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queen-of-bel · 2 years
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I’m curious on your take is on what the core themes of Devil Survivor are?
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this may be a bit of a cop out, but i think i'm just gonna quote the staff directly on this:
“Instead of simply surviving in a desperate situation, we offered the player choices through with they could interact with others, overcome various experiences, and decide for themselves what they should do about their situation. The keyword behind the main concept of ‘Devil Survivor’ is ‘Choices’. Personally, if I was put into that situation, I’d probably head to the nearest emergency shelter and try not to move. Despite having choices, my reality would be nothing like the game. [laughs]” - Shinjiro Takada
“The story of ‘Devil Survivor’ itself is like a personal message from me. Don’t ever let the situation dictate what you do. See things with your own eyes and make your own decisions. Don’t just sit back and complain about your circumstances, do something about them! The Internet may be convenient, but something as simple as a power outage can take it all away. Don’t take things for granted, because nothing in this world is certain. Always expect the unexpected. These are some of the thoughts I hope I will have gotten across to the player after they’ve finished 'Devil Survivor’.” - Yoh Haduki
I think they put it into words way better than I could have (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)
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m3gumix · 1 year
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Lovesick ; Chainsaw man
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Characters : Power , Angel Devil , Beam Warnings : NOT PROOFREAD. masc pronouns for reader in Power's part , gender neutral / non-binary pronouns for Angel Devil and Beam. Possibly ooc for everyone- [ uh the Beam & Power one were made specifically for @rayuki and someone else ..& I asked for them to give me scenarios with their favs while I made the Angel Devil one for myself- ] Synopsis : Them falling inlove with the reader and/or love at first sight. Basically just as the title says..Lovesick Request[s] : #1 ; Power : "Power seeing someone outside of Aki's apartment while home alone and gets bored so she says hi to them" #2 ; Beam : "Romantic scenario let’sss seeee uhhhhh he wants to hold ur hand but is a little too nervous so he tries to find ways to let you know he wants too. Or he tries to find ways to build up courage to ask you- either is fine." A/n : Hello loves! I'm finally writing again! This time for chainsaw man because the anime was hype and I'm having a csm brainrot. I'm taking Chainsaw man requests!! NO NSFW. Other than that enjoy <33
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Denji and Aki left power to watch over the apartment. Why? Who knows, perhaps they couldn't trust her enough with this mission. "But then why bring Denji?" She's repeated that sentence in her head over a million times. Before they even left Aki had told her to not go anywhere and to not open the door for anyone, would she listen? Probably not. But she hasn't done anything yet...surprisingly, she's just been sitting with Meowy while rolling on the floor. "Can you believe them Meowy! How rude of them to leave me here by myself- I should've just went anyway! As a matter of fact- I will! They can't tell me what to do!" She stood up with a huff as she put on her shoes and began stomping to the door, slamming it open she kept that pout on her face til she noticed a male leaning on the railing infront of Aki's apartment. He had the uniform on, what was he doing here? Was he sent to watch over Power? "That's ridiculous! I can watch over myself!" "You! Why are you here! Who are you- Did Aki send you to come watch me! Well I can watch myself I'll have you know-" She yelled at y/n as he just turned around, a confused look on his face. He chuckled at the confusion washed over Power's face "I'm just here to get some fresh air..no need to be so angry." She slowly put her arm down and blankly stared at the male. "If you're not busy, would you like to stay with me for a bit?" Trying to break the silence , Y/n asked Power a simple question that he hoped she would respond too. She narrowed her eyes at him and thought about his offer. "Hmm...Fine. I suppose I could spend my time with you, human." She proudly smiled and she walked towards the male. The two of them continued having a conversation about random things, just to pass time, it was mainly Power talking about anything and everything but they enjoyed each other's company. These conversations went from minutes then quickly to hours long. But sadly it had to end when Y/n got called for a job. "Ah- sorry..I gotta go..I got called in. Wait- I never got your name?" Power stopped her ranting and stood proudly with her hands on her hips. "The name's Power! Be happy that I chose to waste away my time with you, Human!" Y/n only stared at her before smiling and tucking away some of her hair behind her ears, "Hello Power..the name's y/n." Power's eyes went wide as she stared back at him as he parted his hand away from her and began walking away. She felt something completely new- something she's never felt ever, it was like....this warm feeling in her cheeks. Was it getting hot in here? Why does it suddenly feel like her face is burning- Oh silly Power, you're inlove!
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"It's so hot...can we go get another icecream before working again." The red headed devil slowly followed behind you while yawning. You kept your eyes ahead.. ignoring any sighing and groaning the small male let out. "As much as I'd really love too, Aki would kill us if we did." You reasoned with Angel, continuing to go to your location. "How about when we're done I'll get you some more, 'kay?" He looked up at the sky in thought, silently pondering your offer for a few minutes before finally responding. "You promise?" "I promise." The both of you continued to walk in silence before you heard Angel's groaning again. "Something's in my eye...I can't get it out.." Turning around to see what he was complaining about , you noticed his eyes seemed to be watering a bit. You sighed as you pulled out a tissue from your pocket and leaned a bit closer to his face. "There..all done. Your eyelashes are pretty long, that's probably what was in your eye." He stared at you with his usual blank face. You both stood there looking at each other in yet again, another comfortable silence. "Hey...there was this movie I saw, a man and a woman were standing like this.." He took a small step forward towards you before continuing. "They were about this far from each other,..and then they kissed." You slightly tilted your head in confusion. "What's your point?" Angel looked away and sighed , "I've never done something like that, and probably won't. Things like that never really interested me it just- never mind.." You sighed and put the tissue over your mouth, you leaned even closer to Angel as his face slightly scrunched up a bit as if he was confused. When he was about to ask what you were even doing his eyes widened when you put the tissue over his mouth and leaned down to give him a soft kiss over the thin cloth. "There, was that okay?" You stepped back as he looked down, touching his lips before letting out a long groan and crouching down on the floor as he felt his cheeks heat up a little bit. "I...I can't work anymore today.."
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Living in a beach house was probably one of the best choices you've made, you get to go out to the ocean...nice views...a lovely house not near too many people, and then....Beam. A fiend that you've become friends with..I suppose? You could say atleast, he'd visit you pretty often whenever you were just relaxing outside or just whenever he saw you he'd come running- Speaking of which, he was sitting next to you right now. It was night and you decided to just sit outside and look at the stars and as usual, Beam came to see you. "Hello Beam, it's nice to see you again." You smiled as you looked at him, Beam flashing you a toothy smile in return. "Yes! Nice to see you too!" You chuckled at his response as you looked back at the sky, Beam rocked back and forth as he looked up as well. There was silence between the both of you but you felt as if someone kept staring at you. To relieve your curiosity , you turned to face Beam...ah..Yeah, he was staring- He let out a startled noise when you turned to face him before quickly looking back. You brushed it off as just you catching him off guard, but as you continued to look at the scenery you could see Beam out of the corner of your eyes turning to look at you once more. "Ah- uhm!" You turned to look at Beam as he started talking, "yes?" He continued looking at you as he fumbled with his hands a bit, you rested you hand in your palm as you patiently waited for him to let out whatever he needed to say. Whenever Beam seemed to be around you , he always felt much more happy than he usually is. He'd feel his face heat up at the warm smile you'd always give him when he was around.. But at the same time,..as much as he'd want to hug you and such like he does with Denji..he never seems to have the courage to do so. Why? He's never felt like that before? Your eyes widened and you let out a small gasp as Beam grabbed your hands in his. "Beam..thinks your pretty! The most beautiful human alive!" You stared at him with wide eyes as you felt your own face slowly heating up. You both stared at each other in silence before you laughed. "Thank you Beam, but you're much prettier than I am."
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ch3rryfunk · 1 year
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Hello it's me again!!! I love the headcanons you wrote for my ask (even tho I already praised it I'm still so happy you wrote so much and they felt so on point to his character ♡♡♡)
Slowly but surely I'm getting to the point where I'm hyping myself up to post my works but I wanted to refine them since some of them were written a few months ago :)
Also, I'm not sure if your story requests are open but if you want I love the idea of Leon and reader spring cleaning and they find an old photobook of them with old memories :')
It's been a cute little idea I've always had but never got around to fully writing it myself so I would love to read it if you get around to it♡
Pictures Of You
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Helloo my love :•) Thank you so much <3 i’m so happy you liked the head cannons!! Take your time! I bet your works are really, really good. can’t wait !!!! I love your ideas! also titled inspired by the cure’s pictures of you
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Leon hated doing chores.
Not that he was against it, not at all. On the contrary, he was a very clean person but thought of better ways to spend his time with you when he was home. The last thing he wanted to do was clean that damned attic you’d been talking about all week.
Yet he couldn’t say no to you. Not after seeing you change into comfortable clothes and wearing a cute bandana around your head. The truth is, he’d do anything you asked him to without thinking twice. You just had him wrapped around your finger, he’d move mountains for you.
“Leon, baby. Mind grabbing that box for me? Can’t reach it.” Seems like you were committed to checking every box in there, what a challenge. There were many. You’d only been living in that house for two years and never bothered to check your belongings as you were so thrilled to finally be able to settle in with your boyfriend.
The heavy box kept you entertained, most of the things inside were yours. Books, magazines, stuff you probably didn’t remember you owned. Leon’s eyes lingered around the attic, it still felt unreal to him. He actually owned a house now.
Living with you had been the best decision Leon ever made, he knew so. Strange as it might seem, it’s what he’d always wanted. A place he could call home and someone to be there for him, he always hoped it’d be you.
Leon was only fourteen years old when he met you in high school, freshman year. He'd transferred from another school and wasn’t exactly popular right away. He was shy and quiet, a good student and friend nevertheless.
