#and my inbox is always open if you want to add on or politely disagree with me and have your own points

[antisociallilbrat]

Actually, narratively speaking, Billy died for Steve. And I mean this literally; the only reason Billy Hargrove was created for seasons two and three was because they didn't actually kill off Steve in season one, and by that point he was too popular for them to consider transferring the storyline to season two. Killing Steve off at such a critical point when, as a new show, they were relying on viewers and ratings would've more or less been suicide for the show.

The Duffers have talked about it a lot since season one. By which I mean how they specifically created Billy Hargrove to fill the void of Steve Harrington surviving. Regardless of your opinion on Billy, that's a concrete fact. Billy Hargrove, exactly like Eddie Munson, was created to die.

Eddie's presence, narratively, actually had very little impact on the overall plot as a whole. And I say this as an Eddie lover. Its one of my main complaints about how they handled Eddie and the choice to kill him off. Take Eddie out of the story, and Jason Carver aside, pretty much the entire season would've gone the same way.

His impact on Dustin aside, Eddie was actually a severely wasted character. He didn't die in place of anyone. He just died. Arguably he died for The Cause, but again. They could've diverted the bats in a multitude of other ways, and Eddie's death as far as the end of season four stands, was pretty pointless. He didn't die for Steve or in Steve's place. He didn't even really die for Dustin. He just died. "This is for Chrissy" translates roughly to "I was written to die and this was the best way they could write it."

Anon you bring up some good points and I kinda agree and disagree but let's talk about it.

I think we would've gotten Billy anyways if Steve had died in season one. I'll be honest my first gut instinct was to agree with you because I was like, "Yeah I can see where Billy was written in place for Steve," and he was but let's go over this.

Steve was intended to be the human villain in season one, he was not supposed to have a redemption arc. In fact he has the redemption arc that was supposed to originally go to Lonnie Byers. Here's a good article on this. He was supposed to leave the Byer's home and supposedly die at the hands of the Demogorgon in season one.

But in my research I found an article that conflicts with this that suggests Steve wasn't supposed to die in season one at all, that he was originally intended to be the human villain throughout the series- or until season three. I can only speculate that they said Steve was supposed to die after the release of season one to not give away what his original storyline was as they planned to give it to Billy in the following season. And honestly, it's just intriguing press to say "Oh we didn't kill off this now fan favorite character like we planned, aren't you happy we didn't?" They needed all the press they could get after the season one release because if it didn't do well they weren't getting another season. Netflix took a chance on the Suffer Brothers with Stranger Things.

Once they established Steve as the 'good guy' they needed another human villain. Cue Billy. We could guess that if Steve had not been redeemed he would've followed the same path as Billy, being the antagonizer and eventually being flayed and killed by the Mindflayer. But we can only guess, who knows what Steve's 'villain' arc was supposed to be. I imagine it would had a lot to do with Jancy.

So I agree with you on this but it's more than Billy just being created to 'die' he was also created to carry out Steve's original arc.

Now onto Eddie where I have to politely disagree with you.

The statement "He's too popular to kill" does not apply in the later seasons. Season two and three, yes it does, but not now. We are at the end, this is when characters we have grown to love are on the chopping block.

And I agree with you about the character of Eddie, his presence had very little do with the plot so why make him? Because they didn't want to kill Steve.

They wanted a character that would hit the same emotional notes as if it had been Steve that died. They wanted to kill Steve without killing him so to speak. Why else have him bond with Dustin? Why else focus so much screen time on building up his character?

The Suffer brothers are smart. They don't want to kill Steve because he's too marketable to the GA but also they wanted the emotional impact as if he did die. So here comes Eddie.

Now I think we probably still would've gotten Eddie if Steve was going to die, he just would've been more of a background character, one that really only had his moment in episode one with the dnd game. I don't know how they've would've written Chrissy's death, but it wouldn't have been that hard to move it somewhere else. Plus the satanic cult hunt side plot felt like it came out of nowhere.

This at the end of day is all speculation, and no, I don't want Steve to die, but storywise it felt like the next step. I've talked about how he as a character has been restricted to one, unfulfilling, role in the show and how he hasn't been allowed growth so I'm not going to delve into that again.

Thank you for your thoughts though anon, I love fandom discussion like this.

[tonowarii]

Guidelines upon requesting!

Hello everyone! Here is the guidelines on what you need to know before requesting! Listed here is the characters I will write for, the genres I'm open to write, and the basic do's and don'ts that I have set in order to help me process your request properly! With that, let's begin!

P.S it is said on my ask whether requests are open or not, so please be aware! :>

P.S ! As of march 2023 I have decided when I open requests I will simply limit it to the first 20 requests only to not burden myself but to make sure what you sent in would be done to not keep you waiting.

The characters I write for:

Neteyam te Suli Tsyeyk'itan

Lo'ak te Suli Tsyeyk'itan

Kiri te Suli Kìreysì'ite

Miles "Spider" Socorro

Tsireya

Ao'nung

Rotxo

Jake Sully

Neytiri te Tskaha Mo'at'ite

Tsu'tey te Rongloa Ateyitan

Tonowari

Ronal

Grace Augustine

Norm Spellman

Miles Quaritch

Regarding some of the characters, I would like to say that I'm writing an Aged! Up version of them, if you disagree with that, feel free to walk away.

These are the list of characters that I am confident enough to write for, however, if you have another character in mind from the Avatar universe, please ask first then I'll see to it if I can do it.

Genre's I am open to write:

Fluff

Angst

Crack! Fics

Hurt/comfort

Soulmate AUs

Songfics

Drabbles

Prompts

Platonic! Fics

Headcanons

NSFW! (see do's and don't's)

Will be updated as time goes on*

Do's and Don't's!!!

↳ For requesting, please be specific as it is hard to come up with a plot at times when I don't have my creative juices flowing.

Be specific in who do you want me to write, and the kind of genre/s you want to see happen as well as what gender you want the reader to be. If none was stated, I would then decide to make the reader gender neutral.

Note!! I would also like to say that I am unable to do a male! Reader since I am afraid that I won't do it justice enough.

↳ I can write for poly! relationships if asked.

↳ Please be polite when requesting.

↳ Always, always send requests through my ask box unless it is stated that requests are closed (in my bio). Please also refrain from messaging me requests.

Sending requests through my ask box makes it much more easier for me to keep track and add your requests to my list along with the others.

↳ Please be patient. As you can see I'm a real person and often times I don't feel well or motivated enough to write. Aside from that, I also have school so I may not be able to do your requests in time, but rest assured I'll try and get them posted as soon as I'm able to.

↳ Regarding the NSFW genre, I'm still experimenting on writing smut and if it does go well or it is up to my liking, I might just consider it!

↳ Heads up, I have known myself to disappear and not post for weeks or months. So it might take me too long to process your request (or I end up not doing it due to lack of motivation). Note that I also cannot fully flesh out a fic if I do not have the inspiration for it. I have spontaneous mood swings so please bare with me as they also affect the way I am able to write.

