#and then i didnt color it because i spent a day and a half on the armor and was ready to be Done

[nyankoizumi]

He's making sure dice's sacrifice isn't in vain (or so he claims)

[pikkish]

Idk if you do davoth but if you do, could you draw him in a fighting stance? If not just doomguy dancing pls :)

In theory I don't mind drawing Davoth, I just have a hard time getting his tattoos down decently.

[gamblersdoll]

hakari doesn’t necessarily get hard to anything.

but something about buying you luxury clothes or just buying you things to wear in general is a huge turn on for him. because imagine, he buys you a nice dress that matches his hair and it fits you so snug. sure it was a pricey dress (that most people would say, whatever he spent he always got it back within a day.) but something about seeing you in it makes his dick half hard.

or when you wear his jacket, seeing how youre small in it, but you still look like heaven to him. when he catches you hes ready to go.

or just in expensive lingerie, he makes himself restrained, because he didnt buy it to rip it off you. but it was so so tempting.

so when he sees you in your pretty dress at his club, just coming to drop off food for him, he’s interested in pulling up your dress and eating you out.

“look so fuckin pretty mama.”

“shit, taste even better, too.”

“you wore the set that i bought you last valentines? you tryna get knocked up?”

“uh uh. pretty pussies get my attention, fuck that lil bet, imma win anyway.”

“you like that? yeah?”

and when you mention hes ruining your dress by eating you too much and have you creaming on him:

“ill buy you a new one in each color you want.”

“oh well, you look too good not to ruin.”

“yeah, after this lemme take you to the drug store.”

hakari just loved when you wear what he buys you, because you were his babydoll.

[indras-wife]

Itsao-mine requested: “Can i request sasuke with uzumaki female s/o headcanon? But instead of uzumaki s/o, please make her half uzumaki uchiha. Thank you!”

Hi again cutie. Thank you for the request. It took me ages again to complete this request but yay its finally up. Sasuke isnt a character I write much about but I hope this is what you wanted. I decided to have his family alive in this one cause he deserves something good🎀 Your other request is coming too so stay tuned💖

Sasuke rarely noticed people he was studying with in the Academy. His team was the only exception where he was talking with them and acknowledging their existence. This however changes when one day he meets a girl his age in the academy. She was wearing the Uchiha crest but her chakra was different from his.

He slowly took interest in her, trying to understand what was up with her, and why her chakra was so different from his. When he realised that his investigation was leading nowhere he asked his older brother for help, to which Itachi easily agreed. Sasuke found out that she is actually a mix between two powerful clans, Uchiha and Uzumaki. Her father was a member of the Uchiha clan, while her mother was Uzumaki. Y/n, despite being Uchihas, had the red hair color which was a signature of Uzumaki.

Their first communication happened when both of them and their teams were sent to a mission together. Being from powerful clans, both of them were teamed together to aid their teammates in case an enemy attacked them. Sasuke found Y/n not only strong but also pretty. It surprised him because he hardly cared about girls but Y/n had some charisma and unexplainable power that was pulling Sasuke in. After the mission was completed, other members of both teams found it very interesting how both Uchihas communicated with one another even outside the mission. It was not a common thing to see since they both were what you would call ‘anti-social’.

Sasuke and Y/n started meeting and talking more when they had no missions. Both of their families were actually happy that the kids found common ground and made friends. They would train together too with Y/n trying to teach Sasuke some jutsus she learnt from her mother’s side. This would strengthen their bond even more than they expected. However this would not last long.

After some years both of them grew little apart as they had different paths in mind to follow. Sasuke became a member of the Uchiha Police, while Y/n honored her Uzumaki side and spent years training. Her mother was her role model and she wanted to do anything to make her proud. Sasuke and Y/n met in the village when Y/n was shopping. He recognised her instantly thanks to her hair color. It grew even longer than he remembered and Sasuke always loved her hair(as much as he wont admit it). As Y/n noticed him too they started talking with one another, reminiscing old times. Since Sasuke was on duty they agreed to meet after a few days and go for a walk.

Y/n was frankly happy to talk to him after such a long time of no contact. He grew taller and even more attractive. He was always attractive but now for some reason he seemed more in her eyes. She picked a beautiful dress with some comfortable short heels to wear for the walk. While she was getting ready, Sasuke was already on his way to her house. He was eager to see her, considering he didn't see her for years.

Their walk was full of interesting conversations, remembering about their younger years and both sharing about their experiences as they were away. Their meeting helped them understand that both of their presence was not inly pleasant but also needed. Both Uchihas shared a lot in common, and it kept bringing them closer. Sasuke tried to spend more time with Y/n, and Y/n was happy for it to happen.

Their friendship slowly progressed to a more romantic bond. They didnt needs words to understand the feeling each was experiencing was mutual. Their friendship changed to a romantic one in a single day, as Sasuke referred to her as his girlfriend.

Sasuke, as surprising as it was for others, preferred her company more than loneliness. They would have many dates, going out of the village together, even taking missions together. They knew about each other, their weakness,what they desired in life, what made them blush, what made them happy and many other things. Sasuke and Y/n were quickly becoming a famous couple in the village and everyone were waiting for the final moment: marriage.