You weren’t his only friend, he had made a few, but you just happened to be his closest one. Then, after finding out you were practically neighbors, he spent many of his afternoons in your backyard. Talking to you always seemed easy, you never judged him and liked talking about his interests.
Teen Leon grew fond of you quickly, you were his favorite person. He had met many people but most of them were adults, so meeting someone his age that understood him and spent time with him made him feel loved.
“Hello? Earth to Leon!”
“Huh?” He blinked a few times, eyes quickly focusing on you holding a big, brown object with one of your mischievous smiles. He knew that look all too well, you had found something.
“Hello, stranger. I’ve been trying to get your attention, hon. You’ve been dusting off the same spot for a while. Everything okay?”
He nodded, growing intrigued by the object in your hands. “Just thinking, s’ all. What’d you find?”
“You gotta see this.” He loved your enthusiasm, he always found it cute. Ever since you were a teen, you tended to show your excitement towards things you liked, something that made him love you even more.
The mysterious object ended up being a photo album. Leon carefully watched as you blew the dust off and skimmed through the pages, wondering if you had filled the album yourself since he remembered you always carrying an instant camera everywhere back then.
“Oh, god. Look at this!” You pointed at one of the pictures. A young blond boy, sitting on a tree branch. It took Leon a few seconds to realize he was the boy in the picture, it was surprising. He almost forgot what he used to look like, he didn’t own any pictures of his teenage self.
You flipped the page to reveal another picture of him, only this time, you sat next to him, clinging to his arm. Someone else took the picture. Leon couldn’t recall who, but he certainly remembered that day.
It was your seventeenth birthday. You weren’t thrilled, your parents made you celebrate with all of your friends when you repeatedly told them you only wanted to spend the day with them and Leon.
“Yikes. I remember now,” You said, pointing at yourself. “Spent all night crying, I was a mess. But hey, you were there.”
Leon had no recollection of you ever looking even close to a mess. You always looked beautiful to him.
Every picture you found had a backstory, surprisingly they only carried good memories. Leon didn’t even realize how happy he felt looking at those pictures yet you noticed his smile growing bigger.
Both of you couldn’t believe the number of pictures you had taken, most of them were of Leon. You remembered making the album after graduating from high school, right before you and Leon parted ways for a few years. It was unfortunate, going your separate ways after being friends for so long but you were hopeful that some day you’d reunite, and you did.
The last picture on the album was a small one. A picture of you wearing one of Leon’s jackets. Your pants looked wet, and you were making a silly face that used to make him laugh.
“I remember that day. I took this picture in…1994, it had rained earlier that day.” he said, holding the album close to him as he examined the photo. “You thought it’d be funny to jump in puddles until you slipped and drenched yourself in dirty water. I gave you my jacket thinking it would help in some way, it didn’t. You kept frowning, and I had to take a picture.”
Your eyes widened, he remembered everything exactly as it happened. “Can’t believe you actually remember.”
“How could I forget? I kept this picture with me. Got a wallet just so I wouldn’t lose it. Not only that, but I had to cut it just so it’d fit inside. I didn’t have money or a job back then, the only thing that was inside my wallet was your picture.”
He slipped the picture out of the plastic and looked at it for a few seconds. He felt lucky, so lucky. His childhood hadn’t been a good one, he went through things no child should ever go experience. But meeting you? That was the highlight of his life, and he had solid proof. Those pictures proved just how happy you both were when you were together and how happy you made him. He loved you more than anything he could think of.
“Mind if I keep this?”
“Go ahead. I’m taking the album downstairs with me, might frame some of these.” You stood up, grabbing some other things you found before the album.
“This one’s going right back in my wallet. Thanks, sweetheart.” He kissed your forehead first, then pecked your lips. “Bet there’s more interesting stuff in there, let’s keep cleaning.”
Maybe cleaning the attic wasn’t so bad after all.
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navibluebees · 1 year
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Hi, absolutely love your writing and you are amazing. I was wonderful if you could write something with Lyle, maybe fic when he is lovely and super kind to others, especially reader all the time, but one day some dude is flirting with his human scientist s/o (she/her/) and he is jealous and he is very mean for this guy, but when they are back in his room he is super touchy and cuddle her so much which leads to nsfw scene? Sorry if it's stupid😩😭
Jealousy
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Thanks, babe! I may just do this as a oneshot, but I love this idea! & It's not stupid, silly goose~ Also minors, this is obviously going in a smutty direction, so please don't interact. Thanks!
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Lyle was waiting in the hallway, hyping himself up. Your relationship was still new, all things considered. He fidgeted with his hands, patting his pockets and postponing even longer. The interspecies relationship hadn't been fully explored yet and although he had been confident in his previous life, he was a bit nervous in the current one. Finally, he readied himself and turned the corner to walk into your lab.
He stopped in his tracks, boots squeaking a bit on the floor. You turned at the noise and your eyes widened behind the safety goggles you had on. One of your coworkers had his arms around you, trying to "help" adjust your microscope and while you were more than a bit miffed about it, Lyle looked as though he might smite the man. You tried to get up, pushing the safety goggles higher on your head and breaking the hold your coworker had around you. You shot him an annoyed look and went to Lyle who had a finger pointed steadily at the other man.
"Don't you lay hands on her again."
The other scientist held up his hands, a small smirk flitting across his face. "Hey, man, I was just helping out. No worries."
Lyle's face contorted into a snarl that flipped to surprise when he felt your hands shoving at his abdomen.
"Lyle get out of here. I'll see you later."
"But-"
"No. I will come see you later."
You whipped around to your work with not another word.
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Lyle paced angrily in his room, tail lashing out and knocking things over. He growled in frustration, throwing his hands up before crouching down to set things back the way they were. His ears flicked to the door when he heard the code being punched in on the other side. He stood quickly and looked over your appearance. Your face was flushed and hair mussed up. His heart sank for a minute before he reminded himself to have a little faith in you.
You looked at him warily and stepped closer, melting against him when his arms came around you. He helped you take off your pants and swept you up in his arms, plopping down on the bed. You curled into his chest and he pulled a blanket across the both of you, keeping you warm.
"Lyle.."
"Hm?"
"We have to talk about what happened."
"I don't-"
"Lyle, please let me talk. You can not come in there like that. Ever."
"But he was all over you! He was flirting, that ass, I saw his face!"
"Lyle, I know."
"You, you what?" Lyle struggled to maintain his composure as he processed the information. "And you just let him??"
You angrily rubbed your hands across your face. "Lyle it's not that simple! They already don't take me seriously since I'm 'just a woman'! They-"
"Wait wait wait. Who's said that to you? I'll make sure they get sent straight back to Earth."
You gently caressed his arm, sensing the tremble along his skin.
"Lyle, honey, it isn't something you can do anything about. They already tease me about liking alien co-" Your face flushed. "Anyway, I have to take care of this myself."
He barely heard your last sentence, body reacting to the previous one. A grin stole across his concerned face, ready to tease you to lighten the mood if he could. His thumb stroked carefully along your ribs, making your face go even more red. You adjusted in his lap and felt him hard against your bottom.
"You work so hard," he murmured. "And those assholes don't take you seriously because you like my cock, is that right?"
You squirmed under his full attention and ducked your head. "Pretty much," you mumbled.
He scoffed and traced his finger down to graze along your thighs. "Too bad for them, then. I love your brain. It's big and beautiful and so so sexy."
"Are we still talking about my brain? Or you?"
Lyle coughed out a laugh and pulled your underwear to the side. "Why not both?" He stroked carefully over your folds, testing how wet you were. He brought his fingers to his mouth and sucked on them, drenching them with his spit. Then moved them back down, pulling your back to his chest in the process. He spread your legs open to land on either side of his and thrust one finger into you. You moaned softly, his name coming out in a sigh. "That's my girl."
You squirmed more in his lap, ass rubbing against his enormous cock. He thrusted up to meet you, grinding his hips against yours. You whined, pushing back as hard as you could, forcing a growly groan from deep in his throat.
"You feel so good rubbing against me, you know that?" He growled in your ear and brushed a finger across your clothed nipple, making you squirm even more.
He moved to thrust another finger inside and you rose up on your knees, leaning back against his chest, head rolling back onto his shoulder. He worked his fingers in an out until you were a whimpering mess. He palmed his cock through his shorts and bit down on your shoulder as you rode his hand faster and faster.
"Come on, baby. Come on," he urged you on, his voice dissolving into a guttural groan.
You reached down to rub your clit as you spasmed around his fingers, rolling your hips through your orgasm. You fell limply back into his lap. He sucked on his fingers after pulling them gently from you and groaned.
"Mmm, delicious."
You blushed and turned in his lap, hands reaching for where you knew his cock would be. He smiled sheepishly when you gaped at the giant stain that was on his shorts now.
"Couldn't help it, could you?" you smirked at him.
"You're gonna be the death of me, sweetheart." He pulled your face to his and kissed you hard, pulling you down on top of him.
