#and i didnt want to right after bc id look stupid

[p2iimon]

anxiety is so fucking stupid. im too scared to ask about my assignment that i wasnt here to learn how to do. thats literally his job

[beeduoo]

wonderful

[satoruhour]

🪻ugh your drabble about sore reader reminded of this one hc I think of so much that it’s embarrassing. Imagine gojo getting on sorcerer!reader’s nerves to the point that she and utahime almost have an anti-gojo hate club, and one time while bantering with him she jokes about his size or how he’s so self centred he probably can’t even make a woman cum.

Satoru only says “wanna see what I’m all about?” and safe to say she gets dicked down like there’s no tomorrow. Throughout the night he also makes fun of her for being all talk in the beginning but cumming so easily, makes her beg for it, will never let her live it down. Next day Utahime’s real pissed she lost her club’s vice chairperson.

My kitty isn’t even purring atp she’s meowing loud and crystal clear. Satoru who’s smug and a big tease in bed is so unbelievably sexy to me

a/n: discussions of incompetent dick game LMAO, oral f! receiving, fingering, p -> v sex, unprotected sex, creampies, multiple rounds

OHHHH MY GOD YOURE SO RIGHT ACTUALLY HYACINTH ANON sorry i took so long to get to this sobs. yes yesyes id like to think sorcerer was with them before but left the scene like nanami and never truly kept in touch with the students at tokyo high. id also like to think this happens before the actual series starts (ages 24 - 25) bc gojo might still be honing his technique and theres still that playful banter at that age. god and they have a school reunion and he does some annoying crap dude.... utahime is DEFINITELY debriefing with you after that whole thing. shes by your side the whole night recalling on the stupid shit gojo did as a hs kid, when he collapsed that mansion without putting up the veil. you had to calm her down LMFAO

but at the reunion there was alcohol and you both get hiiiiigh and all things get 18+ almost immediately, talking about how gojo def cant find the clit and he fingers women wrongly and cant make any use of his dick thats probs small 😭😭😭 which is like ... you also have an inkling that he might not be that small because he is .... 2 metres tall but ya never know with how cocky gojo is. and that inkling is gone instantly when u hear him talk cause his voice is so ANNOYING and dripping with cockiness. he also has that certain lilt in his voice that you realise he uses only with you, overly teasing and silky smooth and u hate how you notice that

gojo is fucked up as well, u know he doesnt hold his liqour well but hes sober enough to ask “wanna see what im all about?” and you especially hate how you look around to see where hime is at and when u just catch a glimpse of her heading into the bathroom, youre nodding slowly and you do nooooot know what youre getting urself into !

needless to say, gojo is already getting u so hot and bothered just from a simple kiss. he warped you two back to your apartment (bc he rather die than get found out by megs and tsumiki), which he has been to before !!!!! gods even the tension back then was so palpable but gojo was in a vulnerable place with geto and everything and didnt want to do anything that would hurt his heart more. you two make out for A WHILLLEEEE and if ure wondering if hes alr so good at kissing, what else is he good at ....?

youre proven wrong time and time again when gojo goes striaght for your clit, rubbing slow circles and he has u begging for more, more something just mere rubs. gojo has the gall to lick a stripe up your soaked panties and sucks a little at your clit and god he is LOVING the way all your previous insults about him fall short of your lips and doesnt have the same punch: “still doesnt prove your dick’s b-big—” gojo lips your panties to the side and eats you out. he eats. you. out. to prove a point but also he falls in love with your pussy, slobbering all over it and shit. “didnt tell my your pussy was so good, baby.” “cat got your tongue? do i live up to your standards?”

you realise hes cocky for a reason and that his tongue game is fucking insane. the same goes for his fingers, locking eyes when he first inserts his digits in and your moan is like heaven to gojo bc he likes nothing more than to prove people wrong. and this is the best way to do it !!!! “cum on my tongue, sweetness.” oh YOU DO !!! YOU DOOOOOO

and then you think gojos done with making his statement. nah. youre so fucked out just from oral and hes smirking down at you, bringing your hands to his crotch.

“what?”

“wan’ you to open my pants yourself.”

“so it’s small?”

gojo scoffs with a smile, he already finds himself addicted to you and your taste. “no. just curious to see your surprised face.”

it gets him off every time (even after dating. and cmon dont tell me you WONT be his gf or at least his fwb after this?) you react like that, mouth open and eyes never leaving his exposed cock that he could probably slam it inside.

wee woo and once he starts to fuck you ooohhhhhhggggghhh eveyrthing you say is INCOHERENT. you try to string words together, insults and name calling here and there but it’s always interrupted by moans and whines. “you’re so— mmhfuck— insanely anno— satoru!” its words and words but none of them make sense. youre drunk on his cock. he fucks you in every position imaginable and the first time he wants to pull out bc he isnt an asshole, you're trapping him between your legs and begging him to cum inside, inside, inside WOOOOWWW HE GOES INSANE.

“i’m on the pill, s-satoru! wan’ your cum inside, please, please—”

“you’re driving me fucking c—crazy. i will, i will.”

anyway yeah you guys go multiple rounds and youre rendered speechless at every turn, surprised at yourself that even when youre spent youre sinking down on his cock and riding him yourself right after you both came. everythings sticky and gross and gojos still sensitive but hes hooked on your pussy and lets you do whatever <33

the next morning u wake up caged in his arms and hes saying something annoying again. “wanna make this a regular thing?” and you attempt to reject him, pushing him away and getting up from your bed but youre sore everrywherreeee and he swoops in just as youre about to fall. “dick too good, huh?” you roll your eyes and just let yourself be pampered by him. you spend that next day just making out and being close to each other and u wonder what to tell utahime LMFOAAOAOA

you end up getting a few missed calls after gojo had sent a selfie of you both, blanket covering your naked bodies after doing the obvious and he just chucks ur phone to the side and continues to kiss you LMAOAOAOAO. oh sigh thats such a nice scenario maybe ill write it properly one day

hello hello!