[bobacupcake]

compilation of things i did in the 4 years before we started dating and i realized that i had a massive crush on my best friend the entire time. keep in mind that despite all of these things i was still in denial that i had a crush on her the entire time

privately swore off dating anyone for the rest of my life because i didnt want someone in my life to be more important to me than she was (like not subconsciously. this was something i actively told myself)

got jealous of a 12 year old who confessed to her through miiverse on splatoon

youve heard of kindating but i did the opposite. any time she liked a character i always ended up liking the character that was romantically involved with that character even if they were nothing like me. drew fanart of us as these characters along with all our friends. actively hated ships that involved shipping those two characters with any characters that werent eachother

any time she Wasnt into a media i was into , my favorite character would almost always end up being the one that reminded me of her. there werent a lot of these because the majority of things i decided to get into were because she got into them

spent like half an hour one day looking at pictures of her with a focus on looking at her lips . came to the conclusion that yeah of course id be ok with not getting to kiss her but only if no one else got to do it

had three dreams where i kissed her. one of them we got married. two of these dreams were semi lucid dreams and the reason i kissed her was because i realized i was dreaming, went, "oh! i can do whatever i want!" and kissed her in the dream

talked enough about her enough at school that the entire marching band knew about her. and also were all convinced i was in love with her

got a little purple plastic ring and tied it to my shoelace because her favourite color is purple and i wanted a reminder that she was always with me. then got a matching homestuck necklace with her and always wore that. then got a pin of her favourite cucumber quest character and always wore that.just as a reminder she was alawys with me . i would break the rules sneak it under my marching band uniform so that i could keep wearing it when we preformed at competitions and stuff. literally would not go anywhere without that pin some where on my person

every new pokemon game i would always have her favorite pokemon on my team and name her after her. absolutely maxed out friendship and affection im talking luxury ball soothe bell massage nonstop attention in pokemon amie any time fullness or enjoyment dropped. walking into the elite four with a level 80 litwick with the rest of my team at level 60 (her favorite pokemon turned out to actually be pikachu)

when we started meeting in real life i would start like. timing my haircuts so my hair would be the perfect length when i visited her. get bath bombs for the first time in my life and use them the night before flying. spend like 2 hours letting my conditioner set in the night before to maximize how soft my hair would be (this was futile as airplanes always ruin my hair but i kept doing it anyways). use lip balm for some reason (literally did not use lip balm at any other time in my life)

anyways that went on for 4 and a half years telling myself and everyone around me that yeah this is normal we are just bestfriends :) i do not secretly have the biggest crush known to mankind on her

[roughcass]

wrio x reader fluff & angst

inspired by an old message from a friend about me and it was one of the most poetic lines that destroyed me. enjoy !

music entered your ears and went out the other, you can't even recall what time it was when you last left your bed. the love of your life, or so you thought, and yourself ended things. nothing felt right anymore and simply the world felt duller. its been two days, and it was spent mourning a soul that wasn't even dead. just gone.

the fight was nothing like anything of you guys had experienced before. it definitely was not the first fight you guys have had, but dating for almost a year its bound to happen. they have all been over silly mundane things due to high tensions that get worked out by the end of the night. you did something illegal to protect what you believed was an innocent person. you were right at the end of the day, but you colored out of the lines with your boyfriend who should have thrown you in jail for it. perhaps it was just the stress of a high case getting to him, even though he'd never admit that.

your friend, navia, dragged you out of your bed and made you get ready to go on a walk. what would that do? probably nothing, but she knew you needed a distraction and at that moment nothing was more beautiful to you than a friend who wouldnt give up on you. half an hour, of course it was fates dark design that you'd run into him. he hadn't seen you before you ducked behind the wall you just came from. no way in hell you could pass him. how were you supposed to walk by pretending he was still a stranger?

there he sat, next to sigewinnie sipping tea at the outside part of a restaurant. his eyes looked more tired, but maybe you just made it up because you hoped it was hurting him as much it was you. "its been two days, i guess i could of phoned her." wrio starts. the heartbeat inside your chest increases as you easedrop, navia behind you listening in.

"i said some of the worst things i have ever said before, all to her. it was a heat of the moment thing, ya know? i dont think she understood i wasnt mad at her, not once.. i was mad at myself, actually. she had to break the law - the one i enforce - just because i didnt listen to her when she told me that guy was innocent. because of my foolishness she had to cross lines, and i had to lose her." a long pause followed. it seemed sigewinne was out of earshot

"i really did lose sight of what was important, and it was her."

"now, she may never forgive me. and i'm willing to accept that, i just want the best for her. if i could change anything it surely would be the fighting that night. it was only too late when i decided to listen to her point of view, and i hurt her because of it. i was stubborn as fuck, and i'll always listen to her if she needs a shoulder to cry on. i'll always be here for her, even if she wants nothing to do with me."

