#and 2.) once again i DO NOT GO HERE im just speaking from my experience as someone whose race is regularly used as a costume

[nekropsii]

A cosplayer I'm friends with on Instagram often vagueposts on his stories with complaints about other fans cosplaying Meenah or Damara on account of it being racist to do so. (None of the cosplayers in question had done any... questionable makeup choices of any sort, they just had the usual light gray body paint approximating canon. The friend in question is white himself, as am I.) Do you think there's a genuine issue with people cosplaying characters like those ones?

I'm genuinely curious on your insights; I came to your blog for this since I find your posts both about the alpha trolls and the racism especially with them, but also in Homestuck overall, to be very well written. If this feels too much like discourse to you, you're free to delete it. (You askbox rules made me a bit nervous ^^)

This is a loaded question, which I am getting the sense is... A controversial one, and I do not feel equipped to give a solid yes or no answer on this as someone who is not a cosplayer and doesn't really know anything about the scene.

However, I do have to ask... Why specifically Damara and Meenah? There's an infinite amount of characters who are white, even within Homestuck. Why specifically dress up as characters who are without a single doubt not white? That is tacky to me. This isn't even an anime situation where it doesn't really matter until people start pinning their eyes back, Meenah and Damara - Damara especially - are depicted in a way that is straight up racist, and also some of the few characters in the comic who are just straight up not white. Like, you have other options. Most of the characters in the comic are white. Why them?

[gh0stsp1d3r]

ℳ𝒶𝓎𝒷𝒶𝓃𝓀𝓈 𝓈𝒾𝓈𝓉ℯ𝓇

Part 3 chapter 2- can I kiss you?

Series masterlist

Warnings: bullets, mentions of blood + getting shot, mentions of abuse

“Who are you calling fifty times?” Rafe asked Topper, who set his phone down on the bar. Topper turned to Rafe. “Huh? Who’s not answering?”

“I don’t know, Rafe, uh… does your sister ever do what she says she’s gonna do?”

“Not really, no.”

“Oh.”

“Ah! How’d she screw you this time?” He asked topper, handing him a glass of whiskey.

“So I did your sister a favor, right? Got reamed by my mom, I mean, it’s a shit show, man. So I do this favor, she’s like ‘oh I’ll hit you tonight.’ It’s tonight. Haven’t heard a thing, been calling her. Nothing. She’s just ignoring me. So, I don’t know, man.” He rambled.

“Listen, listen. Let’s sit.” Rafe patted his back, Topper sat down.

“Uh, she’s playing you like a fiddle, bro.”

“No.”

“She’s been playing you since day one.”

“It’s a lot different now.”

“You know why she can’t hit you up right now? It’s cause she’s with John B.”

“Listen, Rafe. She is not with John B.”

“Oh, okay.”

“She wouldn’t do that.”

“Well, she thinks she’s a pogue now. As soon as they think that, they’re gone, bro. Speaking from experience.” He shrugged.

“Can’t trust a pogue, not that you could trust her anyways. And now she’s with John B and you’re looking at me like I’m the bad guy? She’s gonna keep doing this, again and again and again..” he continued.

Topper stood up, downing the rest of his drink.

“Just playing you like a fiddle.”

“I’ll catch you later, Rafe.”

“All right, Top.” He raised his glass, smirk on his face. He was right, and Topper knew it. “Was good to see you.”

———

Everyone sat down in the Chateau, John B had taken himself to his room, Kiara strummed her ukulele, and you and Sarah played a game of “who’s dad sucked more?”

“My dad faked his death. Like… twice.” Sarah shrugged, taking a sip.

“My dad once made me drink a bottle of beer to calm me down when I was 6 because I threw a temper tantrum when he hit me.” You narrowed your eyes at the girl.

“My dad tried to kill all of my friends, more than once.”

“My dad stole 670 bucks from me on my 15th birthday so he could buy more heroin.”

“I think y/n already wins, by default.” Pope pointed at you, making you smile.

“Yeah, I thought so.” Sarah shook her head with a smile, getting up and going into John B’s room with two bottles.

“I never thought my trauma would ever make me win. This is great. Anyone else wanna play?” You asked.

“Think you beat everyone here.” Cleo said with a laugh, watching you chug the beer can you had and tossing it in the trash.

“I should go play for the nba.” You mumbled to yourself, JJ laughing.

“So, what type of plane is it?” Cleo asked, her and Pope playing mancala on the table.

“Well, it’s wards so im guessing something fancy.”

“That’s what I’m talking ‘bout, flying private, baby!”

JJ sat next to Kiara, her movements pausing and her putting her instrument down.

“Hey, kie. You know, that whole entire money clip and dad situation?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, um, that wasn’t that cool, and im kinda beating around the bush a little bit, but, um, I’m…” he looked up, you heard a crackling noise and looked up as well.

“What the fuck?” You mumbled to yourself, standing up and rushing over to the window.

“What is that?” Kiara asked.

“That’s a fire.”

“Everybody get the fuck out!” You shouted at JJ and Kie.

Everyone dispersed, telling the others that were in the rooms.

“There’s a fire!”

“Get outta here, everyone get the fuck out!” You shouted at the teenagers, but before they could, it had reached the door.

You grabbed Sarah hand, getting her away from the door when she went over.

You watched some one pull away from the Chateau amongst the fire, a Range Rover you noted in your head. But you couldn’t worry about that right now. You had to figure out how to get out.

——-

The entire of the Chateau had been burnt to the ground. You all sat on a tree, feeling defeated.

“Could’ve been a faulty electrical wire.”

“Place was all wood.”

“It wasn’t an accident.” You mumbled.

“What?” They turned to you now.

“I.. saw a car pull away from the Chateau when I pulled Sarah away from the door. A Range Rover. It had to be some kook.” You told them.

“And you’re just now telling us this?!” Kiara asked.

“I was the one who got us all out of there alive, so don’t.. give me that bullshit. I was waiting until we were all out, and safe. Fuck.” You hit your head against the tree.

“Verdicts in, bro. Whoever’s up there does not like you.” JJ said, patting John B’s shoulder. “Sorry.”

You sighed, grabbing a glass bottle and throwing it towards the burnt house.

——

“Sarah, when did you say the pilot was getting in?”

“Probably like an hour? I mean, once he’s here, my dad says we can leave whenever we want.”

“Okay, well, as much as I would love to ghost my parents again, I can’t.”

“Pope, we’re talking El dorado here. Can you just like slip out the back maybe?” JJ asked.

“Great advice.” Kie shook her head.

“It always worked for me. How to avoid unpleasant circumstances 101. If there’s a problem and you don’t wanna face it-“

“Turn that face and keister around, and walk the other way.” You rolled your eyes, finishing his sentence, remembering that you had always told him that. Although that never stopped him from getting into his fights.

“I’m not doing that, okay?” Pope told him.

“I just want you to be there, dawg.” JJ sighed.

“I’m gonna be there. I’ll meet you guys in the airstrip in an hour?”

“Yeah, we’ll see you there.”

“One hour, pope. Not a second later.”

“Shit, any of you guys gotta phone I could use? I gotta call in sick, I guess.” You remembered.

“Is that really important right now?” John B asked you.

“Yeah, it is. You know how damn hard it is to get a job recently?”

“There’s probably one up at that gas station across the street.” Sarah nodded in the direction.

“Okay. I’ll be right back, swear.”

“You want me to come with?” JJ asked, raising an eyebrow.

“I’m good. It’s not that far.” You began to walk off the dock, and towards the gas station.

You rummaged through your pockets for some change, glad that they still had a pay phone outside. “Fuck.” You mumbled, realizing you hadn’t had enough.

You looked around, and you spotted a familiar vehicle parked at one of the pumps.

“Oh my God.” You muttered. This would only happen to you.

Rafe walked out the gas station. You turned around, trying your best to hide yourself. But you heard him chuckle and say something.

“Funny seeing you here, y/n.”

“Rafeeee…” you drawled out, giving him a small smile. “Just the person I wanted to see.” You said sarcastically.

“What are you uh… doing out here..? Awfully far out, aren’t you?”

“Well, actually, my cousin works here and he asked me to bring him something since he’s doing an overnight.”

“Huh. Where’s your car then?”

“That’s none of your damn business, is it?” You snapped.

He held his hands up in defense. “Sorry. Sorry. I’ll get out your hair, but it was nice seeing you.”

“W-wait, Rafe.” You mentally faceplamed at yourself.

“Yeah?”

“I’m sorry. Can I use your phone? I really, really, need to call someone.”

He hesitated, before grabbing his phone out his pocket and unlocking it before handing it to you.

“Thank you..”

You typed in your jobs number, telling both of them you’d be out sick probably for a while, out with a virus.

“A virus, huh?” Rafe asked when you handed it to him again.

You shook your head. “I got shit to do, and I’m not trying to get fired in the process.”

“Makes sense.” He shrugged, shoving his hands in his pockets and leaning against a wall.

It was silent between the both of you before he spoke up again.

“Hey, I’m- I’m sorry if I uh… overstepped last time we talked. I was… drunk, and I… I dunno, I just feel bad about it… if that makes sense.”

Him apologizing was not what you expected. You stared at him, your mouth agape. You looked into his eyes and he seemed sincere.

You swallowed the lump in your throat, and he got off the wall, slowly walking towards you. His hands tangled into your hair, and made their way to the back of your head.

He leaned down, until his lips ghosted over yours. Your heart pounded and your eyes searched his.

“Can I kiss you?” He asked you quietly. Your nod was all he needed to move closer, your lips moving against each other.

But this kiss was different than the one in his bedroom, it was gentle, more loving. Your hands were on his chest, and oh god how you missed this.

Once he leaned away from the kiss, he cradled your face in his hands.

“I miss you. And I know I fucked up on the boat, and before that, but I want you to know I’m trying to change.” His thumb stroked your cheek.

“I… I miss you too. But, Rafe… I… I don’t know if it’s the best idea right now.”

“Is this about your brother still?”

“I- Rafe, it’s about everything. I got a lot going on right now.”

His hand fell from your face. “I get it.”

“Rafe-“

“I do, I get it. But all I want is for another chance to make things right. That's all I'm askin’ for.”

You sighed. “I… I have to go somewhere for a while, but when I come back, we can talk, alright?”

He nodded. “I’ll see you around, yeah?” He gave you a small smile.

“Yeah. I’ll see you.” You nodded back. He went close to you again, giving you another quick kiss before pulling away.

You leaned against the wall, sighing in relief when he walked away. You waited until he left the gas station to run back to the dock.

“Shit, sorry.” You panted as you ran up to them all.

