#and labeling this post 3 while relabeling 3 as 4 and 4 as 5

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

the cockles masterlist, part 3

split in six for link limit reasons

WARNING: this post glitches and crashes on mobile. it’s recommended you view this on your desktop, or at least on your mobile browser rather than the app. if my desktop theme is hard on your eyes, try an extension such as Just Read or Reader View to customize the layout and colors.

if you’re still having trouble viewing, or if you don’t want to have to switch between the five posts, here’s all of the links compiled into a google doc.

welcome to the cockles masterpost, a labor of love/insomniac hyperfixation.

i recently wrote this cockles manifesto, but after it got a lot of notes and i kept adding more links to it, i decided i should just go through my 8 years of archives and compile all the cockles posts in a much more accessible and navigable way. after everything with the series finale and destielgate, i figured we could use some happiness, and it turns out there are a lot of people who’ve never heard the cockles gospel.

important disclaimer: yes, i do think that jensen and misha have a private romantic/sexual relationship, but no i do not, in any way, think that they have ever cheated on their wives. we think they are polyamorous, which is a real and valid thing, and misha is openly poly. some people love more than one person, and that’s okay. their families are close and we love and support all of them.

second important disclaimer: despite the amount of innuendo below, this is not about fantasizing about two hot guys fucking. cockles is about the joy of witnessing two people who love each other and make each other happy and are disgustingly cute together. we’re not fetishizing, we’re just appreciating what they publicly share with us.

third important disclaimer: because some of y’all don’t know, the cardinal rule of cockles is that we don’t talk to cockles about cockles. DO NOT leave any comments on their social media accounts implying anything. not even green and blue hearts. they know that we know, but it’s on us not to make it weird. if we’re too obvious and say too much, they might start sharing less. don’t say anything.

NOTICE: if this list is too long or you don’t know where to start, i wrote a post that one might call an illustrated guide to cockles that breaks down many of the most important moments and what i think they mean.

for the sake of my sanity, these are in no particular order.

last updated: 12/13/22

🐚 denotes new content

part 1 (That’s Suspicious, mishananigans)

part 2 (#pray4jensen, gag reel hijinks, some posts i’ve written about cockles and rps)

part 4 (the glory of jibcon)

part 5 (just for cute)

part 6 (jibcon continued, just for cute continued)

know your cockles history:

The epic love story of Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins | that time misha accidentally (?) tweeted it out

that fucking tree | more gifs

the ten-year anniversary post

the matching bracelets/first ring jensen gave misha | more ring photos | better view of the bracelets/charm

different matching bracelets

another ring jensen gave misha | bonus | also: it’s a thing for queer people to wear their wedding rings on their right hand

matching necklaces jensen bought

the sunset photo | the jumping sunset photo | telling the story of the sunset photos

that time misha reenacted the fake orgasm scene from when harry met sally and jensen..... liked it | a lot | more gifs | callback years later: “if you could do any movie together, what would it be?” | ”i’ll have what he’s having”

misha’s boat trip photos | jensen’s boat trip photo | jared: “and they haven’t released the nudes!”

the boat trip story | jensen closeup | more on the boat trip...

“dmitri, bring it out”

alona tal: “have you ever kissed jensen?” misha: “umm...”

the story of jensen draping his whole body around misha while misha signed autographs + blurry photo

the valentine’s card | video | more gifs 🐚

jensen telling the story of how they met misha (for the hundredth time)

jensen talking about his first scene with misha

the story of the first time the went to dinner together (despite jensen otherwise insisting he can’t remember that far back)

jensen reminiscing about when they met

the mirroring compilation

the infamous reverse french mistake edit

jensen calling misha his ‘pebble’

the chest-to-chest selfie

that time they had a private mass at the vatican??

the family ice cream date

“hey big boy”

people’s choice award acceptance video (gifs)

selfie at the last spn sdcc panel

the time jensen pied misha to haze him when directing his first episode | more gifs | more gifs | jensen complaining that jared pied misha too roughly :(

the cat video dramatic reenactment | more

“would you just drink your fucking water and get off the stage?” | more gifs

the bridal carry photo op

clothes sharing compilation

“i couldn’t see you for a while. got a little nervous.” | more gifs

the temporary breakup speculation

detailed breakdown of events surrounding the potential breakup

misha gave jensen west’s old baby blanket for jj

west took his first steps in jensen’s garden

a collection of favorite cockles moments

some cute moments from the early years

YANA campaign videos: 1 2 3 4 | gifs

cas looked so happy because jensen was making misha laugh

“what were you born in a barn?”

“if your characters had dating profiles, what would they say?”

“i’m not normally one to talk about coworkers, but jensen just let me take this picture of him shirtless”

old interview moments

the time jensen jumped on misha’s back

“it feels like there’s this angel standing over me” | more gifs

the “are these engagement photos?” photo ops | close-ups

jensen looking heartbroken when fans said they didn’t want misha to come back to spn | further context

the mr. and mr. smith photo op

the time jensen walked into radio shack and found a portrait of his face done in skittles (because of misha)

the rugburn™ | the rugburn visible in 8x07

jensen made spn shut down filming because misha was too sick to go on

jensen getting in the question line to ask misha to do a dean impression

the already infamous anal sex fart joke

jensen’s more intimate photo op touches the weekend misha was mugged

last dead guy robe picture

jensen and misha's last on-set photo together

jen crashing misha’s panel with seb

jensen kissing misha just behind the green room door at jib3 2012

eyes like the sky beer

very early smiling at each other onstage

the cockles easter egg in the last of us 2 | full explanation | misha’s tweet  🐚

my alma tag

early years pictures and gifs

the head-leaning hospital photo

misha’s blanky

i’m one of the poor souls who didn’t know that jensen and misha lived together in a vancouver apartment from 2017-end of show | further details

jensen released the song “angeles” on september 18 2012, the fourth anniversary of cas’s first episode. lyrics include, “so glad to meet you, angeles.”

what “aloha, cowboy” actually means

danneel’s photo of jensen reading misha’s poetry book by a fire

my denvercon cockles tag, for everything cockles-related that happened on october 16, 2021, at the first in-person spn con since covid, the destiel confession, and the series finale.