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I know I shouldn't have watched the reboot. I forced myself to try to power through because I need all the Ben 10 I can get. But this fucking reboot... sucks so fucking bad 99.999% of the time. So imagine how ECSTATIC I was when an actually interesting character showed up in the season 2 finale!!! Let me tell you about Glitch. He looks a lot like Ben, but he is not Ben. He was actually the bio sample (like a tissue sample with DNA and whatever) of a Galvanic Mechamorph (called "Upgrade," AKA a sort of liquid-metal nanobot-swarm slime alien) that the Omnitrix (Ben's space watch) would use to turn Ben into that species. This tiny sample was still kinda-sorta alive inside the Omnitrix, because the little individual nanobots were sort of alive on their own, but they were in a sort of stasis. Ben tends to fuck around with the Omnitrix a lot to see if he can get around its limitations. One time when he did this, while transformed into Upgrade, this caused the Omnitrix to glitch out and kick him out of the transformation. He was never able to turn into Upgrade again after this. It isn't until the season 2 finale that you learn what happened: the glitch damaged Upgrade's sample so severely it was unusable. The Omnitrix tried to repair the damage with the only thing it had on hand: Ben's DNA. The sample became a hybrid of that alien and Ben, woke up, and wandered off through the circuitry of the Omnitrix. This was THE most interesting thing to happen in this entire godawful show, and I was immediately obsessed with this weird little guy. His mannerisms are awkward but excitable, and he's just been living in there for like a month, subtly helping out and living his weird little autism-swag slime life. Nobody would have ever known he was there at all if it weren't for the season 2 "everyone gets beamed into the Omnitrix" finale special. I was so hyped about him, because he was the first actually-kinda-thought-out character in like 70 episodes. I assumed he would KEEP being a thought-out character. I was wrong. The moment he gets beamed OUT of the Omnitrix and into the real material world, he for some reason becomes a go-kart and is never a person (or even any other device) ever again. He is just a talking go-kart forever. I was genuinely expecting him to be like, Ben's new brother (which would have been a huge change but could definitely be interesting done right) or something, and have a whole arc about finding who he is or what it means to be a person since he was just born like a month ago, do a Pinocchio or whatever. But no, he's just a talking go-kart and they keep him in the trunk half the time. And the other half the time he's fucked off somewhere else giving random people Uber rides????? I'm not even making this up like he calls sometimes and they're like "hey glitch what have you been up to" and hes like "im doing rideshare work now" like???????????? what????????????????????? that mightve just been one time but it's seared into my memory. anyway i gave up partway into season 3 so idk what else happens i just checked the wiki and apparently he died. rip. i kinda ran out of steam writing this oopsies. TLDR: The Ben 10 reboot sucks ass (we all knew that but still). They came up with one single character that had potential to be interesting and then squandered it immediately.
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look at this meme i found about him https://preview.redd.it/nfaj7y3f8wd51.jpg?auto=webp&s=14b60247ddd0025a12e64981a96550b7851cda6d
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rose-riot-johnson · 9 months
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Hello my Tumblr Peeps👋😃 You're in it for treat today😃👍Since I noticed people (myself included) are looking forward to and/or hyped for season 2 of Jujutsu Kaisen, I decided to write about 3 particular characters from Jujutsu Kaisen, Gojo Satoru, Suguru Geto, and Toji Fushiguro (Birthname: Toji Zenin)😃👍 And also 1 of the characters will be paired with the reader depending on the ending based on which 1 of the characters they choose, so while all 3 characters will be in this fanfic, so there will be 3 endings for this fanfic, however the ending(s) will be based on the character of reader's choice💐😁👍
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*Note: Apologies for the pic of Toji with the worm on him, my Tumblr Peeps😅
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💐Here To Win Your Affection💐 (Jujutsu Kaisen Character of Reader's choice (In this fanfic) depending on the ending they choose based on their chosen character (and yes I'm writing them as adults)) x Any Gender Reader)
Genres: Fluff (comfort for Toji's ending) (Warning⚠️:Blood (Only from cursed spirits🤷‍♀️), Mentions of Slaughter and Death (only pertains the cursed spirits, as well🤷‍♀️), slight spoiler alert (especially manga)😅)
One day, Gojo Satoru and Suguru Geto were in the mall getting some sugary drinks from their favorite restaurant. While both of them were chatting with eachother about the Jujutsu Sorcerers would need to do, then you randomly walked up to both of them, as you said, "Hello. My name is, (Any Gender Reader Name). I couldn't help noticing that you were fighting some monsters the other day. I mean I don't have any abilities aside from seeing the creatures, however that was awesome what the both of you did. Geto was surprised to meet a non sorcerer, who can also see cursed spirits. Gojo, blushed about what you mentioned.
You then mentioned, "Don't worry. I won't tell anyone else, unless you tell me too.", then asked, "What are your names, if you don't mind me asking?". Gojo shakes your hand, as he goes, "Well, I'm Gojo Satoru. Nice to meet you, (Any Gender Reader).", then winked at you. While Geto isn't fond of non sorcerers, however there's something magical about you that already gives him butterflies in his stomach, as he says, "My name is, Suguru Geto, (Miss/Mr.). However I prefer to be called Geto. You seemed like a very good person.", trying to ignore his own blushing. "Why, thank you, Mr. Geto! You seemed nice, as well. As, for you, Mr. Gojo, you seemed like you have, an amazing sense of humor!", you mentioned, you then began to exchange phone numbers with both Gojo and Geto, before saying your good byes to them, as you happily said, "Nice meeting you both and I hope we meet again, especially soon.", the proceeded to wink at both Gojo and Geto. As Gojo and Geto, we're leaving their favorite restaurant with their sugary drinks, Gojo smiled, as he mumbled to Geto, "I thought you didn't care much for non sorcerers. You seemed to like one already.", sounding happy for Geto. Geto then replied, as he mumbled back, "Well, Gojo... I only like (him/her/them). That's it. It doesn't mean I totally have a complete change of heart.".
After Gojo and Geto left their favorite restaurant, another man smirked and said, "Now I can see clearly. Now I know who I plan to get with.", about you, as he has seemingly overheard the conversation that Gojo and Geto had with you. After he finished eating and drinking his sugary drink of his own, then started leaving the restaurant stated to himself, "Now I can initiate the conversation with that (Any Gender) when I find (him/her/them) and win (his/her/their) heart! And the best part is ((s)he is neither a vessel nor a sorcerer.", as he smirked. After he left the restaurant, he then saw you coming out of your favorite store in the mall as he sees this as a perfect opportunity to start his first conversation with you.
He then started introducing himself to you, "Hey, now... It's not every day I see a (beautiful/handsome) (Any Gender)... By the way my name's Toji! What's your name, (beautiful/handsome)?", as he smiled at you. You then replied, " Oh. Hi, Mr. Toji. My name is (Any Gender Reader Name). It's so nice to meet meet you.". You and Toji then continued their conversation, then you decided to exchange phone numbers with Toji Fushiguro, you then told him, "Hopefully we see eachother again anytime soon, Mr. Toji.", you then gave him a cute smile.
A few minutes later, Gojo and Geto were at one of the stores, as Gojo was picking sone nice and expensive gifts for you. With a board and an annoyed look his face, Geto sighed, then he said, "Are you sure this, Gojo? I honestly don't see the point of getting expensive gifts for, (Any Gender Reader Name).". Then Gojo then smiled, as he replied, "Jealous much, Geto? Some people enjoy having nice gifts.". Geto then complained, "No, I'm not jealous. I think making dinner foods and goodies would be more suitable and there's a difference between buying gifts and gift bombing, for your information.". Gojo then ignored Geto, then smiled as he replied, "Yeah, yeah...", before Toji arrived in the store, as he butted in as he said, "Well, well, if it isn't a couple of Jujutsu Sorcerers. I guess we all have the same taste in (beautiful/handsome) (Any and/or All Gender(s)), after all!".
Gojo then gave him a blank look and is right now seeing Toji as his rival for your affection, while Geto gave Toji an annoyed look. Toji then turned his attention to Geto, as he continued, "And I thought I knew you better, than that Geto! I thought you hate all non sorcerers!", then proceeded to snicker. Geto then replied, "You shut your mouth! This person is the exception!". Gojo then said, "That's enough, Geto. And Toji. Why are you trying to cause trouble with us, anyways?".
Toji then laughed, as he answered, "I have no intentions of causing any trouble with you sorcerers! Let's just say I met the same person, I overheard the both of you talk to earlier. ((S)he/they) is sure (pretty/handsome)!". "Then what are you bothering us for, Toji? We have better things to do than deal with you right now!", Gojo said. Toji then explained his proposal, "Well, since we all have a crush on the same person and ((s)he/they) likes us too, so we might, as well compete for (his/her/their) affection! We do our thing to show off what we decide to provide for (Any Gender Reader Name) and the best man ((s)he/they) choose out of the three of us, will get the (Any Gender) and will get have (him/her/them) live with the winner, as well. Deal?!". Gojo then said, "The best man wins, huh?", he then smirked at Toji, as he continued, "I guess a deal it is. Geto then agreed and said, "Well, I guess best man wins then. You're going down, Toji!". Toji then smirked, as he said, "Now that's the spirit then! See you sorcerers in a week then! So long for now!", before he proceeded to leave the store in the mall Gojo and Geto are in. Gojo then told Geto, "You heard, Toji. Let's do our thing to win (Any Gender Reader Name)'s affection!". Geto then said, "Well, since I can do my thing for affection, I will definitely do something else to do so, instead what you're doing.". Gojo then smiled and said, "I'm proud of you, for the fact that you're being you! Remember, the best man wins and as long as one of us gets (him/her/them), that's all that matters to me!", then Geto replied, "Yes, the best man sure does win and I agree with you that ((s)he/they) will be in good hands, as long as, one of us wins (him/her/them). Shall we begin, Gojo?", then the both of them shake hands with eachother on what they discussed with eachother about after Toji, left the store.
During the week, Gojo picked out plenty of expensive gifts that you might like, Toji Fushiguro captured some cursed spirits to hold them hostage until it was time (for Gojo, Geto, and Toji) to meet you for the second time when that time comes, and Geto decided to cook plenty of food as it gets closer to the day of meeting you for the second time and he has been making other homade gifts, as well.
When that week was over, the time of meeting you for the second time with what Gojo, Geto, and Toji are going to show off for you, came. Gojo gave you plenty of expensive gifts, which really surprised you. Toji letted all of the cursed spirits he captured out, to only slaughter them with his (cursed tool of reader's choice), as the cursed spirits ended up bleeding to no end, even after death. As for Geto, he fed you some dinner foods he cooked for you, some goodies he baked for you, and plenty of homemade gifts that you found, so cute.
