I started sharing my stories in 2005 or 2006. Writing a character that fit arbitrary criteria that everyone else except me somehow knew was a !!SIN!!. (Two exclamation points for Mercymorn vibes are, in this case, intentional.)

One of the first things I shared was Dove's character bio. And people almost always said things like "She's a Mary Sue!" Simply because she was related to Raven. Or "She has too many powers!" (And Raven canonically has a new power like every 3 issues in the comics; what's your point?) People also said I wasn't allowed to make Dove like J-Pop because I also liked J-pop. Which is. Like. ??? H u h ? ? ? ???

It didn't make sense to me then and it doesn't make sense to me now.

I don't think I've gotten any hate in the past 10 years or so, though. Though I personally consider it equivalent to hate when someone goes to my Teen Titans stories and, in a review on that Teen Titans fanfic, without commenting on anything whatsoever regarding the content of the Teen Titans story, asks me to update the Ruby Gloom fic.

Fuck off.

(I got Really Painfully Disappointed when I saw that email that someone reviewed DDD! The first review on that story in YEARS! A story I've poured my heart and soul [and a little bit of my own mindscape experience] into creating! Only for it to be someone begging--on the WRONG DAMN STORY-- for me to update something I already explicitly said I was no longer writing.)

Do you write smut?

Not really. Not often. Not well. I mostly just have outlines. And there are like. Five scenes outlined. Brief scenes. (99.5% of the time, I don't care about smut at all. It's just not fun for me unless I am REALLY in EXACTLY the right mood to have fun with it.)

Do you write crossovers?

I did once! Unfortunately that was the only time I ever felt shame, because I thought it was Too Self-Indulgent and for some reason decided it was silly. Pokemon and Teen Titans. Dove gets a transportation spell wrong and ends up in the Pokemon world, and accidentally catches a Misdreavus. (Because what else would I write about in the Pokemon world? XD) I had this really fun idea about the ghost getting stuck in Raven's mindscape and Dove has to go in there to retrieve it. But I simply didn't have any idea where the story was going and lost interest. It's the only story I've ever deleted, and I regret it so much. I lost the flashdrive that had the original file on it and all the notes for that scene, too. u.u

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge. Although, let's be real, the idea that "Raven has a sister named Dove" is Very Far from Unique. Stories like that were all over 2000's fanfic.net. (I named my Dove independently and refuse to change it. It Has MEANING for mine, okay!)

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not to my knowledge?

Have you ever co-written a fic?

Most of the process! Sort of. A Work of Magic (my ACTUAL Pokemon fanfiction) is going to involve my best friend's trainer character as my trainer character's traveling companion! Eventually. Assuming I ever publish enough of the story to solidify Jess's team first....

That's also assuming rping doesn't count, by the way. I assume you mean fic as in "fanfiction specifically". But if RPs count, I have co-authored a GREAT many fics! In fact the first 5ish years I was roleplaying, it was in a chatroom specifically for Teen Titans OCs!

What's your all-time favorite ship?

This may be cheating, but my VERY FAVORITE ship is actually my OCxOC ship, Dove and Srentha! Secretshipping! My babies. The first romantic interest/couple I ever actually cared about.

If it HAAAAS to be a ship of characters within the realm of canon... JeriRae is probably the one. Though Lapidot was a contender for awhile.

I also really liked the OCxRaven ship in my favorite Teen Titans fanfiction... before I reread it at an age where I realized it's Weird to ship a 25 year old man with a character that the story states "hasn't even reached her sixteenth birthday". Their dynamic would be REALLY exciting if it wasn't a little creepy.

What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Honestly? All the smut scenes. I write at such an agonizingly slow pace as it is, but when I'm not actually In the Mood For Smutty Things, I'm actually mildly s*x-repulsed and when I'm not repulsed, I am simply Disinterested, and I'm not going to write it if it's Not Interesting.

What are your writing strengths?

Characterization so every character feels unique and alive! Maybe dialogue, as a subset of characterization and also sounding Pretty Natural? Using descriptive words that paint vivid pictures and echo vivid sounds and evoke powerful emotions! I've gotten my writing to a place where it generally flows very well, syntax-wise. Immersive descriptions of sensory experiences (especially tactile and auditory). Being able to get into the character's head and write the scene As They See It without using first-person. Character growth and developement is a Big Thing. I'm also learning to write better metaphors! (Still learning quite the right places to wield them, but I used to use a ton of hyperbole and modifiers that kinda killed the mood. I'm getting WAY better at them now though!)