video of misha crashing jensen’s denvercon panel

misha walking out to hug jensen from behind at denvercon | video

discussing how when they hugged, misha was surprised by jensen’s muscles and jensen was surprised by misha’s softness; “like an angel plushie”

the way jensen turns, leans back, and spreads his legs at denvercon | another angle

unicorn laugh at denvercon

leaving together at denvercon

jensen... had his car sent to misha’s house in washington?  

video of jensen draped over misha’s shoulder, discussing fanart they’d seen at the con and how they’d each defaced it. “you drew the black penis?” | gifs  

everything cockles that happened at nov 6-7 ‘21 charcon: “whatever you say, mish” and “i live it”  

“okay, babe.”

the “possessive” photo ops from nolacon ‘21 

the tender and loving way they hugged for photo ops in 2021 

sunrise photo shoot from dallascon ‘22

misha and jensen discussing how they’ve given up saying no to photo op requests

misha stating that jensen’s song ‘watching over me’ is about destiel 

everything from the njcon ‘22 cockles panel | complete panel video

“This guy is always partially-obstructing my view of sunsets” 2019 tweet 

misha telling the story (again) of how jensen made him break with kissy faces | talking about the face/doing the face jib2 & jib6 | imitating the kissy face | more imitating the face | jensen talking about the kissy face | it’s jensen’s favorite ‘prank’

cw upfronts misha Gazing at jensen photo | edit

jibcon12 misha/jensen panel transition hug | video | more gifs | photos | more photos | MORE photos

fighting over whose sunglasses they are | video

jensen: “and you looked AMAZING”

misha posing as audience member to ask, “do you usually at night watch misha collins videos with your wife?“ | jensen discussing the lazarus rising watch party: “had like a three-way... video conference”

@theyarebothgunshot‘s “and they were roommates” timeline of cockles cohabitation

the ew photoshoot of champagne + cheek kiss fame | outtake photos  

misha’s detour at ‘22 denvercon to hug jared and jensen | more gifs | mooore gifs | photos | video 

jenmisheel tag 

"[danneel] does refer to misha as her boyfriend. which is funny, because so do i." | video |

jensen serenading misha with "angeles" | video

the destiel song they improvised together | video |

2009 highlights

2010 highlights pt 1

2010 highlights pt 2

2010 highlights pt 3

2011 highlights pt 1

2011 highlights pt 2

2015 highlights

2016 highlights

2019 highlights

2021 highlights  

2022 highlights

the i n t i m a c y:

misha tenderly caressing jensen’s back (jibcon) | more

misha tenderly caressing jensen’s back (phxcon) | another angle | hd photos | yet another angle

jensen wrapping his arm around misha’s waist | followed by an ass slap | sharper gifs: x, x

hands on thighs

the neck kiss

whispering compilation

more whispering

jensen shoving misha face away | alternate angle  

hug + cheek kiss (ew photoshoot) (photo)

head boops

kisses compilation

jensen dropping his head to misha’s shoulder

slow dancing

touching compilation

beginning/ending of panel

heads on shoulders | video of jensen laying his head on misha’s shoulder  

the way they shake hands | bonus | a breakdown of a handshake

face stroking

more face stroking

comfortingly rubbing each other’s backs

a hug photo

the sdcc hug/head lean (gifs)

patting jensen’s head | more gifs

undercover hand lovemaking | another angle 🐚

jensen’s hand sliding down misha’s arm

eyes closed hugs

His. Hand. Was. Determined. To. Stay. On. That. Leg.  

excessive hand touching

how they hug

hugging/rubbing each other’s shoulders

hug compilation

jensen's hand sliding down misha's back  🐚

and lastly... please, nobody tweet this at misha (or any other cast member), but misha, if you do see this... please don’t tweet it either. thank you.

[snowdice]

Labeled Universe Master Post

Click here for my main Masterpost.

The tag for the Labeled Universe is #labeled universe.

Sometimes Labels Fail: (Complete) Labels. Logan was good at labels, at categories. Logan sorted the citizens of his city into 6 different categories in his mind: heroes, villains, vigilantes, criminals, government authorities, and civilians, and knew how to deal with each. But… but what was he supposed to do with him. Virgil was just trying to survive, though he didn’t think the part of him that compelled him to throw himself into fights whenever he saw the superhero Bluebird struggling had gotten the memo. His English teacher was right; he really was stupid. When the villain criminal… when Shadow Caster gets injured while throwing himself into the line of fire for Logan, Logan can’t find it in himself to turn him over to be arrested. Luckily, he knows a doctor very, very well. Virgil is going to get kidnapped adopted by the end of it.

AO3 Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Bonus Features

Sometimes Labels Shift (Post Sometimes Labels Fail Stories) 

(Tumblr doesn’t let me do many links so...)

Part 1

Part 2

Relabeled; Refiled (Prequels to Sometimes Labels Fail)

Illusory Records (Janus’ story (with a lot of Remus))

Unlabeled (World Building/Ones That Don’t Fit)

Shadow Crawler AU (Logan and Patton adopt Virgil when he’s younger)

Under the Bed: (Complete) Patton’s toddler is sick and hiding under the bed. He didn’t know what to do. He knew what he couldn’t do. He couldn’t get mad. He couldn’t scream. He couldn’t threaten to punish him. He couldn’t drag him out from under the bed by anything he could reach, so he could get to him. Virgil was sick and hurting and Patton refused to hurt him more. But what was he supposed to do?

AO3 Tumblr

[porchwood]

♡ THG Reread, Week Six: Fandom Swag

As I am not a Lionsgate fan, my fandom swag is a little…different. :)

While When the Moon is a massive part of my life, I’ve tried not to make this post too WtM-centric, though the influence is certainly apparent even in these few select pics, in which we have: 

1. My “Katniss” Funko - actually, the Snow White Funko from Once Upon a Time, but when I saw her in the store she looked so much more like Katniss than any of the movie!Katniss Funkos - she even has a little “rabbit-skin” muffler (which is from the WtMiverse and Peeta’s to boot, but still!) - that I had to take her home. I mean, she’s got long black hair (with teeny little side-braids!), hunting boots, a bow with an arrow at the string - and she’s at least one shade darker than -

2. The Lionsgate Peeta Funko, for whom I ultimately caved, in part to give fierce, lonely little Katniss her helpmate but also because he’s more consistently blonde than Josh!Peeta and he has the spear (for WtMiverse purposes :D). By the bye, Katniss is only taller than him here because she’s anchored on a base - her teeny-tiny feet can’t free-stand!