Since after Gojo, Geto, and Toji showed off for you by doing their own thing(s), you then had to do some thinking who you feel you're most most impressed with abd feel most compatible with, as well. You just knew you had to make a decision on who will be in a relationship with and to live with, as well. You then announced, "And the winner is..."
It's Time To Pick Your Favorite Jujutsu Kaisen Character Of The Three...
Gojo Satoru
Or
Suguru Geto
Or
Toji Fushiguro (Birthname: Toji Zenin)
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Ending A: (Gojo Satoru x Any Gender Reader)
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You announced, "And your winner is... Gojo Satoru!". Geto is happy for Gojo, as he clapped his hand out of congratulating you, even if you have chosen Gojo and not him. Toji was disappointed with the results, however he did smirk, as he said, "Since, (Any Gender Reader) picked you, as the winner, then you must be the best man, and I did say the best man wins, as promised.". Then Gojo happily replied, "That's right, Toji! The best man wins and I'm the best man, since I won (him/her/them)!", as he grinned. With a smile on his face Geto replied to Gojo, "And ((s)he/they) made the correct choice, by picking you."
Gojo then, found an expensive place to live in with you. He has been buying you alot of expensive gifts, expensive meals, expensive haircuts, expensive groceries, etc... He just loves to spoil you with lots of expensive luxuries. He will also protect you from anyone and any cursed spirit who ever comes near you. As much as, Gojo loves buying you expensive stuff, he also cares about your safety, as well.
Gojo enjoys watching movies and TV shows with you. You're watching the show or movie he's not fond of, he will tolerate, however if you're watching a movie or TV show he likes, he would definitely definitely keep his eyes glued to the movie or TV show. He will definitely cuddle with you, no matter which movie or TV show you're watching.
The day has finally came, as both you and Gojo were about to have an expensive and fancy wedding, even with Geto being "The Best Man" of the wedding. After the wedding day, Gojo decided to take you to an expensive and fancy hotel on your honeymoon with him. Gojo has even bought really comfy pajamas, since he wanted to spoil you with night clothes, just like anything else.
"Well (Any Gender Reader Name), what do you think about the place?", Gojo asked, as he smiled. You then replied, "Well Gojo, I'm impressed with the hotel and also, you're impressive, as always.", as you kissed him on one of his sides of his facial cheeks. Gojo blushed about that kiss from you. After both you and Gojo finished the activities the both of you did in the hotel, the both of you decided to get ready for bed. You even put on the comfy pajamas, he got for you.
Both you and Gojo proceed to lay on the shared hotel bed. As much as he likes to cuddle, he prefers that you cuddle him, which you did cuddle him that night. It turned out to be the best night's sleep both you and Gojo ever had.
Go to the cursive "The End"...
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Ending B: (Suguru Geto x Any Gender Reader)
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You announced, "And your winner is... Suguru Geto!". Gojo, then said, "Congrats my friend! You remembered what we agreed on, my friend!", as he gave Geto the thumbs up, as his was of congratulating him. Geto replied to Gojo, "Yes, I sure do remember. Now time to take my prize.", as you blushed. Toji then mumbled to Geto, " Impossible... You cheated! I clearly feel that you, sucked up!". Then Geto happily replied to Toji, "As I recalled, we all get to do our own thing to show off what we decide to provide for (Any Gender Reader Name) and the best man ((s)he/they) choose out of the three of us, will get the (Any Gender) and will get have (him/her/them) live with the winner, as well! That was the deal you mentioned. I don't remember what we couldn't do to do so. And I must have did something right, fair and square for (him/her/them) to choose me.", as he unintentionally gloated.
Geto found this Japanese style house to have you live in. Any clothing you wanted, he made it for you himself and if he has to be willing knit the clothing for you. Geto definitely loves to cook dinner meals for you and he will even bake homade goodies for you, if you asked him to. He will not tolerate anyone or anything using attacks on you! Not a cursed spirit! Not another human! No one and nothing will get near you, if he feels that the person or cursed spirit (etc...) is not safe for you to be around. So, he is very protective of you. Until he knows for sure you will be safe, he will keep an eye on you.
Geto actually prefers to do the chores by himself. When you bug him to let you help him, he tells you, "No, dear. I really got this. Thank you for the offer, sweetie.", then smiles, so as much as he appreciates you offering to help him, he will decline, as politely as possible, while he prefers to take care of the chores by himself. He worries you will overwork yourself for some reason.
When your and Geto's wedding day came, it became an amazing day for everyone, including you and Geto. And Gojo was "The Best Man" of the wedding. The wedding was a Japanese theme and plenty of Japanese cherry blossom trees, plenty of Japanese cherry blossoms, etc...This Japanese style wedding them is mostly a Japanese cherry blossom theme, which you really loved the whole wedding, including your groom, Geto. He even made sure to create some cherry blossom theme kimonos when he takes you to your honeymoon with him.
Like the home you and Geto lived in, the honeymoon is Japanese style, however the honeymoon is more of a countryside and has exotic animals you haven't seen in the (city or town) you and Geto both live in and it's very peaceful there, too. When night time came Geto took you outside, so you can watch the birds chirp and the wind blowing the cherry blossoms at night. It was just as beautiful outside at night time, as it is in the daytime. He loved it there, while he's very delighted that you loved it there, as well.
After both you and Geto went inside your shared room with him, the both of you got yourselves ready to go to bed, as the both of you wore the Japanese cherry blossom theme kimonos, that Geto had made. As the both of you were cuddling, Geto said, "(Any Gender Reader Name), you're the best thing to ever happen to me.". You then replied, "Geto, you're the best thing to ever happen to me, too.". Afterwards the both of you proceeded with a good night kiss, then drifted off into a peaceful sleep.
Go to the cursive "The End"...
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Ending C: (Toji Fushiguro (Birthname: Toji Zenin) x Any Gender Reader)
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You announced, "And your winner is... Toji!". Toji smirk then he intentionally gloated at Gojo and Geto as he bragged, "Ha! This proves that no expensive gifts, nor homade foods and things, are even enough for you sorcerers to win, (Any Gender Reader Name) over! Anything to say for yourselves?". Geto was shocked Toji won (and more annoyed with Toji's intentional gloating), however he calmed himself back to his composure and said, "Well, you did say the best man will win, and you won. Just please show some good sportsmanship, since I know you're trying to get under our skins.", trying his best to be a good sport. Gojo was a little irritated as he said, "Well that maybe true you won (him/her/them) over, however all I can ask is... Please don't hurt, (Any Gender Reader Name)? If you hurt (him/her/them), we will hunt you down.". Toji then replied, "Well that's a deal then. I have no intentions on hurting, (Any Gender Reader). And plus both you and Geto can be like brother in laws or future brother in laws for (him/her/them)! I mean I can't stand sorcerers, however the only reason I'm not harming the both of you, is only for, to keep (Any Gender Reader Name) happy.". You then asked, "Out of curiosity, what's your last name Toji?". He replied, "Call by Fushiguro, please. I was born with the last name Zenin, however I have issues with that last name. So call me by Toji Fushiguro and not Toji Zenin, please?", you then respected his wishes about his name.
What Toji picked for a house, is actually something that was a warehouse, so he decided to turn what used to be a warehouse, into a nice home for both you and himself to live in. He has been a little nicer to Gojo and Geto since you decided to be in the relationship with him, otherwise anyone he doesn't care for nor trust, he will threaten them to stop talking to you and stay away from you, without you knowing ofcourse. While he cares about your safety, he just rather not risk having an argument with you and rather avoid confrontation with you.
He enjoys hunting for other sorcerers and cursed spirits to make extra money to put food in your stomach, just incase you get hungry. He pretty much uses the cursed spirits as his trophies, especially using certain cursed spirits he killed to make a rug out of and if you want him to make clothes out of the other cursed spirits, you're actually the only one he will do that for. Other sorcerers he killed he won't do that, because you're one person he rather not scar for life. He would only do the same to the other, only if he fully knows you're okay with it.
When the time came you and Toji both got married. The wedding was obviously had plenty of dead cursed spirits (he's using as trophies) for the wedding theme. After the wedding he decided to pick out a log cabin inside the woods, for your honeymoon with him. He unusually does this for you, as he bought you revealing clothing for you to wear to sleep in during your honeymoon with him. He really wanted to get you night clothes for you wear at night.
Toji then decided to confess. "Listen, babe. It's not my first marriage, however I promise I will treat you better than I did with my first wife and my child, Megumi. I regret making that mistake with my first marriage and I promise not to make a mistake with this marriage.", Toji admitted, while he setting you and himself up for bedtime. You're like the fact that he was honest with you about what he said to you. So after he got done setting you and himself up for bedtime, you petted him, as you comfort him, as you knew he regretted what he did in his first marriage.
After you finished comforting him, he then, decided to let you on the bed first, then he went on the bed. He covered himself and you up with a big blanket.You're also the first person he actually cuddled with. Then both you and Toji went off to sleep.
Go to the cursive "The End"...
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The End
I hope you enjoyed this different fanfic, my Tumblr Peeps. I figured that since it caught my attention that alot of people seemed to like Gojo Satoru, Suguru Geto, and Toji Fushiguro (Birthname: Toji Zenin), which i can see why, especially with Gojo, so I decided to work on a fanfic pertaining the 3 of them, while having the ending of the fanfic be based on which character of the 3 the reader pics out as their favorite of the 3😁👍I do apologize about the slight spoiler for 1 of the characters😅 I just wanted to makesure I worked on the endings properly and hopefully I did so🤞So with the ((Jujutsu Kaisen Character) x reader depending on which character the reader has chosen, I figured I give this fanfic that kind of shake up the way I've written it😃👍I'm not sure, if anyone has written any fanfics where the ending would a specific way depending on the chosen character, however I figured it'd be cool and fun to have a fanfic written like that😃👍I really had alot of fun with writing this fanfic and I hope you have as much fun reading it, so have a good day or night, my Tumblr Peeps😁👍
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doodle-pops · 1 year
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Hey mina, I'm a big fan of you I just wanted to thank you for everything you do for us even tho you also have a life and busy, every time you post something my mood would change to better, I especially love how you also write for the feanorians also!(send kisses).