[coriphallus]

A little rant on patch 6 and the implications for bg3's future

Okay, bear with me for a sec its gonna go somewhere eventually. My first bg3 run (thats spammed here on this blog) i played ascended astarion/dark urge romance where i picked the reject bhaal and become the absolute ending.

as it was my first playthrough on release i was vibrating off mt seat and i didnt really have elaborate HCs or anything, i was just doing a quick evil run until the bugs get sorted out. i didn't think much beyond "yes this dude would want the shiny stones for himself"

first time i saw astarion enthralled, i was confused. he asked me to do it, he was quite insistent on it since the beginning of the game. i was confused for a couple of hours, digesting the entire game i just played. Then it hit me; the game was calling me out. it was telling me ive been stupid for not having seen this coming and at that point i felt awe.

it was right, everything pointed to this, it was right in front of my eyes all i needed was to connect the dots that the game laid out quite visibly and i was just too caught up to see.

'well my durge would never do that' didnt matter because thats exactly what the companions thought. Gale thought the powers of an insatiable weave wouldnt corrupt him, that he'd stay true to himself, shadowheart thought shar had blessed and her she'd guide her, that she could be her true self under her influence, astarion thought he'd be free, that he'd cherish the bond he'd made with the player but at the end of the day power reveals; and when that power is acquired through the corpses of thousands its quite evident that Absolute power corrupts absolutely. IT WAS IN THE FKIN NAME.

it was a shining bait i was so focused on getting my hands on that i didn't look back to see the mountain of corpses i had to step on to get there. the game was telling me 'HEY LOOK AT EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE TO GET HERE, LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THE OTHERS WHO THOUGHT THEY COULD ACHIEVE THIS, DO YOU THINK YOU'D HOLD HANDS AND SING KUMBAYA WITH YOUR FRIENDS AFTER ALL THIS?'

just as there was never an option where frodo could stab saurons flaming eyeball and sit on his throne with the ring on his finger and sam at his side, there was never an ending i could get my 'happy ending' the way id like it to. i wanted frodo to remain in middle earth and have some peace in the end, i didnt understand how he was 'too changed' to remain and sam wasnt when i first read the books. i was angry even, that i didnt get what i wanted. it wasnt like tolkien haphazardly put together an ending out of his ass bcs he didnt know what to do with the characters, its not that he didn't think while writing that the fans would hate it, he wrote a story that achieved its catharsis by reaching its narrative conclusion. it couldnt have done that any other way. it was deliberate. i may not have understood or agreed at the time but it was the story he wanted to tell, and it wouldnt be one of the greatest stories ever told if the writer wanted to please a 10 y/o like myself.

it was never out of character for my durge at all, i was just blissfully avoiding the NARRATIVE.

months later we get this absolute narrative abomination:

and all i can say is im worried.

im worried bcs this is a clear disrespect to the story they've written, im worried bcs if they can do off with huge plot elements and beats such as this just like that it shows a lack of commitment to their own plot and if a huge Point of the game can be treated like a minor mistake than what else can? was is just a lack of oversight that laezel gets killed under vlaakith? can it be waved off if enough vlaakith loving gith players come together and shout loud enough that they want to ride alongside their queen with their gith gf?

what part of the game is tangible to hold on to, and after two years worth of patches that are made to appease the fans at the expense of the story, will it still be the game i fell in love with?

i dont blame the fans for wanting, i blame the devs for delivering. that they could sacrifice the integrity of a pretty straightforward story bodes ill tidings for the future of this game.

yes i wanted this feature, but i was glad i wasn't given it. i may have been confused and slightly miffed that i didn't get to reign supreme with my evil bf, but i immensely respected the game that could call me out on it. i wish they could show the same respect to their own writing.

[sighsebstan]

but like....what happens after she opens the door for logan....like theoretically what happens (asking for a friend)

ok just for your friend ill make a pt 2 of the stream of consciousness love triangle drama fest-

when you open the door youre looking down because you dont want to look logan in the face and hes speaking to you in the softest voice he can ‘alright let me in, were talking about this’ and you step aside to let him in and he sits on one end of the couch looking at you while you close the door and take the far end of the couch with your legs scrunched up facing him which honestly is how you usually sit but its also convenient rn bc you can easily tuck your face in if you get too embarrassed again but anyway youre like ‘i know what youre gonna say-‘ but he cuts you off with a faux exasperated chuckle and it makes you look him in the eye finally and that oddly centers you ‘then will ya let me say it?’ and you dont have the ability to deny him shit especially when his eyes are staring so annoyingly softly at you and so he says ‘i think you know how i feel about you, i clearly care about you, a lot, and nothings changing that,’ hes speaking slowly and you can tell hes trying to carefully choose his words in the moment but then he takes a beat and a deep breath before he finishes his thought with ‘but wades got a point kiddo, the way i see you- the way i see us- this isnt gonna be a romantic thing’ and then ofc the tears start forming in your eyes again but this time a tear drop starts to fall down your cheek and logan gets closer so that he can put a hand on your knee while you stare up at the ceiling (and like fuck u for that logan but also you dont budge or ask him to move his hand bc <33) ‘the thing is that i know that’ you start ‘ its just that i have a ridiculous crush on you and i cant see it going away’ and it was an act of your heart betraying your brain bc your brain tells you to just accept the care and comfort that logan has always shown you platonic or not but your heart is a stupid bitch and a stubborn bitch and struggles to move on and your words hang in the air for the worlds longest minute before logan speaks up again ‘can you try? i know it might be asking a lot but ive lost enough and i really need you in my life,, youre like my own personal anchor being’ you had to snort laugh when he said that and you looked down where his hand was on your knee and youre like ‘wow that was really corny’ and he laughed with you in agreement and says ‘yeah i knew you werent gonna let that slide’ and then you shifted so that you were curled up in his side and he could have his arm around your shoulder caressing your hair which was not new to either of you and eventually he can hear your heartbeat steadily go back to a normal rhythm and he goes ‘so the wade thing’ and youre like ‘yeah the wade thing…..’ and your heart rate is right back up and he asks ‘have you ever thought of him?? like that??’ and you honestly told him ‘i didnt know it was an option i guess? it never crossed my mind he could see me like that’ and ever the wingman logan goes ‘it might be worth a shot? i mean, you know if he ever does anything to you id do whatever i can to fuckin kill him so its not like theres much to lose’ and you scoff even though you know hes being absolutely truthful and you go ‘yeah…’ and for a second you think about how great it could be with your bestie who you admittedly think is hot and you obviously love spending time with , but then again in your head your like ‘except i could lose my best friend’

[pumpkinsy0]

Maybe... perhaps... more pony and darry being happy headcanons? I love their brotherly relationship sm! I'd especially like some post canon ones where darry is trying to help pony get back into regular life after everything that happened!