Other rules may be added soon*

For now, that is the list of what you need to know before requesting! I would love to see you in my inbox soon. ♡

[roleplcyheaux]

stop sending messages about kelly to amanda. jc its like youre obsessed.

i rarely curse at people but fuck you. and i mean that from the bottom of my heart. i don’t know what possessed you to send me this ask in the first place because i haven’t been on the dash in days but fuck you. i’m not sending messages about kelly to amanda. kelly hasn’t crossed my mind in months. i haven’t spoken or uttered her name in conversation even longer than that. ya’ll are so quick to accuse people of things with no evidence? the fact that you assume everyone who sends in questions about these people are just jaded friends / members is the problem! none of you want to take responsibility for your actions so you’d rather just brush off the stuff being said about you as “hate” and “negativity”. i’ve made one post about kelly in my entire existence on this website. AND I EVEN SUGAR COATED THAT ONE POST by only sticking to rp related instances! i went to painstaking lengths to ensure nothing i wrote about her came across as mean or inflammatory. there’s a whole paragraph where i sang her praises. why? cause for a very long time she was someone very dear to me and i didn’t want to crucify her in the public eye because i believe people can change and grow. but since ya’ll love to villainize people, let me just say this.

if i wanted to send amanda messages it would be:

about that time i made a post on my personal during the 2016 election ( or maybe directly after i can’t remember ) where i said something about trump supporters being ignorant ( literally one of the least nasty thing that can be said about trump supporters ) and kelly messaged me on skype upset that i said that because her family members were trump supporters. i literally had to APOLOGIZE TO HER for saying something about trump supporters. even though they were outwardly spewing anti-immigration propaganda and encouraging trump’s muslim registry nonsense. two things kelly knows i am, an immigrant & a muslim. still, i “agreed to disagree” so she wouldn’t be mad at me. from that day on i felt like i couldn’t post anything political on my blog or else she’d find an issue with it and come confront me again. ( i would link to the post in question but i think i literally deleted it to placate her + skype wont let me scroll back further than april 2017 & this convo happened prior to that )

or maybe the time someone came to me in my inbox to ask about if it was insensitive to play turkish fcs as non-muslim & i answered saying something along the lines like “no it wouldn’t be insensitive but like please keep in mind islam is the largest religion practiced in turkey.” nothing controversial about that right? like i wasn’t telling people that they would be cancelled if they had non-muslim turkish muses but STILL kelly who was in a big turkish fc phase at the time felt the need to then reply to my ask to be like “there are jewish people in turkey too!!!” which is true! there are multiple religions practiced in turkey but that wasn’t what was up for debate in the ask that was sent to me. people already play turkish fcs as anything but muslim. again she messaged me privately afterward saying she hoped it was okay she interjected and to avoid confrontation i didn’t say anything and let it slide cause i told myself she was just excited about exploring judaism as a faith. but just think about it? could you imagine if someone was answering an ask about zoey deutch being jewish & whether it was insensitive to play her as non-practicing & i just inserted myself by saying “um actually people practice other religions in america too!” just because i like playing zoey deutch fcs and may not wanna be held responsible to play her as her religion? LINK TO THE ASK HERE.

or how about that elongated period of time she had not white in the description of her personal? if memory serves me correct her blog title had gypsy in it and someone told her that term was offensive to romani which is when she said she was part romani herself. which then inevitable led to the “not white” identifier on her blog. but multiple times before and after that privately she only talked about her family being italian. rarely if ever did the romani thing ever come up again. only when it was convenient. i’m not trying to say kelly isn’t romani or is lying about identifying as nonwhite but there were multiple times in our friendship where i felt like she was trying to use labels associated to minority groups for some sort of invisible “brownie points” and it was very uncomfortable to me but i never felt comfortable enough to brooch it with her for fear of being exiled from the friend group or accused of being “toxic” the way she described other ex-friends.

or maybe i’d give amanda extra details about stuff i’ve already said about kelly on my blog. like when i said she asked me to play a nina twin with her at a group but then got mad at me for essentially plotting with people? what i didn’t add was that that whole thing happened during ramadan while i was fasting. and she knew it was ramadan cause we talked about it in our gc. i had been working all day helping my family do stuff while fasting only to log on to skype to have one of my best friends accuse me of trying to ruin her plots and fun in a group she invited me to. the whole conversation gave me so much anxiety on top of being hungry & tired from running around a majority of the day. like i kept worrying that if i didn’t respond fast enough that she’d get angry which in turn made me family be upset at me for keeping looking for reasons to be on my phone. her excuse in the end? she was on her period and feeling sensitive. ( LINK TO SCREEN SHOTS )

or what about all those times she would message me privately about people i considered friends and how she didn’t think they liked her. or how she felt unliked and unwanted and i’d have to go out of my way to assure her that wasn’t the case. to the point of my own discomfort. it got the point where i started not enjoying my own rp experience cause i’d feel bad that i was having fun on the dash when she wasnt? it was during a time she claimed she changed and she would always weaponize the narrative people had of her “old self” against me to make me feel bad for being friends / friendly with those people even though she’d keep insisting that it was totally fine & she wasn’t mad about it and simply just “worried” cause she didn’t want to cause “drama” ( to use an example from an instance used in my other ask about kelly: her and my friend lauren had a falling out. when said falling out happened she repeatedly insisted that the rest of us in the friend group didn’t have to “pick sides” then, later down the line, when she found out lauren was joining a group i was opening she then proceeded to use that as one of the reasons why i was being a “shitty friend” to her. LINK BACK TO THAT PART OF THE CONVO )

if i was really obsessed with kelly i would just have submitted the messages i got from people after i made my post about her to amanda. people who were friends with her were coming to me telling me that kelly had done / was doing the same thing to them that she put me through and how they appreciated me speaking up about it. keep in mind i made my post like a year after i stopped being friends with her. which meant that in that time, despite all the claims she had made about changing and being better, she was still treating her friends and the people close to her shitty. i’m not gonna share screen shots of those messages because it seems for all intents and purposes those people have forgiven kelly & are still friends with her and i’m not trying to get them in trouble with her.

i’ve given kelly the benefit of the doubt for years. even after i stopped communicating with her i didn’t say anything about the microaggressions i faced as her friend or how manipulated i felt by her. being her friend often felt like you were one mistake away from being cut off. it’s like you constantly had to prove your loyalty and love to her or else. it took me a long time to realize how our dynamic was extremely unhealthy and even when i realized that i never publicly said anything because i still cared about her and saw how much shit she was getting & didn’t want to add to it. but i’m not the pathetic little hales that can be bullied and talked down to anymore. i’m not gonna allow you to come into my inbox when i was minding my own business and try to make me the bad guy. if people are sending messages to amanda about kelly it’s because she’s got a long list of people she’s hurt & hasn’t resolved anything with. that has nothing to do with me so please kindly get out of my inbox.

[migleefulmoments]

Heaven Forbid....

