#and im only in book 2 AUGH-

[soapy-soartp]

Look

Everyone look rn!!

Getting the hang of this game now :D (kinda-)

[mbat]

pokedex entries are like 'im gonna tell you what you want to know or im gonna tell you nothing at all'

like im trying to assign pokemon teams to my ocs and im almost done and oh my gosh it has been so frustrating to find fitting pokemon for some of them i swear

[thedeathwitchescats]

Okay, review time!! If you are one of the oddballs who thinks you cant be critical of something you love I suggest you stop reading now before I ruffle your feathers. Iron flame, second in the empyrean series. I am gonna start with what I was not a fan of and then go into the shit I adored.

1) what in the actual fuck was the pacing of this book?? I can tell you what, it was non existent. There was none. Where I thought there was a lot of filler in the last book there was none in this one. We got snap shots of conversations and then *boom* more plot flew at you. The timeline of this book greatly suffered for it i think bc we end only a couple weeks, if that, after threshing, which happens sometimes in October. This book was actually so wild with times.

2) while it was a spectacular cliff hanger, xaden becoming venin pisses me off. Especially if Rebecca yarros isnt going to have him tell violet. Like if that small tid bit of a conversation we got wasnt him telling vi that he was venin then the entire romantic conflict of this book was rendered pointless and their going to be having the same fucking fight for the rest of the series and at rhat point I give up.

3) I understand that the revolution is trying to take down basgaith and make the world better or whatever the fuck but can someone actually formulate a real plan for me?? Because I feel like their mission is just, giving violet and xaden something to be pissed at each other about.

4) the entirety of cats character. I get that she was set up as a spin on the typical jealous ex. Like having her be bitter about xaden picking violet over her but OH WAIT it wasnt actually about the man it was about the crown, oohh not like other girls. Im a writer too I see the point. I dont care. I think it was trashy. If you wanted her to be a bitter spiteful ex then have her be a bitter spiteful ex, the whole crown thing was shallow.

OKAY haters your time is up now onto the shit that made my heart hurt with joy and sadness

1) xadens arc in this book. I really liked that he went from "transparency is never gonna happen" to losing his fucking mind over violet and giving her everything. I love feral men and he qualifies. I think his arc was really well done and i liked it.

2) I appericiate that violet stuck to her guns for this book. She wouldnt let xaden off without a fight and I loved that. She made him bow and scrape and I was eating it up. It was spectacular.

3) the throne room scene. Violet on the throne. "Im making a temporary point not a lasting vow of maschocism" xaden being feral.

4) that gets its own point actually, just xaden being completely feral this entire book healed a part of my soul.

5) andarna's little speech at the end where she was like "I waited for you violet" made me ugly cry. That was just so hopelessly good I loved it. Andarna in general heals my heart but that part was just *chefs kiss*

6) tarin being completely and utterly ready to eat people this entire book. Just, at every turn "I want lunch their pissing me off " was spectacular

7) every scene their squad was in. Rihannon, violet, sawyer and ridoc are my roman empire. Their bond is so amazing. The fact that they launched a rescue mission for violet. Rihannon being ready to kill xaden at every turn. Ridoc being so platonically and adorably in love with violet. Just- augh happy cries happy cries. I love it all. Their so special tbh.

8) I love xaden actually, just, the whole book every scene hes in lives in my brain.

9) I liked that we saw a small bit of violet being feral this book too. I hope that we get more of that in future books. I want more of violet losing her fucking mind. Hot, badass women covered in blood

10) Liam. Fucking Liam. When violet was kidnapped and Liam was there. Now, do I logically understand that he was a hallucination, yes, do i care?? No. He was a gift from Maleck I will be hearing no critiques on that. It was so fucking sweet and amazing. I love violet and Liam and Liam being dead so horribly breaks my heart. I loved Liam. Liams death lives rent free in my skull.

[aggressivedaikons]

ok idk if you’ve read the whole book but I’ve noticed an uncanny amount of similarities between Bill Cipher and Dave Miller.

They’re both really scary villains but are just really lonely and don’t want to confront their trauma or actions. Also the Great Gatsby connection applies to both of them.

I’ll probably do a full analysis on this at some point but I just needed to scream about it.

THIS THIS THS THIS I’ve been rambling to my sibling about it esp. since i’ve been rewatching a ton of DSaF playthroughs.

they both have a very narcissistic/apathetic personality, disregarding most other people’s opinions on morality, and only pursing their own desires overall. (Dave’s is partially done out of ‘revenge’, but he’s killed people for apparently no big reasons, i.e., when he shot a dude getting beer in DSaF 2)

one small thing but that’s big to me is them viewing themselves as ‘silly little guys’ n ‘just a goofy fella 😋’. I can’t quote where in DSaF Dave says this, but I do recall a scene were he says something along those lines, and for bill, the time baby wanted poster is what comes to mind first.

the other thing I noticed is the blatant GNC coding played for jokes?? It’s a weird thing but they do refer to themselves in feminine terms at one point and another, and generally are not fully hetero/cisnormative in the way they’re written.

also, I think the way they see their own mortality seems similarly dismissive. They both are some shade of immortal, and are very casual about the concept of death, for themselves and others

but NO I’ve had this exact same thought and I keep finding parallels if you ever have any more ideas PLEASE IM IN THE SAME SITUATION THEY ARE SO SIMILAR AUGH

[parmaviolets]

shut up im literally obsessed with ur fnaf au. can you explain everything about it?? (characters added, their roles, etc?) i love it so mych im gobbling it up nom nom nom

hii thank you. infodump time teehee

The AU is kind of set during the events of FNAF 2, but I've shuffled things around so it's a sequel and also it takes place in Massachusetts circa 2004.

more under the cut because augh. Many thoughts

Mike has recently gotten married to his coworker, Eugene, who is for all intents and purposes a regular accountant type guy except for being a weird freak (compliment) and ALSO more relevantly, been promoted to day guard. This means they're going to need a new nightguard, and that ends up being Jeremy, who recently moved back to his hometown (Fazbear Capital of the World) from where he was living in Vermont.

Jeremy has a girlfriend, which he talks about all the time but Mike does not fucking believe she's real until she threatens him with a knife for bullying Her Guy. Her name is Nadia Knox! She's a scene girl who works at a hardware store, loves blasting MCR in her car, carries a ridiculous amount of things in her bag, likes making copies of people's house keys without them knowing, tracing cell phones, shoplifting, etc. normal girl hobbies basically

She and Jeremy have kind of a beard relationship going on because like. Jeremy is very aromantic and she's bi but really looking for serious relationships right now. But they pass really easily as a couple because they genuinely do really like each other as friends and have a lot of affection for each other.