Also, fic-specific: Hella headcanons! Especially for something I'm really interested in, like Azarath or how Raven's powers work. My analytical mind combined with the joy and perpetuity of hyperfixation means I analyze a LOT of little details in canon.

I can take a line that only briefly mentions a "magistrate of food production" and extrapolate an Entire Aspect of Society. (They have people in charge of food production! It's an organized aspect of society! It's HIERARCHICAL. "Magistrate" means he's judging things; he's not the only one calling the shots! It's PRODUCTION, which means it's not all foraged! They have a whole system for it; it's REGULATED! And I'm just now, at this very moment, thinking "holy shit, what did they do when the magistrate of food production fucking PERISHED"... not like that was the most important part of that scene. But. I never considered that before. Food is pretty important. I actually need to gnaw on this for awhile.)

What are your writing weaknesses?

Humor and fight scenes. Also fluff and smut, but I don't really enjoy writing those. There may be Occasional Fluff, especially in secretshipping scenes with Dove and Srentha, and usually it comes out pretty sweet, but it's always wrapped in Actual Story. And smut just. Doesn't really have any place in my writing. I've outlined a few things, "fully written" one singular lime scene. (It might eventually someday possibly conceivably become more than a lime. Maybe.)

But humor? I absolutely suck at that. My Pokemon fanfic has some humor elements, and sometimes the character narrating the scene via limited third person or omniscient makes a dry comment, and I appreciate dry humor. But humor just isn't... something I gravitate towards naturally. And when I do, it's dry and subtle and understated.

I tried to write a funny moment into DDD where Dove tries doing laundry with her powers, they go out of control, she gets the clothes mixed up and because Dove isn't from Earth and didn't know they have to stay separate in the washer, the whites and colors get mixed, and so Beast Boy laments his clothes turning pink. The scene ends with Beast Boy teasing her and saying he'll just get revenge, and Robin says, "So everyone except Dove: Watch for trip wires." It feels SO out of place in DDD. (You know: The story where murders happen and Dove has a breakdown.) I was going for "Break the dramatic tension with humor". You know. Comic relief. I'm not sure how well it worked.

And fight scenes? I can imagine Some Things Happening, but it's always in brief snatches of moments. I can't follow the flow of a fight in my head. I mostly describe it in snapshots, because I don't enjoy fights much. I don't enjoy physical training or sports or martial arts or war stories. I even zone out during Teen Titans (My #1 Hyperfixation) episodes when they're fighting. I don't enjoy writing them and I don't enjoy content of them, so I kind of just. Can't even figure out how they work. Solution: Slap a few serviceable moments together and call it a day. It's not a skill I intend to polish beyond "just get it over with so I can get to the COOL part". Cool, subjectively, being the part AFTER the fight.

I will say that I GREATLY enjoyed both the process of writing and somewhat enjoyed the result of the DDD climax battle! Chapter 20, the largely-abstract battle between Raven and Dove in Dove's mindscape. I absolutely LOVED playing around with how an empath and a telepath would wage war when they're LITERALLY INSIDE SOMEONE'S MIND! I didn't have to coordinate hits and weapons in my head; it was all abstract, emotional, redirection stuff that DOES capture my imagination!

But how often am I ever going to write an empath and a telepath fighting in a mindscape? It's the only battle scene I've ever written that I'm actually HAPPY with. (....event-wise, anyways. Not at all happy with the rhythm/prose/style. I like What Happens in the battle, not How It's Written. But the thing about not enjoying, and thus not practicing, a thing is that I'm not going to be good at it even when I really want to be.)

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I kinda do that already! Though most of it is in a conlang... Not sure if that counts. (I don't think I've published it anywhere. But if you've ever seen the scene I posted on dA that ends in "May your spirit soar free"? I hadn't done it at the time, but I now know how that's written: Phiareh se-o a'erentha.) Names come into play for character!Zira, particularly Ciraen and Zirane, and Leyla and Dove both have "affectionate" names used to denote especially deep fondness and significance. I don't think I've ever written an entire CONVERSATION in another language though.

Oh, and I intersperse Rorek's dialog with Latin at the beginning of that story because I'm a dork for Latin and he's supposed to have been ripped from the past and is ~magically~ learning English. It's a transition.

Anyways, I think it's fine but I think people should try to find a beta who knows the language.

First fandom you wrote for?