According to tinhat-logic ala Cassie, Darren “essentially asked for fics featuring a gay couple and he heavily implied he was aware most fics are very explicit in nature” (No, he “heavily implied” that he’s seen explict fanfiction written about him or Blaine and thus he KNOWS how explicit and fictious they can be). “But we’re to chalk it all up to him being sarcastic, and acting (No Cassie, you are to chalk it up to him being a grown up who is very comfortable with his sexuality and who enjoys risque banter and making a joke). “Funny, he was replying as himself last night, not a character” (No Shit Sherlock. .He’s sexually comfortable and he knows who he is. He’s happily married, loves “elegant hedonism”, and is flirty AF... but he’s not gay). “Heaven forbid they open their minds to the possibility that maybe, just maybe, he’s somewhere in the gray area between sexual attraction being to only one gender, my personal beliefs aside” (Oh, the irony of Cassie labeling us in need of “opening their minds”. Nobody here is scared or threatened by the thought of Darren being gay -or as she is suggesting here, that he’s bisexual. We are open to all possibilties. The fact is NOTHING he said during the Hollywood Twitter Watch Party raises the possibility that he’s gay or bisexual nor has he said or done anything over the past 10 years that raises the possibility that he’s not straight. This isn’t about are inability or unwillingness to SEE him as LGBTQ+, the trope relies on the tinhat obsession with SEEING gay-or I guess now she’s aiming for him being bisexual-  in EVERYTHING he says or does. The tinhat fandom has lost sign of rational decision making and. thought processes; they have become conspiracy theorists quite skilled at twisting everything into confimration bias). It’s really sad, especially since we are being bombarded with COVID virus misinformation from our goverment. It’s time to repost Nadia Creeks’ important op-ed on conspiracy theory beliefs. First you can see Cassie’s entire post and then below that wil be Nadia’s op-ed.  

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Anonymous asked: Wow. After reading some of those comments to DC, they really don’t get him, do they? Totally their loss don’t you think?

Cassie responded: Nonnie, they have no idea. I love that they think it’s fine for him to look like he’s in love with LH, because she has the parts they want him to be attracted to and that he was being sarcastic. First, he’s allegedly a married man, so displaying love for another person is wrong. Two, HE chose to retweet the comment and add to it. Three, he essentially asked for fics featuring a gay couple and he heavily implied he was aware most fics are very explicit in nature. But we’re to chalk it all up to him being sarcastic, and acting. Funny, he was replying as himself last night, not a character. Heaven forbid they open their minds to the possibility that maybe, just maybe, he’s somewhere in the gray area between sexual attraction being to only one gender, my personal beliefs aside.

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myklaineisperfect  asked:With all due respect miss but there’s a difference between conspiracy theory and speculation. I feel really sorry for people who never question things and always take everything at face value because they usually are not the sharpest from the bunch. I don’t hate people who support Chris-Will/Darren-Mia’s relationship. I just avoid them at all cost. But there’s one thing I really hate, I hate people who hate someone because of what he/she ships. That’s it!

Nadia responded: Okay, look, I am going to say this ONCE, because I did not come looking for this fight, all I did was leave a simple comment on a post written by a friend who generally agrees with me about these things. I almost never engage the real-life shipping wars, but if you think you can silence people who disagree with you by coming into their inboxes and insulting them, you have got another thing coming.

The personal lives of celebrities are none of your business and should be none of your concern beyond what they choose to share. If you spend large chunks of your mental energy trying to prove that a celebrity–any celebrity, of any sexuality–is dating B when he or she claims to be dating A, then you have misplaced priorities in your life. It is not a fun, harmless game. It is a dark mindset that fosters negativity toward the celebrity you claim to support and the people they love in their real lives. These are not objects or pawns in a game. These are real flesh-and-blood people with feelings, and the culture you create is anything but invisible to them. Even if you are not one of the ones tweeting at them, you are giving support and encouragement to those who do.

And it’s not harmless to you, either. You’re creating a mental world for yourself where you believe that people have to hide and feel ashamed when in real life, there is no reason for them to do so. The world you think you see does not exist. You are denying a reality that is obvious and that gets more and more evidence with every passing day. You are tricking yourself into seeing patterns that are not there, by obsessing over small details and ignoring a mound of evidence for the opposite, true conclusion. That kind of thing can and will pour over into areas of your life that do matter. Denying reality in any area of the world is a dangerous game that can and will impact the rest of your life.

Darren and Chris do not need fans to “support” their personal lives, in the sense of encouraging, celebrating, or obsessing over them. They want to live their personal lives in peace. They are completely open about who they are dating – Darren is dating Mia, and Chris is dating Will – and they share glimpses of that sometimes, in the form of photos, acknowledgements, joint travel with their partners, polite words to fans, and so forth. The reaction they want is a smile and a click of the like button, just the way your friend from seventh grade does when he posts a picture of himself with his girlfriend on Facebook. That is it. That is the whole, entire thing.

Consider, for a moment, what evidence would convince you that Chris and Darren are not and have never been dating. What could either of them say or do that would convince you that the entire thing was imaginary and never happened? An outright denial by both of them? Marriage to other people? The two of them never seen hanging out together after Glee? If you can’t think of anything at all that would have the power to convince you that your theory is wrong, what you have is not an evidence-backed theory, it’s a religious belief.

Stop kidding yourself that you’re smarter than other people. You’re not smarter. You’re denying reality, ignoring evidence, and conveniently forgetting the importance of Occam’s Razor.

Crisscolfer is a fiction. If you think it is real, you are wrong. Go back, start from square one, and just drop it. It is wrong, it is harmful, and I have no tolerance for it. End of story.

[camillemontespan]

wading into this debate..

I reblogged @burnsoslow previous post with this comment but in case it gets lost, I wanted to write my own post so it is clear on my blog and dash. 

I've been thinking about this subject for the past few days since it came to my attention. I'm not a big blog but I guess I've got a fair amount of people who follow me so I guess I should address this - it has been bugging me so let me just add my piece.

I've never written a fic that is 'dark' at least, not in my opinion. Sure, I have written that fic about Kiara stalking Drake and Camille, she did some questionable things, perhaps that was deemed as dark? But I stopped writing it because I just wasn't enjoying it.

I also wrote a series about Drake struggling with alcohol but I wrote this fic to end in hope because he gets through it with the support of his family. It's my favourite fic I've written to date.

Dark and dramaaaaa fics are actually not my forte. Hell, in one chapter of my series A Kingdom Divided, I wrote a chapter where a young girl is accidentally killed and writing it left me so shaken, I had to take a break. I didn't write a dark chapter again.

Instead, I like to write fics that focus on Drake being a daddy or Drake and Camille being together and being a team!

I will admit I have reblogged fics with dark stuff in them. Very dark. And I guess I should admit that I would actually skim over the dark stuff and just read the rest of the chapter because I felt the chapter was well written and didn't need the dark scene.

I think I did reblog one particular fic that caused a lot of controversy in the fandom and I see now I shouldn't have. That was too far and for that, I can only apologise.