3. My “Mr. Everdeen” Funko - and yes, he’s the Bodhi Rook Funko from Rogue One. :D My roommate and I both love Bodhi and Funko finally made a special, after-the-fact POP for him, which she bought me as a surprise. I was going to keep him in the box but the more I looked at him, the more I realized he’d make an awesome Jack Everdeen (tell me his little flight suit and goggles couldn’t be mining gear if you squint!). So now he’s looking out for his little girl in -

4. My When the Mooniverse tableau. This is by no means the sum total of WtMesque stuff I own (lol!!) - this is just the “concise” display. ;) There’s a Father Christmas (with real rabbit-skin trim on his robe!), several white bears, a doe and a fawn, foxes, and a sleigh, just to name a few things. The little cabin behind Peeta was made by @ghtlovesthg, who also gave me the glass mourning dove, @reylo-the-jedi crocheted the blue-eyed white bear (with a “prosthetic” hind paw!) and gave me the teeny white bear and the red handkerchief as well, and @findingxeno sent me the teeny-tiny fox and deer figurines. ♡ (And the feather lying in front of Jack and Katniss was a present from a real mourning dove, just this past week! She was sitting in the driveway as Lucky and I were coming back from a walk and she waited till we were quite close before flying away and leaving us one perfect feather! ♡)

P.S. The Krennic Funko does correlate with someone in the WtMiverse (and no, he’s not my fancast President Snow!), but it’s somewhat spoilery at present… And yes, the tableau currently resides atop my bookshelf of fairy tales. Peeta, the isbjørn, and the cabin sit atop my stack of retellings of “East of the Sun and West of the Moon” and the Katie Thamer-illustrated The Song of Songs, Which is Solomon’s... For, y’know, no reason in particular. :D

On a sidenote: I have a wishlist of additional “fancast” Funkos that I want to get someday for my WtM tableau. As/if I manage to pick them up, I’ll add them to the display and post pics. :)

5. A few Christmases ago Target had these awesome little doll ornaments and I found a pair that look just like a festive wintertime Katniss and Prim. :) They’re usually displayed with their respective bear-princes (see Photo #4), but I was trying to keep this post small and focused. ;)

6-7. My friendship with Shannon of False Nostalgia - Shiny Scents & Sundries began shortly after I finished reading MJ and started seeking out fandom stuff on Etsy - here particularly, handcrafted fragrances. The jar labeled “Real or Not Real” contains the priceless dregs of a Peeta-scented candle (notes of bread and dandelions! ♡ I don’t think she makes these any longer so I’ve been rationing it over the past six years), and the little tins in the next pic are solid perfumes. The Katniss scent was ultimately relabeled “The Mockingjay” and has lovely earth-and-leather notes (I had to dab some on after taking the picture - I haven’t worn it in so long and it’s heavenly!), and Hey Catnip is woodsmoke and toasted marshmallow, I believe (I love woodsmoke scents and opted to give it a try, in spite of the Gale ;D). 

Shortly after discovering the magic workshop that is False Nostalgia, I threw a Hunger Games bachelorette party for a friend (I may be making a post about that later - lots of silliness and fangirling and no classic “bachelorette party” stuff whatsoever) and Shannon made a fabulous batch of customized goody bags for the attendees - oh, and did I mention? She created a fragrance called Tribute Train, based on my latte creation of the same name (rich hot chocolate + honey, spices, and toast! ♡), that I believe she still sells in a soap. Her shop is on vacation at the moment so I can’t tell you how many of these scents are currently available, alas, but they’re absolutely as awesome as you would imagine. Go favorite her shop - you won’t regret it!

8. While shopping for the aforementioned Hunger Games bachelorette party, I discovered that Bad Bitch Cosmetics had a Hunger Games line so I had to order little samples for all of the attendees. :D Unfortunately, these are no longer available (possibly for the same reason as our next item :/), but you’re more than welcome to borrow mine if you like!

9-10. No bridal party is complete without flowers, and in my bachelorette planning I was over the moon to learn that Greencycledesigns carried paper flowers made from repurposed copies of THG. I ordered a set of five (one each for the bride, we three bridesmaids, and my sister, who helped host the party) and made sure to keep an awesome one for myself (Peeta’s reaping and the bread scene flashback!). :) But the sad end of this story is that a year or so ago, I went back to Greencycle to buy another round of THG flowers, this time for a good fandom friend, but they were nowhere to be found. So I sent the shop owner a message and learned that she got a C&D notice from Lionsgate, telling her not to make flowers with “their” books anymore. (I don’t even know where to start with that!) Which I guess makes this last item a particular rarity! :(

I’m sure as soon as I post this I’ll think of something I missed! What’s in your fandom swag collection? 

[sarah-murphy-photographer-blog]

Client Brief 3

Who is the client ?

BoJangles

What is the brand ?

A service that provides shared music experiences.

What are the client’s objectives ?

To sell their new product.

How do they want to be perceived ?

As an up and coming new music source for the public.  

Who is the target audience/demographic ?

Young trendy people.

Who is the main competitor ?

Spotify and Apple’s itunes.

What is the big idea/concept behind the campaign ?

‘Music as a Shared Experience’ to advertise their new product which allows people to access a free cloud based service (soundspotS) in public hotspots, while also using the service to create a surround sound effect with other people on the same hotspot using soundscapE.  remasH which allows uses to make up their own play lists and mash-ups with friends.

MY CONCEPT FOR IMAGE:

My concept is using a juxtaposition of a Heart cloud in place of the icloud, suggesting where all the music is stored and that is like a meeting place cloud.

