#also criticism is fine just... don't be so mean abt it pls

[willowistic22]

was lowkey waiting for someone to ask me about tswift songs i associate with race bcs i’ve got a lot but no one did :’) looks like i got to take matters to my own hands then. Let’s go !! 

ME! ‘I promise that you’ll never find another like me’ I feel like if asked what Race is like most people will say that he’s ‘one of a kind’ or like he’s ‘the best person they’ve ever met’. He cares and loves in his own very unique way. But also him being him in general is already just something to love (though he still have problems with that which I will get to with the other songs) There are other lyrics that I think correlates with his personality actually like ‘I know that I’m a handful baby, uh’. Before anyone goes out to on me I know turning him into a dumbass is a bit... ehh and this lyric plays it out like that too. But I don’t actually think his only personality is just that, aight? I got more songs on this list. 

Illicit Affairs. ‘Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me’ and ‘And you know damn well, for you I would ruin myself’. Race is easy to love and care bcs he has a big heart. But oh damn, sometimes he finds himself caring or loving a bit too much for the wrong ppl. He knows better not to offer everyone his big heart that easily but sometimes he can’t help it. He loves the idea of loving and being loved back. Unfortunately, there are many times where he finds himself not being loved back and it really messes him up yknow.

New Romantics. ‘Heartbreak is our national anthem, we sing it proudly’ and ‘we’re too busy dancing, to get knocked off our feet’. Now this one is because of KONY. The song basically goes on abt the simple things those newsies want in life which can be heartbreaking bcs it’s just so simple to get for most ppl but those kids see it as a luxury. Race is the first one to embrace their unfortunate situation as something ‘happy’ bcs he can see the bright side of things if he wants to. Oh and he cares for his friends like I said. He’d get them to dance around these small simple things about their lives till they feel alright again and untouchable. These heartbreaking things is sometimes the only thing he can hang onto when things are confusing like that time around KONY. And besides he can’t just let his friends sit around hurting and sulking like that. 

Enchanted. The whole song basically. Because he is in fact very charming. Knows the right words to get ppl to fall into his arms pretty easily. And basically ppl will say it’s ‘very enchanting to meet him’. He’s smooth with the way he talks and acts. He pulls the right strings on ppl and takes special pride to it that he is very likeable to people. And honestly? I dare to say he’s very much sweet. Proper and polite when you first meet him. Once he gets to know you better, he will play the right strings to cheer you up or to get you to fall helplessly in love with him all over again. 

Death By A Thousand Cuts. ‘My heart, my hips, my body, my love Trying to find a part of me that you didn't touch’ and also ‘Gave you too much but it wasn't enough. But I'll be all right, it's just a thousand cuts’ again reinforcing the idea that when Race loves he really loves and let people move his feelings so much that when it’s the wrong ppl he gets incredibly hurt. But that second lyric I focused on for this song implies that despite the hurt Race won’t show it. His ‘I’m fine’ answers definitely has a double meaning behind it most of the time but he doesn’t wanna burden his friends with his pain which is why that’s his go to answer. He’s got this mindset that he’s the one that’s suppose to cheer people up and not the other way around. He knows that mindset isn’t good and is trying to change it but he can’t help it. 

Mirrorball. This one is because of the vibe of the song when Race is at his lowest point but also a few lyrics I want to focus on. ‘I can change everything about me to fit in’ and also ‘I'm still on that tightrope I'm still trying everything to get you laughing at me’ Honestly I feel like as much as he is likeable is because he tries his absolute best to be, as in changing himself for the different ppl he first meets. I feel he has a long history of not many ppl liking him bcs he is himself and at one period in his life he changed his personality so many times just because he wants to belong. Trying to change his humor just to get ppl to simply laugh at him. He has now grown to learn that it’s not good for him to do so but still have a tough time dealing it because validation is one of his love languages. It serves a problem for Race’s big heart. He’s very open for love (like i mention before in the previous songs) that sometimes he stretches himself a million different ways to please everyone. It’s definitely why I associate him with enchanted. But really, him being him is already enchanting enough but he has bad past with just being ‘plain old race’ so he pleases others. 

