#and a lot of my placements here arent because i actually dislike any of the cast but because they werent given enough to do

[video-hole]

What’s your ranking of the Jackass guys? From favorite to not so much. And maybe the Cky crew?

I NEVER GOT AROUND TO ANSWERING THIS not because I forgot... but I was overthinking it too much LOL. since I haven't seen all of cky yet I'm gonna hold off on ranking them, but here's my ranking of the jackass guys :3 (to make things interesting, I'm gonna include the new people they introduced in Forever! idk if they're gonna be permanent additions to the cast but I'm assuming they are.)

1. steve-o

2. johnny knoxville

3. chris pontius

4. ryan dunn

5. zach holmes

6. dave england

7. danger ehren

8. jasper dolphin

9. wee man

10. preston lacy

11. bam margera

12. dark shark

13. eric manaka

14. rachel wolfson

15. poopies

[sagittariusboyfriend]

these are the placements in my natal chart that make up the biggest parts of my identity:

neptune in capricorn in the 1st house - this almost works as my scorpio mercury, but inside my head, and like my jupiter sagittarius, but in my EQ. this is how i see right through people intuitively, this is how people become mesmerized with me, where they feel this strange mystical allure and a part of why people have a hard time forgetting me. this is where i relate to only, and intensely appreciate only, people who consciously and subconsciously understand the complexity of emotions, behaviors, energies and that things become whatever you make them into, before anything else. this is what makes me capable of energies that enter peoples dreams (bear with me here) and being able to sense peoples presence without them being physically close to me. to be honest, i think this placement could make me almost clairvoyant, telepathic and slightly psychic.

saturn in aquarius in the 1st house - as a natal saturn in aquarius, and with connections to sagittarius and jupiter in my natal chart, this severly blunts the harshness of stern saturn for me. this is what turns me into a teacher and conveyer of my knowledge of the world, of behavior, of hurt, of love, without judging, and turns me into a respectful old soul, who in turn, pays it forward to elders as i feel strongly that i want, need and should show appreciation towards them.

chiron in virgo in the 7th house - as i have no oppositions in my chart, this is my main outlet of projections onto people. this is also how i live with my melancholy and sadness - i wear my chiron in virgo in the 7th house on my sleeve. this is how i hone what my neptunes intuition and my saturns karmic education gift me, processed through my scorpio mercury abilities of intuitive, preferrably deep-digging, analyzing communication and my seemingly overall cosmic fate of being a healer. it seems i am supposed to heal, myself and others, bringing forth what moves about in the deep dark into the light. understanding the fear and intense darkness so deeply through plutonian and saturns influences, but educating the wounded through rationality. 

jupiter in scorpio in the 9th house - jupiter is my natural ruler, and where i self-educate myself into oblivion. my biggest goal in any situation is to reach the truth and to learn it. herein lies one of my only two principles: honesty (loyalty being the other, present mainly in my moon, sporadically in venus, saturn and in plutonian influences). this is my joie de vivre, my exaultation of spirit; the catharsis to my melancholia. this works kind of like my neptune in capricorn placement, but within my intellect.

mercury in scorpio in the 10th house - as it is in the house of capricorn, during certain transits i have a carefully chosen powerful rhetoric, speak very capably, and people become impressed by my pathos. but during others i will speak, still with a carefully chosen rhetoric, but not at all as straight forward, and will most likely make some people impatient or confused. both types of communicaton styles (mercury is rarely one-faced as you know) have certain effects on different people, and one style will come naturally when faced with certain energies in situations, the other in a different type of situation. but i always analyze information, see it from every point of view and angle, most of the time points of view and angles that dont even seem to cross the mind of other people, often dark ones - on my quest to get to the truth. my scorpio surveillance camera-traits activate here, just as they do in my neptune placement, but in a much more investigative and dark mercurial scorpio sense. to the masses i will be seen as an intellectual and sharp person regardless, and people generally admire my mind. this placement also gives me possibility to be strategic, even deceptive, and if i wanted to i could take advantage of this. mostly i like to use it to see gaps and windows in markets, holes in logic and stories etc for the sake of truth. not many lies get past my intuition here. flexibility is after all mercurys second nature, and if i wanted to, i could be a cunning old fox and make manipulative moves to get what i want. there have been times when those self-favorable moves have been made, but i generally dont use it in a plutonian way. (my pluto in scorpio in the 10th house and my scorpio mc also adds to this, and somewhat my capricorn ac - i do not go unnoticed through my career or when it comes to my public image.)

venus in sagittarius in the 10th house - very favorable for me, as this placement opens doors for me solely because of beauty and charm (self-wank!). im always accepted as a postive presence in most situations involving groups of people. or in job interviews. or on dating apps and actual dates. one might call it an indicator of fame, but i wont go that far. this works well with my scorpio traits. this is also a placement that makes me diplomatic and magnetizing, which is already something jupiter in the 9th house, neptune in the 1st house and sun in the 11th house placements value strongly for me. this makes me lean toward older lovers, individuals that are not only partners but also mentors. partners with some sort of mind i admire, that can educate me.