I also using music symbols to symbolise music being played.  I appropriated the common symbol for female to represent 2 females sitting on the bench, I slightly adjusted them facing away from each other to show that they are not looking at each other, indicating they do not know each other. I was going to go a male and female but then thought about appropriating the idea of the Grindr app of young men hooking up via an app.  2 males symbols visionally wouldn’t work but I also thought it would be a little too cheesy.  But all three would work. 

Over all the image represents people coming together for the love of music and maybe to find love. 

STEP 1:  GATHER EQUIPMENT  

Equipment:  Digital Camera

                     Tripod

                     Model Chair

                     Square fake grass

STEP 2: SET UP

I shot this in my bedroom with a large window with morning sun on a cloudy day.

Method:        

1. Props placed on child’s chair sitting on bed.

2. Camera in place on tripod next to bed.

STEP 4: SETTING THE CAMERA

Method:        

1.  Fixed Camera Settings:    Camera Raw and Small Jpg

                                             Adobe RGB (1998)

                                             Manual

                                             ISO 100

                                             28mm

                                             1/13

                                              f6.3

STEP 5: TAKING THE PHOTOS

Method:    

1. Press shutter

———-POST PRODUCTION———–

STEP 1:  IMPORT AND SAVE IMAGES

Method:        

1. After images are shot into Lightroom through tethering save to hard-drive.

STEP 2:  CAMERA RAW

Method:        

1. Open in Camera Raw.

2. Adjust Exposure and Blacks, so it just touches blown out and too darkened.

3. Make image a smart object.

4. Sharpen

5. Open Image

STEP 3: PHOTOSHOP

Method:       

Main photo - Fake Grass 

1. Copy background layer and relabel – heal.  Use clone, heal and heal sample tool to remove marks on back wall.

2. Background

  i)   Copy Background layer

  ii)  Magic tool select the background layer.  Mask.

  iii) hue/saturation layer - adjust

3. CHAIR IMAGE - open chair file, magic select the chair. Mask and drag layer onto main image.

4. Move chair onto image.

4. Find clip art images from internet.  Save.  Drag images onto final image.  each drag will create a new layer. Position each symbol.

5. Flatten Image

6. Sharpen Image. 

7. Crop to size.

8. Save as jpeg.

DISCUSSION

I found this brief very difficult and very last minute to come up with the idea.  I spent a lot of time thinking of ways to photograph an idea.  It finally came to me and I managed to pull off a quirky and interesting image.  I am really happy with the final image.  I liked how it wasn’t uniform with symbols and animals on grass.  

If I was to reshoot this image, I would use the same photo but work on the female symbols, and create them into a more body like shape and make it definite that they are not facing each other, because you could go with way at the moment, it looks like they are facing each other as well.  

Overall I impressed myself with the final image.  It is warm, fun and friendly.

[snowdice]

Gaps in His Files (Part 14) [Relabeled; Refiled Series]

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Relationships: Logan/Patton

Characters:

Main: Logan, Patton

Appear: Remy, Virgil (but only in the epilogue)

Summary:

Logan Berry has learned many things the last 10 years: a lot of math and physics, a bit of humility, and how to be a hero being just a few. Through his education, his experience teaching, and his exploits as the superhero Bluebird, he’s changed in a lot of small and large ways. He has recorded these changes in well-organized documents and files. He’s even had to create two new file designations: a red one for files about his moonlighting at Bluebird, and a light blue one dedicated to his boyfriend, Patton.

When Bluebird is targeted by a memory device and all of those 10 years of progress suddenly disappear, Patton Sanders and Logan’s extensive files are left as his only resource to get those memories back. But what is Patton supposed to do when there are clear gaps in his files? And what does he do when he is one of them?

This is set 25 years before Sometimes Labels Fail though it’s story is completely independent of it and it is not necessary to read that one first.

Notes: Superhero AU, memory loss, past child abuse, past child neglect, unhealthy ideas about ones place in relationships, emotional suppression, self-deprecating thoughts, medical procedures mentioned, very brief unhealthy views of sex

They’re so dumb... just... so... dumb.

Note that I just posted Part 13 a minute before this!! Read that first!!!

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13

When Patton arrived back at his apartment for the first time since Tuesday afternoon (though it felt like it had been much longer), he decided to finally take Remy’s advice. He grabbed a tub of ice cream, sat down on his couch, and just cried for about two hours before he finally fell asleep. He woke to the sound of frantic knocking on his door. Rubbing his eyes, he stumbled to the door and opened it.

“Put this on!” was the first thing the person on the other side of the door said, thrusting a hanger with a white bag covering its contents at Patton.

“Wha?” Patton asked as Logan shoved his way into the apartment.

“We’re going to be late,” Logan stressed. “We can’t be late, Patton!”

“Late for what? Logan what?” God Patton shouldn’t have left him alone. What was he thinking?

“I forgot about the reservations. How could I forget about the reservations, Patton?”

“Logan?” Patton said cautiously. “Are you okay?”

“I am perfectly well, but we need to be to the park by 6, and I have just remembered all of the ways this could go wrong!” As he spoke, he ripped the bag off his own black suit and hung the other hanger up on Patton’s coat closet door before starting to strip out of his trousers.

Patton paused, hopeful. He seemed… more confused than he had been since he’d lost his memories, but… “You remember something?” he asked softly.

“Oh, I remember everything,” he said waving his hand through the air absentmindedly, standing in the middle of Patton’s apartment in his underwear as he grabbed the dress pants and started to struggle into them.

“You remember?” he asked.

“Yes, yes, the coffee shop, the surgery, the dates, you staying over at my place 81.3% of the time because it’s closer to the hospital, the fact that you leave dried up pens all over my living room,” he blathered as he finished fastening the pants. Once he was done with that, he stepped toward Patton and grabbed his face in his hands. “The fact that you will never go along with my plans without some form of argument. Put the suit on Patton!”

Patton gapped at him for a moment before his mouth slammed shut, his hands clenched at his sides, and his eyes started to well with tears. “Maybe lead with that next time,” he spat.