“What took you so long?” JJ questioned with a quirked eyebrow.

“I had to ask people for their phones, and not a lotta people are nice I guess.”

“Whatever, I’ll see you guys on the tarmac!” JJ told them, you waving bye to them.

Kiara followed behind, “Hey, Jayj, wait. Hey. Um…”

You looked at them both, you standing there awkwardly. Kiara stared at you expectantly.

“I’m just gonna… yeah.” You snapped your fingers, turning back around and beginning to walk.

———

Rafe’s head swam in his thoughts. His unexpected visit with you resolved one of his problems, but he still had another major one. His dad.

“There’s no going back.”

Rafe paced the room, nervously biting his hands, his leg bouncing when he sat down.

He knew what he had to do. He drove over to where his dad was laying low, going over to his dad, fishing and drinking beer at the river.

“I need you to leave.” He told Ward.

“Oh, yeah? We talked about this already, Rafe.”

“I need you to go live your life in Guadeloupe. And you can let me live mine here.”

“I’m not gonna do that, okay?” Ward turned around, looking out into the water again.

“You realize… hey, you realize what could happen if you stay?”

“What could happen, Rafe?”

“What could happen? The police could find you here. Easy. And then, it’s… it’s done, you’re gone forever. Or something much worse.”

At his son’s words, Ward snapped his head around, standing and looking at him now.

“Much worse.”

“What have you done, son?”

Rafe walked towards him. “It’s not gonna be good if you stay.”

———

You and JJ walked through the house, you looking at the reminders of your dad while JJ shoved his clothes in a bag.

“You good?” He asked you, snapping you out of your thoughts.

“Yeah. Yeah, I’m fine.” You looked at him, shaking your head and going back into your old room.

You grabbed everything you possibly could, looking around the room. Your whole life, packed into it. It would be gone when you came back.

You came back out, looking at JJ grab things as well. You grabbed your camera, a flashlight and maybe a couple bottles of beer as well.

A car engine outside made both of your heads snap to the window. He looked at you and you looked at him.

“What the hell?” You mumbled, telling him to get away. You looked out the window.

“Oh shit. It’s Mike.” You looked at him.

“Shit. Shit.” JJ mumbled, both of you getting down and hiding.

“JJ! Y/n! It’s your ol’ buddy, Mike. You lost my load. Time to pay up!” He shouted from outside. “All right, we’re gonna do this your way. Hmm?” He grabbed his gun, cocking it.

“I’m coming in, y/n! Yeah, I know you’re in there.” You both leaned against the wall, you motioning for him to go the other way.

Mike opened the door, both of you panicking now.

“We’re gonna do this your way.” He repeated.

JJ ran out the door, grabbing his backpack. You glanced around, where the fuck was yours?

JJ was outside, and he looked around. You were still inside.

It took you a minute to find it, but you grabbed your backpack.

“It’s gonna be a lot easier if you do it now.”

He was getting closer, if you ran out, you risked JJ getting found. And if you didn’t, you risked getting shot.

You didn’t know what to do. Your heart pounded and tears threatened to fall.

A memory flashed in your mind for a second.

“Jayj!” You cried out, watching him get repeatedly punched by another boy on the playground. You didn’t know what to do.

“JJ!” You gasped when the boy was finally pulled off and Jj was left laying on the ground. You cried, tears hitting his body.

JJ had taken those hits for you after he had caught some boy making fun of you.

He had taken those hits for you then, so you would take this one for him. You stood there, just trying to give him enough time to run. You held your breath, as silent as you could possibly be.

Mike found you before you even realize it, and started to fire upon seeing you. You ran outside, hoping to God JJ was already far away.

“Y/n.” He whispered, watching you run into the woods, Mike already had lost you both.

You panted and fell behind a tree, JJ ran over and grabbed your arm, asking what was wrong.

Mike glanced around, shouting as he looked around outside

You and JJ hid behind a tree, he glanced at your leg, blood seeping through your pants as you set your bag down. “Oh… my god.”

“Fuck.” You gasped, holding your leg. You cried out, JJ grabbed your backpack and helped you up, noticing Mike getting even closer.

He grabbed a stick, handing it to you. You put it in between your teeth as to muffle your pained cries. JJ put his arm around you, helping you walk.

“Shit, stay with me, alright?”

“Mmhmm.” You groaned out through the stick.

“You’re gonna be fine, shit, why didn’t you fuckin’ run?” He cried out, and that’s when you noticed he was crying as well.

You looked at him, he sat you down when you both were far enough. He rolled up your pants, you crying in pain as you looked at the wound.

“Shit.” He mumbled, and began to rummage through his bag, grabbing a shirt of his and putting pressure on the wound.

You screamed, stick still muffling your noise. You grabbed onto JJ as he tied the shirt around your leg, hiding your face in his shoulder.

“Fuck. Okay. Uhm… are you okay? Never mind, dumb question. I’m gonna take you to Ricky’s, or something, okay? I’m sure he’ll know what to do, and I’ll stay back with you-“

You took the stick out your mouth, panting heavily and cutting his sentence off.

“I’ll be fine.”

“What? You just got shot-“

“JJ, listen to me.” You grabbed his face in your hands. “We’re getting on that damn tarmac if it’s the last thing I fucking do. I am going to be fine, and I will find a doctor or something when we get there. I’m sure healthcare is much more affordable there than it is here.” You joked, he looked up at you.

He was so confused on how in the worst situations possible, you made it better.

You wiped your finger over his face, wiping his tears away. “You hear me?”

He nodded. He felt like he was a child again.

“Now help me get the fuck up, please?” You gave him a small smile, he stood up and wrapped the arms around him again. You wincing as you stood up.

——

On the tarmac, John B and Sarah stood. They saw you both come up.

“Why is he helping her walk?” Sarah asked.

“Was he.. crying?”

One thing about JJ, he never does that.

“What the fuck happened? Are you okay?” Sarah asked when JJ came up to them, she immediately helped you stand up, giving Jj a break as he breathed heavily.

“Mike fuckin’ came up, shot her right in the leg. She’s fine. But I swear to God, the second I see him it’s on sight.”

You gave them a thumbs up, smiling at Sarah.

“She can’t.. she can’t come, dude.” John B said. “We gotta take her to a hospital or something-“

“Dude, I said the same thing.” JJ told him.

“I’m fine. I told you I’m fine. All I need right now is some alcohol, and probably for it to be cleaned. I can do this.” You shrugged. “Can I have my bag?” You asked JJ, he handed it to Sarah.

“C’mon.” Sarah helped you up into the plane, and grabbed one of the first aid kits hidden in there.

“Thanks, Sar.”

“Of course.” She said, giving you a small smile. She stayed focused when cleaning your wound, apologizing every time you winced.

“I would just sit here for a little, okay? Don’t walk on it or anything for a while.”

“Yeah. Thank you, again.”

She nodded, heading back outside the plane. You smiled and leaned back, grabbing a beer bottle from your backpack.

It’s been a while, and they’re all still outside. You were asleep, comfortable on the seats and leaning up against the window.

“Y/n. Y/n.” JJs voice interrupted your lovely sleep. You grumbled and stirred, slowly opening your eyes.

“What?”

“I gotta go get Kie, you gon’ be okay here?” He glanced down at your leg and back at you.

“What? What’s wrong with Kie?” You asked, concerned.

“She’s not here, we think her parents are keeping her home or something.”

“What? Let me come with.”

“Are you serious? You can’t even walk.”

“Actually, I can kinda walk. Plus, I think you forget how good I am at sneaking out.”

He raised an eyebrow, your leg saying otherwise.

“That was the only time I’ve gotten caught okay?” You rolled your eyes. “And I did it to save your ass.”

“I know, I know, but-“

“Jayj. Take me with you before I shoot you.”

“I ain’t falling for it this time.”

“Be careful, okay?” You sighed. He nodded.

“His loss.” You mumbled, watching as he left. You leaned back onto the window, stretching your legs and arms, before going back to sleep.

——-

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[so1arso1stice]

can you please write a bottom!yeji x reader? thank youuu

yas + ur welcomee

A GIRL’S FANTASY

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stripper!softdom!yeji x f!sub!reader (reader is introverted and doesn’t really go out often)

summary: reader doesn’t really go out much, so when her friends decided to take her out to a club, they wanted to make it her best night yet 😉

warnings: smut,

an: TYSM FOR ALL OF THE LOVE ON MY LAST FIC!! SERIOUSLY ILYSM ♥️♥️♥️💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

inspired by another blog post i read (it was a ningning fic instead), i forgot the name so srry if it was u i sampled this from

btw pls send me more anon suggs! i love reading and writing anon suggs, but the only thing is pls give me plot!!! im not a good at coming up w/ plot

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how did you, somebody who literally never goes out end up at a packed STRIP CLUB on a friday night? well you have your friends to thank you for that! your friends were always like “why don’t you go out?” “it’ll be fun, i promise” and “just this once, please!” eventually you started to get tired of them saying this stuff so you finally gave in and decided to waste your friday night this.

“y/n, i promise you’ll love this!” one of your friends say. “yea, and what if i don’t?” you say back. this causes your friends to roll their eyes in a sarcastic annoyance. “so, it’s the experience that counts, now come on let’s get in!” one of your other friends say as you guys enter the strip club. (pretend getting id’ed doesn’t exist here 🥰)

your goodness this was probably one of the craziest things you’ve ever seen. this huge strip club filled with tons of men and almost half naked women, it was kind of an odd sight for you. you didn’t even notice that you stopped in your tracks until one of your friends notices and says “y/n? you ok?” you nodded and your friend gave you a soft smile “i’ll be at the bar, come over if you need anything!” your friend says before she walks over to the bar, along with your other friends, leaving you alone.

you decided to just sit at one of the lounges and go on your phone, occasionally looking up at the pole dancers (i can’t blame you) until a specific one catches your eye. she was beautiful, those captivating cat eyes, that beautiful ginger hair, and stunning physique. you felt like you were being hypnotized with her beauty.

that wasn’t it, she actually walked off the stage, to you! “hey your cute, what’s your name?” you honestly thought you were dreaming. “my name is… y/n” you were honestly starting to forget your name

“that’s cute, i like that name.” you started blushing like crazy. “are you busy right now?” she asked. when she asked that you started to think about your friends, what they would think.

you thought that they would want this since they were the ones who took you out anyways. so, you nod your head no. “perfect! come with me!” she says after taking you into a room. the room was dimly lit with a chair in the middle. “can you sit in that chair?” she asks and you do just that.

she’s smiling and looks happy. randomly, she takes off her bra. “are you okay with this?” she says. you nod , excitedly waiting to see what’ll happen next. “alright, so i assume your also ok with this..?” she says as she goes to pull off your shirt, showing off your red bra. you start blushing like crazy. “yes, please continue” you speak out.

she goes down and pulls off your skirt and wet panties and starts going DOWN ON UR PUSSY. she starts to lick and kiss on your clit, slowly going deeper and into your g-spot. you were in heaven; you were a moaning mess and this was one of the best feelings you ever had.