I always thought warnings and a cut off line would suffice. I still don't understand why you would read something with warnings that could trigger you, I genuinely don't understand. If it triggers you, don't read it. That's my basic thought on that.

But then it gets murky. This site does have teens on it. Choices is a game that teenagers play - but yes, the diamond scenes are 100% not appropriate. As a result, it is easy to forget that 13 year old could be following me. I must say, if you are 13, don't read my fics. I write NSFW and I am not comfortable with a teenager reading that. I write warnings and have a cut off line. Again, I thought that would be enough.

I'm going to say that targeting blogs for reblogging dark fic etc isn't the way. I guess I was naive and thought warnings would be okay but apparently not. I may need educated on that. If I have reblogged something that makes you uncomfortable, message me. I am always open to being messaged.

I will also stop using the main tags - I didn't know that wasn’t a good thing to do! Seriously, I didn't know. I'm still learning tumblr rules and politics.

Before you put someone in a box because you disagree with something they do, take the time to get to know them. If they don't know something or are ill informed, perhaps offer some education? Or tell them to educate themselves and they can learn from their mistake. This fandom is toxic enough already and right now, we all need kindness and understanding.

Last thing: anon messages. I deliberately have anon off because I don't want that sort of negativity in my life. I don't see the point in sending mean anon messages. You got something to say? Message me under your username and we can talk it out. Don't hide behind a screen and anon. We're not in high school (okay maybe some of you are but I certainly am not). Approach this in a mature way. My inbox/private messaging is open if you want to discuss this.

[ruthlessnessisyourdesire-archive]

rp guidelines.

Mun is Ash. She/Her. 21+. Ruthless Drama King keeps me prisoner. 

This blog is 21+ Nsfw/smut will not be written with those under 21 years old. I will not write with minors. 

I know there are a lot of rules here now but incidents, past stuff in rp scene kind of made it mandatory for myself to put down. Common sense lacks in some too so sorry it’s so long but ya know. Gotta do what we rpers gotta do. <3

tw: potential for triggering content & subject matter due to crime scene investigations/forensic profiling. strong language expected. he is simply a problematic aggressive character in most verses.

no godmodding. unspoken rule but please do not control my character under any circumstances. if you continue to break this rule however I may have to cancel our thread. only in extreme cases.

Don’t have personal triggers but I will not write my muse forcing themselves on any other muse.

any personal triggers you are uncomfortable with I will not write and vice versa.

multiverse/oc friendly. au friendly: discussion on AU’s are love. same char different mun friendly. duplicates are always welcome. personally I love OC’s and this boy cannot get enough interaction from them ever. just so you know. 

Do not screenshot my posts: ooc, threads etc. It is MY content. I should not have to add this but yes this has happened without my knowledge - at first. 

Unfollowing: If there is something you disagree with, do not favor about my writing, portrayal, muse(s) or views the button is always there. Please soft block to unfollow. I will do the same and quietly if it calls for it. 

PSA: Don’t call 60 Connor. He is not Connor. He is his own person. This sort of trumps the significance I have built for him as an individual entity in my characterization/ headcanons/ personal iteration in a fandom where he is overlooked. Also if you do refer to him as such verbally to his face you consent to the wrath and animosity he will bestow upon you be it verbal or potentially physical. Trust me 60 is not fond of being mistaken for his predecessor. (It’s a pet peeve and I’m sorry lol but they’re two separate people. I mean I write Connor too so bear with me.)

plots are love. let's discuss story, char relationships, just anything really. down for plotted, random prompts and memes. my dm’s are always open. if I don’t respond straight away I’m either not on at the moment or I’m just swamped in drafts. I still want you to drop in tho.

replies may take a bit. this is a hobby. if I take a while it doesn’t mean I don’t want to rp. sometimes I forget, tumblr eats my notifs or I haven’t thought up a decent reply as of yet. please be patient. I always offer the same to my rp partners. also I do get swamped in drafts and asks so this does contribute to my reply speed. TLDR: I am slow af but I want to write with you.

want to drop a thread? we all lose muse, get too busy, overwhelmed at times. it is perfectly OK. when I do thread purges I will always post an update and @ those I am keeping threads with. the number of follows I have it is just easier for me to do it this way.

shipping: will ship with chars but there are some I may turn down depending on personal preference. typically ships with another RK800/RK900 are a no. sibling, platonic, enemies is where I go. some exceptions may apply depending on verse type but his exclusive and only RK800 ship is with @rob0badge . 60 also would like platonic, friend and enemy ships to counter his romantic ships. any and all are appreciated. 

open to smut threads. 21+ very explicit at times depending on verse. 60 is ruthless. fair warning. also smut is not a requirement for romantic ships. if you’re not down for that then 60 is all about the respect of his partner’s wishes.

multiship friendly: winning rk800-60's affection is not easy in the long run. remember he is not easy to get along with. 

Shipping Additions: I WILL NOT ship cross unless it is plotted mutually between all parties. even then I will be selective about it. please respect this. multiverse is a thing and that is what my blog is. it will just be ignored. 

Content Trigger: 60 is very much ruthless despite his fall into deviancy. if you are uncomfortable with intense personalities this may not be the rp blog for you. certain themes will be highly thematic, problematic and even controversial at times. all of these will be tagged accordingly and put under read more for my followers/mutuals. he will be aggressive and hateful depending on circumstances. he is not very nice. however, the mun does not reflect this characterization and is extremely nice to followers. 60 may not share that affinity but the mun has no malicious intent. Only this ruthless boy does.

threads containing 18/21+ material always go under read more. please adhere to all warnings. some subject matter may be unsettling. remember any dark or triggering themes are NOT condoned by me irl. it just needs to be said.

Interactions: non-rp blogs, personals or those not part of current threads: DO NOT REBLOG. this is becoming a problem lately and I really don’t want to be that person but please follow this rule.If you continue to do so you will be BLOCKED. You can like my posts just fine however. In fact it’s welcome! I like to see others enjoying what I write for the ruthless king.

DBH VERSE REQUIRED: It just works better to be able to write adequately and since my muse is from this universe it’s a given. I rarely do crossovers as I feel some just do not work or fit my muse. If I do they are with main mutuals depending on fandom or personal preference.

Mutual Exclusive/RP Blogs Only: This blog is now private. If you follow me and I do the same back it means I want to interact. Otherwise assume I won’t be following back if I haven’t in a week. I have had some odd things come 60′s way and it is why this blog is locked down now.

Follows: If I follow back it means I want to interact with you. If you're a mutual and you still have not interacted with me after several weeks I WILL unfollow. This is nothing against anyone or meant to be unfair/mean spirited. The blog is an rp blog so of course I want to interact with you all. Also I do not just give free follows since this is not a personal blog. 

I would love to follow back depending but if I see no rules or somewhere that states 21 and above for the mun on your blog I won’t. I interact solely with those 21+. I myself am 28 years old. Respect this and don’t lie about your age to me. I have had people lie to me in the past and they’ve been dropped faster then you can shout “Deviant Spotted!”