[louscartridge]

dating rachel roth hdcns

rachel roth x gn reader

a/n- ngl i kinda gave up on proof reading like half way through so my bad lol. also i say ‘or’ ‘you guys’ ‘whall’ (thats not a fucking word sky stop saying it stupid) ‘and’ and a shit ton of other words in this alot and im aware its annoying so once again. my bad.

cw- established relasionship, arguments, fluff, cuddling, using of ‘i love you’, rachel having a hard time expresing her emotions, reader has powers (breifly mentiond), jellousy, crying, jason and hank being asses, gar being your +1, fighting (titans), back scratches, idk is some 11 year old fr gonna come for me if i dont say evreything? fuck off.

-on your first official date you guys watched old cartoons

-when it started getting late you switched to horror movies

- when you switched to horror, you watched them correctly. in the dark. no lights, other then what was coming from the tv.

-both yours and rachels favorite food, snacks and drinks were there

-rachel is really touch starved, so as soon as you guys started dating, she started being really touchy

-shes a very cuddly and physically affectionate person

-her favorite cuddling positions are; spooning, facing each other holding hands, and her laying on your lap whall you play with her hair

-she doesnt really know how to talk about how she feels about you, without her thinking it sounds ‘cheesy’ or something, so shell just stick to you and hope you get what shes saying without saying it (you do)

-despite that, she does say 'i love you' all the time

-speaking of which, she said 'i love you' first

-you guys were having an argument

-you were mad at jason cause he kept 'flirting' with rachel 

-she got mad because she felt like you didnt trust her

-"even if he was flirting with me, i wasent flirting with him! and you should trust me enough that i wouldnt and dont want him."

-she got worried that you were gonna leave

-"wait! no y/n dont go please i love you-"

-you were surprised she stated verbal affection

-you smiled and slowly walked towards her

-she was still crying

-you whispered "i love you too rachel" whall stroking her cheek bones with your thumbs and kissed her

-you spent the rest of the day cuddling eachother with a book, whispering 'i love you's and other reissuances 

-jason and hank would always nag you, gar, and rachel all the time 

-"wait whos dating who again?" - jason

-"i think theyre just all dating each other" - hank

-you guys didnt think it was the worrrst thing ever-

-both of you love to wear each others clothes

-when dick does the laundry, he sometimes doesnt know whos clothes are who

-"hey rach, is this yours or y/n's?" 

-"mhmm doesnt matter, itll end up being worn by both of us either way."

-you would match your hair color with each other sometimes

-sometimes with gar too

-adjusting rachels jewelry all the time

-when your holding hands sometimes youll realize that the clasp of her bracelet is in the front or something 

-"that tickles! what are you doing?"

-"im fixing your bracelet"

-youll do it with her necklaces too

-if shes cooking or just walking around the house or whenever you happen to notice it you walk up to her and turn her necklace so the clasp is in the back and/or the charm or whatever is in the middle.

-after a while she knows what your doing, so when you walk up to her, she just stops walking or whatever and looks at you with a slight smile on her face as you shift it

-on the subject of jewelry, she definitely gets you guys matching jewelry for your anniversary

-or your birthday 

-or if she sees them in the store or something and likes them shell suprise you with them.

-mall.dates.

-just walking around the mall whether its window shopping or you actually get stuff -your guys' second date was actually at the mall

-dick gave rachel money and told you guys to have a break and hang out -dick and the rest of the titans took care of any fights or anything that went down that day

-a few of your mall dates tho you guys had to be dragged away for a fight -gar 'third wheeling' alot

-although he says 'you guys are good with making me feel....less- more un-third wheely'

-back scratches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-whenever she has a rough day controlling her powers

-or you guys had a hard day with fighting as titans

-at the end of the day you would give each other back scratches

-music would be playing the entire time

-the two of you would alternate, taking turns sitting on the edge of the bed and getting back scratches

-you and rachel would end up falling asleep on each other

-you were at the edge of the bed and she was slumped against you, arms semi draped over your shoulders

-dick and kory are your guys' biggest shippers

-shipped you guys before you even got together

-forehead kisses. all.the.time.

-from both of you

-you love giving them

-she loves giving them

-whenever you guys are sitting on a couch or next to each other or something like that she likes to run her fingers up and down your spine

-in the beginning of your relationship you argued kinda often because she was scared she was gonna hurt you so she tried to push you away

-once she learned that you have powers too, she felt a little better

ok im so sorry this is so much ill shut up now.

[q-gorgeous]

Static Downpour

fanfiction

ao3

word count: 1106

Danny has a strong fear of lightning. @tourettesdog

this is a no one knows au but i didnt find anywhere to put that info in the fic

Dash remembered when he and Danny used to be friends.

They were the best of friends. They used to play together all the time. They’d play with legos at Dash’s house, and then they’d build space rockets when they were at Danny’s. They spent so much time together that their parents joked about how they were inseparable. 

One of their favorite things they used to do was watch as the thunderstorm clouds would roll in. They liked watching as the sky turned colors and how it got so dark even while it was still the middle of the day. They’d listen to the thunder and try to guess how far away it was when it boomed in the air throughout the city.