“i-im close…” you manage to speak out. she goes faster and faster as soon as she hears your words, destined to make you cum. out of the blue she adds 2 fingers. you couldn’t handle it and had to cum all over her mouth & fingers.

“you did great. now, do it again for me.” you honestly felt tired from the first orgasm but manage to get the courage to cum again for her.

you spread your legs open, ready for her mouth again.

she smiles on your glistening pussy, then goes down to lick off the cum. she starts to each you up again like she’s hungry as FUCK. you already felt like cumming the moment her lips hit your clit.

you couldn’t help but push her head deeper inside. you didn’t want her to stop, it felt too good. “i’m close… a-again…” you said in between moans.

as soon as you said that, you came. all over the chair you were sitting on aswell. she chuckled, “i make you feel that good?”

you nodded tiredly. after that orgasm you were DRAINED. you also checked the time and noticed that it was late. “i really have to go…”

“awh, already? ok then.” she says as she gets up. you start to put back on your clothes and take your bag. “thanks for that, it honestly felt good” you say under your breath, which she still hears

“i’ll make you cum more, trust me” she says she winks and waves goodbye

you quickly leave, not noticing her comment and manage to meet your friends about to leave. “girl where were you? we were looking all over for you”

“it’s not special anyways,” you said, “let’s just get going” you say as you quickly leave and get into the car, your friends trailing behind you.

as you got in the car you checked your bag, everything that was originally there, was there! but there was something else in your bag. it was a note and it read “hwang yeji (the girl who fucked you) 000-000-0000, call me ;)”

[buddhamethods]

10 BL Characters I Want Carnally

AKA I'm just a person with two keen eyes and dubious morals when it comes to enjoying media so don't take it seriously, I'm here for a good time.

Thank you @sndrys for tagging me! This was an eye opening experience putting this together. As it turns out I might have a type (ew).

1) Guy from Bake Me Please (2023)

The sole reason for me creating this list! Look, I dropped Bake Me Please almost immediately because it just wasn't for me BUT I've been lowkey watching through my dash. And let me tell you, my fingers gain consciousness and hit reblog everytime this baby's face pops up because...well...LOOK AT HIM. He is beautiful and he should get the guy (hehe get it) in the end idc.

2) Yok from Not Me (2021)

Yok is such a beloved character and for good reason! He is sexy, he is gay, he sets buildings on fire and steals cops' wallets on accident because HOW WAS HE SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT GUY HE WAS STALKING WAS A COP??? I love you Yok, never change.

3) Palm from Never Let Me Go/ OurSkyy2 (2022-23)

The anger I felt for all the injustice and mistreatment our beautiful Palm had to face in this show took literal years off my life. It's rare for me to get this passionately protective over a character and yet here we are, in the Palm Protection Squad headquarters. Even Nueng is on the watchlist!

4) Tonhon from Tonhon Chonlatee (2020)

Not to out myself as an enjoyer of silly goofy times , but I did have fun watching Fish Upon The Sky and Secret Crush On You, so OFCOURSE I thought I would like this one too but GOD was it rough. Did I still finish it? Yes. Did I fawn over PoddKhao pairing and have been quietly praying for some kind of reunion ever since? Also yes. Was I foaming at the mouth barking everytime Tonhon AKA Podd was on my screen? I'm not gonna comment without lawyer present.

5) Tew from My Dear Gangster Oppa (2023)

Speaking of Tonhon Chonlatee...AH! Ai Long Nhai (TC's spiritual prequel of sorts) was sure...something. And by something I mean I saw Meen and decided I will never speak ill of men ever again, feminism quite literally left my body. And then a year later My Dear Gangster Oppa came out and guess what??! MEEN IS THE GANGSTER OPPA! Dreams really do come true, kids.

6) Wen from Moonlight Chicken (2023)

(or Tian from ATOATS or Mueang Nan fron FUTS). Mix...I will eat you. Always so dewy and healthy and sparkly-eyed. But Wen from Moonlight Chicken is something out of the realm of my imagination. The sex appeal? The maturity?? The gentleness??!! Somebody sedate me before I say something I will not be able to justify in court.

7) Vee from Love Mechanics (2022)

He is a pretty bisexual who makes the most abhorrent stupid decisions known to men and then weeps and suffers for them WHAT MORE DO YOU NEED? Once again, is the show flawless or even remotely coherent? Absolutely not. That being said Vee brought me so much joy by being stupid I'm forever grateful.

(also YinWar are so back GO WATCH JACK AND JOKER TRAILER)

8) Prapai from Love In The Air (2022)

To a certain extent I've enjoyed every MAME show I've watched. To do that you need to possess the rare ability called "I abandoned every shred of moral integrity to gawk at hot men". And Prapai? MAN is this bitch hot. Tall dark handsome? Check! Bisexual on a bike? Check! Stubborn and annoying? CHECK!

9) Xiang Hao Ting from HIStory3: Make Our Days Count (2019)

*incoherent wailing and sobbing* IM NOT EXPLAINING SHIT ABOUT HIM LEAVE ME ALONE

10) AlanJeff from Pit Babe (2023)

My newest obsession! I refuse to separate our local senior citizen and his favorite prophetic mechanic. Both of them are hot as shit in their own way. Alan is a sexy dilf with so much weight and responsibility on his shoulders it's a miracle he retained his optimism and youthful awkwardness. And Jeff is a prickly baby-cow-baby-deer eyed baby that is so touch starved it's actually a little funny. SO I GUESS ALANJEFF SANDWICH IT IS.

(don't be shy tag yourselves besties <3)

[faela404]

☆The Library ☆

kazuha x gn! reader

prompt: - you and kazuha attend the same university, him being a english lit major and you being a person in stem😎 your paths never crossed until that day in the library…

*this is an smau so please do expect a lot of twitter posts and messages to read, there will be proper writing too but, it will mostly be that!!*

warning! this chapter involves mentions of self- neglect, possible eating disorders, insomnia, swearing, implications of inappropriate acts (though it never happened), mentions of anxiety and biblical references (kinda? idk jesus and the bible was mentioned in a lighthearted manner)

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☆it was a mistake ☆

i’ve been sitting here, on my phone, for over 6 hours now. this isn’t good. i’ve forgotten to eat again.

i’ve never been too good at taking care of myself, most the time i’m too engrossed in what im doing to remember that i need to eat, drink or even use the bathroom. however, recently it’s been getting worse. before, i would be able to remember by atleast 7pm but lately, i’ve been having my dinners at 12am, sometimes even later.

i suppose i should be happy i remembered just before midnight this time, but i just don’t see it that way. to me, this is still a failure.

pulling myself out of the warm comfort of my bed below me, i wandered out towards the kitchen. we never tend to have much food in, with us being university students it can be hard to get enough money for such necessities. nonetheless, i managed to find a packet of chicken super noodles (if you don’t know what these are or don’t eat chicken, just read it as your favourite type of instant noodles😌). careful i pulled open the bag and dumped the contents out into my bowl, along with the flavoured powder and some hot water from the kettle, before putting this in the microwave.

after finishing my noodles and placing the bowl in the sink to wash up another day, i once again returned to the comfort of my bed and bright phone screen.

i didn’t get to bed until 3:49am.

i woke up too late, again.

i’m going to be in so much trouble.

i wish my class wasn’t so small, then maybe the professor wouldn’t notice me as i slip through the door and attempt to make my way to my seat.

we’re doing lab work.

she notices me.

“how lovely of you to finally join us, y/n” god did she have to say it so loud. i feel so many eyes on me but, i can’t falter. i try my hardest to ignore them as she continues to speak.

“please stay behind once class is finished y/n, we need to talk” she sounds so smug. i give a curt nod and quickly scurry to my lab partner.

i must look disheveled, i can feel how red my face is, the sweat dripping down my neck- getting caught on the neckline of my shirt. mascara from yesterday is sure to be lining the underneath of my eyes.

my lab partner, lumine, looks worried. however, she seems to ignore my disgusting outward appearance as she begins to explain the experiment to me, giving me time to write down her words and the results.

class wraps up quickly. everyone begins to shuffle out, talking to eachother of their weekend plans, but not me.

i make my way towards professor ningguang. she looks angry but, she doesn’t shout.

“i did warn you there would be consequences if you was absent again, didn’t i?”

i’m so nervous, i’ve never gotten into trouble before.

“yes, professor but, i wasn’t able to get much sleep i’ve haven’t been able to-“

she cuts me off. she’s angrier than she’s letting on.

“i don’t have time for your excuses, y/n. you have been late 5 times in the past 2 weeks, that is completely unacceptable. however, with only 3 weeks left of school before winter break, i can’t give you the standard punishment for a disobedience such as this. instead, you will help out the librarian. ms. lisa has been complaining recently of the mess the library has become. for the next 3 weeks, you will go to the library after school and clean it until there isn’t a spec of dust left, do i make myself clear?”

im not sure if it was the nerves or the fear of her telling me this in such a calm way, but i made no move to object. i simply nodded and left as she dismissed me.

it wasn’t until i got back to my dorm that it truly sank in.

are. you. fucking. kidding. me?!

clean the library? everyday? for 3 weeks?!

i suppose it could be worse, but come on! i have a life, i have homework! i can’t dedicate every evening to cleaning a stupid library!

god, this is going to be miserable.

a/n - ahhhh this was so fun to create! i can’t wait for ya’ll to see the next part! i hope you enjoyed this and will enjoy the rest of the series! take care of yourselves <3

taglist- open! @kazuhaprnt

[satorisoup]

yaayayyay hai again lene!!

what are a few songs that are/would be on koene's playlist :3

do u like carnivals/amusement parks? if yes,, what are ur favourite rides :0

TMNT. didn't plan any q's. Um. any headcanons that are 100% canon to u. what are some of ur fav things about/moments for donnie !!! Feel Free 2 Explain and Ramble as much as u'd like. 🙂‍↕️🫵 if u think it'll make this post long I will also accept a separate post of just tmnt. i do want rhe tmnt thoguh.👍👍

UWAHHH NIA MY PRECIOUS PETUNIA !! ⸜(*ˊᗜˋ*)⸝ omigoodness… i fear i could not stop the ramble with this one !! you are spoiling me with such lovely questions !! ^_^ YEOW !!

koene playlist ?

oki so, i don’t have like a list of songs for a playlist because i for some reason am not good with that but !! i do have atleast one specific special song that i associate with each selfship so i will give you koene’s mwuehehe !! :3 if i ever do have a list of songs though… you will be the first to know nia 🙂‍↕️

so, the number one song on there is definitely somethin’ stupid by frank sinatra !! in all of my previous themes, that was the song i incorporated because it just reminds me of koene soso much SOB !! </3

i also have a song a associate with keilene’s first dance at their wedding !! :0

also, this is just something silly for you but have you heard bokuto’s dub ( ian sinclair ) singing before ?? if you haven’t i’m about to change your life nia… PLEASE IGNORE what’s going on in the video HELP ?? but he sounds so delicious and EXACTLY like bokuto YAHOO yummy :3 i’ve been obsessed with it since i first heard it in 2021 >//< here’s the linkiedink 🍓 !!

carnivals / amusement parks ?