Charlotte "Chucky" Emily is another gal that works at the pizzeria, mostly in repair and maintenance of the animatronics and equipment. She grew up with Michael mostly so they've got a silly kind of sibling relationship going on, but besides that she doesn't really.. have friends. She was homeschooled by her father, Henry, and finds herself a little socially inept so she kinda keeps to herself.

Chucky was partially raised by William Afton too, but when she was younger he had a bad falling out with Henry and she didn't really see him for like. 10 years after that. but Will always somehow got little gifts to her- toolboxes, books, taxidermied mice. Normal things that the estranged business partner of your father would send you, as far as she knew. Because she doesn't go outside enough to know that's fucking Weird.

Henry is kind of silly. He gives off the vibes like he was a looney tunes character that escaped Disneyland and now he's stuck in a slasher and doesn't know it. He and William were good friends back in the day! Also had some subtextual homoeroticism. When Will left to manage Afton Robotics, Henry took over full ownership of Freddy's.

Into the plot deets, Jeremy was actually intended to be one of the victims of the original Missing Children's Incident, but he got a tummy ache and went home before he could get Murdered. Following that, his mother thought "this city sucks, I'm going to Vermont" and took him with her. Now that he's 21 and definitely needs to move out of his mother's house, he decided to go back to Brockton (mistake #1) and work at Freddy's (mistake #2) because it was the only place that was gonna hire him hashtag job market in shambles.

ogh okay I need to get ready for work now see u

[fruixtii]

hey a little tag game i want to try!!! order your favorite twst dorms from least fave to favorite!

Scarabia: their characters on their own are good but seeing them together makes me extremely uncomfortable?? it’s probably because the orientalism plus people shipping together..it’s not jamil and kalims fault but i have a complicated relationship with scarabia

Octavinelle: idk they just don’t stand out to me. jade is neat but i feel like the tweels are overhyped. don’t really have an opinion about azul

Savanaclaw: again the characters are great but. as a whole they don’t stand out to me. i love jack and ruggie but leona 😬 if you got rid of the sarcasm and smug expression he would be a cool character (i kin him more than i would like) but i feel like he’s wasted potential. also book 2 was the hardest to get through because it was so boring it really did them dirty

Heartslabyul: the card guys!! don’t really care much about them either..i usually like alice in wonderland vibes but their dorm uniforms are the worst things i’ve ever seen. WHY DO THEY WEAR T-SHIRTS?? other than that i don’t have much to say about them.

Pomefiore: THE GAYS okay they’re awesome. this is mostly because of rook i just really like rook. and rookvil. epels great to actually. also on the complete opposite note their dorm uniforms are amazing (maybe even my favorite) i would totally wear them myself. but even though they’re in the top three i don’t really think about them more than any of the other dorms.

Ignihyde: okay of course my second favorite dorm is the cute family. what did you expect. but also they are so interesting?? book 6 has been the best book so far especially with all the lore. also ortho is best boy AND LITERALLY A ROBOT. how can you not like precious robot boy who loves his brother. also their designs are cool the hades hair and teeth are very gender.

Diasomnia: you already knew this was coming. my beloved dark romanticism found family dorm<33 i am literally obsessed with them okay. not only are their designs peak gender but they’re WRITING is so. augh. just the contrast between them. we got two faes who are centuries old and have experienced years upon years of hardship. war. suffering. and then we have two (one and a half) humans who have never experienced loss. or grief. they are honest and hardworking and loyal, they represent youth and joy!! and yet they all have so much LOVE and TRUST for eachother it makes me go INSANE!!!! also you can never miss with gothic aesthetics and fairies…literally the greatest thing out there

anyways in conclusion i think any dorm that isn’t diasomnia and doesn’t have tragedy and fate weaved inside them are plain and boring. if i placed your favorite dorm low feel free to tell me why im wrong and why they are the best!! i would love to hear :)) (also feel free to include ramshackle too)

tagging: @rayroseu-reblogs @ethanwinterfan69 @drdepper @shrimpyjustwrites @llondonfog @wondergeek @frogeloise @morays @hxneylavendxr @teslathelame @the-v-lociraptor @anotherlavendergay @chaoticsnacc @aloodonut @valsol-909 if you guys would like<3

[ohshy]

Tagged by @matchamabs lets gooooo

1: Three Ships

OK so honestly... i dont rly do ships. they dont do much for me. except if I MYSELF AM INVOLVED !!!

A. King Hippo/me - i feel like how jessica rabbit feels ab roger rabbit “he makes me laugh”

B. Eugene/me - been getting more into this one again as ive been playing animal crossing new horizons again, esp happy home paradise !!

C. ?????? Idk man 😭😭me/the ocean - bc i love the ocean and its critters

2: First Ever Ship

Pfffft thats a tough one uhhh, probably me x sniffles from happy tree friends when i was 9 years old (I should not have watched that show when i was 9 years old)

3: Last Song

Now and then - The Beatles. The chorus scratches an itch in my brain.

4: Last Film

A short film called portrait of god ! It had a super neat concept, and was pretty unnerving while using limited camera angles and only taking place in one location.

5: Currently Reading

Elton my Elton by Gary Clarke. I haven’t touched this book since... this summer, augh. Id like to read more but I don’t have enough energy nor time to read ajvhbb

6: Currently Watching

Castlevania 2017 ! It's pretty good, although not something i normally watch.

7: Currently Consuming

a dutch goody called ''prince cake&choc'' i pity you all for not having it /j

8: Currently Craving

idk why but... for some reason ive been craving a giant lollipop that those little cartoon boys w/ propellor hats always walk around w/. im surprised at this bc honestly i dont even have that much of a sweet tooth (i say as a i eat my third cake&choc)

OK NOW FOR THE MOST (???) PART, I GET TO TAG PEOPLE !!! @bonzobononzo @fan-mans @y2kbugs @mariaddity @lukasdoodle @bugmeeku @fruitycircus @healdeals @virfujiwara do it or dont do it, its your life man !!!!

[localgrem1in]

9 people you’d like to get to know better! Except I don’t have that many people- Thanks for tagging me @esttillie <3

Warning, I am about to infodump!! :]

1. 3 ships: oookay lets spread these out over a couple fandoms.

1.) JonMartin from TMA (Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood). I’m- I’m uh, yeah! Yeah!! Definitely normal about them. …This is a plea for help, the canonical gay men have become my ENTIRE personality it’s such an issue-

2.) Ethubs / divorceduo from MCYT (The characters played by Ethoslab and Bdoubleo100). I took the DSMP to Hermitcraft pipeline and became an ethogirlie. I watched Last Life. Inevitably, I got consumed by the ethubs brainrot. There is something wrong with both of them and I hate it /pos. How am I supposed to be normal about them when they’re not normal about each other???