Does "inventing a Yu-Gi-Oh! card" count as writing? Because if so, probably that. If not: Does imagining a species count as writing? Then Pokemon or Yoshi (both of Nintendo fame). As far as actually fully writing out the stories in words with the intent for them to be read as a narrative: that's 100% Teen Titans.

Favorite fic you've ever written?

What is my favorite star in the sky? My favorite leaf on a tree? Which tidal wave is the moon's favorite? By the gods, I can't pick just ONE. I love them all for the whole tapestry they weave, and my Current Favorite changes by the day. The most statistically common "Favorites" tend to be:

- Dove's Dark Discovery (because writing the mindscape scenes was SO DAMN FUN!) - The Final Journey (I'm writing about Azar and that's very important to me for private Nexus reasons, but it's also important to DOVE! And it's a classic Adventure Quest story with a twist of "she's still getting over the fact that she killed people") - Something Special About Srentha (perhaps my most coherent plot to date and headcanoning Azarathean history like CRAZY) - Growing Up Demon (Leyla's childhood scenes that don't fit elsewhere and she's very fun and very loved and it warms my heart A Lot-- some of the only time I enjoy writing slice of life, but is it really slice of life when your life is magic and demons?) - A Work of Magic is my favorite when I'm in Pokemon-hyperfixation mode or am just really appreciating warm-fuzzies and low stakes.

...

Holy fricking gods I'm tired. I read that last question as "first fic you've ever written" and. Answer under the read-more because I typed that all out and I Like The Answer, but it's not....... the answer it's asking for. {lD;;

Oh great gods, define "writing"! I was playing out stories with my PowerPuff plush figure things at like age 5. I made up characters and species for Pokemon and Yoshi when I was that age, possibly even younger! And I made up Dove at a VERY young age, considering I'm still writing about her at age 30: I must have been 10 or 11! I came up with her Core Concept veeeery shortly after getting into Teen Titans. I specifically remember playing pretend when Teen Titans was still airing; my oldest sister was playing Terra and I was playing Dove. We were playing toys with a spare Raven Bandai figure being Raven's sister named Dove (something about time travel and crossing a river in a boat made of legos?) the night Spellbound aired. That was... (checks internet) October of 2004!

And the oldest writings I have dated-- as in, writings when I actually wrote down the date I put the words on paper-- are Dove stories from 2005. But I know I was writing the stories down on paper about a year before I actually started writing the dates down. So at the VERY latest, I started "writing" fics in 2005.

I don't think I started Intentionally Writing Fanfiction, as it actually

I'm tagging: Under the singular condition that you actually want to do it! @mymixofmuses @orionsdestiny @sirenianheart @impulse-goblin 

+AND: Anyone else who sees this and wants to do it! Frankly I'm not sure who else writes. @monstrousgourmandizingcats, if it can be interpreted as original fic?

[hazedxhealing]

i am now super curious why you thought you were a system, what brought you to believe you were a system, and why you stopped believing you were a system. do you still experience "system-esque" experiences but consider them singlet experiences now?

also my comment about you sounding like a detrans individual is like a comparison of apples to oranges, similar in my brain although obviously different in other ways. just because you were mistaken about your plural experiences does not mean that everyone else is, which is similar (not equal or the exact same, but similar) to some detrans people assuming everyone else is actually not trans and was deluded / misinformed.

and i will seethe, because it's frustrating to see singlets spread judgemental nonsense when the science doesn't conclusively say shit. the science doesn't say "there's definitely no way to experience multiple people in the brain without trauma", it says that the disorder labeled DID is the primary way they see it and treat it, since IT'S A DISORDER. if its not a disorder for someone, why would DISORDER specialists CARE? most research of systemhood (that isn't "aww look at this sad person who was hurt so so bad and cannot function :(( they need to become Whole again <3 i hope they become Normal and One Being instead of being InSaNe") is still in its 'childhood'. just like... a lot of science relating to the brain, imo.

anyway i will block you after you respond to this ask, it's just annoying to see singlets in syscourse. you cannot speak for us. you do not speak for the system community unless you ARE a system or are a professional that is trustworthy and fact checked to not be an ableist shitbag.

I’m going to preface this, again, with how I’ve done my own extensive almost decade long independent research, where I dug up literal studies, done by medical professionals, and cross referenced that with the multiple versions of the DSM-5 and psych textbooks I was studying. I then took that information, complied a list of questions, and asked my own psychiatrist these questions after my appointments off record, and cross referenced that with what information I’d already had. And then I took all of that multiple years worth of research I’d done and took it to my best friend who is a LITERAL CERTIFIED PSYCH WHO WENT TO COLLEGE FOR IT, and we cross referenced all of that with her own textbooks and DSM-5 variations.