Delicate. Now this one is when he finally comes to terms that he can’t and really shouldn’t please ppl. ‘He must like me for me’. One of the reasons why he loves the idea of loving and then being loved back is because of that one problem. He can still get ppl to easily like him by being smooth and pulling the right strings in them like I said before, but he’s learning now pleasing ppl isn’t always worth it. If it’s general like as an acquaintance or meeting someone for the first time or to sell papes, he’ll mostly be a pleaser but will try his best to hold back with that pleaser mentality when the new person gets closer to him to see if they do like him for him. He ofc still has a big heart that gets hurt easily but he is growing to learn to be careful with who he loves and puts his energy in. ME! is because he already has a unique personality that he should know better to love in itself while Delicate is a reminder that not everyone will love him for the way he is so he needs to be careful to not love too much. There are times where he accidentally slips away from his promise but most of the time he has learned to hold it. 

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things. Basically the song is about betrayal. After learning that the other person does not care about him the same way he does, he takes some time to heal and then once he’s strong enough he won’t hesitate to cut them out of his life. ‘Here’s to my real friends’ He knows he has ppl that loves him just the way he is, even though it’s sometimes a tough pill for him to swallow. But he’ll get there. He’s slowly unlocking that resilience in him. Race knows it’s there somewhere, he just needs time to look for it. 

Most of these might not even make sense, and for that I apologize. It might even sound like I’m just repeating myself in 7896985 different ways but that’s fine, ig... I hope I got my point across. And I also would like to point out, when I say ‘love’ it doesn’t always mean romantically, aight? It means all sorts of love. 

[ihavenocarinsurance]

Akatsuki Headcanons:

Holding hands for the first time

When I say I am sick n tired of rereading the same old akatsuki smut shit I mean it. Don't get me wrong, shit is well written. I am simply not horny. At least not as much as sumn of us. So, here we have a cute, fluffy headcanon made by me at 5:08am randomly bc I said so

CHARACTERS: Deidara, Sasori, Itachi, Kisame, Hidan, Kakuzu

GENRE: fluff

READER: genderneutral

CONTEXT: established romantic relationship, however it is still very fresh

EXTRA INFO: Since I am doing this with no preparation other than angr my interpretation of the characters might not allign with your ideas which is fine but criticism is always welcome

Deidara

If there was a gif showing this mf red as a tomato I'd use that one because this fella strikes me as someone who would be shOCKED

Not because he didn't necessarily expect it. He is a smart bboi in his own way but yk how some people do not go easy with emotions like some others do? yh he doesn't-That's what is happening

he is overjoyed but also anxious but so relieved yet so shook

is he holding your hand too tight? is we sweating? should he stfu or maybe talk abt something? if that mf tongue slips-

You'll probably notice how he has gone from the deidara who never shuts up to something else. You don't know what it is, but it has two functional legs for sure so that's cool

lean on him, get closer, kiss him- idc just love this man. it WILL break him but pls just go ahead-

Sasori

I love this man omg

pls give this dude some affection he gets no bitches

but now fr, I do think that he is very good at keeping himself calm when thinking of fights throughout the entire series. However, the difference is that while he is used to calming himself when in serious trouble this situation is different. he isn't in danger nor does he have a problem but it is uncalm for sure

amused yet clueless because oi yes holding hands but hdjsjd what now- maybe a little more awkward

if you were to hold his hand while leaning against him when tired that would make the situation easier for him because of the purpose

but let's say you guys are walking and you grab his hand while walking next to him. yh i can guarantee you it will be awkward

might even just straight up ask wtf you're doing

maybe this is just me being so in love with him that I just crave him softly smiling and kissing his s/o's head but jdjzjdjsjs mf is short as hell my 5"7 ass can go home

Itachi

so prettyuyyays

he expected some sort of physical affection at some point bc well that is normal (ig?) and welcomes it happily

i just know that he has been craving love and connection and canon-canon Itachi would probably not even engage with anyone on that level but we are in the middle of a pandemic and dont need that, we need smth that makes us feel loved

while holding hands might not be his favourite type of physical affection i can see him even engaging with you in that way when you walk or sit next to one another, maybe also when you cuddle in bed

in comparison to sasori, this wouldn't really ever become awkward. He doesn't lack the talking skills and even works towards avoiding such awkward silences for your comfort