3.) Gigolas from LotR (Gimli and Legolas). IM. LOOK. There is UNDYING DEVOTION in those two idiots. YOU CANNOT look at their story, their relationship and its development, their background, and how it all ended, and tell my that’s not homosexual. Just… just look okay. Take a good look. That is NOT best friends behavior (although I don’t mind the friendship only dynamic either). Augh I am not okay over them, like, ever.

2. first ship ever: it’s. It’s definitely scarian / desertduo from MCYT. Watching Third Life was really the first time I’d stepped out of just reading or watching a series and joined a fandom. I got hit with brainrot real quick after that, and like 3 years later they’re still with me.

3. last song: uhmmm prolly smth like the Body Terror Song by AJJ. That or Everybody’s Lonely by Jukebox the Ghost.

4. last movie: oh I don’t remember. The Incredibles maybe? I love old Pixar animations, they’re practically my childhood.

5. currently reading: Brandon Sanderson. The fourth book in the Stormlight Archives. Rhythm of War. So good shshsbshsh <3

6. currently watching: uh. I haven’t watched smth in a while. I’m a bit to ADHD to get into shows sometimes. I’m going to count The Magnus Archives as my most recently ‘watched.’

7. currently consuming: fresh peaches <3

8. currently craving: Good Jondaisy /p fics and spicy food. I… actually really want spicy food now that I’m thinking about it.

@noneknuwus @tobi-mostly Hiii besties o/ <3. I know I know you guys pretty well but I wanna hear about what’s been goin on lately if you don’t mind :]

[auspex]

OKOK I know you said youre doing prep and shouldnt be doing markposting so feel free to ignore this till later but i saw the ask about marks humanity and i wanted to ask Does mark do anything special to hold onto his humanity? like endowments/donations or protection of humans or the like? or is he just trying to slow his decline

no its good i gave up i shall prep tomorrow AUGH hehehehe

and uh thats a good idea! LMAOOO but for now he's only like 8 months dead so he still teaches his class as an adjunct which def helps him stay in touch because his students love him :) being a vampire helps ur charisma according to my ST so his classes are going very well. so thats the main thing.

His friend Kenny, who is a touchstone, recently moved to Detroit and he initially put off meeting up but he relented and did so. Im worried that put him in danger as does Mark but he wanted to see him bad : ( and the St said if he hadn't he would have lost touch with his humanity lmao so he did that too

Long term he should do somethin like that but i feel like donations would feel too impersonal to help and I think Mark would agree - he should Ponder what he's gonna do to stay in touch once he's been dead too long to teach classes.. maybe ask cassidy about it.. hm hm much 2 consider. I could totally see him protecting specific humans later on.

He also hopes to stay close w sampson which can help him cling to his humanity but they aint on great terms rn... sampson is his ex/accidental ghoul who hates kindred but was Okay with mark but idk the blood bond is fading and its complicated and. Ok too much history here to summarize sorry salkdjflkfds.

i know mark already wants to start chronicling the history he plans to unlive during! he wishes other kindred cared more about human history and so he's resolved to keep track of stuff :D I think long term he'd wanna write essentially "A Full Kine History" book haha nerd.

[irrigos]

YES oh my god it makes me insane. i love older books/literature, especially victorian-era lit. and sometimes i’ll see someone talking about racism in a work, and it starts out fine, and then the second paragraph in it’s like “oh you think this is good actually. well shit.”

or even just people posting quotes! and then i look at their account and they’ve got the worst values and opinions known to man. augh.

it sucks!!! why cant you all be normal and stop making me look bad!!!! ive been really into calligraphy for the past like. idk 2 years? year and a half? and for some reason SO MANY CALLIGRAPHERS are like. SUPER christian. i dont have a problem with christians generally (i was raised Catholic and still feel kind of attached to it overall, for cultural/heritage reasons) but like. i only fuck with weird queer christians. and its really jarring when ill be scrolling through instagram and see some beautiful benign calligraphy pieces and then suddenly you see one thats like "God said gay people are yucky!" in beautiful calligraphy. (ok its not THAT blatant but. well i found out one of the people i followed was really into Matt Walsh, which is why i kept getting ads for him. Yuck!)

and it also sucks because so many of these things have such an association with being the hobbyhorse of a bunch of the worst most exhausting people you can imagine that i see a lot of people implying that you MUST be one of them if you like that thing. that liking history or w/e is a red flag, and only cishet white men would ever find anything of value in an old book and only weird conservative snobs like fountain pens or good leather shoes and only fascists would be interested in The Past.

and that sucks!!! i dont like people from either side implying im a conservative because i like history!!! im not going to laud the racism in these old texts because... racism is bad?? but im also not going to totally dismiss everything from before. idk some arbitrary recent year. as being inherently bad because people were racist then. sometimes putting things in historical context enriches them! sometimes reading stuff from the past enriches you!!!

bah. its frustrating. theres nothing much to be done about it, i guess, but it sucks that i have to be constantly on guard when engaging with my hobbies, lest I get mistaken for the same kind of people that would actively want me dead (either by my peers, who mistake me for an enemy, or by The Worst People I Can Imagine, who mistake me for one of them. i want neither of these!!!!)

[arillusionist]

final episode of s&b season 1 reaction!! i cant wait to start s2 since the other crows (except matthias) are there too

inej forgetting who milo is just like amita in that one interview (i've watched like. half of the interviews the cast is just so good)

zoya!!!

nina and matthias!!!!

they're so cute but theyre so tragic at the same time i wish they got a happy ending

"i hunt slavers now" stop copying inej

i dont think this is how it went it the book?? i dont want them to change their backstory stopp😭😭

"see it enough in the mirror do you" helpdjfjfk

mal planning to shoot them and then inej just pressing the knife to his throat shes the best

i've been rewatching the last few scenes over and over because honestly im so confused

i think i get it now?? im at the part where they reach west ravka (or at least i think its west ravka 💀)

INEJ COME BACK joking she made the right decision. kinda

where is she now

"only because i'm not in the game" he literally has all the best lines 🔥🔥

ZOYA AND INEJ MEETING its not really one but whatever

how did he know she was the wraith

inej and zoya could literally be The power duo i need them to interact more next season

PLEASE NOT KAZ HIDING BEHIDN THE BAGS he looks so scared hes such a coward

the way he was literally cowering earlier but the second inej is in danger he puts his life on the line

did she poke a hole through his hand im so confused

OH SHE DIDD

is that ugly ass collar finally gonna be gone i literally cannot look at it any longer