Logan did that double blink thing he did when he was particularly startled by Patton. “Apologies love, you are correct of course,” and oh, how was Patton supposed to stay mad at that? Patton softened, and, when he titled his head up to look him in the eyes, Logan pressed a soft kiss to his lips. “I think we may have a lot to talk about,” Logan said softly, and oh. Oh right. Patton hadn’t really thought though the possible consequences of his outburst now that Logan remembered everything. “But right now, we have somewhere we really need to be. I’ve bought you a suit that will look very pretty on you. Will you please put it on for me, love?”

Patton nodded, brain a whirlwind of emotions, but he got another quick sweet kiss out of it that steadied him enough to do as he asked.

The next thing Patton knew, he was literally flying out of his apartment. Logan said it was the only way they’d make it to wherever they were going on time.

Not wanting to be seen, Logan had to land them a couple of blocks away from the busy park in one of the city’s closer suburbs. He kept looking at his watch as he towed Patton by the hand toward the center of the park

“Um, Logan,” Patton said, “it looks like we aren’t supposed to be here. There aren’t any people and it’s blocked off by rope.” He pointed to said rope with his free hand while trying to tug at the hand in Logan’s grip to make him stop.

He paused and turned to Patton. “Dear, please, in,” he glanced at his watch, “five minutes and 53 seconds, I will be happy to do anything you say, but will you just do as I ask for a little under six minutes?”

“I…fine.”

“Good,” Logan proceeded to pull him towards a blocked off area near the base of the fountain. He searched the ground for something and then pointed at a bit of glow-in-the-dark paint. “Stand there,” he said, and Patton did, shooting him a confused look. “Now face me.”

“Okay…”

Logan took a deep breath now that they were in position. “And with over 30 seconds to spare,” he breathed.

“I still have no idea what’s happening,” Patton pointed out.

“I know,” he replied. “I was supposed to have more than 30 seconds. I was going to walk you slowly through the park and buy you a flower from the vender down the street. I was going to distract you enough that you didn’t even notice the ropes blocking people from this spot, but life got in the way. I should have expected it with you being a doctor and me being me. We have busy lives, difficult lives that get in the way a lot of the time. And you said some things the last few days that worry me and we’re going to have to talk about it and where it came from, but I would like to talk about it. Actually, I insist you talk to someone about it even if it isn’t me. Because our lives are complicated and messy and neither of us are perfect in general or even for each other. But maybe that doesn’t matter because despite all of that, we still somehow made it here in time and I think that might mean something. Something really, really important.”

“Logan sweetie, whatever’s going on, it’s alright. You need to calm down.”

“This is traditionally not a calm sort of thing from what I understand. Anyway,” he said, looking at his watch. “It’s time.”

“What are-” At that moment, the fountain next to them started up, the little white lights that had already been lit on it shimmering like little stars in the moving water.

Logan went down on to his knees and pulled a ring out of his pocket.

“Oh my god.”

“Will you marry me?”

“I…” Patton said. “I thought you didn’t want to get married.”

“What gave you that impression?” he asked.

“You… I asked you to marry me and you didn’t say yes.”

“You did not ask me to marry you.”

Patton stared at him. “I said I wanted to marry you and you said to give you more time.”

He looked like a very confused puppy on his knees in front of Patton. “Yes, for the planning. We had discussed that you would want a dramatic proposal after you expressed a desire to be married.”

“Wha- When did that conversation happen?” Patton asked.

“Two years and 11 months ago in the park by the hospital when we saw a man perform a song to propose to a woman. I had said that those types of proposals made me uncomfortable and you asked me why as you believed they were romantic. I explained that the receiving party would likely feel pressured to say yes in front of a crowd and that such an act could be manipulative. You said we could compromise and that it would be alright if they’d already said they wanted to be married and the other person did it to make them feel loved and surprise them about the day and type of ring, but not the question. You said that would be your ideal proposal.”

“Logan that was our second date.”

“Yes.”

Patton sighed. “Oh honey, I love you. I think we really need to work on our communication skills, but I love you.”

“I would agree after the last few days,” Logan said. “I also love you very much.”

Patton looked down at him still on his knees… because he was proposing. Right. “Oh! And yes! Of course, yes!”

Logan smiled at him softly and Patton wanted to jump up and down, but he also wanted to cry a bit and maybe sorta wanted to throw up a little and not just from the entire tub of strawberry ice cream he’d eaten a couple of hours ago. But the thing he most wanted was what he could tell he was about to get. Logan put the ring on his finger (Patton made a note to actually look at the thing sometime later) and got to his feet before sweeping Patton up into a kiss.

Patton drew back from the kiss feeling lighter than he had in days though not nearly completely perfect. He looked around himself. “Oh, wow,” he gushed. “This is so pretty! You’re so pretty! I’m so pretty! I love this suit. Oh, can we take pictures somehow before we leave?”

Logan laughed at him softly. “I hired photographers of course,” he informed him, preening a little bit, “They doubtlessly got pictures of the proposal and the kiss. We can have them take more if you’d like.”

“Oh, those are going to be wonderful pictures with us in front of the fountain like this. This is the most perfect thing I could ever imagine. I love you so much.” He started to get a bit chocked up. Logan pulled him into a hug and gee, that was even better than the kiss had been, especially because they didn’t have to pull away to breathe for a hug. Logan never even tried to pull back even though Patton kept him wrapped up in his arms for far longer than most hugs ever went. He just pressed a kiss to the top of his head and rubbed his back until the ache in Patton’s chest eased enough for him to feel comfortable pulling back himself.

(And then Patton goes to therapy for 5 years and they both go to relationship counseling for 2 years as I have mentioned in Labels Shift. I do plan to eventually do at least a one-shot of Patton in therapy, but I wanted to end on a happier note.)

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Gaps in His Files (Part 2) [Relabeled; Refiled Series]

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Relationships: Logan/Patton

Characters:

Main: Logan, Patton

Appear: Remy, Virgil (but only in the epilogue)

Summary:

Logan Berry has learned many things the last 10 years: a lot of math and physics, a bit of humility, and how to be a hero being just a few. Through his education, his experience teaching, and his exploits as the superhero Bluebird, he’s changed in a lot of small and large ways. He has recorded these changes in well-organized documents and files. He’s even had to create two new file designations: a red one for files about his moonlighting at Bluebird, and a light blue one dedicated to his boyfriend, Patton.