I’ve done enough research to know what I’m talking about. I’ve gotten enough confirmation from medical professionals to know what I’m talking about. Science, and psychology, say that the only way to be plural outside of cultural differences is severe and repetitive childhood trauma. There is no other way to break the psyche down enough to cause fragmentation of one’s personality.

I thought I was a system for multiple different reasons, one being I fit the criteria including severe repeated childhood trauma as well as a few other factors that can be comorbid with other disorders.

I would have to completely trauma dump to explain where the line between what I thought it was and what it actually was happened.

But for a good bit of my formative years I’d had these symptoms, and lived my life as a system. Flash forward to being with my ex husband, who WAS FAKING DID HIMSELF, who had me brainwashed, who Munchhausen by proxy-ed me multiple times before, was using the same logic endos have and willing alters to appear. He was MAKING alter, the same way endos do, and even with his own, he used them as a crutch to abuse me.

So, I went to my - again, medically certified - psych best friend, and was like, hey (insert big long text about how my plural experience seems fucky and I’m kinda confused) and she came back with (insert long message about how it’s not DID, it’s BPD and my ex husband definitely forced the DID dx on me but I didn’t know it was forced into me because, again, brainwashed, MCBP)

I have enough of an experience with how DID does and doesn’t worth, I have enough of my own experience, plus watching my ex husband faking, plus multiple medical professionals confirming the research I’d done, plus the research itself, to have a leg in this conversation.

If you don’t like that I am advocating for people to STOP FAKING SERIOUS AND DEBILITATING MENTAL ILLNESS then that is a you problem, not a me problem. If you would rather people continue to make it harder for you to be taken seriously, or to be treated in times like medical abuse, or make it even harder to be evaluated because of the culture around DIDOSDD they are laying down, then go for it but I’m not going to continue to let people use a disorder caused by the most horrific childhood experiences for clout.

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i'm kinda curious how well sul fits into the typical shonen anime tropes, considering i haven't watched a LOT

ruby i'd say represents a shonen protag fairly well, considering she's been inspired by such since the beginning

jay is kind of difficult to pinpoint; they're definitely the "edgy one" but they're not a rival. they're not even a villain either; i think a lot of their tropes i definitely pull from western characters. if i had to say something i'd say they're meant to represent the flip-flopping of the typical shonen protag by being inspired by ed elric rather than [insert toy anime here], but even that comparison isn't super strong.

blaze is definitely the "best friend of the protagonist" archetype; those characters that dont matter to the plot as much as the protag and their rival, but still are there to make the protag feel less alone and have someone who is their sort of anti-lancer. blaze's growth is simple but still very much There

rina is also another character i think pulls from western media as much as jay. she definitely fits the criteria for "the girl", of the group, but that's a huge disservice as to what rina SHOULD be in the story. considering cassandra from tangled, catra from spop, and jinx from arcane are all influences that my beta reader bestie said i should look into for her reference... yeah, she definitely does fall under a lot of western influence. then again, out of the shonen anime i've watched, i havent been SUPER wowed by female characters (with the exception of fma but thats a given)

turqbalt also fulfills the role of "best friend of the protagonist", but mixed into the typical "red oni blue oni" and rival. i dont wanna make him too angsty or brooding (derogatory), so maybe he's not the PERFECT edgy rival archetype, but i'm also still trying to play into how calming the color blue is as a color, considering thats the point of his character representing the color blue

amethyst DEFINITELY is the dark magical girl trope; i'd love to research more about what that means. i think with it being a mahou shoujo trope ame is definitely not as edgy as shonen rivals can be, and her being the "dark one" of the paladins is definitely portrayed in a different way than cobalt's "edgy rival". definitely a trope i wanna look more into; see what works and what doesnt

finally, rose is meant to be more of a majou shoujo protagonist; yeah i said i'd be talking about shonen tropes but her being a shoujo protag is meant to contrast ruby being the perfect shonen protag. they have similar core values of friendship, love, and heroism but go about them in different ways; however it's not like they'd butt heads about it, but understand each other in a way different to the others simply because no one else has the weight of "protagonist" on their shoulders as much they feel.

overall i want sul to FEEL like an anime, but still break enough of the tropes because i still am a western creator who enjoys aspects of western creations while still respecting how much i enjoy anime ways of creating