If you have time and don't mind, can you write about what would the elves especially mae think of skinny s/o human as their lovers/wives?,(I'm skinny girl and I hate it but I can't do anything about it🥲)
again thanks for everything, I love u💗.
I love you too babes💖💖💖 *sending you hugs and kisses* aww shucks, I'm blushing over here and smiling at my screen looking like a weirdo lol. I'm pleased to hear that you enjoy my characterisation of the Feanorians.
You're over here not liking your small figure and I'm over here trying to lose weight 🥴 what opposites we are lol
Elves tend to love through the linking of their fëa, while the physical form does assist in the physical forms of attraction. When they met and fell in love with you, your physical appearance was far on the list of reasons why they loved you. It's not because they didn't love your form, but because your soul was very beautiful. Every day your lovers would be expressing their love to you in form of poems, pick-up lines or songs, and they are full of your beautiful inside and out. However, for some reason, they noticed your self-confidence was plummeting and you weren't as hyped and lively when they compliment you, a talk is in order. "My dear, please don't be saddened by your image. Your looks will never make me stop loving you; you are most beautiful in my eyes. Varda could profess her love to me and I'd still choose you any day. You could turn into a frog or a worm and I'd still love and cherish you...just don't go turning yourself into a frog right now, please. I wouldn't be able to cuddle you. But please, don't hate yourself, because I do not. I love everything about you and your terrible sleeping habits that makes me question myself."
– MAEDHROS, FINROD, MAGLOR, FINGON, AEGNOR, GLORFINDEL, GALDOR, ROG, ELLADAN, ELROHIR, CELEBRIMBOR, CARANTHIR, AMROD, AMRAS
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askgmangraves · 1 month
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Uh, Wolf Haley
Golf Wang
Yeah
I'm a fucking walking paradox, no, I'm not
Threesomes with a fucking triceratops, Reptar
Rapping as I'm mocking deaf rock stars
Wearing synthetic wigs made of Anwar's dreadlocks
Bedrock, harder than a motherfucking Flintstone
Making crack rocks out of pussy nigga fishbones
This nigga Jasper tryna get grown
About five, seven of his bitches in my bedroom
Swallow the cinnamon, I'm a scribble this sin and shit
While Syd is telling me that she's been getting intimate with men
(Syd, shut the fuck up) Here's the number to my therapist (shit)
You tell him all your problems, he's fucking awesome with listening
Uh, Wolf Haley
Uh, Golf Wang
Uh, Wolf Haley
Golf fuckin' Wang
Jesus called, he said he's sick of the disses
I told him to quit bitchin', and this isn't a fucking hotline
For a fucking shrink, sheesh, I already got mine
And he's not fucking working, I think I'm wasting my damn time
I'm clocking three past six and going postal
This the revenge of the dicks, that's nine cocks that cock 9's
This ain't no V. Tech shit or Columbine
But after bowling, I went home for some damn Adventure Time
(What'd you do?) I slipped myself some pink Xannies (yeah)
And danced around the house in all-over print panties
My mom's gone, that fucking broad will never understand me
I'm not gay, I just wanna boogie to some Marvin
(What you think of Hayley Williams?) Fuck her, Wolf Haley robbing them
I'll crash that fucking airplane that that faggot nigga B.o.B is in
And stab Bruno Mars in his goddamn esophagus
And won't stop until the cops come in
I'm an over achiever, so how about I start a team of leaders
And pick up Stevie Wonder to be the wide receiver
Green paper, gold teeth and pregnant golden retrievers
All I want, fuck money, diamonds and bitches, don't need 'em
But where the fat ones at? I got something to feed 'em
It's some cooking books, the black kids never wanted to read 'em
Snap back, green ch-ch-chia fucking leaves
It's been a couple months, and Tina still ain't perm her fucking weave, damn
Uh, Wolf Haley
Uh, Golf Wang
Uh, Wolf Haley
Golf Wang, yeah
Goddamn goblin
Wolf Haley
Uh, Golf Wang
Uh, Wolf Haley
Golf Wang, yeah
They say success is the best revenge
So I beat DeShay up with the stack of magazines I'm in
Oh, not again, another critic writing report
I'm stabbing any blogging faggot hipster with a pitchfork
Still suicidal, I am
I'm Wolf, Tyler put this fucking knife in my hand
I'm Wolf, Ace gon' put that fucking hole in my head
And I'm Wolf, that was me who shoved a cock in your bitch
(What the fuck, man?) Fuck the fame and all the hype, G
I just want to know if my father would ever like me
But I don't give a fuck, so he's probably just like me
A motherfuckin' goblin
(Fuck everything, man) That's what my conscience said
Then it bunny hopped off my shoulder, now my conscience dead
Now the only guidance that I had is splattered on cement
Actions speak louder than words, let me try this shit
Dead
Am I supposed to know what this is referring to?
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dreamlandcreations · 2 months
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Burnout recovery (?)
It took me a while to figure out why I was so down all the time. But I didn't take the "good news" that well tbh. Because:
"It takes an average time of three months to a year to recover from burnout. "
And I was like. NOPE. FUCK. THAT!
Well, the first few days after that were even worse because I kept pressuring myself to do something, anything other than lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. But even something as so no energy "task" as listening to music was making me... idk how else to say it other than itchy...
Anyway, eventually I just gave up, let it consume me and slept away like 2 days... AND GUESS WHAT? I felt a tiny bit better.
So I'd say the first step is just LET IT ALL FUCKING GO! Turn the nagging in your head off and stop caring about anything else than getting a good rest!
My work drove me insane for the last 3 years or so and tbh it took over my life far, far sooner than that. It wasn't healthy. Letting that go took like 2-3 weeks ( I had "help" from other tortured colleagues 🫶 talking helps!) and a lots of Youtube shorts about "this is business not personal". Yay to scrolling paralysis.
Yeah, and about that. I realised that with the burnout I really burned all the bridges that kept my autistic/adhd traits in check. I mean, I used to have a good balance, now I'm off the scale with both in the worst way.
I think the second step is just trying to stay in that kind of relaxed, "don't care" space while figuring out the reasons why I felt so terrible. Again, Youtube shorts about autism/adhd and work mentality really helped. It was like talking to someone without actually getting myself together enough to open up about this to a "real person" (it never would have happened, you know).
And this is the part from where this might not help anyone who doesn't have adhd (and autism?) but realising that I've become a shell of adhd behaviour was actually a big step. Especially with the adhd/autism traits comparison vids bc I just understood how I was functioning when I was doing all that stuff at once.
The next step(s) I took was trying to take care of myself. Eat, sleep, wash, clean up to feel better in my skin and in my environment. I made it a challenge (chasing dopamine seems to be the only way adhd brain can do stuff). Like I'll put on this song ( I wasn't really listening to it still) and do .... until it's done. It did not help at first. Just getting into a task without thought doesn't work for me. I needed to take a minute and visualise that I'm going to do this and this and this and I'll be done in 3 minutes. I prepared for the task mentally, I hyped myself up then I did it. And it worked. Then I got too much into it and overworked myself 😅
However cliché it sounds, the key is finding balance.
Now I can listen to music, I've read 14 books this year so far and reading 5 others now, and I'm planning my year and thinking about what I want to do in life.
I still have bad moments/days and that's okay. I am still not okay but I'm getting there.
I figured, I need to occupy (not overwhelm!!!) my senses to stop my mind from wandering (and torturing me) so now when I have to do something like dishes, I just put on an audiobook and try to let everything else go.
I still can't watch movies/shows. Which sucks bc I feel like I need visual stimulation too sometimes so idk what's up with that but it's a no for now.
Writing is still a NO! (that's a screaming no in my head). But I started to write down ideas again (something I didn't really do for months)
What I know would improve my health and most likely my mental state is regular exercise, but I'm not there yet. I still regularly skip/forget to eat more than once a day so that's a priority.
It's also difficult to leave the house tbh. The outside world is overwhelming and I don't go out if I don't have to (which is like once a week now).
What I do know is that if you want to do something DO NOT SIT DOWN! You'll never get it done. There's no "in a minute" or tomorrow. If you want it done, do it now.
I'm working on building a structure/routine in my daily schedule that gives me a guide so I wouldn't waste my days but doesn't limit or outright strangle me with too many limitations by being to crowded.
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broodpeas · 1 year
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rambles on nostalgia
does anyone know (or care) that tumblr still exists?
The other day I remembered this line I read any years ago, when I was writing mt first thesis, about nostalgia. It explained that nostalgia is linked to memory and what we want to experience is the event itself, we can't, so all we have and what that lingers is a faded emotion, kind of dilluted ensemble of faces, places, words. Nostalgia is vital to memory and the hype around nostalgia is because, I believe, everyone wants to experience, with a romantic lense, a memory.
This has nothing to do with what I'm feeling. I am in what seems to be a writer's block. I was suppose to finish reading my books and start writing my third thesis chapter but the more I read, the more block I am. My concern is that no window will open where I can sneak in and write. Something's amiss, I'd like to know what, but I know poking that bear is dangerous.
Writing is an interesting exercise. I always find it relaxing, the best exercise. Writing for me has become central, it's what I do. I write notes for work, recipes, reminders, I write random ideas and thoughts, I write thesis and essays. I am not a writer, but I write. I trained myself to write, to make sure writing is always the thing I do. I don't understand people who say writing is difficult (although I do get symplathetic feelings when I have to use mathematics and I can't).