I reserve the right to unfollow anyone for whatever reason including but not limited to rp politics. Ya gurl not here for rp snobbery or assumptions made. If I become uncomfortable I will soft block to unfollow quietly. I also practice block back. Meaning if I’m hardblocked (which is in anyone’s right who is uncomfortable with my content) I will hardblock back. It’s only fair and honestly it’s a lovely page taken out of one of my waifu’s books.

OOC: If you post a crap ton of ooc posts (I mean plz it’s your blog and your content is yours so go for it) I may unfollow if I cannot blacklist them properly. I mean things that aren’t rp related. This is only in extreme cases. My blog has overwhelmed me so the dash being flooded is something I want to clean up.

Replies: As I have stated in updates on this blog I am super busy and backed up. My reply speed is slower due to lots of drafts and asks. You can remind me but please don’t come at me or try to push me. Muse can be fickle. Some days I have it for a specific verse, others I have it for shorter convos or text threads. I aim to reply to everyone but keep in mind running this blog is not easy and I want it be fun for me. It’s a hobby.  When I have to worry and hide from people this is no longer that. If it continues I will drop the thread completely. Only in extreme cases. 

Pressuring: Do not come into my inbox on anon passive aggressively asking when I will reply to threads. If you honestly want to remind me like a normal person my dms are open to mutuals only. Do not guilt me into rping. If you pressure and attempt manipulating me you will be blocked. This has happened and I will not put up with it. 

Please reblog any memes/prompts from the source and not this blog. I am not an rp source or creator of these. If you continue to do this and just harvest my blog for memes without even interacting I will unfollow/block. If you reblog send me one then. If not well do not do it. non-mutuals do not reblog anything at all from this blog. Also I  have to mention some people have used me as a source WITHOUT reblogging from me. Meaning they see the meme and reblog it for themselves as a means of bypassing sending in anything. If we’re mutuals why are you doing this? It will just make me think you do not want to interact.

Asks: Do not reblog asks. Please if you wish to continue make a new post and link back to ask. It just makes my dash a little cleaner and I want to avoid extra asks in the inbox continuing it when we can turn them into convo threads. So please don’t keep sending asks to continue a plot line. Thread it.

IMPORTANT NOTE ABOUT HATE & ASSUMPTIONS: If I discover you sending hate on anon to anybody you’re gone. If you send hate to people about what they ship, especially to female muns/muses, you’re gone. I will not tolerate hate of any kind and if I see you talking negatively about any female muse I will soft block you quietly. I just do not want to interact with you. People who assume generalized posts are about them when I follow you will be softblocked as well. Honestly it’s a given that if I’m following it’s not directed at you. I will not put up with assumptions or continue to view it on my dash. Unfollow me, softblock me, etc. It’s not difficult. My comfort levels are important to me as well as yours should be.

I will not  interact with egoists. If I see anything that wigs me out I will just softblock quietly. Elitists go home. I don’t want you here. 

I will never rush or be pushy at my partners. I’m so chill about threads. please take your time. let’s never take the fun out of it. never think you’re taking too long or bothering me. DM’s are open to my mutuals only.

I do not do passwords or send messages of any kind. If I am following you rest assured that I have read your rules. I do this automatically when someone follows me and vice versa since I expect the same. If I’m liking update posts you can consider that me seeing it as well. 

unfollowing/refollowing: Don’t do it on my blog. If you follow and then unfollow but for some reason come back to follow you get blocked from my side. I don’t need the bs or the attention seeking.

Duplicates are amazing but I will be selective who I follow back and interact with. Nothing personal but I have been the victim of theft in the past. It’s an unfortunate thing but my characterization and headcanons for 60 are my own. I have been writing this boy forever even long before I made this blog. I’m highly protective of my ruthless king. He is my baby after all.

softblocks: I remove people by doing this. It could be for any reason to be honest. We never interact, you keep dropping our stuff, show no interest, I don’t see us interacting after all or any number of reasons to make my dash more comfortable. Do not ask me why I did it. That’s my comfort. No hard feelings. Just move on. I don’t have to cater to you. If you don’t like my methods use the unfollow button and leave my blog. Simple enough.

hardbocking/blacklisting: Yes I have done it. Am I going to blatantly broadcast it for all to see? Nope. I am not obligated to explain why I blocked you. Most times you have broken my rules despite me reminding to read them. Other times there are people I just do not want to see and that is my right not to see them. Same goes for you. Block me if you do not like what you see. I will not censor myself, my writing or who I interact with.

ostracizing people in the rpc: If you don’t like who I am interacting with use your blacklist function. NEVER tell me not to interact with them. If I find out you practice this exclusion tactic on others in the rpc I will purge you off my blog no questions or explanation needed. I totally get it. There are people I don’t like. No one is going to like everyone but do you see me telling others NOT to write with them? Hell no because I know for a fact they have done it to me and others love to listen without all sides to a story.

I also drop people who vague in public servers because it’s straight up childish behavior. I also will not follow or interact with anyone who guilt trips, suicide baits or lies with a pity party song and dance. When you’re found out to be lying or telling other people not to interact with somebody in this RPC I want nothing to do with you. Move on. That’s it. 

Drop a like if you made it this far. Whew! No passwords needed. Even if you don’t drop a like it won’t prevent me interacting it’s just nice to see. 

[letters-from-the-three-houses]

Your headcanons are such a delight to read! I know you wrote a little fic about them, but I'm curious about what headcanons you have about Edelgard x Dimitri! If you don't wish to do it that's fine :). How long will your requests be open for by the way?

(scenario in question for those who want to see it)

thank you so much!! i bumped this ask up in priority because i already have headcanons for dimigard (or whatever we want to call it) lying in my documents, and it’s a good question that others might be curious about. the answer’s under the read more for those who just want to read the headcanons :)

enjoy~

since dimitri’s so polite and friendly to everyone, he’s the type to listen to scammers and door-to-door merchants

he doesn’t accept their offers

but he does give them the time of day

and they’ll have a nice, long chat about whatever

sometimes it devolves into their life story

he listens long enough to the point where he can name their family and childhood pets

most of the time, they do this to gain sympathy and make him more likely to say yes (he never does)

but ever since he and edelgard got together, the shady ones have been weeded out

she glares at them behind dimitri’s back, silently saying, ‘fool him and i will break you’

so the only people that talk to him now are the genuinely nice folks

she still shakes her head every time and doesn’t understand how he can be so approachable

(it’s one of the things she likes about him though)

they’re always doing something productive

study dates are common

you can bet that even if they look like they’re ‘sitting around’

they’re doing work

that said, dimitri gets distracted all the time though bc edelgard’s really pretty when she concentrates

they disagree with each other a lot

“this works better than—”

“that’s not right because—”

“what you’re saying doesn’t make sense if—”

their perspectives clash all the time

but at the end of the day, they always compromise and move on

(except when they don’t)

(because they can get equally stubborn)