But the lightning was their favorite part. They loved watching it shoot down to wherever it would land. The way it would branch out from its main course, covering a good chunk of the sky before it immediately disappeared. They loved all of it. They thought it was so cool. 

So what happened to make Danny so afraid of lightning? 

They were sitting on the comfy couch in the library. Neither of them wanted to forfeit their half of the couch and so they wordlessly decided to share it. Dash could see Danny watching the rain hit the window quietly. But then Dash saw a flash of lightning out of the corner of his eye.

Danny jumped out of his seat, nearly falling onto the floor. When Dash looked at him in confusion, Danny was holding a hand to his chest, his eyes wide as he stared out the window. He looked like he was pretty close to hyperventilating. 

What had happened to make him jump like that? Dash had wondered. There wasn’t anything particularly scary happening right now. Maybe if the wind was going a little faster and the tornado sirens went off, that’d be kind of scary. But today was just an average, ghost free day. 

Another flash of lightning lit up the clouds outside and Danny jumped again. He was definitely hyperventilating now. 

It must be the lightning, he had thought. But why? What changed about it? 

Danny had left after that. Dash didn’t know where he went. Maybe he went to go find a spot to sit in that wasn’t right next to the windows. Or maybe he was cutting school again just like he always seemed to be doing these days. 

Dash thought it was his fault. Maybe Danny hated watching thunderstorms now. Maybe it just reminded him of his best friend turned bully. 

But that still seemed like it was such a strong reaction, to be so badly afraid of something just because it was associated with someone he didn’t like anymore. 

It wasn’t until Dash had seen Phantom one night that he understood. 

Phantom was sitting in an alleyway on his own. Dash had stumbled across him just to find the ghost crying on the ground as he tried to nurse his own wound. His head shot up when he heard the sound of gravel under Dash’s shoes, a panicked look in his eyes. 

A bright flash lit up the alley and a ring appeared around Phantom’s waist. This wasn’t a move he had ever seen Phantom use before. It wasn’t ever used in battles against the other ghosts. It split just a little bit, revealing a white tshirt between two rings before they melded back to one. Whatever it was, it looked like Phantom was struggling to hold it back. He didn’t want it to happen.

Dash walked further into the alley and knelt on the ground next to Phantom. He told him how he’d do anything to help, whatever he needed.

Phantom’s expression seemed to change. It went from fear to something that looked sort of like resignation and relief. He stopped struggling and finally let the rings pass over him. 

Danny Fenton sat there on the ground in front of Dash, holding the wound on his stomach. It started to seep through the white fabric of his tshirt. 

He decided right there that it didn’t matter what had happened between him and Danny. Sitting right there in front of him was both his hero and his childhood best friend. He needed help right now and Dash was the only one around to give it. 

Dash gingerly picked Danny up and held him to his chest. He was going to take Danny to his house to get him patched up. Dash had a pretty big first aid kit in his room. He should have enough in there to help Danny.

He started jogging down the streets. He didn’t want to run too fast with Danny injured, but he had to hurry. He didn’t know how long it took to bleed out but Danny didn’t seem to be doing too great already. 

That was when the first drops of rain started falling. They landed in Dash’s hair and hit him in the face. It helped to cool him down, but it was getting hard to see when it quickly turned into a downpour. 

They were almost to Dash’s house when the first bolt of lightning flashed across the sky right above their heads. He could feel Danny jump in his arms even before the thunder boomed in the sky. Danny clutched a hand in the fabric of Dash’s shirt and flinched again when another bolt of lightning appeared. 

Dash finally reached his house. He struggled to get his key out of his pocket while holding Danny but finally managed to jab it into the doorknob. 

He quietly opened up the door and crept up their stairs, listening to make sure the snoring that came from the living didn’t stop. He made it up to his room and shut the door behind him and locked it. He set Danny down on his bed and pulled the first aid kit out from underneath it. 

He started cleaning the wound and applying disinfectant to it. Danny didn’t flinch as he cleaned it, but he did flinch every time a flash of lightning shone through Dash’s curtains. 

After wrapping gauze around Danny’s stomach, he sat back and took a deep breath. He was still immensely curious about what happened that made Danny so afraid of lightning. There’d be no better time than now to ask.

“You used to love watching the lightning when we were kids. What happened?”

Danny took a deep breath and held up his hand. The faint remnants of a lichtenberg scar ran from his hand up his arm and under his shirt.

“It’s how I died.”

[lunararcade]

funny childhood memories from my hogwarts uni dr

(for reference i am andromeda and ted's daughter and tonks- who i call dora- is my older sister, and we live in the muggle english countryside!)

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when i was about 4 and dora was 11, our dad melted crayons and put them in molds and made us crayons in fun shapes cause we both loved drawing/coloring. when he left the room for like 5 minutes she convinced me they were candy and i ate two of them. 🤩

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dora said she wouldnt miss me the day before she left to uni, and 10 year old me got offended. me and mom and dad decorated the kitchen for her "goodbye party" (it was just us three and her favorite breakfast) the night before. i hung up a banner that said "please go" after they fell asleep cause i was upset so they all woke up to that.

dora acted like she didnt care but mom and dad couldn't get us to let go of each other before she left and we sobbed for a good ten minutes straight.