I often wonder if I feel nostalgic. There's a difference between nostalgia and melancholy, although explaining it now seems fruitless to me. I just know there's a difference, but the thing is the more I think about me feeling nostalgic, the more I realize I really don't. Going back to my hometown feels like a fresh hell, mainly because the city is in such disarray, it is impossible to feel something other than utter disappointment and despair. Looking on things on tiktok, how people seem to be desperate to bring 90's and early 00's back -nostalgia!-, seems ridiculous to me. I am terrified of the future, I am sad over the present, but I am fed up over the past. We weren't better. I don't miss waking up at 9 am to watch tv, nor I miss playground games, or hours on the library. I suspect it's because my childhood and teenage years are linked to trauma, but it's not for me to confirm or deny this (I am not a therapist). But I digress, because the point I'm making is if it's possible that the nostalgia everyone's feeling and talking about, as we contemporary understand it -through the manipulation of social media*- it's actually nostalgia, or it's just fear (of something, someone, who knows). I believe the second- it's not nostalgia, it's just fear. We are terrified. After all, extinction is right around the corner.
When I was writing the first pages of my thesis, I came to the realization that black art only has some sort of absentee nostalgia. We, black descendants, don't know what we are missing, because our history has been fragmented. We miss for pieces we can't put whole because there's no way. I suspect my project of a black art history is an exercise to make this evident, to say again what has been said with other (better) words: we can't never really know that nostalgia because they ripped apart the possibility of looking at our past, to trace our memories before slavery, before trasatlantic boats and big chains. I tried, very hard, to find clues to look into our representation in art, black bodies and lives, spirits and ideas, and I found them, but most of them come linked to whiteness and colonization. What is before is difficult to pinpoint because we don't have the links between then and now. This is, perhaps, confusing. Let me try to rephrase it. Black people have always existed, and art history has evidence of this. We have art that, for the traditional categories of artistic objects and artists, are considered as "ethnic" or "folklore" (today this notion has been dismissed). And colonization brought representation of black people. The thing is colonization is guilty that we can't find direct links of black art (objects, representation, production of the objets)- we know black people produced art, but unlike white artists, we don't know their names, their influences, their entire body of work. we also don't know how that art relates to us, beyond explaining it has a lot to do with what we -latinamericans- understand as racial constructions and all its implications. the relations are too hidden, almost gone, fading as time goes by. we don't have records and that's why tracing them seems urgen to me, because we are nostalgic of something we believe it must exist -it has to exist!- but we have no way to prove it.
While people miss 1998 and nickelodeon, I honestly don't understand the appeal for it. I was 8 in 1998. I used to feel like crap. I still feel like crap. What's there to miss? But when it comes to nostalgia and black art, well that's different for me. I wrote in the second chapter of my thesis, that like the artists I was examining, I was also trying to find my origins, with the painful reality no one in my family knows who are we. I have no grandparents to tell me, and the aunts and uncles that are now grandparents, are unwilling to accept we are of black descendants. I think this is common for all brown people in Colombia, who find the picture of a black relative and say well guess there's that, and we are forced to move on, because what else can you do? where do you trace it back? to whom?
Perhaps, I think, this then would be nostalgia, but is it? In my eyes, nostalgia is always linked to look at memories in a very romantic and very subjective way. We reorganize them so we enjoy them, so when we remember, we find a sweet taste instead of a bitter one. Perhaps because for me things still are bitter, it's because I refuse to take on nostalgia, to validate it and give it a space in my mind. Perhaps it's also why my thesis focuses on explaining that blackness used to be represented through whiteness, but thankfully, many contemporary artists realized it wasn't worth it anymore, and started to produce black art. It's not magical or excentric, it's not romantic or dreamy, it's art- complex, political, inserted in its contexts and particularities. Blackness and black art has always been complex, it's only now that white people are realizing that because black/black descendants are people too that we are given the category of "complex".
Anyway. This is what I have to write for now, on nostalgia.
*I may be 33 but I still write like a damn pretentious asshole, like in 2010!
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wow i'm starting to hate the heart for likes...I guess i was unfortunately correct about the likes being equivalent to my wants being ignored, and that not being okay anymore as an artist, and as a human being in general, sharing my thoughts? Just. Maybe Tumblr should make an update where only the reblog function exists, and could...be the like heart? Just mashing them together maybe? If that would help?
I don't know man. I guess it just hurts to see something i poured my heart and soul out on and established my boundaries with just got the same treatment as what I originally complained about. This fucking stings is what I'm saying. Fuck the people on here using this like twitter or facebook. It makes me all the more grateful to see when somebody has reblogged. I wish that happened more often.
So anyway, I had meant to provide some links to some new places I'm going to post my work on. I tried to find a simple photo uploader, but shit wasn't going right there. My god everything is going to shit here.
But here's the good news! I have some places in mind; one is on Gaia online, which still exists! Wow no wai guyz, but yah wai. I'm Foxishpeep, and another one of mine is NicolleneCosplay. I encourage you guys to make an account if you like, and get access to things like my profile and journal, and make comments on threads I make in the future, because despite what things happened there, you don't necessarily have to keep up with monthly collectibles, and it's one of the most iconic avatar designers on the internet. Buying items with real money is just like any other gacha; optional. And I'd actually say gaia has gotten fairer about getting gold and fancier items now. It's way easier than in the past! I like that. I'm gonna post my art and writing, and just generally play around with avi customizing, as I always have. It's actually a fun way to render original characters!
Another spot I have is on Pixiv, NickoWicko, which is exclusively for art posts. That might be good for comics too, so I'mma try it out. I've already posted some concept ideas for my Fate/ fanwork, Fate/WildPinnacle! I have SO MANY SCRIPTS FOR THIS ALREADY. But for anything I want to create visually for it will go here. As for writing...
I have overheard of a project called Neocities, and I haven't decided what mine will be named, but it will basically be my tumblr here, but even more personalized and just better all around. This is where I guess everything will go. Just wanna see if I can spread myself around. I'm especially excited, because while I basically know next to nothing about coding, I have always wanted to make my own website since all the way back in the late 90's. THIS IS AN OLD DREAM THAT HAS A CHANCE TO COME TRUE AGAIN, HOW CAN'T I GET HYPE ABOUT THAT. I'VE GOT THE POWA
The other two places I have in mind is Fanfic.net or AO3, exclusively for writing. I have actually been making more written work than art lately...because I have never found the free time or a safe space to wind down and have a focused atmosphere to create like this. I can still type, but my fucking god I miss being able to have a quiet draw session... It especially hurts because I want to post pictures with my fanfics and original works! Uuuurghgrhgg
REBLOGS > LIKES, THANK YOU!
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#WatchMoreDOUBLES: Doubles are entertaining, too!
Yesterday marked the one-week suspension of my sports Twitter while trying to alternate between tennis Instagram and Tumblr for this time being. This allows me to reflect back on why I started writing longer within these 2 platforms instead, and I got reminded of one of the campaigns I pushed for during my shorts sports Twitter moments when Rome Masters 2022 Men's Doubles draws came up.
I barely could recommend any early interesting matches (read: popcorn matches), I could only laugh because of the amount of those early interesting matches (at least, to me), that this tournament's draw has resulted in. I jokingly said to myself "Is this draw even drunker than ever before for an ATP 1000?" until I saw it again.
Throughout the different sections of the draw, I could categorize those interesting matches. This is where I start to put my own words, why I become an average doubles fan (and enjoyer, basically), and why I also pushed the agenda of #WatchMoreDOUBLES. I marked 3 of my own version of popcorn matches, among uncountable others, below:
Rublanov (Andrey Rublev/Karen Khachanov) vs Ramsbury (Rajeev Ram/Joe Salisbury)
Wesley Koolhof/Neal Skupski (note: they just won Madrid 2022 as this was written omg) vs Marcelo Arevalo/Jean-Julien Rojer
Tomislav Brkic/Nikola Cacic vs. Marcel Granollers/Horacio Zeballos
(To also introduce you to another part of doubles, I am going to use internet ship names for those pairings that I know of).
Then, what made me start stanning doubles and also pushing the agenda of watching more doubles, among any other random things I used to do when on my sports Twitter?
Why Do I Also Stan Doubles?
Let me start by illustrating:
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I made this meme by myself several days ago, which might be our state of fandom today. From my little observation, only a handful of us is a doubles fans (or an average enjoyer, even). The pie graphics is a meme template that might not reflect the whole stats but is illustrative enough to explain it.
Tennis has a lot of categories, which mainly are singles (men's, women's), doubles (men's, doubles, mixed, the latter usually in Grand Slams), or team (combination of singles and doubles, something like the Davis/Billie Jean King Cup). While to my knowledge, we are all familiar with singles (along with their records and so on), we realize that "doubles are oftentimes left out." Left out in coverage, in matches broadcast, and more, while it is totally, and equally, fun and entertaining in-between singles-induced suspense.
While as fellow fans we are trying our best to hype doubles so they can get equal coverage as singles, there are three reasons that made doubles fun for me, I'm going to explain them into three keywords: the game, the trollage, and the side memes.
The Game
Game-wise, we might think that "oh, since we play doubles, we only cover half of the court, then take turns with our partner for that matter" (or somewhere along the lines of, made light of doubles because you're playing with a partner). I would like to say, playing doubles have its own ups and downs.
Each one on the pair takes turns oftentimes on who is serving, who is standing by around the net, or somewhere along the lines. Then comes the return and net moments. Something I noticed when there is at least someone that is still singles-active (read: still plays singles) is their all-court coverage, which oftentimes results in "an unreal angle winner." But we could not rely on that alone.
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A recent example here is Dodig's unreal angle winner from their Madrid 2022 R1 encounter against Golubev/S. Gonzalez [note: before turning full-time doubles several years ago, notice Dodig used to also play singles!].