When Bluebird is targeted by a memory device and all of those 10 years of progress suddenly disappear, Patton Sanders and Logan’s extensive files are left as his only resource to get those memories back. But what is Patton supposed to do when there are clear gaps in his files? And what does he do when he is one of them?

This is set 25 years before Sometimes Labels Fail though it’s story is completely independent of it and it is not necessary to read that one first.

Notes: Superhero AU, memory loss, past child abuse, past child neglect, unhealthy ideas about ones place in relationships, emotional suppression, self-deprecating thoughts, medical procedures mentioned, very brief unhealthy views of sex

We’re starting the Patton is suffering week early because I just got irritating news and I was planning on posting two chapters this coming week anyway because chapter 3 is really short. Sorry Patton, time to suffer with me.

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Patton woke to an empty bed. He’d known, of course, that it would be empty. It was, after all, he glanced at the clock on the nightstand, a little past 1pm. Logan left hours ago to teach his 8:30am class and he’d already be teaching his 1pm class by now.

Patton stared at the roof for a few minutes before pulling himself out of Logan’s bed and shuffling into the kitchen. He poured himself a cup of cold coffee and stuck it in the microwave to warm it up. It didn’t taste particularly great, and Patton didn’t bother with his usual sugar, too preoccupied with simply getting the caffeine into his system. It had been a… long, for a lack of a better term, night at the hospital, and Patton felt more than just physically tired. He tried to shove the image of a six-year-old girl from his head; he failed. He bit his lip in frustration. She was stable now anyway. He shouldn’t… he shouldn’t be like this about it.

He just couldn’t forget her little body on the operating table, broken from having fallen out of her bedroom window the night before. Emotions that Patton had suppressed all night in order to do his job correctly were now lapping at his heels.

He wanted Logan.

Logan was busy.

He’d be at “The Hideout” to drink coffee and work on grading his students’ quizzes once he was done teaching at 2pm.

He’d be too busy for Patton; he kept a strict schedule.

Though he never minded much when distracted while grading since it wasn’t something that needed absolute focus.

Patton still shouldn’t just impose his presence on Logan like that just because he was lonely and sad.

Maybe even if he didn’t want to talk, he’d still be willing to hold Patton’s hand over the table for a bit while he worked. Patton could pretend he was in any state to read a book, so he didn’t feel like he was being pressured to talk. It wasn’t like Patton didn’t like to go to the little coffee shop on his own. He’d been going there for years before he’d even met Logan. Logan knew that; that’s where they’d met. It wouldn’t seem like he was following his boyfriend around like a lost puppy.

Even though that was exactly what Patton wanted to do.

…

God, Patton was annoying.

He was also about to have a mental breakdown on his boyfriend’s kitchen floor if he wasn’t careful. He leaned against the countertop and took a deep breath, reining it in.

He chugged the rest of the coffee before quickly washing out the cup, drying it, and setting it back in its designated place. He would go to “The Hideout” now and get some more coffee. Maybe he’d also grab a sandwich, because he didn’t remember when he’d eaten last, but it was defiantly over 12 hours ago. If by the time he got there, ordered his food, and ate it, Logan had arrived, he could say hi to him. If it looked like Logan didn’t want him around, he could just claim he’d popped in for lunch and needed to leave to run an errand. Then Logan wouldn’t have to deal with him if he didn’t feel like it.

Even if Patton did have to leave, he’d at least get one of those nice and warm cheek kisses and maybe, if was lucky, a hug.

With that in mind, he carefully locked Logan’s apartment up just how he liked it and got his car from the parking spot in the apartment complex’s garage that Logan had rented for guests after Patton had started staying over more. He drove back to his own apartment to take a quick shower and change.

By the time he made it to “The Hideout” it was just a bit before two. Walking into the small café made Patton feel just a bit better. It was silly. It was just a café after all, but he’d been coming here for years. The walls were imbued with ghosts of memories: soft, happy memories that warmed Patton every time he stepped foot in here. It was a place of smiling, speaking warm quiet words, and falling in love. He’d met Logan here.

God, he really wanted Logan.

He gave his order to Dave with a practiced smile that strained at the edges and sat to wait.

When it was 13 minutes past 2pm, Patton started to get a little worried, because Logan was nothing if not punctual even to things that weren’t scheduled, and he always got here by 5 past 2 on Tuesdays. Then, the city sirens went off.

Dave immediately turned on the television.

Oh.

That would explain why Logan was late.

Patton was sure to keep his face neutrally concerned like any other customer in the coffee shop while he watched the events unfolding on the television screen. Lightwave and Bluebird were fighting downtown.

Logan was doing fine for the most part, but whatever weapon the villain had must not be something physical as it wasn’t being blocked by Logan’s powers. Patton watched as he dodged away from a blast from it. When that blast hit the concrete wall behind him, it didn’t cause any obvious physical damage. That should be reliving to Patton, but he had to wonder what it was supposed to be doing then. Logan, of course, noticed that the blast was stopped easily by the concrete and ripped up a piece of sidewalk to block the next attack.

Lightwave seemed frustrated when the beam was absorbed into the material and moved to aim the weapon instead at a police car nearby. Logan threw the piece of sidewalk to block the blast aimed at the police officers which left him vulnerable as the villain quickly turned the weapon back on him. Logan was moving before the weapon even discharged, clearly anticipating the move. If it had been a physical weapon, he would have gotten off with barely a graze on his arm.

It was not a physical weapon.

He dropped straight down.

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Masterpost (Old As Of 4/7/20)

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Completed fics are marked complete in their summary.

Sanders Sides:

The Prison You Deserve: (On hiatus while I edit the Sometimes Labels Fail Prequel Fic “Gaps in his Files.”) Virgil should have known better. Trying to help only ever ended badly for him. After a misunderstanding, Virgil gets thrown into the most infamous prison across all of the kingdoms, where the most evil criminals are thrown to get what they deserve at the hands of nightmarish creatures from the void. Luckily (for once) Virgil really didn’t deserve it. Trusting that this isn’t just a cruel trick and he isn’t actually going to be tortured though is going to take a while. (In which Patton is a eldritch horror, telepathic nightmare, and still is the sweetest thing on the planet and off it.)