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me and dora have a 2-way mirror and she told me about everything her entire time at hogwarts (especially her crush on bill weasley from first to third year).

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we spent a month and a half every summer with dad's muggle family in ireland. me and dora would spend time with our family swimming at the beaches and riding bikes all around. it was like a month long sleepover.

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when i was like 4 i performed accidental magic while me and dora were playing tag and i apparated onto the roof. my mom had to get a ladder to retrieve me and i cried the whole time so dora sang chiquitita (horribly, might i add) to try and get me to calm down since it was my favorite song at the time.

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we have an assortment of animals (a cat, a dog, i have a cat familiar and an owl, and we have cows).

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we have a greeenhouse and a garden (which is part of why i love herbology.)

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i already know my boggart is myself without a face because me and nymphadora are both metamorphmaguses and she used to tell me if i changed my features too much then i would forget what i looked like. (i slept in her twin bed with her for a month or two before she was able to convince me it wouldn't happen).

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most blacks are named after the stars but mom told me she named my sister nymphadora (meaning "gift of the nymphs") because they new she was a metamorphmagus since birth (she started changing feautures as a newborn). but since i didnt start doing it until later, my name was a blend of her sisters names (isa from narcissa and bel from bellatrix).

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narcissa is my godmother and sirius is my godfather, but because of my parents' life they dont know me and dora exist. my mother tells me and dora stories about her sisters and her cousins. it broke her heart to leave.

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my dad is half mexican and irish and he taught me and dora spanish.

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dora used to help me pick outfits and would have me match my hair to it.

[cryptidclaw]

Hello I was wondering if you had anything in your head about Squirrel and Crow in your universe? Their dynamic, any hcs?  👀

Im taking this as a chance to rant about these two bec i lov them

Its already established that they r mates in this au and their dynamic is very much, flirting via playfully bullying each other and being competitive. A lot of cats who don't know them would think they just have a rivalry going lol

They will often be spotted having play arguments during gatherings, but if any cat says something rude or tries to argue with one of them, the other will come to bat for their mate immediately.

It should also be noted that Crow rarely ever smiles, except when he’s with Squilf and his other friends :)

Crow is on the aroace spectrum and Squilf is the only cat he has ever had true romantic love for, and it flabbergasted him when it happened

They didn't get together until after the journey, and them getting together was made difficult by Crow starting to isolate himself when he realized that they would have to separate into different Orders again. Squlf yelled at him for it until he admitted he loved her hehe

Crow makes Squirrel braided grass adornments which she keeps in her nest  and she wears a grass tail bracelet from him every day.

Squilf also brings Crow flowers for him to wear because she knows he likes the colors of the ones that grow on Thunder territory.

After Squirrel got pregnant with Holly they kind of separated, out of fear that Holly’s true father would be found out, and also out of fear that Falcon and Jay would be found out to be neither of their kits. They still obviously loved each other but they didnt meet up at the border as often, and more so just kept to talking at the gatherings. 

After the Code was changed to allow inter order relationships, and travel and friendship between orders, Crow and Squirrel visit each other constantly, and will often spent half their time in the other’s Order (Crow leaves his apprentices to keep up Healer duties). and its during this time that they have Alder and Spark! 

I am also going to have Hollyleaf survive, so she and her parents get to have a relationship and Holly actually becomes very close to both of them :’)

[kanekoii]

Hi! Can i ask for Zuttomo + aia where reader sees their new outfits and get really flustered at them(separate) bc i love all of their new outfits smmmmmmmmm!

lyra's notes -> ughggh i had sm fun making this I LOVE ZUTTOMO RAAAAAHH and im sorry i didnt know how to write aia's part so she wasn't included :(

pairings -> zuttomo x gn! reader

genre -> scenario, fluff

song -> pleaser - wallows (nothing to do with the fic just what im listening to rn)

warnings -> established relationship, food mentions

PETRA GURIN ->

going to an aquarium in the spring with your girlfriend was already a fun day out, but now it was exponentially more so. she was dressed so adorably that you could hardly take your eyes off her! from her cute and frilly dress to her cream colored jacket to the way her hair was styled, she was absolutely adorable! you ended up with a lot of pictures of her on your phone that day, that's for sure. the best two by far were one of her standing in front of one of the aquarium's tanks with the cute creatures swimming toward her. the picture ended up being a little artistic in nature because her back was facing you in the dimly lit room, but it was absolutely beautiful. the second picture was just her sitting under the spring cherry blossoms and drinking a soda with a happy look in her icy blue eyes.