YES ITS GONE

its always that fucking heartrender guy i forgot his name

i can barely see anything 💀💀 tf is going on

inej's talk with alina is so sweet ahh

"have you found religion too" PLEASEE they really shouldve given him more lines like that bc that is exactly what book kaz wouldve said

"the deal is the deal" bro couldnt even say thank you normally

inej's longing look after kaz oh my godd she wants to hug him so badly

I KEEP REWATCHING IT the look in her eyes the way she moves her hands the yearning is baddd 😭😭

please let them have one final talk this episode

the crows and zoya watching mal and alina's deep romantic moment is so funny to me

FINALLY ZOYAS SPEAKING

KANEJ TALKKK

"im keeping my promise to you" AHHHHH

"i need you" OH THEYRE GONNA PARALLEL THIS WITH THE I WANT YOU LINE NEXT SEASON

"after that, we'll see" honestly i might just watch the first episode of season 2 today i need to know what happens

the helink angst is worse than in the booksbecause its not nina's fault at all and he doesnt know and hes mad at her and aughh 😭😭

HOW MANY TIMES ARE THE CROWS GONNA *JUST* MISS NINA

"true wealth is the friends you make along the way" "im talking of milo of course" will he ever shut up about that fucking goat

NINA LOOKED AT THEM PLEASEE LET HER JOIN THEM RN

HIS TINY SMILE FOR INEJ AUGHH ☹️☹️ i rewatched this scene a million times too!! im not okay

"i know some people in this world who would like those odd" shes talking ab the crowsss

augh fuck this later today i am watching s2 ep1!!!! i just need to idk why

[insertmesoftly]

Me: Haha Im gonna finish the new chapter in time :D

Stranger Things Vol. 2: No

Me, also: Hehe that one off goth character of mine is just for humor and wild shenanigans. They protect Eddie like a guard dog.

Stranger Things Vol. 2: Protect him, eh? How well?

:'D

More thoughts under the cut, including my thoughts on Eddie's death and more on the Goth Oc saving Eddie's ass. (They're still unnamed lmao)

Anyways, I knew it. I knew they wouldn't keep Eddie, they didn't give him enough screentime, enough to flesh him out with the group like they did Robin, I KNEW IT, I KNEW IT BUT WHAT STILL CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD WAS HOW FUCKING DUMB THEY KILLED HIM.

I honestly expected his playing his guitar to be the way he goes out. Like, playing until he died, fighting off Vecna's hold on someone, maybe doing it for Chrissy in an attempt to get the souls he claimed back. I WANTED HIM TO GO DOWN IN A COOL, LEGENDARY WAY, DOING WHAT HE LOVED. BUT NOOOO, STUPID FUCKING BATS AND STUPIDLY DECIDING TO FIGHT THEM WHEN REALISTICALLY, RUNNING WOULD BUY WAY MORE TIME! YOU'RE NOT A GOOD FIGHTER, EDDIE, IM SORRY! YOU COULD HAVE RUN OUT THE CLOCK!!!! AUGH!!!!!

But uh, more on the Oc saving Eddie, my thoughts are just. They're faster than Dustin at figuring out what Eddie's doing and they are not having it. They don't even consult Dustin, they just take the chair and jump. Dustin tries following after and mayhaps gets the injury, but either way, Oc isn't sticking around, they booked it. (sorry Dustin, you're still my fave.)

They find Eddie just as he's trying to heroically fight and drag him along to keep running. But, because angst, Eddie trips anyways and with the distance between them and the Demo-Bats being so close, he orders them to just leave. They don't.

They end up fighting together for just a bit, but come on, the bats are still too much. Eddie gets caught first, swooped to the ground, but before the bats can fully pin him, Oc is on them, beating them from his limbs and pretty much cocooning him with their body on top of him. Eddie keeps trying to push them away as bats attack them both from all angles but they refuse to.

Eddie was their best friend. The only one to give them a place to be themself, the one that encouraged their creativity and never shunned their sporadic behavior, the leader they looked up to, their best friend. They remind him about the first day they met through screams as Demo-Bats tear their flesh. He's their captain. They'd give anything for him.

They both get a few chunks taken out, especially Eddie's legs which were left unprotected in the cocoon lol, but the time they bought by running more, fighting longer together, and both taking damage, their wounds aren't as fatal. Still bad, but not die-worthy.

They live. And now Oc gets to have new scars they can parade around while Eddie gets to see his dad again and the duo still lives in hiding.

Badum Tiss, this has been another insertmesoftly self indulgent comic and idea, I'm sorry, I'll get back to work on RTKYH now, I'm so sorry 😭 I cannot control the hyperfixation god fucking damn it.

[stinkywinke]

Twelve Minutes

I am obsessed with twelve minutes sooo, why not make an imagine about it 🧍‍♀️

Also this is the first time I have ever used tumblr, and my grammar is very poor. I will try and get used to the way tumblr works and hopefully if I have any motivation I will start writing more :) My writing skills are bad so this is going to be choppy

Another note : The roles are reversed, so instead of the reader being the husband, its going the be the wife figuring everything.

clench ya butt cheeks

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Readers POV:

No..no, no, no, this can’t be it

As I took a step into my apartment I heard my husband in the bathroom humming a soft tune. 10 minutes. The pills. The cop. The pocket watch.

“Hey, I didn’t hear you come in”

I looked up to see h/n (Husbands name) walking towards me with a smile and pulling me in to a passionate kiss.

“I made desert, let me know if your in the mood” He stated while making his way on to the couch.

I give a quick nod signaling that I would tell him when I was ready. Quickly glancing around my home I made my way to the sink and filled up a mug of water, the floorboards creaking in a specific spot as I ambled to the bathroom. I opened the medicine cabinet grabbing ahold of the sleeping pills and pouring them into the mug, and going back into the living room to see h/n reading a book.

"I think its a good time for desert” I suggested

“Ok, babe” h/n replied with a sweet smile

He noticed the cup in my hand and turned around to the fridge and got the desert out. I placed the drugged mug by where h/n was sitting and got my own mug instead.

“So how was work?”

“It was alright, met a couple of new people, Its going great” I said as I saw h/n drinking his water

“How about you? How was your day?”

“Same old day I guess it just repeats itself” he said as his eyes started drooping down into a sleepy matter

Tch.. talk about repeating

“Im feeling so tired all of a sudden, Im gonna go lay down”

“Okay baby, goodnight”

As soon as I saw h/n close the bedroom door I scampered to the closet and closed the door behind me aware that the cop will be here in a few minutes

Now we wait…

“Police!, open up I have a warrant”

My breathe hitched as I heard him turn the doorknob and stepped into the house

“Hello?, anyone home?”