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Is There Anything Left of Patton?: (Zombie AU; One-Shot Series)

Logan has a secret in his basement. Three months into living with him, Virgil finds that secret. He almost wishes the secret was a simple as he first thought it was. Almost.

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Something Left 

Someone You’ll Never Meet

Food You’ll Never Eat

Things You’ll Never Do

There are Things You Have Lost 

There Are Things That Are Missing 

Labeled Universe (A Superhero AU)

Sometimes Labels Fail: (Complete) Logan was good at labels, at categories. Logan sorted the citizens of his city into 6 different categories in his mind: heroes, villains, vigilantes, criminals, government authorities, and civilians, and knew how to deal with each. But… but what was he supposed to do with him. Virgil was just trying to survive, though he didn’t think the part of him that compelled him to throw himself into fights whenever he saw the superhero Bluebird struggling had gotten the memo. His English teacher was right; he really was stupid. When the villain criminal… when Shadow Caster gets injured while throwing himself into the line of fire for Logan, Logan can’t find it in himself to turn him over to be arrested. Luckily, he knows a doctor very, very well. Virgil is going to get kidnapped adopted by the end of it.

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Sometimes Labels Shift: (Post Sometimes Labels Fail stories)

Two Dinner Plates: (One-shot: Complete) A muscle ticked in Logan’s jaw and Virgil tried not to flinch. “We seem to be coming from fundamentally different philosophies on how food should be distributed in a family structure.” In which we finally actually talk about Virgil’s thing™ with food. It goes about how one would expect it to.

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Back to School: (One-shot: Complete) It’s Virgil’s first day back to school after everything and he has some adjustments to make.Aka a blatant excuse to enact the hug Virgil initiative.

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Sticky Note Pandemonium:   (One-shot: Complete) There were also sticky notes on the kitchen counter, the refrigerator, Virgil’s backpack, and even the oven, not to mention every wall. There was even one sticky note stuck on Logan’s butt.His husband had gone on a rampage.

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Arguments and other ‘A’ Words: (One-shot: Complete) Logan and Virgil have a row. Virgil’s new family has a weird way of fighting.

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The Things We Haven’t Talked About: (Complete) Patton and Logan have noticed some concerning behavior from Virgil in their month with him. Beyond the flinching and haunted look in his eyes courtesy of his last foster father, there’s something else of concern for Patton and Logan and they really aren’t equipped to deal with it. They enlist some help from a couple of friends.

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Wind Symphony (One-shot: Complete) Patton and Logan are still trying to figure out how to be parents and are worried about strange behavior coming from their new son as of late. Logan takes measures to figure out what is wrong.

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Coffee and Cinnamon Rolls (One-shot: Complete)  Remy meets his best friend/bosses new child and immediately has the must protect at all cost urges.

Virgil’s Birthday:  (Complete) Virgil has his first birthday with Logan and Patton and he’s going to get everything he ever wanted.

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Mini Fic Series: One Two Three Four Five Six Seven Eight Nine Ten Eleven

Relabeled; Refiled: (Prequels to Sometimes Labels Fail)

Coffee Shop Meet Cute  (One-shot: Complete) Is this what falling in love felt like or was Patton just about to pass out from exhaustion? Patton and Logan’s first meeting in the Sometimes Labels Fail Universe.

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Coffee Shop Incident Report  (One-shot: Complete) Patton and Logan’s first meeting in the Sometimes Labels Fail Universe, but what Logan put in his files about it afterwards.

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The Things We Never Mentioned  (Complete)  “Believe it or not, academia and relationships are not mutually exclusive.” That was likely true, Logan knew. It was also not the problem. The problem was his ability to move things with his mind, a blue suit he kept in his bag, and the mountains of red files he kept hidden in his apartment. No one knew that Logan was Bluebird, the cities resident superhero. He hadn’t even told his parents and he wasn’t planning on doing so. Sharing such a secret with anyone was a danger to everyone involved. He refused to do so. At the same time, he knew that starting a romantic relationship with anyone who didn’t know the truth, was unfair to that person. Inevitably they would find out and there would be a disastrous fallout, but beyond that, starting a relationship on a foundation of lies was a horribly cruel thing to do to another person. These two conflicting rules Logan followed had never posed an issue for him before recently, but…But he did like Patton.

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Logan’s 25 Step Plan to Ask a Boy Out: (One-Shot: Complete) “No! Logan look,” she said. “He likes you and you like him. You don’t need a list or a plan or schematics for this. Just walk up to him and ask him out before you hesitate so much that he thinks you don’t like him anymore.” | Logan’s eyes widened. “Is that something that can happen.” | “Oh god, this is hopeless.” | How is Logan so good at, but simultaneously so bad at this?

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Gaps in His Files: Logan Berry has learned many things the last 10 years: a lot of math and physics, a bit of humility, and how to be a hero being just a few. Through his education, his experience teaching, and his exploits as the superhero Bluebird, he’s changed in a lot of small and large ways. He has recorded these changes in well-organized documents and files. He’s even had to create two new file designations: a red one for files about his moonlighting at Bluebird, and a light blue one dedicated to his boyfriend, Patton.When Bluebird is targeted by a memory device and all of those 10 years of progress suddenly disappear, Patton Sanders and Logan’s extensive files are left as his only resource to get those memories back. But what is Patton supposed to do when there are clear gaps in his files? And what does he do when he is one of them? 

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The Origin Story of a Yapping Mop: (One-Shot: Complete) Virgil was not the first living creature Logan carried in his arms to Patton. This is how they ended up with a dog.