(those go on for days)

there’s no heat behind their fights though, just a respectful 'i think you’re mistaken’

it’s odd to outsiders bc it seems like they don’t get along, but it’s impressive to watch two opposite ideas mesh together

they’re not overly romantic

not even in private

but they’ve learned to pick up cues that tell them what the other is thinking

dimitri gives back hugs whenever she’s upset (she feels uncomfortable showing weakness so he’ll avoid looking at her eye-to-eye)

and edelgard comforts him with words and soft whispers (she knows he likes concrete affirmation so she becomes more direct)

their faith in each other is unwavering

“trust me”

“i already do”

it doesn’t stop them from worrying about each other in dangerous situations

but if they have each other, they think they can face whatever comes their way

[asks are open!]

question time!

in theory, they’ll always be open. the open/closed status is kind of misleading, when i think about it. i add it to the end of my posts as an invitation to talk to me/send stuff whenever, and i added it to the blog description because it was intended to soft cap the amount of asks sitting around. it’s just to make sure everyone who sends something in will get it in a timely manner (i.e. ‘closing’ the inbox would show others that i’ve got a lot on my plate and the waiting times are long)

realistically though, opening or closing requests won’t change the waiting times because i answer them first come first serve. for example:

asks are chronologically put on a list of things to do

inbox receives an ungodly amount of asks and closes

people wait for it to open (= inbox clear)

process repeats

they still wait the same amount of time to get a request done. the only difference is the pandemonium that occurs whenever the inbox is reopened

so with that in mind, i’ll change it to show the amount of asks sitting around instead! i think it’ll be fun watching the numbers change (and it might deter the more empathetic folks from sending stuff in bc they’ll see how much i have to do so they’ll feel bad about their request and therefore i’ll get less asks jk jk, don’t be shy to send stuff in even if the number is high)

i’m a full-time uni student taking 6(!!!) courses this semester though, and in conjunction with my slow writing, it does take a while for me to finish requests ;;

hopefully as we get closer to the release date, there’ll be more fe3h request blogs so the workload will spread out, but for now, we’ll have to deal with just me!

[truthofherdreams]

people can surprise you (or not)

Saturday (1)

also on ao3

Nervous, Dmitry? Never!

That is definitely not nerves twisting his stomach as he makes his way around Paris. His bike allows him not to be stuck in traffic for too long, but he feels like throwing up in his helmet every time he thinks about the events of the day for more than a second. Mainly, yes, how he’s going to meet Anya’s family today, and how he thought it was a fabulous idea last night. It was probably the wine talking, or the desperation not to lose her to his bullshit.

At least he doesn’t have to do any of this during the weekend. The email awaiting him in his inbox this morning was but a few lines long, straight to the point: his colleague got dumped last night (surprising) and the assignment is on pause until he can find another victim. Which, as awful as it sounds, is quite the relief for Dmitry. He doesn’t have to act like an arsehole in front of her entire family and can actually enjoy a weekend by Anya’s side, without anything getting in the way.

Anything but the fact that he’s meeting her family, and they might all know how much of a douche he’s been since they met. Dmitry is an only child, but he can only imagine what the combined wrath of three different sisters looks like and, well, it’s not pretty. He’s actually scared for his life, to be honest.

His worries fly away when he finds Anya on the side of the road, already waiting for him. She has a bag at her feet and her sunglasses on her nose, and she grins when he parks next to her. Dmitry is weak; he grins back.

“That’s not a lot,” he comments with a nod toward the very small bag she’s packed.

“How high maintenance do you think I am?” she shots back. A beat. “I have some clothes at my sister’s, okay.”

He grins again, before he pops open the trunk of his bike. His own overnight bag is small too – it’s only two days, he just needs a change of clothes and his toothbrush – so they don’t have to fight for space in the trunk. He hands her the second helmet then, and types the address on his GPS.

“I could give you directions, you know.”

“Not really doable on a bike,” he replies as he checks that her helmet is secured on her head. “You’d lose your voice before we even make it to the Périph.”

She pouts but doesn’t disagree, so Dmitry hops on the bike and lets her sit behind him. His breath hitches in his throat when she wraps her arms around his chest, so close to him despite his heavy leather jacket.

The journey takes a good hour and a half, taking them outside of Paris and into the countryside. Dmitry has to admit he’s not used to that kind of environment – from Petersburg to Lyon to Paris, he’s only ever known the buzzing life and noise of big cities, the restlessness and the bright lights. He might actually see the stars tonight; he can’t remember when it last happened.

One country road after another until they enter a small village in the middle of nowhere. It doesn’t quite look like the postcards of quirky little villages you see in souvenirs shops, but it has enough of a charm for Dmitry to understand why anyone would like to move away from the city for this. It’s not his style, but he understands, especially with how pretty Olga’s cottage looks, with its garden running all around the house. There even is a house in a tree and a set of swings for the children; a dream come true if there ever was any.

Anya excitedly gets rid of her helmet, and Dmitry does so too before he trades it for both their bags. He follows her to the front door; she doesn’t knock, simply enters like she owns the place. A child yells her name from across the living room, throwing himself at her into a hug, and she laughs as she squeezes him tightly.

“Auntie Nastya! Auntie Nastya! It’s my birthday today!”

“I knooow,” she cooes happily. “You’re such a big boy now!”

The boy must not be older than six, not that Dmitry knows anything about those things, one front teeth missing and unruly hair falling in front of his blue eyes. He looks up at Dmitry curiously, before tapping Anya’s arm softly. “Is that your boyfriend?” he asks in a stage whisper.

Anya only laughs. “Yeah. That’s Dmitry. He likes video games too.”

The boys grins happily, to which Dmitry only replies by an awkward wave of his hand. He’s saved from any other interaction with the child by a woman coming to greet them. Her hair is slightly darker than Anya’s but, with her features and the striking blue eyes they all seem to be sharing, there is no denying the fact that they are sisters.

“Nico, your manners! You could at least let them enter the house!” The boy offers his mother an innocent grin, before he runs away. She rolls her eyes even as she hugs Anya, then turns to Dmitry with a smile. “So this is the boyfriend,” she comments in a teasing voice.

Anya groans loudly. “Don’t even…”

“Oh I can and I will, Malenkaya!” She grins even more as she focuses back on Dmitry. “I’m Olga, nice to meet you. Want anything to drink?”

He shakes her hand, thrown off for a second or two. “Dmitry. A beer would be fine.”

“Straight away. Please, make yourself at home. God knows Nastya does.”

Anya groans one more time, even louder than before, and that finally gets a snort from Dmitry. He is not familiar with that kind of sibling banter himself but, from what he’s seen of Alexei too, it seems to be common practice for the Romanovs. This new aspect of Anya’s life fascinates him more than he cares to admit. She seems at ease in this house, closing the door behind her and throwing their bags in a corner before she leads him to the living room.

Everything is high windows and natural lights, with a big toy chest in a corner and family pictures everywhere. Even though Anya told him they grew up in their Nana’s hôtel particulier in Paris, Dmitry has a feeling that this, right there, is the family’s headquarters now.