darry and pony, my loves

•after the book, darry would try to have one on one time w pony, guaranteed darrys a busy guy so most likely its just them hangin out at home, but they r trying to connect again

•personally i think that, even before their parents deaths, i dont think they were really close to each other, considering their ages, so them growing close is actually a first for em, its not like they DIDNT act like brothers, they just didnt connect one on one much

•id like to think that after that happened, darry tries getting more of a hold on when hes angry, to some degree he blames himself and wants to do right and “rectify” what he did

•darry hugs pony a bit tighter now, like before he would do it on accident, but now its on purpose, its like a “wow ur right here with me in this moment, right now, i couldnt be happier” kinda thing

•darry would try to make pony smile more, for example, telling jokes that pony doesnt exactly laugh at, but pony smiles anyways bc the thought was nice, and then the gang generally doesnt care how the chocolate cake is made however darry knows pony likes it a specific way, so sometimes he switches up his recipe so its how pony likes and pony can smile a bit more in the morning, those kinda things

•pony tries making darry smile too!!!however he doesnt exactly know how to, and he doesnt wanna look stupid, so he goes to soda about how to do it

•yes, darry is supposed to fill in the roll of being a father and mother, but i think sometimes he lets it slip and just acts like an older brother, annoying his younger sibling

•i think we should let pony kiss darrys forehead when hes asleep too, cmon guys whos w me on that one,,,,guys cmon,,,,,

•funny lil thought but on ponys 21st bday, darry took pony to drink and pony aint react and darry was like “so ur gonna explain urself???”

•theyre two of the most observant ppl of the whole gang, i think the gangs basically lucky pony and darry werent that close before or else they’d b in some kinda trouble w em😭

•sometimes darrys giving pony unsolicited dating advice and ponys just being forced to hear one of darrys dating stories, begging soda to get him out of it while sodas basically like “if i had to deal w it so do u”

[chalkodareal]

About Furry-Homestar's callout post

if you saw this post and then it was like, deleted, it was bc it wa community labeled as mature by mistake. it means i cant see it and i THINK its harder for others to see it too?????? so this is a reupload

i cant give a very in-depth like, "THIS PERSON IS WRONG BECAUSE OF SCREENSHOTS" thing bc i dont think i have screenshots or access ot the dms. but i can tell you what i do know

1. The "chalko is a proshipper " claims.

i really cant remember what i said in that conversation so i cant tell you if i said "i think proshipping is fine if its in private", although it certainly doesnt sound like the way id phrase it. i probably said that i dont think that stuff is harming people if its in private, which truth be told i did believe at the time. my views on that have changed over time but i will admit i probably said that i didn tthink it was a big deal or somehting liek that. i am not a proshipper

2. scijohn porn

this is another thing where yeah, i did do it. you can see it clearly through my handwriting and style. im not going to try to tell you i didnt. what i will say is that it was late april-early may last year. which like, yeah. not an excuse for drawing that. but i didnt think that would get out because i sent it to you in a private folder. i would not do this now. i do not think it is ok.

3. the fnf porn

yeah those are adults. 19 in the games canon, pico is 20 maybe? semantics. but i dont blame you for being confused. im realizing most of this post is just admitting i was wrong because no i did not draw those two looking old enough no. i thinkt hat one was drawn when i was 13. it was jsut kind of how i drew them but absolutley no yoreu right they look like kids.

if there were other claims, i didnt see them, at least specifically about my images.

4. the "ghoting you for 2 months"

again yeah. im not going to deny i did that. i think something about our relationship confused me and i handled it extremely immaturely. i didnt know how to talk to you but probably i felt weird or bad after sending you all that, which is no fault of yours.

most of this post is admitting i was wrong and you were technically right bout what you said about me. but god man, i want you to listen to me for a second. i was 14 and stupid and i didnt think doing that meant anything. i know it was a mistake that i did it but i sent it to you in a folder where i thought it would be ok to share those things. i think we may have been talking about it? i assumed it was ok at the time based on your reaction. its not your fault that you didnt express discomfort at the time, im not blaming you. i understand its hard, but i couldnt read you. i would not have done somehting like that today. i dont really know what to say about all of this so this is really all i can say at the time. if theres any more specific claims, ive only seen the post through screenshots so. i dont think i can see them in full.

[snorfbin]

i feel like the difference between zos with eso and larian with bg3 is like night and day. larian put so much love and effort into bg3 but it feels like zos actually fucking hates their players and wants everyone to suffer

like when it comes to updates it feels like larian is kissing me with tongue but zos barely even gives me scraps, even when they hype up how long their patch notes are. there was one "fix" zos had implemented on pts where youd only get sprinting animations when you actually held shift to sprint otherwise youd just get the normal running animation. as someone who does a lot of mat farming ive got a super speedy toon and it looked so damn stupid. like imagine someones running around twice as fast as usain bolt but with the gait of a casual jogger! so stupid and ugly! the "fix" never actually made it to the live server bc this is one of the few times zos actually listened to the players but guess what made it on to the patch notes for the live server soon after? yup! they said in the patch notes that this "fix" was on the live server when it wasnt at all! they just left it in the official live server patch notes to pad out the length bc they spent so much time hyping up how long the patch notes were gonna be bc they were fixing so much stuff

ive never had any issues with combat at all in bg3, it works exceedingly well and i quite enjoy it. and then zos broke the blocking mechanic... three times in a row... ive also been having problems with my 2 arcanists too. if i use my green beam but literally anything interrupts me then i cant use ANY of my abilities at all until the beam ability normally wouldve ended. normally if someone bashes you while channeling an ability like that you just cant recast that ability for like 2 secs at most but you can still use other abilities. for me i cant do anything at all. anything that interrupts my ability will cause this to happen such as a summoned companion finally appearing. this isnt a lag thing either, it happens when my ping is as low as 70 or off the charts at 999. the arcanist class is part of a $70 dlc and altho i got it on sale id expect any game company to do some fucking quality checks on their shit before launching it!