“Police” the cop shouted when he opened the door

“Police, I have a warrant”

He made his final call making his way into the bedroom,hearing the light switch turn on a scream came from the man as he layed unconscious on the floor. After hearing nothing but silence I crept out the door into the room, searching for the valuables from the cops uniform

The gun, 2 handcuffs, the knife, and the phone

As I did last time,Rolling him over, gripping both of his wrists and tieing them together, I remembered there was a little box with my mothers name on it.

A/N : I did change the baby clothes to a necklace, kind of like a bday gift

My hand trembled to the gift lying on the table next to the flowers, I held it and stuffed the box into my front pocket. I took my time staring at the man in awe and confusion

He’s already told me why he’s here, he told me he was a good friend of my husband’s father. He’s hiding something.

“Augh- what- you little shit”

The cop was stirring awake from the electrocution but only figuring it all together that he was handcuffed. He glared at my shoes as some kind of threat and saying words, pleading to be let go, I reached into my pocket pulling out the box and showing the man the name on the necklace

“Do you recognise this name?”

“Dahlia? Yeah I knew her so what?”

“Do you know anything about her?”

“Yeah, she was the mother of your husbands sister”

Mother of my husband’s sister? But that was my mothers name

“Just let me go you prick”

“I promise im innocent I dont have anything to do with this”

“Okay maybe if you let me go, I wont kill you” the cop stated in a cold and tone

I took the knife out of my pocket and handed him his things, he asked…

“Im here for a pocket watch very valuable… do you have it?”

“Yeah, I’ll go get it now”

Thoughts were running in my head as I went to go to the bathroom to get the strange watch

Mother of my husbands sister? Dahlia, thats my mothers name… no it can’t be.

I grasped the pocket watch in my hand, watching is slowly turn clock-wise

“Have you found it yet? I dont have all day!”

My hand gave out to him, as he took the pocket watch

“Im gonna need a few minutes with your husband, go sit on the couch, but if you do anything stupid, I’ll kill you..” he demanded

He’s gonna kill him, I know, so lets just let it happen.

BANG!

A bead of sweat drip down my forehead as I smelled the scent of blood coming from the other room

Mothers name of husbands sister, husband said he got a necklace with my mothers name on it, Dahlia. So if dahlia is my mother h/n is my… brother. My own brother is my husband. Fuck no please, I have to get out

Sprinted across the room to the door and made my way out just to end up in the same place as always.

“No.. fuck no no no no- this can’t be happening please”

My husband came out of the bathroom again with a panic and worry on his face and started to bombard me with questions.

“Y/n?”

“Baby are you ok?”

“What happened honey?”

“Whats wrong?”

I’ve had enough

“S-STOP IT, GO AWAY”

“Baby whats wrong” he pleaded with concern

“NO! Please I have to go” I shouted at him as I bolted through the door coming back to the same gentle humming tune coming from the bathroom.

“Hey, I didnt hear you come in”

Again met with the same eyes with my lover ugh- brother, I cant tell him, I cant.

“Hey babe” I said as he kissed me once again,

this is wrong

“I made dessert, let me know if your in the mood”

The same sentence every ten minutes.

Snatching the pocket watch from the ventilation grid, the grunting and groaning leaving my mouth as I tried to get up from the pain in my back,

The watch was broken. Turning the long handle I fixed it back to its place, 2 minutes before 12. I saw the world turn into a dark abyss, the watch turning anti clock- wise, my hand slowly fading into the tiles of the bathroom, my eyes growing heavy and started to close putting me into a deep sleep

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Hey there he is… your back”

Huh?

“Look, I know this is a… terrible shock. But we need to be on the same page. Look, I… These feelings for my son… your brother. This isn’t how I wanted to tell you…you deserve… both of you deserve better.”

He said with a long pause

“Yknow the thing I hate the most, worst thing in the world?… Disappointing my lil boy. Well that was the worst thing…. And now a baby… you with your little… love… I guess it was always gonna happen”

He said as he walked around in disbelief and ignorance

“Nothing stays swallowed down forever. So, you gonna make a call”

“If i could go back..” I started

“Well. Things would be different. But you can’t just try again. Thats not how life works! So, you gotta make the choice, and make it now”

…

“Say something”

H/n’s book about zen..

“Fine!, your gonna force it by hand? Fine!”

“Hey “its only by forgetting that.. we ever really drop the thread of time, and approach the experience of living in the present moment””

“Ah, you’ve read that one, eh?”

“I know the idea of forgetting things sounds crazy but, what if… you could?

I can help with that if you want. All you have is the future, you’ll forget everything you went through. All the pain. All the stress. Forgotten forever. But, you need to understand there is no turning back. You can’t undo this… we can still talk about him but you need to choose an answer…”

I stared at the clock as I watch it about to turn twelve

“you don’t have to forget if you don’t want to, The choice is yours”

12:00

DING!

“ you do have a remarkable imagination… The stories you’ve created… but believing them so strongly, so deeply is unhealthy… you have to let him go… you can’t keep obsessing over him… sometimes things are just as what they are…

Its time for you to wake up…

[honeybeekao]

DUDE i didnt know you liked musicals! For a good 3-4 years this was a theatre blog so im always excited to hear the newer mutuals i followed for anime reasons are also into musicals. What are your top 5 favorites?

i think enstars has a connection to musical theatre. just a theory *staring at my mutuals*

MY TOP 5???? thats hard i love so manyyy aough okay Okay . how to order this..

1. newsies

it being my first full show to be in makes it really special for me. like not only did i learn So much, it was my one escape from my troubling situation so i associate it with home kinda. the stage at the time felt more welcome than anywhere else as a 15 yr old.

i loooove the music.....i will sing the entire soundtrack and ruin my voice idc it has no skips (the bottom line is fun! it reminds me of sweeney todd HSUDKFHJ)

plus, it's like So fucking funny. newsies humor gets me

2. be more chill

yeah okay so bmc used to be my favorite, like i'd vowed to call it my favorite forever because i was So attached. and i still love it. totally kinned jeremy in middle school i literally got a blue cardigan to dress like him (and the gender envy for will connolly was my life for a year) MY BMC ERA WAS SO. god, i got my MOM into it. i'm very normal about my interests.

the humor in it also really gets me, and bmc gives me the same nostalgia feelings as newsies.. it's like, oh god you are So familiar and precious to me! augh!

3. the lightning thief musical

george salazar did bring me here, you're right. (bmc is the reason im here is how influential i think it was on me tbh)

i looove the lightning thief novel and the musical is sooo percy is painfully relatable. good kid hits me like a fucking truck i love that song.