YES !! i love amusement parks as long as it’s not scorching hot and super duper busy </3 waiting in those lines is a treacherous task for me i fear…

my favorite rides !! i love big super fast rollar coasters, those are my favorite !! also those rides that specifically make your stomach drop & make you tingly ?? like the big ones that drop you from super high up ?? those are supa fun !!

idk if you know what knotts berry farm is but they have a ride called “ supreme scream ” which drops you from 252 feet up almost all the way down before it bounces you ?? its like a big version of those bouncy kiddy rides ^_^

and then the most famous rides they have there are ghost rider & silver bullet THEY ARE SOSOSO MUCH FUN !! T^T if you ride ghost rider at night, it goes faster which is super fun and its VERY fast and long which is always a blast 🙂‍↕️ silver bullet is also extremely fast and your feet dangle when you ride it, very very fun i love it YAHOO !!

tmnt ?

oh goodness nia… you have awoken a beast in me… that beast being the never ending tmnt rambling lene AWOOO !! 🐺 please bare with me im sure this is a lot to read… ouh… very sorry </3

headcanons first YEOW YEAGHH !! 🫨

donnie :

— this guy… this handsome nerd… this man. it is canon in the 2012 verse, but in all verses for me i like to believe he has a tooth gap <3 tooth gaps are so attractive to me :>

— he collects mugs 👍 he probably has multiple different mugs with random sayings on them that he uses to drink his coffee !!

— sleeper build YEOWWW !!!! he’s supposed to be the lanky one ( which is why i love him ) but you can see it in his arms that he’s incredibly strong… he has nice biceps that aren’t necessarily prominent to the eye but they’re definitely there… see images below… yummy :3

— he needs glasses 100% 🙂‍↕️ but the reason why he needs glasses is because he started wearing random ones he found that were definitely not his prescription, so now he actually needs them sigh T^T canon glasses wearer in the mutant mayhem & bayverse but i definitely doubt those were his prescription…

— probably has a couple of burn scars from his experiments going wrong… mayhaps even a scar on his face from it…

— speaking of scars i think he busted his lip once when training so, lip scar… yes… hold i must draw it for you methinks 🫵

yeah… yeagh toji ? no. donatello hamato hes so beautiful i want him to be my boyfriend do you think he’d say yes be honest hahah… !!

— i feel like he’s very sarcastic which is pretty canon i think ( ?? ) considering the amount of jokes he made in the 2012 ver teehee :> that one sound on tiktok that went viral… nobody else knew where it came from BUT I DID !! IT WAS DONNIE !! I KNEW !! YES !! linkiedink 🍓 for what im talking about YEOW !!

— absolutely love the ideas of the little freckles/marks ( ? ) on him too in every universe !!

— flexible, i feel like he could do the splits ?? but also flexible in a way where its considered creepy, like bending his fingers all the way back and being able to curl in on himself ^_^

— obsessed with olive green donnie, i absolutely adore it !! the olive skin tone definitely brings out the mask color :> also has amber eyes in every universe, very deep and very pretty !!

— has a very nice voice, will read for you to sleep, very soothing and very caring for his partner !! YIPEPEE !!

raph :

i can’t even explain how much i love him and how much i want to smooch him and have him be my boyfriend but trust me the feelings are there 👍👍👍 i love him <3

— FANGS !!!!! fangs fangs fangs YEOWOWW !! absolutely obsessed with the idea that he has one poking out at all times :> sharp teeth for a sharp guy mhm mhm 🙂‍↕️

hold on… must draw this for you too… yes 🫵

yeah !! the fangs AWOO they are there… they are sharp

— is it impractical for a mutant turtle to have piercings ? maybe… do i think he has an eyebrow ( ? ) piercings ? yes !! ^_^ i think this guy likes piercings, probably has a lip one too mhm :3

— his mask is torn up… canon in 2012 because it just fits him so much !! i also feel like the bottom of his mask is a bit more pointy especially by the eyes <3

— definitely has a lot of scars !! the lips and on his eye, he’s a fighter so he’s definitely gotten some battle scars to show :3

— CRACKED !! SHELL !! ALL OVER !! i know im naming a lot of canon things but i want more </3 more cracks, more scars… more more more !!

— i get the feeling he can cook… idk what he’s cooking in the sewers but he has some serious talent that i sense ??

— strongest in terms of physical strength, he has leo beat >_< raw, defined, big muscles, maybe even beefy moobs… turtle moobs… toobs ?? he has man shell pecs… yeah !!

— secretly likes plushies, has a couple on his bed but always leaves his door locked from the inside, keeps a key on him… they’re soft and make good pillows what can he say ??

— this was inevitable but very protective over his partner, does NOT allow anyone to yell or disrespect them whatsoever !!

— JERSEY ACCENT OMIGOODNESS. absolutely has that lil jersey tang to his voice ouhhhh :3 also the toothpick thats always in his mouth in bayverse… yeah…all universes…CANON FOR ME !! YES !!

the headcanons ramble ends here because i fear i am YAPPING i feel very bad… very sorry … ouh </3 i could come up with more about them personally/in relationships maybe if you ever want to hear please send an askie i will do it for you nia nya👍👍👍

fav donnie moments ?

— 2007 donnie and his job… poor guy… it’s not that kind of phone line !! >:3 linkiedink 🍓

— SMOOOOTH donatello HELP he is so silly T^T linkiedink 🍓

— him vs tigerclaw was so good, just absolutely loved season 3 and his whole vision quest outfit !! linkiedink 🍓

— angry donnie vs visioso, such a good scene !! the whole voice drop, mhm mhm yummy <3 linkiedink 🍓

— the underwater “ not that kind of sub ” scene will always be famous to me it was so funny to me at the time PLS </3 linkiedink 🍓

oki, now here are some edits for you because i can’t help myself :3 they’re not the most amazing ever but the idea is there… i had to share…ouh… ^_^

2012 raph here & here & HERE

— he is so… <3333333333 !!!! :3

2012 donnie here & here

— THE SCENE OF HIM WALKING BACKWARDS OUHHHH YEAGH !!!! WOOO YEAH !!

bayverse raph here

— bayverse raph… gosh… i want him to carry me on his shoulders he is so huge and beefy and boyfriend… yummy T^T

2007 raph (& leo ??) here & here

— i absolutely LOVED raphs 2007 design so much, his costume was soso cool PHEWWW YEOWWWZA !! ^_^ :3 >_< :p >//<

bayverse edit here

— this entire edit is just so cool… i had to share it… i love love love… yes !! <3

and that ends my seemingly endless tmnt ramble again i am so sorry i got carried away… hides behind hands while i sob… forgive me nia </3

also i am so glad you understand me because it seems as though many do not !! my best friend absolutely hates when i talk about anything to do with it and calls me a weirdo so… heh… i will take my chances here on tumblr.com 🙂‍↕️🫵

THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THESE QUESTIONS NIA !! & thank you for letting me ramble SOB </3 i absolutely cherish you and appreciate you teehee !! :3 wishing you the bestest day and giving you many hugs ma love !! MWUUUAH !! <3 🍓

[rubirenegade]

Experimenting with costume designs I might have preffered to the excellent work they did for The Lords In Black :)

(LONG POST WARNING: UNNECESSARY RAMBLINGS AHEAD)

I did find them enjoyable as heck and the performances were damn excellent, just wanted to try to imagine how I might have brought them to the stage to satiate my own desire for THE TERRIFYING LORDS IN BLACK

Clarification: I have zero stage experience so PLEASE, give me comments and ideas of your own to fix potential issues of my design, if this got your imagination going ❤️

Goals:

1. Maybe less comfy outfits, but not overbearing.

2. Closer to the dolls' design

3. Still on a budget: no crazy heavy dragging full suits like Ursula or Pinsir puppeteering.

4. Creep factor increase, meaning: Less visible faces! One of the creepiest traits for the lords is that they have no clear faces, making them uncanny and disturbing, lovecraftian and unreachable. Think the hive controlled people in tgwdlm or the giant spotlight eyes in Black Friday, gazing at you from a paranormal abyss.

5. Keep the things I liked in the originals, especially the acting.

Details:

1. Pokey: Singular Voice, keeper of many faces

having a mask under the mask he is holding will give him a more uncanny phantom-of-the-opera vibes and less visible facial expressions, leaving much to be desired

Also: more masks to cover his jacket, as his voice speak from many mouths.

Other idea: a Jacket made of realistic skins he stiched from faces (a bit much though, probably)

2. Tinky: horns is all you need

Curt's facial expressions are the exception to this "no face" concept. Just too damn good not to leave it as is. Goats horns will do as an addition, simple. Maybe face paint to have dark circles around his eyes, giving him a sleepless maniac vibes, could help- making his crazy eye looks stand out.

3. Wiggly: glowing eyes in the dark

The one I changed the most. I want to really FEEL the Wiggly from Black Friday. I want the glowing eyes in the dark, the creepy tentacles, the lack of a visible mouth under them.

A pair of glowing goggles will do, or two lightweight flashlights on some flashy headgear would do.

The mouth prosthetic might be a bit much, I'll admit. Maybe a mask, Scar-From-Twisted style, could work here just as well (again, this is a relatively short screen tim).

And claw hands and feet, for him to open all his deliciously loud screaming presents :) not critical, but adds dangerous vibes to our Wrath Fuel Frendy-Wend

4. Blinky: Eye think it should work

Big mask. Eye shaped. Done. (Again, Scar-masking could also work, probably even better)

(I assume that if its too hard to sing in the mask, another cast member could sing from backstage)

5. Nibbly: YUM YUM

Probably the hardest for me, it's just so damn good and Kim fucking nailed this. The giant lolipop and cutesie outfit are AMAZING and just easily floor me.