larians depiction of the world makes sense too compared with some of the more recent eso dlcs. like necrom is an ancient city, possibly one of the oldest in morrowind and prolly like 4 thousand years old. its also the epicenter of morrowinds funerary culture where people go to cremate their honoured dead. you can see carts all over the city carrying coffins. so tell me why in a city that relies on carts for something so fucking culturally important and so regular do they not have some sorta permanent infrastructure for carts? they just have wooden ramps barely big enough for a single cart on MOST stair cases, theres even some stairs near the cremation section of the city with absolutely no ramps whatsoever. death be so common by the time of eso with shit like the knehatan flu and the three banners war and molag bals planemeld and so on and so forth, its a very turbulent time with people dying left right and center! the stairs that do have ramps only have one single ramp! oh good lord the traffic jams must be a fucking nightmare! what if one of those ramps breaks bc its literally just made of wood? what are people to do then? i doubt you could get away with just leaving your ancestor there for a bit either bc ancestors and their care are so important to the culture! youre just fucked if one of those shitty ramps snaps like a twig underneath the very constant wear and tear! the main gate doesnt even have ramps either, the main fucking gate to the city is rampless!

larians fast at fixing their bugs and mistakes too. meanwhile necrom launched with a couple of audio mistakes. most notably the telvanni peninsula zone didnt have any ambient music at all and throughout azandars whole questline all other npcs had no audio to their dialogue so the game would skip right over subtitles, thankfully i already had npc subtitles turned on in my chatbox so i had the luxury to read them while azandar immediately went right back to speaking. it took zos several fucking months to fix those audio issues. i literally beat bg3 in the time it took zos to fix the audio bug, i even made several new ocs with backstories in that time too. also during that time playing bg3 i didnt have any issues with missing music or dialogue audio! when larian does encounter a bug or mistake its usually fixed by the 2nd update after the mistake comes up

zos has also outright stolen tes fanart and passed it off as their own creation and put it in a lootbox people could spend irl money to gamble for. lately with my last rant about the jubilee maintenance it feels like theyre trying to pit players against each other rather than taking responsibility for their shitty way of handling the scenario. they turned the situation into an us versus them sorta fight on the forums between folks who just wanted the rewards from the final day of the jubilee event and those who wanted access to their account back, zos just sat back and watched everyone bicker and fight

playing bg3 has made me fully aware of just how shitty eso is. like i can handle some of the bugs zos throws my way bc ive spent years playing skyrim, its just the usual tes bugs. with each quarter tho it feels like a new round of bugs comes in, just as many as are in skyrim. the bugs and errors and mistakes just keep adding up more and more and more. its just never ending shit and bg3 wouldnt treat me like that!

[ponytailzuko]

were you shit at art before you became good

you had to learn how to do things, one after the other, right? like colors and lighting and line art and textures and perspective and all that. you had to learn one and then the other and then the other and then the other … (or maybe some things went kind of hand in hand but yknow)

these are stupid questions (if there is such a thing of course, lmao,) but i would be very happy if you could indulge me haha, because looking at your art is so overwhelming when you‘re thinking about learning it yourself ahfjaka (i love looking at your art it‘s a really nice experience, it‘s just intimidating too and a lil ah.. you know ahdjsk, only when i think about like. it looks a little unattainable or like it‘ll take 20 years if i‘ll ever be able to and that‘s not really — like i know better than to indulge these thoughts sort of so nowww i feel silly about this ask adfhkjfs.

anyway.

nice art, still, wowwwww so so beautiful)

(it’s a process and it’s about the fun of that process too but i have such a vivid imagination that i really really want to get really GOOD so that i can make it actually visible, and i know it can and probs will take some time and that’s alright so this ask is a little silly. i‘m asking it anyway though ahdjsjsjwk)

hi!!! im not bothered by the ask and its not silly!

i was, in fact, shit at art when i first started out. the reason i even started to draw and do it as a hobby is because i was very dogshit at it. (if there is such thing anyways)

i think i was around 11 or so? that age where elementary school is ending and middle school is beginning and everyone's getting kind of mean lmao. one girl asked me to draw with her and she was REALLY GOOD at it! but i hadn't thought much about art at all and only really did it for fun. so i was really just doodling to my hearts content until she ah. told me that the panda i was drawing was. Really Really Bad. like point at it and laugh kind of bad. like 'not even being able to tell what it is everyone come see this' kind of bad.

anyways obviously i was not very happy. i had not really thought of art as something i wanted to do, nor a hobby that i wanted to indulge in. just something some people are good at it and some people arent. but this girl told me my art was shit, and i was so mad that i didnt talk to her for a month and then for that entire month i did nothing but watch people draw online. speedpaints at first. then i got on iscribble (collaborative whiteboard website at the time) and just watched people do it. and i asked them, how did they start? how do you know what to do? and a lot of people gave me different advice - start with shapes, oh finish the lineart first, color like this - and generally it was very overwhelming and a lot of the advice went over my head. a lot of artists advice feels incomprehensible when starting out, and some of it really stays that way bc there is some art advice i STILL do not understand at all (but it works for some people so power to them), and there is some that is more understandable when getting into the groove.

but anyways while talking to people i realized i kinda really liked the coloring aspect of art. really really liked it. id ask people if they finished their lineart, could i try and color it in the layer below just to try and improve? and SO MANY PEOPLE indulged me. and were incredibly nice. and i guess thats what made me enjoy art even though i knew that in a lot of aspects my art wasn't skilled. because people were really nice ANYWAYS and said i should keep going! so i found something i liked to do in art beyond spiteful beginnings, and i just kept it up - i learned coloring first, and i tried to learn everything else so i could color it lmao. i only did lineart and sketching and anatomy because i wanted to draw my own stuff to color. so you can totally focus on one thing at a time! thats what i did :)

i hope that story helps in any way!!! im not sure if it totally answers your question but i guess i wanted to share that growing in art is a process and you arent alone :) ty so much im glad you like my art and if you ever wanna share your own im always open!!! :D

[dr34myluv]

TW vent

before you start reading i dont wanna hear pity if u even decide to read, i just need to blow off steam.

sometimes i feel like a butterfly, so fragile my wings can break, but instead of wings i have a heart and a brain, and i cant stop crying, i mean last year was way worse yk? life felt like it was ending i resorted to sh, im better now right? im clean, i have an amazing bf, i basically get everything i could ever ask for, so whats wrong?

i dont know what's exactly wrong with me, i feel fat, i hate the way i look, but that's how most teenage girls feel huh? its normal. just like its normal for a father to walk out, destroy his child's life with just a few words. bc that's normal and nothing is gonna change a man's mind.