THE MUSIC OF TLF IS JUST. IT FEELS LIKE HOME. not because of nostalgia (also because of nostalgia) but! it's like, inner child ig. i used to listen to the soundtrack when volunteering at an animal shelter. so i associate it with summer. and also Ough. just OUGH!!!!! yknow???? i wanna see the lightning thief musical live So badly

4. les miserables

hehehe hello saddest fucking thing i was in! les mis is brilliant, i LOVE watching the anniversary performances! (we dont talk about the movie) it's just so. so so heavy and depressing but the score is beautiful and the story hurts And i got to die on stage which was my favorite part. my favorite song is Look Down just because i had such a RAD solo in it. i got to walk/run through the audience singing and jumped onstage.

5. how do i piiiick augh okay Here im just gonna list the rest that i like because i cannot choose a 5th favorite

-six

-heathers

-into the woods

-book of mormon

-mean girls

-come from away

-rent

-guys and dolls

-little shop of horrors

(i sorta know spring awakening and falsettos, but ive yet to Actually delve into them. ive been meaning to for yearsss)

afhfhg musicals <333

[tfw-no-tennis]

ani....morphs.....

ok so picking up after the david trilogy, which hit hard as FUCK, we have book 23, which basically was a semi truck that ran over my corpse, jesus christ, they really followed up the david trilogy w/all that....

23 was so so good and also painful. its the culmination of a lot of tobias’s characterization in the series thus far and also we finally get the reveal we’ve been waiting for about elfangor....ooooh man 

and there was a lot of painful stuff in this book but the worst imo was tobias wondering if it were possible that somebody wanted him and would take care of him, only to have it all come crashing down in the worst way when it turned out aria was visser three in morph, ouch. 

that was so brutal augh. and when he figured it out and just crash landed and kept thinking about how he wanted to die and how he was stupid to think he could have a home...bro get these kids some THERAPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

so yeah that book was absolutely brutal but also so good...and it further fleshed out the animorphs working as a near-flawless team, w/the whole setup of tobias meeting w/the lawyer being so airtight and well-planned 

also more free hork bajir!! its cool that there's stuff happening w/them offscreen, I like that 

I literally had to take a break from reading the books bc the david triology + 23 was like so much, and also bc the olympics were on and all my time got dedicated to watching those, but then I opened 24, not sure what to expect, and BAM it was the helmacrons lmaoooo

I don't even remember the helmacrons but ig a lot of people hate them? lmao so that whole reputation preceded the book and I was like oh wow time for a change in tone

which wasn't wrong but also I liked that book?? I was never bored, even tho the whole thing was patently ridiculous and also had very little bearing on the overarching story

but I think it would be a standout if it were a TV episode w/a good budget - the visuals were amazing even in text, and I can imagine all the cool shrinking/growing/cellular stuff would be WICKED cool visually (ideally 2d animation but an ant man-esque live action adaptation wouldn't be terrible if they had the budget for it)

whatever let me dream. so yeah I didn't hate the helmacron book even tho the helmacrons themselves were...sure something. lmao I think they come back? that should be interesting

next book is the arctic one, we have yet another alien of the week style adventure - I liked this one too, it felt like more plot-y stuff happened since they destroyed the base, and marco’s POV is always fun 

I do find it funny/interesting how sometimes when the animorphs do something - like in this book, destroying that base in the arctic - it doesn't really seem to impact the yeerks much/it doesn't get brought up much after that. and then other things like them destroying the ground-based kandrona get mentioned a lot (that example is understandable tho bc that WAS a big deal). its just hilarious to me how blowing up entire building complexes has become so routine that it isn’t even worth mentioning at this point

Also I adore when they meet other random people/kids and are chill w/them, like w/that kid they met in the rain forest earlier on w/the time travel 

the descriptions of the brutally cold weather were great. I hate the cold so I was like oof this is a nightmare lmao

also ig that was the first ghostwritten book and I did kinda notice it was slightly different than usual? maybe? I could be imagining it tho 

okay but book 26 tho...BOOK 26. bruh 

that was SO good and I really didn’t know what to expect - but when we finally revisited Jake’s dream w/crayak I knew it was gonna be good (but I didn’t expect it to be a chess game war epic..!)

basically I loved it. SUCH a good Jake book - I really appreciate his character now as opposed to when I was 10 and often overlooked him (sorry jake).

similarly, when I was a kid and read these I sympathized a lot w/the chee and felt bad for them towards the end of the series when they had to get more involved in the war (genuinely don’t remember what they even do but ik I felt bad) 

but now I've basically 180′d and I'm like damn those chee sure are hypocrites huh. 

like they could solve So many of the animorphs problems but their stringent adherence to nonviolence leads to them actively getting in the animorphs way sometimes? and obviously pacifism is a complicated topic, but in this case it also intersect w/the whole ‘child soldier’ thing, and as beings who are insanely old and wise, the chee probably shouldn't just leave all the dirty work to a bunch of literal middle schoolers

aaaaanyways. there’s so much I love about this book. the iskoort! they were sure something. and the ‘plot twist’ that they are actually 2 beings, the Isk and the Yoort - and the Yoort are essentially Yeerks - that slapped. the symbiosis of it all! 

I loved the part where they all realize what this means, that this is why Crayak wants the iskoort destoryed - because someday the yeerks might come across them and realize parasitism is not the only way. I love it! 

alas I don’t recall the iskoort returning in the story (but also my memory is terrible so who knows?) but still that would be cool

basically I feel like this is the book where Jake Truly comes into his own as a leader, in every sense. he outmaneuvers Crayak, and even the ellimist, who’s yanking them around in his own way

the scene where jake shoves the howler off the cliff and jumps off and morphs and acquires the howler...that was fantastic and tense. 

also the murder is definitely becoming more overt. I mean, it has been for a while, but it isn’t really pointed out as much anymore. oof

more on the chee - as Jake points out in this book, and other characters point out in other books - the chee could have saved the pemalites, but instead just stood by while their creators were slaughtered. on the other hand, jake says, what do the chee do AFTER they’ve killed the howlers - where to point them next? when is the end of their violence? 