sun in sagittarius in the 11th house - where i take pride in having only two principles! and absolutely no more! my 11th house sun blesses me with an immense lack of judgmental attitude or even interest in being judgy - that kind of mentality is the worst one fathomable to me, i would find it hypocritical and couldnt even begin to relate to how to be an actively judgmental person as i basically do not care for high morals most times. i really, really dont. people might misconstrue this because of my investigative mercury, but i rarely put any value in whats wrong or right most of the time. very much more so why you feel or think one way or the other and if i can help you with insights, seeing gaps, solving a problem - once again, how to get to the truth. i often need to explain this to people who are not susceptible to my carefree and very neutral take, and some (for example: a person with A LOT of oppositions aka a person who would project their own insecurities, and with 6/10 rx in their natal chart...) have even refused to believe it. but this placement is also where i live my life to the fullest and it aids what makes me happiest and lets my natural talents flow: building altruistic, judgement-free, unconditional, sociable, genuine friendships, encounters, experiences with humans in general. just like my scorpio mercury, this drives me to skip small talk and interests me - genuinely - in other people and especially what makes them strange. my sun sign of sagittarius also blesses me with a social, sexual freedom and deep-rooted love for even people who for some reason dislike me - and there honestly arent a lot of them. if i become fascinated i will instantly be your invested friend and value you highly - if you let me in.

[floralkittygambler]

Return of The Thing

Sort of. By thing, I mean me. But I love this movie and the meme. Ok, context for this post: - Where I’ve been - Why I left - Whats hip happening -  Where I’ve Been:

Long story short, I’ve had real life matters to deal with. Firstly, my entire household contracted COVID. Well, *almost*. We’ve been through constant testing, quarantine zones, and had the ambulance up numerous times. My parents and 2nd oldest sister were hit the hardest. My 3rd oldest sister was positive and asymptomatic. Now something none of us could predict that I would be completely COVID free despite my compromises. Despite that I was in close contact with them all, including the 2nd oldest who contracted it first and accidentally being coughed on a few times lol. I went through the exact same testing and yet nothing. No symptoms. No presence of COVID. And I took no precaution to isolate from my family as I presumed in our small house we’d all get it, so I was more preoccupied with caring for the sick. Ultimately, I’ve either gotten off scott free this time or there’s a chance I may actually either be highly resistant or even immune. Even then, I WILL be having the vaccine as and when my family are eligible. And we all still follow regulations set.  I’ve also had other real life obligations, much of it either mundane fixing up my living circumstances to more personal matters. Overall, I have been extremely preoccupied.

A mini update, the stray cat Big has been in our porch a lot more in recent times due to the snow as well as being even more affectionate. And Queefster passed away after a good life and a full tummy. Why I Left:

Aside from COVID, business, and my own health declining, I’ll be blunt. I left because of how disgustingly toxic most fandoms are nowadays, but Hazbin is one of the WORST for it. That includes harassment, death threats, mocking MI and triggering an ED. In fact, I’ve even seen others get rape and death threats. So yes, even if YOU are a decent fan, collectively most of you arent doing any favours. Even some critical blogs seem to be overtly catty in ways no one else seems to pick up on under this ‘look how blunt I am’ look and it’s just... You dont have to be a prick to have your say, to be honest and to disagree with the trending. That’s a few on and off of tumblr, and no one I follow anyways. 

In regards to my ‘sensitivities’ - two things: 1) Of course trauma is going to hurt, 2) Im fully aware of kids doing and receiving much of this, which hurts MORE. I have my own lil squids and Im worried of them eventually having to deal with this shit. And no, no one SHOULD have to put up with such rude and poor behaviour. Agree to disagree doesnt live in some people’s realities, but by God harassment and bullying seems ok if YOURE doing it or enticing it. That ISNT ok. Even if it seems like nothing to you it could kill another. I certainly will not take your shit. 

On huskerdust I STAND by my words. It’s fucking creepy and there is sexual harassment and obsession. And there are large triggers. I will not go into detail here because Ive done that dance before and I’ll be refining it again. YOU may like it, however it triggers my very real traumas as well as those in my bloodline. Be respectful and keep that shit away from me. And for goodness sake, parents PLEASE dont raise your children to behave as such online. And no, being anon isnt actually fully anonymous. Also to send hate and threats anon is not only traceable but also cowardice. Grow a pair and find a hobby. I avoid my traumas for the most part. I will not allow you to weaponise or diminish my own or others experiences for your fictional based gratification. Likewise, if it becomes canon, I’ll just make an AU where it is not. Simple. You can hate it but Im not your personal circus so go be toxic elsewhere. IF you like HD and follow me, honestly... Youre probably better to unfollow as I am deeply and passionately against it and stolitz, and valvox, and am very vocal on that. Dont mistake my traumas and discomfort as a personal attack - and dont personally attack me over it either. And before anyone claims homophobia, no. This is nothing to do with sexuality. You arent the victim. If you love these pairings with your soul to the point of a ‘stan’, then youre best off unfollowing because I really am too old for extremists and rabid fans more crazed than the infected in REC. Also I never used to hate angel but now... Fans behaviour is abhorrent and hes so over saturated that I honestly really dislike him now. Doesnt mean you have to hate him too, but just bloody respect that angel isnt loved by all, he can be triggering to some as well as toxically enabling [incl. past addicts], a vile homophobic gay stereotype and just overall a lack of knowledge and respect of sex workers as a whole. When you know a lot of the ins and outs and victims, it’s hard to overlook. I respect your triggering ships by avoiding that mess. Respect others.  The problem with Viv - and I will elaborate in the future - is that your audience is often a reflection of your work and it’s message/presentation. And most of the fandom Ive met are awful. Honestly, though lonesome I find more comfort keeping distant from fandoms because yall often extremely toxic and petty. Perhaps others have had better experiences than I however Im drawing a line in the sand. For MY sake. I’m annoyed with virtually anyone I sense great potential in that becomes wasted. Im angry at Viv because she can do so much better but is blocking HERSELF. This is from a creative and business mindset. When someone has potential that gets wasted - especially creatively - it burns me. Im just passionate on artistic fields. It doesnt mean I hate them. I hate the waste of full potential.