So, I went with simple facepaint to give her a giant mouth. Might not work in practice, but if they gave her a see through blindfold colored in her skin tone it might make her eyes vanish, leaving only the mouth to focus on. Maybe the hat goes town to shade her eyes instead. Anything to bring the mouth to the front and have the eyes disappear (decided now Im gonna painted that next)

Other ideas: blood smeared into a giant smile (might make mouth seem smaller though) or a realisticly painted giant mouth nask (which will make Kim's bite lifeless, so not a fan of it)

Conclusion:

I love these characters and brought my own idea of how to put them forth on screen to keep their lovecraftian horror vibes while keeping it realustic viable for a Starkid production. Hoped you liked it!

SUMMON US ONCE!

SUMMON US TWICE!

YOU GAMBLE IT ON THE ROLE OF THE DICE!

[aeoneris]

for archival reasons, and because rise has officially ended, i'm coping by looking back at the past two years and thinking about the master utsushi rabbit hole. this is based on a long reply i sent to a mutual but i think it deserved to have its own post where others can read it and i can expand further on certain details. or something. i don't know. i have no idea who will read this but if you do, please enjoy...

the ballad of master utsushi.

he was there regardless.

always watching.

waiting.

i wound up getting attached to utsushi-kyokan (master/instructor utsushi), ウツハン/utsuhan (utsushi x hunter) ship, and finding his Japanese fan community late 2021, and i've been chatting with mutuals and friends i made there since. at that time, capcom had opened up pre-orders for his nui (plushie). this plush is lovingly referred to as "Unui-kun", and people love to take him around and bring him places. here's my Unui-kun in new york city lol

fans love to dress him up and make clothing and accessories for him. had i known just how attached i would become, i would not have set my Unui-kun to ship via surface mail delivery because it took about 2-3 months extra for him to arrive... ;;

but anyway, it seemed that his popularity was growing because they continued to make more merch of him. he seems to have more than any of the other characters.

many of these are limited print/pre-order only, or were from specific events like the capcom cafe features. trying to get his merchandise became crazy, because scalpers started to pick up on how badly people wanted goodies of him?!

just how popular is this guy?! what's with the character tax!!

and how did this even happen... we're playing monster hunter, not an idol game! but i think it really speaks a lot for itself how rise had such colorful characters that you could get attached to. it seems he really jives with many female and queer players, so good on capcom for that hehe. many of the japanese fans i've met are either older women, very often mothers, or gnc, which i found to be really cool. the english-speaking utsushi fans are usually the same, too. the solidarity is real...

I found out that a lot of ppl, including myself, shared a similar experience: they missed out on a majority of utsushi's flavor text in base rise bc they didn't talk to him or the other NPCs very much during village and high rank quests, and therefore didn't even think much of him until after the fact. people double-taking when going through the game again and actually catching on to his antics... I think what really got things going was when they released his DLC voice and learned about his, uh, extremely affectionate lines towards the hunter when it comes to mew mew and blowing a kiss LOL. (the "welcome back, master!" line?!?! there's so much art of him in a maid outfit... and the way he says ace/manadeshi in his sleep at the table?!?! scandalous?!?!) even for me, he got my attention only once i saw the official art of him (realizing "hey he's got a cute design actually") and eventually encountering utsushi x hunter fanart on pixiv. another thing that got me noticing him was brian david gilbert's now deleted tweet about how zac efron and utsushi are the same. thankfully, we have the internet archive to save the existence of this post and i have to make sure people experience this lost media.

once i realized how weirdly close he was to the hunter, the gears started turning

i confirmed that ppl really did notice that it was unusual for an instructor character to refer to his pupil as "manadeshi (beloved/dearest disciple)" in the manner that he does, being so close to them in a way that felt so familiar and warm. he was already popular enough that by valentine's day 2022, fans literally sent real chocolates to capcom addressed to utsushi. i knew about this for a while, but i was shook that they wound up officially addressing that this really happened during the last update video.

after they received his chocolates, they immediately got one of the (female) illustrators on board to quickly draw that really cute valentine's day art of utsushi. the japanese tweet for that artwork had even a little bit more text than the english one…

that "i'll always be watching over you" line…

(and while i'm here, i have to mention the valentine's day art we got for 2023- i made a separate post about THAT.)

we started to suspect capcom caught on to this niche community's love for utsushi, and they started to kind of... troll us??? LOL.

throughout the previews of sunbreak last year, they would start obsessively sneaking utsushi into those chibi artworks. and when npc followers were announced, people were scrambling to find out if he was going to be one of them, but there also was some weird radio silence about him for a bit...

in one of the earlier trailers that showed the elgado hub for the first time, there was a very short part of the clip where ppl could see someone standing in the distance at the corner of the screen. all the utsushi fans went nuts because they were taking a magnifying glass and zooming up at there wondering if it was really him, because everyone wanted him to be there in sunbreak LOL.

of course we'd eventually find out that would be his perch for most of the game! it was only during the final preview trailer before the release of sunbreak did they finally announce utsushi as a follower, as if they were saving the best for last. and sunbreak dropped, we got to see him in elgado and enjoy hunting with him. and it didn't end there. he wound up being featured in two of the short stories released last summer, and we would not forget this incident.

when i think about how easy it is to just play through the story and miss out on following specific out-of-the-way flavor texts, let alone know about all this outside of the game, i wonder if utsushi joining the hunter in the battle against amatsu in the penultimate battle was strange, because he has such a spotlight on him, even being the one who allows you to ride an apex which was normally impossible. if people didn't acknowledge him before, certainly people would love him now.

his final line after you defeat amatsu: it's cute and silly in english... but in japanese, his line and delivery was extremely, almost unabashedly... romantic. many people were shocked because it sounded like a fervent confession.

"I'll say it once more... You are my pride, my beloved disciple."

finally, during the last update video…

we got this line straight from the director LOL. utsushi wound up being his personal favorite character in rise, and perhaps why we wound up seeing more and more of him in sunbreak.

all in all, if you kept up with the flavor text of rise, and if you followed utsushi's dialogue throughout the base game and expansion, the emotional pay off at the end was even better! and it is a shame when this stuff is mostly optional or you have to go out of the way for it, with so much being missable with every bit of progression. but making a monhun where story and character interactions are pushed more… i think they were on to something. it's probably something that could be divisive, but personally I think they should go all in on it more in the future. Rise proved that they could make charming and memorable (not to mention, named) characters... if they lean into it more in a future entry, then i hope they do it in a way where everyone can enjoy it and not feel like they missed out. but I also hope they would make it so that people don't feel overwhelmed with flavor text... it comes down to taste, but i think i have faith that monhun can try making more character-driven stories while still keeping the core of the series in tact.

here are some more miscellaneous utsushi things that i didn't know how to fit in earlier:

he's been featured multiple times in capcom cafe entrees. here's his matcha latte dango drink:

and for the sunbreak stories: a cake based on his fight with rathalos together with the royal guard, and then a drink that represents his... uh, struggle across the ocean to chase the hunter to elgado. because they will never let him live that down. i won't either.

here's a t-shirt of utsushi and kagami you can pick up on amazon right now. kagami was a very interesting arc when he was first shown- he was introduced as a long time friend of utsushi, training together in the past, but eventually parting ways.

his seiyuu in japanese is a sentai actor who loves monster hunter, so essentially, kagami is lowkey like a self-insert for him lol. he's goofy in english because he's voiced by a certain youtuber, but in japanese he takes a different direction of silly because he has a "chuunibyou" edgelord cringe way of talking. it's such a shame that kagami wasn't really in the game itself besides being mentioned in a few mission descriptions because i would've loved to see him interact with utsushi and the hunter, and i wish the royal knights and many of the NPCs had more cutscenes or something. it makes me think, if it weren't for the pandemic, could rise's story and scenario have been something more because of the DLC voice characters like hibasa/monju/kagami? anyway, a popular headcanon is that utsushi and kagami are ex-boyfriends lol (i personally like this one and adapted it for my utsuhan fanfics). but there are even those who ship kagautsu too (although it is rare because people overseas are a little wary of shipping characters who are based on real people).

and lastly, one of my personal favorites... the diseased kyokan shirt. this is from an online capcom shop, and you can use a proxy service like fromjapan.com to order it.

if you read this all, thank you! happy hunting! with the instructor! we love that guy! the guy of all time!

[kaiser1ns]

Selfship questions for kichi incoming!

Who likes feeding the other food? Like full on spoon in their mouth or peeling an orange and feeding them the slices stuff.

Also, what are the sleeping arrangements like? Big spoon/little spoon, who steals the blankets or moves around a lot etc.!

mari, hello there ! thank you for stopping by, hope you are doing well :3 now here are the answers to your questions !

1. who likes feeding the other food? like full on spoon in their mouth or peeling an orange and feeding them the slices stuff.

— this man has been eating junk and fast food probably everyday so i will be the one feeding him, because he needs to taste something else than burgers, fries and bubble tea. and i ask myself how is he so fit just by eating this type of food. but i too can eat junk all day because i have fast metabolism. so when we are on restaurant dates i will order for both of us, he doesn't stand a chance or doesn't have a choice. when i feed him salad and he actually likes it, i promise that if he finishes it all, i'll treat him to a burger. but honestly, he should eat healthier in general. like when we’re at a pastry shop and i feed him cake—he looks like a big baby just living his best life, but he spoils me too. two pieces of my favorite cake with a banana shake, and of course, i feed him a spoonful. he needs to experience sweetness too, not just salty foods. but of course i wont force him to eat or do anything he doesnt want, im just looking after him and yes, yes he will have his fast food, i wouldn't dare take the thing he likes away from him.

im not a big fan of fruits, so i always hear my mom's nagging about eating more of them. then, out of nowhere, while im casually playing valorant, he surprises me with a plate full of apple slices, and i tear up a little because he’s genuinely so thoughtful (my mom probably forced him to do it because she knows he is my weakness)

"thank yo— HOW DID I DIE?" and then he shoved an apple slice in my mouth as i munch and turn my focus on the game again, "feed me more i need power up, i will destroy them." then i make 3 kills and call it a day.

2. also, what are the sleeping arrangements like? big spoon/little spoon, who steals the blankets or moves around a lot etc.!