Kisame

Big hands, you're not holding those you're holding his two fingers in your hands bc how tf-

But we love us some big hands and Kisame

surprised at first but plays it cool. he'll prob won't even attempt to hide his surprise and just smile while he flirts or attempts to make you blush too

no matter when you'd attempt to hold his hand for the first time, you could be in the middle of a normal conversation and he would stop talking/listening and direct all attention to your hands

its kinda funny with how fast he switches from surprised n blushing, to looking and then flirting

the flirting/attempt to make you blush too is his way of making himself less anxious abt the situation. he shares his misery with you and you both just laugh it off

I can easily imagine him offering you his hand to hold in the future bc why the hell not

Hidan

"Hm? What is that about?"

genuinely clueless

its not because he doesn't enjoy physical affection but more like he just goes ???

does he prefer stuff like cuddling, hugging and kissing over holding hands? sure

but he acknowledges your courage and holds your hand more often in order to make you happy and not feel rejected or anything. besides y'all can take it slow

he'd def be the type to give you a kiss on the back of your hand every. single. damn. time.

tho unless holding hands is the only way of being affetionate he prefers doing something else while also holding your hand like cuddling, caressing your hair/back, kissing you, hugging etc

therefore you should expect some kisses after answering his stupid questions

Kakuzu

Man loves you but pls dont interrupt him

so let's say he is free and is simply existing. go ahead. hold his hand. he will probably just sigh but definitely hold your hand

depending on the situation this either leads to cuddling, hugging or another conversation (topic)

he prefers cuddling once both of you lay down to sleep after everything else is done however holding hands rarely rly stands in the way like you can walk perfectly while holding hands so why complain

holding hands is not really his favourite type of affection neither smth he really initiates like ever but he wouldn't reject you either

[hongism]

i just want you to know. that mists of celeste has been rotting my brain so hard i physically cannot stop thinking abt it like. the way you got my adhd ass hyperfixating on a Fanfic 😭😭😭 my poor bestie had to endure me rambling about it for a week straight as i read it. n now that im up to date part of me wants to go back and reread it now that i'll be able to pick up all the foreshadowing and details i mightve missed the first time in full. honestly still reeling from realising woosang knew mc as kids and still remember it and wooyo was the one who left the blood trail specifically for san to find like my mind is BLOWN. im usually pretty good at predicting plot twists but i never could've possibly saw that one coming till you started hand feeding us the hints. my god you are a mad genius.

anyway i have some questions!!! if you don't mind indulging me. im curious as to what technology is like in the moc universe like usually given the expanse of space travel across multiple galaxies and classes with different powers n such, you'd think they'd have some sort of phone/computer/internet system right?? i mean obviously we got the comms but it seems like that's just for calls and whatever can fit on the tiny screen of a wristband. this part really jumped out at me when mc was talking abt doing dishes but also when she was asking nightingale (or was it hongjoong?) to be able to at least communicate w soojin in the whorehouse somehow. like maybe they're just not allowed personal tech in the whorehouse that'd make sense but like mc also talks abt how there's nothing to do on the ship but spar n chat n play cards n read and im just here like... yall don't got video games?? HDJSHKF like surely if you can have the fastest spaceship in the galaxy yall can have a vr headset or something like. where is the enrichment in this enclosure. this is obviously not like a criticism im just curious and wondering if there's more to it or if it was just kinda like. tryna keep the feel of a good ol pirate au, but space.

my other question was what this universe thinks abt queerness. like is it just a normal thing that no one bats an eye at in comparison to het relationships or does homophobia exist somewhere. if it does, is it different from planet to planet or galaxy to galaxy or is there a general overarching theme like how in our society being cishet is still the "norm" even tho diff countries have varying degrees of acceptance. cause there's been some clear sexism at the start towards mc being a woman, so that implies that bigoted prejudice does exist, but to what extent?

if you can't tell im just. a really big fan of worldbuilding 🤪 feel free to ramble extensively i will read it all 👁👄👁 or don't if u can't be assed that's fine too LOL