"normal" im your normal girl, everyone is normal, right?

i grew up in a household where i wasn't considered normal, i was treated like i was sick, and wrong, by my father, if u dont agree with him then ur the wrong one not him, ur opinions don't matter to him. he still thinks that way, which is fine yk? being gay? pffft thats horrid, like "boyish" things (which really aren't i wanst even a tomboy growing up but wtv) guess what, THATS WRONG.

its not really like that has affected me much, just my parents arguing, and my mom commenting on my body.

my parents fought so much it was overwhelming, it was never ending, my dad would threaten to kill himself and storm out of the house, id be screaming and crying begging him not to do anything, i guess as a child that really does affect someone, he left so much like that it created worry, he was my hero, he IS my hero, as much as i hate to admit it, i love him more than i should.

due to my father, i think thats the reason im so attached to this boy (my bf) ik that sounds stupid but i have a reason for this.

lets call him N, and N was someone i met in school, he is the total opposite of me, has a tendency of being an asshole to people, so why might i like this guy? well he gave me the right amount of attention at the wrong time.

school was hard 2 years ago, id cry almost everyday, and ig i was an acquaintance with him, one day he noticed me crying, during break, i was alone, he came up to me, and hugged me, it wasn't expected but it was definitely needed, he didn't say anything, he didn't ask anything, he just hugged me, let me cry in his arms, i guess we slowly became friends after that. at the time i liked him a bit, didnt care that much atleast i thought.

i had no way of contact to him, it was just school, and during the summer i still liked him, it was a new year of school, and i didn't see him, i thought hey maybe he's around here somewhere doing who knows what, i asked some friends if they've seen him, they said no. and at one point i asked one of his friends, and he moved, she said, and i felt my heart sink down to my feet, i could feel like eyes water, i couldn't control it. and ik it's stupid, but he promised me he would never leave me without saying goodbye (in a friendly way)

i dont want to explain more. But to whomever decided to read, im sorry for not finishing it.

[lunarifie]

Rewatching Ninjago

(With no context other than the episode)

Hands of Time episode 9-10

This is actually so traumatizing. Can you imagine being Kai and Nya. Wus life on the line as well as the entire world

Kai has such a strong sense of justice

omfg i cant imagine how pained Kai and Nyas parents must feel. Seeing their kids being forced to retrieve a time blade and their old dear friend Wu aging to death

And they cant do anything about it

Ray: We hid the timeblade in a place that fire and water coexist. The boiling sea.

Holy shit thats cool

Jay: Its just a strategic retreat!

Cole: ‘Strategic retreat’ is just a fancy way of saying giving up 🙄

HFNSJNFND i love Coles sass

Zane: Wait! I cant retreat, im getting a signal.

Jay: Oh yeah? Does it sound anything like this?! ‘MOVE YOUR ASS ZANE!!!!’

Awwww Zane wants to save Cyrus borg

No but fr theyre right, theres too many vermillion warriors for Zane to handle

id like to take this moment in time to remind everyone that when Zane tried to sacrifice himself, Jay tried to run in and stop him while everyone watched in horror. Now at this exact moment, Jay is the first to volunteer in joining Zane to saving Cyrus borg

Technoshipping has been looking especially likable lately 👀

Kai: Gotta give credit to whoever named it the ‘Boiling Sea’ for accuracy…

BFJDNGJFN

The time brothers can be so stupid sometimes

FUSION DRAGON FUSION DRAGON

Can we talk about how Nya was the first ninja to make a fusion dragon TWICE

Shes the fucking best

Their fusion dragons so cool

Ray: Now listen, this is VERY important. The first obstacle—

Kai: THERES NO TIME! Wus wasting away!

just wait a goddamn second 😭

I love their sibling relationship sm

Kai, who almost fell in a crater: haha… who knew you could be so high up, under water…

Nya: 😐😑😐

Kai: uhhh any idea on how to get down there without breaking our necks.

Nya: well, we could ask our dad… Oh no wait! You were too impatient for that.

Their relationship is everything to me

Cyrus borg after attacking the ninja in vermillion suits: You came, to rescue me?

Jay: Yeah… a decision im coming to regret…

Love how Jay was a huge cyrus borg fanatic and now is just tired of the guy 💀

Cole: Duh, they kidnapped all the builders in ninjago. Pay attention Jay!

5 minutes later

Jay: Duh, its a temporal voyage, temporal meaning ‘time’. PAY ATTENTION COLE.

Love how at the beginning of this season Jay didn’t even know what Temporal meant.

I feel like thats happened before, with Jay not knowing the meaning of a word and then constantly using it when he does.

Kai: You know how moms can get, haha!

Nya: No… because, i never had one.”

Kai: ah.

Kai: Right.

Kai: Because ours got kidnapped when you were only 3.

Kai: Sorry.

HFJDJFNDJJT

what a blunt way to just drop that 😭

Awwww now hes trying to cheer her up 🥹

Hes such a good older brother

Cyrus borg is actually so smart implementing a self destruct code even when the time brothers were watching him like a hawk

HE FORGOT THE CODE 💀💀💀

(All the ninja secretly taking borg away in their disguises with their faces covered)

Jay: (Showing his whole face) Aye aye captain!

Vermillion general: DID YOU JUST TALK!?!?

JAY.

Cole: seriously Jay??? We’re NINJA we’re supposed to be stealthy

EXACTLY.

SAMURAI X!!!!!!!1!1!1!1!

knowing Samurai X is Pixal makes this whole exchange between the two of them adorable

Pixals so badass

Ok but why would their parents create geometric monsters that water and fire cant defeat.

OHHHH BC THEY GOTTA WORK TOGETHER

Awwwww the little geometric screams

Kai after they try to use water and fire on the door: Working together, hehe 😎(Breaks his hands and feet fighting it)

Nya: Its the dragon blade! For ONCE take TWO seconds to think a problem through!

Shes not wrong💀

Kai: (picks up the time blade and everything starts crumbling)

Nya: YOU DIDNT THINK THAT MAYBE WE WERE SUPPOSED TO DO THAT TOGETHER LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE?!??!?????

Kai: We gotta bolt! Or do you wanna stay and think a problem through?

HFNDJGNNDF

i love them sm

I keep forgetting they can do airjitzu

Cyrus borg: Uhhh i remember the destruction code was a 13 hundred sequence…

OMFG

Yeah. I mean, it was pretty obvious the time brother werent gonna let Kai reverse Wu.