Of course, doubles' mental part is built differently from what my little observation can tell. You can see a lot of interactions, ranging from what I call (sorry, competitive debate, for borrowing this term) "case-building (Illustration: Do I need to stay here? Oh yes sure!)," all the high-fives, to a little of "hey, what's going on?" (the latter is just own interpretation, especially if your partner got distracted). It does not stop the uniqueness of the doubles game, however, these (little?) interactions are also what makes doubles fun (remember, internet oftentimes made a meme or even made a fan edit out of these alone), while not forgetting the game-related aspects (from serves to errors!).
The Trollage
These past few months, I observed that there are frequent singles players "willing to try doubles" or more than that, to put it in my own words (and I remember this quote back from Twitter): "let's team up, try doubles... but ended up defeating a team that is literally comprised of all doubles specialists!" The latter is what we could say the trollage.
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For illustrative purposes, I decided to remake a meme I used to tweet, somewhere along these lines.
I understand inside the tennis fandom there are pros and cons to allowing frequent singles players (or a pair comprising of them) to try their hands in doubles, in which for already stacked tournaments (like a 500 or 1000) their entry by singles ranking (which is allowed at tennis tours, to my knowledge) could mean a team comprising of literally doubles specialists' participation at stake (or the latter ended up being an alternate). On the other hand, we also witnessed how, for example (I'll take it from the first 5 months of 2022 as this piece is written), The Special Ks (Thanasi Kokkinakis/Nick Kyrgios), while they are currently processing their singles comeback, could literally win a Slam (last Australian Open 2022!), making anything is still actually possible in tennis, making me think that "well, even frequent singles players can play doubles and win titles!" Another one in this category would be Hubisner (Hubert Hurkacz/John Isner), who managed to win a doubles title in Miami!
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Isner hugging Hubi after their Miami doubles win. Literally, a pairing that I initially did not expect to go really far, but interesting to watch them play (also judging by how they play their singles!).
Despite its pros (as a random fan, I appreciate the willingness to try your hands at doubles!) and cons, there's a good chance we can see more of the trollage in the future. This can make doubles really fun (and more views, especially if there are frequent top singles players playing!), however, game-wise it can make us (especially doubles-only people) reflect on what aspects we should step up in.
The Side Memes
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The illustrations of a fan-made doubles affair side meme (this is the closest example I could get), which I dubbed The Karslandrey Affair, which consists of Karen Khachanov-Aslan Karatsev-Andrey Rublev, and the possibility of 3 doubles pairs made of this alone: Karen Khachanov/Andrey Rublev, Andrey Rublev/Aslan Karatsev, and Karen Khachanov/Aslan Karatsev. The pictures were drawn between Indian Wells & Miami 2022, where: Andrey Rublev played with Aslan Karatsev for Indian Wells doubles, Karen Khachanov for Miami doubles (and more frequently throughout their careers), and there was one instance where Karen Khachanov played doubles with Aslan Karatsev–during the Davis Cup 2021.
The other interesting part that motivates me to follow more doubles (and the most fun part) is the side memes it caused to the fans. There are two types of doubles side memes (read: not a game-related meme, but it could rather be an off-court imagination related or a pairing related meme) that I discovered (and even made a fan edit of), which are:
Shipping doubles pairs (as if they are a couple, or they are?): We concatenate the first letters of both pairs' names, either their first, last, or nicknames. While these ship names are now extendable to potential (either parody, inclusive of bot-generated or not, or real) doubles pairings or singles encounters, shipping doubles pairs not only makes it shorter for you to type in for platforms like Twitter but also feels like they're a "real couple" (which is applicable in both men's, women's, or mixed doubles). The internet gave me some good examples, like Rublanov (Andrey Rublev/Karen Khachanov) or Ramsbury (Rajeev Ram/Joe Salisbury). These ship names could also be iconic, like (let me borrow this, fam) Peeka (John Peers/Aslan Karatsev).
The Affair/The Bachelor: Since it is completely common in tennis not to have a fixed doubles partner (but instead, you can even switch partners every several moments, even though maybe you have someone who, if you played with, have the best results together), these are often perceived as "them seeking true love (read: fixed doubles partner)." Someone on Twitter had an idea of making "The Bachelor" episodes out of this quest, in which I already made 2 fan edits out of this alone for a particular player (back when I was on Twitter, I have a good chance to get them here/tennis Instagram).
Especially for the latter, those memes are made for pure entertainment only. However, the memories of those memes and fan edits are tremendous, which makes watching (or following) doubles even more enjoyable with this additional element.
Closing Thoughts
Well then, if you have yet to try your hands watching doubles, then you better start! It provides tons of equally entertaining matches, a wider perspective on how to see the doubles game (even if you have a limited tennis knowledge like I am, just an average fan here), and even more entertaining side memes along the way! Following (or for those who play, playing) doubles has its own, unique ups and downs, but the fun, the suspense, is something else that we all should experience!
Let's keep hyping doubles throughout the tennis fandom by #WatchMoreDOUBLES!
P.S. I thank The Tennis Tribe for continuously hyping doubles via their social media platforms and website. Discovering their account during the Indian Wells when my sports Twitter was yet to be suspended, with their hashtag #WatchMoreDOUBLES, made me realize that doubles are equally entertaining to watch–that I also share the same sentiment–after I reflected on how, at one time during the Australian Open 2022, when everybody watched an early blockbuster singles match, I decided to watch a random doubles match (which was also fun!). At least, being a weirdo has its own benefits now because I can now appreciate doubles more, and I hope by this campaign I can share this equal appreciation of doubles with all of you in the tennis fandom!
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Taking a break.
So...this really hurts to say. So I think I should give some backstory first.
Hi. I'm Bex. And I have really severe and clinically diagnosed ADHD, along with multiple other mental illnesses. Now I don't want this to be taken out of context; I know there is a huge stigma around the statement "mental illness", which we as a society really need to work on. I of course don't mean this in a negative connotation, it's simply the best way to describe it. I am mentally ill. There's nothing inherently bad about that, but it poses more than a few issues.
The biggest one for me, personally, is hyperfixation(s). A hyperfixation, by definition, is "being completely immersed in something — whether it be a video game, movie/TV fandom culture or a hobby like crocheting." And I suffer from these hyperfixations a lot. I find a TV show, movie, book, whatever it is, and attach myself to a certain character. I can't prevent this, I can't help it, as much as I wish I could just watch something and then forget about it, I just...can't.
Now why is this a problem? Everyone has interests and things that they get hyped about for a while, so why should this be any different? Well the thing is, with me, these fixations can last much longer than neurotypical people's do. They can last for months, years at a time. I get so attached to a character and I hold onto that attachment until it's borderline obsession. This can get so bad that I will get physically ill, have panic attacks, go into complete mental breakdowns and depressive spirals, because it will suddenly without warning hit me that these people aren't real. See, I don't get fixated on real people or things; it's almost always fictional characters.
My most recent infatuation has been Miss Alma Peregrine. It started off as "Oh, she's hot. I should write fanfiction for her." And that was it. I was attracted to her and wanted to imagine being with her. But within the past few weeks, this interest has turned extremely dangerous. Sure, I'm not in any bodily danger, but when you're throwing up, hyperventilating to the point of fainting, and crying yourself to sleep nearly every night over a fictional woman, that's when I have to put my foot down. This is affecting my personal life, and with school having just started, I need to back down.
And it hurts like hell to have to post this, to have to step back from one of the only things that makes me happy, but if I don't then I'm afraid this will become too much to handle. Every song I hear makes me think of her, every time I see something pretty I think "Oh, Alma would love this," and it's hard to separate yourself from a fandom when everything makes you think of another scenario that you'll never be able to experience, and that hurts. It hurts so, so very much. And I know this will upset some of you, since I know that (and I'm not trying to be narcissistic) a whole lot of people really enjoy my writing, especially my Miss Peregrine stories.
Just the other day, I cried for most of the day over the fact that I'll never be able to meet her, never have her hold me and wipe my tears and tell me it'll all be okay. Because she isn't real. And sure, maybe shifting is real. Or maybe it isn't. I'm starting to think I imagined the whole thing, and that's affecting my mental health even more. It feels like I'm going crazy.
Like I said, this isn't something I can just stop, flip some switch in my brain and just forget about her. I wish like hell that I could, because that would make all of this so much easier. But that's not how ADHD and fixations work, no matter how much I and everyone else around me wants it to.
In conclusion, I'm going to be stopping my writing for Miss Peregrine, indefinitely. At least until I can get over her and stop my entire life from revolving around her and that universe. This doesn't mean I'm stopping writing for anyone, not at all. Unless, of course, this happens again with someone else. I'll be posting much less frequently, of course, what with school starting and all that, but I promise that you'll still get at least short imagines for other characters.
I'm sorry. I am truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart.
Please forgive me. I'm sorry.
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Some booktok observations because I can't help myself I'm sorry:
1. Everyone seems to be hyping up non-erotica books based on how good/how many sex scenes there are??? I mean there's nothing wrong with enjoying sex scenes in media, but like... do these people know that you can just pwp on the internet for free? Or even slow burns with sex scenes if it's the emotional connection you want? Idk, I just feel like sidelining the book's characters, plot, themes, motifs, style, worldbuilding for the sex scenes feels a bit dismissive of the author's craft?
2. People are embarassed of the fact that the books they read have sex scenes. Like, I mean adults. I know that some people are raised in conservative, puritan families that stigmatize anything tied to human sexuality, but these people don't seem ashamed, they seem embarassed. Weird to openly hype up something and then be embarassed about liking it imo.
3. Nobody talks about blorbos. The whole book discussion seems to focus on covers, recommendations and broad plot outlines. Even the compilations I've seen that were mostly book-specific talked suprisingly little about the book's actual details.
