#also @ the ppl who mostly self ship w men

[olderthannetfic]

This isn't a PSA as much as it is me wanting to see if anyone sees the same things i do but

For the longest time i couldn't stand trans fics. The most i could was honestly porn of it, but even then, it was highly dependent on what happened. And i always felt a little guilty but also couldn't properly bitch about it bcs i didn't want to get hated on ( I'm also enby so there's deff something there abt the guilt too)

But i recently read a trans fic i liked and i realised what was the problem w the ones I've read so far

1- they're mostly trans men. I rarely see any trans women outside of porn

2- it's always the one the fandom sees as a bottom/ the most fem like. And lots of these fics tend to also... I don't want to say infantilise this character, but I'm in a fandom where the venn diagram of ppl who trans this character and the ppl who write him as the " 150 yo virgin" while making his latino coded romantic interest very agressive and experienced is very close to a circle

3- there's always so much self hatred about fem parts. Like, so many trans stories seem to have the trans character absolutely hate that they were born female, often leading to self harm or worse. It's not probably the intent they were going for, but as an enby who actually LIKES their body, it kinda sent the message of " you're not miserable enough to be part of the community"

I'd like to see other ppls opinion on this

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I'm just highly selective about what porn I read with vaginas. Sometimes, I'm in the mood. Usually, I'm not. And if it's a m/m ship, I pretty much never am.

[takeyourhands]

female f/os are so often not talked about in the community? like, so often all i see are male f/os being talked about, so, hey, shoutout to all the people with f/os who are female! platonic, romantic, familial-- all of them are valid!!

[lilolilyr]

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Fanfic Review

Thank you very much! <3

Tagging any of my mutuals who want to do it :)

How many works do you have on AO3?

434 - less if we're only counting fics and not manips and such that I crosspostes to Ao3 and/or not those I put on anon, more if we're counting my WIPs I put as chapters of one fic as separate works... but yeah, def over 400

What's your total AO3 word count?

1 108 616

Yeah :D been busy last yeah, over half a Million in 2021 alone!

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

*laugs* over 60, i'll put the list last

Are there any new fandoms you want to write for?

Umm nothing I haven't already written sth for? Well, Might do sth Miss Fisher, Phryne/Jack/Doctor Mac ot3 intrigues me and there's like no content for them, but bc of that also idk whether i'd actually write it down, we'll see

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Mostly The Witcher fics

Which of your fics do you want more attention for?

Uhh I mean I wish Gunpowder Milkshake fandom got more attention in general bc the film and all the wlw ships deserve it

Other than that, tbh don't care

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try to! I like getting comments and want that ppl know that I appreciate them, but Gosh it's sometimes just WorkTM. I'm currently at less than 200 unanswered, so... yay? XD

What sorts of things do you normally write?

Lot's of h/c and getting together... also smut, generally wlw

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Idk check the angst tag? I don't write a lot of angst anyway

What's a fic that pushed you out of your comfort zone?

The 15k Bellatrix/self insert fever dream thing I wrote in one go certainly was... something?

Other than that I honestly don't know, I just write what i feel like writing

Do you write crossovers?

Rarely long or coherent ones!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yeah, at least 3 I can think of, plus a bunch I translated myself

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I'm co-writing a Mirandy one atm!

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

So many :(( all my multiverse ones really

What are you currently working on?

Nothing actively, I barely finished my b&w gift exchange fic that was due this week, i've been rly exhausted plus had migraines lately

Lot's of GM and some Mirandy and Milippa drafts to get back to tho!

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Technically The Hobbit but that was just 1 ficlet, so I'd say Marvel instead

Most recent?

Gunpowder Milkshake my beloved!

What's your favorite fic you've written? What fic are you most proud of?