— he wants to feel me close, so more likely would be the big spoon, wrapping his arms around me to maintain that closeness. while me, who is used to holding a plushie, would be the little spoon, nestled against him. once im fully asleep im not moving at all, just on the other side, and the blanket is still there. i always wake up without my cooky plushie. its chika who is on my arms — so in conclusion he is the big spoon before falling asleep, and in the morning im the big spoon as he tend to cuddle more into me. its so nice though, to see him this calm, to feel his breath on my shoulder...he looks like a small sleeping kitten. just the cutest sleeping kitten. also i always sleep on the inside of the bed if it is against a wall so he can protect me from the monsters at night. if he ever snores guess where he will go? on the couch, where else ! i can't fall asleep if there's even the tiniest noise or light, it has to be dead silence and dark like some black hole.

at the times when we are away or just can't do a sleepover, i just hug my cooky plushie that i sprayed with his perfume because it calms me down so incredibly fast and guess what he does? starts using the oversized shirt i wore as a pajama and it became his pajama ! how cute !! i once caught him while coming over to his place and the way i melted...he then didn't speak or give me any attention for two hours. lesson learned dont tease chika too much ♡

[cowgurrrl]

since OFTM asks are being answered atm, I thought I'd come through with a few questions of my own about this WONDERFUL and LOVELY series because it's that good!

1. ik we're wayyyyyy past it but do rockstar!joel and actress!reader do anything for Valentine's day? have they done things early on the relationship, do they still celebrate now or maybe it's something simple like posting cute photos of each other on their stories??

2. okay this one is a fun one and I know there was an ask about how reader would potentially be a presenter at an award show BUT would she ever host at some point? if so, i definitely think she'd pull it off + she'd probably do some cute promos as well, maybe even do an announcement promo with joel in some way! i think it'd be fun for her if she did + joel and the kids would LOVE it.

3. as reader ever got to work with big name actors/actresses before or does she prefer more indie like things and working with more unknown actors and actresses?

4. idk if it was mentioned at some point but was reader ever pregnant during a project/role she was doing? how was her experience and what was it like? i def think there'd be times when joel visited the set and she was all smiles because "daddy's here! visiting us" haha, it'd be precious!

5. this one is ABSOLUTELY silly but i notice how some celebrities will be at big events or something such as a tennis game or whatever and some of the reactions are SUCH a mood so i feel like if joel and reader attended some type of event like that, their reactions would be so silly and REAL.

last one finally lmaooo, im sorry i just love these two lots but speaking of special events, i think of how sweet and nice it is to imagine joel just watching from a distance as reader is out doing her thing at a premiere or something like the met gala where she looks GORGEOUS and Joel's thinking "wow, there she is! that's my amazing beautiful wife" 🥹🥹🥹 because he's such a supporter of her HELLO and he's just an awe but also, imagine how reader feels whenever she sees joel on stage knowing that a song is being dedicated to her or just watching her husband from a distance knowing that's the person she's married and fell for.

ANYWAYS! this is so long, again so sorry 😭 but I'm curious to know your answers when you get a chance 👀💜💜💜💜

DONT BE SORRY THIS IS WHAT I LIVE FOR OKAY

I think at the beginning of their relationship, they definitely go all out for Valentine's Day. Nice hotels, dinners, heartfelt (and expensive) presents, the whole nine yards. I think when Sam and the girls are little, it gets harder to do stuff for Valentine's Day especially when you're bouncing between work, school, and helping your children make "Valentimes" for their classmates. Things calm down just a little and you two will settle for a nice, homemade dinner in your messy kitchen after the kids have gone to bed. Joel will send flowers to you at work and you'll humor him with a silly, giggly strip tease even though you're wearing sweatpants and a shirt with marker stains on it. It's pure, domestic bliss. Once the kids are older and they've been married for a long time, I think they would alternate between elaborate plans and low-key ones. After all, they definitely don't need an excuse to be grossly in love with each other.

I could totally see her hosting an award show! She'd be so busy but having so much fun and she'd recruit all her famous contacts to help her with promotion and what not. On the night of, if Joel's not there, he totally sets up a watch party at home with all of the Miller kids, spouses, and grandkids and cheers you on the whole time. If he is there, the kids are probably there too and help you backstage with awards, setting up different presenters, and keeping you calm. You'd all get dressed up and take nice pictures as a family. I see it being hectic but so rewarding (no pun intended)

I think it's a good mix of both! I have it in my personal canon that she does go on to do some Marvel, Greta Gerwig, Bridgerton type projects that have so much hype (and a huge budget) surrounding them but I also see her taking on some smaller roles from smaller production companies as long as the story is good. In my head, Red Dirt Girl (the movie talked about through much of the main storyline) is a smaller production and smaller actors but they all end up taking OFF after that.

I WAS LITERALLY THINKING ABOUT THIS TODAY GET OUT OF MY HEAD okay so I think with Sam, she is definitely pregnant in the middle of filming something but doesn't realize until she passes out at work or something and she gets taken to the hospital where they find out she's pregnant. They weren't trying but they weren't being careful so it's a little bit of a shock but they adjusted. For the first time in her career, she'd let them hire a stunt double for her and would take it easier than she had in the past. They'd definitely have to change some wardrobe and people would treat her like she's made of glass but it's all manageable. Joel would be the biggest change of pace. He'd been on set before but after they find out they're pregnant, HES THERE EVERYDAY. I think they'd fight about it a little bit just because she feels a little smothered and Joel agrees to back off a little. As she progresses, I think she'd be more okay with him visiting and would poke at her belly and be like, "your dad's here." With the twins, they find out relatively early on because her symptoms are so bad it's literally unavoidable and they try to keep it a secret for as long as possible BUT when she goes back to reshoot a scene where she has to be smoking a cigarette or something, she's like, "..... no." and they're like "we need this for continuity," and she's like "I'm pregnant. With twins." BECAUSE WHAT ELSE ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO SAY. I think she would've worked for longer when she was pregnant with Sam than when she was pregnant with the girls just because of the risks and Miller children are not known for being easy so I definitely think she'd have a harder time with the girls than she did with Sam but everything ends up okay!

It's canon to me that the Millers are a BASEBALL FAMILY it was actually one of the first things I wrote for the One for the Money universe! Joel is partial to the Astros (boo) while she's definitely more of a Cubs/Yankees fan because she lived in New York and did a lot of filming in the Chicago/Midwest area for a time. I think they would be able to compromise and cheer for the Dodgers together but when it comes to their personal teams, they don't play around. Sam also goes on to play baseball professionally so I see them going to baseball games together as a big, happy family. Being an actress, she DEFINITELY wouldn't be able to keep her emotions a secret and would regularly be caught yelling, cheering, and dancing along to whatever song is playing through the stadium. God Bless anyone in the nearest vicinity when the Astros and the Yankee's play each other in the World Series.

I 100% think Joel has these moments all the time at events. I see her off doing her own thing like interviews or individual photos and he's just staring at her like "that's really my wife." He's known to get teary or really affectionate on red carpets, giving photographers everything and more. She tends to do the same thing, especially if he's getting recognized for something, and will get choked up during interviews about him. They're just so in love and proud of each other they make me SICK

Thank you for all your fun questions about my little oftm family! I hadn't thought about some of these before and it was really fun to think about them so thank you!!!

[sporesgalaxy]

i know you've had a lot of people responding to your post about hrt already but i wanted to share my experience, so here's a list

1. i also could not be bothered to go through the steps required to get testosterone for a very long time (like 6 years lol) but i went through folx and its worked pretty well for me, you can tell them if you want gel or injections, a higher or lower dose, and they don't make you go to a therapist or anything which is great

2. if you can get to one of those FedEx package holding places, you can opt for it to be held there instead of shipped to your residence directly and they make the outer packaging discreet

3. i also have ocd and ive already noticed after 2 months that it's definitely helped with some of my compulsions and overall it's been great for my confidence and emotional state

4. speaking of, it's total bs that testosterone makes you angrier, bc i am normally a very angry person and i haven't been nearly as angry lately (probably something to do with being generally happier and more comfortable in my own skin)

5. my menstrual cycles have been SIGNIFICANTLY easier, from cramps to flow to emotional state, and again, this is after 2 months

overall I've had a very positive experience, and i know part of what helped me even get started in the first place is hearing other people's experiences and knowing i didn't have to go through all of it all at once so hopefully, no matter what you decide, this helps with the process!

1. oh huh! thanks for mentioning Folx Health, I'd never heard of that before. I've only glanced over the site but it seems cool. Sadly cowardice is stopping me more than laziness 😑 I keep thinking if I inconvenience my family members I'll go to hell before I die. working on it. will be easier when I have a full time job

2. thats a neat trick! I'd rather just wait until I'm paying my own rent but this sounds v useful and Im glad to share it

3. Interesting and not entirely surprising! My OCD definitely gets worse or better in preportion to my general anxiety, so feeling better for gender reasons causing improvement makes total sense

4. Yep that tracks with other anecdotes Ive heard! Great to hear!

5. fuck yeas period is over party 🎉🎊

thanks for sharing!!

[maximaxstreasurebox]

My sudden urge to talk about 55 minutes light novel bcuz after finally getting the book and reading it makes me wanna eat a pillow and think again "wtf Asagari you brilliant bastard", like CAN WE GET A MOVIE OF IT???

(more rambling and spoilers vvv)

55 minutes is one of the longer light novels in the series, just a liiittle bit thicker than untold story which has a short story of a day before atsushi's entrance exam and the fukuzawa&ranpo backstory

for those who don't know what 55 minutes is about, in a nutshell; -ADA goes to an politically-neutral island to catch thieves -btw Akutagawa is there too -everything goes wrong -new characters introduced like Jules Verne and H.G.Wells and the title '55 minutes' comes from Wells' ability -atsushi trying: HIS BEST -also Dazai almost fcking dies but we love plot armor

anyway the reason i wanna scream about it now randomly is bcuz before reading the full story, i had totally different view of what the novel is about, THERES BARELY any translation online and i feel like bcuz of it a very few people actually had the opportunity to read it