REIMU ENDOU ->

her new swimsuit is so adorable! your phantom girlfriend looks so, SO adorable playing on the beach with you. her soft, white hair tied behind her in two braids that didn't end until just below her knees was so tempting to play with oh my god. her outfit is very beachy, but nothing stops her from wearing it out in public too for an outing on a warm summer day! even if it's just getting ice cream then going swimming, any time spent with your girlfriend is well worth it, right? she doesn't exactly swim, she more or less just floats on a doughnut raft and talks with you, but imagine doing that late into the night. just floating together and looking at the stars.

ENNA ALOUETTE ->

imagine going apple picking with her on one of those crisp fall days. laughing and making jokes on the car ride to and from there, baking yummy treats and warm foods together. enna will even do a little twirl in her dress, and that's the most fanservice you will probably ever get. imagine making hot chocolate with her and baking desserts, oughh it would be so fucking cute. making apple pie (if you like it, if not then some other kind of dessert) with enna is very chaotic but ends up being cute when she shows her more soft side. donning her glasses and taking off her heavy overcoat, she'll still laugh and joke with you while the both of you collaborate to make a warmly flavored and yummy dessert!

MILLIE PARFAIT ->

playing in the snow with her! imagine taking walks in the mid winter in the light, powdery snow with cups of coffee or other warm drinks in hand. it will quickly devolve into throwing snow at each other. there's not enough yet for a proper snowball fight, so you and millie end up just chucking half-handfuls of snow at each other. your laughs and giggles echo slightly on the cold night her frilly skirt swirls around as the both of you eventually run inside as the snowstorm kicks up in intensity. you'd end up just drinking hot drinks and sitting with her cat and watching movies together.

[saltielena]

ok this post may be lost to time because i cant FUCKING see the text im writing but okay look at me uhhh jrwi disabiliry / mental condition hcs because im normal. actually i should use colors to make sure i can see. itll also TRAP YOU into looking at my hcs

pd. uhhh ashe has POTS. ambulatory wheelchair user i think. will has EDS and spent a lot of time in deadwood fucking destroying her own bones and it is NOT kind to her after death. needs a damn cane. dakota is HOH and as we know like autistic+. and i think. weird thought. vyncent has synesthesia. yeah. it just feels right. also he has hypermobility in his hands. and theyre ALL autistic btw. will also had ocd adhd and bpd. i am liking plurality vynce hcs more and more as time goes on too. dakota has dyslexia and dyscalcula. i cant spell it. fuck me man. uhhh is that all i had to say. OH ashe has c-ptsd and bpd too </3

riptiiiide baby. uhhm. jay has scoliosis and has an extrenal spine prosthetic. its like stegosaurus scales but theyre gold and magicy. jay is Absolutely at LEAST hard of hearing bc she uses guns all day. jays also a little colorblind. and has dyslexia too. chip obviously has phantom pain from his pinky. chip cant recognize faces that well i forgot what its called but he does have that. hes also pretty nearsighted. chip needs a cane but never uses it SOMEONE get him some tension wraps please. compression is NEEDED on this boy. gill has several balance issues that didnt present when he was undersea because of the obvious differences in gravity. gill hs tics i think.. tourettes boy… clearly autism i mean look at him. but also bpd. he definitely has varying muscle spasms hes just ignored his whole fucking life too. and yeah theyre all autistic yada yada yada

blood in the bayouu baby. blood in the bayou more like what thE FUCK kian stone has very thin blood. and autism and adhd but the weed calms her. maybe did too i havent decided. rand absolutely has ocd do not even try me and add and autism sorry theyre all audhd maybe not rolan hes too weird. rolan has ocd too and keeps every thought in his head in his own brain no matter what it is . i dont know if thats a thing but it is in this case okay. kians like half blind at this point mostly because she looked at the sun as a kid but also because her genes decided to fuck round and find out. rolan has lowkey audio processing issues fr… i dont actually have too many hcs in terms of bitb bc its so little content :(( make me sad

hokay its apotheosis time now look me in the eyes look at me look at me did/osdd rumi. umm . also bpd. peter.. w crutches.. makes me happy. no idea if i can make a warforged have phantom pain but i feel like its only fair to m babygirl thanny. love him.. peters clearly autistic.. also he has aphantasia because i SAID SO!!! (i have that)

ok i think my rant is over. umm. i cant wait for vampires to come out i cant wait i cant wait!!!!

[wy-bi-e]