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

they lost :(

THEYRE GONNA THROW THEM ALL IN THE BOILING SEA?!!?!?

okay but why do Kai and Nya need the dragon sword to make a fusion dragon. Jay and Nya didnt need one in skybound???

Zane: 13 hundred? Thats the first line of code-

Pixal as Samurai X: -in Programming a nindroid!

From Jay being the person who uses his element the most, im assuming its the easiest to animate 😭

Lloyd: SPEED UP ZANE.

Zane (literally shaking from how fast he’s typing): JUST A COUPLE MORE HUNDRED DIGITS

Jay: This could not get any worse.

Cole: did you really just say that? You totally jinxed us!

Jay: pft- Thats not how real life work 🙄

Yeah but thats how cartoons work

(Giants flying shop descends)

Jay:…

Cole:…

Jay: Not saying another word.

NOOO ZANE WAS SO CLOSE

Pls pls plsssss Nya and Kai come swoop in and save the day

FUCK YEAH THEYRE SWOOPING IN

Kai: the dragons not gonna make it in time, we dont have enough speed!

Their mother: good luck kids.

Nya: What are you doing?!?

Mom: Giving you the speed you need! (Fucking jumps off the dragon with her unconscious husband)

Oh ok she landed safely 💀

Kai: Our mom is totally awesome!

Hell yeah she is

WAIT WAIT DID THEY JUST FOLLOW THE TIME BROTHER BACK IN TIME?!?!?!!?

Nya and Kais mom: Children…

Jay: Nya!

Cole: Kai!

Just wanted to point that out. Thats for the lavashippers out there

Jay calling out to Kai and Nya 🥹

NOOO THEIR PARENTTTSSSS

Jay: Why did they risk their lives to go after Krux and Acronix 😢

Ray (their father): It was the only way to save Wu….

Jay: Oh, Okay. Im good with that!

HFDJNFNEJR

Cole: We need to go after them! Cant you build another time machine Cyrus????

Cyrus: I cant :(

Jay: Ohhhhh I get it. ‘I cant’ is business speak means itll cost ya big. Okay business man, i hear you. Uhhhhhh I have a tenner?

JAY.

Jay: Okaaaay, well samurai 2.0, since we’re waiting why dont you tell us whats really under that mask???

Samurai 2.0:

Samurai 2.0: No.

Jay: …

Jay: Would a tenner change your mind?…

HFJDJNTNF

i love Jay sm

Can Ray and Wu just NOT die from aging??? It isnt that hard. Just stop.

Love that Nya and Kai are just hiding right under the time brothers noses

See this is what I meant when i said time travel shit fucks me up.

If Krux and Acronix went back in time shouldnt Wu REMEMBER them coming back????

Jays bio mom: Am I dreaming or are those the guys we just fought?

Time brothers: You stopped us once today, but we now have a legion with us.

Jays bio mom: Awwwwww! And here I thought I was finally gonna go on my honeymoon! Really cute guy too, Cliff is an actor and when I look into his eyes-

STOP JAYS MOM IS SO CUTE AND ACTS JUST LIKE HIM

i love her sm

AND HER ACCENT.

Wish we learned more about her

NYA, KAI GO HELP THEM FIGHT WHAT ARE YOU DOING STANDING THERE

“Change anything, change everything”

God this is giving me so much season 1 time traveling deja vu

Love how the ninja contradict Wus own wisdom with his other same wisdom hfjsbfjsjr

OHHHH THEYRE PRETENDING TO BE THEIR PARENTS.

i laughed a little when Kai exaggeratingly deepened his voice terribly like his fathers and then Nya proceeded to give the best impression of her mother ive ever seen 😭

Cant believe the time brothers just killed their snake commanders

Hate that their time machine is called the ‘iron doom’

Jays bio mom: Ughhhh SERIOUSLY!?!? normal snake samurai are hard enough. How do we stop THAT?

Noooo time has been altered :(

wait, no technology?

WAIT WAIT WAIT

NO ZANE?!?!?!?!?

BUT DIDNT DR JULIEN MAKE HIM FROM SCRATCH?!?!?!?

HE HAS HIS SEASON 1 VACANT STARE 😭😭😭😭

I miss Garmadon….

Seeing him and Wu young and somewhat happy makes me wanna cry

Krux: You know what they say, fight fire with time!

Acronix:…

Acronix: I hate when you make up sayings.

Wait what is Nya doing

Ik shes doing smth super smart but WHAT

Nya istg u better have a plan bc Krux and Acronix just traveled to the future and are probably gonna destroy the world so you better have SOMETHING

also your brothers absolutely dejected and feels like a failure so maybe talk with him

THE REVERSAL TIME BLADE!!!!1!1!1!1

WUS BACK!!!!

wait what are they doing with it

WAIT ARE THEY GOING BACK IN TIME?!?!?

i cant do time travel shit i dont understand a thing

Ok ok, so they fixed everything.

That was anti-climatic.

ZANES BACK!!!!!

Jay: Kai and Nya did it! (Hugs samurai x) wanna celebrate by telling me who you are?

Samurai 2.0: No.

Oh wait Rays dying.

Krux and Acronix: if we go far enough in time, there will be no one who knows us! Aaaand no Kai and Nya!!!

Kai: Wow! You just keep getting it wrong dont you?

Nya: That must be really, really frustrating.

I absolutely love them

Wu cares for Ray sm 🥺

Wu: (destroys the fucking time machine)

FUCK YEAH WU BE A BADASS

Kai: Why did you do that?????

Wu: Putting off until tomorrow what cannot be done today.

Damn. Twisting around his own analogies now.

They made Rays old death so much more violent and sad then Wus

Cole: Wait, wheres master Wu?????

Kai: Hes gone…

Cole: So, we dont have a master anymore..?

Everyone:…

Jay: Yes we do, you Lloyd. It has to be you.

Im so glad im rewatching this show, I legitimately forgot all about this.

Lloyd: We will not rest, until we figure out. where is Wu.

AAAAAA OMFG IM SO HYPED NEXT IS SONS OF GARMADONS AND THEIR NEW DESIGNS AND WUS SADLY GONE AND LLOYDS A MASTER NOW THIS IS SO GOOD

[menalez]

Anon sending in elon musk you are so incorrect and need an xray+cat scan+ultrasound??+etc done. Unless you planned on killing him after the one night stand (but preferably before anything happened) im just concerned. There is no way you are actually attracted to him.