buuuuut also standing by while atrocities occur is pretty damning, as is frequently mentioned in this series - from the very beginning, when marco initially doesn’t want to get involved in the war at all, and the other animorphs basically tell him that turning his back on the war and acting like he doesn’t even know it’s happening would be immoral and cowardly (which imo this reaction helps to push marco in the direction he ends up going, but I digress) - this topic comes up again in 19 when cassie quits the team and rachel is upset bc she sees it as cassie elevating her own feelings above the greater good (as in, as long as cassie feels good about how she acts, it doesn’t matter how much preventable evil the yeerks are committing while she turns away). etc etc. but that’s essentially what’s happening w/the chee - even tho they help w/intel, the lack of any sort of Action on their part means that they’re essentially allowing awful things to happen when they could prevent them. this is rambly but basically...animorphs deals so much in grey areas, and the chee are noticeably black and white in their actions, despite falling, in a meta sense, in an extremely grey area. its such good, thought provoking writing!

anywayssss I keep talking about the chee lmao what else was there. oh YEAH jake and cassie kissed for the first time awww that was super cute 

and ofc immediately marco teases them as asks jake if he’s gonna kiss him next, and all I can say is...marco is a bicon 

also I love the background worldbuilding w/the iskoort, how they have all these groups and guilds and stuff - its not dwelled on much, which actually works really well to give the world/species a sense of lived-in realness 

okay oh man and the reveal at the end that the howlers were just like...children who thought the whole thing was a game...AUGHH man that’s sooo fucked 

like, when jake morphs the howler and has rachel ready to knock him down in grizzly morph if he gets out of control due to the howler’s murderous instincts, and he morphs to find that the howler is...playful, like a dolphin morph. SUCH a good fucked up sense of dawning horror there 

and the fact that as far as I can tell the chee KNEW this, but wanted revenge anyways, so they let the animorphs assume that the howlers were Evil On Purpose

also I love smaller moments, like jake seeing that ax is ashamed for briefly running away during one battle w/the howlers, and then entrusts him w/an important task bc he knows that ax will see that as redemption - and when everyone thought jake was dead and were so happy when he wasn't (they all love each other so much im gonna cry about these child soldiers augh)

basically that book was so good

man one thing I absolutely love is that the longer the series goes on the more obvious it is that andalites, despite inventing morphing technology, barely use it themselves 

like, most of the andalite characters we see barely morph. its kind of a last resort to them, as they’re already plenty dangerous in their regular forms 

meanwhile for the animorphs, that’s all they have to fight with. that’s their only weapons against the yeerks, and its so fun to see them use the power in so many varied ways, and so creatively, while the andalites have barely scratched the surface of their own technology

its also interesting to contrast against the yeerks who start out w/absolutely no technology, and the andalites share some but not all of their technology w/them...its too bad that morphing technology was just starting out cause that would’ve been interesting

like imo a lot of the conflict w/the yeerks could’ve been avoided if they could just nothlit into better forms - of course, there’d still be plenty of yeerks who want to go start wars or w/e, just like pretty much any species in the series, but a lot of yeerks would probably be like ‘yeah I'm good’ and just chill out as nothlits

also people online love to talk about how humans are alienfuckers and would definitely have sex w/sentient aliens and whatnot, and while I'm not saying that's untrue, its just funny bc in animorphs the truest alienfuckers are definitely the andalites

as of the hork-bajir chronicles, we now have a second instance of an andalite morphing another species to be in an inter-species alien romance (and eventually have kids) 

speaking of, I don’t think I’ve talked abt the hork bajir chronicles yet??? even tho I read it a while ago lmao 

HBC was great...I honestly haven’t really run into an animorphs book I’ve actually disliked at this point, I’m sure it’ll come w/all the ghostwriting and whatnot, but I’ve liked at least some aspects of every book

anyways HBC was great, and it’s funny bc I remember that I read this book as a kid, and yet rereading it now I didn’t remember a single bit of it lmaooo

I really liked the framing device of the free hork bajir telling this story to tobias. I also liked how we know from the beginning that this story wont have a happy ending - we know all the hork bajir end up enslaved by the yeerks, but it’s still somehow hopeful at the end? I think this is largely due to the framing device tbh. 

also I love toby, and I love that the First free hork bajir named their kid after tobias ;_; 

and oooh mannn I LOVED the different POVs from this book. all the characters were so interesting! aldrea was fascinating - I really like the increasingly negative view of the andalites that the readers are getting, all while maintaining the sense that they aren’t like, actively evil, just that they have their issues - like aldrea’s arrogance, and the general andalite arrogance which lead to the loss of the hork bajir. also, who knew andalites had their own brand of sexism? Ls

I did like getting a female andalite tho, that was cool. and dak was really cool, he was such a good, compassionate character who was able to maintain his morals in an interesting way throughout the story

and VISSER THREE...or should I say esplin 9466, because he’s not visser 3 yet...getting his ‘origin story’ was excellent - I really like how we’re learning about visser 3 backwards - we start off the series w/him as the main villain, and he’s campy and menacing, and then we see him in the andalite chronicles as a power-hungry sub-visser trying to climb the ranks and eventually getting alloran as a host, and then back even further here, w/the start of his focus on the andalites and the beginning of his ambition. its been very cool and interesting to see

plus, the beginning of the yeerks as we know them! seerow! alloran! it’s a party and nobody is having a good time, except for some of the yeerks. 

I like how it’s pretty obvious that the andalites are well-meaning with their interactions w/the yeerks, but go about it the wrong way - they give them enough technology that the yeerks realize there’s a whole world out there to experience, and then they blockade the yeerks on their planet and tell them they can’t leave. nnnnot the best approach imo

again, as I said above, I’m interested in how things could’ve gone if the andalites had given the yeerks morphing technology early on - could a lot of the conflict have been avoided, or would it have been worse? the yeerks seem pretty evil in this book, immediately jumping to enslave anyone they can. otoh we hear from esplin that not all yeerks like having host bodies, and find it overwhelming, preferring to swim around in the yeerk pool as a slug - I assume as host bodies became more available this type of thinking was probably stamped out in yeerk society or w/e, but there are a lot of interesting what-ifs in the situation 

I loved the scene where esplin first experiences having a host, and immediately knows he can’t go back. there are a bunch of great sensory descriptions, and it’s a nice scene to pinpoint as a foundational moment for the visser three in the current story, who spent a lot of time and energy getting what he sees as the best possible host body, an andalite

I find it interesting how much visser three clearly respects the andalites, even while constantly deriding them. and you can see the origins of that here as he immediately focuses in on the andalites, working to become an expert on them in order to make himself useful enough to move thru the ranks

another thing I like is how esplin seems a lot more crafty and ambitious than the visser three from modern times - I would guess that reaching his goal (andalite host body) and being given all that power was detrimental, playing on his weaknesses instead of his strengths. basically, I don’t think it’s ooc or anything, I can see how HBC-esplin became animorphs-esplin, especially w/TAC in between

as for seerow...poor dude. you really do have to feel for him, because you get the sense he really did just want to be kind to the yeerks, but it was borne from a place of pity, and he (and the other andalites) consistently held too much power over the yeerks for the species relations to ever be truly equal and functional 