'okay Mouse, so is it has any relevance to the main story-?' OHOHOH- it's more like ideas that we haven't seen in manga IN THEIR FULL POTENTIAL yet, but it was experimented on within the light novel, like FCKING TIME TRAVELING???? and you don't want me to talk about the science side of it (thank Wells for the 2-3 pages of science fun-facts dump)

speaking of things that the novel introduced to us are: -more lore of the war 13+ years ago -time traveling -a method to use Yosano's ability on Dazai: basically after heart stops, blood flow stops to brain and ability deactivates, so when restarting heart, there's a 0.5 second timeframe when Yosano can use her ability before brain registers wtf is going on -MORE ABILITIES AND THEIR FUNFACTS AWW YEAH I LOVE THOSE- im a sucker for abilities (not me having an BSD OC that can see abilities like they were ghosts hahah-)

this was actually the first time that the gang went outside Japan bcuz the island under Germany, France, and England 's governing territory(?), the the island itself is artificial that was made after the war

so wondering what the 'everything goes wrong' part is: it turns out, there's a BOMB on the island :) -the guy who hired ADA is killed, atsushi and akutagawa in running to get the bomb, but IT'S TOO LATE AND EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE WITHIN *checks book* 22 MILES RADIUS MELTS AWAY- -Wells appears (more like reveals herself....yeah Wells is a woman-) and yoinks Atsushi to an underground bunker but there's no time left and yeets back Atsushi's MEMORIES to 55 minutes before the disaster, btw she quickly explaines that the bomb that got activated is called 'Shell', an weapon created from Ability Singularity (basically mutation????), and her ability is time MANUPILATION, and also can send back people back in time but only once per person, and she can't use it on herself bcuz she already did it during the war, BUT bcuz the energy (insert a page long science explanation here) to send back a whole-ss person is too much, she can only send back memories back to past- -so atsushi goes back to time, but bcuz akutagawa was actually nearby when Wells' ability activated (she's using a camera, he literally fell onto them in the last second), he got his memories go back to time too -poor atsushi having internal breakdown wtf to do, but kunikida being an actual helping god and he, atsushi, and dazai think of a plan -turns out the bomb is protected underground and atsushi with the help of the thieves he befriended on the island, runs through the base -but everything goes wrong AGAIN bcuz akutagawa starts hunting atsushi after a misunderstanding, thinking that atsushi is the one who activated the bomb before.. :I damn bro -ATSUSHI IS SUFFERING SO MUCH????? HE GETS SHOT ON LUNG AND THROUGH OPEN MOUTH, AND GETTING HIS LEG STUCK (ALMOST SLICED OFF) ON CLOSED EMERGENY DOOR WITH EXPLICIT DESCRIPTION OF THE INJURY????? *sobbing* -somehow everything is solved with the power of dazai, and it seems ADA can go home BUT OH NOT SO FAST- so the culprit gets KILLED which meaaaans theres still a mastermind on the island -atsushi and dazai go invastigating and THIS IS WHEN DAZAI GETS STABBED :D ....BY JULES VERNE *flops to floor* -turns out the WHOLE ISLAND IS JULES' ABILITY: he has the ability to absorb the abilities of dead skill users within the island (so we got Shibusawa 2.0) Wells saves Atsushi and half-dead Dazai and uses her ability to slow down time so they bleed out slower atsushi and akutagawa go fight Verne, but they get overpowered and poor atsushi gets absorbed????????? kinda??? -AND WE GET JULES VERNE'S BACKSTORY :D he was a little child during war and joined an organization called Seven Traitors, and with the help of his ability 'the mysterious island', they kidnapped politicians to force them to peace treaty??? the island stayed and he spend the rest of his time on it in peace until Wells appeared on the island, killed her and stole her ability, and went back to time he did it so many times that the ability basically became a independent being?? and realized that he has to kill Wells every time before the 'future' happens or he disappears bcuz he doesn't exist in the future anymore the real Jules Verne is more like just an consciousness at this point -we get the big atsushi-akutagawa VS fake Jules fight, and atsushi wins oh wao -aaaaaaand now that Jules uhh doesn't exist anymore, the island is disappearing too :> -book ends with ADA back in Yokohama, Ranpo wanna go to beach but everyone is fcking tired of ocean, Dazai having Oda flashbacks, and atsushi meeting Wells once again before Wells mysteriously disappearing and atsushi questioning his sanity if she ever existed :) -oh right, Wells is the one who made the bomb during war time, knows how fcked up it is, and she's basically batman but government treats her as a terrorist bcuz why wouldn't be so sus when she's right there before at every natural disasters-

i actually didn't notice it until i went to wikia but apparently the dude who got killed before the jules verne reveal was a port mafia executive?????????? i might actually need to re-read the light novel bcuz i didn't notice mentioning it

little bit sad that many characters' uhh characterization is pretty ehh at some point, like akutagawa going full 'f-ck man-tiger' mode in the 98% of the story, rest of the ada except atsushi,dazai, and kunikida are just not... there, HOWEVER the side/novel characters are FCKING AMAZING, i want more Wells pls also Higuchi has like 3 short scenes and she slays them all, drinking down guards to get to security room, then being all cute and happy when akutagawa says 'good job' 🥺 akutagawa has moments when he's not 'f-ck man-tiger' mode when he yells 'higuchi where are you??' ,and tells a short poem as he evaporates into atoms

my brain is frying but i just felt like yelling into the void, thanks for my ted talk *drops mic*

[solitudesbestfriend]

Ode To Us

A/N: So im starting an Aizawa x OC slow burn series. Lmk how yall like it or if you hate it. This series will feature sexual themes, violence, drug and alcohol abuse in the future so this is an 18+ series. Thank you for reading and uhh bear with me guys

Chapter 1/? of Ode To Us Series

Word Count: 1.k

Pairing: Shouta Aizawa x OC

Warnings: a single swear word, Toshinori feature, no Shouta :'(

Summary: A top ten United States Pro Hero moves back to Japan after 10 years when her best friend, All Might, gets her a job at the most prestigeous hero school in all of Japan, U.A.

The brunette stands outside the door of the office that the principal of  U.A.’s resides in, fiddling with the golden bracelet on her wrist, sunglasses ontop of her nose. If she were being honest, the woman is not entirely sure how she ended up here, about to officialize her professional teaching position at a hero school without any formal teaching experience. Sure, she mentored young aspiring heroes back in the states, but this was different…more surreal. In just about six days, she will be entrusted with the lives of about 2 dozen kids. At this point, the pro hero is thinking she must've gone insane, she's cracked, and something is wrong in her brain. She can barely take care of herself. At this suddenly very prominent thought, she curses the man who originally got her into this mess.

The woman was removed from her mind when the office door swung open, a disheveled man adorned in baggy professional attire and familiar blond hair stood in the doorway. Speak of the devil and he shall appear. A scoff from the woman was thrown the man’s way as his expression brightened considerably. “Akari Nakamura, a pleasant surprise!” The woman rolls her eyes at the man, though she knows her eyes are unseeable due to her professional-grade sunglasses.

“Surprise my ass,” A laugh escaped from the man. Regardless of her attitude, Yagi was always giddy to see his old friend. The two of them go way back. To when things were simpler, kind of. Nothing is ever positively simple. “Remind me again why I agreed to this?”

“As a favor to your best friend?” Yagi offered, only to be met with silence. Akari rubbed her eyes, her glasses shifted as she did so. “Look, I know I'm asking you for a lot, but there is no one else I trust enough.” An exasperated sigh sounded from the brunette woman. A few seconds of silence wafted between them until Akari nods. 

“I know…” Her hand finds her bracelet once more as she contemplated what to say next. Akari has been tasked with not one but two major responsibilities. Don’t get it wrong, she's not one to back away from a fight, she only hopes the conflicting burdens don't wear her paper thin. “I do anything you’d ask, Yagi. You know that.” Akari settled for sweet and simple. A honey-filled smile grew on top of his face, one Akari isn’t sure is genuine but she doesn’t acknowledge it. The man layed his skinny hand atop her shoulder, and gave it a small squeeze. 

“Am I interrupting?” The small, and frankly adorable, U.A. Principle interjects. A small ‘No’ and a shake of the woman’s head was thrown his way. “Perfect, then Miss Nakamura, would you care to step inside my office?” The formerly mentioned woman nods and walks into the room before her, not bothering to spare Yagi Toshinori a goodbye. 

The pair get settled into their respective chairs across the neat desk. The woman goes to take off her sunglasses out of politeness, but the bear (?) dismisses her act of consideration. “I’ve read up on your quirk, Nakamura, no need. I admit, it was hard to access relevant information on you.” The brunette threw him a minuscule fleeting smile, not exactly sure what to say in response. “Quite impressive this day and age, to be ranked the number 8 hero in the United States and have scarce accurate information published.” The well-spoken mouse, maybe, admitted. It was something Akari was acutely aware of, considering she is the one who made her team back in the U.S. keep her motions on the down low. Akari rarely did press or went to charity events. The Japan native wasn’t exactly sure how she was ranked so high, but she didn't dare question it. 

“Well, I suppose it’s fate,” The woman shrugged, not attempting to address the topic. “If you’re into that sorta thing.” She quickly added. The Principle hums in acknowledgment and pulled out paperwork, no doubt needing to be signed and initialed by the woman. 

“Do you believe in fate?” Safe to say, Akari was taken aback the the little man’s question. The black sunglasses sink further onto her face as she looks at the ceiling to ponder the question. Does she believe in fate? The brunette would like to believe she did, but realistically, if someone other than her future boss man asked her the same question, she’d probably laugh in their face. Even if fate did exist, Akari doubted it as righteous as most thought it to be.

After a minute of silence, Akari spoke, “No, to be transparent. Seems like something fed to us to make ourselves feel better about all the bad things we go through” Her lips purse, surprised at her own honesty. She must be exhausted from her flight. “Do you? Believe in fate I mean.”

“I do,” The creature’s small smile never leaving his lips. The woman frowns, now regret being honest. God, Akari needed to sleep in some sunlight. “But, I do enjoy hearing your perspective.” The school administrator attempts to make Akari feel less embarrassed. The pro hero smiles at the creature’s kindness. 

“I’d like to go over some formal rules and policies U.A. has and then we can make your teaching position official.” The dog-like creature addressed and Nakamura took that as a sign to zone out. Her mind ran a mile a minute, mulling over things as little as what she was going to eat for dinner to more enticing things, like what kind of creature her future employer is. Is he a mouse? A dog? A bear? Truly fascinating stuff. She’d be lying if she said anything the man spoke about was interesting enough to break her train of thought. When she needed to sign a document, she did so mindlessly. As grateful as Akari was for this… inopportune opportunity, she wanted to relax in her new, albeit empty, apartment. 

After what seemed to be the 1800th document that needed initializing, the duo shook hands, or hand and paw, and went about their own respective business after the small bow Akari gave Principle Nezu. While Akari’s thoughts still lingered on what kind of creature her boss was, she absent-mindedly made her way to her apartment, dreading the day her mouth inevitably betrayed her and begged the creature to give her the gospel truth of what he exactly was.

[justmeinadaze]

https://www.tumblr.com/justmeinadaze/721864452608311296/i-thought-the-fic-about-demon-eddie-steve-was?source=share

Like I thought steve & Eddie where dating.... And the whole comparing the reader to Chrissy just makes me think he doesn't even like the reader he just likes the way the reader is so much like Chrissy which is kinda sad cause I thought Eddie and Steve where together the whole time

Not in this story, my love. Part 2 is actually the first time I've alluded to them having being intimate at all which I will expand on more in other chapters.