TOG Andromaquynh In Your Stead <3

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& again - How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Good Omens (TV) (116)The Old Guard (Movie 2020) (85)Star Trek (63)Star Trek: Discovery (44)Gunpowder Milkshake (2021) (32)Marvel (30)Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling (22)Marvel Cinematic Universe (17)Good Omens - Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett (14)Hawaii Five-0 (2010) (12)Captain America (Movies) (11)Star Trek: The Original Series (10)Ocean's 8 (2018) (10)Ocean's Eleven Trilogy (Movies) (9)Hawkeye (Comics) (8)James Bond (Craig Movies) (7)Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies) (7)Original Work (7)Wiedźmin | The Witcher - All Media Types (6)Black Panther (2018) (6)Sherlock (TV) (6)Warehouse 13 (5)The Avengers (Marvel Movies) (4)Ella Schön (TV) (4)The Devil Wears Prada (2006) (4)Sherlock Holmes & Related Fandoms (3)Hell's Kitchen (US TV) RPF (3)Holby City (3)Pirates of the Caribbean (Movies) (3)The Hobbit (Jackson Movies) (2)Star Wars - All Media Types (2)Twilight Series - All Media Types (2)Body of Proof (TV 2011) (2)NCIS (2)Men in Black (Movies) (2)Supernatural (TV 2005) (2)Doctor Who (2)Pitch Perfect (Movies) (2)The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types (2)The Mentalist (2)Captain America - All Media Types (2)Reef Break (TV) (1)The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien (1)Venom (Marvel Movies) (1)Lie to Me (TV) (1)Star Wars Sequel Trilogy (1)Black Magician Trilogy - Trudi Canavan (1)House of Night - P. C. Cast & Kristin Cast (1)Star Trek: Voyager (1)Age of the Five Series - Trudi Canavan (1)A Little Princess - Frances Hodgson Burnett (1)Charlie's Angels (2019) (1)Venom (Comics) (1)Mako Mermaids (1)Bohemian Rhapsody (Movie 2018) (1)Eureka (TV) (1)Kyss Mig | With Every Heartbeat (2011) (1)Birds of Prey (And the Fantabulous Emancipation of One Harley Quinn) (2020) (1)Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movies) (1)Nina (2018) (1)Skulduggery Pleasant - Derek Landy (1)The Hybrid Chronicles - Kat Zhang (1)

[sireneia-a]

anyway thread wishlist stuff i guess ?? ofc nobody has to do this so if you ever want to thread w/ me about something different don’t feel obligated to choose any of these just cause i eventually want to write them 

it’s lengthy as a note but at least under a cut! apologies for those on mobile. i’m also refraining from listing anything shippy since i don’t want ppl to feel obligated to ship with me just because i like a certain ship fsduhfsdkjsdhksfd. list goes in roster order, not based on personal interest level. i’m also putting the MOST far-fetched shit on here like with muses i expect literally no one to have cause i’m wild

KENT ( fe7 )

odd friendship between kent, sain and lowen 

kent hanging out with literally any of the other red christmas cavaliers

postgame conversation with kent about what both parties have been up to since fe7 

heroes verse thread with kent and another steward like character

heroes verse thread with kent and another catria archetype having that Unrequited Love for Liege Solidarity

KLIFF ( fe2 / fe15 )

hrm... i honestly don’t have a lot? i guess anything referencing the manga is cool cause i think his character arc in that’s really good

i mean. if i played archanea games, something with him meeting someone in archanea postgame probably would’ve been cool but i still haven’t played a marth game orz

OH HOW COULD I FORGET an fe2 kliff and an fe15 kliff interacting with one another!! probably heroes verse. i’d take writing the fe2 kliff any day god i love him

PERCY / LUTZ ( fe14 )

heroes verse thread where lutz latches onto michalis with admiration 

heirs of fate verse thread between lutz and one of siegbert’s other retainers ( soleil, velour, ignis ) OR with syalla

azura mothered percy talking to his mom about his insecurity with singing compared to / inferiority complex with shigure

literally anything with hisame dude these supports have me so shooketh

TATIANA ( fe2 / fe15 )

any threads between tatiana and either zeke/camus OR nyna are Yes. Very Yes in my book. i love the uniqueness and gray morality of their love triangle situation

since i hc that tatiana is good friends with rinea pregame, i think a thread between her and berkut pregame sounds good!! or heroes thread if someone prefers. it could be about anything honestly

fe2 tatiana interacting with an fe15 tatiana!!! heroes verse most likely as was explained in kliff’s variant. i’m definitely willing to write either tatiana in this situation but i’d assume fe2 tatiana would be mine ngl