“Bitter or lager, your beer, Dmitry?” Olga asks from the kitchen.

“Lager, please,” he answers dutifully.

It takes him a few seconds to notice Anya is silent and, when he turns around to check on her, it’s to find her staring at a massive backpack in a corner of the room. The kind that speaks of months trekking through the wilderness. “Olga?” she asks, her voice tense. “Is Tanya in town?”

Olga pops her head through the open door leading to the kitchen, a mischievous smile on her lips. “She came back last night. She’s at the corner shop buying…”

Whatever she’s buying, one may never know, for Anya’s scream of happiness is louder than anything else. She doesn’t need more to run out of the house, slamming the door behind her. Dmitry blinks at the space where she was standing a few seconds ago, lost and confused.

When Olga comes to his side, she’s holding out a beer for him. “Tatiana works for Doctors Without Borders,” she explains. “She hasn’t been home since Christmas.”

“Must be tough,” he comments, before taking a sip of his beer.

“It is. We were both part of it, but it got too much for me. I met my husband in Cambodia so it’s not all bad, but… We wanted to build a family, so we came back. Tanya, she likes the job more than I ever did. She likes to feel like she does something that really matters, you know?”

“Sounds familiar,” he answers with a smile.

Olga laughs. “Yeah. My little sisters sure want to save the world. Now, come, I need help preparing everything for the aperitif.”

Which is how Dmitry finds himself in the kitchen, cutting cheese into small cubes and chatting with Olga. The same topics that always come back between two Russian expats -- where they are from and the current political climate and don’t you just really miss vatrushkas? Considering everything, Olga is quite nice to him. Dmitry wonders if it’s hiding something, or Anya simply didn’t tell them what happened. Which would be weird, since they all seem to be so close, and surely Maria would have, if not Anya? It leaves Dmitry is a perpetual state of confusion.

The front door opens again, this time follows by the excited chatter and loud laughs between two women. They barge in the kitchen, the oldest and tallest of the two proudly slamming a brick of milk on the counter. Once again, it is obvious she comes from the same Romanov mold, even with her auburn hair and her eyes a slightly darker shade of blue. When they land on Dmitry, they are hard and unforgiving, and he immediately changes his mind about not being in trouble.

“The boyfriend,” Tatiana comments. Then, glancing at Anya, “I thought he would be taller.”

“Everyone is tall according to Nastya,” Olga jokes.

Anya throws her arms up in the air. “Is it going to be like this all weekend long?”

Both her older sisters over her twin grins, before Olga wraps an arm around her shoulders to hold her close. “That’s what happens when you bring a boy home. We make sure it’s as embarrassing as possible for you.”

“Wait until we show him the family albums too,” Tatiana adds.

“I hate you both. So much.”

Olga kisses her cheek soundly. “No you don’t, but thanks for trying.”

Dmitry looks between the three of them, confused and overwhelmed. He was nowhere near prepared for the hurricane that is more than two Romanovs together, that is for sure, no matter how adorable Anya is as the bratty little sister.

Thankfully for him, Olga’s mother senses must be tickling, because she notices his awkwardness straight away, and redirect everyone to the patio. Dmitry grabs his beer and the bowl of cheese cubes he just cut, before he follows them outside for drinks. It takes him a good fifteen minutes before he finally finds it in himself to relax and take part in the conversation. He learns that Olga’s oldest child is at a slumber party until tomorrow, and her husband working the Saturday shift at the hospital, which only leaves Nico running around and stealing snacks from his aunts.

The kid already is on a sugar rush, and his birthday party only starts in the afternoon, which leaves little to the imagination as to the kind of mess this is going to be. Especially because the party is at some kind of tree-climbing adventure course, something that doesn’t sound particularly safe to Dmitry but. Olga’s the mom. She knows better.

“So we have the house all to ourselves?” Anya asks, lying back in her garden chair and wiggling her eyebrows.

“First, gross,” Olga comments with a laugh. “But yeah, pretty much.”

“I’m meeting with Maria in town,” Tatiana adds. “We’ll only be back for lunch tomorrow.”

Anya blinks at her sister, barely able to hide her surprise. “Maria convinced you to go clubbing?”

Tatiana shrugs, before she takes another sip of her rosé. “Don’t act so surprised. I’m fun.”

“Your kind of fun involves books and traveling to the other side of the world,” Olga points out.

“Sounds like tons of fun to me,” Dmitry chimes in.

The look Tatiana offers him in unreadable, before she smiles. “See? Even BuzzClick here knows what’s right.”

He tips his beer to her, and winks at Anya when she laughs. Dmitry doesn’t even register people making fun of his job anymore -- it’s not like they’re wrong after all, and not like he’s going to do it for much longer anyway. It would be a waste of time to take offense, at this point.

Once their drinks are finished, Olga goes back to the kitchen to cook lunch -- steaks and a salad, nothing fancy, she says -- and she shows Dmitry to the bathroom. He stares at himself in the mirror for long seconds while he washes his hand, taking a deep breath before he runs his wet fingers through his hair to comb it back a little. It makes even more of a mess than anything else, but oh well.

He almost has a heart attack when Tatiana corners him against the wall as he gets out.

“We need to talk,” she tells him, voice and eyes hard. He has to admit, he’d almost believed he was safe, now, and he was terribly wrong. “My siblings are the kindest souls on the planet, and they take it from our father. But I am my mother’s daughter, you see.”

Dmitry swallows hard, and nods. She scares him into silence, leaning against the wall and listening intently to every word out of her mouth. He has the feeling than trying to make a case for himself would only upset her even more, so he lets her do her thing.

“My family has been through some deep shit, and Nastya? She may pretend she’s happy and carefree all the time, but she’s not. We’ve all been suffering. And I won’t let some loser journalist take advantage of my little sister just because she’s kind and smiling and beautiful.” She takes a step close, her fingers poking into his chest, and Dmitry cowers against the wall a little bit more. “So let me be really clear with you. If I hear that you’ve hurt her again, or you’re playing games, or whatever happened this week, well… Just be aware than I know at least five different techniques to kill someone and make it look like natural causes. Do we understand each other?”

His eyes wide and throat dry, Dmitry can only nod his agreement.

A sigh of relief escapes him, once Tatiana nods too and goes back to the kitchen. He doesn’t even blame her for it but… “Jesus,” he mutters.

[graciecatfamilyband]

To the reviewer of Just A Little of that Human Touch on AO3 who wrote:

YES YES YES to your portrayal of Alderaan as a liberal feminist society with sex education and Leia being a crusader of that! THIS feels real. THIS feels like the kind of society Breha Organa and Leia by extension would have cultivated. 

I already thanked you for your review, but I wanted to add (and the comment box on AO3 didn’t feel like it was the right place to do so)-

A lot of time we fanfic authors borrow from Earth and its history as we conceptualize societies in the GFFA. There's a lot of fun royal customs that people like to explore in relation to Alderaan. A lot of us grew up reading about the British monarchy and other European monarchies (what can I say, a lot of us are nerds! Raise your hands if you read those Royal Diaries books growing up? Other historical fiction dealing with this stuff? How many we got in the house?), and that seems to have inspired a lot of Alderaanian customs in fic, which is cool!  