i always see that one thing where its like oh one day we'll fall in love again and i will forget everything ive known and i just dont get it. i want them to fall in love with me again. one more time and never fall out again. but i want them to remember my favorite color and favorite movie and all the stupid names i go by and i want to remember their favorite color ( prussian blue ) and their full name ( ) and favorite clothes to wear ( they hate jeans. they wear sweaters in the winter, tanktops in the summer, and if they can theyll wear no shirt. they dress in earthy tones most of the time. )  i want to remember all these things if i ever fall out of love with them. i have been in love with them since christmas day 2020. we spent the whole day together and i even talked to my grandad about them. i told my grandad they were my "best friend", and they make me happy. all we did was sit on call while i colored with my markers and they played video games. we stayed up all night and watched half of the first season of teotfw. for the past nine years i had never had a normal christmas without crying for some reason. they gave me a normal christmas. thats not why i knew i was in love with them that day.  i was in love with them that day because i knew i didnt want that day to end. i never wanted to stop hanging out with them. i wanted it to stay that day forever so i could spend forever with them. i knew that i was in love with them and i want that to stay the day i fell in love with them. i want to be able to say ive been in love with them for two years and i have. it just feels shameful to say. it feels like i am being shamed everytime i say it to anyone. when i say it to my best friend. when i say it to the friend we used to share. when i say it to them. i have never felt more shame in admitting being in love. especially by the one it is about. i am in love with them and i have never had a more freeing yet disgusting experience. i wish i could tell my bestfriend about them and not be yelled at about how bad they are for me. i wish my best friend would understand they only had my side of the story, not theirs. its unfair to them. i will forever always feel bad telling my best friend everything. they are not a bad person. they are the one person i could forever be in love with. i am in love with how funny they are. with how amazing of a smile they have. with their beautiful eyes. their eyes are the most wonderful thing ive seen. in photos they remind me of the new moon. too dark to see, so pretty to want. so big and so full of life. i fall in love with them a bit more every time. i want to continue to fall in love with them more every day. every time. i will forever be in love with you.

november 28th, 2022

[sylviaplathenthusiast]

heyo!!

hope you're having a beautiful day <3

(i forgot to add the blue heart last time T.T)

it’s a shame to eat blackberries in the dark,

but that’s exactly what I’m up to when a man

startles down the street screaming, The fourth

dimension is not time! He makes me feel stupid

and it’s hard to sleep knowing so little

about everything, so I enroll in a night class

where I learn the universe is an arrow

without end and it asks only one question:

How dare you? I recite it in bed, How dare

you? How dare you? But still I can’t find sleep.

So I go out where winter is and roll

around in the snow until a sharp rock

meets the vulnerable plush of my belly.

A little blood. Hunched over, I must look

like I’m hiding something I don’t want to share.

And I suppose that’s true—the sharp,

the warm wet. The color is half the pain. Why

would anyone else want to see? How dare they?

(because the color is half the taste by paige lewis)

- phthalo green💙

hii! i was not having a beautiful day yesterday so i didnt reply, sorry about that, all better now

All the parties you spent

watching the room

from a balcony

where someone joined you

to smoke then returned.

And how it turns out no one

had the childhood they wanted,

and how they'd tell you this

a little drunk, a little slant

in less time than it took

to finish a cigarette

because sad things

can't be explained.

Behind the glass and inside,

all your friends buzzed.

You could feel the shape

of their voices. You could

tell from their eyes they were

in some other place. 1999

or 2008 or last June.

Of course, it's important

to go to parties. To make

life a dress or a drink

or suede shoes someone wears

in the rain. On the way home,

in the car back, the night sky

played its old tricks. The stars

arranged themselves quietly.

The person you thought of drove

under them. Away from the party,

(just like you) into the years

(the years by alex dimitrov)

[audible--silence]

Words

When people say to me “what about your future?” I tell them thats exactly who im doing all this for

“All of the best things in my life have occurred when things in my life didn’t go to plan”

“Only thing that changed in eight years is haircuts and excuses”

I want everyone to ask and care but i dont want to talk about it either

Failed with flying colors

Home feels like lame familiarity

“You’ve gotta be my stability!”

“I cant cos im on a BAR STOOL”

The years are passing me by faster than I care to admit.

Turns out making good use of your 20s doesn’t do an awful lot to slow them down.

I’m living a life I thought I wanted and still I feel a divide between what I thought I wanted and how I thought I would feel. Maybe this isn’t all that I hoped it would be. Maybe im not alive enough to make it feel good enough. Maybe just prioritizing fun isnt gonna cut it. But definitely prioritizing stability wont.

Maybe we just don’t have enough years on this earth and space in our brains to feel like we can really live anything to completion.

All I know right now is that on this warm, still summers evening, with a beautiful light in the sky, on a night I should be thoroughly captivated by, i feel unamused and alone.

I’ve seen this before.

I’m stuck with myself in a place i know all too well and not a great many people left to meet

“I have one foot in the door and the other going in a direction i dont quite know yet”

“If you can read this, i hope you have health insurance”

Never have i ever been in a rush to go to sñeep before

19 year old w 5 years practice

I dont believe in being nice i believe in being kind

“Well, money where your mouth is? I liked you.���

“Yeah but I’ve changed since i said that”

Well where too from here

Still tiptoeing around and dancing away

Trying to see where we stand in each other’s lives

Am i all wrong?

Did i read too far into all the songs in the playlist?

Or all the stories we told each other?

All the memories we shared?

And all the fun we made.

How about all the time we spent on each other or all the thoughts spent?

All the dreams made and all the hopes held.

All that you said that i read into, cannot be a mistake. You’re too clever for that. Did you want me to say it? Were you waiting for it? Did you want it? You sure werent surprised by it.

God i hope i didnt ruin it.

Maybe youre right

Maybe finding your person is long term task

Maybe all those journal entries, nights drinking together and nights thinking of you were to hit a realization.