HMMM i don’t really have much direction this, but i think tatiana interacting with a louise sounds kinda interesting!

tatiana interacting with a lovestruck character ( not necessarily a catria archetype but characters like canon love interests could also work ) that are young and serving as a confidant for them on romance affairs!!!

STAHL ( fe13 )

mentor-student relationship between frederick and stahl

WEIRDLY SPECIFIC BUT... heroes verse thread between stahl and alec?? i just think these two would have a weird dynamic that sounds kinda fresh

HINATA ( fe14 )

parent-child thread between him and hisame !!!!

i have a valentia verse for him i wouldn’t mind using actually!! especially considering he’s a deserter in that au

MARIBELLE ( fe13 )

hmm i’m probably not describing this well but a thread where she helps someone with dressing up / makeup sounds feel-good?

maribelle helping plan lissa’s wedding !!! god u know she’d be all over that shit !!!

maribelle and chrom having some kind of heart to heart. maybe talking over the past?? whether it be the former exalt and ylisse’s past or hell even some jugdral history. i feel like she’d know it.

SILAS ( fe14 )

somebody talking about silas’s history as a bad boy(tm)

silas reminiscing about the past with either camilla or xander

big brother relationship between silas and elise?? i mentioned briefly before that i think them being close because of him opening up about how he wants to meet corrin again and elise being supportive is totally my jam

more corrin + silas childhood friend interactions in general dude i won’t ever get enough of that

BERKUT ( fe15 )

berkut and fernand interactions are cool !!! especially ones that highlight their age difference and maturity levels/gap in experience

berkut lives au where he reflects with alm about the paths they took in life

berkut lives au where he talks with alm about rudolf and rigel in general

dude literally any otome situation between berkut and rinea and i’m down. i know i said i’d refrain from anything shippy but <:’) oops.... 

HAYATO / TSUKUYOMI ( fe14 )

hayato meets elise. idc where it goes but i just think their dynamic could be hilarious

hayato reflects with fuga about his parents

parent-child thread where hayato talks about the wind tribe with rhajat

heroes verse thread where hayato meets ricken. i’m also down for him being like the oldest version ( except maybe azelle might be older than him ?? idk dude ) of the archetype of young prodigy mage and just babysitting them all begrudgingly

a ship thread where someone convinces him it’s okay to be self-indulgent and show childish behavior or weakness. idk if he’s acquiesce if it was someone besides his lover

training thread or some other kind of interaction between hayato and hinata

MARK ( fe7 )

one of the rgb lords trying to help him learn self-defense

reunion with lyn in heroes verse. though warning that mark will kinda be awkward and not as warm abt it as nintendo continually makes lyn about it

more threads in general between mark and robins actually! considering the games like to liken them to one another

a thread between mark and someone from bern. let it be awkward. or let the other person actually have heard of mark before and his history in bern.

LEIF ( fe4 / fe5 )

a thread between him and seliph. i don’t really have any specific ideas except leif kinda being envious but yeah!

a thread with an ares talking about their times in leonster

dude an interaction with him and literally ANY second gen trust me i’ll be here forever if i list them all down but febail, patty, tine, lene, coirpre, diarmuid, and ced all jump out to me for various reasons

heroes verse thread between him and someone from awakening talking about how his legacy might have been thousands of years in the future. idk if leif would be like Extremely notable in the same way that arvis was, but i’d think it cool!

fe5 muses i will die for u

leif interactions with other protags!! god i love crossover protag interactions in heroes verse trust me