Now for your second question I am going to choose my words carefully and speak from experience. On ward to below the "Keep Reading" line!!

You don't have to answer because again Im speaking from my own experience but have you ever lost someone suddenly like that? Someone you loved that you literally just spoke to and then they were gone the next day?

In my story, Eddie loved Chrissy a lot. Again she saw through the image he displayed and loved him for him. For Eddie, she's the only person that saw him for who he was so then to have her not only permanently taken from him but the fact that there was nothing he could do to save her or bring her back? It stayed with him.

When he meets the reader, she has a lot of her qualities which triggers something in him. He spent YEARS after her death thinking no one would ever love him the way she did. She probably knew things about him that even Steve didn't. So the fact that someone like that is in front of him again not only excites him but scares him.

Of course, one reason being this arrangement isn't permanent. After 3 weeks or 3 murders they're supposed to disappear until the next person summons them and again there's nothing he can do about it. Two, he feels guilty. I mean he loved Chrissy...he can't love someone else? But he can...thats why her dad said what he said.

I genuinely believe if she was exactly like Chrissy he would be meaner to her. He doesn't want another Chrissy. The princess was special to him for a reason.

When my person passed, I always felt so guilty when I met someone or did something that made me happy the way he did to the point where I was a very snippy angry human who became severely depressed. The first time I met someone that reminded me of him I kept bringing him up because it had been so long since I talked about him or felt this way.

"We used to do this together." Or "He would say that all the time!"

For a long time, it added to the guilt because I felt kinda like what you were describing. "Oh my god they probably think Im only around them because they remind of him." I would apologize constantly like "I swear no I like you for you."

Someone had to sit me down and be like "Kathryn! Its ok. It's ok to feel what you're feeling."

Once I felt like I could be more open, I didn't feel the need to keep bringing up things like that constantly. I didn't feel like...he was going to be forgotten and I was replacing him if I stopped talking about him.

So yeah...that's how I write for Eddie's grief. Honestly, this is the only chapter you're going to get the bulk of that breakdown of his history lol I wanted her to get to know more about them and how they came to be here. Like Steve says Eddie is the big bulk of the reason he is where he is so both stories connect.

I hope what I've said here doesn't cause offense. Again, its from my point of view and I wanted to answer you honestly. I genuinely didn't think this chapter could be perceived in such away so it helps me to hear you but yeah.

You have to remember. Its chapters online. Not a whole book. I can't flush out a whole arc with smut in like 4 chapters lol Obviously if you read the above lol

[ahaura]

yellowjackets s2e4 lb

WHAT IS GOING ON i dont remember that clip from the last ep but it's fine

taissa repressed/separated the part of herself so much that its turned into a completely Other Self

DID HER SLEEPWALKING TAKE HER TO VAN?

is it just me or is it simply the link im using or does the themesong sound... more sinister...?

apex predator (survivalist cannibal) shauna shipman is HERE

once again... a comedy<3

FRODO AND MISTY BESTIE TIME?

"it's pretty rare for a friend to so relentlessly have your back" ok so i have theories. 1) he actually is just a weirdo who is also on misty's wavelength 2) fed 3) cult member (unlikely) 4) forest-sent (unlikely but it'd be interesting)

i REALLY want misty to have a fellow morally dubious and hilarious bestest best friend but i ALSO know that we are in a tv show where things have to happen. so. im enjoying it while i can.

IS IT STARTING? ARE THEY FINALLY TURNING ON COACH BEN BECAUSE HE DID NOT PARTAKE IN THE RITUALISTIC FOREST-INDUCED CANNIBALISM EVENT OF EATING JACKIE'S CORPSE? LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOO

"a contest" oh boy

its happeninggggg the splintering the division fairytale vs "logic" putting saint lottie of new jersey on the spot lets GO

cult convo in the carrrrr

every time a character takes their eyes off the road when theyre drying i think of that one time when frodo says "get off the road!" in fotr except it's "keep your eyes on the road" <3

oh lottie....

lottie speaks and all i hear is therapy voice like she DOES know what to say and how to think about things but only in the way that does not threaten the frame of mind she was forced into likeeeee god there's a lottie underneath it all just like there's a shauna underneath it all under the layers of bullshit and time they're still under there lottie pleeeeaaaase

THE RITUAL OF PREPARATION.... I NEED A MINUTE...

is that snow in the line of lottie's scar.... like the snow in the carving on the tree...

also tho if u think about it i DO get it like nat refusing to take the blessing bec she thinks its stupid and it doesnt work and the others believing that it means shes not doing EVERYTHING she can to feed them i get that i can see it...

"im a millionaire its on youtube" JASDSDKSAJFKDS?????

shes touching the mouse... if you hear yelling in the distance thats my mom saying "mice carrie DISEASES"

lottie getting tetanus so the group can eat... <3

NAT IS SO FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

LISAAAAAAAAA

oh lisa...

ok i do want to say. first and foremost. it is entirely possible do feel numb when they got on medication and im not going to discount that. HOWEVER. in my PERSONAL experience with depression, therapy, and medication... a lot of the times that "numb" is experiencing "stable" like you're not feeling the super highs and super lows anymore you've tapered off and entered a more... normal? ??? range of emotions im getting sleepy so i cant remember the name of it but my therapist has described tolerance and vibrations and whatever and when youre in a Downtrend you are depressed but when you're Activated (angry, worried, anxious, etc.) you're Doing things and the goal is not to seesaw as much so violently into both ends but find a safe middle ground where you're supposed to be able to manage ur emotions well. idk what's going on w lisa i cant speak to her specifics or anything but like . im fairly sure that the idea that medication "numbs" you and turns you into a zombie is not as common as media portrays? if not entirely misrepresented or a misconception? i could be totally wrong in that and am only speaking from personal experience so take that as you will

DID SHAUNA REALLY JUST ADMIT TO KILLING ADAM TO HER KID? THE SAME KID WHO SNITCHED ON HER? LMAOOOOOOOOOOO WE'VE STARTED THE COUNTDOWN BABEYYYYYY (maybe) (we'll havet o see)

"hes not a bad person hes just a bad criminal" LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RIP JEFF FOUND DEAD IN NEW JERSEY

"i promise i wont tell anyone my mom murdered someone" im sure this will have no future ramfications atall <3 ever <3

oh im a fan of lisa its official im not letting her go.

NAT GOING OFF ON LISA'S MOM LET'S GO LET'S FUCKIN GGO

NAT PUT THE FISH IN HER MOUTH TO STEAL IT FROM THE MOM AND GAVE IT BACK TO LISA IM SCREEECHINGGGGG SHES CRAZYYYYYYY

mari caring more about the rules of the game more than not starving... eye see... also the moose may be a false hope/trap set by the forest but who knows<3

A PLANE? THE PLANE?

LEONARD????? THE BEAR??????

IS IT A VISION OR??????

GIRL SOMETHING IS WRONG!

GIRL WTF

WTF

WTF

WTF

is this the woods telling nat she should have taken the blessing...

jeff is right one (1) time youre really NOT supposed to let your kid know you killed people

im fairly certain thats not how youre supposed to treat hypothermia but what do i know. and what do they know too for that matter

lotttieeee...

WHOO---?

JAVI????????????????????????

VAN!!!!!!

well that was fun. i hope i can get some caps out of this ep if i can get around 2 it.<3

[queenharumiura]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER. REPOST.

name. Neo, but sometimes An-chan on other blogs

pronouns.  She / her

preference  of  communication. Discord. tumblr im is okay when starting out. 

name  of  muse: Haru Miura (on this blog) I’ve many others on other blogs

rp  experience  /  how  long. I don’t know if I could put an exact number of years on it, but definitely since middleschool so over 10 years for sure. 

best  experience: I’m no good at making decisions and choosing. I don’t know what is the best, but i’ve had a lot of good experiences. I enjoyed things like being told that they can hear Haru’s voice when they read my writing, or that through my writing they came to appreciate Haru more. I absolutely adore when people from the past come back after months/years and are like ‘hey, you’re still here!’ Wao, the honor of being remembered. TTuTT A time when I was the menace in the fandom making people rethink certain memes because dare memes were ‘put on the cat ears, I don’t care. Do it’ bait. I had a Haru dupe follow me once and she appreciated my portrayal and that too was just chef kiss-- a good time. I basically just appreciate when anyone gives my girl a chance. 

rp  pet  peeves  /  dealbreakers.  I strongly dislike when I get 2 word long rp responses. I extremely hate it with a passion. If I see that someone reposted fanart without credit nor permission, I’ll instantly unfollow. I don’t stand for that. 

fluff,  angst,  or  smut. I love fluff. I love angst. //smudged writing I’m okay with fudge (in general). I have written nsfw on other blogs. I’m not the best at it, but i’ve done so. I’m a bit of a prude and very shy so it takes me a while to warm up to the idea. On a base level, I don’t venture towards risque situations very often. May dip a toe in on occasion, but rare that I go very far with it. I may entertain the idea if I know someone is interested in it. Again, i’m talking in generalities here, and not strictly about this blog. 

plots  or  memes. I have a stronger preference for plots as i’m not the most comfortable with memes. A lot of memes either don’t suit my blogs, or they are hard to work with. Plots are a bit easier to play around with because you’re more in control of what’s going on. That said, I also enjoy having threads based off memes, so it’s not like i’m against it. I’m just pickier. 

long  or  short  replies.  I don’t care any either way. I care about the journey and the fun of it all. I don’t care if the replies are short or long. It only matters that a story is being told. Length ONLY matters if you give me a 2 word long reply. I will no longer tolerate it and I will get mad. This is a reoccurring theme because it makes me so mad. It gives me literally nothing to work off of. Give me a 2 word long reply in all seriousness and i’ll yeet myself from your life instantly. Truly, I don’t care, just write whatever works for you. IF you want me to stick within a certain length, let me know and i’ll gladly adjust for you. 

best  time  to  write: I tend to have more muse or motivation to write at night, but I’m more open to brainstorming ideas during the day, and that’s mostly because I used to think of ideas to help me get through the dreaded work days. I’ve since left that work place, but I still have the habit of thinking of rp while i’m at work, haha. 

are  you  like  your  muse.  There is always something that I share with my muses, which is why I was probably drawn to them to begin with. For Haru, I share a lot of random quirks, like speaking in third person. Being a bit of a troll, having dramatic thoughts. Having zero self-preservation skills. I can’t easily pick up a muse who I don’t relate to on some level. 

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