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inferablossom · 1 year

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Only Emil could talk about falling in love with a girl in a way that somehow makes him sound more gay than before.

He first starts talking about meeting this girl, his "Beatrice" right after leaving off talking about how he's salty about how when he tried to write to Demian he never heard back. When describing Beatrice he repeatedly refers to her as having boyish features. When he tries to paint her the first attempts fail, and when he finally does end up succeeding at painting a face that "pleased him", he realizes it looks like Demian. And then, despite the influence over his life he claims she's had on him, he gets so caught up in musing over the painting and thinking and dreaming over Demian that he completely forgets about her.

#demian #emil sinclair #max demian #beatrice #demian chapter 4 #I know the painting has more meaning than what I've stated #and that there can be other reasons why he struggled to portray Beatrice #but put on top of how he doesn't get involved with girls like his rowdy friends do #even though he lets them drag him into alcohol smoking and all other kinds of vices #and the way he's got such a strong and intense friendship with Max Demian #who's clearly had a powerful influence on him and who he repeatedly longs for over the course of the book #it just makes you go 🤔🏳️‍🌈

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