CLIVE ( fe2 / fe15 )

thread between him and jesse catching up on old times. this can be as awkward as hell or jovial but with clive hiding awkwardness underneath it

some kind of introspective heart-to-heart between him and mathilda, forsyth, lukas, or python. i’m down for any of those four tbh

not as much an interest to me as the kliff variant of this was  ( mostly due to the fact both clives are pretty similar actually ) but !!! fe2 and fe15 clive interacting with one another and talking about their circumstances. who do u trust more than urself

COIRPRE ( fe4 / fe5 )

sibling thread after lene and coirpre find out they’re related. 

sylvia children solidarity is being prisoners of war: the thread

sylvia children duality: coirpre having found family dynamic but lene is still fixated on finding their birth parents

au where coirpre is fathered by lewyn and he wields forseti but refuses to use it even though he still has it with him.

( incest implications tw ) a claud fathered coirpre holding the power to bring people back to life interacting with a charlot who knows how to wield the berserk staff. The Contrast My Dudes. or this same coirpre interacting with seliph post-war.

awkward thread between coirpre and a dancer since he has an aversion to dancers unlike most fe characters. heroes verse possibly BUT i can also work with a lara since i hc that it’s actually her troupe that he built his distaste for dancers from.

TINE ( fe4 )

sibling thread between her and arthur talking about their different histories growing up

LENE ( fe4 )

the three sibling threads i mentioned beforehand with coirpre

lene talking with lara about the influential men in their lives and their motives for becoming dancers

same thing as above but with rinea in heroes verse holy shit!!!!!

[freedom-of-fanfic]

antishipping as the ‘cool new trend’

or: why are most antis under 25 years old? (posted June 2017)

I really think that antishipping is a movement that’s gaining ground with the younger & newer arrivals to fandom spaces; a kind of ‘cool trend’, so to speak. In aggregate, antishipping culture is beautifully constructed to be particularly appealing to teenage or college-age people in the late 2010′s - and especially American people - who are marginalized, oppressed, often social outcasts in real life and often under-educated about their own marginalized identity, and I kind of wanted to get into why.

EDIT (October 2018): this post is was originally put up in June 2017. I’ve tweaked it a bit to correct some stuff I now think is just patronizing/incorrect, but overall, I now think it’s overly reliant on adolescent growth stages when the best explanations are societal changes (fandom being on viral social media, fandom being conflated with social justice activism, and increasingly authoritarian trends in 21st century America.)

the other day I posted to talk a little about why I think antis tend to be young (and American). To sum up & simultaneously add a little more:

a brain still growing - until the age of 22-25, the frontal lobe of the brain does not finish development. the frontal lobe handles higher reasoning skills and complex problem-solving. Thus: the growing mind is particularly prone to incomplete reasoning, black and white thinking, and total empathy failure, making it hard for those under 25 to fully comprehend the impact of their actions, sympathize with others, or tackle social problems with nuance. Truly comprehending that others come from entirely different worldviews or have entirely different experiences and that being different doesn’t make them wrong and that most deep-seated problems need complex solutions that require nuance tends to come with this final brain growth. (Not always, of course. but often.) nah I’ve completely changed my mind on this. It’s true that physiological changes are still occurring in teens that make empathy harder, but they can respect the choices of others just as well as an adult can.

current American sex education being mostly scaremongering and abstinence-only + ready availability of sexual content, specifically pornographic material, online + hypersexual marketing = a deeply fucked cultural understanding of sex that adolescents are particularly unequipped to detangle

escaping religious/Christian fundamentalism but not  black&white thinking or authoritarian ‘us vs them’ mindset: the moral/communal purity that organized Christianity often demands can take years to deprogram (and this is not to mention the gender essentialism, homophobia/queerphobia, and anti-sex/anti-kink messages, accompanied by a strong undercurrent of anti-intellectualism to discourage self-education on these subjects!) teens just breaking away from this toxicity are especially unequipped to untangle themselves. Young ppl tend to take the same worldview/us vs them/b&w thinking they grew up with to a more liberal cause instead (such as enforcing ‘social justice’ in shipping), with a side-order of internalized, unexamined anti-lgbt/sex/kink/etc rhetoric that dovetails rather neatly with exclusionist rhetoric.