AUGH I have so many thoughts about alien space politics. omg. I need to talk about the actual story lmao

so yeah I also feel for aldrea, she had a rough time, watching her entire family die and being thrown into a hopeless war

and then the andalite council or w/e not listening to her bc she's a girl AND seerow’s daughter...oof

also, I really really liked the running theme of the andalites - specifically aldrea - looking down on the hork bajir as ‘simple’ and constantly underestimating them, especially dak

and I like how this is portrayed as a bad attitude for aldrea to have, and she still remains and interesting and sympathetic character even while having obvious flaws. it’s about being 3-dimensional baby!

and oh man I love that dak realizes that aldrea looks down on him, and his entire species, but he can see that that’s how the andalites are, and it all connects back to the beginning of the story w/the yeerks, bc the andalites looked down on the yeerks and treated them with pity and kept them pinned under their proverbial thumb ‘for their own good’ and look how that turned out 

but dak is wise and kind enough to not hate aldrea for this, even acknowledging when she’s using him, but not pushing her away because he recognizes good in her too - and she ends up changing, partially because of his faith in her

and I feel like it can all be compared to that scenario of like - a hypothetical creature that lives in a 2D world suddenly being thrust into a 3D world, and comprehending what its seeing, and understanding that there’s so much more out there outside of the flat lines of its world - and then its dropped back into 2D-land with the knowledge of all the stuff its missing out on, and no way to get back to it or explain it to anybody else

I loooove that ‘trope’ or w/e you wanna call it, and it’s done beautifully here w/the yeerks - whos the say they wouldn't have been fine in their pool swimming around; as esplin said, a lot of the yeerks were terrified of having a host, it was only from the andalites’ perspective that their lives were sad and pitiful, and the andalites showed them what the world could be like, and then said ‘no, you can’t travel the stars like we do, you have to stay here on your planet and do what we say.’

and then again, w/the hork bajir - dak talks about how, even though he drinks up the knowledge that aldrea gives him, in the end it might have been better to just have lived peacefully, not knowing what was in the sky or the Deep - as aldrea says: “It was too late for Dak: he knew that the stars were not flowers.” 

plus the hork bajir having to go from a completely peaceful species who don’t even understand the concept of violence, to a bunch of soldiers fighting a war...oof 

basically everyone in this story uses the hork bajir. the yeerks use them as hosts, the andalites use their planet as a convenient place to dump seerow and then take their sweet time coming to help, and the arn created them as means to stabilize the planet, but block them off from their society and refuse to help when the yeerks come

like, the arn modifying themselves to be un-infestable by the yeerks and then being enslaved for physical labor instead? oof guys. if they had teamed up w/the hork bajir resistance things might have gone better, but probably not 

more on aldrea - throughout the story I was always thinking ‘how am I supposed to see her? as a good person, or as a bad person?’ 

as a POV character, especially a ‘good guy’ andalite, you just start off automatically thinking of her as a good person, but as the story goes on, she starts getting lost in revenge and begins using dak and the hork bajir, and you’re left wondering if this is a story about her slide into darkness, and then towards the end of the story her character development culminates in her making the decision to stay w/the hork bajir, and the be with dak, and that’s about when I went ‘ohhh right this is animorphs so every character is pretty much gonna be grey’

I feel like that moral grey-ness was on full display w/aldrea, and I really enjoyed that. I love so much when characters who are good do bad things, for good or bad reasons, especially in media like animorphs that’s aimed at kids. it’s so compelling. 

oof, and the ending when aldrea convinces dak to mobilize the hork bajir and teach them violence...and dak asks her if she’s ever killed another andalite, and she’s horrified, and says of course she hasn’t, and he says that that’s what she’s asking him, and all the hork bajir, to do - to kill their own people, even if they are being controlled by the yeerks. biiiig oof. I love that dak can keep up w/aldrea and her andalite supremacy attitude - it seems that the non-andalite characters who get along best w/the andalites are the ones who wont take their bs 

what else happened....oh my god how could I forget about alloran, and his quantum virus. oooof. I like how we find out about alloran in parallel to visser three, in the same backwards way - in animorphs he’s the tragic host of visser three, in TAC he’s the disgraced but still semi-respected war-prince who becomes the first ever andalite controller, and here he’s the guy who decides to commit some war crimes because, hey, we haven’t tried that yet 

but yeah that was fucked up, I love it. I’ve said it before I think but I like that alloran isn’t some perfect martyr tragically taken by the yeerks - it’s a lot more compelling that he’s a very flawed person who was taken as a controller partially due to his own bloodthirstiness. 

but yeah, the part where aldrea morphs alloran and ‘sneaks’ into that room was great. aldrea’s dedication to disposing of the virus is a great indicator of her character development - it really feels like the straw that broke the camels back w/re: to the andalites not being what she thought they were, w/their tardiness coming to help the hork bajir planet and the way her father was treated being the precursors to this realization. it all culminates nicely in aldrea saying ‘fuck this actually’ and nothlit-ing into a hork bajir.

and it’s really tragic but realistic that even though aldrea and dak end up seeing eye to eye at the end and getting together, the virus ends up being released anyways (and fails in its objective to stop the yeerks from using the hork bajir - the whole thing was p much a lose-lose situation oof), and aldrea and dak still die fighting a hopeless war 

but then we have the free hork bajir on earth, including toby, who, like tobias, has andalite ancestry, but no DNA to show for it - I like that they have that connection as well as tobias being her namesake

so yeah I enjoyed that one and its many-layered themes

WOW this got long uuuuuhhh ok I think i’ll leave this one off here. at the time I’m actually finishing the writing and editing, I’m on book 35 lol so I have some backlogging to do. never fear, I have a lot to say....

[bishiglomper]

Augh. Who tf is marketing this book? Confuses the hell out of me.

Was reading EON: Dragoneye reborn. Picked it up at a Stuffs. Said it would conclude in "Eona: the last dragoneye"

I go looking for the next ebook and come across more books. Eon. Eona. But also another "something dragoneye" inbetween the other two.

Eon had the same description as reborn. I read 2 different ones for Eona and the last dragoneye.

I borrow Eon. Im thinking maybe its a prequel or some sort of branch.. Maybe something that gives more insight to a part of the book? Additional lore?

But no. Eon is THE EXACT SAME. As Eon: Dragoneye reborn. Two very different book covers.

I am very confused. But I'm gonna borrow Eona because if it's only a 2 parter I'm not fucking around with the mysterious addition lol

Stupid marketers.