YOU’RE TOO KIND PLS!!! im sorry for rotting your brain 😩 i understand the hyperfixation troubles far too well i put my bestie through the ringer when i get my grubby lil gremlin hands on fic ! honestly my fave bits are seeing people go back and be hit with that ‘oh!’ realization of all the pieces falling into place and making sense it’s so so rewarding as a writer and im so glad to see it every time 🤧 and im THRILLED that i was able to catch you by surprise with the plot twists <3

ofc i don’t mind indulging you, i always always ADORE answering questions and talking about the worldbuilding bc worldbuilding is my most favorite part about creating fics!!!

it’s hard to really describe the technology in moc well bc on one hand we have this futuristic reality and universe but there are lots of modern technologies that we have irl that moc doesn’t contain like cellphones. however, things are different from planet to planet. certain planets are more advanced in terms of technology, i think i’ve touched on it a bit but aurum is the most advanced system, and kebos is sorta this futuristic version of ancient rome so it doesn’t have the same kind of technology that eros and aera have. as far as the planets that the crew has visited, there have been only a few that they have really explored in depth so to speak. like where we’re at currently in the story, on garrifax, they’re in a very rural countryside almost so there’s not a ton of technology there. given that there are many planets and systems spread across this universe, some parts are obviously going to be more technologically advanced than others.

there aren’t really ‘cellphones’ or smartphones like we would have but the wristbands go in place of that. what a lot of the scenery and environment is meant to emulate is a sort of call back to past history and things of the past, or a clinging to this old tradition even if it’s not the more forward-thinking type of technology. in that sense, i would say that moc’s universe is certainly not the typical cyberpunk feeling bc in cyberpunk there tends to be this huge emphasis on tech and that’s the driving force behind a lot of the universes in cyberpunk spaces. moc is set in a futuristic space universe but i wanted to play with this idea of a futuristic space au that isn’t supposed focused on these incredible technologies, and rather focus on the people in it and how they make the universe what it is. rather than having this super advanced internet-spaceship system, they have a comms system. but also they’re pirates, criminals, fugitives of the law - if they get too advanced with an internet system, they could be tracked just like criminals in the real world. the idea that ‘big brother is always watching’ is very much present in the universe of moc, and so that’s sort of a subconscious awareness type of thing rather than something i feel i need to go into lots of detail about. 

for me personally when i think about the story and when i’m constructing the story, the idea of there being things like video games or vr headsets doesn’t feel like it necessarily fits with the idea and tone of the setting that’s already been constructed, and that was never something i thought i wanted to include from the very beginning of the idea. and that was a conscious decision just because from the start, i’ve wanted the story to be set in this fantastical universe of course but the plot and the characters are meant to be the focal point, and i didn’t feel a need to add all this fictional advanced technology into the mix on top of that. for things like dishwashers, yes those exist in the universe, but that was more of a personal experience thing - there are times where i was dishes by hand bc they can’t go in the washer or bc i feel like washing by hand so i wouldn’t put too much thought into those sorts of utilities!

as for queerness, i would say that aspect is a lot like the world we live in. in some places, it’s far more tolerated but in others it’s severely judged and looked down upon. in the scope of the main characters we have in our crew - i want the crew to feel like a safe space for not only the main character and the other crew members but also to the reader. they are a safe place and they offer understanding and warmth and comfort that’s completely separate from the parts of the universe that aren’t that accepting or understanding. it’s been addressed in the plot before with yeosang and wooyoung in particular, that they could never have been together even if wooyoung weren’t a slave because of gender and because of yeosang’s position as a prince. in the monarchies, there is very much that traditional old-school ancient mindset of a Cishet Male King and Cishet Female Queen. varying degrees of acceptance is the best way to put it, as with sexism, but again, i would say that the sexism is more heavily emphasized on the planets where we see clear regimens and almost archaic governments so to speak. 

i will say that we will see a lot more characters come into play, and we will see journeys with the characters we already know, and as it’s a story that’s very character based, those are aspects i love to focus on and so we’ll be getting into more of that and seeing things unfold and manifest over the course of the story as we’ve barely scratched the surface regarding the entirety of the universe and what it holds!

i hope this all makes sense and is more than just my ramblings bc my god did i ramble!