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Cops and Not Robbers AU:

You I’ll Come Back For: (Complete) They’d met in a jail cell, you see, but unlike now Patton had not been anywhere near trapped, not that Virgil had been aware of that fact. He’d just seen his sweet little cell mate who’d clearly not done anything to deserve being on that side of the bars. Virgil had said “What did you do to get stuck in this joint?” and Patton had started crying. It had taken zero lies and five hours for Patton to coax out the information he’d needed. He’d thought when he’d pranced up to the bars and told Roman he was ready to leave that the absolutely astonished expression which was quickly slipping into fury would be the last thing he’d ever see of the man whose crimes numbered enough to keep him in prison for the rest of his life. He’d escaped during his transfer to federal prison. (This was a dice fic. It also appears below!)

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Mistaken Identities: (One-Shot: Complete) Roman was just walking out of an ice-cream shop when an unfamiliar man’s irate voice made him pause mid lick and look up. “Dammit Remus, I told you to meet me two blocks that way and you’re getting ice cream?” | Now as an identical twin, especially one with a brother who had a… certain personality, he wasn’t exactly unused to this sort of thing happening. So, he promptly opened his mouth to say, “Oh no I’m not…” | “Remus, I don’t care right now,” he interrupted. “Get in the car.” | “But-” | The man snapped his fingers and a hand descended on his shoulder. “Get him in the car.” | Roman meets Deceit and later Logan when he is mistaken for his brother who is apparently doing SOMETHING with his life.

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Dilemmas One-Shots

Moral Dilemmas: (One-shot) “But that doesn’t make any sense!” he yelled.| “Patton,” Remus said evenly.|“It doesn’t!” he screamed turning on him viciously. “There’s a big difference between not being sad someone’s dead and… and… and no! No! I wouldn’t be okay with seeing someone I hated die. I wouldn’t!”| “Yes, you would,” Remus said, standing up himself. He pointed an accusatory finger at him. “You would! And you know you would! Do you think you are the only one who can get a read on another side when functions cross? Those thoughts in your head are my domain and I knew exactly what you were feeling when I asked that question!” Virgil was forcibly summoned immediately, eyes wide. Patton and Remus have a philosophical discussion and then will have to deal with the fall out.

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Ethical Reasoning: (One-shot: Complete) “What happened Remus?” Remus looked at him for a moment and then slammed the door in his face. “Okay,” Logan growled at the closed door. “I’ve had about enough of this. ”Everyone else has to deal with the fallout from the end of Moral Dilemmas. It isn’t pretty.

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Mismatched High Heel Shoes: (One-shot: Complete) The boys are having fun. (This was for the #magpie500 event.)

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Roll the Dice Event:

Buckets of Roses: (One-shot: Complete) As far as anyone knew, Logan was supposed to be in class right now. Which begs the question of why and how Roman is now in his room with him. (“And now that I have explained why I am currently in my own dorm room, would you care to explain why you are here?” “Not, um, not particularly.”)

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Touch Me Gently: (Complete) He had a total of four soulmarks: not an unheard-of thing, but rather rare. There were purple fingerprints on his wrist, looking like a day-old bruise from where someone had grabbed him too hard. What his mother had seen when he’d entered the kitchen was actually two soulmarks that overlapped slightly: a light blue one that darkened his lips and a yellow handprint that covered the lower parts of his cheek and jaw. The ring finger and the tip of the pinkie hit his lip, mixing with the blue to look like a sickly greenish-yellow bruise. What his dad had seen peaking out of the top of his t-shirt was a dark blue mark in the shape of fingers around his neck. Roman had been overjoyed when he realized what the marks were after the initial confusion. His parents had been a little less enthusiastic. (Roman meets his soulmates one-by-one and it’s not at all what everyone assumed when they first saw his soulmarks.)

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Markups: (One-shot, Complete) Roman leered down at him, clearly incredibly pleased with himself. “You,” he said as Logan did his best to swallow down the rest of his laughter, “have been criticizing my work all day. Which is basically like you’ve been criticizing me. So…why don’t I return the favor?” He wiggled the uncapped pen in front of Logan’s nose. “You wouldn’t dare,” Logan said lowly. (Logan and Roman do some editing.)

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Moral Dilemmas: (One-shot) “But that doesn’t make any sense!” he yelled.| “Patton,” Remus said evenly.|“It doesn’t!” he screamed turning on him viciously. “There’s a big difference between not being sad someone’s dead and… and… and no! No! I wouldn’t be okay with seeing someone I hated die. I wouldn’t!”| “Yes, you would,” Remus said, standing up himself. He pointed an accusatory finger at him. “You would! And you know you would! Do you think you are the only one who can get a read on another side when functions cross? Those thoughts in your head are my domain and I knew exactly what you were feeling when I asked that question!” Virgil was forcibly summoned immediately, eyes wide. Patton and Remus have a philosophical discussion and then will have to deal with the fall out.

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You I’ll Come Back For: (Complete) They’d met in a jail cell, you see, but unlike now Patton had not been anywhere near trapped, not that Virgil had been aware of that fact. He’d just seen his sweet little cell mate who’d clearly not done anything to deserve being on that side of the bars. Virgil had said “What did you do to get stuck in this joint?” and Patton had started crying. It had taken zero lies and five hours for Patton to coax out the information he’d needed. He’d thought when he’d pranced up to the bars and told Roman he was ready to leave that the absolutely astonished expression which was quickly slipping into fury would be the last thing he’d ever see of the man whose crimes numbered enough to keep him in prison for the rest of his life. He’d escaped during his transfer to federal prison.

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The Horror of Stereotypes: There had always been a certain stereotype about people like him for as long as anyone could remember. After the Heart War of 1963, those stereotypes had been legalized and places like this had been created to enforce the universal truth: everyone had a soulmate. One soulmate. No more and no less. At least they were supposed to. When Remus’s brother gets arrested because of his two soulmarks, Remus risks everything by infiltrating the facility he legally should be in as well due to his own two soulmates to save him. There he meets Logan and it turns out they have a lot in common: they both got hired this week, they both have two soulmates, and they’re both here for the same reason. Oh. And as it turns out, they’re each other’s soulmates too.

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Remains of Memories: (One-Shot: Complete) Patton is about to graduate high school. As his life changes, he figures it’s time to confront some memories with the people he loves. 

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Tea, Cookies, and Handcuffs: (One-Shot: Complete) Logan finds a strange man on his property and of course invites him in for tea.

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