Maybe the realization is that i need therapy

Maybe its that we’re not compatible

Maybe we need more time.

Either way, i know im here for it

Way too much love for the woman who raosed me and her never ending kindness and innocence despite the shit she’s had to deal with. Somehow coupled with a complete lack pf jealousy.

Im quite sick of the world

Im not very fond of myself in it either

I think every minute of every day what am i doing here? Why am i here?

I dont feel comfortable in myself

I dont feel confident in myself

I dont like the state of the world when i observe it

I feel powerless to change it

I feel like a fool for never having tried

I tell myself all the things my dear sweet friends would tell me in this situation

I know that im giving myself too much grace

Im not a dipshit

But i made myself into one

And ill die that way. Whenever I get too sick of it

What a damn shame it is to know a good moments passed you.

To have only the half remembered memories because you didn’t realize at the time that this would be a moment you’d want to think about forever.

I’ve left little pieces of my heart across the globe. From Oaxaca to West Aus to New York to Ningaloo, traces of my soul can be found sprinkled in pockets around taco stands, strangers vans and gorgeous country under shining stars.

I can never get them back.

Nor do I want them.

But I fear ill never approach life in one place with the same zest and enthusiasm as I used to.

A wise man once said it’s important to know when you’re living in a moment you’ll want to remember. I think it’s important to know when you’re shaving a piece of your heart and leaving it somewhere with someone as well

I don’t tend to think of it as “learning about myself” anymore. I think after a few seasons worth of reinventing myself, it feels a little bit more like reinventing the next iteration of myself. A both tiring and exciting endeavor indeed.

“Do you miss NY”

“Mmmmm sometimes “

What a fkn lie. Every day, most hours, in truth

I dont feel like myself

The aussie accent

The blokey chat

The blending in

None of its me, really.

I need stress to stay awake despite wht its doing to me

Do i want to look at the city on my drive in and think “hell yeah” or”ahhhhhh fuck”

Either is an investment of time n energy and i have to pick

You can observe in many colonized countries today what i see in myself.

When you take away peoples connection to identity, language, customs and place, they will frequently stumble around somewhat aimlessly with a penchant for extra curriculars

“Its only racist if im not funny”

“Theres something to be said about a life well fucked around “

[bishiglomper]

We had a nice day at the party thing. We had pulled pork sammiches, homemade potato salad, baked beans, tons of snickerdoodles 👀 watermelon. I brought my espresso machine and tea and some flavored syrups. I got to make a stranger a cup of coffee.

My friends didnt show, only Sissy's one friend with the 3 littles did. But 2 moms with kids on the spectrum showed up for nephew. One was apparently an overthinker and wanted to make a good impression so they bought 2 gifts for him that they could all play together. O: He liked those kids. One plays the same game he does so he'll have an online/offline buddy! Woo!

The other mom my sister doesnt like. Shes nice but shes dumb and self centered and a bad mom. We know of her because PD posted a notice once about a lost toddler. It was hers. He IS a wanderer but... 👀💦

She took this kid in to go potty and promptly left the building. He was super tiny but i think he was 4?? 5? He came out with his pants around his ankles asking for help. 😭 So i helped him pull his pants up. Made sure he was cool with that first. Because bodily autonomy. 👌 Speaking of which

And this mom, before she left, she was like "go give loves" and he comes around to hug me. Sort of. He placed his body next to mine obediently without looking at me. I did wrap and arm around him and gave him pats and an "aww, thank you"

But dude, why are you making your small child hug strangers. Like yeah, i helped him pull his pants up but you dont need to send him in for physical affection from someone he literally doesnt know 😤

The fam played CAH and Yahzee. And then Sissy and I colored for a bit. It was nice. Felt like camping, but if we spent the day inside the air conditioned rent-a-building. Which is pretty much what we did. Kids played outside a lot. Weather said it was 80 but it felt really nice out. It was a bit overcast and had a breeze so it was beautiful.

We were there from like 10am to 10:30pm. Long-ass day. I was hurty and uncomfortable for half of it. Tylenol, muscle relaxants and lorazapam helped keep me from getting too miserable. Almost resorted to tramadol but didnt.. Right now im just a little fibro achey and I move like a turtle with the chills 😐 Very slow and scrunched up.

The niece couldn't be bothered to spend any time with us even though its because of her we blew $150 on a building for a day for nothing. Good thing her friends didnt show up. I think my sister gave them a heads up..

Ohhhhh and Bro cut me and nephew's hair while we were there. We did it outside for ease of (not)clean up. We left the hair in the grass thinking maybe birds would appreciate the nesting material

My hair was maybe midback. Its to my shoulders now. But the first thing i always do when i get it cut shorter is 1, make sure i can still put it in a ponytail, and 2, make myself 2 pigtails because it makes me feel cute. 😁

And i perpetually wear bandanas now so two pigtails sticking out from under the "ears" on the bandana are just a bonus. My sister really liked that. It probably doesn't help my image age-wise though. 😂