4. There's a subgenre of book tiktoks where people act like they're opressed/stigmatized for reading books, aka having one of the most popular and widely praised hobbies in the world, lol. They would never survive a day as a gamer, the most opressed minority *sniff* 😢
5. Oddly excessive focus on tropes. Like it's one thing to have favorite tropes, I have them too, and I understand being more interested in certain media because they have our favorite trope/s, but these people are willing to read a whole book for a scene where a character puts a dagger to another one's throat, or do the same scenario of the protagonist being wounded and having their enemy patch them up down to the dialogue being the same, beat by beat, word for word. I don't think these people understand how tropes work, that yes, they're featured in a lot of works, but there are ways you can engage with them, like twist them or play with them, or subvert the reader's expectations, and that's where half of the fun comes from. Reading the same trope over and over and over again, no subversions, no twists, feels so weird to me, idk if I'm the only one.
6. Only book genres that exist are YA/NA and maaaybe like three non-fiction books.
7. Writer tiktok can be kinda funny sometimes (to me, a person who writes too), but most of it is incredibly cringy, with people trying to make themselves quirky and "different" because they ~*write*~, ugh. Also, they act like writing is skme kind of divine punishment. Like I know that writing is sometimes hard and frustrating, I've been there before, but do you not get at least a little fun from it? Nobody is FORCING you to write, I hope.
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lemonadebloodsworld · 3 years
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!! TW: VENT, SH, S*ICIDAL THOUGHTS!!
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I'm so tired, I really love my partner more than anything else in the world but I keep messing up. Not even like big mistakes, just a lot of small ones but it never stops, I feel like whatever I do I always hurt them in the smallest ways or upset them. Yesterday they had school but yk he's my favorite person and it's been 3 weeks they started school and with the really different Timezones (I live in Belgium and they live in Texas) well it means that they wake up at 3-4 pm here and then they hang up our call even though they said they would stay on call with me during the day so I wouldn't feel too bad but they actually rarely do it, then they only answer my texts when class are about to start at 5.30 pm and yeah they reply every few hours until 4 am here a lot of the time. And I understand, they have school and they can't always be available but I just wanted to point out that with my bdp it has been so fucking hard to go from calling everyday, all day long at not even being able to text and having to stay awake all night because I can't sleep without them (which is not their fault again). But yeah so yesterday it starts again but this time after they hang up our call in the morning they told me that they will go to school sooner so we could have a lot of time to call and talk etc so I wait and they do call when they arrive at school and I was already crying because I'm clingy and didn't want them to go again but then after like 10 minutes of talking someone comes and they mute for like 30 minutes without even saying goodbye or "I love you" or anything, then they sent me a text saying they're starting class now and can't talk anymore and I know its stupid but it litteraly broke my heart, I spent the entire day trying to know why they did that, maybe I'm too clingy and annoying? Maybe it's because I was crying? Maybe they just don't really care anymore and love me less? I don't know but why would they tell me that we could talk for a long time and then just disappear like that after 10 minutes? What did I do wrong?
Anyways, I learned how to hide it from them when I'm hurt because I feel like I'm hurt for nothing and that it makes me really toxic and manipulative so I just took some space and time to concentrate and then just told them "I feel a little bad, I'm sorry" while I was crying my eyes out and screaming because my heart physically ached. But yeah before all that they said they would call me right when they finish school and so I was waiting and was still really excited that we could have some time together and so at 4 AM they Called once but I was in my bathroom and so I missed the call and like the stupid mess that I am I started to try to call them back but since they wouldn't reply i called them a lot of times because I was too excited and thought they fell asleep or didn't put the sound on but when I stopped, after 20 minutes they sent me texts saying that they were about to answer the call but I called too many times and it made them feel bad and dissociate. I've never felt so fucking stupid and toxic. And yk I don't want to make myself a victim but I was waiting for this call all fucking day and I messed up and they didn't call me at all. It's not the first time this happens. I hate myself so damn much, I just want to dissappear.
And like if it wasn't enough i fell asleep after their texts saying I made them feel bad and that I apologized for being stupid and yk I thought they would call me and wake me up so we could be together but I think i made them too upset and that I was just too much so when I woke up I saw that they didn't try to call me or even text me and once again I started to cry and I called them because it was too much, and they fell asleep while I was crying because they were exhausted. And later in the morning I dropped my phone while sleeping and it hurt their ears really bad because of their sensory issues and once again it happens a lot, I really try to be careful but I always end up making a noise that makes them feel bad. And I understand them, I have sensory issues myself and my ears hurt all the time when we call because their phone makes a loud noise etc but I never told them cause it's gonna make them feel like they're doing something bad while they can't do anything about it and it will upset them and they would mute and never come back.
So yeah, lately I've been feeling really bad and almost relapsed in sh again but then I stop myself and I don't tell them because it would make them upset and worry and when they worry they're cold and don't talk to me and i just really don't want that. I already mess up enough. And I think they getting tired of me, in the begging of us and until some time ago they were always hyping me up or writing me long texts to expose their love to me, they sent me a lot of wholesome memes and they seemed really excited to call me too but now it's just not like that anymore, they barely answer when I send them wholesome memes. I don't know maybe I'm too clingy? Maybe I should give them some space and stop sending memes and long texts a lot? Maybe they're just bored of me now. I understand once again, I'm too much of everything. Too much to care about, too much to worry about, I give too much love and he's maybe suffocating, I complain too much, I ask for too much reassurance too. Maybe they just lost feelings. And that hurts so bad to think about it, I just can't live without them but I also don't want them to be stuck with me if they don't love me that much anymore.
I often try to reassure and tell myself that they maybe just feel bad these times and it's maybe getting hard for them to show their feelings or act like they did before and I would be so fucking selfish if it was the case. They never tell me when they're doing bad, they always just say "tired." or that they're doing okay and just worry about me and on the moment I trust them but then I feel stupid because I know its not true, they would always say that and then vent in their vent account or private story from which he removes me when he says something about his mood or problems (I saw it because he made a mistake once, they vented earlier in the day and then later I messed up and they made a story that was for me to see so I could know I messed up and made them have a panic attack and when I looked at their story again I could see the earlier vent too). I don't understand why they're doing that but at the same time I once had an episode because of what they said while venting to me cause I took it personally like the dumbass I am (they said they had suicidal thoughts and needed me with them rn and when I said that everything would be okay and that I was going to be there with them soon they said that it was too much time because I was supposed to go this year but I had to stop school because of my mental health and now I have to start again). So I suppose that it makes it hard to vent to me or be honest about their feelings.
I'm just useless and I feel like they would be so damn much better without me, i keep messing up and I just can't seem to stop. The whole relationship is almost just that, me hurting them with my shit and then they feel guilty for feeling bad about it and it just makes it worse. But then I just can't live without them. That's selfish but I would not be able to leave them and keep on living, I never told them of course, but yeah.
I hate it there.
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I am so sorry I haven't read Payback's A Bliss sooner :(((
I tend to shy away from one-shots with cheating and revenge involved because I have read a few too many that seemed too unrealistic and the characters tend to make a lot of unhealthy relationships. No offense to any authors though, some people like the angst and I'm totally fine with that lol.
Anyway, when I saw the warnings for it, I was like dang, that's too bad. I'll just read something else then and went on with my day.
Fast forward a day or two and I'm about to cry from the frustration brought by my workplace when I see your oneshot yet again. As I'm already frustrated, I decide to read it so that I know that at least someone else in this world is suffering like I am 🙃
After reading it though, I can only say that I was pleasantly surprised.
Instead of getting angry every minute or so at oc's choices, I found myself silently cheering her on and being proud of her self growth and improvement.
I could tell that both oc and Taehyung were hurt by their past relationships, but they still knew their self-worth and wouldn't let getting cheated on ruin them.
Bonus points for oc tho, she reassured Taehyung when he really needed it :D
Although their friendship started out from hatred and resentment, it grew into one where they both enjoyed in each other's company and encouraged each other when needed.
When they both set their plan into action, it really did seem to work in favor for them. They both gained confidence, increased their self care, and saved themselves from a toxic relationship.
The little details about their wardrobe made me UwU a lot.
Before the party when their hyping each other up, I honestly felt like I was there. I loved the conversation.
The ended was soo good though. Them deciding to stay friends was nearly my most favorite part.
I feel like a lot of people need to understand that both Taehyung and oc had recently left quite serious relationships that were longer than 3 years and they aren't ready to enter another one on a whim.
Being friends seemed to be the best option to me as well.
Adding on to that, I also wanted to say that I loved how you described their interactions. I constantly find that people write oc and the members' relationship as a one sided thing where one person would constantly care for the other, but the other would only enjoy the attention and not return it. I'm definitely not saying that a lot authors do this, but I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciated your descriptions.
Anywayyyyy, I don't even know if you take asks like this and I really hope you didn't get annoyed with all my ranting. I just really wanted to tell you that your writing is amazing and a lot of people look forward to seeing you posts, even when they don't say it out loud.
TD;LR >> Read Payback's A Bliss to get clear skin, a better life, and solid grades. Authornim is amazing and deserves lots of love.
- 🥔 anon (Unless there already is one. If so, I apologize 🥺)
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ANON!!!! I DONT THINK YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I JUST S O B B E D
this was SO SWEET. I LITERALLY RAN TO SHOW MY SPOUSE WHAT YOU SAID THEN SENT IT TO ALL MY FRIENDS. it’s been so long since i’ve gotten feedback like this and i want you to know how much this truly means to me and how happy you just made me. i felt really nervous about PAB because i didn’t know how the revenge would come off or the fact that y/n and taehyung dont end up together. i didn’t want to be too confusing but i also wanted that confusion they were feeling to be evident and realistic and now i’m RAMBLING BUT REALLY I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR THIS!!! i will try to write and post more. this kind of feedback really motivates me and words of affirmation is my love language so 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i cannot thank you enough for all of your kind words and i’m so glad you liked it!
also i ALWAYS welcome these kinds of asks. it truly means the world to me
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