Also omg l remembersd.... when i was in middle school there was this one boy everyone had a crush on, except tor me of course. Like even girls in the other grades liked him! People would say "every girl at this school has had a crush on This Guy or else do they even go here" it was...so isolating LOL i didnt even find him neutral, just absolutely repulsive

Im a lesbian so obviously I couldnt have liked him but even If i liked boys, I wouldnt have bc !!!! ??? he literalyyy bullied me.when i was like idk 8? And once i stepped on his broken casted foot on accident and he threw a pisey fit bc all i said was "oopsie daisy 😮" (again, 8 sjksks) I hated him so much.... But anyways One time I said to my friends "he looks like a toe hes very unattractive and mean" and they got so mad at me ... just like jesus on the cross.

I hated hearing my friends talk about stupid boys who harassed the girls and "oh hes cute and i feel bad because he was concerned about blah blah" and i was just ☹️ we had rocks thrown at us from boys in these groups. Frankly i don't care what they have going on in their lives i wanted them dead 😭😭 i didnt want to see them anywhere and i still get scared ill run into one of them outside.

im also concerned fdhfhsdh a part of me wonders if that anon was trolling bc how..

"they got so mad at me ... just like jesus on the cross" killed me ngl. but i feel u almost loool my female friends would crush on these guys in the grades above us that are such assholes and i would get into problems w these guys bc id literally insult them for upsetting my friends. one of them would constantly mock my best friend for being tall so i was like HEY [last name] and he turned and i put up my middle finger n it made my friend giggle lool (we were like 11). another time i was 12 and this guy basically used my friend and then dumped her & made it sound like its because like shes not respectable enough and the next day she started wearing hijab bc she wanted guys to respect her. so when i saw his best friend behind me i was like "hey tell [asshole's name] that hes gay lol" and he went and told the guy and that guy THREATENED TO RAPE ME???? he was like "GAY???? GAY??? ILL SHOW U GAY IN THE BATHROOM! COME RIGHT NOW! YOULL SEE WHOS GAY!" ...again i was 12. and he was 17. i didnt rly question their crushes tho except that one time when i dissed harry styles and justin bieber and they were suspicious of me bc of it...

also why is boys being assholes to girls and girls just like. overlooking it so universal. bc thats how it was at my school too omfg

[megismorallysunny]

25/09/23

i might upload 2 today bc i have a lot, not from today just in general, so much so that i wrote it down. i had science first, turns out the school wanted every teacher for their first class to show their classes the new one way system because they felt it was clogged up. its really fucking stupid and we were supposed to follow it as soon as we left first class.. spoiler alert no one did, absolutely no one, i didnt see any teachers not following but no students are. I feel like using that system its only a matter of time before a 1st year gets hit by a car, your supposed to go outside to get to some classes that would have only been a few metres away now, and the way you go sometimes has cars on it, i seen one going pretty fast just a minute after class started.

i had irish after science and turns out that irish hw i was doing wasnt even the hw, and i had already done the hw a week ago, omg i just cant but it was a-ok. after that was maths, everyone was in for once so there wasnt enough seats for everyone, hopefully 4k4 and his other friend 5k5 dont steal my seat, i worked my ass off for that. a student who came 2 weeks ago, nickname -bluebird, is just annoying, its not that shes done anything wrong its that shes a complete loner, wont talk to anyone, not like ive tried but more in the sense, you wont hear even a squeak. in business she doesnt take down notes, in maths she doesnt do questions (not that i can say much) and in french she doesnt even know ça va and wont do her french hw. so yeah plain infuriating. i did my english hw wrong after i spent an hour carefully constructing only a third of my answer for an hour last night. my friends went to the shop but i didnt bc i wanted to stay in the cspe classroom and eat my lunch and maybe also read trollhunter fanfics, hard enough to find good ones involving a very cute and fluffy relationship between jim and walter. anyways we had to have a fake election in cspe, to try out ballot box voting, in first year for student council i tied with another girl for top votes. guess how many i got this time? yeah thats right a solid one, thinking about it makes me sad, does no one like me anymore??? but i laughed at the time even tho every1 looked back at me, it felt really dehumanising, the only way i deal with bad situations is by laughing and joking, and that situation made me feel a little shit.

made me also feel real great when aprciot turned back at me and said i put you 5, its like he constantly tries to talk to me and be my friend and when i ignore him he gets mad, its not great that i was standing beside granite today and apricot started pushing granite and while he did that his hand touched my tit. great. made me feel just great, it wasnt on purpose he wouldnt even try.. well he did say consent didnt matter today if it was me. he was obvi joking but considering he tried to sa someone before and this day a year ago, "mango" his friend and apples friend sent diorite a voice message saying apricot said he was gonna do a thing to her. idk im sorry i feel uncomfortable typing out the word rape. but yeah thats what he said apparently. doesnt make it better he could walk to her house and he knows where that is. but unfortunately it is what it is no matter how cruel it can be.

anyways, after cspe i fucking raced through the classroom to get to another because it had a door to the outside which was closer to the door to the other outside door to get to or religion classroom, we had a proper sound sub, she was rly nice and i thought she was a bitch because of her hairstyle but she really wasnt, AND I GOT MY FAVOURITE SEAT!!!! mission acomplished, my friend was happy bc i always run to get good seats and i actually did unlike last time where some people were unfortunately quicker.

idk if i mentioned this but i learned about shifting maybe early 2021 and it didnt really go anywhere, id tell you where i have planned out for me to go but it would be embarassing, i have one for the embarassing one and one for a library, filled with extensive knowledge and characters from shows i watch. anyways my body felt like it was floating last night, just like my first shifting attempt nearly 2 years ago now, i nearly did it but i chickened out, opened my eyes and couldnt ever do it again or get those symptoms. when i woke up at 4 in the morning i was half stuck in a dream, and was trying to do my tasks to meet my goal, i dont even remember what my tasks or goal was.

i skimmed the entirety of sex education, it was my first time watching it, it was pretty good, i really liked ruby she was definitely my favourite i also really loved roman but cmon ruby, she was so good also aimee. i redownloaded farmville2 so its time to relive my farmer life whoop whoop. ill do another blog post later. anyways goodbye have a good morning, good day and good night

[johannwolfgangvongoethe]