exclusionary gatekeeping as baby’s first lgbt/queer culture lesson - transformative fandom is a frequent haven for marginalized people who don’t see themselves in the media they consume (so they change the media to meet their emotional, sexual, social, etc needs, you see?). because it’s not taught in schools here in the US, it’s not too uncommon for newcomers to get their first big dose of history and cultural education that’s not centered around straight white men in fandom. but what are they learning? here on tumblr, since about 2013, exclusionists have used the relative lack of education on queer history to build an false history, one where the gender binary is strongly enforced and sexualities can only exist on the binary axis: nb/queer/ace/pan and sometimes even bi and trans -identifying people are erased or ‘not oppressed enough’. this history is the one that young entrants into fandom are more likely to encounter first and have no knowledge with which to counter it.  Antishipping derives its mode of operation and principle values from exclusionists. It dictates who can write or do what based on their sexual/gender identity (and sometimes race as well). Its definition of social justice is also heavily influenced by exclusionists because its members are mostly young people who learned all their queer history from exclusionists.

the particularly adolescent vulnerability to peer pressure (the need to belong & the fear of being ostracized): teens are particularly inclined to be influenced by friendships and maintaining social ties. [...]  it’s easy to become an anti in order to keep your friends and almost impossible to quit without losing everything, and teens are especially vulnerable to this kind of social structure.  I think this was a factor 18 months ago, but not so much now. both ‘sides’ of this argument are pretty well-known and people in fandom can have strong opinions on shipping or anti-shipping from very early on.

less focus on teaching critical thinking & self-government. Education in America has long been aimed towards adequate training to work an assembly line, but 21st century American parenting and education both have neglected teaching young people how to make decisions for themselves & how to engage in critical analysis of what they see and read. antishipping is a highly cohesive, insular culture with enforced rules of conduct, striking clear in/out lines and valuing loyalty and groupthink over originality and intellectualism. also: keeping the party line & persecution of outsiders is encouraged, further strengthening the need to conform.

having a just cause & a space to control: antishipping rests its laurels on a(n incomplete, corrupted) form of social justice/righting the wrongs of the privileged. being an anti feels like making a difference b/c your actions have visible impact on your immediate surroundings. (and having a space you feel you can control can be even more urgent with additional pressures like abusive home situations, past traumatic experiences, academic pressure, untreated/unrecognized mental illness, being forced into the closet b/c of queer/transphobia, etc.)

an American (and to a lesser degree, western European) post 9/11* cultural shift from prioritizing personal freedom to prioritizing communal safety; those under the age of 20 were 3 or younger or not yet born when the shift happened. antishipping prioritizes communal ‘safety’ (‘bad’, ‘dangerous’, or ‘inappropriate’ things must never be mentioned to protect people from hearing about them and being either corrupted or harmed) over personal freedom (allowing ‘bad’/’dangerous’ things to be  discussed, and it is up to the individual to personally decide what content to avoid).

(*actually, this shift started in the US before 9/11. 9/11 just sped it up.)

of course, all of this is conjecture based on my own experiences and observations, and it’s not a set of rules - just circumstances that I believe absolutely encourage young fandom members to end up falling headfirst into antishipping and either never notice how hurtful it is or never get the courage to leave it behind. And I think there’s a lot more the popularity/prevalence of antishipping today, but this post is already longer than I meant it to be.

(I always go light on racism when i talk about antishipping because while antis frequently accuse shippers of racism, it’s disingenuous to class racism as the same kind of oppression as lgbt+-phobia & misogyny, particularly in America - they’re related, but not the same. Centering non-white (and especially black) voices does not get the same focus as centering lgbt and women’s voices in fandom, and I think it’s easy to dismiss legitimate charges of racism as ‘anti bullshit’ when we class all these types of marginalization together.)