I’ll state things here people disagree with but encouraging harassment, hate or just being an overall cunt just aint on- It’s like people charade as being this fair being but its all bullshit. Self improve and sod off, I do NOT have time to parent you online. 

And obviously there are RL duties I must fulfil. Some in which I will need the publics assistance for if you can spare it. Overall, Im just... Fandoms behaviour generally disgusts me. Disappoints me. We SHOULD be better than this. It’s like listening to bloomin incels rant on fuckin chad or some bullshit pill theory instead of looking to improve themselves too. Honestly... I do mostly acknowledge my own flaws and faults and try to improve each day. It just feels fewer folk see that in themselves and do the same. And that’s coming from an old cunt whos far from fuckin perfect. Also, my fuckin laptop broke so I waited a week for a bloke nearby to fix it. What a fuckin lifesaver, he’s the real mvp!

Also Also, one of you did privately apologise and I appreciate that. I certainly hope we agree to disagree and continue to grow as people on our separate ways. Trust me, I dont forget small acts like this. Even the trauma that caused and the aftermath, please dont think I dont appreciate the apology. However you’re also entitled to know that the forgiveness and healing side may take longer for me due to various factors that occurred - much that few are aware of, including yourself especially. I wish you well and safety.

Hip Happenin Now:

Still busy but slowly visiting. I’ll reply and reblog soon, be patient please. Ive still many things to sort which take priority as well as other things. Im trying to get money n shit for a future and whatnot. Health issues are strong in the blood rn and Im spending extended time with both Big and the other pets to keep up harmony, especially now that Big is accepting slowly that our porch is a welcome shelter for him and he’s free to leave and stay whenever. Trust me, overloaded isnt even the word. Im prepping shit early this year and from now on. Also, my God Ive been dealing with more physical issues as well and had to play doctor. May even need medical interference but holy shit I could never see this coming. Still... It’s... An experience- If you could call it that. Staying more active and healthy. Cat’s nearly clawed my eye out in my sleep (to which I can only presume Billy got too close or hyper) but it’s fortunate placement so Im alright. Most of my body is in pain to the point of absolute normality at this rate. And I plan to make space for a better altar. Future of the Blog: 

Errr, it’s my fuckin space so it’s whatever I want really. Ill still have my Viv rants (ie, pros and cons of her work, HH/HB, other shit like that) however I just really dislike most the fandom at this point as well as the poor management and lack of professionalism and attitudes of staff. It’s just draggin me down and making me ill. I also want to showcase more of MY work (from redesigns to projects to some dumb 2am shit), cosplays, fashion, hobbies, spiritual practises - MY. SHIT. I feel like Ive strayed slightly. But I WILL be honest. And damn well will it upset people. And if it does and I’m genuinely ding something wrong/harmful - guide me patiently. Educate me. If it’s like this HD shit where Im not only allowed my opinions but justified on my traumas or mocking my disabilities or features, then just yeet yourself elsewhere. Also some of my gaming shit too. Getting to know folk who interact with my stuff and just... Create my space. For me. Something hopefully others can enjoy. Something that can function as a bit of an art portfolio as well. Critiques and whatnot.  But I will continually not stand for anyone’s shit or poor handling of serious matters. You will not cause me to doubt and invalidate my experiences like you have to others.  For now, Im tottering but slowly returning. For those who I previously and daily interacted with, I will get back to you. And Im sure you’re patient and understanding of my situation - it’s appreciated. But in terms of any fandom, more so if it’s known to be as hostile, I’d rather keep a healthy boundary between us. That’s for newer folk. Perhaps we may bond further and you’re welcome to try, however I do feel far safer not getting involved into other people’s shit any longer. I will put anon back on but any toxic shit will be reported as well as compiled so at least I have a reference on the actual toxic nature of fandoms. Likewise, Im slowly getting there but god theres a lot of fuckin work. So much that not even my closest friend has heard too much from me until recently. I’ll be returning to the grind for now as I have duties, as well as many demanding felines for my attention. Alongside some physical medical concerns which require additional care, I’ll be popping off now.  Im thankful for those who have checked in on me. I will reply shortly. Take care