Further Umineko-ing. Again

episode 1, part 3

whenever battler is unavailable, kumasawa has taken the up the role of exposition and comic relief, which is nice. i like granny characters and id be interested to hear more from her perspective, since she is sly and nosy. being a maid really exposes you to a lot of dirty laundry.

a new plot point came up. i didnt initially take this one seriously bc of how stupid it sounds. apparently there is a SECRET FAMILY TREASURE OF GOLD hidden on the island somewhere. really not a direction i expected but suuuuure. physical 10t of gold somewhere. there is something deeply funny about the headship and possibly the pact with beatrice being tied to a little private family paperchase. fact of the matter is, kinzo is WAY too serious about being chuuni to lie about this. as unrealistic as having 10t of gold just sitting around somewhere is. its an almost cute touch that beatrice is the family's personal boogyman - an entity children get warned about so they dont stray too deep into the forest and stay out after dark. except shes real i GUESS.

well, thats ominous.

maria once again exhibits a scary amount of sincereness towards the topic, which on its own isnt that weird, since shes nine years old. she mentions she wants to grow up to be a witch as well. another thing to put a pin into.

(looks at krauss' hair colour) uh oh sisters

at the same time, the same discussion is happening between kinzos children. since it seems clear krauss has in the past misappropriated his fathers funds, his siblings are - loving as they are -, offering him a way out. they will not investigate further, should he meet the following conditions:

right, hideyoshi is there too. btw.

at this point its perfect to mention that eva's va, ito miki, is doing an amazing job. every word eva says drips with poison. and hideyoshi has a way of being extremely unyielding, while keeping a kind and sincere face and voice. probably explains while george is like that

worringly, krauss just accepts it instantly but remarks hes too poor to pay the 10% in advance. everyone hated that!!!! however, krauss did his homework too. evas husband is plagued by shareholders that want to dispossess him. rudolf somehow got himself in front of court, without the knowledge of his wife nonetheless. no idea what rosas problem is, aside from the fact that her siblings talked her into the contract and she has yet to make it. as it turns out. everyone is neckdeep in trouble and NEEDS MONEY RIGHT NOW!!!! (the game spells this out in caps) except for krauss. funnily enough. he would only need instant money, should he sign the contract.

so there is no upper hand to be gained or control to be had. they are ALL cringe.

(this is where hideyoshi finally cracks. he does not lose his temper but is visibly uncomfortable.)

the contract remains unsigned. also they got spied on. it turns out kinzo also tolerates kanon around him, if its to spy on conversations his children had. needless to say he finds this hilarious and he has other worries anyway. hes trying to resurrect beatrice with black magic fuelled by the risks hes taking in life.

this truly is like world's shittiest family get together over the holidays. except way more money is one the line. but the emotional exhausting and toxicity is very true to life. rich people probably live like this. horrid.

magic in this vn is built up on risks taken and wagers made. the smaller the possibility of success, the better. which is why kinzo encourages the gold hunt in the first place. the more people look for it, the more powerful he becomes. and then he can ??!??!? resurrect beatrice. im just accepting that. necessary plot device to keep moving.

nanjo has the kindest reading on the gold paperchase: kinzo might have put it together to force his children to work together in solving it, thus mending their relationships and becoming a happy peaceful family.

yeeeeeeaaahhhh no................. at least thats not his prime motive. it could still be a side effect though.

the riddle to get there is as follows:

KILLLLLLLL !!!!!!!! REND! MAIM!

so here we are. "my beloved home of old" might already be the island. or maybe its more metaphorical than that. it is currently october 4th in the game and i have read up to the afternoon. that COULD theoretically mean the a "first twilight" could happen soon. if that part of the riddle is already relevant at all. welp lets see

[fairybaby777]

in year 8 my self concept was so high except i had a stupid assumption that guys i liked never liked me BUT i knew i was hot (my friends literally called me the hot one so that was on them for boosting my ego) so i always had other random guys liking me & this dude that was right next to my locker kept staring at me and wouldnt say anything and i was so creeped out & told my friends and they agreed, anyway, this went on for several days to the point where id literally avoid going to my locker if he was there & then one day he sent me a dm saying he really likes me and thinks im beautiful & wants to get to know me more but being the bitch that i was in year 8, i turned him down and said no. anyway, we went on a long camp a year after this with only a few people from my grade and we became friends, but yeah it’s so interesting to look back and see how your assumptions have really shaped your whole life. but darn i wish i didnt have that stupid assumption bc i couldve had hella cute boys

[adorable-deku]

ok just had the most abysmal tempting dfo idea

so all for one feels alone in the world, right. and he finally thinks back to the only person who has ever really been on his side without his coercion or manipulation: his brother

so he searches out and seduces people who are kind of like his brother: moral, righteous, and just that little bit weak

yknow, before the whole one for all thing

so hes like: hmm, maybe i should try to remake my brother. appearance, in this case, is less important than personality, bc even he thinks it would be weird to intentionally sleep w ppl who look like his brother

shes not his first attempt but shes his last and most successful attempt

izuku is Just Like His Brother. afo dotes on him. and dotes on inko, too, because she gave him what he wanted

finally, he can protect his brother the way he Should Be Protected, and izukus not old enough to understand that the situation is wrong

he only stayed w his former lovers long enough to see what the kids personality would be like, so izukus got a bunch of older siblings (in this situation izuku is two years younger than monoma and everyone else)

so i imagine this gilded cage that inko and izuku live in would fall aprt quite swiftly when izuku is nine and afo gets brutally injured and yknow, no matter how powerful u are, brain traumas gonna fuck u up a bit

so. whereas before he protected izuku bc he was Just Like his brother, after he starts confusing them and begins to mistake izuku as yoichi

and inko is What Hes Looking For

and with all the complex emotions id imagine have been stewing for a couple centuries, this is a nightmare for everyone involved

a very twisted version of 'be careful what you wish for'

izuku doesnt get ofa BUT his two year older brother does plan to break him out with his UA friends essentially asking 'hey wanna go help me kill my rich shitty father and rescue my younger brother'

and oh boy are they in

monoma doesnt even know Who his father is, only that hes rich and terrible

afo only planned for other villains and not a bunch of young, dumb heroes. what he didnt plan for was sheer stupidity and recklessness.

and so, as punishment, they have to look after izuku under the supervision of aizawa bc they did this without permission and izuku is their punishment