Personally I'm interested in how Alderaan as a matriarchal planet with at least a traditionally female power structure (although I like headcanons that Alderaan moved long ago towards a real gender equality model rather than actually denying men opportunities, including to rule!) might differ from a lot of the patriarchal monarchies in our Western history. Virginity and female-centered sexual purity focus makes a lot more sense when the heir of the throne needs to be related to the King (and the heir of any given family needs to be related to the father); much less so when traditionally the heir needs to be related to the Queen (and the heir of any given family related to the mother- if Alderaan even has such a concept of family heirs!). And then of course with Leia's open adoption (in the sense that the people know about it- and I think they must because she is not the same ethnicity as her parents, although I've seen some takes on it where its like an open/fake secret that work well), that seems to indicate modern-day Alderaan may not give an F about biological lineage anyway. Which I think also says some things about the society and how it views sex and reproduction. 

That, combined with our knowledge of Alderaan as a place that puts such a high degree of value on education (and a good sexual education is an important part of ensuring people have access to all those other kinds of higher education, as babies too early really can make that so much harder) as well as the value the society places on art and, in my head canon at least, the well-being of children (parents having children too early is also associated with very poor outcomes for children; parents having unstable or abusive relationships also is associated with very poor outcomes for children)- well, it just makes sense to me that Alderaan would care deeply about good sexual education that involves, as Leia said, not just contraception but things like healthy relationship skills. Important elements that are too often left out of a discussion of practices that take place in the context of relationships! 

So yes, I agree that this approach seems to fit Bail and Breha’s personalities well (and Leia’s for that matter!), but also think that this is the kind of society that likely shaped those personalities, you know? 

And of course Leia never shies away from pushing envelopes galaxy-wide, and supporting such an organization would (hopefully- although fascist regimes get weird about this sort of thing!) be a way for her to advocate for something she believes in that is valuable, and, while pushing the envelope, actually do-able (as opposed to openly advocating for overthrowing the Empire).

I received an anon message about how I was ruining Star Wars and Star Wars fanfiction with my naked sociopolitical agenda, and how its absurd to apply Earth morality to Star Wars in- any? such a?- way. At the time I didn’t want to post it, but it seems relevant to mention here. Honestly, what “hurts”- other than the fact that someone felt the need to go out of their way to share this opinion with me without signing their name- is that it implies I have no “legitimate” thought process behind this choice for the story. I believe that I have sound reasons why I think Alderaan was this way. Sure, it’s in line with my own points of view- but that’s in part because I think Alderaan is intended by George Lucas to be a beacon of democratic values under a repressive regime, and a symbol of all that is nurturing in the Galaxy, and to me that fits with these ideas. Other people may disagree with my interpretation of Alderaan, as well as how democratic values and a value placed on life would translate into sexual mores. Other people do disagree, and write it differently! That’s fine. But I don’t feel that I’m drawing it out of nowhere. And as usual, this is only a critique when the Earth morality we’re drawing from is “progressive”- no one feels the need to go into the inbox of authors who wrIte about Alderaanian courtiers planning to check Leia’s hymen before her wedding night to tell them not to project specific Earth cultural practices onto the GFFA.  Their incorporation of Earth history is seen as well thought-out, valuable, and detailed world-building; mine is considered a cheap trick. 

And no one should go bother those writers either! Their stories have something to offer, just as I believe mine does. (And I know fanfiction is free, amateur authors, blah blah blah- but honestly, fanfiction being free isn’t the primary reason to behave supportively and decently toward people who make themselves available on the internet. Sure, you can post a negative review of Claudia Gray’s books on your own blog- and sure, you really should not do that with fanfiction, because its unnecessarily mean for people who hare having fun in their free time and doing what’s meaningful to them- but its still rude to go to Claudia Gray directly and tell her she’s ruining Han and Leia, or Star Wars, or how much you hated her stuff! Direct-to-author contact should always be polite, whatever the context.) I believe strongly that everyone should be able to bring whats interesting and meaningful to them to the stories they want to tell in fanfiction, and I personally think there should be room for both approaches!

From my perspective, there has been a lot of handwringing lately about fanfic being ruined by “overly political” agendas and about authors (mis?)using Han and Leia to work out “ideas about female empowerment.” (Although perhaps that perspective is colored by the anon message!) I’d be lying if I said that didn’t dull my enthusiasm about writing Han and Leia, period- no matter how light or fluffy or smutty or “divorced from real-life”. Because even if my past pieces are not considered to fall into that category, that atmosphere makes me feel stifled, like I’m no longer writing for me but like I’m writing to prove that I am still valuable in this community by coloring in the right lines. So while the entire bones of the story were written in August, as I “colored it in”, it did come to include more sociopolitical elements than I originally conceived of it having. I only did so in ways, however, that I felt enhanced the human story at the core, rather than took away from it. They came to me naturally, organically, as the story unfolded, rather than me sitting back and trying to find places to jam them in. Another kind reviewer whose words are etched in my heart noted that “it's all the details that really make it, that tell the story,” and while she was referring to things like body language, I like to think that these details were no less a part of that, and added to rather than drew from the story. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have included them. People may of disagree about whether or not I succeeded, and its possible that my own skill deficit was part of that! But, while I may have failed, I don’t like the idea that they couldn’t have been included in such a story in a way that was relevant. 

I do affectionately like to think of this- even if I am being somewhat tongue-in-cheek/ironic- as my “political screed” fic, because a) I recognized upfront that I was powerless to stop it from being taken that way, even if I took out every possibly “political” element, simply because it involved Leia having previous partners; b) it’s as “political” as I think I’m capable of getting, which is to say (to me)- not very!  its a story about the characters above everything, so it gave me a chuckle to call it political; c) it was a way to prepare myself for a comment like the one I received, which I thought was probably inevitable; and d) it was my way of proving to myself that I did not need to live in fear of writing a “wrong” fic and being tossed out on my ass. I can continue to write whatever is meaningful to me and take whatever response I get. If many people don't want to read it but are still down to read my other stuff, that’s great! If some people don’t want a voice like mine around at all, its better that I know that now rather than worrying about it for the next eight months before finally gathering the courage to publish a prompt I promised to write for a friend, and having my heart broken all over again after spending a lot of time and energy mending it.

And honestly, the overall response has just been so heartening. So many people have recognized it as fundamentally a story about Han and Leia connecting with each other and it just warms me to my toes to hear that it resonated. The recipient who it was for was thrilled to see some of her own headcanons included too, so I feel like I’ve done my job and gained a meaningful writing experience (that prompt- “and we never talked after that”- was really hard to right a nice, hopeful Han/Leia story for!).

So thanks, dear reviewer(s), and I hope I added something interesting to your comments about Alderaan!  💚💙💚💙